hhs empyrean 2013
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The Empyrean is the literary magazine of Hawthorne High School, Hawthorne, NJTRANSCRIPT
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Creative Writing Club Members
Nicole Crilly
Fausto Dominguez
Ruqaiyah ElSaawy
Amira Helwani
Ashley Hidalgo
Chris Hulmes
Amanda Kearney
Shayla Lugo
Danielle Maggiore
Kristin Miyamoto
Nina Nadirashvili
Julian Parra
Abby Provencher
Frances Rodriguez
Natalie Tousignant
Evan Voss
David Zheng
The Empyrean
Illustrations by Art Club Members
Haley Cimillo
Critsel Costavelo
Josmarie Santiago
Nicole VanderWerf
Creative Writing Club Advisor: Theresa DiGeronimo and Joe Verdon
Art Club Advisor: Danielle Russo
Cover Design and Layout: Alyssa Matos
Production Design and Layout: Ruqaiyah ElSaawy
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Table of Contents
The Last Man on Earth…
Evan Voss 4
Less
Nina Nadirashvili 8
It Should Be Raining
Natalie Tousignant 9
Red Swollen Eyes
Julian Parra 10
The Mediterranean Sea and Me
Adam Kahn 14
She
Ashley Hidalgo 15
Are We There Yet?
Ruqaiyah ElSaawy 16
Because I Can
Ashley Hidalgo 20
Shadowless
Nina Nadirashvili 21
A Proper Poem
Nicole Crilly 24
M&M MASSACRE
David Zheng 25
No Regrets
Abby Provencher 26
Romeo & Juliet
Danielle Maggiore 30
Poetry is…..
Collaborative Poem 31
Beneath the Lies
Jessica Bryan 32
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Ruqaiyah ElSaawy 35
Castle
Shayla Lugo 36
Heaven
Ruqaiyah ElSaawy 37
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A knock at the door. A sound, a prospect that had now left the weary mind of the old
man, suddenly returned to him with a newfound sense of meaning and purpose. By now, all
the people were gone, and his cries for help had gone unnoticed for as long as his memory
could recall. But a knock at the door? What a strange occurrence. The old man moved ginger-
ly from his makeshift couch-bed, turning off his radio and moving to the door. He placed his
eye to the spyglass and gazed around to the ash-barren wasteland he had learned to call
home, scanning for the source of the foreign sound. But his efforts left his question unan-
swered. His mind started to drift to the possibilities…Insanity? Hallucinations? Had the
wasteland finally broken him?
The questions flashed through him in an instant, and just as fast, were shot down when
the knocking came again. This time, more urgent and intense. The noise startled the old man
so much that he almost lost his footing and fell backwards. He groaned, regained his compo-
sure, and grabbed his only means of security: a Smith and Wesson Model 3000. He cracked
open the breech, loaded two heavy-duty deer slugs, and closed it again. Must be ghouls or the
undead again, he thought. Always coming to raid his food supplies. He was tired of their per-
nicious attacks. And this one was dumb enough to literally come knocking on his door. He
laughed at the thought and unfastened the dozen locks and latches on the door. But what met
his gaze on the other side was something neither dead nor cold hearted.
It was a small shrouded figure, just a few inches higher than his knee. A black hood
and garment concealed its entire face and body, leaving a set of glowing white eyes looking
up at him with worry and need. One decent kick would have sent the tiny thing flying. The
old man recoiled at first, aiming his weapon fearlessly at the intruder. It shuddered, making a
faint whimper as it shut its eyes in fear. Then it put out its arm. Along it was a thick trail of
crimson blood that ran between sets of dark markings and tattoos, dripping onto the ground.
But the thing that stuck out the most for the old man was the color of its skin. It was bright
azure, a long forgotten color that now enveloped the man’s complete fascination. It made an-
other whimper, its eyes darting to its arm. The old man stood, still defiant in his surety.
“Now, git’ outta here! Scram!” he barked at the figure. “I had enough of you and your
games, tell you and your friends to leave me alone!”
It didn’t move, and instead stared patiently into the barrel of the shotgun still pointed at
its face. The old man squinted his eyes, waiting for the figure to attack or leap at him, like he
noticed happened with the mutants, but none came.
