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^ THE CONNECTION WITH DAVTD By Jaime Castillo Searching For Truth In the early part of 1988, prior to comming in conatact or meeting with Vernon (David), I was sesrching for truth end came about to accept Christianity in regards to my beliefs. During this period in my life, I was having difficul- ties deciding v/hat I was going to do with pursuing my ambitions in life. I was working and making a living f ormyself and also trying to find the right band situation in pursuit for my musical goals in life. I had hopes of bieng able to travel the world and really experience life to the fullest. I wanted to head for Hawii and travel to Europe and eventually make my way to other Countries. In the raid.and late part of 1987, I was working for a tool company doing wef ehouse work in the shipping and recieving department. After 6 t o 8' months of working, I began to really think as to what I was going to do as far as my musical goals were concerned. I knew the job would only be tempera! t i l l something came along with the music situation. When nothing seemed to be happening, I began to want to forfill my dreams and pursue what I had in mind with traveling. I had heard many stories of how people just went out and traveled making a living as they moved from place to place with a raear bag of clothes or a back sack* I tought and figuered I was young and strong enough to set out on a journey which would entail forfilling my dreams. There had been an older man who worked in the shipping department named Bob. On one of my lunch brakes, me and Bob sat there-talking about how much this job sucked. I began to t e l l him how that I wanted t o travel the world and see and meet people. Bob who was 53 years old, looked like he was a body builder at one time in his life and was. still in good physical shape. I told him, "if only had the money, Ide be on my way!" Bob Said "you don't need monqjr to travel, you can work for food and work as you go along to support yourself !• He said "your young Jaime, get out and see the world while your youth is with you. I was 19 years old and didn't want life to slip me by without going to places Id'e been wanting t o v i s i t . From that point en, the discussion me and Bob had v/as en my mind. 8

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THE CONNECTION WITH DAVTD

By Jaime C a s t i l l o

Searching For Truth

In t h e ea r ly pa r t of 1988, p r i o r t o comming in conatact or meeting with

Vernon (David), I was sesrching for t r u t h end came about t o accept Chr i s t i an i ty

in regards to my bel ie fs . During th i s period in my l i f e , I was having d i f f i cu l ­

t i e s deciding v/hat I was going t o do with pursuing my ambitions in l i f e . I was

working and making a living f ormyself and also trying to find the right band

situation in pursuit for my musical goals in l i f e . I had hopes of bieng able t o

t ravel the world and rea l ly experience l i f e to the fu l l e s t . I wanted to head

for Hawii and travel to Europe and eventually make my way to other Countries.

In the raid.and l a t e part of 1987, I was working for a tool company doing

wef ehouse work in the shipping and recieving department. After 6 t o 8' months of

working, I began to rea l ly think as to what I was going to do as far as my musical

goals were concerned. I knew the job would only be tempera! t i l l something came

along with the music s i tuat ion. When nothing seemed to be happening, I began to

want to fo r f i l l my dreams and pursue what I had in mind with t ravel ing. I had

heard many stories of how people just went out and traveled making a l iving as

they moved from place to place with a raear bag of clothes or a back sack* I

tought and figuered I was young and strong enough to set out on a journey which

would entai l forf i l l ing my dreams.

There had been an older man who worked in the shipping department named Bob. On one of my lunch brakes, me and Bob sat there-talking about how much th i s job sucked. I began to t e l l him how that I wanted t o t ravel the world and see and meet people. Bob who was 53 years old, looked l ike he was a body builder at one time in h i s l i f e and was. s t i l l in good physical shape. I told him, " i f only had the money, Ide be on my way!" Bob Said "you don't need monqjr to t rave l , you can work for food and work as you go along to support yourself !• He said "your young Jaime, get out and see the world while your youth i s with you. I was 19 years old and didn ' t want l i f e to s l ip me by without going to places Id ' e been wanting to v i s i t . From that point en, the discussion me and Bob had v/as en my mind.

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The problem I kept facing when I began to plan and set out my'for my

journey, was the problem most people probably had, MONEY! My financial s i tua -

at the time v/as not very productive at the time. I would on occasions recieve

potential ca l l s from bands locking for a drummer. I would go for auditions and

t ry out for bands, but just d idn ' t find the right soundUor I wouldn't be what

they were looking for. I knew that i f the r ight band or musicians came around,

I would have the oppurtunity to t ravel playing music i f the right gig came along.

