the ramblings of a madman

7/31/2019 The Ramblings of a Madman

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The Ramblings

Of

A Madman.

By James Bloomfield


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The Ramblings

Of

A Madman.

By James Bloomfield.

Poetry,

Rhymes, & Lyrics.

Copyright. The Ramblings Of A Madman By James Bloomfield 2008


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Dedicated to my son Michael

Who I love very much,

You are my reason for everything.


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Contents.

1. Too Many Thoughts Too Many Dreams.

2. While He Was Waiting.3. Cut The Chains Forever.

4. No Purpose.

5. What Is This Place Ive Come To?

6. Whistling Away.

7. Take It From Me.

8. Save The Day.

9. Because I Cant Let Go.

10. The Lonely One.

11. Alone Again.

12. Waterfall Of Life

13. In Need Of A Friend.

14. Michael.

15. Sad Skies Of Grey.

16. Going Home.

17. Sweet Lady.

18. Sorry.

19. To Be My Own.

20. My Prison Cell.

21. Falling.22. The Hardest Thing.


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23. How Would You Feel.

24. Cold As A Century.

25. Parcel Of Lies.

26. Raining Love.27. Soul Searching.

28.My Garden.

29. The Faded One.

30. Subdued.

31. Acid

32. Running Away.

33. Dropping Off The Face Of The Earth.

34. Addictions.

35. Scared.

36. The Drawing Of A New Day.

37. Down With You.

38. Velvet Top.

39. Nothing To Me.

40. This Life.

41. Without You.

42. Who To Call.

43. Silence.

44. Voices Within.

45. Set Me Free.46. Nothing More To say.

47. Depression.

48. The Real You.


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1. To Many Thoughts To Many Dreams.

Sitting by the side of the road to nowhere,

Where was I headed anyway?

In the past Ive been so lonely,

So one forgets how one should pray,I dont believe that anybodys done me wrong,

And I cant conceive just how Ive managed to carry on.

If I could stop these tears from falling,

Id try to make things right with you,

And maybe when the morning comes we could pretend lifes oh so new,

I dont believe that you could carry a heart of stone,

Have you any thought of what its like to be alone.

To many thoughts, to many dreams,To many golden hearts been broken so it seems,

To many years of being starved from life,

Deep down inside you know its right.

I see a new day dawning,

I see the sunlight shining through,

I didnt give no warning,

But this was something that I had to do,

I dont believe that you gave it your all,I just cant take this kind of life no more.

To many thoughts, to many dreams,

Where there is love thats shining bright Ill let it in,

These dreams of mine are coming true

Oh yes indeed,

To many thoughts, to many dreams.


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2. While He Was Waiting.

Did you ever give a damn about the man who spent his life waiting?

It didnt matter who youre with or what you did he kept waiting,

There were times that were good and there were times that he should have stopped

waiting,

But through the thick and the thin and all the hard times for him he kept waiting,

Baby we cant let this passion die,

You know weve got to keep the dream alive,

Dont ever let it slip away,

Im talking bout my passion,

My passion deep inside.

And now this gifted young man was doing all that he could while he was waiting,

But he never understood all the things that he should,

He stood waiting,

Well this man nearly died as his passion inside was kept waiting,

Just like the love for a child this young man he

grew wild,

and now;

hes no-longer waiting.


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3. Cut The Chains Forever.

Never cared for what they said,

They all spoke like I was dead,

Taming my insanity,

Ive cut the chains forever.

Somethings changing me I know,

Living this life I cant let go,

Ive cut the chains forever.


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4. No Purpose.

Sitting on a park bench watching the town clock,

Watching life as it passes by,

Twenty to two says the town clock.

The bus driver on Wilton fourteen is long faced and bored,

Each motorist in a panic,

All hurrying because they should.

What is one to do?

With no purpose for the now,

Just keep filling in the pages the best that one knows how.


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5. What Is This Place Ive Come To?

All Alone,

All by myself,

Surrounded by a world of uncertainty,

What is this place Ive come to?

All the joy, the sadness and the hurt Ive ever known,

All rolled into one,

Not being able to separate the truth from the lies,


Wanting to let go but never knowing quite how to express myself,

Learning to know myself is pain.

Leaving my familiar surroundings to escape the illusion,

Ive discovered the illusion is me,

Learning to know myself is pain.

I blocked out the real me for far too long,

And now it hurts to rediscover,


Finding myself,

Learning to love myself,

these things I must do,

Before I can love another.


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6. Whistling away.