“You gonna’ move or somethin’? Or do I have to make you move?” the old man said
with a cock of his weapon. He couldn’t trust it; he knew that already. They could be getting
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smarter, he thought. This could be a bait-and-switch tactic to get his rations. But as he looked
closer, something new and clear emerged. The figure had started crying. It was tears at first,
deep blue and clear, like the rivers and lakes the old man used to fish at. But it was when the
tears turned to sobbing and weeping that a fire started stirring inside the old man. He felt
something inside of him click and trigger a wave of feelings that were long gone and forgot-
ten. He lowered his weapon and kicked some of the ash that sat piled in front of his house.
“All right, all right...” he started. “I’ll help ya’ out. But if you try somethin’, I will put
you down without a moment’s notice.”
The figure wiped its tears away shortly after and looked up at him with disbelief. It
nodded to confer its sincerity and proceeded inside the house, under the vigilant eye of the
old man.
As the two entered the house, the figure’s eyes drifted to a tack board that almost com-
pletely covered the one wall of the cabin. Hundreds of photographs of happy, smiling people,
along with newspaper articles and bold headlines were the majority of items of the wall.
Lists, reminders, and other personal notes, hung in a small corner of the board. The creature
gasped in astonishment, but it was inaudible to the old man’s withered ears.
It followed the old man down a dimly lit hall, where the old man pushed open a rotten
door to the spare room he always kept stocked with food and provisions. There was an an-
cient ruined mattress that lay on a rusty metal bed frame near the back of the room. The hid-
den figure climbed atop the bed, and turned to face him, clutching its arm. Its white, faceless
eyes stared at him, waiting patiently.
“Put your arm out, so I can patch ya’ up,” he stated. The hooded figure complied, hold-
ing out its arm while he dabbed up the blood. The arm was so small, a newborn could beat it
in an arm wrestle. He also took notice that the figure’s hand possessed only four small digits.
Then he took out some rubbing alcohol.
“Now, dis' is gonna' sting, but it will make your cut heal better,” he said. Then he gen-
tly wiped the cut with the rubbing alcohol, eliciting a grimace. Then, once properly cleaned,
the old man took its arm, and wrapped it in gauze. After all was said and done, the old man
stood up and gave the figure a stern glare.
“Listen, I don’t know if you can understand me, but in return for my help, I gotta'
ask...” he said. The figure closed its eyes and took a deep breath.
“Could you please take off that hood?”
It looked down upon the ground for a second and then back up at the old man. The oth-
er arm slowly emerged from the cloak, and together, the two skinny arms peeled back the veil
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of shadow surrounding the figure’s head.
The old man’s eyes went wide in astonishment. The eyes that now looked back at him
were not white and foreign, but golden like the leaves of old autumn. Its hair, or what would
be called hair, was long and flowing, and changed colors slowly, shifting through the whole
spectrum. The impish creature lacked a nose, but had two rather pointy ears with earrings and
studs in both of them. Mottled patches of red also appeared near its cheeks and neck. On top
of it all, the figure was wearing a very large, ornate purple crown coated in colorful diamonds
and gems with gold embellishment.
When the figure tried to speak in its native tongue, all the old man could hear were
feminine, high-pitched, and almost computerized-sounding gibberish of congealed words and
phrases. Realizing this, she put a hand to her throat, which pulsed bright blue quickly, before
clearing it and attempting to speak.
“I'm sorry for intruding upon your residence,” she said quietly, in perfect English. The
old man still stood with his mouth agape. “My name is Milena. I am head scribe at the Ae-
grus Center of Arcane Arts and Interplanetary History…” Her crown, clearly too big for her
frame, started to slide off her head, but she caught it before it could go any farther. "I was
wondering if you could tell me...what planet is this, exactly?"
The old man simply stood there, as he felt his mind feeling faint and dizzy. He passed
out onto the couch-bed, making Milena wonder if she had laid her intro on a little too thick.
She sighed and rubbed the grey hairs upon his head, and smiled.
“Thanks for your help, by the way.”
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Less
By: Nina Nadirashvili
I am a servant of a heartless king
On my finger I wear a single ring
As I walk by birds no longer sing
I am a servant of a heartless king
I am a lover of a soulless lord
My tongue sharper than his sword
Creatures listen to my every word
I am a lover of a soulless lord
I am a picture of a starless night
With no defeat in my sight
But there is no hope for me to find the light
For I am a picture of a starless night.
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Today should be dreary.
It does not deserve the golden rays of light,
Warming and brightening the earth,
Spreading optimism.
It is not bleak enough.
It can never be bleak enough
To match my gray consciousness.