I knew my musical capability as a drummer would allow me t o go in the direction

of playing in a proffessicnal band. I knew I s t i l l had aways to go in bieng

proficient as a drummer, but I had the motivation and ambitions to pursue drums

as a career. These object^would keep in Southern California for a l i t t l e wliile

longer t i l l I made the decision t o just go!

As the w^eks\and^days went by, s t i l l no band, no traveling, no g i r l friend

and not enough Money t o do anything that I rea l ly wanted to do. I began to

smoke a l i t t l e pot with„'guys from work, which was an old habit I broke or-toyed

tct_b$ake'/away from! The drinking began to kick in again on the weekaids with

friends from work. A3 soon as pay day came around, "hey Jaime! the guys are

going t o go to Mr J ' s tonight, the re ' s some nice lcking chick's dude, you want

to go" my friend G].en would say. Mr J ' s v/as in the same c i ty I lived in so I

tought ya! what time are you guy's leaving! The night club scene bagun to be

the weekly ritual,Aas I bagan to look forward for the weekends. The hang over's

and fight's was the situation I found myself in at times! I had quit drinking

two years prior and knew that I v/as headed for the same bul l shit again, which

I did not want to find myself in again!

I began to think perveted toughts about woman and my language was fuck t h i s ,

and fuck tha t . I was cursing a l l the time and became-very angry because things

wernt going my way. My conscience kept bothering me about certain things I do

but I would go against i t and do what I wanted to do. Sex, Drugs and Rock n Roll

again, my old l i f e s tyle began to kick in again l ike the my teenage days. I v/as

angry at t h i s God who I was told about,far not allowing me to be f rui t fu l l in my

musical goals and making i t hard for t o do v/hat I wanted t o do^with bieng bothered

by t h i s thing called conscience.

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The tu rn around of th ings began took t a k e p lace durring t h i s stage of my •'

l i f e . I began t o have dreams and nightmares about l i f e and death. As a c h i l d ,

I was t o l d by my mother and grandmother tha t God knew and sat-/ a l l th ings which

eventually brought me t o t h e awarness of heaven and h e l l . Do good and go t o

heaven, do bad and go t o h e l l and burn forever . The t r a d i t i o n of my mothers

Catholic back roundjjprobably contibuted t o t h i s mind s e t . None t h e l e s s t h i s

awarness was something tine seem t o s t i ck with me whiles growning up. This had

been my toughts at t h i s point i n ny l i f e as t o v/hat I was going t o do with myself

and what avenue I would continue to go i n . I was conscient ious t h a t my works

might not be approved from t h i s God, but I wanted t o do what I wanted t o doAand

not even God was going t o stop me.

A couple of years e a r l i e r , I had experienced a s i t u a t i o n t h e brought t he

r e a l i t y of God and Satan t o l i f e . Durring my experimental s tage of drug usage,

Ide always had t h e toughts t h a t t h e end of t h e world was comming or tha t I would

d i e young. I sor t of contr ibuted t o t h i s mind set with t h e drugs I was taking!

Me and a childhood fr iend named John, who was t h e g u i t a r i s t t h a t influence^ me to

per sue music again) were constant ly doing drugs . On Christmas eve of 1984, v/e

had smoked some (P.C.P) or Super Cjjoljas we c a l l i t J a t a f r iends house,who l i v e t

near a park i n ^osemead. John l ived accross the s t r e e t from t h e park a few houses

d a m . V/e began walking down t h e s t r ee t about 11:40 or r i g h t before midnight. I

continued t o walk down t h e road and found myself a lone, appernbtly John had l e f t

off in t h e other d i r ec t ion and l e f t me a lone . I continued t o walk and looked

over t o a house accross t h e s t r e e t from t h e park, and not iced the t r e e s in t he

yard . I sa t t h e r e looking a t t he se t r e e s as they began t o take t he form of people

v/ith t h e branches turn ing i n t o human l imbs . I v/as focused in on the t r e e ' s as

they took t h e form of humans. I v/as i n t h e middle of t h e s t r e e t d i r e c t l y between-

the house and park as t h e wind began took pick up . I no t iced t h e wind swirl ing

me l i k e a whirlpool^as i t v/ooshed around me an'd decided t o look up at t he sky* As

I began t o look a t t h e sky, t h e wind took shape i n to v/hat I percieved t h e Devi l .

