chapter 1for karrine

7/31/2019 Chapter 1for Karrine

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Chapter 1 - The Moments Before She Sleeps

The humming of Kayns blood that coursed through her veins seemed to sing along to the steady,

almost tribal, beat of her feet as they pounded rhythmically into the dirt. A veil of earth flowed

behind her; she resembled a flaxen haired angel attempting to outrun a cloud. The cloud of dust

seemed to follow her for a moment or two longer than it should, with not one whisper of wind inthe afternoon air. The smile that spread over Kayns lips while she trained showed that her heart

was overflowing with so much joy that it could not be contained beneath a serious competitive

demeanor. Watching Kayn run was a beautiful experience to behold and people would stop by

the track after school simply to watch her before beginning their long walk home.

Kevin left class quickly every single day, rushed to his locker and fumbled with the lock in a

desperate attempt to get up the hill to that spot in the grass where he would watch Kayn train.

There was a method behind his madness, for his best friend had a twin sister that he had been

addicted to the mere sight of since kindergarten. To anyone else this would make no sense at all

but Kayn was his friend; Chloe was his fantasy.

Kevin shoved past the herds of students trying to pry through a single doorway. He was

accidentally shoved by a girl up against the wall; his bag dropped and his books fell out. His

organizational skills had always left something to be desired. In the congested school hallway,

after taking a moment to collect his papers, he zipped up his bag and continued his quest for his

one moment in the day to be in the presence of the unattainable Chloe Brighton.

Kevin ran up the hill and unceremoniously plopped himself in his usual spot in the grass. There

Kayn was; kicking up dust like a champ. He would time her next lap. Kevin clicked his watch

as his best friend flashed by him. Kevin smiled at her even though he was certain that she had

not even noticed him sitting there yet. Kayn just oozed happy vibes when she ran; it was

contagious.

Her body, lean and freckled from exposure to the sun, glinted with sparkles in the suns rays.Kayn did love that coconut sparkle tanning spray. Kevin grinned as he thought about the list of

strange little rituals that his best friend had on her daily to do list. At the beginning of her run

she did look magical, all glittery like that, but by the end that glitter tanning spray would cause

the tracks dust to stick to her whole body in an extremely comical way.

Kevin had always thought that Kayn was beautiful, but of course this was something that he

would never say to her. Kevin knew that Kayn would probably be creeped right if he ever uttered

words of admiration in her direction. He knew that Kayn had always thought of him as nothing

more than her best friend. It sure is a beautiful day, Kevin thought to himself as he lookedupwards at the vibrant blue sky.

As Kayn took off her blinders for a moment, allowing for a second to appreciate the suns rays

gently whispering across her skin, she experienced a feeling of pure joy that was transcendent.

Kayn kicked up another cloud to outrun as she rounded the corner. Then there came that

pleasurable jolt of electricity that surged through her brain, ignited her soul, and set her afire with

insurmountable joy. This moment in her run had always left Kayn with the feeling that she had


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been given a gift or anointment of physical power. Her adrenaline rippled a winding path of

pleasure underneath her skin.

Kayn hit the straight stretch feeling such unimaginable, euphoric, physical ecstasy that she felt

baptized by the sweat trickling down her forehead to the sides of her face. Kayn Brighton was

alive in this moment in a way that only a runner could comprehend. Kayn was thankful for thismoment and every single time the experience overwhelmed her as it had today, her soul felt just

a little bit stronger.

Every nerve ending was humming, Faster Kayn, go faster. Kayn was an athlete born to pushthe limits of her body; programmed to be a power house. Runners are a breed of their own; they

have their incredible days and their horrible days in a competition. Every day on that track, trail

or wherever a runner chooses to run, it is always a feeling of spiritual completion.

Dont call me baby, by Madison Avenue, was cranked in Kayns ears. She kept pace to the

beat, feeling powerful and strong. Kayn grinned and made eye contact as she ran past her best

friend Kevin, signaling her acknowledgement of his presence.

Kevin sat listening to his music, plucking the long, thin, green strands of grass out of the ground

by their roots. He glanced up to look like he was paying attention when she ran by him. Then,

out of moderate boredom, Kevin continued to inspect the grass like a monkey at the zoo. One by

one Kevin studied the blades of grass and then he threw them behind him.

The next time when he saw Kayn approaching, he waved and displayed a giant fake toothy grin;

a funny thing that he had done since Kindergarten to make her erupt in laughter. She passed

Kevin and acknowledged that she had seen him sitting there being a goof, by shaking her head

from side to side and smiling with her eyes.

Kayn started to walk in order to cool down her overheated body. Her heart began to thump and

pound in her chest like an act of defiance to her now walking feet. Kayn licked the sweat from

her upper lip, tasting its salty pleasurable reward. She took her track dust covered hand and

wiped her forehead to keep the stingy sweat from her eyes. Kayn then wiped the sweat on her

shorts noticing the streaks of dirt mixed with sweat and wondered if she had a streak of dust

across her forehead.

Kayn turned in one fluid movement to greet Kevin, whose grassy scent signaled his arrival by

her side. His giant grin told her that her face was most certainly covered in dirt but he didnt

mention it to her. She loved how he always seemed to look like he was coming to greet her after

she had won the Olympics or something equally spectacular. Kayn yanked the earplugs from

one of her ears without ceremony.

Holy crap,Kevin yelled, thats your best time this year. You are going to kick serious butt atthe finals next month.

You know my earplugs are out Kevin; I can hear you. Kayn spoke quietly with a touch ofsarcasm in her voice.


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Oh you think youre pretty cool because youre fast. Well young lady; plenty of people are fast

but how many people can do this? Kevin retorted. Kevin then did a strange dance moveinvolving a twirl and some kind of running man move as he laughed at her mortification.

Please stop, Kayn said as she surveyed the track and surrounding areas for witnesses.

Kayn Brighton was a pretty girl but she really had no clue how beautiful she could be. Her

naturally curly wheat colored hair hung damp with perspiration in a messy pony tail. Kevin had

often thought that with Kayns pretty face gently speckled with freckles, and her cute nose

streaked with mud, she resembled an Amazonian size forest nymph.

