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On the Journey Back, Chapter 1TRANSCRIPT
On The Journey Back
Jimmy Pollard
Edited and rewritten by Barbara Milbourn
A man travels the world over in search of what he needs and returns home to find it.
George Moore (Novelist 1852-1933)
PART ONE
Chapter One
Joys of my journey with steps never told.
Jimmy Eugene
What God-fearing, right-minded parents pack up their young sons
and send them off on an unsupervised road trip without a second
thought? Mine, that’s who—Judith and Andrew Pollard. But things
were different back then. People were less evil and more trusting.
Bus stations were more for middle-class travelers and less for unsa-
vory characters hanging around pushing drugs and preying on those
who were down and out. Besides, it wasn’t exactly an around-the-
world trip, although it might have been, so great was the difference
between our days at home in Lake Charles and summers on our
grandparents’ farm a stone’s throw from Louisiana’s border with
Arkansas.
I settled into the aisle seat next to my older brother William as the
bus pulled away. From the side and then from the rear of the coach
I watched Mama become smaller and smaller. The fading vision of
her tugged at me and began to form an impassible dam in my throat
that would burst and spill out my eyes. William never teased me
about crying when we were very young—he had his own tears to
fight back.
Leaning my head against the seat and clamping my eyes shut, I
could still see Mama’s toothy smile, her slender arm sweeping the
sky, her hair pinned up at the temples. She had worn the dress
Daddy liked best—a dark blue/near black number that looked like
a collapsing umbrella on the bottom with a tailored top and a skinny,
rolled-down collar that showed just enough skin to reveal a string
of pearls her father had given her as a wedding gift. Daddy liked
her in things that weren’t flashy and didn’t show too much skin. I
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liked her in this particular dress because of its buttons. They were
round and smooth like river pearls. I remember being very small,
sitting in her lap against her warmth, and rolling them around with
the tips of my fingers.
Mama always gave us a little money for the trip to be spent on
food. Fifty cents a meal did it. The thought of that juicy burger hot
off the grill with lots of ketchup and mayonnaise washed down with
an RC Cola sent the glands under my tongue into overdrive. My
mouth flooded with a river of tangy saliva I could hardly contain
and usually didn’t. The burger’s juices mixed with mine and ran
down my fingers and hands to be swabbed onto my pants with no
conscience of laundering.
Stopping to eat meant we were halfway to Mamaw and Grand-
dad’s where one could walk half a mile and be in another state en-
tirely. There was a hundred miles to go.
My mother did not think twice about sending us on the Trailways
bus ride alone every summer from the time I was three, with only
the promise of the bus driver that my brother and I would make it
to the top of Louisiana from the bottom safely.
The bus rocked along northward, and I dozed while the salty,
clammy air of the Gulf slowly turned woodsier. I dreamed of the
farm and could smell its rich loam and conifers—so different than
sandy, swampy Lake Charles. Through my reverie, I heard the driver
call “next stop, Haynesville.” William tugged on my arm. We’d be
there soon. A few minutes later we made our way down the aisle
and descended the tall steps to steady ground where the driver
opened the bus’s belly and unloaded our suitcases.
Haynesville proper, Granddad had told us, was once a big boom town
in the 1920s—built on one of the biggest petroleum booms in the state.
Long since before we’d been coming, however, its numbers had been
dwindling and now it was barely a shadow of what it once had been.
Not that we cared much about Haynesville itself; it was Granddad and
Mamaw’s place about three miles out that we came for.
My excitement mounted at the thought of seeing them, but I knew
from past experience their picking us up from the bus station was
out of the question. Neither drove or had a driver’s license. It would
be Old Man Percy, a black driver for Mr. Martin’s grocery store who
would fetch us in his old pickup and tote us and our luggage to the
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farm. And there he was in his overalls, quickening his steps and
breaking into a broad grin as he spotted us.
“Why, look at you boys,” he exclaimed beaming at us like we were
his own. “Yo mama must be feeding you real good; you done grown
a foot since I seen you last!”
He reached down to pick up our suitcases and closely inspected
our faces in the process. Friendly and pleased that we were the same
Jimmy and Willy we were last year, he shuffled us in the direction
of his Chevy. Old Man Percy knew that Granddad would pay him
for the chore with something good to eat—probably a big mess of
fresh-caught fish.
