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Dreams are for Sleepers: An Anti-fantasia A Dissertation SUBMITTED TO THE FACULTY OF THE UNIVERSITY OF MINNESOTA BY William M. Heinze IN PARTIAL FULFILMENT OF THE REQUIREMENTS FOR THE DEGREE OF DOCTOR OF PHILOSOPHY Alex Lubet March 2020

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Dreams are for Sleepers: An Anti-fantasia

A Dissertation SUBMITTED TO THE FACULTY OF THE

UNIVERSITY OF MINNESOTA BY

William M. Heinze

IN PARTIAL FULFILMENT OF THE REQUIREMENTS FOR THE DEGREE OF

DOCTOR OF PHILOSOPHY

Alex Lubet

March 2020

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© 2020

William M. Heinze

All Rights Reserved

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TABLE OF CONTENTS

LIST OF FIGURES ....................................................................................................................................................... II

CHAPTER I. DREAMING ............................................................................................................................................ 1

1.1 COMPOSITIONAL PROCESS ................................................................................................................................................. 1

1.2 MOVEMENT 1 ........................................................................................................................................................................ 6

1.3 MOVEMENT 2 ........................................................................................................................................................................ 8

1.4 MOVEMENT 3 ...................................................................................................................................................................... 11

1.5 MOVEMENT 4 ...................................................................................................................................................................... 16

1.6 INTERPRETATION ............................................................................................................................................................... 19

BIBLIOGRAPHY ........................................................................................................................................................ 22

APPENDIX I. DREAMS ARE FOR SLEEPERS: AN ANTI-FANTASIA ........................................................... 23

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List of Figures

Figure 1 Liszt Sonata m.1 ............................................................................................... 1

Figure 2 m.1 ................................................................................................................... 5

Figure 3 mm.6-10 ........................................................................................................... 6

Figure 4 m.6 ................................................................................................................... 7

Figure 5 mm.25-30 ......................................................................................................... 7

Figure 6 mm.57-62 ......................................................................................................... 8

Figure 7 mm. 174-8 ........................................................................................................ 9

Figure 8 The Dream ......................................................................................................10

Figure 9 m.258 ..............................................................................................................12

Figure 10 m.262-265 .....................................................................................................13

Figure 11 mm.259-63 ....................................................................................................14

Figure 12 mm.276-80 ....................................................................................................14

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Chapter I. Dreaming

Dreams are for Sleepers: An Anti-Fantasia is a piece about recognizing

the dangers of romanticizing our goals and dreams; that constructing these

fantasies is what drives us to pursue them, and their realization is as restricting

as the situations we use them to escape. Abstractly, the piece is about

interrupting the semi-tonal fantasy until it is achieved in a consonant, continuous,

and overly long coda. This achievement should become equally dissatisfying, so

much so that the interruption would be preferred. Dreams is in a four-movement

form: An introduction, a slow romance, a scherzo and a final recapitulation.

1.1 Compositional Process

I began composing this piece in the summer of 2017. It was originally

conceived of as a piano sonata. The piece, which did not have a title, needed to

be substantial. To accomplish this, I looked to other large-scale piano works,

such as the Chopin and Prokofiev sonatas. The primary inspiration was Franz

Liszt’s exhaustive “Sonata in B.” The textural opening of the sonata (see figure

Figure 1 Liszt Sonata m.1

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1), along with its economical construction made it an ideal starting model for a

large-scale piece.

Dreams are for Sleepers rapidly departed from its Lisztian model. I

abandoned an aesthetics of motivic economy by the beginning of the second

movement. Much of the material is still related in terms of pitch sets however, this

was not some grand architectural choice, but a tool for making enough material

to extend the duration of the piece.

I planned the piece in four movements from the beginning. The four

movements of the piece are arranged in a traditional form. The introduction is

choppy and somewhat fast. The second movement is slow and lyrical. The third

movement is a quick scherzo, and the finale serves as the ground to resolve the

major themes of the previous movements. The title of anti-fantasia was inspired

by Robert Schumann’s Symphony no. 4 in D minor, which he originally called a

“Symphonic Fantasy.” The symphony, which uses borrowed motives and

gestures across movements was conceived as a continuous work with four

distinct sections which mirrored the classical symphony. After its initially poor

reception, Schumann edited the work into its current for with four distinct, but

closely related movements. Schumann further structures the symphony as a

sonata-allegro form within itself. The first movement serves as an exposition to

the fourth movement’s recapitulation. The cyclic nested forms of this fantasia

made symphony were the theoretical scaffolding for this piano concerto made

anti-fantasia.

