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SUNFLOWER
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Received rejection notice on Monday 8 March 2004
16 December 2003
Pavement Saw Press
Chapbook Contest
P. O. Box 6291
Columbus, Ohio 43206
Dear Folks:
Enclosed please find my submission to the Pavement Saw Chapbook Contest, a collection of work entitled, Steering By The Meteors.
Enclosed, you will also find, a CV with a modest list of publications and a check for $10.00.
I do hope you will read this diverse collection and enjoy the variety and range of its poems.
Thank you for considering my work.
Raymond T. Caffrey, Ph. D.
STEERING
BY
THE METEORS
by
Raymond T. Caffrey
Late night fog hung over the field
and obscured the wood
like a veil of ancient mist
from which the earth
had not yet emerged.
I heard the midnight train
brood slowly down the track.
I packed up my dreams
and sent them ahead,
somewhere,
intending to follow them,
later.
I am smitten
by your charms
and wonder do you know
how thorougly your eyes
so bright and dark disguise
your thoughts
and shroud your feelings,
yet your beauty shines
like the stars.
Our love shone warm and bright, memorable
as sunshine that washed over us and sang
like a soft sea breeze as we lay silent,
still, together on the beach in July.
Our love disappeared slowly, more slowly
Than the sun that day when dark, angry clouds
Obscured the blue sky, banished the sun, and
Poured torrential rain into an impervious sea.
Our love faded slowly when summer
Slipped into a colorful fall and died
Away leaving these cold, snow white winter
Nights that we now spend alone and lonely.
Her heart
(showed in her eyes
with her every smile
and she liked to smile;
she glowed when she spoke of her children
and her grandchildren,
one a college graduate,
another a graduate student,
one a late surprise
a boy, of whom she was very proud.
She deferred,
Toward the end,
to her husband who could still hear
And she leaned toward him
To see what she might have missed
And they beamed together
As they stood side by side
In their eighties now)
Gave out at the last after 83 years
And he said
“I close my eyes and look down fifty years
and the best I can do is cry.”
Fuzzy Chaos
Stripped of old illusions, I sat in a corner of myself
Looking out on my confusion:my thoughts
Shone like shards of fractured light strewn about
the street. I dreamed a reign of terror too frightening to recall: a rundown sandstone dwelling
with mirrors on narrow walls. Each spoken word re-echoed like shrill screams at night. A woman, a cat,
a baby crying out with shrieks of fright.
If not monks with quills, surely Renaissance sculpture
Standing deftly silent in long corridors with thick carpet to lure old men in black velvet gowns,
grown Impervious to the echo of age-old folly.
Grim, aging, in long vestments, Father
Wicker stood outside his church
And extended a hand, his large wide hand
With thick fingers, like the fingers
Of the milkman whose hand
I have shaken once or twice--
What a large handful of wide fingers.
The Rose
The rose is perfect in its fluid scent
And blossoms with plush contours
In elegant shades of yellow, red,
Pink, silver though never blue;
Yet beneath the bloom grows a thicket,
Thorns that will draw blood
From the embrace
of the inexperienced
or the naïve.
Eden
Now it’s eat the apples and fear the animals
(Too numerous to name);
Grow your own and bear up under
The entropic orbit of body
And chaotic movement of soul.
It’s mystery over wonder, time,
The elements: we’re not safe;
If the earth’s faults don’t a tornado
Will, or a parching drought sun, or forty
Days of rain, high winds, treacherous
Snow, tidal seas, Cain killing Abel, fire,
Garbage and seagulls, deadly sins
To trample beatitudes gone slack
To platitudes: “the meek shall eat
Handfuls of dirt whilst traipsing homeless
Through dark allies as if in frantic
Search of someone.” The morning
Sun rose white hot, a perfectly round,
Platinum ball that burned through dense,
Floating fog, looking small, like a roving moon.
The Yucca bush sent up long snakes of buds
To bloom sudden white flowers that struck
The first burning strokes of summer; in the evening,
Fireflies sparked golden lights that twinkled
Briefly above tall broad grasses in the field
That sloped from the road to the low land
Near the brook and the woods. We found a crow’s Feather in the garden near the house, and Joe
Returned with cantaloupes, a hand made serape,
And his smile. We brewed coffee and laughed
About the crows that ate all the bright red cherries
In the tree top and spit the pits to the sidewalk
Where they left red stains. The moon rose full
Just before dark and shone that bright yellowish
White some say promises a hot day, but I reveled
In the warm, silent stillness, compelled by all
The summer moon inspires, conceals and reveals.
Mystery
Mysteries abound. Consider:
“Give Unto Caesar Those Things That Are Caesar’s.”
Who better deserves Caesar’s things?
There are joyful mysteries of annunciation,
Visitation, and nativity, mysterious mysteries,
Illiterate mysteries, long-legged mysteries,
Glorious mysteries, astronomical mysteries
Of politics, economy, religion, psychology,
Medicine, education, law, ignorance, arrogance, Sorrowful mysteries, mythical mysteries.
What things does Caesar want?
One rather glorious mystery
Is the perfectly proportioned
Symmetrical mons delicately carved
In the stone of Stella’s marble belly.
Even dry, it looks slick enough.
Who might want Caesar’s things?
A short, round cleric in black cassock
And cloak topped with an egg-shaped head
Gone bald, his lips pursed and oyster
Eyes magnified behind thick glasses
Walked by ignoring his students.
He taught mythical mysteries: Circe
And her Sirens, who touch the magic wand
To pleasure or distress the hunter, the thief,
The juror, the milkman, the witness,
The carpenter, the writer, the priest . . .
Father Hennessy walked with eyes downcast
His head bent to one side as he picked
An unencumbered path through clusters
Of laughing boys. One young girl, a teenager
Wakes to find herself pregnant. Who will believe
She is a virgin? Joseph? An angel told her,
She said—quite a mystery, that.
Hail Mary, full of grace . . . Je vous salut, Marie . . .
Suicide is a sorrowful mystery.
Ernest Hemingway shot himself.
I felt the cut. He was dead on page
One in large, bold, black, dark thick print.
I read his books. Now he’s dead.
He took dead aim and shot himself: quite a good
shot, too, but he was a hunter.
A mad scramble for Hemingway’s things ensued.
I looked the other way. It was all right to read Huck Finn: Twain lives on; Clemens is dead. He’s gone
A long time, but Hemingway just shot himself
and died. John Lennon would not have shot himself; He had to rely on someone else.
Lazarus died and Jesus cried
When he arrived. Lazarus, alive
Walked forth and sighed, “Oh, well.”
