the foreign tsarina by jennifer packer

8/13/2019 The Foreign Tsarina by Jennifer Packer

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Q I N H D ] N E G J Q \ B ] E J B


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Qd fy fuf, aba, fy mrdtinr

]dmnrt bja sestnr-ej-`bw Brebjb


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O n j j e h n r [ b l c n r

Q I N H D ] N E G J Q \ B ] E J B


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Ldpyregit Onjjehnr [blcnr

Qin regit dh Onjjehnr [blcnr td mn eanjtehena bs butidr dh ties wdrc

ibs mnnj bssnrtna my inr ej blldrabjln weti snltedj 77 bja 7 dh

tin Ldpyregit, !nsegjs bja [btnjts Blt "#$

B`` regits rnsnr%na$ &d pbrt dh ties pumèlbtedj fby mn rnprdaulna,

stdrna ej b rntren%b` systnf, dr trbjsfettna ej bjy hdrf dr my bjy

fnbjs, n`nltrdjel, fnlibjelb , pidtdldpyejg, rnldraejg, dr

dtinrwesn, wetidut tin predr pnrfessedj dh tin pumèsinrs$

Bjy pnrsdj wid ldffets bjy ujbutidre'na blt ej rn`btedj td ties

pumèlbtedj fby mn èbm`n td lrefejb` prdsnlutedj bja le%e` l`befshdr abfbgns$

B L([ lbtb`dgun rnldra hdr ties tet`n es b%be`bm`n hrdf tin )retesi

*emrbry$

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;erst [umèsina 2=/" Lbjbab +8ubrn

Lbjbry ibrh

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[rejtna bja mduja ej 5rnbt )retbej


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\t. [ntnrsmurg, ]usseb

Qin s`negi wbs se? %nrsts hrdf tin pb`bln bja wiespnrejg rbpea`y

d%nr tin hrnsi`y hb``nj sjdw$ !nèlbtn eln lrystb`s sprbyna ejtd tin

ber, gèjtejg ej tin suj bja hb`èjg bs eh tiny wnrn tin aust dh

aebfdjas$ B`djg tin hrd'nj &n%b ]e%nr, n`ngbjt idusns bja 8uent

lbjb`s anlne%na tin nyn ejtd tiejcejg ties lety mn`djgna td (tb`y drBustreb$ 9è'bmnti prdua`y blcjdw`nagna td inr ldfpbjedj ties

lety mn`djgna td ]usseb bja td inr hbtinr, [ntnr tin 5rnbt$

3+d$$$06 prnssna inr ldfpbjedj, b fbj dh weanjejg gerti bja

sidrtejg dh èhn eh 9è'bmnti rnhusna td blcjdw`nagn tin lurrnjt

abjgnr$ :n n?pn``na b `brgn gbsp dh hrustrbtedj mnhdrn ldjtejuejg

ies prdtnst$ 3Qin gubras ib%n dranrs td fd%n td 1dsldw, fy brrnst

wbrrbjt es sddj td mn segjna bja ydu sib`` nja ydur abys ej b

jujjnry surrdujana my tin hregea, tin pruaesi bja tin %ertudus$;drge%n fn, mut tinsn 8ubètens ib%n b`wbys mnnj `blcejg ej ydur

jbturn$ 4du sib`` surn`y pnresi ej fesnry$6

3*nstdl8,6 spdcn tin prejlnss td inr dà hrenja$ 3(h fy we`` iba

mnnj td rnegj, ( wduà ib%n sne'na et$6 Qin tnbrs gbtinrna ej inr

nyns$ 34nt ( stbja bllusna rngbra`nss dh truti$ Qin 9fprnss hdrlns

fy ibja, ynt sib`` 5da hdrge%n tin m`dda tibt we`` mn spe`t ej fy

jbfn06

3[rejlnss, `nbanrsiep rn8uerns m`ddaK pnribps et we`` mn ydurs6in sidutna ej hrustrbtedj$

3(t es sd ( lbjjdt p`nba ejjdlnjln, sin we`` ste`` efbgejn gue`t$

4nt dur tefn td p`dt es hbaejg bja wn sib`` surn`y mn lbugit bja put

dj b jddsn$6 9è'bmnti mngbj td lry, tin ldà weja hrd'n inr tnbrs

bja sin bppnbrna td *nstdl8 bs b fbrm`n mnbuty$

3Qin brfy we`` anhnja ydur èhn$6

3Qiny lbjjdt anhnja fy sdu`,6 sin sdmmna$ 3Qin furanr dh fy

ldusej bja inr sdj sib`` ldjanfj fn ej 5da6s `d%n$63Qies nfpern mn`djgs td ydur jbfn$ 5da grbjtna et, :es we`` es

cjdwj td us6 *nstdl8 tddc tin dppdrtujety td %deln ies p`bj$ 3(

sib`` ejhdrf +iu%b`d% bja Mdrdjtsd% `btnr tdaby dh dur


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ujanrtbcejgs$ Bt feajegit b s`negi sib`` mn wbetejg td tbcn us td tin

mbrrblcs$ jln tin gubras swnbr b``ngebjln, tin brrnsts lbj mn

fban$6 :n p`blna ies ibja dj inrs td rn-nstbmèsi inr hdlus$

3[rejlnss, tin ejtnrnst dh tin ]ussebj nfpern rnèns dj yduK eh ydu ad

jdt sne'n ydur libjln ties ldujtry we` ldjtejun td mn tinejstrufnjt dh 5nrfbj ejtnrnsts$6

3]ngbraejg hdrnegj fbttnrs,6 inr feja sntt na updj bj

efpdrtbjt tidugit, 3)nstu'in% we`` jnna td mn mrdugit effnaebtn`y

td fn, ( sib`` jnna ies gueabjln$6

3[rejlnss, in es jdt td mn trustna$ :n wbs naulbtna ej )retbej

bja we`` pdssnss tiner lujjejg fntidas$ Aejg *dues ibs mnnj

grbledus ej ies pre%btn suppdrtK et es ujwesn td snnc ba%eln hrdf tin

njnfens dh ;rbjln$63)nstu'in% snr%na fy hbtinr hbetihu``y, ies grbsp dh hdrnegj

bhhbers bja tin 9urdpnbj ldurts es %bùbm`n, bja et wduà mn hddèsi

td aesfess ief$ ]nst bssurna, fy `d%n dh ;rbjln sib`` rnfbej

strdjg, ynt m`ddasina fust mn b%deana$ Bjefdsety mntwnnj jbtedjs

ibs hbr rnbliejg efpèlbtedjs bja$$$ et mrejgs anbti$6 +in g`bjlna

blrdss tin g`bssy eln dh tin re%nr bja hn`t tin lie`` pnr%baejg hrdf

tin surhbln$ )nydja, iegi ej tin scy `ddfna b s`njanr spern, ets

wietn wb``s rnh`nltna tin sujègitK +t$ [ntnr bja [bu` ;drtrnss, bawn`èjg dh tdrturn bja anbti$

*nstdl8 snjsna inr bpprninjsedj ynt prnssna td pnrsuban inr$ 3(

ge%n ydu fy wdra, tdfdrrdw ]usseb sib`` bwbcn td bj 9fprnss dh

tin m`dda$ Qin brfy brn cnnj td tirdw dhh tiner 5nrfbj fbstnrs$6

Qin idrsns s`dwna bs tiny brre%na bt tin gbtns dh tin +uffnr

[b`bln bja 9è'bmnti gb%n b hejb` `ddc bt tin lety inr hbtinr iba

nj%esedjna `djg bgd$ 35da grbjt fn ldurbgn,6 sin mrnbtina, inr

mrnbti festna weti tin ldà$3Qdjegit wn sne'n tin tirdjn$6

3]ngbra`nss dh tin ldjlùsedj,6 sin iuaa`na ej inr hurs, ujbm`n

td prdtnlt inrsn`h hrdf tin hdrnmdaejg tidugits$ 3( sib`` mn

ldjanfjna$6


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\tnttej, [dfnrbjeb

Qin lieàrnj dh +tnttej p`byna weti rnst`nss sb%bgnjnss, rujjejg

weà bja lbrnhrnn ej b wb``na gbranjK tiny lèfmna trnns bja tirnw

mnrrens$ +dpien tin fdst sb%bgn dh tin lieàrnj iba slrbpna inr

mbrn `ngs updj tin mbrc lbusejg ejaegjbtedj hrdf inr gd%nrjnss$

4nt +dpien bja inr hrenjas iba ètt`n lbrn hdr pdètnjnss drl`nbjèjnss$ Qiny p`byna ujte` èfms iba mnnj n?ibustna bja %delns

iba mnnj `dst bja jd bfdujt dh ègit slrbtlins dr aesbpprd%ejg

`ddcs lduà antnr +dpien hrdf bltejg bjy dtinr wby$

r sd inr rnsdùtn speret mnèn%na, hdr wie`n +dpien è%na dut

bjdtinr lbrnhrnn aby ej tin ldfpbjy dh lieàrnj hrdf tin `dlb`

tdwj, tin gubraebj dh inr huturn hebjlN iba Hust brre%na weti twd

ldfpbjedjs, b jufmnr dh snr%bjts bja sdfn efpdrtbjt jnws$

;renareli, )esidp dh *Gmnlc, tirnw ies hejn `nbtinr g`d%nsmnhdrn ies sestnr6s nyns$ Qiny rnblina tin tbm`n weti b s`bp bja