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The movements were composed sequentially. I started the second

movement in the fall of 2017, the third in the winter of 2018, and the last

movement was finished in the early spring. After finishing the sonata proper, I

began to arrange the piece for small orchestra. The music is written for a small

ensemble: flute, clarinet, bassoon, piano, and a double string quartet. The

instrumentation mirrors Aaron Copland’s Appalachian Spring ballet. This

instrumentation serves two purposes. First, it makes performances more

accessible. Copland’s piece is frequently programmed by student conductors for

recitals and practices. I’ve played it multiple times. This piece could be

programmed with the ensemble for greater effect. Second, the ensemble offers

a more limited amount of textures while maintaining a lot of different timbres. The

three woodwinds offer their distinctive colors, while the strings provide a neutral

palate. This backdrop puts the pianist at the forefront of the composition.

Dreams are for Sleepers was initially conceived as a piano sonata. The smaller

instrumentation preserves its intimacy, allowed me to fill out textures and make

technical passages easier for the performer, and helped extend the composition

through timbral development.

Since the piece was composed with a singular concept, “Interruption,”

much of it was not planned in a narrative sense. Instead I composed largely

through a reliance on the formal structures I had picked up as a musician and

general intuition. The piece frequently brings back themes from older

movements, uses tonal harmony and chromatic modulations, and contains long

melodic lines. I associate these tropes with romantic music, and the title of anti-

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fantasia is meant to imply that the piece is aware of these norms. To me, the

piece was as much an exercise in writing a large-scale cyclic piece as it was a

thesis. For example, the driving concept of the third movement was “scherzo”

before there was a full narrative. In this sense, the scherzo is also a movement

about scherzi, and the Anti-fantasia is a piece about fantasias. This paper will

explain and describe the compositional structures I wrote and then use them to

develop and explain the fantasy and its deconstruction.

Chief in the creation of a piece about interruption is the understanding that

one of the most powerful tools in composition is where the composer puts the

cadences. Choosing the moments where the audience expects a cadence which

is interrupted, finds a cadence when the interruption should have occurred, and

waits for a cadence that never arrives guided my composition process.

Throughout the discussion of the musical elements below, I list the moments

where cadence and interruption intersect and how they influence the audiences

understanding of the music

The movements are not closely related melodically, but they are tied

together by the two major characters of the piece: The Interruption and the

Dream. The two continually disrupt, echo, subvert and support one another

throughout the piece. The dichotomy between the two themes forms the impetus

of the piece. While the dream is meant to invoke the fantastic dreams of the

music, the interruption remains consistently present, always grounding the music

in its clusters.

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The interruption is the first gesture of the piece (see figure 1.) It is a cluster

of whole tones on top of a perfect fifth approached from two grace notes an

octave apart. At the beginning, the interruption is meant to be playful, simple, and

slightly confusing. As the opening of the piece, it asks the question, “Is that all

there is?” It prevents cadences, it punctuates rhythms in the more melodic

moments of the piece, it anticipates itself, in that it interjects when it is expected

or shortly before. This is not to imply that it is random, but that the interruption is

aware that it is deliberately disruptive.

In contrast, the dream is meant to be lyrical. Whereas the interruption is

marked by its cluster of whole tones, the dream most commonly occurs in

octaves. The dream is typically in a compound meter. The specific melody of the

dream is unique to each movement, but in every case, it serves as the thing to be

interrupted. Metrically and melodically, the interruption gesture prevents the

completion of the flow of the music.

Together, the dream and the dream are continually unfulfilled. In every

movement but the last, the cluster adds dissonance, disrupts metric flow, and

alters the texture of the piece. In the last movement, the dream exists without the

Figure 2 m.1

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interruption and dream becomes a continuous consuming fantasy. The anti-

fantasia is the interruption of this dream.

