it's all just a game
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Life is too short, and the stakes are too high, to play religious games.TRANSCRIPT
It’s all Just a Game
"It's all just a game."
That's what a United Pentecostal Church minister told me, fifteen years ago, immediately
after turning in his license with the UPC, and walking away from Oneness Pentecostalism for
good.
At the time I thought he must just be bitter over something, and that maybe he was
looking to justify a desire to "go Charismatic (a term used to marginalize people who no longer
follow UPC standards of dress)." After all, why would someone just up and walk away, after
being raised in this his whole life, pastoring for decades, and raising his kids in this way? It just
didn't seem right, and I was sure he was just bitter and/or backslidden.
Over time, I watched him sever all ties with his religious heritage, and lose most every
friend and association he previously held dear. It bothered me. After all, if a seasoned minister
was susceptible to this sort of radical change, could I fall prey to the pull of gradualism, as well?
As a twenty-something, I listened as my contemporaries spoke of him with contempt.
“Compromiser”
“Backslider."
"Charismatic."
"Liberal."
To my knowledge, not one of them had ever spoken with him about his decision, what
led him to leave, and why he considered this way a game. Still, I listened to them, and assumed
their assessment must be right.
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Years passed, and I didn't see or hear from the fallen minister at all. You know how it
works. Over time, he was forgotten. Written off. It was as if he had fallen off the face of the
earth. Not even worthy of discussion unless someone was preaching a "Trophies of Hell"
message.
And as fifteen years have flown by, I've watched the guys who viciously
maligned this man eventually follow the same road he traveled. The reasons they walked away
were varied, but all who left spoke with one voice. "It's just a game!" And now I have been
around long enough to understand what they meant.
When a man is serious about his relationship with God, and is passionate about knowing
Truth, he searches everything out, questioning everything he's been taught with the goal of
defending, strengthening and teaching that which he has been given.
Along the way, in Oneness Pentecostalism, he is apt to find numerous inconsistencies and
hypocrisies. This is the case in most every religion, and I understand well that we are not alone in
duplicity.
However, at a certain age, men start to realize that there is probably less life ahead of
them than behind them. The scale of life starts to tip, and eternity comes into full view. At this
point, Truth becomes paramount, and ministries are reconfigured to reveal "necessary things"
with no regard for fluff.
When this sort of rebirth occurs, one can find oneself on the outside looking in, a pariah
to those with whom he found comfort and sanctuary in times past. At this point, he is confronted
with a harsh reality. He is forced to prove what he values most - friendships, or Truth.
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If he is honest with himself and God, and relinquishes doctrines of men, he will lose
everything familiar. If he squelches inner truth, he will survive in his religious denomination, and
maintain acceptance within his social circle - at the expense of a good conscience.
And all the while he struggles inwardly, he is confronted with published doctrines that
many trumpet, but few live by. He is faced with the glaring inconsistencies of decades-old
standards that are loosely maintained through peer pressure and legalistic control. He begins to
realize that his life is more about presentation than relationship, conformity than Truth and
acceptance than Christ-following.
At this point, he realizes that this way can become a game, the goal of which is to restrain
oneself, swallowing all of the inconsistencies and denying much of what you have discovered in
the Word that turns previously held beliefs on their head. All to maintain peace with, and respect
amongst, peers.
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