Ive seen dark cold nights and the full winters rage,

I dont even know why I stay in this place,

But I stop.

And whistle away.

I stop and think of a place Id like to be,

And who would be there to keep me company,

But After a while and to my surprise,I just stop.

And keep whistling away.


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7. Take It From Me.

Its cold and dark where I am now,No-one can touch me,

The silence tearing me apart,

Controls my body,

Release the burden that I have and take it from me.

I can not move so I just lie here,

In my body,

The life is draining from my eyes,

Won't someone Stop me,

A losing battle almost won,

Just take it from me.

The blade that comforts me,

I know,

Is old and rusted,

But it dont matter anymore,

Once Ive departed,

Ill leave this place,

Ill hurt no more,Just take it from me.


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8. Save the day.

Didnt quite see the feeling surrounding you,

All those things that you told me are coming true,

Well I dont need a reason for sending you flowers,

All the coffee we drank kept us up for hours,

I can see that you need me theres no doubt about it,

Living unhappy is not for you.

And the times that you fear that your all alone,

I will always be there to keep you safe and warm,

I can see your hearts bleeding,

I just want to hold you,Give you a life that youve never known.

Now Im coming out of nowhere to save the day,

Yes Im coming out of nowhere to save the day,

Im coming out of nowhere to save the day just to be with you.


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9. Because I Cant Let Go.

Been looking for the answers all my life,

And the thing Ive come to know,

Is that I never hurt anybody else but me,

Because I cant let go.

Im feeling really tired and all worn out,

Trapped inside myself,

Ive got to break a window so I can breathe,

But I won't,

Because I cant let go.

Ive got no-one else to turn to,

Ive got to make it on my own,

Whats this place Ive come to?

I'm lost

Because I can't let go.


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10. The Lonely One.

Sleeping in a bed of lies,

Im hypnotized,

I think Im going Crazy.

I only wish that I could sail away,

Ive seen what Ive become,

Head Shaking from side to side,

I look to the sun and all I see is me,

The lonely one.


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11. Alone Again.

Here again all alone back in a world of uncertainty,

Moving from place to place,

Lost without stability,

Im going crazy from within,

My soul is screaming hoping to be freed,

Scared from not knowing what tomorrow brings,

The despair I feel consumes me.


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12. Waterfall Of Life.

Im walking on a bed of roses,

Ive got nature coming back to me,

I see the sunset on rainy days,

Mother nature calls to me,

The pita pata whispers gently to my brain.

Been travelling round for a long, long time,

But Im still here and its all the same,

Dont feel the need for anything,

My world is spinning.

For everything there is a sacrifice,You make your choice never thinking twice,

I will be here to catch you when you fall,

Can you feel it?

(Do you feel just like me?)

Can you believe it?

(All the uncertainty?)

Ive got to see it,

All the colours turning to gold,

But Ill never fly it on my own.

Its to late for many,

But its not to late for you,

Enjoy the party Just dont be a fool.


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13. In Need Of A Friend.

Every time I close my eyes,

I think of you and I realise Im lonely,

Ive been walking down an empty street,

Looking for someone to meet,

But I still see your smile,

I see the look in your eyes.

Oh Im in need of a friend.

What Id give for one more chance,

To make a mends I reach out my hands,

I want to be with you,

To live my life without you now,

Seems so wrong and I dont know how I ever did before,

Ive got this feeling inside.

Oh Im in need of a friend.


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14. Michael.

Been wishing you a good night sleep, since the day that you were born.

Nothing in this world can change how you make me feel in side,

You are the purest form of love Ill ever know,

Michael,

I love you so.

The first time that I saw your face, tears fell from my eyes.

How I long to hold you in my arms.

One day we will be together,

Well do things,You and I.

Michael,

I love you so.

I love you so.


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15. Sad Skies Of Grey.

Sad skies of grey,

Blows those blues away.

Ice cold hardened heart,

Will I ever be the same.No-one left to blame.

Thinking of you,

What am I to do?

What am I to do?

I just wanted to tell you,

That I always loved you baby.

But now your on the road you chose,

All my secrets no-one knows.

Did it even mean a thing?Or was it just another crazy dream.

Thinking of you,

What am I to do?

What am I to do?


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16. Going Home.

Guess I should have realized the consequence involved.

Acting like a hero,A young man growing old.

Ive got to find the answer, but I guess that Ive been told.

My lifes full of misery and now Im all alone.

Im in a place where you cant find me,

And Im out here by myself.

Ive got to find my treasure,

Dont want nobody else.

