My Heart’s like a Flower

My heart’s like a flowerFooled by the moonlightThought the warmth was the sunAnd opened in the nightThe night was so coldYet the flower so sureThat its petals were ruinedAnd fell on the floor

What am I to do?What am I to do?What am I to do?What am I to do?

The grace of CreatorSaw only potentialThought ‘How can I make something good out of this?’

So He started againMade the flower more beautifulOnly to be opened by the Sun with a kiss.

Now I’m whole again,Now I’ve hope again.Now I’m whole again.Now I’ve hope again.

Now I’m whole again,I can live and love againNow I’m whole again,I can live in hope again.

Falling

(I’ve) fought so many battles; won sometimesNow I search no more.I’ve found You, I’ve found YouYou’re what I’m living for.

I’ve seen a million facesSmiled a million smiles.(But) when I look into your eyesI see a light; beautiful light

I am fallingFallingFalling for youI am fallingFallingFalling for youFalling

Copyright Hannah Atkins 2002

Beautiful

You are so beautifulI could look into your face; hours of the day.I could look into your eyes; entice me.Nothing can replace your beautiful gaze.Every second of the day – inspires me.

It’s a beautiful day; sunshine on my face.You can see it in my smile – delights me.You’re my comfort when I’m scared; I know you’re there. Everything I need. My melody.

You are so beautiful

I Love The Way

Driving down the road to see your face; I miss you,Driving faster ’cause I cannot wait to see you.I’m sorry that you’re ill but I am loving the excuse so I can hold you.

Coming down your road at such a pace – my heart too.I’m rushing like I’m running in a race to see you,I’m looking in the mirror ’cause I wanna look my best for when I hold you.

I, I love the way you hold meThe world just fades away.I always dreamed I’d find youThat love would be this way.

I’m sad because I’m leaving for my home without you.I know it’s only days I’m on my own without you,I’m sorry that I had to go but I cherished all the moments I could hold you.

What Did I Do?

What did I doAnd what did I sayThat drove you away?I never thought that it would happen like thisA whirlwind spoiled everythingAnd I am the source of its spin

How can I live with myself?I made this happen and IRegret with all my heart that I let you goAn earthquake’s spoiled everythingAnd I am the cause of its sting

How can I ever look at your face without remorse?How can I ever put back the pieces to make a whole?

Can wind reverse its treadCan earth re-close its bed?

Can You redeem us now before it’s too late?Can You reverse my spin?

Can you be healed within?Please God redeem us now before it’s too late.

You Make me Fly

Beautiful look what You’ve done for meTook a broken heart and gave me wingsNever known closeness like itThought that I’d never walk again

But You made me flyYou made me flyYou made me flyYou made me fly

Beautiful look how you’ve rescued meFrom a hole of darkness and of painNever felt darkness like itThought I’d never feel joy again

I’m not escaping I’m facing realityI’m not faking, I feel You closeNot just tripping I feel Your presence near meNo exaggerating, I know

If Life Were Some Music

If life were some musicAnd You wrote the score,Did I turn the wrong pageOr drop a piece on the floor?Did I sing the wrong note?Fall way out of time?Did I miss out a restOr read the wrong line?

’Cause that whole movementSeemed to go wrong.So full of discord and nothing resolved.I guess I soared highAnd reached really low.Was this what was written?Only You know

I know I’m the singer; You are the Author I know I can sing what I want, when I likeBut I’m just the singer; You are the AuthorI wanna learn how to sing what You write

’Cause life is some music and You write the scoreCan You write something beautiful to suit my voice?And I’ll keep on learning to sing You Your songIf only I’d read it right all along.

Can Your heart be my drum beatAnd Your hand turn the pageCan Your smile keep me singing’Til I’ve sung all my days?Will You give me the breathTo complete every note?May I sing it so well thatYou love what You wrote.

You Taught Me

You taught me how to live when I didn’t want toYou taught me how to breathe when there was no airYou taught me how to love through all my painAnd You taught me how to laugh all the same

How I love life when it’s complete with YouHow I love life when it is founded in LoveI don’t strive to find You because You’re hereI don’t strive to find peace when You’re near.

You taught me how to sing when music was painfulYou taught me to feel peace when I couldn’t sleepYou taught me to feel joy through all my trails andYou taught me to be strong when I’m weak

So I’ll depend on You, trust in You, lean on You, dote on YouIn all I do, love on You. Loving You sees me throughSo I’ll depend on You, trust in You, lean on You, dote on YouIn all I do, love on You. Loving You sees me throughSo I’ll depend on You, trust in You, lean on You, dote on YouIn all I do, love on You. Loving You sees me throughSo I’ll depend on You, trust in You, lean on You, dote on YouIn all I do, love on You. Loving You sees me through

Poetic Dreams

I saw what I really didn’t want to see.I heard that it wasn’t really meant to be.But something inside keeps on telling me to try andI’m told that wisdom says it cannot work.I’m asked how can love come out of so much hurt?But something inside keeps on telling me to try and

I know this dreaming can come true.

Dreams come true although people don’t see.Some advise you with their disbelief.Push on through ... the truth (is) waiting for you.Just hold on ... God’s strength sees you through.

I’m asked all about it so frequently.I hear that it’s just because they care for me.But something inside keeps on telling me to try andI’m told that it’s just an ideal: Wasted thought.Advised that naivety will get me caught.But something inside keeps on telling me to try and

I know this dream it can come true.