Kevin jogged beside Kayn now in order to keep up with her and was struggling because she

walked with long model height strides. He used to be just the most adorable little boy on the

planet but there was a point where he stopped feeling adorable; that was when his best friend

Kayn surpassed him in height by at least two feet by the end of the seventh grade. As a joke,

their mothers had been planning their wedding since second grade so this was a complication

that they had not anticipated.

Kevin had been in a painfully awkward, acne covered stage for three years now. He was still

adorable, although possibly only to Kayn. However, she did notice that Kevins skin was

looking pretty clear today. This morning there had obviously been some sort of attempt at

hygiene. Kayn smiled at him as he valiantly attempted to jog as fast as she was walking.

You are awesome; I mean that, and Im totally not saying that to butter you up so youll put a

good word in with your sister, Kevin said with a grin that spread from ear to ear. Kevin huffed

and puffed struggling to keep up to Kayns easy pace. She just loved him to death but she had

been letting him down easy for ten years now. She gave him a pat on the shoulder and then

flung her arm around him.

She slowed right down to a casual stroll and then sweetly said, Theres just this one problem

muffin. My sister is way too advanced for you.

Right; thats what you say to all the guys stalking your twin sister, he countered with a grin at

her clever grated way of calling her sister slutty.

Kayn choked back a laugh and said, Yes, as a matter of fact it is exactly what I say to every

single one of them. With a sweet sugar filled tone in her voice Kayn added, I was forced by

the numbers to come up with a token line that I just say to all of them. It just saves time

darling.

Kevins face crinkled into a dimpled grin and he shook his head feigning his distaste. Kevin

retorted in an almost flirty voice, I personally cant believe that after all these years I am merely

a number to you Kayn.

She displayed a giant smile at his attempt at innuendo and would have been flattered had he not

kept the conversation directed towards her twin sister. Kayn gave Kevin a friendly pat on the


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shoulder and said, Just do yourself a favor; take a hint before she pushes your sanity right over

the edge and you become nutty and obsessed like her last boyfriend. Kayn slapped him on the

butt and added, At least have the decency to warn me if you ever find yourself feeling like youwant to wear my sister as a skin coat so I can get you some help. Kevin let out a small jump

and yelp from her slap and shot a dirty look back in her direction.

Kayn tooka fake serious tone and said, How hard could it possibly be to arrange an interventionor a creepy exorcism or something to help you regain your sanity? I would just hate to have to

visit you in a padded cell somewhere. She sent him a sweet, innocent look and waited for his

inevitable comeback.

Youre really very funny, Candy Kayn. Maybe you should have a comedy show or something,

he shot back at her with pure unveiled sarcasm.

It would be way funnier if it wasnt totally the truth, Kayn challenged.

Kayns twin sister, Chloe Brighton, was the perfected version of her. She was stylish and alwaysthe picture of popularity and perfection. People described her with words like captivating,

stunning and provocative. Kayn, on the other hand, was described as cute, funny and a good

runner. It didnt seem very fair; however she loved her sister with blind acceptance. They had

always been extremely close but definitely did not hang out in the same crowd now. To be

honest, Kayn had no crowd at all; it was really just her and Kevin.

The only boys who ever showed an interest in Kayn were usually after her sister, Chloe. Kayn,

being a tad less worldly than her sister, would always fall for them, thinking maybe this time this

guy actually liked her. Kayn would talk to them on the phone for a while, then inevitably they

would ask to come over to hang out or maybe do home work together. Kayn would invite them

over and right when her heart would begin to flutter with the romantic possibilities of a

goodnight kiss or how incredible it would be to have an actual boyfriend, it would happen. They

would always make their intentions obvious by saying to Kayn something like, because we are

such good friends could you introduce me to your sister Chloe?

Friendsa simple word that Kayn had begun to hate at a very young age because of her sister

Chloe. That one simple word had felt like the wind from a breath that would blow out every

single candle she had kept lit inside of her heart her whole young life to date.

Kayn would be blatantly lying if she said that this constantly repeating scenario didnt breed

some resentment towards her sister. Still, she would never let it show. Not once had she ever

freaked out at her sister for stealing her imaginary boyfriends or simply for being morally

bankrupt.

Kayn had learned at a very young age that her sister didnt follow the same ethical or moral code

that most people follow. She had this thing called a conscience which included guilt and a little

voice in her ear saying, Dont do it Kayn. She was pretty sure the voice talking to Chloe said,Do it, every single time and there was really no need for sentiment or morality in Chloes

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The giant self-contained universe that seemed to revolve completely around Chloe was simply

amazing. One could stand with their mouth agape for hours simply listening to the stories of

horrific events that Chloe had caused during a 24 hour period of time. It was as though her sister

was in her own little snow globe completely by herself and life surrounded her. Once in a while

someone stirred up her water but it simply revolved around her like everything else did, neverreally touching her or giving her a second to swirl around losing a second of control. Chloe was

always completely unaffected by the world around her and stood unwavering through lifes

currents.

Kayn couldnt get really get mad at the boys who fell for Chloe though because she truly

believed that her sister had the mythical powers of a siren. Chloe was alluring, enticing and

seemed to have catnip for men on her somewhere. Kayn had often felt like patting her down and

checking her pockets. She wondered how all this game just ended up in one of the babies. They

were in the same womb after all and it didnt really seem fair.

Kevin, the one guy whose opinion she cared about the most, was even holding a candle for hersister and he had known her his whole life. Kevin threw out comments on a regular basis saying

that they could not be more different and he just could not believe they were twins. Put Chloe in

a ten foot radius of Kevin and he couldnt tell you his own name.

Chloe has mad skills in the driving men insane department, thought Kayn. As she stopped

walking and looked behind her, the track was empty yet she shivered a little feeling like someone

was watching her. She watched as a gust of wind seemed to run a trail down the track behind her

stirring the dust up into the air. She needed a rest. I overworked myself today, she thought as she

shook her head, thinking, its smoking hot out and not windy at all. Kayn turned her attention

back to Kevin who seemed deep in thought as well.