It must be deservedly mundane today.
And sorrowful and awful.
It should be raining.
A sad, hard rain enveloping us all in an
interminable tempest.
Reminding, with every flash of lightning, rattle
of thunder, and crash of rain,
That it is over.
That he can never come back.
It must be appropriately dismal today.
And gloomy and dreadful.
Because today does not deserve sunlight.
The sun dare not show herself today.
She is not permitted to peek through the clouds.
To mock with her hopeful rays of sunshine.
When today does not deserve light.
Today should be dreary.
It Should be Raining
By: Natalie Tousignant
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It was 8:09 p.m. The hollow, droopy trees set free their orange autumn leaves as I watched
the cold night drift away. My hands in my pockets, I observed my surroundings, listened to the
crumbling of the gravel against my shoes. I could see the light of the full moon on the cracked side-
walk. The sounds of the wind whistling kept my mind occupied. I walked past many houses on my way
to the store. All I saw were decorations for Halloween, such as bony skeletons set up on porches and
jack-o-lanterns guarding the entrances of the houses. The whole setting intrigued me as I stopped to
absorb the holiday spirit.
One house by a dead end was different. It stuck out from all the others and had a gloomy
vibe to it. The house was a small, gray, boring box-like structure with a tiny, black, antique-looking
car parked out front. A lonely mid-fifties man that goes by the name of Mike with gray hair occupied
that space. My whole life I’d been living in this area, and I had never seen him go beyond his house
and yard. I may have seen him mow his lawn, but he had never had any company over.
On this night, I walked over in front of his house and out of curiosity, I glanced into the win-
dow with the light turned on. I saw him ironing his shirt and watching the news. He then turned
around and we met eye to eye. Don't move, I whispered to myself. We stared at each other from a
distance for about five seconds, and I thought I was going to melt. Goosebumps ran up and down my
back as I started to shake. His red swollen eyes were burning through my soul. Until finally, he
closed his curtains. He was a registered sex offender and was accused of first degree murder. About
five years ago, according to my neighbor, he had stabbed a young woman after sexually assaulting
her. He was charged for sexual assault, but not first degree murder even though all of the evidence
pointed to him. That is why I never try to affiliate myself with his being. Although he had not done
anything ever since, I still didn’t trust him. My heartbeat was higher than average, but I took a
breath, and just kept walking.
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Right next to Mike’s house across the street were my favorite neighbors, Andy and Daniel. I
honestly liked Andy better than Daniel because I’ve known Andy much longer. He used to babysit
me when I was younger when my parents were at work. I stopped by Andy’s house to say hello.
However, he seemed older and his eyes were swollen and red. He told me he was too tired to buy
groceries, so he wanted me to get some for him.
Once again, the decorations on the houses gave me something to think about. I whistled
hymns every now and then, and I was almost close to arriving at the store. However, using my pe-
ripheral vision, I saw a strange white shadow mimicking me. I turned my head ever so swiftly and the
shadow disappeared. It's just my subconscious playing tricks on me on Halloween, I thought to my-
self. I kept walking and once again, I had the weirdest feeling to turn around and I saw another
shadow. I started speed walking to the store, sweat slowly dripping down my face. In the smallest
amount of time, I started seeing ghost-like creatures surrounding me, shouting statements at me.
"What do you want from me?" I yelled.
One ghost responded, "Beware."
Another ghost yelled, "Don't end up like us."
There were fourteen ghosts around me, each with a human-like form. Each one of the ghosts
had scars and innocent blue eyes. One had a stab mark below its neck, and another had a bullet in
its temple.
"Run and never look back," another told me.
"What happened to you?" I asked them, and all of a sudden, they disappeared. "Hello? Come
back!"
It was no use. They left me, in suspense.
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I decided, once again, to start my journey to the store. Until I tripped on a rock. My knee
ended up with bruises and my elbow started to hurt. Looking up at the stars while laying on the
ground, I saw a black shadow circling me, with red swollen eyes. It picked me up and threw me on the
ground again.
"Leave me alone!" I yelled.
But the paranormal activity devilishly laughed and pulled out a knife. I stood up, and just
started running. But the shadow was faster. It pushed me to the ground, and my head hit the ce-
mented sidewalk. I screamed, but no words came out. I felt dizzy, watching the phantom and its knife
announcing their arrival in slow motion. As the blade was getting closer and closer, I was about to give
up faith, hope, life as I know it. Until...