I t was l i k e a cartoon image with t h e red body and horns i n a muscular f i gu re . I t

spread out i t ' s arms and swirled i n t he a i r and came r i g h t down toward me. As I

saw i t comming my way, I closed my eyes and f e l l an t he ground. I then opened my

eyes and found myself en t h e f loor and r ea l i zed what had jus t taken p lace . I

stood up and v/as sober as sober could b e , contemplating what I saw.

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I began t o walk through t h e park in the direction of John's house and saw

him a distance away. He looked back and saw me and came in my direction. I told

him v/hat had just taken place and what I saw. John says "you had a hallucination!*

I told him " i t was r ea l and that I jUst saw the fftftaSa Devil" I explained to him

how that i t got rea l windy and what took place. John looks at me with a look of

suprise and says " ya! i t did get real windy jjist out of nowhere!* After that I

went home.» This experience along with other simiular circumstances would bring

"me around to accepting a sp i r i tua l world as Ida been told about.

As the dreams and nightmares continued, one particular situation took place

one evening. I had gone t o bed after a hard days work at the tool company, t h i s

night was unlike other nights which I had never experienced in my l i f e . I had

th i s dream, I found myself in a nicely decorated home with every household appli­

ance availuble. In the middle of the l iving room was a staitway that led to a

Jacuzzi. While my toughts brought me t o t h i s livingroom in the dream, I began

t o consider what t h i s meant. I tought t o myself,that a l l that v/as in t h i s house

could be mine i f I made a pack with the Devil. I would have t o se l l my soul in

order t o enjoy a l l that I wanted. These toughts brought me to the attention of

the other side of the .room. I looked at t h i s wall on the otherside of the room

and noticed three furnaces. The furnaces began t o suck people in as I saw people

floating i n . I then fe l t myself being pulled in toward the furnaces and held on

to the hallway wall to avoid bieng sucked i n . At t h i s point with my eye's

closed, I opened them and found myself inside t h i s furnace. There was a giant

wall of f i r e in front of me and a metal wall behindVwhich had me trapped and no i *

place to go. I began to feel myself get rea l ly hot to where the heat became un-

barable. As I fe l t myself get hotter and hot ter , I woke up gasping for a i r . I

woke up and found myself running with sweat a l l over my body. My toughts at the

time, was that God was giving t h i s dream for me t o consider my ways and v/hat was

in store/, i f I kept pursuing the path and direction I v/as going i n . I tought to

myself "I bet ter get my shit toghether r ea l quik!".

In the following days, I kept thinking about what had taken place that night. I couldn't shake the dream away from my toughts and kept thinking about i t . I started thinking about a l l the wrong Id ' e dene in my l i f e , which I could clearly remember, and found myself with no rea l hope to be forgiven from t h i s unknown God.

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I began t o remember t h e prayer my grandmother Thomasa tought me and s ta r ted

t o pray i n hopes tha t t h i s God might hear me. I had ta lked t o t h i s God before

i n t h e p a s t , in hopes he would hear me and help i n my wants. This time was a

l i t t l e d i f f e r e n t , i f he had given me t h i s dream, then he v/as giving me t h e

oppurtunity t o change ways and s t a r t over again. I began t o question v/hat I v/as

t o do or what t h i s God wanted me t o do!

I had never l iked church for t h e obvious reasons! I use t o hate watching

those t e l e v a n g i l i s t always asking for manor. I t seemed l i k e everytime I d ' e tu rn

the channel and see a t e l e v a n g i l i s t , h e ' d be asking for money. All the scandals

t ha t were taking place with t h e s e preachers v/as a big discouragement for as w e l l .

I f iguered, t h a t i n order for me t o get r i gh t with God, I would have t o s t a r t

going t o church and find h i s purpose i n my l i f e .