Father Hennessy liked the old fish story:
Jesus told his men to pass round their fish
And bread. All were amazed that so few
loaves of bread and so little sushi fed so many.
A dry affair. No grill. No talk of beer or wine.
He reserved spirits for weddings.
Cold water over ice;
A drag from the exhaust of a clean
Carburetor white with smoke
Suddenly gone. Sit back to rock;
Maybe have a red wine.
Too much is too much
Even when it’s just enough.
No Persian carpet has ever seen
The likes of their display
She had a lasting vacancy
He was pot-holes day after day
No sooner did he buy her flowers
No sooner did he learn the game
When suddenly appeared another
With a Cadillac to steal the dame.
Always one thing or the other
The sun will shine or rain
But a girl who’s after riches
Will soon cause someone pain.
Your fear scares me
most; not your moods,
nor their swings:
It is your fear
That scares me most.
When you feel awful
I feel awful too.
I cannot help it
Anymore than you
Can help feeling so
Awful when you do,
But it worries me
When you feel awful
On our one day off.
Fall 1992
Those were the days—before the launch, yes-
Terday or the day before, when books
Were read, and songs were sung—radio;
Before television. Now it looks
Antique, like a chair in need of glue;
They spoke of Modern then, and they thought
Modern meant new: Avant-garde, Dada
Surreal, the Symbol, Abstract. They fought
Over a word, an idea, a turn
Of image to make better prufrock.
We’ve brightened up Michelangelo—
Peeled off his tortured gloom: turned the clock
Either back or forward or around.
Turned up a stone age corpse kept on ice
These five thousand years. Someone knocked
Off his scrotum, took his boots—a nice
Welcome to this nameless age of rap.
Grammar’s a goner—we put our buts
First. Jesus is a figment of Paul’s
Imagination, a myth that cuts
The road to Rome and the scrotum, too.
Beware the aged prophet whose hands
Reach toward your pocket: feeble fingers
Quick as a humming bird that darts, lands
Its feed and disappears all in one
Sudden flick of a slick, nimble wrist,
And politics!
Rhetoric gave way
To the coy, segment-sensitive twist.
Dwarfs on stilts with speechlets, nee slogans,
Sell fall sap with sly ten-second slots.
Lipstick girls in slender undress beg
Less disbelief than “VOTE FOR ME” spots.
We’ve had George’s war, and Ronnie’s naps,
Jimmie’s piles, Gerald jokes, Richard’s crooks,
Lyndon’s spooks, Jack’s back, Ike’s golf, Harry’s
Bomb, Franklin’s wheel chair—history books
Will call the game with retrospective
Calm: a slow curve (the deep recession),
A black-door slider (pretty Flowers),
The inside fast ball (a concession
To incumbent powers): fall chaos
Played out like the World Series’ last game.
These are the days of commercial spin,
Cosmetic tucks, uninspired name
Calling, shrewd strategies, cynical
Calculations designed to sell Hope.
Better were the days before the launch—
Before the Enola Gay cut loose
the rope that moored today to the sturdy
dock of yesterday and the day before.
Evening
Yellow golden sun setting fire to the ridge;
Crystal glowing Venus rising, dripping from the sea;
Twilight sky blue black.
Charlotte’s in a dressing gown
Wearing her high heels;
Street kids shout below her window,
Howling at the rising moon.
She resists a temptation to pitch
Her silver spoon.
A little twisted cripple in a sable coat and hat
Laughed a curly ha, ha, and pointed
To the brat who smirked and wiped his forehead
With a scrap of Union Flag.
Cynthia was tracking down her own intentions
When all at once and suddenly she could not
Bear to mention . . .
What’s true in motion pictures is not the color nor the tale
And what you see in movies can make your picle pale.
The marzipan magician made a kerchief disappear
What rag is this asked Robert, lately home from the war,
It’s not a fit vacation till you’ve had one lusty roar,
But Charlotte closed her window to shut out
The sound of cripples singing psalms.
It takes a lot of work
To get a little done
Which leaves so little time
To have a bit of fun.
Felicia gave all her men a personalized,
engraved gold Cross pen,
As insistent an instrument
as any in Tiffany’s window.
James lost his gift first off
And Felicia bought another,
To make her point and he thanked
Her and asked her to keep it for him
So he would not lose it again.
In time, Felicia found herself with that gold
Cross pen with his three initials and she tried
To wipe off J. D. S. and forget that James
So disappointed her and then disappeared.
Crushed kisses and Heathcliffe limping on broken
Sidewalks shouting orders to Isaac Slug, carved in stone
astride his granite steed in uniform with helmet,
side-sword and pistol. Ever vigilant, he guards
the river, an excellent river, deep and wide
enough for ocean liners and freighters, ships
that pierce the ocean. Slug sits, mounted in stone,
ever watchful for danger, remembering dangers past.
Below the gaze of Isaac walked an old woman
On wide set legs with heavy hips like a barrel in black,
Demure in her cape with black silk lining. She was lost,
Like an elephant on the loose on cobble stone streets
Below the highway where a laxity of rules governed
The few trucks that dashed back and forth below
The old, abandoned highway beneath Isaac’s glance.
Highly polished verse
Reflects what it observes,
like a large sphere,
an oversized mirroring
Ornament on a Christmas tree
That distorts what it reflects
Don’t pick up the New York Times
Until you’ve said your prayers:
Every page can make you cringe.
The plan for space sure scares
The rest of us who ask
What secret stuff went up there
When Atlantis blasted off,
And why did they call it
“Atlantis”? Our space wares
commemorate the lost
continent---everyone
swears ‘tis splendid progress—
technology must
advance by leaps and blasts
and who cares if the thing
works for a short while.
All the night stars are mostly
debris. What’s a little
more? Who cares if the sky’s
become a junk yard” it’s
roomy enough—like the old
deficit which dares us
not to laugh at money.
Sometimes it is hard to be amused
Or even crack a smile.
She was hard,
Pure hard
Like stone,
Like crystal,
Like lightning
Like diamonds
More than the sunrise
More than the mountains
More than the thinnest crescent moon
More than the blue light of dusk,
More than the spring’s first rain
More than the faint light of dawn
More than the willow’s first yellow
More than the daffodil’s first blossom
More than the ocean
More than the summer’s first rose
More than the pink gladiola
More than the autumn’s riot of color
More than the early setting sun
More than the winter’s first soft snow
I love you more
and our love is endless
Our love transcends time
The poet felt the ocean
And praised the ocean’s purity.
