loss: a weaving of words
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A weaving of words By: Caleb Alan Kestner Part the IV A weaving of words By: Caleb Alan Kestner Part the IV 2 nd Story Press Minneapolis, Minnesota (I make no claim to the illustrations; they are in no way my creation, unless otherwise noted. If you happen to know the author of one of the pictures listed, as anonymous, please let me know so I can give them proper credit.) Printed in the United States This book is dedicated to my Mom. Who gave me words. Thank you.TRANSCRIPT
It’s A
weaving of words
Part the IV
By: Caleb Alan Kestner
It’s A
weaving of words
Part the IV
By: Caleb Alan Kestner
Copyright © 2009 by Caleb Kestner. All Rights Reserved.
(I make no claim to the illustrations; they are in no way my creation, unless otherwise noted. If you happen to know the author of one of the pictures listed, as anonymous,
please let me know so I can give them proper credit.)
2nd Story Press Minneapolis, Minnesota
Printed in the United States
This book is dedicated to my Mom. Who gave me words.
Thank you.
Contents IiiXXXX. I are . . . I am ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~12 iiXXXXI. If ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~14 iiiXXXXII. It’s ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~~17 iiXXXXIII. Fallen ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~18 iiXXXXIV. Ode to an Ode ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~21 iiiXXXXV. Once Upon a Time ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~22 iiXXXXVI. What happens once you’ve fallen? ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~24 iXXXXVII. Wall ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~27 XXXXVIII. Mountain ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~28 iiXXXXIX. Who am I? ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~30 iiiiiiiiiiiiiL. Pro Crastinator ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~33 iiiiiiiiiiiiLI. Blessed ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~35 iiiiiiiiiiiLII. Goodnight my Love ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~36
Illustrations Silence ~ Jarra McGrath Sea of Sorrow ~ Inga Nielsen An Italian Autumn ~ Cole Thomas Fresh Snow ~ Anonymous Broken Mirror ~ Rakesh Ashok Cliff Muses ~ Erik Tiemens 3D Mushrooms ~ Anonymous Scrolls ~ Anonymous Falling Angel ~ Anonymous Stone Wall ~ Anonymous The Sierra Nevada ~ Albert Bierstadt The Thinker ~ Anonymous Procrastination ~ Anonymous Clover ~ Commons A Fairy Tale ~ Arthur Wardle
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“If you don't know where you are going, any road will get you there.”
Lewis Carroll
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I are shattered I are . . . I am fragment splinter I am the cold frozen winter I are inferno fire ashes I am shackles chains and lashes I are heartache wailing sorrow I am future past and morrow I are hopeless weeping sadness I am passion rage and madness
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I are beauty fleeting shallow
I am careless stark and callow I are conquered cringing choice-less I am silent mute and voiceless I are teardrops softly crying I am the dead doomed and dying I are human broken grieving I am my own ending weaving
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If
If poems were of poetry as woods were of trees If sound were of music as air is of breeze
If joy was of laughter as hurt was of tears
If hope were courage as hate is of fear
If food was of hunger as thirst was of drink If taught were of learning as thought is of think
If life were of living as dead was of death If heart was of blood as lung is of breath
If angels were of heaven as demons were of hell
If touch were of feeling as taste was of smell
If people were of right as humans were of wrong If beauty were of souls as rhyme was of song
If give was of giving as took was of take
If words were of truth as build was of make
If this was of that as that was of this Then the world would be perfect and all of life bliss
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It’s
Peace isn’t quiet; it’s noise you don’t hear
Courage isn’t brave, it’s pain you don’t fear
Mercy isn’t weak; it’s the strength to forgive
Hope isn’t assurance; it’s the will to live
Good isn’t perfect, it’s striving to rise
Honesty isn’t truth; it’s exposing the lies
Wisdom isn’t knowledge, it’s understanding why
Belief isn‘t comfort; it’s willingness to die
Leading isn’t commanding, it’s serving those you lead
Charity isn‘t handouts; it’s helping those in need