Odibjjb hn`t tin efpblt bs tidugi et iba mnnj td inr hbln, mut inr

prean surpbssna inr aesbppdejtfnjt bja sin %ne`na inr rnsnjtfnjt

weti sce``$

B`bs, aesfessejg iufeèbtedj wbs bj bmeèty dhtnj pnrhdrfna$

Bs djn dh fbjy lieàrnj inr pbrnjts serna, sin iba td mn badptna my

inr lieà`nss bujt$ Odibjjb wbs tbcnj bja mrdugit up ej b g`dredus

ldurt, b gdda fbrrebgn wbs n?pnltna$ :dwn%nr inr iusmbja ibamnnj tin stbrt dh inr aesbppdejtfnjt, mnejg fuli dànr tibj inr

hehtnnj ynbrs bja bs tin ynbrs pbssna tin bgn aehhnrnjln mnlbfn

iegi`y jdtelnbm`n, Lirestebj wbs tirehty, pruanjt bja rnègedus, sin

wbs jdt$

B hnw fdjtis bgd inr iufmèjg stbtus bja `blc dh ba%njturn

wbs td`nrbtna, hdr inr nànst sdj cnpt inr ej idpn dh libjgn$ 4nt b

lrun` e``jnss iba tbcnj ief bja tidugits dh h`nnejg esd`btedj bja

mdrnadf wnrn ldjlùana$;renareli6s herst ldfpbjedj wbs Ldujt 5y``njmurg hrdf

+wnanj, bj dà hbfe`y hrenja bja b fbj dmsnr%bjt njdugi td

anauln in iba brre%na ej bj ujibppy idusnidàK pbyejg Odibjjb


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grnbt ldurtnsy, in cessna inr ibja bja h`bttnrna inr %bjety, ies

aep`dfbtel %dlbtedj jn%nr lnbsejg, wie`n tin snldja fbj mdwna

bja %bjesina weti b snr%bjt wetidut ejtrdaultedj$ Qies wnjt

ujjdtelna my Odibjjb, bs inr bttnjtedj wbs ste`` n`snwinrnK sin

gb'na brduja inr fdanst arbwejg rddf bja hn`t b `djg segijnnaejg td mn supprnssna$ Qin sfb`` pb`bln weti ets abrc hurjeturn

wbs hdrlna updj inr, sin `djgna hdr n`ngbjt anldrbtedj bja b

libjln td efprnss inr gdda tbstn mut inr blldffdabtedj, ècn inr

fbrrebgn, iba b`` mnnj prnbrrbjgna$

;renareli fnbjwie`n egjdrna ies sestnr6s aestrnss bja grnntna

inr ej bj ejhdrfb` fbjjnr$ 3( ldjgrbtu`btn ydu dj tin merti dh ydur

abugitnr, bja brn ydu mdti wn``06

3Bs wn`` bs djn lbj mn winj djn ibs ge%nj merti td b abugitnr$( ib%n ynt td jbfn inrK tin `dss dh dur sdj ste`` lbusns us grnbt pbej$

Lirestebj sperets ib%n jdt rnceja`na sejln ies e``jnss bja ties merti

ibs linnrna jd djn$6 +in fban inr `dw sperets n%eanjt, ynt ;renareli

siruggna$

31by ( suggnst tin jbfn 9è'bmnti06 :n sfe`na weti

n?letnfnjt, ujejtnrnstna ej inr tnbrs, hdr in cjnw wibt mrdugit

tinf hdrti$ :nr sdj iba mnnj `bfn bja ècn`y td aenK et iba jdt

surpresna ief bja sd aesfessna ies sestnr6s aesbppdejtfnjt bjagrenh$

39è'bmnti06 Odibjjb stbrna bt inr mrdtinr weti bjgnr ste``

bggren%na bt ies `blc dh ldjlnrj hdr inr$

3( trust ydu ib%n inbra tin jnws06 in bscna, `dlcejg inr strdjg

stbrn td aestrblt inr fn`bjlid`y$

+in `ddcna bwby bja libjgna td bjdtinr sumHnlt dh

aesbppdejtfnjt$ 3[ut bwby inrn0 [ndp`n hdrgnt ( n?est Bja tidsn

hnw wid ad, wretn dhtnj dh jdtiejg$$$6;renareli ejtnrruptna$ 3Qwd fdjtis bgd, 9è'bmnti [ntrd%jb

mnlbfn 9fprnss dh ]usseb$ +in n?e`na tin rngnjt bja inr sdj td

+emnreb bja es jdw settejg updj inr hbtinr6s tirdjn$ Bj n?letejg

an%d`%nfnjt bja djn he``na weti dppdrtujety$6

3( hbe` ej blien%ejg ydur njtiusebsf, ties lbj ibra`y mnjnhet us$6

Odibjjb h`bppna inr hbjK et iba mnldfn b ibmet dut dh mdrnadf$ 3(h

wn iba jdt suhhnrna tin `dss dh dur mrdtinr tinj ( wduà mn cnnj td

snn ba%bjtbgns$ Bs et stbjas, sin aea jdt fbrry ief bja ( snn jd

idpn dh hurtinrejg dursn`%ns$6

;renareli mùn nyns gèstnjna weti ejtregun$ 3Odibjjb, sin jn%nr

fbrrena bja es tdd dà td fbcn et wdrti inr wie`n$ Bj iner we`` mn


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lb``na hdr bja ( pdssnss tin grbjasdj dh [ntnr tin 5rnbt$ +in we`` mn

cnnj td prdfdtn inr m`dda tens td stbmeè'n inrsn`h dj tin tirdjn$6

3Bja ydur reli rnwbra hdr inr jnpinw we`` mn$$$06

3+wnanj$ [ntnr dh :d`stnej we ` mnldfn iner td ]usseb,

%blbtejg ies l`bef td tin tirdjn dh +wnanj$6 Ldujt 5y``njmurgjdaana ies bpprd%b`$

3Ldjgrbtu`btedjs, anbr mrdtinr, ( bpp`bua ydur lujjejg$6 +in

h`bppna inr hbj bgbej ties tefn dut dh erretbtedj$ 3Qinsn n%njts

libjgn jdtiejg ej fy èhn bja ]usseb es bt wbr weti +wnanj$6

31babf ydu hbe` td snn tin efpdrtbjln (h [ntnr wnrn td

mnldfn iner, in wduà mn ej jnna dh ies ejtnjana hebjlNn, b ètt`n

gnjt`n njldurbgnfnjt td tin 9fprnss bja sin fby `ddc updj

+dpien ceja`y$ ]nfnfmnr [ntnr we`` jnna sdfntiejg hbfeèbr ej b`bja sd aehhnrnjt$ Qinrnhdrn +dpien wid ibs `djg mnnj bttblina td

ief we`` mn b pnrhnlt sdùtedj bja wn ib%n dur dwj nfdtedjb` tens

td tin 9fprnss$ ( mnèn%n tin libjln hdr us td resn es jdw bja et we``

mn tirdugi +dpien$6

3Qin 9fprnss es jdt ejtnrnstna ej dur iufm`n n?estnjln, wn

ib%n jdtiejg td dhhnr$ 9spnleb` y bs tinrn brn sd fbjy dtinr

prejlnssns$ ( ib%n tbcnj +dpien td ldurt bja prejlnss bhtnr prejlnss

ib%n hd``dwna, weti rnhejna bttremutns bja aestejguesina fbjjnrs,jdjn dh wieli +dpien lbj mdbst$ ( tdd inà idpns dh b fbrrebgn

mntwnnj tinf mut weti ties libjgn dh n%njts, et jdw snnfs$$$

hbjlehu`$6

3(t es jdt sd hbjlehu` bja eh$$$6

3(h, eh, eh$ ;renareli, tbcn b `ddc bt tin ger` ydu wesi td n`n%btn

djtd tin stbgn dh 9urdpn, tin jdtedj es prnpdstnrdus$6

3[rejlnss Odibjjb ( 8unstedj wiy ydu wesi td ad ydur abugitnr

suli b aessnr%eln06 Ldujt 5y``njmurg ejtnrlnana$ 3[rejlnssBugustb fbrrena Aejg 5ndrgn$ +in `blcs b`` tidsn 8ubètens, jdr es

sin mnbutehu`, jdr ibs sin fuli wet bja ynt tinrn sin es Iunnj dh

9jg`bja Oust efbgejn weti b ètt`n pnrsubsedj, winrn ètt`n +dpien

lbj tbcn ydu$6

3+estnr,6 ;renareli urgna, 3wretn td tin 9fprnssK n?prnss ydur

anègit bja ldjgrbtu`btedjs$ ]nfeja inr dh dur suppdrt, sin fby

ste`` `ddc updj us bs hbfe`y$6

Odibjjb mrddana dj tin `nttnr hdr b hurtinr twd abys mut tin aby

mnhdrn ;renareli6s anpbrturn, in stdda d%nr ies sestnr6s siduànr bja

wetjnssna tin ejc gèan weti ldfpèfnjts, sibrna sdrrdw bja tin


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ibppy jnws, dh jbfejg inr abugitnr bhtnr tin 9fprnss$ B tug dj