I woke up. My head jerked forward from my bed. I was panting hard with sweat dripping down
my head. As a natural reaction, my hand ran straight for my chest, feeling my heart. It was like it
was going to pop out of my chest. "Phew! Thankfully, that was just a nightmare."
I went downstairs and poured myself a cup of orange juice. The aroma of the orange filled the
room and made me smile. After I drank the juice, the doorbell rang. I walked towards the front door.
My hand turned the knobs and the door opened. I saw a pair of lunatic, yet familiar, red swollen eyes
greeting me at the door.
“Andy?” I shouted, confused.
"Hello, John, Trick or treat."
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The Mediterranean Sea and Me
By: Adam Kahn
How many times I’ve tried to ride the crest of those waves Waiting for the Mediterranean sand beneath
The wind was rough And I was brave It wasn’t enough
And my vessel caved
If I braved the sea I’d walk the shore to our home
Always free Tides of pain alone
Couldn’t make me leave
The waves are unpredictable So are mine
They’d crash in harmony Together they’d rhyme
Nobody to challenge the seas Crashing in time
Find someone to teach you to swim on the shores of hurt
The moon can’t control the waves of her I’d swim but I’m in my best shirt
And my ocean yearns
Endlessly
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She
By: Ashley Hidalgo
She’s the girl that is always laughing and smiling.
The one who can get along with anyone.
No one looks hard enough to see the pain behind her eyes.
At times, her smile is broken;
her laugh fake.
When alone in her room she thinks about dangerous things.
That’s when she lets it all go.
On the outside, she’s crying,
and on the inside she’s falling apart.
She does all she can to hide it,
but it doesn’t work.
She’s a lost soul trying to get by.
Hoping one day the pain will end.
She thinks I can’t see it or understand,
But I do.
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He thought he was going to vomit. Everything was swirling and blurry and loud and noisy and
amazing. He wasn’t sure if the swirling and blurring was him or the rides and attractions. He took anoth-
er look around and spotted an interesting ride. The boy grinned and sprinted, as fast as his 10-year-old
legs could take him, back to his parents, who were seeking shelter from the explosion of color and noise
that was Disney World. Even in the early morning light, the colors managed to shine brightly and dis-
tract, or rather, attract attention all over the park.
“Mom, Dad, we gotta go on the Harry Potter ride first! Please, please, pleeeaaase!”
His parents took one look at his excitedly disheveled appearance and gave in. “All right, all
right. Let’s go!”
The boy brightened, ecstatically rushing to the ride, though he slowed his gait and glanced
backward when his father called out to him. Regrettably, bumping into someone seemed to be the con-
sequence of his inattention. Looking forward again, the boy was caught off guard at the odd sight of a
man garbed in full white, from head to toe. The man didn’t look like he was here with his kids; in fact, he
didn’t look like he belonged at all, whether there with family or by himself. He looked like he belonged
in a hospital, with his white uniform, certainly not in this world of color.
The boy shaken from his thoughts by his father’s arrival at his side, and his subsequent
death grip on his small shoulder. Looking up at his father’s face confounded the boy. His father ap-
peared almost afraid. His face was tense, his lips pursed tightly, his eyes darting to and fro. Yet, strangely
enough, he didn’t seem to be looking at the white man, the oddity. It was as if he couldn’t see him at all.
“Be careful, and don’t leave our sight. You never know what could happen.” It was his fa-
ther saying the words, but his voice wasn’t his father’s. It was a small, whimpering quiver, opposite to the
man’s tight hold on the boy.
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The boy couldn’t contemplate any further, about his father or the white man, who was still
standing there. His mother had finally caught up to them, and she ushered them to the line waiting for
admittance. The boy’s fleeting attentions were caught by the magical Harry Potter props, glowing
brightly, despite the afternoon light. By the time the ride attendee called for them to get on, the strange
man was gone, leaving behind a faint echo of white that the boy was all too willing to forget about.
White didn’t belong in Disney World.
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The family of three returned to the hotel at midnight, leaving the boy exhausted, almost
as exhausted as his parents. The last thing he saw as they sent him to bed was his dad’s twitching eyes
and his mom’s deathly pale skin.
Then there was nothing.
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Waking up was the hardest. He could tell as soon as he woke up that he was back. He
opened his eyes slowly, painfully, staring up at the blank, white ceiling that scared him. White was bad.
White was—
The door opened with the threatening click of a lock. He looked down to see the man. The
blank white man, as white as his clothes, as white as the ceiling. White.