He saw the moon spread
A wide beam on the water
And stop at the surface
As if the black depth
Of the ocean at night
Were impenetrable, discrete.
He rode the tide
And his blood took
Its rhythm and his ship
Rolled at once with the ocean.
The ocean heaves pure and blind,
Faithful only to the moon:
It casts its song to every wind
And sings its airs like the witch
That conjures life.
And the ocean is untrammeled.
I am worn out with good wishes:
Good wishes sent;
Good wishes received.
Let us be silent now a while
And rest quietly
Before we must once
Again summon the energy
To send good wishes
And get good wishes.
Love Poem
You're the milk in my oatmeal!
(I hate love poems).
You're the sun in my heart
(But I will persist).
You're the rain on my garden,
The bloom on the rose.
You're the crease in my trousers.
You're the stars at night
When the moon is new;
You're the morning breeze
(One metaphor is good as another
To a reluctant poet).
You're the blue in my skies,
The colors of fall,
The white on the snow.
You're my recurring dream.
There are two distinguished "T's"
in "Literature,"
and like stanchions in a bridge,
they uphold their suspended
"era,"
but never have "T's"
held forth with such sway
as those two tipsy "T's"
in "Tits."
Consternation
Every now and again
to my complete surprise
I find myself behind
the not so mythic rock.
Never have I envied
Sisyphus' aerobic
lot. Up that hill he'd go:
strong legs, strong back, and will
for the climb. He'd not be
undone by hill, his rock,
fate, or the gods. Atop
the mountain he'd look out
over the fields and watch
as his work came to naught:
did he sigh as his rock, let
loose, rolled down the mountain?
Or did the spectacle
of a huge rock jumping
and bounding, gathering
speed as it fell down hill
please him, make the journey
worth his while? Did the gods
laugh at him? Or did they
too, in time, grow weary
of the repetitious
spectacle of a man
pushing a rock uphill
to watch it fall back down
to the bottom where he
began. At least he knew
where to push his mythic
rock. I have no idea
what to do with my own.
Once it was an issue
between the lady and the man;
who held the sway domestic
was said to wear the pants;
In time, the clothes designers
put the ladies into slacks,
to which the fashion factory
for skirts needs must fight back;
Thus in this age of woman's right,
in this the age of rockets,
the skirt designers taught us all
it's not the pants, it's pockets!
Whatever happened, the trees would not tell
though they whispered softly to a passing
breeze, nor would say the chipped concrete sidewalk
and curb that lamented disfigurement
in stoical silence, nor the shallow
brook that flowed slowly in hushed ripples past
a wooden bridge, round curved banks, cascading
quietly toward the dam it had ruined,
and the gorge it cut in turbulent times
when the winds blew and clouds fled hurriedly,
oblivious, as if summoned away
suddenly to answer a cry for help
like the police cars, and fire engines
and ambulances, that raced with flashing
red and blue and white lights and loud sirens
screaming, screaming, to the road by the stream
near the walk bridge late last night.
Ordinary Time
Simple grey boat
anchored, afloat
on still water;
a grey perfect sky
merged with tree tops'
rich subdued green;
white grey lake fog
risen;
an old wood dock
gone black
with age,
we sat alone,
at peace,
away.
Never Knew A Hooker
Never knew a Hooker
didn't say that she was clean;
never struck a worker
didn't lose more than his gain;
never blew a blow-hard
didn't blow the final scene;
never grew a garden
didn't get some heavy rain;
never sat the juror
wasn't guilty of some crime;
never lived the poet
wouldn't kill to make a rhyme.
Some motives run deep--
unfathomable
as oceans, decep-
tive as keen edged seas
that cut the sky
along distinct horizon lines.
I forget where I’m from
I’ve been here so long.
Life can be sad sometimes:
What you forget, and
What you can’t forget;
What you remember and
What you can’t recall:
There are places I’ve been
And people, more people
Than places, whose names
I forget. Some people
Made me angry and some
Made me smile. Sometimes
I see a familiar face but can’t
Remember the name. Now and then
I meet someone who knows me
but can’t recall my name—
I’m perfectly happy then
to let the forgotten past
trouble someone else.
Steering By The Meteors
Everyone ought to have heart, lips, one dominant
trait, sox, soul, a rifle, baseball cards, gas, fingers,
feelings, tulips, spacemen, a beach ball, toes, lake front property, sex, snow, grandparents, luck, candles, "it'sneverbeenlikethisbefore," at least once; shoes, shoulders, strawberries in June, a fancy car, moods, no need to care for one full hour, Irish Whiskey, felt-tip pens, birthdays, luxurious lamb skin now and again, a flat tire, Lenox, a nice carpet, remote control, peace of mind, one pink rose, elders, a full portion of fish, God, cabbage, an adjustable wrench, rest, style, hair to last a life-time, daffodils, cheese-cake, an elegant guitar, birds, sea air, children, a light drizzle, autumn leaves, grass, annoyance, soft hands, a bookcase, cherries, neighbors, cash, a dog, split infinitives, good teeth to chew a steak, a walk along the brook, no sense of time, a long coat, wine, feet, Ds in math, a waltz, pain, boots, chocolate, jeans, Waterford, fountain pens, rocks, dreams, tennis, good legs, cognac, books, ghosts, sunshine, ties, an understanding of James Joyce, a rosary, video tapes, a bike, trash, paintings, a chain saw, memories, a cordless phone, remorse, a good baseball glove, a little fear, Knicks tickets, bank hours, purpose, silver dollars, Halloween candy, one gold ring, true love, warm nights, sound sleep, and a good laugh!
I saw you on the street last night;
although we've not met for a long time,
your face was pretty
as ever it was, and you saw
me, too. I caught your eye and yours
met mine, but I could neither stop
to say hello, nor remember
your name. I walked quickly away
to my next appointed chore.
I tried to conjure your name.
I dressed you in a white uniform,
placed you behind a store counter
to no avail; I sketched your face
and searched for your name like one
walking through dark library stacks
searching for a familiar title,
but I could not find your name,
and today, your look of recognition,
your brief look of disappointment
when I failed to acknowledge you,
whose smile so easily comes
to mind, trouble me still.
Late Winter
Sometimes we endure,
without joy,
without pleasure,
though the sun shines bright
from blue skies,
and crocuses
tempt cold march winds
to bloom white,
blue and yellow,
and daffodils bud
and flower
yellow beside
purple hyacinths.
sometimes we endure
without joy
without pleasure
though love shines constant
as the sun
from cloudless skies
and we endure like
the dormant rose
in winter,
awaiting the spark
that will bring
us back to life.