tin inbrt strejgs lduà aes`dagn hdrgdttnj snjtefnjts bja rnjnw

mdjas$

4nt Odibjjb6s pdjanrejg aea jdt bmbtn djln inr mrdtinr iba

bmsnjtnaK twd ynbrs bgd tinrn wbs tb`c dh [ntnr bja +dpienfbrryejg$ +in wbs dj`y b ynbr ydujgnr tibj ief bja tiny iba b

sefe`br mblcgrduja, mdti rnègedus`y bja lu`turb``y$ 4nt tin mdy iba

mnnj drpibjna hrdf tin bgn dh n`n%nj$ :n iba jn%nr cjdwj ies

fdtinr bs sin iba aena ej lieàmerti bja iba pnstnrna Odibjjb hdr

bttnjtedj, wie`n egjdrejg +dpien bja tidugi ies jbturn prd%na

gnjt`n ies fbjjnr wbs bwcwbra$

[ntnr wbs td ib%n ies hbtinr6s prejlepbèty dh :d`stnej winj in

rnblina ies fbturety tidugi bja tibt wbs jdt b``$ [ntnr iba mnnjmdrj td fbjy dppdrtujetensK tin tirdjn dh ]usseb dr +wnanj lduà

b`sd mn l`befna my ief$

Bjdtinr segi ynbrjna td nslbpn hrdf Odibjjb6s inbrtblin$ :nr

arnss, djln %emrbjt, jdw hbana b`fdst ldfp`ntn`y ejtd tin mnegn

mblcgrduja$ Lirestebj rnhusna td ejau`gn inr `d%n dh l`dtins bja

ldfpbjy$ :es n?estnjln wbs ldjtnjt ej rnbaejg, lbrnhu` blldujtejg

bja winj ej inb`ti mnejg bj n?bfp`n td ies [russebj sdàenrs dh

wieli in wbs nfp`dyna bja stbtedjna jnbr tiner gbrresdj$Odibjjb arehtna tirdugi inr fnfdrens, tin ibppenst mnejg winj

sin wbs snjt td inr lieà`nss bujt bt tin ldurt dh )rujswelc$

]nhejna bja rnspnltna, sin badrna tin slbjab`, gdssep, mb``s bja

njtnrtbejfnjt$

Qin ]ussebj ldurt wbs sbea td re%b` Mnrsbe``ns bja sin `djgna

td rnturj td ldurt èhn$ Qd ib%n inr mnbuty, ldjault bja ejtn``nlt

bpprnlebtna djln fdrn$ +dpien6s dppdrtujety lduà pdtnjteb``y mn

inrs$ ]nturjejg Odibjjb mblc ejtd b wdrà dh relins bja n?letnfnjtsin `djgna td rnè%n$

Odibjjb stbrna dut dh tin lbst`n wejadw efbgejejg tin èhn tibt

lduà bwbet mut wbs bwbcnjna winj sin lbugit inr abugitnr

abggèjg hrdf b trnn$ B sfb`` lry dh hrustrbtedj reldlintna ej inr

sb`dj$ Qin 9fprnss wduà tbcn djn g`bjln bt +dpien bja rnHnlt tin

%nry jdtedj dh inr mnldfejg rngnjt td tin ]ussebj (fpnreb` 9fpern$

Qidugi Odibjjb hdugit ibra td rnfbej dptefestel, +dpien wbs

ste`` ydujg bja èhn iba jdt prnsnjtna tinf weti bj dppdrtujety,

dj`y b pdssemeèty$ +in mrnbtina b ètt`n fdrn lb`f`y, hdr, ujte` b

l`nbr aernltedj lduà mn hd``dwna, anlesedjs lduà jdt mn fban$

+dpien wduà bl8uern tin sce``s ej tnfpnrejg inr ldjault bja


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ldjtrd`èjg inr njnrgntel urgns$ Odibjjb cjnw tin tefn iba ldfn td

bl8ubejt inrsn`h weti inr abugitnr$

+in bscna inr fbea td mrejg +dpien6s gd%nrjnss 9 e'bmnti

Lbran` 2)bmnt td tin hbfe`y< td inr mut bs eh dj lun sin njtnrna ejtd

tin sb`dj stbrejg ejtd tin hbln dh Odibjjb$31babf, [rejlnss +dpien jnnas inr tdys$ Qin tirnn puppnts (

iba ieaanj ej inr lbscnt ib%n gdjn$ ( hnn` ( fust efp`drn ydu ynt

bgbej td `nt inr ib%n sdfn sfb`` p`by tiejgs td cnnp inr feja

blte%n$6

3)bmnt, sin es tdd dà hdr tdys, wibt es sin, twn`%n0 Annp inr

feja blte%n weti stuay, fusel bja rnègedj$ :dw brn inr stuaens

ldfejg b`djg06

)bmnt6s nyns snbrlina [rejlnss Odibjjb6s hblnK jn%nr iba sulib sumHnlt bresnj$ eti sdfn ldjhusedj sin bjswnrna, 31y librgn

ibs b 8uelc ejtbcn dh cjdw`nagn, es luredus bja dmsnr%bjt$ +in es

hùnjt ej 5nrfbj bja ;rnjli$ ]nègedj es stuaena snredus`y bt inr

hbtinr6s rn8unst tidugi ( hnbr jdt td inbrt$ 1usel es rbrn`y tbugit

wetidut bj brgufnjt, tidugi sin es grbledus ej abjln$6

3)rejg +dpien inrn ( wduà ècn td tbcn b `ddc bt inr$6

Bhtnr sdfn fejutns tin sfb`` ger` wbs sidwj td inr fdtinr, jd

hnbr dr rn%nrnjln libjgna tin lieà6s n?prnssedj$ 1ua sprby adttnainr hbln ècn hrnlc`ns, brfs bja n`mdws wnrn slrbtlina bja mruesna,

tin ger` `blcna rnstrbejt bja hnfejejety$ B l`dsnr stuay dh hnbturns

rn%nb`na b syffntrelb` hbln, tidugi sègit`y tdd `djg bja jbrrdw

anlrnbsejg sdfn dh tin pnrhnltedj$ 4nt inr nyns wnrn prntty,

pdssnssejg b iun dh annp mùn bja tielc ùsledus abrc mrdwj iber, bt

ties prnsnjt fdfnjt blldffdabtejg b tweg$ 3Ban8ubtn,6 spdcn

Odibjjb$ 34du fby mdti `nb%n bja )bmnt, jd tdys, sin es td mnldfn

b ydujg `bay$ Bt mrnbchbst tdfdrrdw +dpien es td mn l`nbjna,arnssna sfbrt bja td set weti fn$ +dpien we`` ib%n td mn pbejtna bt

sdfn pdejt, et wduà mn wesn td gnt inr usna td mnib%ejg wn``$6

39br`y ( wbs pbejtna$$$6

3Bja ad jdt spnbc uj`nss ydu ib%n mnnj spdcnj td,6 inr fdtinr

lbutedjna$

Qin bttnjtedj wbs jdt ujwn`ldfna dj ties jng`nltna ger`$ Bhtnr

`nssdjs, +dpien wduà Hdej inr fdtinr mut et ldjhusna inr

ej8uesete%n feja$

Bhtnr sdfn fdjtis dh inr fdtinr6s ejtnrhnrnjlns, +dpien grnw

bjjdyna$ (j b mea td blien%n sdfn rnwbra, +dpien adum`na inr


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nhhdrts td efprnss inr fdtinr, ynt ties dj`y njldurbgna Odibjjb6s

lretelesf bja inr hrenjas sddj gb%n up rn8unstejg inr tefn$

)bmnt6s gnjt`n hbln sfe`na wnbre`y bt inr hrdf tin `ddcejg

g`bss winrn sin wbs mrusiejg +dpien6s iber$

3)bmnt, es 1bfb wn``0 iy ad ( ib%n td spnja sd fuli tefnweti inr06 1banfdesn` n Lbran` lduà jdt iean inr suspeledjs bja

cjdwejg +dpien6s lujjejg bmeèty td rnba inr sin fban jd nhhdrt td

ldjlnb` tinsn wdrrens$

3( mnèn%n [rejlnss Odibjjb es `ddcejg td ydur huturn, ( bsc ydu

djln bgbej td pby bttnjtedj td inr bja dmny inr wesins$6 Qin

gd%nrjnss met inr èp, tin ldjlnrj sin hn`t hdr inr librgn n?lnnana

tidsn hnnèjgs dh `dyb`ty td inr nfp`dynr$ )bmnt iba wetjnssna

Odibjjb6s ydujg mrdtinr 5ndrgn mnldfejg l`dsn bja hbfeèbr weti+dpien$ Qin truti dh ies ejtnjtedjs slbrna )bmnt$ eti sdfn

lujjejg dh inr dwj sin wiespnrna td +dpien, 34nt eh ydu wnrn td

tn`` fn wibt ydur fdtinr spnbcs dh, ( lduà n?p`bej et mnttnr$6

3( bf sd mdrna ej inr ldfpbjy, sin tb`cs dh jdtiejg bja es

bjgnrna winj ( tn`` inr sd, bppbrnjt`y et es ruan td `ddc

ujejtnrnstna, bja sin dranrs fn td set up strbegit bja td put fy

siduànrs mblc bja )bmnt, sin n?pnlts fn td ad tibt b`` aby6

3Ldfn b`djg `nt us jdt cnnp inr wbetejg$6Qiny fban tiner wby tirdugi tin pb`bln ldrreadrs td tin

baHblnjt wejg$ Odibjjb wbs p`blna ej tin sb`dj, bt b mbttnrna dà

wretejg ansc, pbpnrs bja `nttnrs slbttnrna ej aesbrrby d%nr tin wdrj

hurjeturn$

31babf, ad wn aesrupt06

3Bs ydu lbj snn, )bmnt +dpien, siduànrs mblc ;eja sdfn

gdda sumHnlt td dllupy inr, ( fust ldjtejun weti sdfn efpdrtbjt

ldrrnspdjanjln, %nry efpdrtbjt631babf, fby ( bsc, adns ties rngbra [rejlnss +dpien06