Sitting up high in the truck flanked by Mr. Percy and William, I
felt on top of the world as we pulled away from the bus station. In
a few short minutes the last buildings of town gave way to stands of
pine and fields of crops and cattle. I grew antsy in my seat as Grand-
dad’s cotton fields came into view.
More than anything or anyone, I was excited to see Mamaw; all
five foot eight inches of her. She was rail thin; so thin you could see
the blue veins and sinew under her leathery sun-tanned skin. Her
hands were as twisted as the ropes of laundry she rang the suds from,
and her knuckles were arthritic and knotted-looking like a tree suf-
fering from gall. There was not a tooth in her head.
“Edentulous,” she’d say. It was a big word in her normally simple
vocabulary that she used to amuse us. “Temporarily edentulous,”
she’d laugh and pull her dentures from an oversized pocket. I liked
her best without teeth; the way words flowed soft and smooth over
her soft, smooth gums. Mamaw didn’t have a hard edge to her.
A first glance might have a lot of people thinking this little spit of
a woman was a weakling, but she was anything but. She built the
fires to heat water for laundry, cooking, cleaning, and bathing. She
tended the animals, the garden, Granddad, and us when we came
to visit. She taught school too, and oversaw the general operations
of the house and farm. Women half her age griped about doing
half the work Mamaw did. She never complained—not one word.
I’d never seen anyone, man or woman, before or since, work the way
Mamaw did. She was strong all right. She had to be; she had mar-
ried Dude Bernum.
Granddad bragged to us about being born in 1882, a year that
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sounded ancient to me, but an important one he had insisted be-
cause the tuberculosis germ had been discovered. He raised cotton
on some of his 50 acres and harvested resin from his pine trees on
the others, both of which he sold for a good profit most years. He
fished and hunted and had provided well for the eight children he
fathered that included my mother. People in town knew and re-
spected him for being resourceful. He’d even built the house they
lived in, a house with a shiny tin roof and porches in the back and
front. The front was where Mr. Percy was pulling to a stop now. We’d
arrived.
At the sound of the truck, Mamaw came out of the house, wiping
her hands on her apron then wrapping her skinny arms around
William and me at the same time. She crushed us to her with stun-
ning strength. I took in her fresh laundry smell bosom-high and
squeezed her back as hard as I could.
“Go on in there, eat your supper, and get settled,” Granddad said
after prying us free from Mamaw and greeting us with his own bear
hug. His hand patted us on the fanny and propelled us in the direc-
tion of the house. As we went off with Mamaw, Granddad turned
to square up with Mr. Percy, and then called back to us, “Then we’ll
turn on the radio. It’s Saturday night, Grand Ole Opry time.”
Mamaw had set our suitcases in the breezeway that separated the
sleeping room from the rest of the house. We entered the large, fa-
miliar room that was kitchen, dining room, and sitting room all at
once. The big, square dining room table was set with our plates and
William made straight for it as he was told, but I stopped to peer
down at the table I had been warned not to mess with since the time
I was eye-level with it.
Mamaw’s voice rang in my ears, “You kids stay away from Grand-
dad’s table now. That’s his space. Jimmy, ya hear me?”
“Yes Ma’am,” I must have told her a hundred times.
It looked the very same. A pack of Panatella cigars, Juicy Fruit
gum, Old Spice aftershave, the same shaving cup with horsehair
brush whose bristles had long since relaxed to one side, straight
razor, pocket knife, and pocket watch—everything exactly the same
and arranged neatly on the red and white checked oil cloth year
after year. The hand mirror and razor strop hung on their same nails
to the right of the window under which the table sat.
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There’s a difference between siblings, you know. I’m not sure how
or why this is, and it doesn’t matter. The truth is some are satisfied
and obey once told, and others are born with a natural itch to ex-
plore what’s beyond. “Precocious,” Mamaw would say. “Trouble,”
said my mother. Most times when someone told me not to touch
something—like Granddad’s table—my curiosity piqued and I’d
start itching to know.
“Why can’t I touch it? Why?”
I had to walk by that table every single summer’s day since I was
a young, young boy. The forbidden contents had drawn me like a
magnet. I was like a boy walking in his sleep. Who, besides my
brother, could possibly resist reaching out a young arm to finger the
razor and rub the shaving brush around on one’s own chin? The
fascination with Granddad’s table remained, but it had changed
through the years. Now I eyed the Panatellas.