1.2 Movement 1

The first movement serves as the introduction and first half the exposition

to the piece. As previously stated, it begins with the interruption motive. After a

pause, the motive is repeated. This repetition of a single staccato cluster gives

way to the first held pitch of the piece—a G-sharp—which is where the clarinet

begins the dream (see figure 2).

In this movement, the dream is constructed from the top three pitch-

classes of the interruption, E, F-sharp, and G-sharp. The pitch-set contains the

first three notes of an ascending major scale, which forms the basis for much of

the melodic material in the movement. Where the cluster is short and choppy, the

dream is smooth. Triplets are the smallest rhythmical unit and the meter is

slightly ambiguous. It exists between a duple and a triple. Since this movement is

largely intended to introduce the interruption, the dream is largely fragmented.

Figure 3 mm.6-10

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Also included is a textural element found in the strings (see figure 3). This

element, which is a transitional motive for the first movement fills the other pitch-

classes of the motive, B, A, and D. This motive imitates and slows down the

grace notes of the interruption.

The movement forms the primary theme group of the large-scale quasi-

sonata, but it is internally structured with a loose concerto-form in mind. The

exposition (mm.1-63) is in two halves where the piano and orchestra switch

roles. In the first half, the piano presents the interruptions, backgrounds and

texture while the orchestra introduces and elaborates upon the dream. In the

second half, the piano maintains the interruption, while repeating the initial

melody. This is clearest at the end of each section (see figure 5). In the first half,

Figure 4 m.6

Figure 5 mm.25-30

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the ensemble plays a stormy extension of the dream theme while the piano

supplies the interruption in the background (mm. 25-35.) In the second half, the

piano covers both the interruption and the dream on its own (see figure 6).

The loose development section of the movement relies heavily on

fragmentation and repetition. The ending of the piece involves a repeated

compound figure, and as such, the triplet motive and dream melody are repeated

frequently. These overlaying melodies build into the final statement of the piece,

a frenetic set of chords in the base along with an agitated version of the melody

in the piano. The melody itself is interspersed with the interruption.

This final development of the dream slowly breaks down to a dampened

cluster in the lower range of the piano. The final interruptions hold the F-sharp

from the cluster, rather than the initial G-sharp. The final bars restate the motives

and transition into the next movement.

1.3 Movement 2

The second movement functions as the slow adagio of the piece. Where

the first movement introduces the interruption and includes the song, the second

Figure 6 mm.57-62

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movement introduces the song and includes the interruption. In the grander

cyclic form, it is also the second subject group. Where the first movement is

disjunct and repetitive, the second movement is lyrical, largely melodically

continuous, and consonant.

The form of the second movement is an introduction followed by a theme

and variations. The introduction serves as a transition from the first movement

and uses the pitch-class set from the interruption as its new harmonic

background. The set is treated like a diatonic scale missing its third degree. Like

the first movement, the clarinet introduces the song, while the piano supplies

early interruptions. The melody steadily moves to a more sparse, fragmented and

dissonant space, which is reminiscent of the first movement. Importantly, the

introduction, and the climax of the variations both end with the same melodic

figure (see figure 7).

The end of the introduction is followed by the most pervasive version of

the dream, and the second theme of the piece. Its related to the initial

presentation of the dream through the compound meter, legato articulation, and

inversion (see figure 8). In its initial presentation the theme is initially interrupted

after the first phrase member (mm. 182-183) is interrupted, however the rest of

the melody uses the interruption as the dissonant embellishment at the beginning

Figure 7 mm. 174-8

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of each phrase member. Throughout the piece, this melody never fully cadences.

It ends with a repetition of main melodic theme, but it that repetition, even when it

forms the metric ending of a section, does not result in a conventional harmonic

cadence.

The theme is repeated one more time with the orchestra, until it shifts into

a minor key. This melody is an extension of figure 7 which s transposed in

intervals of thirds. This line is interrupted before it can cadence. This moment

begins the third section of the movement. The bassoon briefly states the dream

metrically displaced by an eighth note. The main melodic figure sequences into a

larger climax. Here the theme is combined with the bottom of the introduction and

builds into variation in a starkly minor key. This climax builds to the piano playing

Figure 8 The Dream

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the first phrase of the dream harmonized with tritones. This statement, which

repeats and alternates between loud and soft, dark and consonant is itself

interrupted. Like the end of the last movement, the interruption occurs in its

original key, and the held note is the next pitch class in the set, the E. This E is

the transition to the third movement.