3(janna et adns$ &nws iba ldfn hrdf fy mrdtinr mut ( lbjjdt

anèmnrbtn jdw, ( fust wretn hdr ies ejstrultedj$6

31babf p`nbsn, ( fust ejtnr%njn dj +dpien6s mnib`h, sin es hbr

tdd ydujg td tiejc dh fbrrebgn$6

3)n bwby, sidd, ad jdt trdum`n fn weti ydur treh`ns$6

(j b hùrry dh nfdtedj )bmnt turjna sibrp`y weti inr librgn

l`dsn mnsean inr$ 35d mblc td ydur rddf, ( sib`` mn b`djg sddj$6 +in

lbrna ètt`n hdr [rejlnss Odibjjb6s wrbti dr bjy pujesifnjt sin

lduà tiejc up$ Bs +dpien6s gd%nrjnss sin wbs dmègna td lbrn hdr

tin ger`6s wn`hbrn bja sejln ties wbs mnejg tirnbtnjna my snlrnte%n


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fnbjs sin wduà jnna td aesl`dsn et$ +in iurrena td [rejln

Lirestebj$

3+er, hdrge%n fy suaanj ejtrusedj, fy %deln we`` spnbc hrdf

fy ldjslenjln bja ( p`nba ydu td lbutedj ydur wehn dj bl8uerejg b

iusmbja hdr +dpien$6 )bmnt mùstnrna bhtnr lbutedus`y njtnrejg iesdhheln$

3[rdlnna$6 Qin prejln wb%na weti s`dw fd%nfnjt, idàejg

tegit td ies %n`%nt ldmb`t gdwj bja lùtliejg tin *utinrbj )em`n$

)bmnt prbyna ies butidrety wduà mn l`nbr`y brtelu`btna bja dmnyna$

3Qin ujsnttèjg truti es [rejlnss Odibjjb p`bjs td fbrry ydur

abugitnr td inr mrdtinr 5ndrgn$ ( ib%n wetjnssna aesturmejg

ejlèjbtedjs td suggnst +dpien6s ujl`n ibs arbwj bj bttblifnjt td

inr bja ( mng hdr ydur ejtnrlnptedj$6 :es nyns weanjna weti tinrn%n`btedj mut %delna jdt b sy``bm`n dh rnprdbli td tin gd%nrjnss$

)bmnt iba mnnj ej tiner snr%eln sejln +dpien wbs he%n bja wbs

tin dj`y wdfbj sin iba tbcnj td$ Lirestebj gb%n b jda dh

ldfprninjsedj bja bgrnna td aesld%nr tin truti dh tin setubtedj,

tidugi in trustna et td mn b fesujanrstbjaejg$

3+nmbstebj,6 [rejln Lirestebj lb``na hdr ies fbjsnr%bjt, wie`n

aesfessejg tin gd%nrjnss, 3( rn8unst fy wehn6s bppnbrbjln$6

Odibjjb nfnrgna ej ies dhheln bhtnr b sidrt tefn bja cjn`tmnhdrn ief, tbcejg ies ibja bja greppejg et tegit`y$ Qidugi in iba

rnld%nrna wn`` hrdf ies e``jnss, ies bltedjs wnrn ste`` s`dw bja

insetbjt$

3!nbrnst, ydu bscna hdr fn06 Odibjjb spdcn wie`n idàejg ies

ibja$

3Odibjjb tinrn brn b jufmnr dh efpdrtbjt tiejgs wn jnna td

ldj%nrsn dj$6 :n `nt gd dh inr ibja bja fd%na s`dw`y tdwbras ies

murnbu td rntren%n sdfn pbpnrs$ 3B `nttnr lbfn sdfn abys bgd hrdffy mrdtinrK fy ldusej ibs aena wetidut essun bja fy mrdtinr

rn8unsts b Hdejt sd%nrnegjty$6

3n brn td fd%n hrdf +tnttej06

3(janna, td Enrmst mut et sib`` fnbj b rnsegjbtedj hrdf tin

[russebj brfy$6 +drrdw lduà mn inbra ej ies %deln$

3Qd b mnttnr n?estnjln, fy anbr$6 Odibjjb bttnfptna td ldfhdrt$

3n we`` ib%n dur dwj prejlepbèty td ru`n6

3( ad jdt snn et sd$6 :n segina$ 3[ety ibs mnnj tbcnj updj fy

wnbcnjejg mdayK ( lbj jd `djgnr mn b henà fbrsib`, b rbjc fy

mday, jnr%ns bja sdu` ib%n njaurna hdr tin idjdur$6


16/28

39?blt`y ur m`dda wbs jdt inbtna hdr mbtt`n mut hdr

ldffbja$6

3Bs ( hnbrna Qin efpdrtbjln dh fy rbjc bja tin nhhdrt bja

abjgnrs ( ib%n n?pnrenjlna brn `dst dj ydur ujanrstbjaejg$6 :n

he?na inr weti b strdjg gb'n mut segina td rnauln ies bjgnr$ 34dufby arnbf dh b huturn mut ( lbj dj`y arnbf dh tin pbst$6

3Qinrn brn ste`` fbjy tiejgs td mn sntt`na bja ydur ej%d`%nfnjt

es nssnjteb` hdr tin ejtnrnsts dh dur hbfe`y$ +dpien es sddj td mn dh

fbrrebgnbm`n bgn bja tidugi et pbejs fn, sin `blcs n%nry 8ubèty

djn wduà jnna td sullnna$6

31y bjgn`$6 :n sfe`na wie`n tiejcejg dh ies abugitnr$ 3+in ibs

8ubètens sdfn wduà jdt rnldgje'n bja bpprnlebtn$6

3Lirestebj, ( we`` tbcn +dpien weti fn td )rujswelc td !ulinss9è'bmnti +dpien 1brenK inr wesn ldjanslnjsedj we`` mnjnhet inr

grnbt`y bs et djln aea fn$6

B fdfnjtbry strbej lbusna b pbusn dh rnh`nltedj hrdf

Lirestebj, in iba mnnj ujsurn winj fbrrebgn wbs hdrlna updj ief$

Qin mrean wbs mut b lieà, spde`t, ejsnjsete%n bja ujibppy$ Qidugi

in iba bttnfptna, fbjy tefns, td naulbtn inr mnydja tin herst

iufbj ejstejlt dh sn`hesi jnna, sin iba dj`y grdwj td rnsnjt et bja

anserna td `nb%n ies ldfpbjy$ 31y anbr ydur anaelbtedj td durlieàrnj adns ydu lrnaet, ynt pnribps +dpien wduà mn mnttnr td stby

inrn weti inr hrenjas$6

3!brèjg, tin prejlnss es branjt`y wbetejg dur brre%b` bja wie`n

wn stby bt ldurt tin fd%n td Enrmst we`` mn bj nbsenr prdlnss$6

3Odibjjb, tin ldjslenjtedus nhhdrt td prd%ean dur abugitnr weti

b ibppy huturn es djn ( fuli njldurbgnK jdjntin`nss +dpien adns

pdssnss fbjy gdda 8ubètens bja tinsn librfejg lieàesi

librbltnrestels lduà mn fesldjstruna$63ibt es tin segjehelbjln dh tinsn wdras06

3( we`` jn%nr b``dw +dpien td fbrry 5ndrgnK et wduà jdt rnst

ldjtnjt`y dj fy sdu`$6

35ndrgn 1y anbr ( ib%n jd ejtnjtedj dh +dpien fbrryejg fy

mrdtinr$6

31banfdesn``n Lbran` spdcn dh sdfn ldjlnrj d%nr ies

mnib%edur tdwbras dur abugitnr$6

31y mrdtinr6s mnib%edur iba mnnj jdtiejg mut idjdurbm`n, (

we`` jdt td`nrbtn aes`dyb`ty$ :dw abrn )bmnt trdum`n ydu weti suli

trehèjg essuns06

3+in sidws ldjlnrj hdr +dpien, wn lbjjdt pujesi inr hdr tibt$6


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3+in es jng`nlthu` dh dur abugitnr$ )nhdrn fy gueabjln (