Without saying a word, the man held out his hand, in which there was a paper cup, white,
of course, rattling with the pills it held. Its rhythm sounding like the Disney theme.
The once boy, now teen, quickly snatched the cup and swallowed the pills dry before they
were forced down his throat by the man, although, by now, he knew it wouldn’t be necessary. He knew
the teen took the pills willingly, happily. Why wouldn’t he? The pills sent him back to Disney World to
enjoy the perfect family vacation all over again, away from all the white, to a place with his mom and
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his dad and rides and fun and where the only white came from his innocence.
His eyes got groggy. They were swirling and blurring and he could hear sound in the dis-
tance, getting closer. The last thing he saw before the shapes and colors slowly leeched in was the black
and white news article – never in color – he knew was hidden under his pillow, with the bold headline
stating: “Man Goes Insane, Kills Wife in Front of 11-Year-old Son!” before he closed his eyes and fell un-
der.
~~~
The boy was back, staring at the attractions and rides. He looked around and saw an amazing
ride. Grinning, he sprinted to his parents, who were seeking shelter from the wide variety of colors and
noises that was Disney World.
“Mom, Dad!”
His dad’s eyes were uncontrollably twitching and his mom was pale, deathly so, but they
were there, and so was Harry Potter, and the white, white man wouldn’t be interrupting for a while.
“We have to go on the Harry Potter ride!”
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Because I Can
By: Ashley Hidalgo
You always take advantage.
“Why?” I ask.
“Because I can,” you answer.
You’re always out and leave me behind.
“Why?” I ask.
“Because I can,” you answer.
I try to help, but you say no.
“Why?” I ask.
“Because I can,” you answer.
I try to mend things, but you reject.
“Why?” I ask.
“Because I can,” you answer.
You use me despite everything I do for you.
“Why?” I ask.
“Because I can,” you answer.
“Why don’t you leave?” you ask.
“Because I can’t,” I answer.
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Times have been hard. She can’t remember anymore, can’t recall the time when she
was just like everybody else. Doesn’t remember the time when she lived, loved. And on
some days, she thinks that it’s always been this way—that she was never born, but was
made like a weapon or a fire burning brighter than the sun, because she doesn’t remember
being anything else than what she is now.
What is she now? She pleads and begs to no one, her cries echoing in silence. She’s al-
ways been alone; it’s always been quiet. And so, as horrible as it is, she welcomes those
times when she has to be present for her job to be done, because when she hears the screams
and cries and swearing, her ears remember their purpose.
It’s rare, those cases when human beings have to be forced, dragged. Most of the
time, heart and soul know that the end is inevitable and accept it. But there are those that
fight, cling, tell her that they can’t leave, not now, not when this is just the beginning. And
she thinks she should feel sorry for them, because she knows, she knows all her children, she
knows what they leave behind, and she knows how hard it is for them, even though she
doesn’t remember experiencing it herself.
There are flashbacks at certain times, or so she thinks, but maybe they are somebody
else’s memories that she has come to know as hers, because her mind craves for explana-
tions, craves for something to hold on to, something to know and remember. So she has sev-
eral theories on the matter. One is that maybe she died before she had chance to live. She
has seen it countless times, children not yet born, taken naturally and unnaturally. They
are the ones who fight the most, and are the most gruesome, forever burned in the back of
her mind. Thanks to this job, though, she has grown cold, so she can’t feel anymore; she just
knows what it should be like. She can’t remember the last time she cried over someone she
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took under her black robes. Below…below…below. There’s a thought that runs through her
mind in the darkest of times: when she watches children being taken away, husbands and
wives being torn apart, parent being buried deep in the ground—and all because of her.
Maybe she never did exist; maybe she was always this, this figure bringing nothing but
sadness and, at times, a pathetic form of relief.
It’s an idea that hunts her like a shadow she has never had the pleasure to have, be-
cause for a shadow to be, there must be light, and there is no light here, where she has tak-
en her permanent place. It’s dark all around, and she thinks silly of those that claim to see
the light at the end of the tunnel, silly of those that have hope even after they have left the
earth and the sun, silly of those trying to breath while being buried under the brownish
black ground, silly of those trying to remain while their ashes scatter to the wind, silly of
those who believe…
And, so she has theories about who she could have been, because even for her, even
the ultimate end must have had a beginning. And sometimes she floats in the darkness try-
ing, trying hard, to remember. And sometimes she peeks under the long robe and asks one
of them if they know, but she never gets an answer, and so it’s awfully quiet where she re-
sides. And she wishes she could resign from her job, because Death doesn’t remember her
own beginning, her own end, and this lack of memory follows her around like the shadow
she never got to have.