I feel the rain pouring over me and I hope it goes away.

Ive got a cultivated occupation rising through the storm.

And Im running from the emptiness to the place where I belong.

I feel the sunshine shining over me,

And I hope its here to stay.


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17. Sweet Lady.

I miss you like crazy,

Got to see you my baby,

I would do anything just to feel your touch,

I would give anything because it means so much,

Sweet lady,My baby.

What if,

Just maybe.

I was to kiss you,

Sweet lady.

Would you turn your head and back away,

Would it ever happen anyway.

Sweet lady,

My baby.

Got to get a grip cause Im losing control,

You know just how I feel so baby someday,

Will you carry me to the other side.

Show me what love is, make me feel alive,

I feel a gentle breeze every time you sigh,

Will you carry me to the other side.

Now that the war is over,Id like to be your Casanova.

I would give my love to only you,

Make you smile when your feeling blue.

Sweet lady,

My baby.


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18. Sorry.

Never ever took the time to appreciate you,

And now your gone Ive realized were actually through,

Been doing some thinking for an hour or two,

But oh my darling ,I know I still love you.

With all the pain I feel it cant possibly end,

Oh sweet darling I can see why you went.Words once were spoken but never again,

Oh cant you see that Im in need of a friend.

Oh baby now,

How Can we make up?

I cant stand the break up.

Summertime is coming,

Yeah I need your loving.

Nothing in this world could ever change what Ive done.

Theres no escaping so I might as well not run.

I thought love was a game and I could be number one,

But without your loving, love just aint no more fun.

Oh baby now.

How Can we make up?

I cant stand the break up.

Summertime is coming,Yeah I need your loving.

Cant you see Im trying to make it on my own,

Living each day as it comes along.

Oh sweet baby I know that I was wrong.

One more chance babe is all I want.


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19. To Be My Own.

I remember the time when the legions called me,

Didnt matter what Id do

The seasons had changed like the people before me,

Didnt matter what Id do

I stone myself just to follow you.

When there is no-one else I will call on you.

To be my own I must run away.


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20. My Prison Cell.

An empty soul that can not find,

Any hope or peace of mind,

Empty thoughts are here to stay,

Myself imprisoned what to say,

Haunted dreams of years gone by,

I ask from you the right to die,

This blinding darkness that knows no shame,

It calls to me to end this game.


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21. Falling.

Somethings telling me that nothing matters anymore.

I spread my wings and try to fly,

but nothings happening,

And now Im falling.

The mystery, it comes to me.

Colours changing all around,

I'm tripping out, it's the longest day,

But nothings happening,

And now Im falling.


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22. The Hardest Thing.

They say breaking up is the hardest thing to do,

But I dont feel for you anymore.

Im so tired of being in love,

So I believe in love no more.

Love is not my highway,

Its more like disappointment sent to try me,

So from this moment I cast it away.

I believe in love no more.


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23. How would you feel.

Would you cry if I said goodbye, and that I was leaving you tomorrow,

And would it be so bad if I just walked away and didnt talk at all.

Of all the things Ive figured out,

I never saw this coming.

So now things have changed,

And your with someone new,

Its me this knife is cutting.


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24. Cold As A Century.

Cry, cry all you like,

Run, when hunger strikes,

Take your brothers life,

Feed, when the time is right.

Cold as a century

All the scriptures state that life dictates,Evil is a hunger built of fear and hate.

The time of the gathering is drawing near,

Peace, love and happiness shall all but disappear.


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25. Parcel of lies.

I dont exactly know how I feel inside,

With mixed emotions whos to say?

A new desire but now broken pride,

You took the parcel of lies.

You thought of me as the antichrist,

But say it feels good all the same.

You say you want me yet you doubt me,

I feel the burning flames.

If you want me you can have me,

But dont talk crazy to my mind,

Theres no commitment just be happy,

Or you will see my fire die.

With no real effort I seduced you,

I gave you a key to my home,

A part time lover isnt heaven,

But it sure beats being alone.


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26. Raining love.

I remember the first time that I saw you smile.

You gave back to me, my heart for a while.

Never cared for much but I like what I see in you

My love is raining,

Like all good things there must be an end,

And I thank God that we can still be friends.

But now your gone I feel my hearts been torn in two.

Now my love is raining,Over you.


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27. Soul Searching.

Sitting in the corner of his lonely dungeon room,

Waiting for his sentence,

What was this worried soul to do?Looking deep inside,

Not knowing what hed find,

Sifting through the ashes of a life hed left behind.