Later that evening Granddad picked up WSM-AM out of
Nashville as everyone gathered by the radio. Dude Bernum puffed
his cigar and rolled it between his thumb and index finger. He re-
clined in his chair and rocked slowly tapping his foot in perfect
rhythm to whatever song was broadcasting from the country’s most
famous stage. Mamaw claimed he had perfect rhythm and she
smiled at the music, at us, and at the sight of her husband’s enjoy-
ment, her toothless face a beautiful and comforting image to me.
When she caught me out of the corner of her eye looking twice at
Granddad’s table, the corners of her mouth curled upward and she
gave me a look that said no. She seemed able to detect my every
whim—a schoolteacher’s gift perhaps.
In her lap was a garment for hand mending. For Mamaw, but not
the rest of us, there was always something that still needed doing at
the end of the day.
“Idle hands are the devil’s workshop,” she said. The needle moved
in and out with perfect precision, Mamaw’s hands deftly maneuver-
ing the fabric without thought or effort. As I watched her sew I’d
look intermittently at the radio, as mesmerized by its sound as I was
by the soft lines in Mamaw’s face. I took mental leave of the room
as if watching it from above. I savored the soft, low light and music
and smoke from Granddad’s cigar. The faces and smiles and toe-
tapping all pleased me. I was understood here; a boy who mattered.
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I basked in the warm pool of approval. The nervousness that had
been growing like a tight knot in my stomach was melting away. It
seemed to dissipate in the night air coming in the windows. It was
going to be another very good summer.
I refocused now on the radio, a maple-colored wooden box with
two knobs on either end of five push buttons. I had learned to count
to five on those buttons and got into trouble because I always wanted
to push in on the grill cloth covering the speaker. Old time country
music reverberated against clapboard walls and filled the room with
its tinny, familiar sound. This was the Opry before strictly-country
Opry manager Jim Denny told Elvis he ought to take his rhythm
and blues back to Memphis and keep his truck driving job. This was
the Opry after it had moved to the Ryman Auditorium and lifted
the ban on drums and horns.
Worn out from the bus ride, relaxed, fed, safe, and lulled by the
music, I drifted off into a peaceful sleep. Granddad most likely car-
ried me to bed, because it was there I woke up alone surrounded by
a sea of rumpled sheets. A long ray of light reached into the breeze-
way and fell across the floor.
Granddad was already out behind Beulah the mule, his steely blue
eyes focused on plowing under Mamaw’s spring garden, the delicate
salad greens, radish, and onions having all been eaten and long since
gone. On my way to the two-hole outhouse, which was uptown in
those days, I waved to him but he was too intent to wave back, al-
though he may have nodded in my direction. I took no offense; he
was a quiet man who meant what he said about everything, includ-
ing actions speaking louder than words. The sun glistened off his
skin and set his red hair aflame. I stared at this short man with mus-
cles of braided rope bending backwards in full effort to dig the plow
in deeply and carve out another day. How different from the man
last night tipped all the way back in his rocker as relaxed as Gumby
and enjoying music and cigars.
On my return to the house I saw Mamaw by the fire pit standing
between two big iron pots, one for washing clothes and one for rins-
ing. Before the clothes could go into the rinsing pot after being
stirred around in the boiling-hot washing water, they were scrubbed
on the washboard. Her arms pumped up and down across the board
and I thought I recognized my pants from yesterday.
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“Morning Jimmy,” she called looking up and still scrubbing.
“Morning Mamaw.”
“You boys need to get ya something to eat and ready yourselves
for church. Food’s on the table; wash basin is on the sideboard; your
white shirt and black bow tie is hanging up.”
“Yes Ma’am,” I said picking up my step.
Mamaw had already milked the cows, started the laundry, and
mixed flour, milk, and lard together to make biscuits. Sometimes she
added a pinch of sugar just for William and me. Biscuits, gravy,
bacon and eggs were warm and piled high on two plates on the
table. I flashed William a grin intended to register that this was a
real breakfast compared to our usual Sunday morning bowl of lack-
luster cold cereal back home. Here was my plate, my very own spe-
cial plate, full of my favorite things. A few summers ago I’d taken a
liking to a plate with a wild rose pattern on it. It had a tablespoon-
sized chip out of one side, was thin and lightweight, and was easy
to spot among the others. It may have been damaged goods, but it
suited me just fine. That it was my plate was an unspoken under-
standing between Mamaw and me. It had never been discussed; it
just was, and we both knew it.