Did someone walk over your grave? Kevin whispered in Kayns ear, breaking the silence.

Whenever anyone had shivered around them it would bring up that granny quote that was the

token statement that Kevins grandmother would always use when someone shivered in herpresence. Kevins Granny would always say that you sneeze every time a ghost walks thro ugh

you and you shiver every time someone walks over your grave. The retort would always be,

but Im not dead granny. Granny would answer with, If only you knew how irrelevant theword dead actually is.

Kevins grandmother had always acted as though she had a direct line to the spiritual world and

being as spiritually enlightened as she was, when she uttered those words it made it extra creepy.

Sometimes his grandmother would spend hours just talking to Kayn about her dreams. Granny

Winnie was a quirky, warm, funny woman that loved her from day one. Kayn hated to admit

that she was most of the time on team granny because for some reason she seemed to absolutely

despise Chloe. Granny Winnie couldnt even breathe when Chloe was in the same room. Granny would pretend to gasp for air or make some kind of foul stench related statement

referring to Chloe and on occasion be believable enough to cause a perfect in her own mind

Chloe to smell her own armpits. Chloe, being completely void of respect for her elders or pretty


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much anybody else, would refer to her as a crazy old bat or a witch. Often Granny Winnie would

call Chloe out on an evil deed or two as if she could read her mind.

Strange weather weve been having lately, Kayn thought, watching the clear blue sky change in a

matter of minutes from cloudless to laced with fluffy white clouds. She could smell the scent of

the fresh cut grass; it was almost overpowering her senses. It was so strange that she hadnt evennoticed it until right this second.

The pair walked quietly for a second more when Kayn looked down at her feet and as she

shuffled through the grass she could even hear the grass rustling under her feet. Kevins feetthen came into her line of sight and she raised her eyebrows at Kevin and pointed to his untied

shoe laces. They stopped walking towards the building so he could rectify the situation. Kevin

bent over in front of her, fumbling to quickly tie his shoe before she could think up a smart ass

comment about him trying to kill himself. Too late, Kevin thought smiling, because it was

almost like you could see the little light bulb above her head light up with a funny dig.

Kayn began to speak as if she were reading his obituary. I can see the paper now ; it would readsomething like this; Kevin Smith was a wonderful boy so smart and good looking but a little

clumsy. Had he simply tied up his shoes he would have never tripped down the stairs and found

himself impaled on a janitors broom. Remember kids; tie your shoes; safety first.

Have I told you yet today that youre an asshole? Kevin stated as soon as she finished her

version of his obituary reading. Kayn didnt have a comeback. She just looked around her like

she felt like something was coming.

Kevin leaned in to Kayns ear and whispered, You sure youre okay because youre starting to

creep me out a bit with this cagey behavior.

Kevins warm breath in her ear made Kayn shiver again and she said, No just over tired I

guess.

The way that youre swinging your head around young lady is frankly a little creepy. Kevin

said, raising his eyebrows in her direction in a moderately concerned fashion. He twirled around

in a circle and added, Nobody is coming I swear.

I know, Kayn said. Im just feeling off. Maybe Im coming down with something.

We should be more worried about you ending up with a nasty case of whiplash than meimpaling myself on a janitors broom. Kevin put his arm around her and gave her a buddy like

squeeze. Lets go have a shower, muffin; youre kind of sweaty and sticky. What do you

docover yourself in honey before you go for a run? Kevin said laughing, as he smelled his

hands and said, ewww thats not honey.

Theres this thing called exercise, Kevin. It causes us to sweat removing toxins from our body;its not supposed to smell nice; its waste. Kayn sweetly retorted.


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There you go talking all dirty again literally; its kind of hot all this talk of toxins and waste.

What were your boyfriends names again Kayn? Kevin retorted sweetly yet sarcastically.

You should call up your invisible girlfriend and ask her what her name is, Kevin, Kayn

rebutted as they had a smiling face off moment.

I have a girlfriend, Kayn. Her name is Chloe. She just doesnt know it yet, Kevin replied as ajoke because he knew it irritated Kayn to no end.

Do you know what the difference between you and a stalker is Kevin? Kayn replied sweetly.

Do tell oh wise and mighty stalking connoisseur, Kevin sighed sarcastically.

Whether or not youre wearing her stolen thongs right now, Kayn said beginning to wrestlehim trying to look down the back of his shorts to see if he was wearing Chloes thong underwear.

Hey, hey simmer down. You dont want me to yell rape, Candy Kayn, do you, and I happen tobe going commando so pulling off my shorts is not a great idea today, Kevin chuckled fending

her off.

Gross, Kevin. Kayn backed away laughing, imagining if someone else did it.

Hey I will have you know I have been going commando since my first wedgie in grade five.Once they grab for underwear and dont find any they get very afraid and back right off, Kevinsaid using an authoritative tone.

Kayn doubled over into fits of giggles, I may actually pee myself, she said through bursts of

hysterical laughter.

You learn lots of little things that help you maneuver through geekdom unscathed if youre

crafty you know, Kevin said as they started walking together again.

Sometimes Kayn wished he would make some kind of move on her just so they could see what

more was between them. Kayn could never say it, or try anything out of fear of rejection,

because he was the one who she could never take that from. Kevin had to know logically that

Chloe would never go for him, not in a million years. She valued their friendship too much to let

his testosterone, or what little he seemed to have, ruin everything by rejecting her on again off

again glimmers ofwhat if feelings towards him.

Kayn was starting to grow tired of the fact that more and more of the conversations that they

were having were centered on her sister. Kayn shot a slightly disapproving look at Kevin and

said sweetly, Lets stop talking about Chloe all the time. Frankly Im getting sick of it.

Shush, Kevin said as he put one finger directly over her pursed lips. You know not to speak

of her voodoo powers. They would have a giggle at her sisters expense every once in a while

and then the guilt would set in.


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Kayn loved her sister to death and they were extremely close but of course they were twins.