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A Proper Poem
By: Nicole Crilly
Oh how easy this is made to seem!
An yet I cannot in my wildest dreams
Write a poem with proper theme.
And words that, perhaps, some may deem
Worthy of praise and high esteem!
I often fancy myself a pioneer
Of words and phrases, pleasant to hear
Like Milton and Frost, known as dear,
Dickenson, Whitman, artists revered.
I sometimes indulge I’m a regular Shakespeare!
But when I’m presented with a master errand
To write a poem that one can share and
Be praised as eloquent, intelligent, grand.
Yet there are obstacles to which, is there no end!?
A proper poem will never be penned!
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M&M MASSACRE
By: David Zheng
There was a full moon shining that one chilly night.
All was calm except for, that horrible sight.
The monsters were scary beyond compare.
The beasts would pillage us without a care.
The terror really never ends
For us delicious M&Ms.
For everywhere there were hungry eyes.
And so we fear as another one dies.
As our home wrapper was torn apart,
So was our own, chocolate heart.
But we had tried hard and fought the beast,
To stop it from eating its chocolate feast.
We fought hard with all our might,
But the battle was over in just one bite.
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You came as a surprise. Technically, you weren’t supposed to happen.
Technically, I was supposed to have a birth father and three biological younger
siblings. That’s at least what Mom’s plan was, but because my father took off
before I was born, I ended up with a step-dad and a half-sister seven years
younger than me. It’s all the same to me, though, if not better. Mom wanted to
have even more kids, but there were so many complications when Sara was
born, and the doctor said that having another kid could be fatal for Mom. We
were heartbroken, obviously, but we learned to love our little family.
That’s why you were such a surprise; a terrifying earthquake to our lives,
but not an unwanted one. I want you to know that you were never unwanted.
Part of us was excited at the thought of you, but we were all scared. We were
scared to lose Mom. I was scared that I would hate you for taking her away
from me. We walked around with a fear that only seemed to subside whenever
we felt you kick.
Mom had been feeling off that morning, so Dad took her to the doctor,
leaving me on duty to get Sara from dance. I was in the coffee shop across the
street from the studio when I got the call. I didn’t allow myself to think; I just
answered the phone and tried to slow my rapid heart rate. Dad said he couldn’t
explain much, but something was wrong, and Mom was being rushed to the
hospital for induced labor. I pulled Sara out of her dance class with 20 minutes
left, jumped in the car, and drove to the hospital.
I’m not sure how long we sat in the waiting room before Dad came out.
Sara had fallen asleep almost half an hour before, but I stood straight up out of
my seat. I couldn’t get myself to walk forward, so I stood in place, watching
Dad walk up to me. I don’t know what I was expecting him to say, or even what
I was hoping for, but the first thing he told me was, “It’s a boy.”
A boy. My brother.
But there was still the looming question, the sword hanging above our
heads. “Mom?” I asked.
“The doctors said she’s going to be fine.” I felt a knot release within me, a
grip that had been limiting my breathing for the past few months, finally loos-
ening its hold.
That is until I saw the heavy look that was still gripping Dad’s counte-
nance; “…but,” I bit my lip, fighting back tears as if my body already knew
what was wrong. “They said he probably won’t last the night.”
He. You. Dad meant you. We had been so consumed by the fear of losing
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Mom that we never even thought about the prospect of losing you.
Somehow I managed to ask why.
Dad said you were born too early; too small, too sick to live.
But you were much too young to die.
I asked if I could go see you, and Dad told me you were in Mom’s room.
I expected dozens of tubes and wires to be consuming your whole body,
but there was only one tube from your nose, and two wires on your chest.
You were so tiny. Your fists were clenched, and your nose twitched every
so often as you slept, the same way mine and Mom’s do, although the shape
belonged to Dad. You had a tuft of light-colored hair. There wasn’t enough to
distinguish a true color, but I imagine it would grow to be dirty blonde.