Meticulous fish, schooled in the arts;
no word from Fathom who studied the stars
to chart his course between Venus and Mars.
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Who knows the scent of fishing boats,
the slippery feel of live bait?
Who knows the endless hours afloat
on oil-slicked bays in hopeful wait
for the subtle bite that rarely came?
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The Bookend Diner's thin chicken soup
tasted like puddles, but it was worth
Fathom's dollar to be out of the rain,
a tranquil summer day's shocking turn
with sudden lightning, thunder,
and wind to make the city howl!
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No rest for the weary, thought Fathom,
hearing Sandra's scorn blasting the sun
from bright blue skies with torrents
of bitter invective spit like this wind driven
rain against the Bookend's glass facade.
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Some things still make sense, he thought,
sipping weak Red Rose tea. There's nothing
under heaven like a pale blue fifty-seven
Chevy. You could trust Ted Williams to hit.
Count on Ray Charles, Henry Fielding, Portia,
Marilyn Monroe, Little Richard, John
Lennon, Davie Crockett, Constance Reid,
and Premium Saltines in cellophane wrappers
to kill the taste of thin, bitter red tea.
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Fathom watched an old man, fresh
from the sea, the scent of fish
on his hands, he sipped the Bookend's
tea, and listed to one side and then to the other
like an old boat rocking gently on still waters.
He seemed not to notice the storm.
Fathom bailed out his shallow
soup bowl with quick scoops
as if to keep his ship afloat.
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The Lone Ranger did not ride alone,
Fathom thought, chewing his saltines.
Things are not always as they seem--
there was Tonto always near, and Cisco
had Pancho, Don Quixote had his Panza,
and who knows what went on between
Beatrice and George, Tom and Sophie,
Rochester and Bertha, Les Paul and Mary
Ford? Well, there's always Natty Bumppo
Abbey Road, Saint John's Gospel: it may
be so for all I know, he thought, as he pushed
hard to open the Bookend's glass door
and walked out into the wind blown rain.
Early Spring
The new year bounded along like a rock
jumping, bouncing down a severe incline.
The sun seemed to lose its way; it settled
in the south west sky as if gone astray.
By March the Sun eclipsed the moon and Hale-
Bopp's comet appeared like a misguided
star, too bright, too close; it forcibly stepped
on the brakes and kicked up enormous clouds
of trailing star dust as it skid across
the sky. Crocuses bloomed, and then came wild yellow daffodils and forsythia, purple
and white hyacinths. Magnolia trees
blossomed pink and the dogwoods flowered white.
Easter rushed up like an over-eager
child in pursuit of chocolate, and then
Vas died, as he said he would, on Easter
Sunday. with overcast hearts and tearful
smiles, we walked with him to his bright,
Spring Grave beneath a blue sky and a brilliant sun
on Friday, a little numb, a little
stunned, sad and lonely to be without him.
a blank sheet of paper
has marvelous potential
possibilities abound
like the stars on a clear night
when a new moon
tugs at the tides from
invisible heights
Nothing dries
sooner than tears
not the rain
not the dew
not the first
frost of fall
Love
Too close for words
to say what we mean;
too close to mean
what words can say:
is that love,
or is that love's
ghost: the old cherry
tree that failed
to blossom,
or the recurring echo
of a rose?
Evening Song
Twilight descends like a delicate threat;
the silent breeze whispers an ageless tale
of darkest night--harmonious discord
evoking quivers of unremembered
fear. Between the moon and night runs Venus
dripping sea-brine, the brightest star, astray
like an errant diamond, rife with cosmic
sentiment. There's magic in the echo
of the Jimson lily's silent song--sung
like the sirens' symphony to enchant
the moon. The ocean rushes a high tide
to soothe the weary shore: wave after white
wave smooths its face worn with foot prints and sand
castles: fleeting dreams wash away like bright
clouds blown on late night winds. Faceless figures
of sleepless dreams emerge from within tall
ancient oaks to cast deep spells and weave old
yarns of joyful days and estrous nights when
Brigid danced and Patrick sang and Hope rode
a brilliant white stallion from North to South
across white lily fields and rainbows arched
the land from sea to sea and happy were
we then, yes, for one brief, lasting moment.
Sunset
burned gold
without glare;
spring and such
a dry spell.
The lawn
turned earth's best green
but sparsly;
rain came,
light, fine;
half-a rainbow--
formed
then faded
slowly
imperceptibly;
a sheer cloud
hung before
a perfect
round, pale,
setting sun;
we watched
with wonder,
near fear,
to see the sun
look so like
the perfect
placid, dead
full moon.
Hypocrisy’s
blinding glare too
often obscures
the hypocrite
whose face appears
In the mirror.
What do you live with?
Everyone lives with something;
What you live with
Shows: on your face,
In your eyes,
In your walk;
It gives meaning
To the furrows in your brow;
It colors your smile,
Deepens your frown,
Paces your gait.
Does it lend beauty
To your face?
It can, you know.
The Salem Witch
Once I'd
seen the witch
it was difficult
ever more
to find
the comely
young woman
in fur and plume
who first caught
my eye.
Long standing
intolerance
begins to look
like patience,
in time.
Conflict and
contention,
the ritual
argument,
create one sort
of intimacy,
but a smile,
a kind word,
an uncalculated
kiss will do
as well if
what you want
is intimacy.
Christine and cookies,
Oh, Margaret a lot,
Hester’s green tea and
The morning was shot.
Breathless Virginia
Crammed plans into plans,
Fifteen for dinner
All stuffed in three vans.
Clara rode donkey
In boots with her smiles
While Bob kissed the princess
In back of the files.
Stale chocolate cake
Was what we all got.
Jane cried out loud:
“This coffee’s not hot.”
Gallery
The curator paced--window to counter,
counter to office, office to window . . . .
Brassy, old, imperious, a woman set on thin
legs waked an aged strut, impervious,
her look pursed in thin-lipped wrinkles:
"Tell me how I can assist you."
I could not tell, had no idea, wondered . . .
and smiled.
The curator paced--window to counter,
counter to office, office to window . . . .
The far wall was full canvas: clouds.
White and blue, tops of clouds:
deep contrast: bright to one side, dark
to the other. More clouds to the right.
Two walls of clouds, tops of clouds
"It's like being in a plane," said
an elderly woman with a happy, bright smile,
as she felt her way along the clouds
to find a door.
The curator slouched in his chair,
worn down with his rounds.
His tough-barked hostess had vanished,
leaving the room still as its thick carpet.