MY HEART’S LIKE A FLOWER. Sometimes I think it’s the role of a writer is to be vulnerable about their life, so people can relate to it. Other times, it feels like my whole heart and life is just laid out for everyone to see! But I’d like to tell you the way it really was. So, can I be honest with you?... Life was going smoothly & love in my life was wonderful! I wrote I LOVE THE WAY in those times. Some days it would honestly feel like when he held me, everything was just fine.

Spirituality plays a massive part in my life. I know you can have an amazing relationship with a man, but nothing is as satisfying as talking with your Creator! I wrote FALLING and BEAUTIFUL about Him. I wrote WHAT DID I DO? one day when I drove my man into needing some space only for a few hours. I guess I went a bit over the top in my writing! Then our relationship got weird, I had an actual nightmare about it, which then became real. We went our separate ways - It was worse than that though, far more com-plicated in fact; you know how it goes... we were left shattered.

Directly after we split up, I went away with my parents and wrote IF LIFE WERE SOME MUSIC. It’s like your life is a manuscript written by an Author, but somehow you must have played it really wrong; especially when you’re so confident that you’re on the right path. I wrote My heart’s like a flower then too. It hadn’t com-pletely sunk in then yet. I had believed we were meant to be forever, but at this point, I thought there must be someone else. Then it hit me, and hard. Sometimes it’s just best to walk away, but I couldn’t. We had had our own world & then that world didn’t exist any more.

Ever been so hurt that your heart physically throbs? You feel like you’re going to be sick, your appetite goes, you can’t even remember what it feels like to be happy & you know you just have to wait-it-out. Sometimes I honestly didn’t want to be alive. YOU MAKE ME FLY came out of my darkest time when I literally felt like I was in a dark hole, never going to enjoy life again. People talk about an inner strength they find to help them through it. I knew ‘My Author’ in that darkest place, more real than ever before. It felt like He taught me how to breathe in life again. That’s what YOU TAUGHT ME is about. It’s crazy how much effect the state of your heart has on your world isn’t it?

Well, to be honest with you, I’m nowhere near the ending of this story. I guess we’re all on a huge journey. Most people said it would never work out again... too much pain... mostly they wanted to protect me – it was hard for them to understand. I wrote POETIC DREAMS.

Three years later, the pain was gone! I discovered that through all of it, I was putting myself through more hurt because I hadn’t forgiven the people who’d hurt me. I had the option of letting go or just letting bitterness totally kill my heart. So I let go. And when I remembered again, I had to let go again. We both did.

FAR AWAY is very different from my other tracks, but I had to include it. I think our lives are all really af-fected by the ongoing massive battle between good & evil (deep!). Little did I know that, as I have told you, I was going to personally live my biggest battle just months after I wrote it.

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Far Away

Far away I seea battle being won for the good of the world as we know itI don’t know when this will beBut I know that we’ll need to stand in His boldness without our fear.All before us will fade into (insignificance,)Only truth in our lives will withstand the fall.Promises all fulfilled before our eyes,We’ll see angels fight demons and spies.

So will you stand on the truth in the battleAnd breathe all the life that you’ve dreamed.Don’t just stand there and look,Grab your armour and comeAnd we’ll stand.Won’t you leave what you know to be wrongAnd believe in this time you belongto the army in frontLet us fight ‘til we’ve wonAnd still stand. And still stand …..

Maybe not so distant We need to be training our eyes to see in the darkest skiesFull of light radiating But clothed with humility rags exstinguishing all our pride.All before us will fade (into insignificance,)Only truth in our lives will withstand the fall.We’ve been waiting to see this for all our daysNo more room for the childish games that we play.

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Produced by: LATTY. Joel Atkins track 8/Mixed & additional engineering by: Sam Jones/All tracks written & performed by: Hannah Atkins/Co-Writing on Beautiful LATTY/Grand Piano & Keys: Hannah Atkins/String arangements: Hannah Jackson/String quartet:Stephen Cordiner, Nikolas Gjylaci, Natalie Dudman,

Jenny Dowdall/Violin on beautiful: Hannah Atkins/Drums: Andy Hutton on track 6,7& 10/Acoustic & Electric Guitars: Paul Bell on tracks 6,7&10. Joel Atkins also on Track 10. LATTY on Tracks 1 & 4/Bass Guitar: Ben Atkins on tracks 6 & 10. LATTY on tracks 1 & 7/Harpsichord:Charlotte Wilson/Choir: Flixton Girls School Year

7 choir in 2006/Photography: Fjona Hill, www.fwphotography.com/Graphic Design: LATTY. Additional design by Jays Girls designs/Fashion Designer: Thomas Rothery/Make-up: Esther Belfield/Fashion Assistant: Joanne Fidler/Mastered by: Zarc Porter/Recorded at: MassiveUK Studios, Padded cell Studios. MV Centre, Ge-

netik Studios, Mosaic Studios, Thanks to everyone involved. :) xx

This music industry today is responsible for so much damage to our environment.

• Problem: Plastic waste is bad: I’ve used a re-usable cotton bag that if thrown away, isbio-degradable.

• Problem: The music industry is responsible for 538k tonnes of CO2 emissions per year; 40% of which is due to the packaging. (Robert Ashton, Music

week 2008): So…I’ve used low emission packaging and have my booklet to download instead of printed

• Problem: the CD needs some reinforcement for protection in transit: I’ve used recycled cardboard where needed instead of plastic. Even though it takes more CO2 emissions recycling cardboard than plastic, i’m still using less natural resources.

• Problem: Manufacturing in less economically developed countries are not always fairly traded: I’ve used a fairly traded factory which ensures a direct contribution to building schools & orphanages. www.hothouseuk.co.uk

• Problem: Often the farming is carried out in a way that is not good for the environment: That’s why i’ve used cotton farms who are working towards 100% organic methods.

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