The Day I packed for Heaven

The Day I packed for Heaven MARIA PELISEK

The Day I packed for Heaven World of FearWorld of FoolsOn the Borders of the WorldsAbout Maria Pelisek

1. World of Fear Chapter 1Chapter 1Welcome to my world, said the first one and dealt out the cards.I was given her number by a friend, and I politely expressed my thanks.She is supposed to be very good, she helped to cure famous Czech author from cancer, she does not take anybody, said my friend after she had first complimented my short hair. I doubted her straight away. I was surprised to receive something I have not asked for, something so irrational, untrustworthy, and pointless. I forgot about her the same moment I learned the womans name and only thought of her months later, when Claire was searching for a healer. My friend Claire had tried to conceive for years, running from one doctor to another, trying all the possible treatments and hormones. I gave her the number and said what was said to me, Apparently she is very good.They phoned the healer, Claire and her husband and she asked them to stay there for a weekend, somewhere in Southern Bohemia, convincing me she is just trying to milk them for money.

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The woman knows nothing about them yet she wants them to remain there for a weekend? I never met anybody like her and had no plan to do so nor would I believe in her, nevertheless, I was actually quite curious. Ask her about me, will you? I said to Claire before she went off. Just in case I thought, if she knows something after all. I remember every single detail of that warm October day when I was told about plans Future is holding for me, the warm rays of sun tickling my face, the streets of Prague where we met in order to discuss the mysterious woman and her way of healing. I was eager to know how one heals without drugs. I arrived early as usual with a head full of memories and a wounded soul, but not wounded enough for me to do anything about it.I had brought with me some good news. Chemotherapy had destroyed all the cancerous cells and my body was cooperating right from the start, a privilege not granted to everyone. I was given a month without treatments, thirty days, so that my body could rest from all the drugs, to rest in order to be strong enough for radiation. One month when I did not have to dread what is ahead of me or to worry how my body is going to deal with all the toxicity inside it, one month to sleep peacefully without the fear of unknown.

World of Fear Chapter 1I was glad I had time to recover and feel little bit as I used to feel before, a healthy girl who goes to cafs instead of hospitals. I recall Claires strong embrace, which always let me know she would stand by me no matter what, her smile and shrugged arms when she apologised for being late.I recall the sun drenched table and open window, the smell of dried grass and fresh coffee we had in the restaurant that looked like it was from old times. I recall Claires new energy and hope in her voice that maybe someday she might be mother, her face full of expectations and faith, and also her tranquillity. I sat there quietly forcing myself to listen, pretending not to be hurt by what the healer told her about me. I do not remember much specifically of what Claire told me, only the words that were bestowed upon me, words I immediately rejected to acknowledge and never wanted to hear again. She should come to see me, it might come back, said the woman who had never met me.I refused to believe someone who had never seen me, never touched me, a charlatan who heals with the help of a magic. The chemotherapy reduced all my lumps, my radiation is weak, my results excellent and she dares to say such nonsense! Nothing convinced me about her brilliance, not even fact that Claire became pregnant shortly after the visit, after years of hopelessness. I erased those words and her name from my mind right away.

2. World of Fools Chapter 6 Chapter 6To play well you dont need cards, all you need is your heart.I gave up.Exactly the morning when I got on the train, well supplied with goodies from Claire, ready to seek out the one who heals souls. Now that nothing was sure not even that I will again wake up in the morning, I was trying to catch up and show God that I know of him and remember him.A coward that is playing it safe, just in case the worst came to the worst, so that she could tell the one who knows us so well, who knows how many times we pray or not, tell him: But I did pray!I have no idea what you are talking about dear God, I have been exemplary.I was looking out of the window and enjoying the sunshine. I felt like an adventure that had just set off to find the improbable, an illusion that only he can see and no one else.A fool beginning to believe in the invisible.I gave up.

World of FoolsChapter 6I felt unusually at peace, a feeling that even my fear-ridden thoughts couldnt stir up. Thoughts that normally outlined scenarios of all the things that could possibly go wrong. Why worry about the future, which is not here yet, which might not even happen at all? I stopped kicking, yelling, crying, listing arguments, protesting, refusing.I accepted the truth that hurt and which I kept rejecting and denied so adamantly at the beginning. You are sick.But I dont want to be sick; Id like to be well.You are sick.I do not want to be sick why me?You are sick.That is unfair, I should have been spared, now that Ive gone back to living life, shes returned?I used to be healthy, a kid full of energy who was brimming with health, that is not fair.

World of FoolsChapter 6I dont care about anything anymore, so be it, Ill die, but I want to be healthy.You are sick.I dont want to, I want to be healthy, wheres my health? I want it.You are sick.I am sick, yes, I am, I cried full of fury and then again a bit calmer and then when I was tired of everything I resigned.I am sick!!I am sick!I am sick.I felt a relief.I remember how much it surprised me; I thought it would be the opposite.I was scared that if I admitted to what I was so afraid of, it would make my situation worse.

World of FoolsChapter 6But the opposite happened, I was relieved and felt like a warrior who had just put down his arms and realised instantly that it was precisely that which made any chances to win his battle much higher.Thats the way it is.I am sick and refusing what I should not be.That is my truth.That is my present that is who I am at the moment that is what Im thinking of day and night. What fills me up, dictates my feelings, thoughts, reactions, events. So why fight against who I am?Why get angry at whats happening?The illogical cannot be explained with logic.I gave up.

World of FoolsChapter 6I understand you and I also accept you, I said to myself that morning on the train heading into the world of Fools.I accept you fate, whatever you are.The day my fate turned, I started praying; for the life I had and didnt want and for life I wanted but didnt have.I prayed for everything, wanted as well as unwanted.I accepted my reality and stepped into the world with eyes wide open, set on what was actually there, not what theyd want or not want.I stopped fighting and started using my senses. I gave up.

3.On the borders of the Worlds Chapter 13

Chapter 13To become master of your life, you need to become the one who is in control. You must never allow being the one controlled.I felt like a bee, a bee that flew into the room and was desperately trying to get out, back to her freedom, away from her trap. A bee flying around frantically, bashing her head against the window until she fell and dropped from the air with exhaustion caused by concentrating only on her prison, not realising the more angry and loud she was the less is her chance of finding a way out of her trap.I was unaware of lifes connection.I always opened the window, waiting for them to notice.But can one be freed from her catch if she doesnt accept it first? Little bee first sit down, compose yourself, look around, relax and wait for the breeze to show you a way out, I used to say to them and wondered why they just fly past instead of through the open window.

On the borders of the WorldsChapter 13You are fighting, therefore not able to see your way out, if only you could sit down and calm yourself down; your freedom is so close.Can one see there is a chance if all he sees is misfortune? Can one see a path to freedom if he cant see the one who can bring him there?I looked at the world and smiled to myself.I think on that October day destiny opened a window for me and because I was sitting quietly, not wasting my time fighting and bashing my head against the wall, I was able to smell the scent of the breeze.

About Maria Pelisek Connect with Maria:Maria Pelisek is an ordinary girl with an extraordinary experience. Thrown by destiny on a spiritual journey only few would dare to take, she gained a deep spiritual insight which she would like to share with the world. Originally from a beautiful nowhere in Eastern Europe, she now lives and works in Dublin, Ireland. She enjoys reading and writing and is currently working on her next book.

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