I began t o read my Bib le and found myself r e a l l y confused as t o what I was

reading . I d ' e never gene t o church with t h e execeptien as a ch i ld , nor was I

i n t e r e s t e d i n going. I knew t h a t I needed guidance and tha t t h e church was t h e

only place I could find i t ! I figuered t h a t t h i s would have t o be the f i r s t

s tep i n t ry ing t o get. r i g h t with t h i s concept of God.

There was a church ca l l ed Calvary chapel t ha t v/as not t o f a r from my home.

I had f r iends who had converted over t o Chr i s t i an i ty and chose t o go t o t h i s

church. Calvery chapel was t h e church t h a t members of a Chr is t ian band ca l l ed

(Stryper) a t t aided en occasions . There were a lo t of long ha i r people as as my--

se l f , who f e l t comfortable v/lth t h e congregation and the preacher . I chose t o

go to . this^ohurch because of v/hat I d ' e heard about i t and found i t c loser t o

home. This was t h e rock n Roll church t h a t some f r iends attended,'bo I would

have t o see for myself i f i t was l i k e they said i t was!

I f e l t uneasy about going t o church by myself and wanted a friend named

Danny t o go with me. I couldn ' t get no one t o govso I decided t o go alone one

Sunday morning. I drove down t o West Covina where Calvery chapel was loca ted ,

and saw a parking lo t f u l l of ca r s and people a r r i v i n g . I f e l t scared because

I d i d n ' t see anyone I knew and s t i l l f e l t l i k e t h e Devil himself! After f ind -

a parking spot , I proceeded t o walk in t h e d i rec t ion of the church a lone. I

walked i n t o t h e church and found a seat almost t o t h e back so I wouldn't a t t r a c t

t o much a t t en t ion with my long ha i r at t h e t ime .

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As the sermon began, the congregation stood up and began to sing some

songs. I f e l t uneasy because I didn' t know itNand sensed that people were look­

ing at me funny. After a few hyms, the pastor began t o give his sermon cm. for ­

giveness of sins and so forth. I fel t gui l ty as a sib as I reflected on the pas t .

I heard him 3ay "Exccepf Jesus Christ as your personal Savior and repent of your

sishs" People started singing and others began t o walk up t o the front of the

church with' there heads bowed down and others crying. I said to myself " Iv ' e

done t o much sh i t , tJ not even worthy t o be forgiven!* I stood up holding the

tears back and lef t the church. I kept t e l l ing t h i s God "I can't do'God!" I don't

know what you want from me!" I waited t i l l I got in my truck and started to cry.

"I'm sorry God, I'm sorry, I just can't do i t " I continued as I drove away from

the area.

The following week, I had been debating what I was going t o do. The dream,

the nightmares were s t i l l fresh in my mind. My conscience s t i l l pricking my

toughts as to what I had to do. As the following Sunday approached, I was going

have t o go up to the front l i ke a l l the other people did the previous weekend. I

was going to have t o go up, which made me rea l nervous. I had already repented in;.;.'

bedroom but now I would have t o go up t o the front in the church. I made^to'^church

again and wait through the r i t u a l . I had come to accept C^ristjmore concerned

about the people in the crowd looking at me, but in s iner i ty asking for forgiveness.

As the day's and week's followed, I v/as real ly trying to be born again by

changing my habits of partying, curseing, and bieng angry. I knew v/hat my

intentions were, but th i s thing called l i f e seem to get the best of me. I was

s t i l l smoking pot, drinking ortce in awhile and s t i l l bieng as lus t ful l as ever.

I knew th i s condition wasn't acceptable with Godwin what l i t t l e I knew about the

Bible, and"', didn' t want t o find myself bieng a hypocrite l ike the preachers I had

seen. This was why I never wanted to go t o church, I would have to change my

ways knowing I couldn't be able t o knock certain v ises . I didn't want to be

trying t o jjistify.my actions and be doing the samething I was doing in going

against my conscience.

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I began to rea l ly t ry and understand why I was the way I was and couldn't figure

out what t h i s God wanted me to do with my l i f e . I was abit content thinking J

was alright with God, but I r ea l ly wanted t o be sure I 'de been forgiven and

wanted some type of confirmation.

