in search of a song volume 725

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Ivelisse

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A Waterways ProjectPublication

Richard Spiegel

Barbara Fishercodirectors

Thomas Perryadministrative assistant

Bryna Malik, teacherRoberto Clemente Center

Robert C. Galli, directorFreebie Rivera, assistant principal

David Cabrera, center administratorAuxiliary Services for High Schools

Richard Organisciak, superintendentAlternative, Adult and Continuing Education,

Schools and Programs

Funding support fromThe New York State Council on the Arts

IvelissePerez


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11/22/99AFTER YOU THERE'S NOTHING

After the day, there's the night.After the light, there's the darkness.After the sun, there's the moon.After the clouds, there's the stars.After today, there's tomorrow.

Yet, after you there's nothing.

After the thunder, there's lightning.After the lightning, there's rain.After the rain, there's a rainbow.After the rainbow, there's a bucket of gold.


After the happiness, there's sadness.After the pain, there are tears.After the problem, there's a solution.After the hurt, there's a smile.


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After love, there's hate.After forgiveness, there's forget.After the start, there's the end.After life, there's death.After death, there's an after life.Yet, after you there's nothing.

After feelings, there's a group of words.After a group of words, there's a poem.After a poem, there's individual interpretation.After the interpretation, there's a clear picture.Yet, after you there's still nothing.

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ATTACHED TO YOUR MEMORY

Ever since the day you walked out of my life,I decided to leave you in the past and try torepair my broken heart.

I know that time has passed,yet getting over you has been on of the hardest

thing I've ever done.

In front of my friends and family it seems asthough

I've totally gotten over you,however, that's not true at all.Sometimes I cry inside;

at night I can't sleepthinking about how much the memory of us

means to me.

You were the best thing that happened to me ina long time.

You kept me company.Everything that I looked for in a man you had.We shared a lot of special memories and when

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bad days passed my way,you would be there to help me through them.

I loved everything about you.Maybe that's why I still can't get over you.I felt you were perfect for me.Yet somehow you decided to walk out on me.

They say time cures the wounds,but it's not all true.As time passes,you only learn to not make the same mistakes

again.The wounds, they don't heal it just gets covered

up.It never really heals.

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NOV, 10, 1999.CHOICES

Sometime ago I had decided to avoid falling in love,keep to myself and achieve my goals alone.I promised myself that just to keep from get-

ting hurt.However, ever since he appeared in the picture,

life has been a little easier to bare.

Before he rushed himself into my heart,I felt lonely, lacking understanding and love.I had so much to give, yet no one to share it with.

In the beginning I was afraid of us becoming tooclose,

afraid of opening myself to him and end up get-ting hurt.

But what made me most afraid was that I liked him.I liked him from the first time he looked into my

eyes;just to say hello.

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I liked the way my soul sought for freedom inhis arms,

the way my heart sought for a cure in each word;that came out of his lips and the way my eyes

saw eternity in his eyes.

When we talk, it's hard for me to hide what hemakes me feel.

He awakens parts inside of me that haveremained untouched.

He has a heart of gold, emotions that could onlybe soul felt,

feelings to love someone a thousand life times

and an embrace that makes you melt deep inside.

However,is he the one for me?I'd like to reveal what I feel for him,but is he going to take me seriously or is he

going to take advantage

and use it against me?Well,I guess I'll never know if I never try it.

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Taking chances is a part of life.Whether or not they end up good or bad it's

only up to ourselves.Nothing in this world is a hundred percent

secure.You should learn how to accept life as to comes

day by day.Do whatever you feel is best with no regretsbecause a lesson emerges out of all that you do.Lessons that can be useful to you down the

harsh road of life.

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EL REFLEJO

Primero el amor,Despues el engano.Primero las caricias,Despues las heridas.

Pimero un te quiero,

Despues un corazon frio y tieso.Primero los abrazos,Despues los maltratos.

Primero te doy el mundo,Despues se te hace el mudo.

Primero la comunicacion,Despues la separacion.Primero asi como te vi, te recivi.Despues asi como te deje, te olvidare.

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DON'T LOOK AT THE PROBLEM,LOOK AT WHAT'S BEYOND IT !

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FORGIVE ME

On many occasions, you've asked me to forgive you.To forgive you for all the hurt and pain you leadme through.

I've given it some thought and I decided to for-give you.

For now I know that it was your actual intention

to break my heart.Therefore, I ask you to forgive me.Forgive me for believing in your promises, in your

every word.For trusting you with my heart, my life, my soul,for thinking that you were taking this relation-

ship seriously.Forgive me for being so caring and so giving,for standing by your sideand giving no importance to what I had to go throughor had to sacrifice to keep you happy.

Forgive me for being so understanding,for falling in love with you,for adjusting to your rough characterand for feeling that I couldn't live without you.

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Forgive me for being so innocent that I fell intoyour trap.

Forgive me for just being another one in your list;for letting you play with my emotionsand for being so sure that you were the man of

my life.Forgive me for not knowing that you were all a lie,a fake and a heart breaker.Forgive me for not seeing it coming; for building

my life around you.Forgive me for letting you invade the most

importantpiece of my mind and heart.Therefore, Leaving behind some very painful

memories.

Forgive me because until today I haven't gottenover you

and I probably never will. OH! And while your at it,forgive me for hating you as much as I once

loved you.

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I'M YOURS

I'm yours like a rose owns its peddles,

like the sky owns its clouds and like the sun ownsits brightness.

I'm yours like the night owns its darkness,like the moon owns its glow and like the starsown their wishes.