We had taken bets on what color your eyes would be. Dad said you’d have
Mom’s gray eyes. Mom and Sara said you’d have Dad’s brown eyes, the very
same Sara inherited. We all knew you wouldn’t have my green eyes; those came
from my birth father. I personally hoped you’d have your Great Aunt Cecelia’s
sapphire irises. I’d only met her once at Grandpa’s funeral, but I remember
how timeless and beautiful they were, and I wanted you to have them.
Only now, we’d never get to see your eyes. You would never open them.
We would never know what color your eyes were.
People say babies can hear from inside the womb, so I wondered if you
could recognize our voices. The dreary, rational part of my brain was taunting-
ly whispering that you couldn’t understand what was being said, that you nev-
er would. Still, the sinking reality that you would never see us, never truly
know us, led me to scrape up and cling to the small hope that you did recog-
nize us, even if only in an instinctual way.
It wasn’t until I heard her raspy breathing that any portion of my atten-
tion flickered to Mom.
She was lying in her hospital bed. There were dark bags under her eyes,
and the paleness of her skin made them stand out. There was an undeniable
heaviness to her body, and I could sense just how tired and helpless she felt,
but as she watched us, her visage was one of peaceful sorrow.
I wondered what your name was, or if you had been given one yet, but I
didn’t want to ask. I was scared that there would be no answer, that it was too
futile to give you a name. My mother, proving how well she knew me, whis-
pered, “We decided to name him Dominic.”
This stunned me. Mom had always loved Hebrew names, something like
Jonathan, Matthew, or Daniel for a boy, and she had seemed set on giving you
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one. She loved the way they sounded, and thought that Hebrew names were
the most meaningful.
“That doesn’t sound Hebrew,” I said.
“It’s not. It’s Latin. It means ‘Belonging to God.’ I saw it in one of the baby
-name books. I hadn’t really given it any thought, but now it seems perfect.”
I nodded in understanding. I knew what she meant; that you were never
truly ours to begin with. Of course we wish we had more time with you. Time
for you to grow up—to see the person you would have become. We weren’t giv-
en all that with you, but we are extremely grateful for the time we did have
with you.
~~~
Your official date of birth was February 9 at 8:06 at night. Two pounds,
three ounces; twenty-one centimeters. You died February 10 at 4:40 in the
morning.
We never really got the chance to say hello, but we were forced to tell you
goodbye.
The most important thing is that you know you are not regretted. Losing
you created a gap in my heart; a space that was meant for you. It hurts to think
about you, but the short time we had together is worth all the heartache. You
were, are, and always will be, deeply loved.
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Romeo & Juliet
By: Danielle Maggiore
What happens when he’s all you think about,
But you don’t ever cross his mind?
What happens when you get tongue-tied talking to him,
But he talks to you like a childhood friend?
What happens when you try to get his attention,
But he never seems to notice?
What happens when your heart flutters around him,
But his heart beats calm and steady?
What happens when he’s your Romeo,
But you’re not his Juliet?
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Poetry is…..
A simple pleasure; a tiny stone; a mighty treasure. Violins playing a symphony.
The breath of the wind brisking over the mountain. Freedom of life away from scrutinizing eyes.
Artful expression of ideas and life. A collection of plays filled with different themes and stories.
The beverage in a vending machine, tumbling down to satisfy the tongue of one’s mind. The Dunkin’ of donuts.
A secret message from my heart to the world that I share knowing it will be misunderstood. A Collaborative Poem by:
Shayla Lugo, Ashley Hildalgo, Nina Nadirashvili, Jessica Bryan, Emily Parcells,
Abby Provencher, Frances Rodriguez, David Zheng, Mrs. DiGeronimo
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I was coming home from a hard day at work to see my two wonderful children.
Stopping at the store first was a must because we had no more Cinnamon
Toast Crunch and that was Andy and Lucy's favorite. Because there was a storm coming , the store was packed with people buying things they’re going to need in
case they get snowed in.
I bumped into somebody, who apparently wasn't in a very good mood. "Hey watch it lady!" the man shot at me with an angry look on his face.
"Sorry," was all I said.
I wasn't in the mood to start an argument, so I just let the comment go past me. I picked up the cereal for the kids, and a few other important things we needed
and headed up to the cashier. In the next line over, two ladies were fighting over
whether or not the storm is going to be as bad as the weather channel was saying it would be.
Flailing her arms, one lady said, "Oh, all you people are stupid for coming to
the store just to stock up on water and canned food! It's not going to be bad, stop complaining!"
Why she had to make such a scene over what other people thought, I didn’t
know, but that's when the other lady yelled back at her, "Why did you come to the store then if you knew it was going to be so crazy?"