I continued t o go t o church on the weekends trying t o get some spir i tual

guidance as to what God wanted me to do. I found myself not rea l ly having any

answers t o the questions I had in regards t o my condition. I was s i l t ing in the

church one Sunday afternoon l is tening t o the same sermon Id ' e heard the previous

weekends. The pastor began the sinners prayer far forgiveness of sins again,

".liist accept Jesus as your personal SavcUr and be forgiven of your sins" As I

heard those words, I sat there l is tening thinking about the sina-I v/as s t i l l

committing after accepting Christ . I tought to myself "If Christ has forgiven

me! then who's going t o forgive me for the sins I keep committing?" there has to

more, i t jtist seems t o easy!". I was baring so much gu i l t an a i l that I ' de done

in l i f e , that Salvation seem t o easy. The ba t t l e continued with myself as I con­

tinued t o over come my vices,(or a t lea ts attempted to . )

The music situation was s t i l l my goal , I wanted t o get a Christian band

goin& although I was s t i l l troubled on and off obout my toughts and questions.

I had come in contact with a musician from Iowa, he was the singer for h is band

back home and had traveled t o California t o get h is music career going. We

formed our band called (Savior) and began to write some Christian orientated A

(Rock n Roll.' We were trying to set a good example as to those who would hear v*'**ir

out music and the titled" we were earring as Christians. My friend Mike, who was the singer from Iowa, had the same goals in trying to get a possitive message out t o teenagers. The only problem I had at tha t point, was that we if ere np

i i diffenrent then the so called world. As Christians, I had read certain passages which taught that the follower's of Christ must sustain from fleshly l u s t ' s such as the lus t of the eye's and tought 's of the heart . Here we were talking about which g i r l s v/e wanted t o fuck and how big some g i r l ' s t i t ' s were! I knew that something was wrong here. I ' de confront my friend mike on some of these issues and he made i t sound l i ke no matter v/hat he did, he v/as forgiven because-Jesus Christ was his personal Savior. I fe l t hypocritical andy,trying t o figure out what the he l l was wrong, there had to,,something more t o i t !

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As Mike and I went in our own musical and spir i tual directions, we continued

to be friends and keep in touch. Around th i s same time peroid, I had come in

3ontact with Vrnan (David). On my f i r s t v i s i t with him at the house in Pomona,

Vernon (David) gave me a very good example of what I had experienced with myself

and re l ig ion.

In ourstudy of the book of revelation, we were reading the third chapter in

the fourteenth through seventeenth verses. I t read "And t o the church of the

Laodiceans write* These things saith the amen, The Faithfull and t rue witness,

the begining of the creation of God: I know thy works, that thou art neither cold

nor hot; I would thou wert cold or hot. So then because^art lukewarm, and neither

cold nor hot, I will spue thee out of my mouth. He bagan to i l l u s t r a t e and said "

As in the church of Ladocla, there are many Christians today v/ho feel that they

are a l l r ight with God because they say they believe and yet there works show other

wise. Thf ea£people who are lOOjS for God others v/ho are 100$ against God. Some

are Hot for God and do what they can in thtjpef best efforts to do right and that

which i s pleasing to God, and others who are to ta l ly Cold against God and don't

rea l ly care to know the t ru th . He"ccntinued and said "what's worst then both of these

group'; are those v/ho are lukewarm. Like the Ladocians! these people are right in

the middle, there not against or for, jjist in the middle. One foot in he l l and the

other in heaven. People want the best of both worlds thinking that God approves of

the i r actions"• He continued ttsee Jaime, you don't want to take a hot shower i f

the waters boiling hot, and you don't want to take a cold shower with ice water.

You want the water to be nice and warm where you feel comfortable. M0st Christians

are in th i s condition, the i r comfortable with their l i f e s ty les , comfortable with

that which they have^and don't even rea l ize their condition. God says he ' s going

t o (spue) them out. Tfteir bl ind, ndserablej'poor and naked and don't even real ize

i t " .

This condition was t rue in what I v/as experiencing with myself and those who claimed to be Christians. When Vernon (David) brought t h i s to my attention through the Bible, he had confirmed tob me what my current situation was. I t was a hard b i t e to take, but in a l l honest/with myself! i t v/as the t ruth!