1.4 Movement 3

The third movement is the scherzo and the most lighthearted moment of

the piece. The interruption, as it occurs in the first two movements is very rarely

present. Instead, the movement is interrupted through a series of break points.

Movements one and two are metrically regular. Even though the accents are

sometimes displaced, the divisions of the beat rarely change. In contrast, this

third movement is constantly shifting divisions of the bar and cadencing in

irregular phrases. This irregularity constitutes the

interrupting material and helps obscure the original interruption, which will

not reappear until the end of the piece. Further, these breakpoints served a

compositional purpose. After I composed the initial draft of the piece, I

rearranged the order of events by cutting the movement into sections at the

breakpoints and reattaching them. The new order was largely determined by

chance. I illustrated the sections on pieces of strips of paper and color coded the

beginnings and endings. The semi-random nature of events helps add to the

frenetic nature of the scherzo.

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The movement begins with the break point that most resembles the

interruption. It sounds like the opening to a fanfare. The grace note is replaced

by an aggressive down beat and the strong emphasis on the A situates the piece

in A-major. It is the first time in the piece that the full ensemble takes part in the

motive (see figure 9.) This is just one version of the interruption found throughout

the piece. The second version of the interruption is found immediately after the

first (See figure 10). The

first three notes in the piano comprise the top three pitch-classes of the

interruption and this quick anacrusis frequently stops the flow of the melody to

begin a new section.

The second interruption is followed by the most pervasive melody of the

movement (see figure 11). It is introduced in a slow high register of the piano.

The slow beginning helps the listener recognize the melody when it recurs later

in the piece and masks the light-hearted nature of the music to follow. Likewise,

the slow tempo keeps recurring throughout the movement. It functions as another

natural break to the flow of the movement. Finally, because the melody is

disjunct, irregular, and syncopated, the slow tempo links it to the dream in the

previous movement.

Figure 9 m.258

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Figure 10 m.262-265

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After this introduction, the first three bars are immediately repeated and

the melody begins again, this time in the woodwinds at a faster tempo. This

faster version of the theme has a five-bar and a three-bar phrase. The cadence

at the end of the five-bar phrase returns frequently to redirect the tempo of this

music. It serves as a metric and harmonic breakpoint for the movement.

The next melody heard is related through a more legato presentation and

melodic material (see figure 12). It is not nearly as long as the melody found in

the second movement of the piece, but it its linear descending line links it to the

dream melodically. The descending run of eighth notes is a transformation of the

dream. The pitch content is transposed, and the third note of every descent is

removed so that the melody fits in a simple meter. These two melodies—figures

10 and 11—make up the material that is to be broken up.

The scherzo’s form is indefinite and deliberately unpredictable. The

different motives (i.e. the half-cadence, the so-la-ti anacrusis, the fanfare

interruption) almost always recur in the same key and are independent of the

material that comes before and after them. Any section that begins with the

Figure 12 mm.276-80

Figure 11 mm.259-63

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anacrusis, can be substituted for any other. Throughout the piece, fast

statements of the motive lead to slow versions of the theme. Sometimes the

anacrusis is a fugue statement, and other times, it becomes a waltz. While I was

composing the piece, I continually rearranged the sections, largely through

chance. This semi-random arrangement gives the movement a random and more

playful character.

In this movement, the song and interruption exist in their most abstract

forms. The Scherzo’s versions of the song are these broken themes, rendered

discrete by the discontinuity of their composition. It is most clear when the

melody is slow, but the interruptions frequently destabilize and undo any lyrical

nature of the melody. In this context, the frustrating interruptions are tied to major

key harmonies and frequently appear more comical than jarring.

These interruptions also allow for more comical transformations of the

themes. The scherzo contains and hints at multiple styles and genres of concert

music. There are woodwind trios, fugato sections, slow solo adagios, Alberti bass

lines, and a waltz. None are completed. Each version adds more incongruity to

the structure of the movement.