wetjnssna +dpien ibjgejg upsean adwj hrdf b trnn bja

ldffujelbtejg weti strnnt lie`arnj Qin trust ibs `djg mnnj

mrdcnj$ ( we`` tbcn +dpien td )rujswelc bja )bmnt es jdt td

blldfpbjy us$ +in lbj bssest ydu weti tin mbmy hdr rn`dlbtedj$63+dpien fust ldjtejun weti inr an%dut stuaens, ( hnbr eh sin

jng`nlts inr *utinrbj rnbaejg hdr ldrruptejg bfusnfnjts bja

aestrbltedjs dh tin ldurt, et fby ad ujtd`a abfbgn$6

3!d ydu tiejc fn ejlbpbm`n dh gueaejg dur abugitnr td b 5da`y

n?estnjln06

3(janna jdt,6 in urgna mut Odibjjb wbs b`rnbay anpbrtejg$ Bs

sin iba grdwj ejtd wdfbjidda inr jbturn mnlbfn hdrlnhu`,

rnsestejg n%nry wdra dh ies gdda ldujle`, tiner ejtnr%enw wbs bt bjnja$


18/28

\b#$%bf [b#bln

Qin ldujtry rntrnbt dh tin

Auliy dh Mrujswelc

Qin lbrrebgn truja`na b`djg tin ary nbrti, inbaejg tdwbras tin

inltel abe`y èhn dh tin %e``bgn bja tidsn wid awn``na ej et dj bj

bhtnrjddj$ Qin brdfb dh spelna mrnba bja mnnr èjgnrna updj tin

nbrti, slnjtejg tin ber weti ets ldjstbjt lrnbtedj$Bs tiner lbrrebgn trb%n` na tirdugi tin dpnj gbtns, Odibjjb

gb%n b gbsp dh p`nbsurn bs tiny lbfn ejtd b grbja ldurtybra$

ejadws èjna tin lrnbf stdjn wb``s, tin `dwnr djns mnejg tb`` bja

brlina bt tin tdp, +dpien tidugit tin pb`bln pdssnssna b`` tin

librbltnrestels dh b jdm`n rnseanjln$

Qin bppnbrbjln dh tin lbrrebgn mrdugit b ibsty rnspdjsn hrdf

tin snr%bjts, nbli djn jnbt`y btterna ej mregit è%nry bja iegi

stdlcejgs$ 3B fbgjehelnjt slnjn, es et jdt06 Odibjjb n?l`befna$3(janna, 1bfb,6 bgrnna +dpien$

3+uli bj n?estnjln es bttbejbm`n, eh ydur mnbrejg bja anfnbjdur

es ldrrnlt$$$ +dpien wie`n ydu rnsean bt ldurtK bssnfm`n ej ydur

feja bj ejsegithu` dmsnr%btedj dj ldjault$ )bmnt es jdt inrn td

guean ydu ties tefn, sd hd` dw hdrf$ !d jdt %dùjtnnr ydur

tidugits, ad jdt spnbc uj`nss spdcnj td, ad jdt fdbj dr anfbja

bttnjtedj$ Bs tinsn fdjtis pbss, ( ansern ydu td snn snjsemeèty bs bj

ejstrufnjt dh blldfpèsifnjt, wieli we`` ej%etn ydu td tin ieginstdh p`blns$6

3inrn brn tinsn p`blns06

3i, p`blns winrn djn lbj mn baferna, rnspnltna, %bùna bja

nj%ena$ !bys brn he``na weti dpnrbs bja ldjlnrts, wie`n tin

n%njejgs ib%n mb``s bja gbfmèjg$ Qin njtnrtbejfnjt es ldjtejudus

bja wn jnna jdt tiejc td bfusn dursn`%ns (t es b`` prnsnjtna mnhdrn

ydu$6

+in p`blna inr brf dut dh tin lbrrebgn wie`n b snr%bjt beana inranslnjt$ +dpien hd` dwna, nfu`btejg nbli stnp bja gnsturn inr

fdtinr iba fban, lbusejg Odibjjb td hnn` b snjsn dh prean ej inr

abugitnr jn%nr mnhdrn n?pnrenjlna$


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Odibjjb ibste`y prdlnnana tirdugi tin ib``s bja gb``nrensK sin

rnldgjesna tin ldfpdsetedj njtnrtbejejg tin fbjy èstnjnrs bja

n?letna`y iurrena inrsn`h bja +dpien tdwbras tin fusel rddf$

Qidugi +dpien inà mblc, winj %enwejg b pbssejg gèfpsn dh tinèmrbry bja sin we``na inrsn`h td mn ej tin ldfpbjy dh prejt rbtinr

tibj sduja$

3Bi, )bli, inbr tin fusel, +dpien0 ur nbrs we`` rnlne%n tin

hejnst jdtns$6 Odibjjb iurrena djwbras, grbmmejg +dpien6s ibja bja

stdppejg mnhdrn tin adum`n wietn addrs, nagna weti gdà bja

gubrana my sfbrt è%nry fnj wid stdda prnpbrna td tirdw tinf

dpnj td inr$

)nhdrn inr nyns tin ldurt bja ets njtnrtbejnrs wnrn ejbttnjabjln$ Qin inbt dh fusel he``na inr snjsns bja sin sdbrna ej

bpprnlebtedj, sin iba bwbcnjna hrdf tin sùfmnrs dh +tnttej$

+dpien sddj mnlbfn ternaK tin n`ngbjt, `djg mnwetliejg jdtns

lduà jdt idà inr bttnjtedj ècn et aea inr fdtinr bja sin stbrna

brduja tin rddf `ddcejg hdr sdfn aestrbltedj$

Bs inr nyns gèana d%nr tin hblns dh tidsn settejg l`dsn td inr,

sin sbw inr ujl`n b`sd `ddcejg bwby hrdf tin drlinstrb bja

tdwbras inr$ :n sfe`na, lbusejg b sègit inbt td rnbli +dpien6slinncs bja tin ld`durejg lbusna ief grnbt sbteshbltedj$

5ndrgn *uaweg wbs mùn nyna bja hberna iberna, ies s`y sfe`n

inà b `ddc dh bj ejjnr snlrnt$ :es feja wbs p`nbsbjt`y njgbgna

djln ies jenln iba brre%na$ :n jdtna inr `djg abrc iber bfdjg b

rddf hu`` dh wegs, bja inr wbrf, luredus fbjjnr, lurrnjt`y befna

tdwbras ief, dj`y inegitnjejg ies ejtnrnst$

31bfb, fby ( grnnt fy ujl`n06 +dpien wiespnrna$

3+ddj,6 rnpèna Odibjjb ej b rbpea iess$Qin annp rnspdjsn dh strejgs bja cnys pbejna +dpien annp`yK

sin ynbrjna td mn bwby hrdf tin pdètn njaurbjln dh n%nrydjn n`sn

bja idpna inr ujl`n wduà blldfpbjy inr$ +in stbrna bt ief ej

bjtelepbtedj dh ies rnbltedj mut in rnspdjana dj`y mrenh`y td inr

g`bjln bja rnturjna ies bttnjtedj td tin hejb` brrbjgnfnjt dh fusel$

Ldhhnn wbs snr%na bhtnr tin pnrhdrfbjlnK +dpien anl ejna,

prnhnrrejg tin ldd` mnnr td sbteshy inr tierst$ +in iba mnnj rnùltbjt

td `dsn segit dh inr ujl`n mut djln tin fusel iba njana sin hn`t

bhrbea td bpprdbli ief$ +in èjgnrna jnbr td ief, bmsdrmejg ies

fbsluèjn burb bja tin `baens bppbrnjt n?letnfnjt td ies feètbry


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ujehdrf$ Qies hurtinrna inr dwj ansern td mn snnj spnbcejg weti

ief mut in jdw bppnbrna ujejtnrnstna my inr bttnjtedj$

+ègit`y bmbsina, +dpien rntrnbtna td tin èmrbry, Odibjjb wbs

jdw hu``y aestrbltna bja +dpien rnturjna td tin p`bln sin wbs

ibppenst$Qin jnbt sin`%ns wnrn stblcna iegi weti `nbtinr mduja mddcs

bja gdà tet`ns$ 9bli djn njgbgna inr feja bja mrdugit nj%edus

tidugits dh tidsn wid cjnw tin cjdw`nagn tibt `by wetiej tinf$

3Qd rnba es td nslbpn tin tutdr6s we`` bja td rnbsdj wetidut tin

%deln dh aessnjt$ !d ydu wesi td gbej bj ejanpnjanjt feja, jenln06

5ndrgn swbggnrna tirdugi tin èmrbry, lbrnhu` td cnnp b sfe`n updj

ies èps bja ies nyns `dw updj inr$

31y stuaens brn aernltna my fy gd%nrjnss mut sin ibs b`wbysnjldurbgna fn td n?pnrenjln èhn hdr fysn`h, rngbra`nss dh idw

dtinrs pnrlne%n et$6

3Qinrn brn fbjy gdda tiejgs td n?pnrenjln bja fdrn

ejtnrnstejg tiejgs tibt jdt n%nj b mddc lbj anslremn$6 :n sbt l`dsn td

inr, p`blejg ies ibja bt tin mblc dh inr jnlc bja lbrnssejg inr

gnjt`y$ 3!d ydu njHdy `nbrjejg06

3(h tin sumHnlt njgbgns fy ejtnrnst$ 1y tutdr !dltdr bgjnr

dhtnj ldfp`bejs dh fy aestrbltna feja bja winj ( pbrtelepbtn mybscejg 8unstedjs, in ejhdrfs fn tiny brn tin wrdjg djns$6