Alone above the clouds, I wandered
and was startled to find two long poles
with rocks tied to their tops, leaning
precariously against the clouds:
ancient missiles from a simple time
when we threw rocks.
I found myself pacing from window to cloud,
cloud to window, window to an overlooked
wall with a small canvas: two beetles
on daffodil, one atop the other, in "Yellow,
Magenta, Cyan."
Catherine came to mind: she liked to grit
her teeth in pleasure. Her eyes alight,
her front teeth slanted forward, her jaw
set, tense, triumphant. There was something
unseemly about Catherine's mouth when
she grit her teeth in pleasure.
Like an apparition among the clouds
the thin-lipped woman reappeared,
"Would you like a champagne?"
she urged with her head slightly tilted
toward the right, her thin lips pursed
shut with wrinkles, her dim eyes narrow,
estimating, calculating.
"Thank you, no."
The curator paced--window to counter,
counter to office, office to window . . . .
I felt my way along the clouds.
I followed the path of the bright-eyed
woman whose ageless smile shone
like the sun above the clouds, .
until I found the open door.
Between you, me,
the post and pillar,
Cinderella's story
of that nice prince,
a pumpkin coach
and slipper,
sounds fishy
as Moby Dick.
At times
The dead are real,
Their presence
Palpable as music to the deaf,
Color to the blind
Song to the mute.
The dead are real
And incomprehensible
As death.
The sunset sky was blue,
Blue, bright blue near the rooftops
Just above the yellow at the line of the roof.
Below, six stories of brick and window,
more window than brick,
were dark, as if night fell
early in the narrow street.
Down the front of the building,
past arched windows and rectangular windows
ran a metal stairway,
of rusted wrought iron,
the skeleton of stairs.
Parked cars sat
heavily, inert,
like the blue grey slate stones of the sidewalk.
From the dark street shone
neon lights of blue and yellow
and red and white and gold.
White streetlights carved vague shadows
On blue grey slate stone sidewalks.
The corner street light flashed
“Don’t walk” in red.
Blue lights and white lights shone from windows.
A bicycle with an over-large basket
and a wrapped packaged
waited for a rider.
No one walked and no one drove
and no one looked from the windows.
Bright green traffic lights turned amber,
turned red and held till red turned green,
no matter that no one came.
No matter that the sky above was blue.
We agonized along hot city side-
Walks in summer and picked a careful way
Over ice in bitterly cold winter
Winds to find tea and scones while we studied
Ways to explore, perfect, perhaps justify
Intimacy. Were we intimate
Then when we wondered aloud if this con-
Fusion were love or what might it be if
Not and why such fascination, why such
Urgent desire, why the desire
To check desire, why the concentration
On one another when we were apart,
Why the cautious first moments each time we
Met?
When we were together,
Sensitive to one another
Protective of ourselves—
We saw ourselves as if in an odd
Light that shone in two directions
At once and revealed one thing to you
And another to me.
The stone behind the dark glasses
on the snow cone is the King
The queen is in her pantry
eating pies.
Crawling down the hallway
past the butter, past the sink,
the prince is having visions
with his eyes.
The Joker traded motley
for a pin-striped vested suit;
His wife puffed out her cheeks and
picked his ties.
The priest is running groceries
to the revels in the hills.
the nuns are painting checkers
on the skies.
Princess Carolina dressed
In crinoline contrives
To raise her skirt and wink at
all the guys.
Robin Hood lit Marion’s
Dessert while the friar
drank a punch that blackened
both his eyes.
The inevitable,
always comes
As a shock.
I have arrived at that point
In my life
When the need to be polite,
Diplomatic,
Inoffensive to prevailing sensitivities,
Sensibilities,
Is exceeded only
By the inveterate need
To have my say
right or wrong.
Discarded Past
Winter Olympics. February. Lent.
Snow. Snow. Cold. Like sea shells tossed on frozen
night sands, memories rose in dreams drawn
by full moon tides: scattered images vivid
as her face, staring out a bus window:
sad, mysterious--I felt her look. Why?
What? She would not say . . . young. We had just met,
she, her girlfriend and I. Coincidence:
a day trip--she was the guest of her friend's
parents; I the guest of an old teacher.
Bright, warm, summer sun, afternoon--her face
had changed--her slim friend: I had come to see
her--we knew that. Her pretty face eludes
me now. Roy Orbison--"Crying," "Only
The Lonely"--on a small diner jukebox.
I tried to smoke a cigarette--my first
pack. "You look silly," she said. "Let him be,"
came in my defense, though I played the fool.
A beach in summer, change: I was taller;
she was thin. Her mother had a number:
a house full of girls. I called. "She's not here,
now. I don't know where she is. She starts work
at five." I said I'd try my luck. My friends
from school were with me--my ride--a car full.
A huge beach house: I knocked. A girl answered,
curious. "She's home now," and she appeared
looking rushed, unsettled, slightly annoyed
by this surprise visit: she tried to smile.
She worked as a waitress in the evenings--
they found her on the beach and rushed her back.
No time to change: make-up, perfume, her long black
hair pinned back, her thin legs tan in shorts pulled
over a bikini, a light sheer blouse--
she did not know why I was there, or why
there was a car full of boys at the curb
staring, curious as we walked toward them.
I felt shy, stunned by her beauty--the change:
subtle experience, savvy. She found
me naive. We climbed into the back seat
and sat close to one another: she was
one in a crowd of strangers, my polite
friends. I felt warm in contact with her, tongue-
tied: she sided with my crowd who teased me:
"you look flushed," came from the front seat. She touched
my face, "Yes! He's in heat!" That got a laugh.
A sedate party in my father's back
yard--we'd finished high school. My home town crowd--
she had somewhere to go, but she would stop
for a brief visit. She arrived I heels
and stockings, a darkish dress, her full black
hair perfect--she was at her loveliest,
her face smooth, her smile relaxed, her eyes dark
and bright at once--a beautiful stranger--
the crowd went silent as she found her way
through the roses in the fading sunlight
and smiled. One night, a year later? Summer
vacation. College. I was home from school
and a strange classmate appeared with a car.
I called--she was home--we drove to her house--
she and I sat on a couch in a large
parlor with a stereo and my friend.
He felt like my ride, sat alone, apart,
unsure of his role--he tried to ignore
us, and we tried to include him. We talked--
now and again we held hands--discreetly--
the touch her delicate hand was soft
and warm. When we were leaving, she stopped me
on the landing atop the stairs and kissed
me and we held one another . . . gently.
I was surprised, naive as I was. Long
afterward I could still feel her presence
like a comfort. The memory faded,
though, in time, like the passing of roses.