Faith isn’t knowing, it’s acting when you don’t
Love isn’t if they do, it’s even when they won’t
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Fallen
By: Caleb Kestner
Falling mirror, slipping through the sky
Dead reflections, never think to question why
Spilling spirals, shattered glass evokes no tears
Greed and hatred, serving banquets of their fears
Murder Martyr, fallen people die to live
Victim Target, hearts too broken to forgive
Once forgotten, memory forgets once more
Perceptions clouded, lives wrapped up in pointless war
Hate breeds death and death breeds hate
Never ending circle, self-fulfilling fate
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Ode to an Ode
O ode thou wondrous words amaze
And lyrical lines astound
From Grecian days long lost in time
Resounds your pulsing sound
Poetic verse from days of yore
A voice that echoes still
Crash like waves on histories shore
A synthesis of will
Melodic beauty sweet and pure
The music of the spheres
Tragic pain that dares endure
The basis of our fears
The power of the mind made free
Laid out upon a page
Vision even blind men see
The workings of a sage
O ode thy legacy still stands
Though years have gone and come
The majesty of all that is
Existence's very sum
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Once upon a time: (Poetry from Photography class) By: Myself and “mmm…coffee” (Recomposed by: Me) Once upon a time, a time so long ago There lived a thing called pumperfumps that liked to stand in rows These curious things (called pumpfs for short) could come in kinds of every sort Hardly old or softly new polka dotted, pink or blue Turquoise, yellow, short or tubby mauve or mink or tall or stubby Wearing charms or maybe roses on their arms or tween their toeses They paint a quite perplexing picture these pumpfs that come in such a mixture Dancing, bouncing throwing ducks (If you rub them they bring luck!) Falling up and hopping down Making noise (without a sound) See them running up the tree Then right back down (they quickly flee) Watch them roll among the flowers Back and forth for many hours Tossing tulips, squishing daises Chasing stars (they’re very lazy) And of course when days are done to their gumdings they will run What are Gumdings? You may ask Answering that’s mmm…coffee’s task Gumdings are things very hard to explain They’re totally different but all still the same They’re kind of like beds and they smell really sweet They have nice looking hands for the rubbing of feet Gumdings are spun from big sugar canes And they all smell like brownies if ever it rains But enough about Gumdings lets us move on To talk of a frog and a small pumpf named Ron
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The frog was tiny (about 50 pounds) The pumpf was squishy (and incredibly round) For something named Ron it made quite a weird sound Ron what a word It’s amazingly flat It sounds like a monkey That looks like a hat Now a Ron that’s named pumpf Or a pumpf that named Ron Are interiorly different (Except for in song) When explaining them both Or explaining them one You must start at the start And go till your done Now the problem with me (As you well may not know) I forgot where I start And don’t know where to go So explaining them both I could never well do And explaining them one Is a big problem too There’s much more to write But I fear I must quit For the rest of this poem Was quite lacking in wit In our rush to waste time We both overextended So the half a page left is too much to be mended So with that and with this I’ll now call it a day I’ve re-said what I said And I’ve naught left to say
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What Happens Once
You've fallen?
What happens once you've fallen? What happens once you fail? Success no longer possible
your heart in shame is veiled What happens when you've given up
and ceded to your fears? When hope fades like the morning mist
and pain transforms to tears. What happens when you lose the fight
and know you've lost much more? When the battle finally gets you
in this never ending war. And how are you supposed to cope when you know it's all been lost?
When you pay the price for what you want and it isn't worth the cost.
Where do you go or turn to when the world has turned on you? When all you've givens not enough
and there's nothing more to do. You recognize that all will fall though each in their own way. You stand with calm assurance
that they've not yet won the day. And though it seems that all is lost
and hope itself has fled. As long as you've the strength to rise
redemption isn't dead.