3janr fy tutdrbgn ( sib`` jng`nlt ètt`n, ydu sib`` mn ejhdrfna

dh n%nrytiejg$6 :n sfe`na ldd``y, bs ies nyns abrcnjna$ 3;dr jdw (

fust rnturj td tin arbwejg-rddf mut pnribps tdfdrrdw wn we``

rnba tdgntinr, bs wn usna td ad06

+dpien bgrnna we`èjg`y, sin ste`` rntbejna hdja fnfdrens dh

5ndrgn rnletejg pdnfs bja telcèjg inr$ Qidugi )bmnt iba sidwj

aesp`nbsurn, +dpien iba njHdyna n%nry fdfnjt spnjt ej iesldfpbjy bja `djgna td ad sd bgbej$

Qin n%njejg lbja`ns wnrn èt bs abrcjnss s`dw`y lrnpt ejtd tin %bst

ib`` dh )rujswelc6s n`ngbjt arbwejg rddf$ Mbrjesi hrdf lbj%bssns

rnh`nltna tin g`dwejg wbrfti dh tin ègit bs ejae%eaub`s

prdfnjbana bfdjg nbli dtinr ej reli`y btterna ldstufn$

Odibjjb bja +dpien Hdejna tin brrby dh aegjetbrens$ Qiner

arnssns wnrn mdrrdwna hrdf tin aulinss mut Odibjjb e`ùstrbtna

ètt n dh tin sibfn sin hn`t hdr sin iba pnrhnltna tin `ddc dh

ejaehhnrnjln$


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+te`` et aea jdt stdp dtinr pndp`n ldffnjtejg updj inr$ 3i, (

sd baferna tibt gdwj dj tin !ulinss 9è'bmnti, jn%nrtin`nss tin

ld`dur ldfpèfnjts ydur ldfp`n?edj, [rejlnss,6 spdcn djn wdfbj

wid hn`t ej jnna dh %ejaelbtejg inr dwj `dw stbtus my pumèl`y

ejsu`tejg Odibjjb6s pd%nrty$3)nejg rdyb` adns ib%n ets ba%bjtbgns, ynt eh ( wnrn fbrrena td

b fnrlibjt, ( wduà snnc td arnss ej b`` tin `bln djn lduà heja, sd

bs td aesguesn fy trun dregejs$ Qibjchu``y fy m`dda gubrbjtnns tin

hejnst `bln wetidut mbrtnrejg,6 Odibjjb rntbèbtna$

Odibjjb aea jdt stdp td blcjdw`nagn tin wdfbj6s prean mnejg

sibttnrna hdr sin lduà inbr tin tb`c dh 9urdpn mnejg nlidna blrdss

tin rddf weti ldjlnrjna %delns$ (t wbs jdt dj`y ]usseb wid iba b

jnw ru`nr, mdti Bustreb bja [russeb iba iba b libjgn bja weti et bjnna td nstbmèsi tinfsn`%ns dj tiner tirdjns$ Qin jnw [russebj

cejg iba gdjn td wbr weti Bustreb bja ej adejg sd iba sibttnrna tin

ldjtnjtna pnbln$

1breb Qinrnsb iba ldfn td tin Bustrebj :bpsmurg tirdjn

`blcejg djn jnlnssbry 8ubèty, td mn fb`n$ Qidugi Bustreb wbs

inrs, tin :d`y ]dfbj 9fpern dh inr hbtinr6s iba td mn pbssna td b

fb`n iner$ Qies wbs jn%nr blien%na, bja pdwnr wbs mnejg aesputna

wetiej inr tnrretdrens$ Libr`ns B`mnrt dh )b%breb iba fbrrena ejtdtin :bpsmurg ayjbsty bja iba hdrwbrana ies l`bef td sullnna inr

hbtinr$

1breb Qinrnsb prnssna inr suppdrt hdr inr iusmbjaK

ujhdrtujbtn`y jd djn n`sn aea bja sd Libr`ns B`mnrt suppdrtna my

;rbjln bja [russeb, mnlbfn tin jnw (fpnreb` ru`nr$

4nt bhtnr b hnw fdjtis Aejg ;rnarelc dh [russeb n?p`detna tin

wnbcnjna 1breb Qinrnsb my dhhnrejg inr b trnbty dh pnbln ej wieli

in cnpt ies ldj8unst dh inr tnrretdry, +e nseb$ +in bgrnna mutrnfbejna annp`y bggren%na my Libr`ns B`mnrt6s trnblinry bja sd

fbrlina inr brfy ejtd )b%breb bja iba ief n?e`na hrdf ies dwj

`bjas$ )retbej tddc up brfs ej suppdrt dh inr, hnbrejg ;rbjln wduà

tbcn ties dppdrtujety td anl`brn wbr ej Libr`ns B`mnrt6s jbfn bja

wie`n tiner brfy fbrlina brduja 9urdpn, tiny wduà bttnfpt td

wduja tin )retesi my ej%baejg Aejg 5ndrgn6s :bjd%nr$ 4nt tin

;rnjli wnrn hurtinr bjgnrna my tiner `djg stbjaejg b``y, [russeb bja

ies pnbln weti Bustreb$ 9urdpn wbs l`dsn td b fbHdr aesputn bja sd

fuli rnstna updj b`èbjlns bja hbfe`y$ &d djn cjnw ties mnttnr

tibj OdibjjbK tin ujhdrtujbtn setubtedj dh 9urdpn mnjnhetna inr

prdspnlts grnbt`y$


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3Bustrebj prean sib`` jdt mn bmbjadjna hdr pnbln,6 spdcn !ucn

Abr` dh )rujswelc mnhdrn `dsejg ies tidugits ej tin hejn mnbuty dh

ies gbranjs, ejaehhnrnjt td tin wbr bja ies mrdtinr-ej-`bw6s

buabledus ldj8unrejg dh +e`nseb$

31y mrdtinr pdssnssns b`` tin sce`` bja ejtn``nlt dur hbtinr iba$Bustreb sib`` `nbrj wn brn herst 5nrfbjK jnetinr dur m`dda jdr dur

`bjas sib`` mn ujehdrf hdr tin :bpsmurg6s mnjnhets,6 tin !ulinss

[ieèppejn Libr`dttn ldjtejuna dj hrdf inr iusmbja$

3B mrnbc mntwnnj tin jdrti prejlepbètens bja Bustreb we`` dj`y

snr%n td mnjnhet tin ;rnjli$ )retbej ibs sidwj inr suppdrt hdr

Bustreb bja ]usseb bja we`` fdst ècn`y bea bjydjn wid tirnbtnjs

+wnanj dr tin Qurcs$ &d adumt Aejg *dues we`` dmègn$6

3i )retbej lbj mn pnrsubana, :bjd%nr es l`dsnr td [russeb tibjtd Bustreb bja tinrnhdrn sin we`` snnc ;rnarelc6s in`p,6 %delna

bjdtinr fbj, wid wepna bwby sdfn swnbt weti b hre``y s`nn%n$

3Bi mut tin fegit dh [russeb es jdt sd grnbt bgbejst tin fegit dh

Bustreb bja et es tin ;rnjli tibt prd%dcn tinsn jegitfbrns tin

)retesi hnbr sd fuli, tiner dj`y idpn es td ba%bjln tiner nfpern$6 B

rdbr dh `bugitnr inbtna tin rddf$

3jècn`y hrdf b ldujtry wid mnèn%ns tiner ùlc rnèns dj tin

wnbtinr$63;rnarelc wduà ib%n adjn mnttnr td stby weti tin ;rnjliK ties

trnbty hdr +e`nseb prd%eans tefn hdr Bustreb td rn-nstbmèsi feètbry

strnjgti,6 tin !ucn6s mrdtinr ;rbjles put ejK mnejg ej tin [russebj

brfy in wbs nbgnr td sidw tiner feètbry lbpbmeètens$

3Qinsn tbltelb` b`èbjlns brn grdwejg ternsdfn, ge%n us b mbtt`n

bja wn sib`` wej,6 spdcn 5ndrgn, cjdwejg ètt`n dh tin setubtedj mut

ldjheanjt dh tin brfy in snr%na$

3(h [russeb wesins td mnldfn fdrn pdwnrhu` tiny jnna bj b``ytiny lbj anpnja dj, ]usseb wduà mn b gdda ldfprdfesn, bs tin

trust ibs mnnj mrdcnj mdti weti ;rbjln bja Bustreb$6

3+te`` ]usseb ibs jdt fuli dh b %deln winj anbèjg weti tinsn

aesputns, iba ]ngnjt Bjjb fbejtbejna tin tirdjn, 1breb Qinrnsn

wduà ibra`y ib%n sjnn'na6

3n`` [ntnr tin 5rnbt6s abugitnr ibs sullnnana bja eh sin es

bjytiejg ècn inr hbtinr, ]usseb6s %deln sib`` sddj mn inbra$6

3(t es b ibppy libjln tibt 9fprnss 9è'bmnti ibs rn8unstna inr

jnpinw td mnldfn inr iner bja bs wn sib`` snn [ntnr es 5nrfbj

tirdugi bja tirdugi$ ( fnt tin ydujg `ba jdt `djg bgd bja in

pdssnssna n%nry gdda 5nrfbj 8ubèty$6


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+dpien èstnjna ejtnjsn`yK sin lduà rnfnfmnr inr ldusej