I didn't stay to see the rest of the fight, even though most people were gath-
ered around to see it. At that point, I was actually annoyed from all the people at the store. People were rushing in and out of the parking lot like the world was end-
ing, just because the snow was predicted to accumulate to over a foot. Somebody
was going to cause an accident, and I wasn’t about to stick around to see it. I finally got out of the parking lot, and I was on my way home. I wondered
what the kids had been up to today with Adela. Adela came to America about eight
years ago and had been my nanny since Lucy was about two years old. I found her
on a website designed for searching babysitters. She was kind and seemed to care
about kids a lot. The kids loved her, so I loved her.
I was just about home when I got a call from Adela herself. "Hello. Is it ok if I can get off this weekend?" she asked.
Adela rarely asked for time off, so of course a weekend wouldn’t do any harm.
“Of course!” I said. "You need a weekend off after having to deal with my cra-zy kids."
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"They’re not crazy; really, they’re angels. Thank you so much for allowing me
the weekend off." "Anytime Adela. If you ever need more time, you tell me and don’t hesitate
to ask.”
"I won’t hesitate, but don’t worry, I don’t think there will be any more days I will be taking off after this weekend.” Her voice sounded oddly harsh as she said
this.
"Well, the offer is open always. I have plenty of time that I can take off from work. I should probably get off the phone now so that I can drive home; I’ll just see
you and the kids when I get there.”
“Ok. That’s fine we will be waiting for you.” The line went dead, and I said goodbye to nobody but myself.
Feeling happier than I did at the store, I arrived home. I beeped my horn like I
always did when I got home. Andy and Lucy always came running out to greet me. I got out of the car to get the bags from the trunk, but the kids still hadn’t come out-
side yet.
Weird, they always do. Keys in hand, I took the bags in my arm and walked to the door. It was locked. I fumbled around with the keys for a minute, but finally got
them into the door to unlock it.
"Andy! Lucy! Where are you?" They must be playing a trick on me. Funny kids.
I looked around and didn’t see them anywhere. I first looked upstairs. Nope,
they weren’t there. "Come out come out wherever you are!" By now I was surprised to hear not
even a laugh out of any of them. They were so giggly all the time.
I went downstairs and looked all around. I couldn’t find them, so I yelled, “I give up guys!”
Then, I noticed that the bathroom door was closed. Aha. they must be in
there! They were probably thinking I would never check the bathroom. I opened the bathroom door very slowly. And then screamed.
To my horror I found the worst scene I could ever see, and my life was never
the same again.
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?
By: Ruqaiyah ElSaawy
When things are broken,
what do you do?
When things are broken,
what can you do?
You can patch them up,
but what good does it do?
You can try to fix them,
but does that make them new?
When things are broken,
they never pretend,
and they never forget.
They just are.
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Castle
By: Shalya Lugo
Let me take you to a place free of scars
A place where nothing can cause you harm.
Let me take you to a place beyond pain
A place where flowers grow without the rain.
Let me take you to a place full of prosperity
A place where everyone shows generosity.
Let me take you to a place way up in the sky
A place where no one tells a lie.
Let me take you to a place where lovers meet
A place where all the dreamers go to sleep.
Let me take you to a place free from fear
A place where no one sheds a tear.
Let me take you to a place of make believe
A place where you never have to leave.
Catch a ride on my words; let them take you up
high.
Come with me to the castle in the sky, to the
castle in the sky.
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Heaven
By: Ruqaiyah ElSaawy
Where can you be surrounded by millions of voices,
yet never be bothered?
Where can you travel to parts unknown,
yet never move?
Where can you learn life’s secrets,
yet never near a school?
Where are you allowed to be who you want to be?
That’s my heaven.
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ACKNOWLDEGEMENTS
We would like to give a note of special thanks to the following people who gave
their time and support to help The Empyrean become a reality:
Mr. Barry Cohen and the entire administration for their continued support.
Ms. Russo and the Art Club for their artistic contributions.
Ruqaiyah ElSaawy for her hard work on the production end of this magazine.
Bill Skees of Well Read New & Used Books for arranging our field trip with a
professional author, for sponsoring the fiction writing contest, and for hosting
our launch party.
Authors Alison Formento, Karen Dellecava, Laura Kuehlke and Tiffany Stre-
litz Haber, for sharing their time and expertise as judges of the short story con-
test.
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