Soul searching,

Im gonna get it right this time.

Soul searching,

Time to get my life back on line.

No more hurting,

Cause I know this much is true,

Im soul searching through and through.

Tried to find a reason, while I was doing time,

Planning my escape, was what I had in mind.

At times Ive felt so empty,

But now I know the time is right.

The answer to my problems is buried deep inside.


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28. My Garden.

You spoke of hearts broken,

Never could believe you anyway.

Misguided decisions,

Mess you up and lead your mind astray.

Lets focus,

What is this?

Spread your lies expecting me to know.

Lets walk through my garden and watch the birds as they fly away.

Oh women listen to me,

You must learn to forget yourself.Im feeling rather horny,

Since we broke up theres been no-one else.

These chains can not be broken,

I cut my wrists just to free myself.

Just like the serpent master,

Youve cast your spell and I must break your power.


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29. The Faded One.

I looked into the night time sky,

But my body was only dreaming.

I tell myself what I cant deny,

And free my mind when my soul is screaming.

What will I be when the night is done?

What will I be when the morning has come?

As I am me,

I have become,

From young to old,The faded one.


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30. Subdued.

I stumble to the ground,

I can feel you all around.

Your haunting eyes see right through me.

A slave to my own iniquity,

I wallow in the sand,

Your haunting eyes they see right through me.

My mind is blind,

My nerves must be subdued,


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31. Acid.

Man I wish that I could sleep,

Never new my eyes could weep,

Funny thoughts within my head,

Speeding bullets lace and led.

Picking daisies in a field,

Teaching all the boys and girls,

How to make love everyday,

Supple dew marks window pane.

You never gave a thought for me,

Christened baby from the sea.

The sound of free love everywhere,

Spreading disease but I dont care.


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32. Running Away.

Do you like what you see?

My head is aching and it won't go away.

A table for three,

Meant for two baby just you and me.

I dont know why Im running away,I dont know where Im running to,

I dont know why Im running away,

Baby dont let me stray.

I never thought,

What once was beautiful could be so untrue.

I should have sought,

The answers clearly,

Didnt know what to do.


I dont know where Im running to,



I cherish the love,

But now its over I dont need you baby.

I look to the stars,

To free my mind Ill try to live again.


I dont know where Im running to,




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33. Dropping Off The Face Of The Earth.

Whats been going on round here?Wish theyd all just disappear.

Somethings bugging me,

My eyes too blind to see,

Im watching shadows dropping off the face of the earth.

When does the sadness go away?

It holds me down in misery.

Someones hurting me,

My minds too numb to breathe,

Im hoping that I fall off the face of the earth.

Im slipping into the unknown,

What lies ahead I cant be sure.

I hope one day Ill see just what Im meant to be,

But as for now, Im riding on the edge of the earth.


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34. Addictions.

As I sit here, illusions surround me.

All my brain can do is worry me.I wipe the blood sweat from my brow,

They rule my life,

And I can not see quite how.

Addictions,

When the game is up

And you need the stuff.

Cant do without and when your time is up,

Addictions you cant get enough.

As I adhere,

My world crumbles in around me.

I just need a cure to set me free.

Addictions,

When the game is up

And you need the stuff.

Cant do without and when your time is up,

Addictions you cant get enough.


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35. Scared.

Ive lost my way and Im freaking out Im falling.

Got to find the truth no matter what Im doing.The dream has been destroyed because of what people are saying.

Got to find some joy, some consolation.

The night has been too long and Im stuck in this nightmare,

Creature of the night, cant you see that I am Scared,

So scared.

Ive lost my mind,

And I cant see how,

Theyre calling.Dont know who I am or where Im heading.

The night has been too long and I dont feel like sleeping,

The nightmare is cold and I hate when Im dreaming.

The night has been too long and Im stuck in this nightmare,

Creature of the night, cant you see that I am Scared,

So scared.


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36. The Drawing Of A New Day.

Its a brand new morning,

The suns on its way,

Meditate on the drawing of a new day.

Spirits start to fly,

And the temperature is rising,

I will meditate,

On the drawing of a new day.


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37. Down With You.

Wake the morning,

Got no warning,

Got the sun in my eyes.

Take the wave home,

Fill it up with,

All that you want from me,

Yeah.

Attack the one that,

Flees the burden,A violent thought is all Im thinking.

Wishing we could fly like the birds,

Fix the woman who holds us down.

Let it on down.

Attack the one that,

Flees the burden,

A violent thought is all Im thinking.