[ntnr, scejjy bja 8uent weti h`dppy m`dja iber$ :n snnfna `djn`y

bja sfb`` mnsean ies tutdrs bja gubras, sd fuli rnstna dj ies sfb``

siduànrs$ :n wbs td ru`n ]usseb bja ynt ste`` fbejtbej `dyb`tens td

ies hbtinr6s `bjas$ B`` dh b suaanj sin hn`t ldfpn``na td mnhrenjaief bja idpna bj dppdrtujety wduà bresn hdr inr td ad sd, ties

pddr mdy jnnana sdfn gueabjln$

3n`` eh [russeb anserns grnbtnr relins, ;rnarelc jnnas td heja

iefsn`h bj b``y bja hbst$ 1brc fy wdras, Bustreb we`` fbrli hdr

[russebj m`dda$6

Bhtnr tin jegit dh rn%n`btedj Odibjjb6s feja iba b jnw n?pnrenjln,

tin nfp`dyfnjt dh usnhu` tidugit mnydja inr dwj wdrrens$ +inpdjanrna tin fd%ejg brfens bja tidugit inrsn`h b %bùbm`n

ba%bjtbgn td [russeb$ (h sin iba tin nbr dh tin 9fprnss dh ]usseb

sin lduà pnrsuban inr td turj bgbejst Bustreb bja bea tin ;rnjli$

)y adejg sd, pnribps, n%nj wbr lduà mn b%nrtna bja my inr

jngdtebtejg sce `s Odibjjb6s `bugi wbs g`nnhu`, tin rnspnlt bja

rnldgjetedj wduà wn`ldfn inr jdt dj`y td tin tbm`ns dh )nrèj mut

Mnrsbe``ns :nr inba wbs spejjejg bt tin efbgejna idjdur$

:ba sin mnnj njldurbgna td %deln inr tidugits, fbjy wduàjdt adumt inr sce` s bt rnldgjesejg tin sdùtedjs td 9urdpn6s

dllurrejg prdm`nfs$ Bja et lbfn weti sdfn sbteshbltedj `btnr wie`n

njtnrtbejejg tinsn eanbs td sdfn `baens dh tin ldurt 2wie`n tiny

sldhhna bja sjeggnrna


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tin "f!rnss wbs cnnj td `ddc u!dj tin swnnt lieà's hbln bja sd #

dmègna. # mnènvn tin brtest lbugit wn`` \d!ien's sdht tnf!nrbfnjt

bja nbsy jbturn ynt !nrib!s bjdtinr !drtrbet siduà mn !rnsnjtna.

Qin "f!rnss es fdst cnnj td bl$ubejt inrsn h weti \d!ien's

ècnjnss, bs # ibvn s!dcnj sd dhtnj dh fy jenln bja inr `dvn bjasbajnss bt `dsejg inr ldusej.

(nr #f!nreb` )b*nsty, tin "f!rnss ibs mnnj fdst gnjnrdus

bja # `nbvn [ntnr ej jurturejg ibjas. (nr gueabjln es b m`nssejg td

bjy lieà ùlcy njdugi td rnlnevn et. Djln bgbej fy feja turjs td

\d!ien bja tin mnjnhets sin wduà bttbej eh sin cjnw suli b

mre` ebjt !nrsdj. #t es ujhdrtujbtn et es jdt td mn, mut dur ydujg `bay

we`` bt `nbst ibvn bj nln``njt rd`n fdan` td guean inr ej èhn,

tidugi hrdf b aestbjln. # mea ydu baenu bs # rnturj td "utej.+renareli, Mesid! dh -mnlc.

Qin tnfptbtedj td effnaebtn`y rn%nb` tin ldjtnjts dh tin `nttnr wbs

bj nhhdrt jdt td ejau`gn ej$ 4nt bs Odibjjb njtnrna tin mb``rddf tibt

n%njejg, b ldy sfe`n p`byna dj inr èps, sin jdtelna tin ej8uesete%n

g`bjlns bja pndp`n gbtinrejg l`dsnr td inr$ Bs sin jngdtebtna

brduja tin rddf, lrbffna weti `baens bja tiner %e%ea ld`durna

gdwjs, sin rnldgjesna tin ejtnrnst inr `nttnr iba lrnbtna bja tinfdfnjt mnlbfn n%nj fdrn rnèsiejg td prd`djg$

Odibjjb tddc inr abugitnr6s ibja bja Hdejna inr mrdtinr

5ndrgn bja !ucn Abr`6s mrdtinr, ;rbjles, mdti arnssna ej tiner

jb%y mùn [russebj ujehdrfs$

3[rejlnss +dpien, wduà ydu abjln tdjegit06 ;rbjles bscna bja

+dpien rnspdjana weti b g`nnhu` sfe`n ej bllnptbjln, `nb%ejg inr

fdtinr bja ujl`n td spnbc$

3!nbr mrdtinr, idw ( rngrnt dur `blc dh ldffujelbtedj sejln (ib%n mnnj inrn mut djn lbjjdt egjdrn tin ldfpèfnjts fy pnrsdj

snnfs td njteln$6

3+estnr, ( ib%n spnjt fbjy b p`nbsbjt idur weti +dpien, ydur

bmsnjln ibs jdt mnnj tdd lrun``y hn`t$ Qidugi ejhdrf fn dj tinsn

rufdurs, b`` brn ej annp suspnjsn bs td tin ldjtnjts dh ydur `nttnr,

bppbrnjt`y et wbs snjt hrdf ]usseb$6

35ndrgn,6 Odibjjb iessna, 3et es ste`` ujl`nbr eh tin ldej we`` `bja

dj dur sean, idwn%nr tiejgs brn `ddcejg njldurbgejg$6

3( bf bt b `dst0 ibt es annfna njldurbgejg06

3+dpien6s fbrrebgn,6 Odibjjb mrnbtina$ 3+in abjlns wn``, adns

sin jdt0 ( snn fdrn dh fysn`h ej inr n%nry aby$6


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3Brn ydu sd we`èjg td pbrt hrdf ydur abugitnr0 Qd meja inr td

b lu`turn, rnègedj bja iusmbja wid``y strbjgn bja wibt eh tin

]ussebjs siduà jdt tbcn td +dpien0 Qin abjgnrs brn tdd grnbtK sin

es hbr tdd ydujg td sur%e%n tin ieaanj nte8unttn dh ldurt èhn$6

3ibt lbj mn adjn0 Qin 9fprnss ibs tbcnj cnnj ejtnrnst ejinr$6

31brrebgn wduà mn tin dj`y bjswnr,6 in mrnbtina, erretbtna$

3)ut ydu sbea$$$6

3&dt td [ntnr, td fn$6

35ndrgn, pnribps ydu spnbc ej ibstn$$$6

3duà ydu anjy fn fy lideln dh mrean0 1y pdsetedj ej tin

[russebj brfy es b gdda djn bja et ibs b`wbys prd%eana njdugi hdr

ydur hbfe`y,6 in stbtna, rnhnrrejg td inr iusmbja, [rejln Lirestebj6s,`djg feètbry snr%eln$ 3j`nss ydu lbrn jdtiejg hdr ydur abugitnr

bja aespbtli inr td b ldà, aestbjt, `djn`y anbti$ 4nt ( spnbc binba

dh tefn, herst tin 9fprnss ibs td bgrnn td +dpien bja eh jdt, dur

hbfe`y sib`` mn iufeèbtna bja fdlcna$6

Odibjjb hn`t b lie`` lddèjg inr m`dda$ 3( we`` ldjseanr ydur

wdras weti lbrn,6 sin prdfesna$

B jegit dh annp tiejcejg mrdugit bmdut b fdrjejg dh l`nbraernltedj$ +dpien wbs dh fbrrebgnbm`n bgn bja 5ndrgn wduà jdt

an`by, in wduà prdpdsn td inr$ Odibjjb wduà tbcn sdfn hurtinr

pnrsubaejg mut djln in rnfejana inr dh tin ujlnrtbejty dh +dpien6s

]ussebj njgbgnfnjt, inr dpejedj wduà libjgn$ +in iba `nt inr

efbgejbte%n anùsedjs ldj%ejln inr dh tin efpdssem`n$ +dpien wbs

p`bej, scejjy bja prdjn td mdrnadf$ :nr ejtn``nlt wbs `blcejgK sin

pdssnssna jd sibrp dmsnr%btedjs dr rnpbrtnn$ +in wbs b sn`h-

ejau`gnjt librbltnr, wieli wduà mn ldj8unrna, eh bl8ubejtna wetib adfejbjt rngefn$ 4ns sin lduà mn fduàna ejtd b suetbm`n wehn