Finishing each others sentences was as normal as breathing but they had learned when theywere just children to only do that at home and around family. People thought it was weird even

though it is not an unusual thing for twins to do.

Her sister came out of the gate the high maintenance twin. Her parents would say she had

always been a handful and a half.

Chloe Bear and Candy Kayn were the nick names Kevin made up for the twins in elementary

school. Candy Kayn was Kayns nick name because she loved candy. It was cute and what you

saw is what you would get with her.

However her sisters nick name, Chloe Bear, was not because she was cute and cuddly. Chloewould actually growl and scream when she was angry. Kevin said she sounded just like a bear

one day and the nick name stuck.

Chloe and Kayn were identical mirror images of each other, even with mirror image birthmarks

behind their ears. Kayns birthmark was on the right side and Chloes was on the left side. They

were perfect banana shaped red marks and they both would rub them as other little kids would

snuggle a blanket and use a soother. Their mother had always been worried that it would make

their earspermanently stick out but it hadnt.

Chloe was somehow always in trouble and Kayn was always trying to find a way to help her

sister out of it. Sometimes it became a full time job getting her sister out of trouble. In the last

few years Chloe seemed to be in one scary and dramatic situation after another.

Boyfriend involved obsession always seemed to happen to Chloe. She would find herself

running like she was on fire from every boy she had ever attempted to date. They would be

sitting in cars outside of the house in the middle of the night making sure she was really at home.

Sometimes even a random guy would break into their house to steal things that belonged to her.

In the beginning the police department thought Chloe must be doing something to bring all of

this on herself but after she came in for a couple interviews at the police station, and the full

grown men could not help but fawn all over her, they understood what Kayn already knew.

We shouldnt be joking about this stuff. The situations with Dave, Mark and Ian were pretty

harsh, she said in an almost whisper. Kevin turned and gave Kayn a strange look that said,

think about what you just said for a second, and they both broke into a fit of giggles.

A giant stinging slap followed on her spandex running short covered butt. There was Kayn s

sister in all of her glory smiling at Kayn and giving a slight acknowledging glance towards

Kevin. It was really very sad because from Chloes simple glance in his direction, Kevin turnedten shades of red as though she had whispered something dirty in his ear. Hes completely

pathetic; Kayn thought and shot Kevin a strange look.


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Chloe threw an arm around Kayn, then jumped away saying, Ewe, yuck, gross youre all

sweaty. Listen you back stabbing witch, Im not feeling that hot today. Im on my way home.

Do you need a ride? Chloe said sweetly and of course in a slightly sarcastic manner, as shecontinued to grin as if she were posing for a picture. Come to think of it, her sister always

looked as though she was posing for a picture. Chloe always wore a giant, beautiful, show

stopping smile, like every moment of her life was one strange endless beauty pageant.

Chloe had a sarcastic sense of humor that Kayn never took seriously. Nope Im fine ; just going

to go and shower up, and then Im going over to Kevins for dinner, Kayn replied.

See you later jerk, Chloe joked back, and she leaned over and kissed Kayns sweaty cheek and

grimaced. Yes, go have that shower. See you later on tonight, she sweetly stated. Ill be

home around eight, she added.

Kayn just couldnt help herself and piped in, Youre not going out tonight?

Chloe stabbed Kayn with her green cat eyes and sighed, Im grounded.

Whatever for? Kayn smiled sweetly even though she already could easily guess.

Thats for me to know and for you to find out when you get home, Chloe sang back, obviously

not too concerned about it. Kayn was sure that sometimes Chloe got grounded on purpose to get

a break from her social responsibilities. If there was a world record for groundings in a three

year period her sister had it. Bye Kevy. Chloe turned on a dime and flounced away.

Yup, voodoo powers, Kevin said as Chloe walked away.

I heard that, you little stinker, she yelled back.

Kevin and Kayn turned, walking side by side, towards the fitness center. Kayn met his gaze and

casually said, I bet when you thought of sexy nick names she would call you in your fantasies,little stinker wasnt one of them. Kayn just couldnt help herself. He left it wide open and she

was on a roll. Kevin turned around and unceremoniously socked Kayn in the arm.

They continued walking side by side. Kayn stopped, turned around and said with a serious tone

in her voice, You hit me on my arm. I cant believe you would do that. Kayn glared at Kevin

and feigning pain rubbed her arm and looked genuinely upset.

I was just kidding. I didnt actually hurt you did I? Kevin said, looking genuinely concerned.

He knew he had been had when Kayns serious look crumbled into a grin and she said, Woman

abuse, and smoked him on the arm twice as hard.

What woman, I dont see a woman anywhere around here. Oh you mean you, he countered as

he rubbed his still throbbing arm. Kevin pretended to be looking around for a woman that he

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I will butt you out like a cigarette little man! Kayn made a fist for a joke duel. Kevin scowled

at her. Oh nothe look. Game over. Whoops, she knew she went too far. Its all fun and gamesuntil you make one too many short jokes with Kevin.

I am not little, he stated in a matter of fact tone. Kevin was starting to get a little testy.

Okay, how about vertically challenged, Kayn said innocently. She was digging her own grave

and she knew it. Kevin could argue for hours. He could debate about something forever and

wear anyone out. I might look short to an Amazonian like you, Kevin countered.

Touch, Kayn said smiling. She did know better than to push it anymore because if he kept it

up, the laughter she had been trying to suppress would escape.

Five foot eight and a half is not that small. Everyone in my family is tall and I am still

growing, Kevin said as his voice cracked a little. Kayn doubled over laughing. She couldnt

help it with the well time voice crack and the I am still growing speech. Can you please bedone laughing now, Kevin said as they walked into the fitness center.

Ill see you outside in fifteen minutes, you sexy stud, Kayn said in a sultry voice. She was still

grinning as she pushed through the door to the girls change room.

Quit mocking me, Amazonian woman, he yelled dramatically.