A bright autumn evening--I was engaged
and she was seeing someone--we asked her
to come with us to see the film version
of The Sound of Music in a large, old
theatre near her house--she declined but asked
us to visit before the show. When we
arrived she and her mother sat us down
to dinner with her family--she was
sensitive and alert, in touch with us
and with her mother in a quiet way.
It felt odd, though, to eat and leave her there
in the driveway, waving good-bye to us.
The wedding was a crowded, rushed affair--
she was radiant, coming down the church
stairs to greet us. She introduced the man
who would become her husband, an older
man. I hoped to see them later, but no,
they would not come to the reception hall--
was she, by then, and in the company
of her own fiancé, uncomfortable
in her role of the beautiful stranger?
Time went by like a subway ride--a blur
through darkness and light--how long ago had
I spoken with her? I called her mother
to ask how she was. She said she could use
a call from me--get her back in touch with
some of "the old crowd," now that her baby
was born. I called, eager to hear of her
husband and baby, her home, her new life--
I hoped to persuade her to visit us,
meet my boy, and I was stunned by, "How did
you get my number? Why did you call me?
I'm married! I have a baby! I have
a husband!" "I know." I was shocked. "I met
your husband at my wedding." I did not
know what to say. "I'm sorry to trouble
you so. Did your husband dislike me? Us?"
"No. He said you were a 'nice young man'." "So . . .
What's wrong?" She wouldn't say why she was so
upset. I was shocked and confused, sorry
to feel I threatened her, though I did not
understand. "I don't want to trouble you.
I won't call again. Don't worry. Good-bye."
I felt embarrassed, foolish, discarded,
like a shameful past. That was twenty years
ago, or more--a generation--then
there she was again--vivid as her face
staring out a bus window--a winter
night's dream tossed memories like old
sea shells on cold sands, bright, beneath a full moon.
Random, random, random in tandem
A coke can rolled down the road.
The circus train crept past the park
Heavy, like a tanker sitting low
In the water, inching up river
Exhausted, on the last leg of its long journey.
The phone rang. I woke. Lost.
Where am I? What time is it?
Dream merged with waking:
I was in Cincinnati when the phone
Rang and I ran to answer and woke
From my dream more real than
The ringing phone.
“Tending bar is not respectable.
He should not tend bar.”
She spoke with disgust on her face.
Disgust easily found its way to her face.
A smile struggled with her ready-made
Lines of disgust. She could not distort
Those lines to make a smile, so deeply carved
Into her face were the aged lines of constant disgust.
The paperboy walked stiffly, his back to the wind,
His cap pulled down to cover his face.
The wind cut through his blue jeans and iced
The front of his legs till they were numb and stung.
The wind sliced sharply across lawns buried beneath
Snow that obliterated boundaries and hid concrete
Walkways and curbs and streets. Snow drifts rounded
White by the wind peaked and sloped as if they covered
A long, plush meadow that rolled uphill from the brook
But the heavy snow could not disguise the small,
Uniform houses that shot up suddenly like patches
Of corn that divided the field into barren lots
Where greedy men planted cinder blocks.
Christmas came like a winter storm
Of wrapping and bows and boxes
And it went in light black plastic bags
With empty wine bottles clinking to get
MORNING
"Introibo ad Altare Dei . . ."
Father Wily would say, too fast, all too
early in the day for me to call up
my memorized Latin. "Ad Deum qui
laetificat juventutem meam,"
I would answer, nervous, not quite awake
so early in the morning before school.
Not much of a crowd those dark March mornings.
The church was cold and every sound echoed:
a stifled sneeze; a late comer tiptoed
up the aisle; a cough. Someone turned a thin,
stiff missal's page, trying to keep pace
with Father Wily's quick, breathless Latin.
I smothered a yawn and my eyes watered
while I sat through the Epistle: Saint Paul
complained about rough seas, ship wreck. Dawn's first
glowing light colored the stained glass windows:
Saint John, in dark blue, emerged with a book;
Mary, in blue and white, stood on a gold
lined cloud and rose toward the sky; a young man
with long hair and a halo, his hands tied
above his head, slumped down beside a tree
and looked upward while he bled from arrow
wounds: seven arrows. The rising sun's shafts
of light trapped brilliant specks of fast moving
dust and rose to light up bits of gold high
in the cathedral's dark mosaic dome.
A steady, cold draft blew round my ankles
while I knelt, watching closely for my cue
to ring the gold bells when Father Wily
raised up the host and his bright gold chalice:
the church became still for that long moment;
a huge silence would gather to embrace
the music of bells ringing their finest
tones, and like a great organ sustaining
a note, the empty church echoed and sang
the bells' cheerful song, then let it fade out
slowly, gently, till it was the faintest
hint of music gone from perfect silence.
The taste of the host was still in my mouth
when I took off my surplice and cassock:
it made me hungry. The cold sacristy
chilled my coat and made me anxious to leave:
I took my books, my lunch bag and I hurried
down the aisle. The church was dark, oddly still,
vacant; the sun now sent shafts of colored
light down through dark stained glass windows.
Each dim beam lit an empty space in the dark pews.
My quick steps echoed through the hollow church
till I pushed open its heavy, arched doors.
The skies were blue and not a cloud behind
bright sun that warmed my face and eased the chill
from morning air. I was awake and glad
for a donut I found in my lunch bag.
The last church-goer drove his car around
the corner and the grey stone parking lot
became our school playground: I wandered
alone, curious to find beer bottle
caps, cigarette butts, broken glass, bobby
pins, the telling signs of a playground's
life after school and before morning Mass.
The school was shut, silent, asleep; its sand
colored brick sparkled in the bright sun
like the brief, faint smile of a pleasant dream.
Not a soul about and the place so still--
it seemed impossible that soon noisy
bus after yellow bus would come to pour
streams of boys and girls in blue uniforms
scrambling onto the playground to await
the shrill, piercing bell that signaled the start
of another day. Such a fine morning!
I wished I were free to go home and play.
Conversation with the Wall
In mocking hesitation,
old Whiskers bowed his head:
"It's mostly of this era
to live in fear and dread
the push along the subway,
the stranger with a gun,
the organized militia
armed and having fun,
the nuclear reactors,
the IRS, and more,
the nagging threat of living
through the very last world war.
No telling what they're thinking,
down there in Washington's Mall,
but everyone who goes there
sits on Humpty's wall.
So fare you well this fun house,
wisely choose your way:
we'll know you by those things you do.
Not by those you say."
Whiskers and The Victorian
She was a shallow stream,
a wader's dream,
and he liked fishing
up minnows.