By the time we finished eating, the water in the basin had lost most
of its heat. I rubbed as little soap as possible on the rag to still be
able to say I used soap and not lie to Mamaw, but not enough to
qualify as taking a bath. I scrubbed up under my arms, around my
neck, splashed my face, and got into my clothes. That was enough
washing up for one day.
Old Military Road ran in front of the farm and led to a two-lane
dirt highway that took us the three miles to town. Dreading the walk,
I slipped a couple pieces of bacon into my pants pocket. I’d whip
one out for motivation when I felt like I positively could not go one
step farther.
“Ten more steps to a bite of bacon,” I’d say. And then it would be
a hundred more until the next. The drudgery of walking the endless
road was something I did not think a boy my age should have to en-
dure unless he was of the mind to. It was a good thing that getting
to church on foot wasn’t left up to my little mind of convenience.
We went—every Sunday morning and Wednesday evening. Around
here, giving thanks and praying that the good Lord’s hand would
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be upon us wasn’t some hit-or-miss proposition. As far as the walk
itself was concerned, enduring it while listening to my grandparents
talk about everything from McCarthyism to growing cucumbers was
laying a foundation I would need later on.
It was rare to be passed by a car on the road leading into town ex-
cept for on Sunday. Their neighbor Joe and his wife stopped along-
side us in their black 1949 Ford two-door sedan. Mamaw turned
her head away from them, reached into her pocket, and slipped her
teeth into her sunken face.
“Fine morning we got here Mrs. Bernum,” Joe said, sticking his
head halfway out the open window.
“Sure enough is,” Mamaw answered, and then spoke to Joe’s wife.
“Morning, Katie.”
“Morning,” Katie said smiling as she leaned forward to look
around her husband. She might have asked Mamaw how her corn
was coming this year or for some gardening advice, but there was a
good ways yet to get to church and she knew Mamaw wouldn’t ac-
cept a ride—she never had. Mamaw was a fine gardener known for
growing the sweetest watermelon, dew melons, peas; the fattest corn;
the crispiest cucumbers; best potatoes and beans; and the roundest
pumpkins in the fall. But right now, garden talk would have to wait.
“How about riding with us the rest of the way into town?” Joe
asked looking at William and me.
As soon as Joe’s mouth stopped moving, I was jigging and pulling
on Mamaw’s dress. “Please Mamaw? Please can we ride with Joe?”
She patted my head and put her arm around my shoulder. I knew
her answer.
“Joe, thank you, but walking is good for the soul. It gives a person
quiet time to reason the mind. We will be there in a little while.”
“Okay then. See you there.” Joe drove off, along with my hopes
that one day Mamaw would allow someone to give us a ride to
church, just once.
As soon as Joe and his wife were out of sight, Mamaw reached
into her mouth, pulled out her teeth and slipped them back into her
pocket.
“Mamaw?”
“Yes.”
“Why do you put those things in your mouth? You look funny with
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them in. I like you better without them.”
“Not everyone agrees with you about that Jimmy.” She didn’t
agree either, but the things weren’t comfortable and she could chew
just as well without them. She’d wear them when she went to town,
and that would be enough.
She smiled her toothless smile, and I reached into my pocket for
another strip of bacon. We walked on.
When we finally reached the front steps of the First Baptist
Church, several familiar-looking adults greeted Granddad and
Mamaw and showered William and me with hugs and pats and
comments about how big we had gotten since they last saw us.
As we were about to go inside, Mr. Martin’s daughter Alyssa
walked by clutching her Bible to her chest. She hesitated for an im-
perceptible moment, tossed her blonde head, and fixed me in place
with her blue eyes like a monarch butterfly to a mounting board. It
was impossible to blink, much less look away. Then she smiled,
raised her hand in a slight half wave, and walked inside.
“Jimmy, come on to Sunday school before a bug flies in your
mouth,” Mamaw said noticing me staring.
She’d been teaching Sunday school for as long as I could remem-
ber. By the time I arrived each summer, the other children in class
had rows upon rows of stars on their charts for memorized scripture.