As Kayn entered the change room, Kevins last joking retort seemed to bounce off the amazing

acoustics in the cement and tile change room. Her feet were throbbing a bit from her shoes and

the tiles felt icy on her hot feet. In a matter of months she had already worn her shoes out from

running. It had to drive her parents completely crazy to have to replace her running shoes so

many times in a year. She decided she would wait a while before telling her mom about their

status. Kayn surveyed her shoes; the rubber worn right down till they were almost void of the

cool treads that they had when they were new. She dropped her shoes. The thumping sound on

the tiles echoed and seemed to bounce from wall to wall.

Kayn was just dying to sing in the shower but always afraid that someone would walk in on her.

She pulled her tank top and bra off and looked into the mirror. With a clear view of the room

around her she could see that nobody else was there. She was alone; comfortable except for her

icy feet. She thought of Kevin waiting. Then she remembered that there was a coffee machine in

the lobby by the pool. Kevin was probably having a coffee and watching the girls swim team; he

was fine.

Kayn stripped down and stood naked in front of the mirror for a second. She pulled her hair out

of her pony tail and it fell in damp lose ringlets across her bare shoulders. She tilted her head to

one side and posed seductively with a smile as she surveyed her reflection.

Kayn Brighton was not hard to look at and she knew that she was a pretty girl. Maybe I should

start wearing makeup to school, she thought to herself. It frustrated her a little, being the funny


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kind of dorky twin. Her face was freckled and tanned from hours upon hours of training in the

hot sun. In the winter time all of her freckles went away and her skin was porcelain white. I

could look just like Chloe if I wanted to, Kayn thought, sucking in her cheeks and then plastering

a giant pageant style smile across her face.

Kayn walked towards the shower stalls; the tile flooring chilly on her feet. Kayn stopped againand glanced over her shoulder at her reflection in the mirror. The conversation with her sister

flashed through her memory. Chloe was feeling sick today; thats what was going on with her

then. Kayn quite often had sympathy illness whenever her twin wasnt feeling one hundred

percent.

Kayn turned around, pulled the plastic curtain to the shower and leaned in to turn on the water. It

began to tap dance against the bottom of the stall and when it was just the right temperature she

stepped inside. She smiled as the water beat against her weary tired muscles and she began to

lather herself up with the nice scented pump soap. Today was her lucky day; a fresh full

dispenser of soap, shampoo and conditioner. She didnt even have to reach down and find her

own in the bottom of her gym bag.

With her favorite running song still going through her mind, she started humming a few bars and

then began to sing the words. Just then she heard the door open and quickly silenced her singing

voice. She hurried through, rinsing herself off and quickly towel dried her hair. She ran her

brush through her hair and put it back in her pony tail. As she passed by the mirror again

glancing at her reflection, she wondered if Chloe ever felt like she wanted to be more like her.

She quickly blew off that completely nutty thought.

Kayn was five minutes younger than her sister Chloe, but her twin acted five years older. Kayn

had no voodoo powers with men; she was awkward and definitely had no game at all. She

wondered if she asked Chloe how she did it, if she would she teach her somethinganything to

have someone ask her on a date before she was eighty years old.

Kayn had to admit it bugged her that Kevin obsessed about Chloe still; not that she seriously

liked him or anything because that would probably not be a good move friendship wise and there

was that word againfriends.

Kayn towel dried her back again, feeling trickles of water from her still damp hair trail down her

back. She stood in her underwear and thought, do I really like Kevin? Kayn shook the thought

out of her head and whipped her clothes back on. She grabbed her bag and hurried out the door,

hoping he wasnt too frustrated waiting for her. She forced open the door with an overexaggerated grunting sound.

Kevin was sitting on the railing waiting patiently and looking up at the sky with his mouth agape

in a totally comical way. Kayn walked up beside him and said, Trying to catch flies?

Always, Kevin replied with a dimpled grin and quick wit.


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What are we looking at? Kayn said as she stared up toward the heavens and made the same

face.

Come with me, Kevin said and grabbed her hand and they started to walk towards the field. It

felt like they had done just this same thing a thousand times. Kevin lay down in the grass and

she lay beside him.

Oh wow I get it; look at how fast the clouds are moving. Its almost creepy. Wow, I wonder if

theres a storm coming, or something, Kayn thought aloud.

As Kayn lay peacefully in the grass, suddenly there was a sharp pain searing through her

stomach. She grabbed her stomach, sucked a deep breath in, and gasped, What the hell was

that.

You okay Kayn? Kevin sat up and touched her arm concerned. Kayn winced again and

doubled over, her insides afire with another strange penetrating pain. Kevin placed his hand on

her stomach, watching her face calm and the pain disappear again as quickly as it had begun.Kevin looked at her and stated, You need a big glass of water and dinner.

Kayn stood up, trying to shake off a feeling of danger replaying in her mind, but with the pain

suddenly gone again she said, Yah thats probably it.

Did you skip lunch again? he scolded with a disapproving look on his face.

I do believe that I did not eat lunch today. There was a very simple explanation for the sharp

undefined pain that she was experiencing. Kayn was often practicing at lunch time and would

forget to eat. She felt the urge to look behind her again. She looked around in every direction

trying to shake off this uncomfortable feeling that had been plaguing her all afternoon.

Something in her mind was saying, be careful Kayn.

She shook it off again, remembering that the last horror movie that she had watched with Kevin

days earlier had taken place at a lake. There they stood by the turn off to Lakeshore Drive; its

all in my mind Kayn thought and started to laugh a little at her seriously over active imagination.

Kevin had looked a little concerned earlier but he now had obviously recalled the hillbilly

cannibal movie that they had watched the week before. He kneeled in the grass and picked up a

handful of it and he smelled it.

Just what I thought, he said looking seriously concerned now.

What is it, Kayn said to his ominous tone and the hand full of grass that Kevin now held in his

hand.

Its hillbilly urine; we had better get home before they come to eat us. Kevin said

overdramatically with a giant grin.

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Okay lets go to my house. Its got to be like five by now; dinners probably on the table,

Kevin said and smiled again. They looked at each other and smiled and started running through

the field before the trails. This was the ritual race home they had since they had first been

allowed out of their yards alone as children. Kevin, always sneaky and knowing with fair play

there was no possible way to beat Kayn in a running race, shoved her over per usual and she fellwith a gentle thump into the grass.