Wishing we could fly like the birds,

Fixing all that try to bring us down,

Let it on down,

Down with you!


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38. Velvet Top.

Got a light inside my head,

Wishing we could all be dead,

Im feeling kind of sick,

Im breaking bit by bit.

Ive heard it all before,

Been listening for the call,

Im sick of all this shit,

Im breaking bit by bit.

Lay with you,Velvet Top.

Silent scream, Ive heard the lot.

Lay with you,

Velvet Top,

Shed my skin,

Its time to rot.


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39. Nothing to me.

You thought I was your friend,

But you turned away.You thought you loved me,

But what a bad mistake.

I didnt want to know,

I didnt really care,

Now all my friends are gone,

I might as well be dead.

Cause you mean nothing to me my friend.

Theres no beginning but there will be an end.

Words once were spoken but never again.Cause you mean nothing to me,

My friend.


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40. This Life.

Been talking to Mary but its all the same.

Dancing with fairies takes my mind astray.

I think Ill just play the game,

No Im not running away.

This is whats left of me and Id like to say,

This life is bugging me!

This life is bugging me,

I feel the ecstasy,

Been taking a trip down memory lane.

This life is bugging me ,


Im taking a trip down memory lane.

Walking down the street with the wind in my hair.

Same old thing everyday but I dont care.

And now I just play the game,

Im tired of running away.

This is whats left of me and Id like to say,

This life is bugging me!


I feel the ecstasy,

Been taking a trip down memory lane.

This life is bugging me ,This life is bugging me ,

Im taking a trip down memory lane.


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41. Without You.

No-one told me what this life was all about,

But I figured it out the hard way,

Every year that passes by might hide the shame that I have known,

But I have grown.

Ill do nothing,

Ill do nothing,

Ill do nothing without you.

Ive tried so hard to find the man inside of me,

Through everything you still hold me.You never judged me for the things that I have done in my life,

I only ask you forgive me.

Ill do nothing ,

Ill do nothing ,

Ill do nothing ,

Ill do nothing without you.


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42. Who To Call.

I really dont know why

Your sitting there alone,

Havent you got anybody you can call?

Caught up in the crossfire,

This wound is getting old.

Havent you got anybody you can call?

Well you dont need a reason,

Theres no need to be this way,

If you stop breathing,

You may never get the chance.

To not be lonely,You dont want to be lonely,

Im so lonely,

Somebody help me.


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43. Silence.

Ive tried tapping in to the depths of hell,

But all I could hear was silence.

Ive tried calling out to your so called almighty,

And all I could hear was silence.

They say unless you confess and repent of your sins your soul shall be doomed for the

grave.

So if either is real,

Tell me what is the deal,And to whom will you be a slave?


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44. Voices Within.

Ive got to escape from these padded walls,Ive got to escape from the pain,

Ive got to kill the force thats driving me to a point where Im insane.

Ive got demons feasting well in me,

Ive got voices within my brain.

The force that once was driving me,

Has now made me insane.


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45. Set Me Free.

My head is heavy,

My heart is Broken,

Dont know what happened,

Love let me be.

Its never easy,

Were you not happy,

I tried everything I could,

And here I go again.

I took a journey,

And Im still paying,

You stole from me my heart,

When will this journey end.

Drink from the bottle,

To drown my sorrows,

The Pain is still inside my head,

And here I go again.


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46. Nothing More To Say.

A brand new day,

It all remains the same.

(Nothing more to say,)

Not happy with me,

Ive got no one else to blame,

(Nothing more to say,)

Every time I see Your face,

I feel happiness again,

(Theres nothing more to say,)

Never new how it came to this,

But I guess;

(Theres nothing more to say.)


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47. Depression.

Each day I withdraw deeper inside myself,

The emptiness I feel consumes me,

Not able to cope with reality or the pain,I have become a pawn in a demonic game.

My soul,

Stirring from within,

My flesh,

Starting to shake,

My blood,

Boils with uncertainty,

My heart is anxious.

My pulse can be heard through the deafness of the walls,

Frustration screams my name,

Wanting to believe in humanity,

But I know itll never change.


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48. The Real You.

Abandoned and disillusioned,

Afraid of whats to come,

Trapped in a reoccurring dream,

What has one become.

Crying out for love,

Not finding what you crave,

Hurting throughout the sands of time,

Like a gift thats never made.

I know you feel like your all alone,

But one thing I know is true,

Im here for you forever more ,

Because I see the real you.

the ramblings of a madman

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