Hers was a fetching gleam:
the moon's full beam
conjuring a steady
under-tow.
He splashed on self-esteem,
to an extreme,
and thought to give her
a good row,
but, t'was her secret scheme
to reign supreme
whilst he was bathing
his ego.
Their puddle sure teemed
and raged, till it seemed
like oceans about
to overflow.
Good Friday
Lily's eyes stared wide and round
as if stuck open with startled dismay.
"Come on," she said, "what's all these
clothes doing here? I didn't finish
yesterday's wash yet . . . ."
Pink Floyd's Wall filled the hall,
too loud--"We don't need no . . ."
The washing machine clanged;
the vacuum cleaner roared its angry
scream and the dog barked and jumped
as if he would attack its every move.
An ill-conceived Spring with sudden snow
burying limp crocuses too quick to live.
Easter eggs boiling for dyeing--
at three the stress of Lent is gone.
Lazy, graceful, languid snow dancing,
drifting down, floating slowly down
this Friday in April.
Melancholy lilies hang their heads
in mournful shame in Shepherd's
chilly hot-house. "They've been forced,"
Shepherd said, "along with the mums
and azaleas. Lilies don't take it well.
They're no fun," he chuckled.
Tomato soup and tuna fish--
dinner for a damn snowy
Friday in April.
Vietnam is a memory now:
remote as Korea,
World War II.
Once Nam was everything:
once,
for a long, long painful time.
"A brief war, as wars go,"
will say the books.
Hard to face then,
Harder now:
men, grown from boys,
eighteen, haunt
street corners like lost souls,
they beg in frayed uniforms:
spare change can not change
a life spared in war, doomed
to haunt lost souls,
victims themselves
of private wars,
wounded, scarred, numbed,
their own horror
haunting them,
they cannot hear
the anguished voice:
"Spare some change
for a vet, friend?
WHAT I DONE FOR SUMMER VACATION
my old man got sick and he got operated on in a hospital in new york and got better after a month and come home but he couldn't do nothing for a long time after that. When he was home he told me what to do for the summer--paint the picket fence white. Cut the grass. Pull weeds. Trim the edges. Plant the garden. Weed the garden but don't touch the cucumbers--kills 'em. Wash the car. Clean out the garage. Catch worms at night for fishing. He fished in a lake and never caught nothing. Then he heard about the bay. Didn't need worms for that. We needed other fish to catch little fish. Small blue fish that were only sort of blue on top and white mostly. Then we caught fish. Lots of little fish. I learned to clean them. You cut off their head at the gills and cut them down the middle of their belly and get the little skeleton out and scrape the scale knife over them and get rid of the scales and when you're done there's not much of a fish left. But we had a lot of them and he liked them. Or he liked that he caught them after all the time on the lake with nothing coming up after the worms and the bobbins still on the water and the lines got tangled and we had nothing to eat or drink out there in that boat and there were mosquito bites. He liked seeing the red and white bobbins dive down into the water and stay there while something ran with the line. And the reel sung out. Then a priest that taught him something in school came and told me about girls and nice girls don't like it. They let you do it if they like you but they don't feel nothing and its a sin but I knew about girls and was scared because I wasn't supposed to, and when he asked me if I did, I said no. So I made faces like I was surprised and my face hurt after a while. He liked talking about it, and wanted to make sure I was going to be good. So he finished up and we went downstairs and ate, but I was tired. After a while he came back and I had to make believe I liked him and was happy to see him again. They talked and left me out of it, and I was glad, but then they came and said I was going with him to Canada on a bus with some people from his church. I wasn't sure I liked that much, but they wanted me to pretty bad and I made faces like I was happy. I stayed at his house and didn't like getting up early for mass the day we left. It rained. I met two girls I liked, one in a white pleated skirt that hung nice over her and made it look like she was nice and her friend was shorter and had nice long fingers and nice hair and eyes and she was pretty, and the priest kept trying to make me sit up in the front seat of the bus with him but I kept going to the back seat where the girls were. He didn't like me leaving him up there alone but I couldn't think up nothing to say to him. Couldn't think up nothing to say to the girls either. But I liked them and I liked sitting by them. We went to these shrines up there. They gave us little candles at night and we lit them up and walked around holding them and said the rosary in french. I didn't know french and it took too long but it sounded nice and they had crutches hanging up in church and wheel chairs from people they said got cured out of something without getting operated on. And when I got up the last morning, I met the girls and had coffee and I never had that before and it wasn't good, but I kept the jar they brought it in. When I left the restaurant the girls made believe they were shocked but they put it in a pocketbook and walked out like nothing. Outside the restaurant I saw newspapers in english standing up in a rack and one said ernest hemingway killed himself last night. Biggest print I ever saw.
Ordinary Time
Week Six
Have you seen that homeless
man shuffle off to bed:
cardboard on a subway grate
his hands around his head?
Have you seen that tunnel
lady advertise her breast:
she winks a blackened, swollen
eye that says she needs some rest.
Have you seen that drunken
man talking to the wall?
Have the windshield raggers
scared you with their drawl:
"May the good Lord bless you, Mister.
Merry Christmas one and all.
Poetry Night
I rode the elite elevator and stood among the elite
in elevator silence as we sped to a vertiginous height.
A man in full, greying sideburns with a smooth,
shining head perched atop a blue turtleneck sweater,
his three button tweed jacket buttoned up tight, stood
silent and glossy as his polished mahogany umbrella handle.
A woman, separate and large in shining black fur looked
soft as a panda; her black boots rose well into her long
fur, and her dark eyes glowed as she stood apart; her acrid
silence hummed through tight clenched, dark red lips,
like the sealed elevator that hummed its way upward.
I stood in a metal corner and watched blinking lights
flash numbers from left to right where it stopped at twelve.
Dull metal doors parted slowly and disappeared.
Black fur exercised female prerogative and pushed
her way through the crowd and the opened doorway.
She turned right turned right and lumbered away,
making haste with short, heavy, slow strides. The shining head looked round with the quick movements of a small bird,
and marched off.
I stepped from the emptied elevator to a brass picket rail that overlooked the floor twelve stories below: the distance tugged and drained blood from my groin and my legs felt weak; the fall was steep; the distant floor of black and white rose in three dimensions, jagged like hewn rocks sadistically set in perfect diagonal rows--an Escher etching, over-enlarged, magnified, compelling, dangerous.
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An elder sentry in thin lapels, his hands folded over
his zipper in watering hole pose, barred entry to the hall:
a slight woman of some years sat, officiously stiff, behind
a bare table and exchanged entry for cash, tickets,
or passes. She checked off names with practiced, and absorbed concentration.