Cheater, Kayn yelled, out of breath as Kevin kept running away from her. She lay sprawled

dramatically in the grass laughing. Kevin was laughing hysterically as he spanned a good

twenty feet ahead of Kayn. Cheater, Kayn yelled again and slowly rose to her feet spitting out

the freshly mowed grass from her mouth. She would let him win; it was good for Kevin to win

sometimes. Kayn could take one for the team today, especially to see Kevin this happy.

Kevin let out an obnoxiously loud cheer as he vaulted over the fence to his yard. He raised his

arms in a silent fake fanfare and took a bow. He had so never won once graciously in the whole

ten years of their friendship.

Sure enough, they walked inside Kevins house to the amazing smells of his mothers cooking.

Kayns stomach started to grumble the second that they walked inside the house and the

delicious aroma filled her senses. Kevins mom greeted her with a giant bear hug and said,Hello there beautiful. Go wash your hands and Im not going to ask you why you are both just

covered in grass. Kevins mom raised her eyebrows curiously and added, We are at the table

ready to eat so hurry up you two.

Kayn glanced into the mirror and pulled the grass out of her hair letting a little smile escape as

she washed her hands in the bathroom sink. She started giggling as she thought about how bad it

looked when two teenagers of the opposite sex showed up covered in grass. Well, anyone else;

with them platonic wrestling would be completely normal. Kayn was sure that if her dad walked

in and they were wrestling on her bed he wouldnt even flinch.

Kayn went and sat at her usual spot at the table with his family. They mirrored her own

strangely personality wise cracked jokes and talked loudly about their day.

She loved everything about the Smith house, from the mismatched frames filled with family

photos in the dining room to the extremely outdated green shag carpet in the living room. The

living room was completed with a mismatched, yet cozy, couch set with two fluffy lounging

felines that could be easily seen from the dining room table.

Kevins granny sat at the end of the table, her wispy white hair wildly untamed. Kayn could

easily picture Kevins granny as a beautiful younger woman. There was a black and white

picture in the hallway. Beautiful didnt quite explain granny in her youth, for she had been

enchanting. Winnie had rich golden curls that framed her narrow aristocratic face. She had

looked as thin and frail as a fawn but there was something dark and treacherous in her eyes.

Granny wore the same shade of dark blood burgundy colored lipstick even then. She always

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seemed to have something stuck in them. If she got some false teeth it would make her look ten

years younger but she truly didnt care in the least.

Granny stared at Kayn the whole meal without speaking a single word to her. It was very

unusual. Kayn couldnt help herself and said,So how are you doing today, Granny Winnie?

Im good today, but you are not doing well, are you love? You are usually very yellow andtoday you look very blue, Granny answered in a cautiously guarded manner. It was as if she

were afraid of the words that may slip from her lips.

Kayn had some stomach pain earlier; shes probably coming down with the flu or something,

Kevin answered for her.

Maybe thats why, Granny Winnie said as she glanced back down at her plate looking like shehad more to say but was choosing not to speak. Then she looked up and directly into Kayns

eyes with unmasked sadness and said, Well, what will be, will be. Granny stood up and

walked over to Kayn, hugging her so tightly that she had to squirm away in order to breath.Sitting back down at the table, Winnie continued to stare at Kayn who looked pained in some

way herself.

Kayn wanted to ask what she meant by that, but just figured she was completely mentally and

physically exhausted and really wanted to go home to bed. She wasnt into a three hour

conversation with Granny about spiritual things right now.

Kayn excused herself to go to the bathroom, and called home on her cell. It went straight to

voicemail. Chloe was probably on the phone; heaven forbid she would ever have an emergency

and need to talk to her own parents.

Chloe had a cell phone too but was always grounded from it, yet they still let her talk on the

landline which meant nobody else could get through, because heaven forbid, someone spend two

dollars on an extra line or call waiting.

Kayn sat on the toilet and went to call her mom s cell; she was obviously going to be a few

minutes late tonight. Then she put her phone down after leaving a message and snuck down the

hall to Kevins room for a quick prank or two before she went home.

After dinner Kevins mom gave Kayn a bag with some fresh eggs in it for her mom. The moms

had this thing they did. We were always sent home with gifts.

It was starting to get dark so Kevins dad dropped Kayn off. She thanked him with a big hug,

and got out of the car. The air smelled amazing, like cherry blossoms in full bloom. It had been

raining while they were inside having dinner.

Kayn stepped out of the car, into a puddle, and twisted her ankle. Of course, she thought to

herself. Soaked foot, eggs and school bag in hand, she limped up the steep driveway toward the


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front door. The door was partially open which was not normal. However it was a little windy out

and quite normal for the door to be unlocked, so maybe it was left ajar, flung open by the wind?

She turned around to see that Kevins dad had driven away.

Kayn felt off; apprehensive, as she walked toward the door that seemed to have a life of its own.

The door shifted from cracked open to shut in the wind. She looked at her cell phone. The timesaid it was quarter after eight. She thought they were playing a game with her; leaving the door

open and lights off like this to freak her out. She thought Chloe was probably hiding around the

corner. Practical jokes were the norm in her household.

It was almost dark outside. Kayn stopped again for a second time, feeling uneasy for some

reason as she walked up the long gravel driveway. Her heart felt tight and her chest felt hollow

as she paused again. The surrounding giant trees made it extra dark in her yard. The slivers of

light flashed through the trees as they moved in the wind.

They lived in a beautiful area but very isolated. Kayn shoved her cell back in her pocket and

pocket dialed Kevin by accident. She stepped towards the darkened doorways threshold andpaused for a moment again before pushing the doorway completely open.

Im home, Kayn yelled as she walked in the door, kicking off her shoes and dropping her

school bag. She tried clicking on the front hall light; it was burnt out or something. Kayn had

seen lights on upstairs as she walked up the driveway so she knew the power wasnt out. Its just

a burned out light bulb, she thought to herself.