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Wall
Once upon a midnight dreary Came a traveler wet and weary
His cloak was sodden through and through Upon his feet more holes then shoe
The road was rough the ground was stony The man was thin and rather bony
Then all at once the road just ended His journey stopped his quest suspended
A giant wall stood in his way As tall as night as long as day
So there he sat to ponder and wonder what to do To pass this insurmountable obstruction of his view
There was no wood within this wall, nor brick or rock or steel For it was made of stronger things then those material
This wall was made of all in life that strives to make you fail Of pain and lies and hardship of dead and rot and stale
At first the man was locked with fear immobilized by shame A thousand things that he’d done wrong all rushed to fill his brain
Then as he sat there shaking a shudder shook the wall Its surface started cracking and chunks began to fall Then with a sigh of effort the man rose to his feet
He’d come too far and worked to long to let himself be beat So with a mighty crash the wall did rend its self-apart
And the man strode once more onward through the walls now broken heart
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Mountain
Wrinkled stone sags gently down the mountain's aged face, tufts of snowy hair
stream down his craggy chin and pool softly at his feet
Cavernous lungs pull moist air in through limestone teeth and moss-lined nostrils
to feed his golden veins
All across the mountain a cloak of life blooms and flourishes, entire lifetimes
cascading in and out of existence between the beats of his heart
The mountain sleeps; a giant who dreams of far off places and tells himself that in
a moment he'll rise from the cradle of his birth, stretching out the ridges of his skin
and the granite peaks of his spine
In a moment his eyelids will crack open with a rumble, pine tree lashes fluttering
as he looks with sliver eyes at the world for the first time
In a moment he'll shake off the residue of his creation and with thundering steps
go explore this place that gave him life just moments before
In a moment he thinks to himself as his heart continues its steady beat
In a moment he thinks as he slips slowly back into his dreams
In a moment, as all around him life rushes on
In a moment…
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Who am I? Who am I? I wonder. and whence from have I come? What is it I’m doing? and when will I be done? Where to am I going? and when will I arrive? What for am I living? and what for should I strive? What is it I’m writing? and have yet still to write? What is it I’m fighting? and have yet still to fight? When will true love find me? and how then will I know? Where is love to lead me? and will I dare to go? Who am I affecting? and who’s affecting me? What then is my blindness? and what is it I see? What have I to finish? and what have I to start What was it that made me? And brought to life my heart? Who am I? I wonder. and what will be the sum? of all that I’ve accomplished, when at last my time has come.
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Pro Crastinator
Yet again behind I scramble Even my mad dash an amble
Moments left I still waste time
Spinning pointless bits of rhyme
Always later I endeavor Striving then, achieving never
Running just to keep from moving Maintenance consumes improving
All again commitments making
Ever then again them flaking
Of the future ever dreaming Time betwixt my fingers streaming
Late and lacking deadline looming
Me myself I'm quickly dooming
Always just a moment more Till the effort I endure
Until there is no time to waste
My hands lethargic move to haste
Wishing that I could better be and cure these faults that lie in me
Hoping that I might find someway
to work before the final day
But as I wish and hope such things time flits away on gilded wings
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Blessing
I pray for Gods blessing on all that you do
Clear sight for your eyes and a path ever true
I pray you accomplish each task your soul gets
Content with your work when the sun finally sets
I hope for your dreams that you’ll always aspire
That you still feel Gods presence though the times may be dire
That you live every moment and spend every day
That you hoard up life’s treasures then give them away
I pray for you safety until you return
That you grow from life’s lessens and teach what you learn
Remember that while you may be far from here
Through the memories you leave you will always be near
And as time marches on of this always be sure
The love that you give will forever endure
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Goodnight my love
Goodnight my love it’s time to sleep
and leave the world behind
To free yourself from all life’s pain
and clear your burdened mind
Goodnight my love it’s time to sleep
and rest forevermore
To fly beyond the gleaming stars
and dance on heaven’s floor
Goodnight my love it’s time to sleep
the angels wait for you
You’ll never be forgotten
for the life you lived was true
Goodnight my love it’s time to sleep
your work at last is done
And though the day is finished
the dream is just begun
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Continued in . . .
A
Masterpiece (imperfected)
A
weaving of words
Part the V
By: Caleb Alan Kestner
http://www.aweavingofwords.blogspot.com
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