Three tiers were expected: those who would pay, those above paying, and those beneath paying: the coerced, students of the venerable Whisp, the uninitiated.
I produced my summons; the elder lady found my name
and with a stiff back, a serious look, and her short pencil,
she carefully drew a check mark and waved me on with a nod. Her quiet sentry, politely chagrined, winningly mustered a bland smile, and asked, near embarrassment, if I would be kind enough to point out to him the young lady, Laura Blume.
Ms. Blume had risen lately, beyond elite, straight
up from coerced. She'd ascended, some said, indecently,
like helium balloons let loose.
"No," I smiled. "Can't say as I've ever seen her."
Who has not heard her name? From behind me
came a feeble voice that said, "Yes, I can." I looked
round to find a fellow student who overheard
the gentleman's hushed question and could not
resist the urge to raise his hand with a right answer.
He leaned toward the tall, thin grey sentry, surveyed
the room with a shrewd eye, and careful not to point,
stood still as a dog trained for the hunt, aimed his
deliberate stare toward the very center of the gathered
crowd, and said, "She is the one in the white blouse."
The distinguished old gentleman followed the line
of the young man's nose and blinked in recognition:
"Ah," he said as he slowly, politely licked his lip
and wrinkled his forehead in some slight confusion.
Laura Blume, her hands folded and buried
in her ample lap, sat straight up with the plump
calm of a queen planted like the center-piece
of a small, unruly garden.
Professor Whisp, the main event, had not arrived.
******************************************
The crowd, fully swollen, was lost in the hall
whose rarefied air breathed with détente,
disappointed in this small gathering,
whose loudest din echoed like the buzz
of an insect circling high ceiling lights.
I chose a seat near a side exit and surveyed
the door; a heavy dark grained wood hung
snugly on elaborate brass hinges. I stepped
to the door and turned a smooth handful of brass
knob to test the route of my early escape. A shrill
bell sounded a shocking alarm that echoed aloud
in the hall's spacious quiet.
The crowd's buzz died of a sudden: a startled hush
fell on the floor. Stunned eyes searched round
and found me standing below the lit exit sign:
I was caught as if with my finger in the pie.
Disinterest returned and the silent pause gave
way to a slowly rising hum that reascended to buzz.
At length and later than she liked, a lady, whose pure
antique charm shone like a mirror veneer poised
with a stiff neck, stood. Her head tilted slightly upward
and to one side to display, to some advantage and without
ostentation, her short string of yellowed pearls:
"May I have your attention!" she insisted, leaning toward
the microphone, "May I have your kind attention!!"
She waited with watchful persistence.
A deferential hush fell over the hall and amplified
the echo of metal folding chairs banging: a moment's
clamorous clanging shuffle and all were seated.
Laura Blume rose up in mid-declaration and trotted
heavily from her central seat, her head slightly bent,
she picked her way modestly, slowly hurrying till she
sat at the long bare folding table beside the podium,
next Whisp's right arm: for Whisp had arrived.
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"It is our enormous good fortune," the stiff necked
pearls insisted into the microphone clamped
precariously to the podium, "an honor and what
a distinction, talk, talk, talk, talk, talk, and extreme,
talk, talk, talk, among above, talk, talk, talk," she smiled.
Up popped Whisp, though not far enough. He reached
up for the microphone, pulled it down, then down again.
He fumbled his thick black-framed glasses, caught them
in mid-air and struck them against the microphone,
nearly tossed his papers, grabbed them, slid his glasses
over his ears, propped them on his nose and opened
a book of his own doing . . .
As from a cupboard, like a politician cock roach,
with a bow and a blink, Whisp nodded and began:
"The purpose and aim of the poetry talk talk talk talk.
I'll show you what I mean by reading a poem talk talk.
A blurred title and on sung Whisp:
something a mermaid off on her own in the sea.
The microphone lisped and hummed,
Talk, talk talk talk," and Whisp had done.
******************************************
Laura Blume rose up, bumped into Whisp
as they danced round one another in a tight
circle. Whisp sat, smiling broadly, while Laura
stood, discretely raising up the microphone.
With intense calm in her tight, quiet voice,
Laura lamented that her light was dimmed
by forever trailing Whisp's golden glow,
though her tone told the silent she was every
bit of it equal to the task: "It is the bane of my
life, the curse of my career to have always
to follow Professor, dear Professor Whisp. Talk,
talk, talk, talk. Talk, talk talk talk . . .
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I leaned back in my folding chair and thought
of the river as it was when I drove beside it on
my way to this chair: the water was still, frozen,
jagged; it gleamed like glass debris, stuck, caught
as if in a ragged mood while the sun settled
distant and cool behind the factory silhouette
skyline on the Jersey side.
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talk, talk talk, talk, talk, talk . . ."
Laura was suddenly reading a poem of her own:
an Irish coffee, a misty field and shadowy exchanges
between vague figures in the dew cook rain talk, talk
talk, talk talk talk, talktalktalktalk!"
"Are there any questions," she paused.
Whisp blinked hopefully, dangerously
drawing his glasses from his nose . . .
An elderly gentleman stood, and as he stroked
his beard, he said he thought Talk was good
so far as Talk went, but it made too little sense
to him and did not at all account for talk, talk, talk,
and talk!
Whisp restored his glasses to his head and looked
though his papers, leaving Laura to lurch for herself:
"Talk means talk, and talk, talk, taalk," her voice
pitched higher, "talk, talk, talk," and squeaked, "Talk!"
Whisp drew his glasses from his nose and shone
brightly: he did not rise, and from his chair, while
Laura stood turning toward him, he said, "Talk. Talk.
Talk, talk; talk--talk? Talk: TALK! ! !" and he conciliated,
"I should have grown a beard for having said that,
it was so wise."
The silence tittered and the gentleman sat, shaking his head.
Whisp beamed for more when up popped declining elegance
to say the hour had come for this distinct honor to end.
"Some of us must go and others can stay, but all are welcome and we must express our deepest gratitude, talk, talk, talk . . ." She'd not finished before chairs began to bang and raise a metal clang that echoed in the grateful hall which breathed more easily knowing that this buzzing insect would soon cease to trouble its solitude.
I squeezed into the first elevator with the crushed elite,
hopped across the jagged stone floor on my way to the door, ran to my car and raced to be gone.
Apocalypse
In the end
it's over.
Done.
If it starts
up again
as something
new,
it's not
over and
done.
In the end
it's done.
Over.