As Kayn tried to pull off her wet socks, she tried to balance on one leg, but a small stab of pain

from her freshly twisted ankle caused her to put her hand against the wall in order to balance

herself. Her hand slid off the wall and she struggled to pull her second soaking wet sock off.

She massaged her ankle for a second and noticing it was swollen, said aloud, Great, there goesthe track meet.

Kevins mom gave us eggs, Kayn said, speaking in almost a whisper, suddenly aware that sheseemed to be alone in the house. Where would they have gone this late? Her mind began to sort

through the possible scenarios.

MomDad? she called out from the front doorway.

Kayn was answered by silence, and then, touching the wall, she felt the stickiness on her hand.

She held her hand up to the faint sliver of light streaming through the trees that made it to the

door way. There was blood on her hand; a lot of blood. Ripples of adrenaline crawled through

her body and she felt as if thousands of spiders had run across the surface her skin.

Kayn froze for a split second, paralyzed with fear; shivers of terror crawling across her flesh.

She started to gingerly step backwards out the door. She saw movement in the form of a dark

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Kayn heard her sisters voice scream, Run Kayn. It was raw, primal and shrill. Kayn turned

and ran, bringing the eggs with her. There was someone right behind her; Kayn could sense him

there.

She knew there was no time to look behind her. Kayn ran with no rhyme or reason in the

direction that she was pointed in. She slipped in the wet grass, turned around somehow and thenshe saw the opening to the trails in the distance. It seemed to beckon her towards its mouth.

The neighbor behind them was closer than the neighbors on either side of them, making the trails

a somehow logical yet illogical split second decision. Kayn wasnt able to think or breathe andher basic animalistic instinct for survival was guiding her.

She had let go of the bag of eggs half way across the back lawn; throwing them behind her,

hoping to slow her attacker. Kayn sprinted towards the trails opening, its entrance overgrownwith foliage. She burst through the branches which had partially hidden the familiar pathway.

The branches of the prickle filled blackberry bush tore at her flesh as she pushed through. The

pain heightened her survival instinct which had possessed her. It was only this which drove herforward.

Kayn barreled into the overgrown trail, forcing her way through where she instinctually

remembered that the trail had been. She had played in these trails as a child and she knew every

hiding spot possible. There was no time for strategies or thinking; the crunching of leaves and

twigs in the pathway behind her told her he was close; far too close to do anything but react.

Kayn slipped in the mud again, skidding, yet not falling. She ignored the stinging of her knees,

thrusting her body with a violent jolt as if starting a run on the track. Kayn had now lost that

precious half a second lead; this had allowed her hunter to close the space between them.

Her heart pounded through her chest like it was going to burst right through her skin as her tired

legs propelled her body through the winding bike trail. The rocks and clay mud cut her bare feet.

The twigs and branches whipped at her legs and the prickle bushes sliced at her flesh. She

maneuvered instinct driven down the overgrown pathway.

You have to run faster Kayn, run faster, her sisters voice mind screeched inside of Kaynsterror driven mind.

Kayn heard the branches crunching behind her; the person in the dark hallways rhythm, as steady

as the rhythm of her running. He was so close behind her that she could feel his breath on her

hair and neck as he panted. He was almost touching her. He was so fast, inhumanly fast; she

needed a rush of adrenaline to edge her ahead.

Kayn could see lights from someones house peeking through the trees. She was going to makeit, she thought, as her bare feet pounded over the rocks and twigs slashing at her ankles and legs;

she was almost there. She drove herself forward knowing she had only half a second lead from

the hunter that pursued her. She was almost to safetyjust over the creek. Her bare feet hit thesmall wooden bridge she was almost there.


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Kayn felt the elation of victory as she was about to burst through the bushes when she felt hot

fire plunge into her back. Her eyes widened in terror as the knife plunged through her again; its

blade seared a molten trail of excruciating pain through her body. A sweaty hand muffled her

gasp of shock, as she sunk to her knees in disbelief.

Her captures arms were slick with perspiration; like a python, they constricted around her neckcrushing her larynx. Screaming and pleading for her life would now be impossible. He

continuously brought her to the brink of strangulation and then shook her awake, harshly

reviving her.

Kayn tried to close her eyes; maybe he would believe her to be gone. He would leave her in the

trails to bleed alone, allow her to peacefully slip away becoming one with the forest floor around

her. Instead, every time her eyes slipped shut she felt the slicing, searing pain of his knife again

and again in her stomach and chest until her eyes would open wide with terror. The next pain

stole Kayns breath causing blood to sputter from her mouth. She gazed ahead of her and through

the trees which were glimmering in flashing flickering light; she saw a figure in the distance.

Help me, oh god please help me; see me please, Im right here, Kayns mind screamed. She

could see his shadow on his patio through the trees in the luminescence of his porch lights; he

was so close. A man was on the back porch having a cigarette.

He punched her stomach or cut hershe was unable to distinguish one kind of brutality from

anotheronly something else searing a hot excruciating fire through her stomach. Hes killingmeplease, her soul pleaded as her vision blurred from her tears. Kayn couldn't speak; she tried

to scream; her throat crushed, the only sound she could make was a gurgling as she choked and

sputtered out her own blood.

Why, why are you doing this to me? her mind cried to the stranger who breathed quickly with

joyous excitement and stimulation in her ear. She felt the competing rhythms of their pounding

hearts; her back against his chest. She saw the twigs and rocks on the forest floor around her.

Kayn could smell damp moss and the scent of tree sap and the sweet metallic taste of her own

blood.

On her hands she could feel the warm stickiness that she bled out into the dirt, trickling down her

arms as it was escaping from her body. Her clothing was heavily soaked in her essence that

moistened the earth around her.

He let her go for a second; she landed on all fours and tried to crawl away but she couldnt will

her body to move forward. She couldnt breathe. She was on her knees taking small shallow

breaths, clawing at the ground. His hot repulsive breath and quiet laughter was in her ear again

and then he began whispering things that Kayn couldnt understand. His hot sweaty body wasbehind her pressing against her back. She felt her stomach churning, revulsion mixed with

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She tried one last struggling movement to get away from his grasp, and then suddenly felt some

horribly blinding pain across her head and face. The lights flickered and then went out.