I'm yours like life owns its changes,like people own their destiny and like time ownsits eternity.

I'm yours like a mother owns her child, like achild owns itsknowledge and like knowledge owns its theory.

I'm yours like sleep owns its dreams,like dreams owns its stories, like stories owns itstruth and like truth owns its acceptance.

I'm yours like the heart owns its love,like love owns its obsession and like obsession

owns its place in your life.I'm yours as if I were born with a big portion of youand you with a big portion of me deep inside.

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INTERNAL DEATH

As my eyes began to shut,I fell desperately into another dimension and thelife I once knew,

no longer existed.

All of a sudden everything was out to get me.

The darkness was so intense that I felt it slowlycreeping up and down my body like a thousand hands.A gush of cold water was splashed into every

pore of my skin.Until I went numb. Stiff and confused I stood in

between worlds hoping that

it would soon all end.

My chest began to get tighter and while the sec-onds past

it got harder for me to breath. My heart pumpedslowly,yet strongly.

So strongly that an echo followed it.

A strange fearful sensation came over me.

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In less than a second, I managed to grasp thelittle bit of

life I held in me. I felt my soul struggling to beset free.

However, In my outer self tears of pain rushedout of my eyes.

My conscious unable to help, just brought upmemories of good people

and good things that had passed by my life.

In time, the struggle with my soul grew strongerand stronger.

Until, I had no strength left to hold it down anylonger.

Letting out a loud scream, it quickly ripped itselfout of me;with no compassion.

I awoke like a crazy person shaking and crying;I looked around, I touched my face,and I was alive.

However, nothing seemed to be the same.I held an emptiness in myself I had never felt beforeand I had no awareness of anything.It was as though I was dead, but at the same

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time alive.

I started to think about what had just occurred.Then after a while of organizing things in my mind,I realized what had happened. I had died internally.I was walking around with a body that had no soul.My soul was that person I had adored and loved

with all my existence.Losing that special person was like losing the

most important piece of me;my soul. Moving on without that person, surely meantI was condemned to go on living, while being

internally DEAD FOREVER.

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OBSESSION

Morning , noon, evening and night.You appear in every corner of my heart.This ceaseless urge of wanting you, having you,

needing youand holding you drives me mad.

Like an obstacle, the total abnormal persistingdesire,obligates me to revolve only around you; your

existence.

Controlling each movement physically,

emotionally and mentally.The intense yearn to feed off of your touch,

your kissesor even your arms awakens me every night.

Just one glance at you; time freezes and causes

me to fall desperatelyinto your prison.

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I a prisoner captured furiously by the idea itself.Your prison offers no escape, yet I don't feel

the need to run away.

As the days go by, it only gets stronger.However, the more it grows, the closer we get.The closer we get, the more I tend to notice whatyour perceiving about me and the more I notice

what you perceiving,the more I tend to understand that your feeling

the same way about me too.

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ONLY YOU

Only you,Can brighten up my day.Only you,Can make me laugh.Only you,I can depend on.

Only you,I want.Only you,I need.Only you,I want to kiss.

Only you,I want to taste.Only you,I want to love.Only if you knew.

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STAY THE SAME

Dear Heart Of Mine,You've been deceived, forgotten, mistreated,and even lied to.

You've been pushed aside, rejected and left behind.Even tricked into believing all you were told.You've been ripped away from your faith,

dreams, and goals more than once.However, you always manage to stay the same.Why change the promises now?

Is it because you can't forgive or you can't forget?Is it that you can't keep or you can't let go?Is it that you like or you hate.

Thus, is it that simply this time what you'velost was greater and stronger than you?Nevertheless, tender heart of mine it does not

matter what you've lost.What matters is that you managed to stay the same.

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WHO???

As best friends, I know that we have never spo-ken about this.However, now that you're planning to leave the state,I'd like to ask you some questions.

Who will call you just to make you laugh?

Who will make you feel butterflies in your stomach?Who will get you all shy and nervous?Who will bring out only the best in you?Who will cry with you in your times of pain and

smile with you in your times of joy?Who will help you reach your goals?

Who will understand, when you need your spaceor need some company?

Who will get to know you more than you knowyourself?

Who will love you unconditionally?Who will care and cherish you with tenderness?

Who will embrace you without hypocrisy?Who will stand beside you, when you need a hand?Who will take you from here to another universe

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with one kiss?Who will fill you with sweet details and caress

your face, when you're asleep?Who will sweep you off your feet only with one

glance?Who will accept you for exactly who you are and not

for how you look for what you can give?Who will not complain about your bad habits or

hobbies?Who will always understand your need of person-

al time?Who will be able to know all that you like?However, who can excel in all of the above bet-

ter than me?

Guess Who????

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YOU LEFT ANYWAY

From the day that you said you loved me,I opened my heart to you promising you fidelityand an ever lasting love.

I sacrifice many things to keep you happy.Most of the time I did what ever appeared like a

good idea for you.

Even if it really didn't interest me.I cheered for you in all your victories.I'd cry for you in your times of sorrows.

Yet, somehow it wasn't enough. Therefore, youleft anyway.

I'd see only the best of you.I gave you all my love and kindness. I treated

you like a king.All I wanted in return was some of your time and

your love.


As you walked out of my heart.

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You saw my life tumbling right before your eyes.You saw me break down in tears and actually felt

the emptinessI held in my soul.

You shattered my dreams. You left me withunanswered questions and a heart full of only you.I build my life around you I lived only for you.At the end I was left without you, and destroyed

deep inside.


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