I would start with a single blank row, but it usually didn’t take long
to accumulate enough stars to where it appeared I had been there
since January memorizing scripture along with everyone else. Stam-
ina is what it took, in my opinion, and most of them didn’t have the
kind I had, the kind needed to memorize mountains week after
week. They would make a good start for a few months, but before
long something else caught their attention and their efforts would
wane as summer neared. I knew the difference between us was a
matter of endurance. I’d heard the fable of the tortoise and the hare;
running the long race and staying the course was where it was at.
Sort of like that long walk to and from church.
Mamaw encouraged me to recite from memory as much as I
wanted, even tutoring me about the scriptures she presented to the
other children earlier in the year. Whether it was her insistence or
praise, or my own satisfaction from doing well and delighting her,
memorizing verses from the Bible came easy to me when I was at
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the farm. There was plenty of quiet time to roll them around in my
head.
“I’m proud of you Jimmy. You’re as bright as they come,” Mamaw
said.
The walk home that day seemed shorter and less grueling, im-
pressing upon me that it might be true what the people at church
said about going back being quicker than getting there. I kicked
rocks and replayed the memory of Alyssa Martin.
A full day of doing chores and being useful, a heaping plate of
Mamaw’s home cooking, and a washing up before bed put my body
and mind totally at ease. A peaceful night’s sleep next to my big
brother, the two of us sandwiched between Granddad and Mamaw
seemed the ultimate reward for a day well lived. I relished when the
hour came to lay my head on the pillow and say good night, know-
ing the sounds here that might awaken me were far different from
those at home. They held no menace, except for Mamaw being
grumpy at the chickens when they interrupted her few hours of rest.
Sometimes it was one or two hens that caused a ruckus, and some-
times the whole henhouse sounded an alarm. That usually signaled
a fox or in some rare cases a weasel. Tonight, it was one noisy, fussy
hen that had started up. Granddad and William stayed asleep, or
stayed in bed anyway, while I slipped on shoes and followed Mamaw’s
flashlight beam. She marched to the coup on these nights, her walk
fast and heavy with purpose to quiet the cackling hens so she could
go back to sleep. I had no idea what all purpose meant until I saw
her grab the invading snake as it slipped under a second hen in quest
of eggs. With her bare hands Mamaw ripped the writhing thing from
the nest, chucked it on the ground, and cleanly chopped its head off
with a shovel she kept there to clean the coup. So fast and sure were
her motions that I was sure the snake didn’t know what hit him. I
had no sympathy though for the glistening, cold-blooded coil that lay
in the dirt still twitching. Without words and with the task completed
we marched back to the house in unison.
The whole incident stayed with me for a long time after returning
to bed. I didn’t know anyone who had picked up a snake with their
bare hands except Mamaw. In my mind, she already was an angel
on a pedestal, but now she was a conqueror, an Athena standing
twenty feet tall holding a sword and shield, her feet apart and crush-
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ing the heads of snakes as the folds of her dress swayed gently in
the breeze.
Morning came without further interruption. William and I helped
with our morning chores and had come back to the house. Maybe
it was Mamaw’s bravery toward the snake that boiled in me, maybe
not. Whatever the reason, the seduction had gotten too great to resist
a visit to Granddad’s table. I looked down at the familiar sight.
There was no sense pondering. I snagged a box of matches and the
Panatellas from Granddad’s table and ran with William to the two-
holer. He struck the big wooden match and lit us both. We took a
few brazen puffs suppressing our coughs, and acted like we were
something until we heard Mamaw’s voice. She was outside the door
talking through the cracks to us.
“Boys, I know you are in there smoking your Granddad’s cigars.
I believe I would stay away from that table because if he finds out
he is going to give both of you a good whipping.”
Then she was gone.
“How does she know?” I asked William. This event further added
to the super powers I was certain Mamaw possessed. Now she had
acquired X-ray vision and could see through walls—I was sure of
it! At the thought of facing Granddad and him getting hold of us,
we threw our two cigars down the outhouse holes and returned the
rest to the table.
It was in the heart of summer when the well went dry and we had
to walk nearly two miles to my uncle’s place to get water from his
spring. We had gone back and forth a number of days for drinking
and cooking water and water for the dogs and smaller animals. Two
days before the rain came and replenished the well again, Mamaw
decided she couldn’t wait any longer to wash clothes. She had us
help her carry the laundry pots and she built her fire there and got
down to the business of washing while I persistently played too near
the fire after being told not to.