In the woods lay a bleeding angel in all her glory. Her arms posed gracefully above her head and

her hair soaked in the mud, the blood and feces in which she lay. Dying, fading into the other

realm, her form christened by the rain as though the trees had begun to weep upon her in sadnessfor the brutality she had endured.

There was someone waiting in the trails; a dark presence lingering nearby waiting for her to

regain consciousness.

Kayn awoke in frigid darkness. The pain that pulsated through her seemed to recycle in waves

until it began to slowly dull and became a tolerable numbness. She struggled to open and focus

her eyes. She could smell a familiar scent; it smelled overpoweringly sweet but somehow like

metal. Kayn could taste the sweet repulsive flavor of it in her mouth; it made her want to vomit.

She was lying in mud and she felt hot stickiness behind her. She suddenly remembered what thattaste had been. It was her own blood that she could taste inside of her mouth. Kayn could barely

breathe. Shuddering, she began to remember the brutality that she had endured. Her mind began

feeding her slivers, flashes of inhuman violence. Her mind numb and confused from blood loss,

clicked through scattered memories from her childhood.

Help me please, her mind pleaded into the forest through the tapping sounds of the rain hitting

the branches above where she lay. They seemed to be shielding her and as her vision came into

focus she imagined the lush green branches above as giant arms. They protected her, covering

her from the elements allowing her one last peaceful moment. They are beautiful, she thought.

Her mind wandered through mystical visions of the majestic cedar trees alive and somehow

capable of offering her protection.

Her suddenly peaceful smile on her face that had been contorted by pain signaled his essence

back to her. Her vision came into focus and again this time the trees crackled and mocked her.

Youre going to die you silly bitch, they seemed to chant. They waved their branches, howling,

as the wind whistled through the trails which had suddenly grown icy cold. Kayns mind

snapped back to reality; she had lost a lot of bloodnone of this was real.

A man stood by that same tree whose imaginary arms had shielded her from the rain; still

waiting, veiled in mist. The change in temperature had caused the forest floor to come alive with

a dancing mist that seemed to add a thickness to the tapping sound of the rain drops. The tree he

leaned casually on had damp bark and his fingers were beginning to prune. He stood up

removing his hand and wiped it on his pants in disgust.

Writhing in the mud, Kayn willed her body to move; her fingers clawed at the ground around her

until she was spent. She lay in stillness for a moment, feeling like a half dead animal waiting to

be finished off by its hunter. She concentrated on each breathin and outa little air. She was

alive. It felt like she was breathing through a straw and somebody had pinched the end.


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The streams of light from the moon that had been dancing through the dark stormy clouds had

now disappeared, leaving only a cold dark night with no final visions of beauty. Kayn longed for

some light but was left with only the flickering of blurry dark images. She couldnt see anythingin the absence of light and began to panic again, for she could feel her grasp on her life being

absorbed into the mist. Im so scared; I dont want to die; please help me, her soul sobbed.

The only answer was the crackling quiet sound of the rain.

Kayn couldnt see anything at all now with her vision clouded with tears, so had to stop herself

from crying. Her head pounded with blinding pain that had abruptly returned. She could sense

that he was still nearby watching her. His dark shadow loomed in the distance as it had in the

hallway of her house.

Please, please, no more, Kayn begged in her mind as he came closer to her, standing a few feet

away from her now, just watching with his head tilted to one side. Her heart was begging,

Please dont hurtme anymore.

Kayn was trying to wriggle but no movement came from her thoughts now. She willed herself tograsp at the moist cold earth with her fingers. She was unable to move at all; now her body was

nothing more than a broken shell. It was cruel, almost horrific, for her mind to still see; to still

desire life at this point. Kayn looked into his eyes and pleaded through her mind again, why are

you doing this to me?

She was so cold her body gave an involuntary shudder. Kayn realized then that she was naked,

completely exposed to the elements. Why was she naked? Her eyes were full of tears again;

she felt instant, almost overwhelming shame.

Kayn could still feel the sticky heat behind her as her blood drained from her body, soaking into

the dirt. The pain in her head began to numb as the lights through the trees began to flicker

again.

The dark mass of her violator suddenly appeared beside her, leaning in so close that she could

smell his putrid breath, moist over her face. Every hair on her body was standing on end. The

electrical power between Kayn and the man in the dark was like a charge. He ran a finger over

her exposed breast saying, You were never to be born; this situation had to be corrected.

Kayn saw his knife glint in the light from the moon. It was raised above her chest. Yes, she

thought, let it be over now. She shut her eyes as the knife sliced into her chest. Kayn opened her

eyes again with acceptance; she felt no more pain. She stared deeply into his eyes as hers filled

with tears.

He tried to regain his composure and with a voice thick with emotion he said, To this life untothe next. He slowly began to cut some kind of symbol on the skin on Kayn s chest above herheart. She lay limp in his arms, still conscious of what was happening, yet free from the pain and

fear now. He pulled her close to cradle her naked body in his arms like a baby, rocking her

broken violated flesh in his arms, stroking her blood soaked hair. He began to sob as if he was

repentant in some way for how he had tortured her.


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As her vision flickered one last time, the man was gone; it was her mother looking into her eyes.

Her mothers eyes were filled with so much love that it seemed to release her from her pain andfear as it did when she was a small child. Her mother cradled her as a baby, rocking her back

and forth. She was safe now in her mothers arms. She was at peace. Mommy, her heart sang,

youre here to save me.

The warmth of her mothers love enveloped her tortured soul. She looked into her mothers

eyes. She touched Kayns face and started to sing a song that she had sang to her every night

when she was very small.

Sleep, sweet sleep till the morning

Just dream away and close your eyes

My love you'll be safe until the morning

Sleeping in my heart, all through the night

Although bad dreams come to scare youMy love will scare them all away

My heart

The lights flickered, the pain went away, and her mother was holding her, singing Sleep sweetsleep.


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