hdr b fbj dh ies stbjaejg mut jdt dh b huturn nfpnrdr$

:n sfe`na td iefsn`h cjdwejg tibt in wduà mn sb%ejg tiner

hbfe y tin iufe ebtedj dh pum el rnHnltedj bja reaelu`n d%nr

ldjlnetna bfmetedj$ Qin fdst prdfesejg sdùtedj, aea jdt dj`y

mnjnhet iefK Odibjjb iba ujadumtna`y mnldfn bttblina td +dpien,

et wduà mn iurthu` td snja inr tdd hbr bwby$

jbwbrn dh tin ae`nffb mnejg lrnbtna, +dpien sbt stbrejg dut dh

tin wejadw$ +in wbjtna td p`by dr ruj dr bjytiejg td nslbpn tin

rnterejg mdrnadf sin wbs hnnèjg, trbppna ej ties stehèjg ldurt$ +in


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sprbw`na inrsn`h djtd tin sdhb rnfejaejg inrsn`h dh )bmnt6s

aeslepèjbry wdras$ eti b gegg`n sin sprbw`na hurtinrK mnejg b`djn

fnbjt sin lduà mn aesdmnaenjt$ +ddj inr `bugitnr wbs Hdejna my b

annpnr %deln$ ;ejaejg inr lieàesi ferti ejhnltedus, 5ndrgn `bugina

b`djg weti inr$ 3Ldjtejun ètt`n djn, ( we`` jdt sldà ydu$6 +instrbegitnjna inrsn`h upregit bja gb%n b lurtsny mnhdrn settejg bgbej$

3( mng ydur pbradj, ujl`n, ( we`` jdt fesmnib%n$6

3i, swnnt jenln, et es jbturb` tibt ydutihu` njnrgy fust mn

n?prnssna$ ( bf fysn`h fnrn`y twnjty-hdur bja ste`` ib%n suli

surgns dh ujldjtrd``bm`n n?letnfnjt$ ( tdd jnna dut`nts td n?tejguesi

fy n?umnrbjln$6 :n tddc inr ibja bja cessna et weti %egdur b`djg

inr wrest, tin `njgti dh inr brf, updj inr jnlc bja hejb``y inr

linnc$ 3Ldurt èhn es he``na weti fdjdtdjy, jdt suetbm`n hdr tinydujg wid wesi td n?p`drn$6 :nr nyns weanjna weti n?letnfnjt$

34ns tibt es wibt ( wbjt, td n?p`drn$6

3Qinj ydu fust ldfn td stby weti fn, wn we`` sibrn b`` tin

anègits ties wdrà ibs td dhhnr$6

31bfb we`` jdt ldjsnjtK ( fust gd winrn sin mnlcdjs$6

3:dw %nry aesbppdejtejg hdr us mdti, idwn%nr tinrn es b wby ej

wieli ydu lduà fbcn ydur dwj anlesedjs$ (t fnbjs fn ldjhnssejg

tin %nry anpti dh fy inbrt$ (h ( cjnw fy idpns wnrn wn`ldfn, (wduà rn%nb` b``$6

+dpien stbrna dpnj`y, ldj%nyejg b 8unstedjejg fbjjnr, lbusejg

5ndrgn td ldjhnss ies p`bj sd bs jdt td hurtinr inr ldjhusedj$ 3(

ansern ydur ibja ej fbrrebgn$ !d jdt ge%n ydur bjswnr ynt$ 1y

bafessedj fby ldfn bs b sidlc td ydu mut ( ib%n baferna ydu hdr

8uetn sdfn tefn$ (h ydu wnrn td bgrnn td fy rn8unst ydu we`` ib%n

b`` tin rnspnltbmeèty dh ydur tet`n bja jdjn dh tin rnspdjsemeèty$ (

hnbr hdr ydu, +dpien$ 4du siduà mn surrdujana my dj`y tin fdstp`nbsejg tiejgs ej èhn, tin prnttenst gbrfnjts bja tin fdst

sufptudus dh rddfs, wetidut tin jnna td njgbgn ej bjy inb%y

ldjtnfp`btedj$ ( lbj prd%ean ydu weti ties, èhn weti fn wduà mn

sd fuli fdrn njHdybm`n$6 Qinsn èns hn`` sd nbse`y hrdf ies èps bs b

ger` dh hdurtnnj wduà jdt tiejc td 8unry ies pdsetedj ej èhn$

3jl`n, wibt rnspdjsemeèty ad ydu rnhnr td06 5ndrgn rummna tin

mblc dh ies jnlc$

3+dpien tinrn es jd dtinr prdpdsb` mut fejn$ Ldurtsiep es he``na

weti ieaanj ldfpèfnjts, fnbjejg djn tiejg mut efp`yejg bjdtinr$

ibt ( ejhnr es tibt tidugi ( snn ydur fbjy 8ubètens, et es ujècn`y


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bjydjn n`sn wduà$6 :n ldjherfna tin ètt`n ger`6s wdrst

prnfdjetedjs, sin wbs p`bej$

3jl`n ( ib%n jd dmHnltedj td ydur prdpdsb`, weti fy pbrnjts6

ldjsnjt ( sib`` fbrry ydu$6

3!nègithu`$6 :n l`bppna ies ibjas tinj bmrupt`y turjna updj+dpien bja prnssna fbjy cessns djtd inr èps$

Bs 5ndrgn mea +dpien hbrnwn`` tin fdrjejg bhtnr tin prdpdsb`, sin

b`rnbay rngrnttna inr bjswnr$ +in n?pnltna fdrn hrdf inr huturn

bja inr fdda iba jdt efprd%na my tin n%njejg$ +dfmrn`y sin

Hdejna inr fdtinr hdr tin n%njejg6s njtnrtbejfnjts$

Odibjjb pbttna inr abugitnr6s siduànr, jdt jdtelejg +dpien6s

fn`bjlid`y tdjn$ 3Qinrn es b wesn wdfbj, sin we`` tn`` us durhuturns$6 Odibjjb b%deana dtinrs bs sin mrdugit inr abugitnr n%nr

l`dsnr td tin psyliel$

B sfb`` lrdwa iba gbtinrna brduja tin sfb`` wdfbj, arnssna

ej b abrc gdwj bja inr hbln ld%nrna my b fnsi dh m`blc fusèj$

+dpien lduà hnn` inr jnr%ns trnfmèjg ejsean, ynt inr luredsety

wduà jdt bmbtn$ +in wetjnssna fnj bja wdfnj `bugiejg bt tin

rnbaejgs bs eh ujpnrturmna my tin hdrnlbsts$ Qin pu`` dh fystel

surrdujaejg ties wdfbj mrdugit +dpien td tin %nry nagn dh tinwesn wdfbj6s tbm`n$

3Bi$$$ ètt`n djn,6 tin wesn djn wiejna$ 3n`` ge%n fn ydur

ibja eh ydu ansern td cjdw ydur huturn$6

+dpien p`blna inr ibja ej tin wdfbj6s bja turjna et td rn%nb`

inr pb`f$ 31ff$$$ bj ejtnrnstejg pbti, ydu we`` wb`c$6 :nr %deln

inà b wbrfti bs sin spdcn inr cjdw`nagn$ 34du ib%n ldurbgn bja

brn mdà, pnribps ydu brn fdrn ruti`nss,6 sin anleana$ 3i suli b

h`nsiy ibja 4du sib`` mn b wdfbj dh grnbt anserns$6 +in gb%n b`bugi, rdbrejg bja feslien%dus$ 3*ett`n lbj mn adjn td tnfpnr ties

ansern, tidugi sdfn fby snn et bs ydur wnbcjnss, et sib`` mn ydur

strnjgti$6

3ibt dh fy huturn06 +dpien ejtnrruptna$

3(fpbtenjt ètt`n djn, mn ldjtnjt, bs et we`` mn b `djg wbet ujte`

ydu blien%n tin sce``s td strecn$ &dw `nt fn rnbaK ( lbj snn tirnn

lrdwjs updj ydur pb`f$ jn ibs grnbtnr pdwnrK tin adfejbjt

lrdwj we`` ldffbja ydur huturn$ &dtiejg lbj mn adjn td libjgn

tin ldursn dh n%njts, et ibs b`rnbay mnguj$ Qbcn lbrn, mntrbyb` lduà

bmbjadj ydu td ydur anbti, b tnst dh librbltnr we`` lib``njgn ydu$

Qin swdra es ydurs mut jdt tin sienà, winj prdfptna, ydu fust


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strecn td sur%e%n, tidugi eh ydu fess tin tbrgnt, jdtiejg sib`` prdtnlt

ydu$6

+dpien wbs usinrna bwby my bjdtinr `bay bs aesbppdejtfnjt

stujg wetiej inr linst$ :nr snlrnt idpn tibt bj efprnsse%n anstejy

bwbetna iba aena wetiej tin lryptel wdras dh bj d`a wdfbjspnbcejg jdjsnjsn$ +dpien6s huturn iba mnguj, bja et wbs td mn

weti inr ujl`n$

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