“Mamaw!” I yelped. “My foot’s on fire!”
It seemed a natural outcome to tempting fate. I had been standing
by the fire ring watching the flames flicker out from under the pot.
I’d stick one bare foot near the flame to see how long I could endure
the heat and jerk it back when it got too hot. Like the game William
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and I played about how long we could hold our breath, I held my
foot to the flame longer each time.
Mamaw pulled me away from the fire.
“Stand still and hold on to me,” she said dousing my foot with
cool rinse water. I balanced on my good foot and held on wherever
I could as she bent over and wrapped my damaged foot in one of
Granddad’s wet handkerchiefs.
“William, gather the clothes and let’s head home,” she said. Then,
she stooped down and instructed me to climb on.
“I’m sorry, Mamaw,” I whispered as she boosted my weight on
her piggy-back style.
She strapped my legs closer to her with the crooks of her elbows
and said, “That’s fine, Jimmy. Next time, you’ll do better when I tell
you something, won’t you.” It wasn’t a question.
William stacked the laundry pots together and put the wet clothes
inside. They both buckled under their heavy loads, and although I
knew I was guilty for causing their discomfort, I can’t remember
ever feeling so loved. I rested my head on Mamaw’s shoulder and
hugged her loosely with every ounce of goodness in me.
The days on Mamaw and Granddad’s farm were filled with a kind
of charm that sprang from the natural rhythm of living honestly
and close to the land. Every living thing—animals, plants, and us,
flourished. There was security in the simple words and ways of my
grandparents, and a confidence to dream. It meant everything to
Granddad to own and work a piece of land. Day in and day out,
everything got done with a sense of pride and a feeling that the
worth of it far outweighed the effort.
There were never any wars of words between Mamaw and
Granddad. Rather, they accepted each other the way they were.
Considered an old maid at twenty-five, Mamaw had established her
own identity and was comfortable with it. When she was good and
ready, she married Dude Bernum, the man she loved. Dude he was,
all starched up in his khaki shirt and pants and fancy Brogan boots
when he went to town alone every other Saturday night. In town,
he was a man concerned with his manners and appearance, a city
fellow. In the country, he was concerned about his crops, his trees,
his woman, kids, grandkids, and neighbors. Granddad was at home
everywhere and Mamaw loved him unconditionally through eight
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children and occasional outings when he partook of a little too much
to drink.
“Don’t you wake your Granddaddy,” she’d say shooing us off the
foot of the bed. “He has an upset stomach.” She’d tell us to let him
sleep, that he worked hard and he was sick. We all knew he had been
drinking and during those times when anyone tried to imply any-
thing else, Mamaw defended him.
“That’s my husband you’re talking about. You people just need to
keep quiet.”
When Granddad woke up and shaved, he’d look around for a
paper sack he’d brought back from his outing. It was filled with jelly-
beans, gumdrops, and Juicy Fruit chewing gum, and William and I
got to choose what we wanted.
One of Granddad’s particular trips to town yielded .22 rifles for
William and me. Country folks believed that teaching children how
to use guns and be responsible with them would preclude accidents
in which people got shot. Granddad helped us set up a row of cans
arcade-style and we sat on the front porch learning to aim. I did this
for a while, and then one day while William and Granddad were
practicing from the porch, I sneaked off.
I liked the idea of bird hunting in the woods better than shooting
at cans from a porch. Red birds were the easiest to spot with their
color contrasting against the green trees and shrubs. I aimed at one
and fired. The bird, to my amazement, fell to the ground. I was
thrilled to have hit my target and I ran back to tell Mamaw how my
sharp shooting lessons had paid off.
“Jimmy! Don’t you know you are not supposed to shoot that red
bird! That bird wasn’t doing any harm to you. They can put you in
jail for that ya know.”
Her words slapped my face and made me ashamed. I had no idea
about shooting this wild bird or any wild bird. Worse than the re-
morse I felt about killing the bird was the thought of how I had dis-
appointed Mamaw and brought down her correction on me. I went
back into the woods with her chicken coup shovel, found the bird
I’d killed, and buried it. I never shot another red bird or bird of any
kind.
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