The final statement of the main theme, the Waltz, is meant to punctuate

the semi-random nature of the scherzo. For a movement that seems to imitate

multiple styles, the waltz is meant to be the grand finale, and return the piece to

the compound metric structure of the other movements. This is most clear when

it is answered by the song from the second movement. This song, interrupted

again, leads to the closing bars of the third movement: a gradual cadence into

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movement four. The hope is that the extended length of the cadence combined

with the memory of the previous interruptions creates the expectation of a final

interruption. Instead, the piece progresses without the interruption into the fourth

movement.

1.5 Movement 4

The fourth movement is a synthesis of the previous three. The strange

chromaticism, the interruptions, the obscure forms are reimagined in a

consistently diatonic—if not slightly repetitive—form. This repetition recalls the

motives from the earlier movements in more metrically regular patterns. For all

the time spent interrupting itself, the song in all of its forms is finally given free

reign. The audience is given the reward the piece has always hinted at.

At the onset of the piece, the textural elements of figure 4 are used to

support the new version of the melody. The conflicting triplet pattern is now

reimagined in a compound duple meter. Some textural elements repeat, and the

piece still builds to full moments, however where these moments are interrupted

in the first movement, they ebb in the finale. This rise and fall eventually gives

way to a final statement of the stormiest portion of the first movement. The

peaceful version of the storm serves as both the codetta for the first paragraph of

the movement and the lead in to the reproduced third movement.

The third movement is restated before the second so that the completed

version of the song can dominate the very end of the piece. The section is split

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into three parts. First there is a diatonic restatement of the first theme (figure 10.)

This theme is then repeated in its Alberti bass form. At this point, the music, while

still metric and consonant becomes slightly off putting. The shared melody in the

winds combined with its awkwardly long phrase structure is beginning to hint at

the overly long coda of the piece. A quick statement of the of the song (figure 11)

is followed by the final part of the section. The interruption forms a sequence

made of ascending major tetrachords. This sequence extends for over 24

entries, which again implies the impending coda of the piece. The fourth

movement is not characterized by the interruptions, but rather its refusal to

pause.

This leads to the third section of the piece. This section is the song in its

uninterrupted form. Through a combination of a diatonic version of figure 5, the

end of the original exposition, and the first four measures of the song, the

orchestra builds to the final statement of the song in the piano. This statement,

with orchestration borrowed from the Tchaikovsky Piano Concert in Bb, is the

song in its entirely diatonic, consonant form. This isn’t to suggest that it consists

of only thirds and fifths, but that the harmonies themselves do not shift abruptly.

The grace not embellishment to the theme, which has until now always been the

whole-tone cluster of the interruption, is now an A major chord.

At this point, the song continues. Its falling melody is composed without an

ending in mind, and the rest of the piece is a testament to that. The next 76 bars

of the piece are the same cadential pattern repeated and extended to imply a

final cadence in A major. Each repetition involves an added set of instruments to

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the melody. This pattern of expected release and non-relief through repetition

forms the crux of the anti-fantasia. By this point, an uninterrupted melody has

been the elusive fantasy of the piece. However, the length of that uninterrupted

song has never been established. In turn, the Anti-fantasia becomes against

itself when it is a fantasy in the excess and the seemingly infinite loop. I draw

upon this idea from my masters thesis, where the dominant lock, or extended

chord that implies the end of the development and return of the implication,

extends far too long, pauses, has a false start, and returns for the sake of

melodramatic humor.

In this case, the effect is ideally some sort of opposite. In discussions with

friends and reviewers, some have pointed to a moment where it becomes boring,

then funny, then annoying, and finally excruciating. Some find it calming, like a

minimalist piece that opens the space for meditation. In either instance, the

moment where the repetition becomes a musical space inside itself, where there

seems to be no end and a far away beginning, is the moment where the dream

becomes a moment of inaction. It ideally becomes a room the audience must

wait to leave.

The final section of the movement and the piece is the logical conclusion

of the cadential pattern, an A major chord. The intent of the 47 bars of A major is

to reduce the wanted end of the song to its own space, even sparser than what

comes before it. This idea came from the overly long coda in Beethoven’s eighth

symphony. This section consists of false endings, erratic dynamics, and

changing metric patterns. Ideally, even for those appreciating the minimalist

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approach to the section before, the final chords interrupt that semblance of

peace. By this point in the piece, I hope that the audience both remembers the

interruption and prefers it. After this needlessly extended coda, the music does

end with this interruption. Right before, quietly and in the left hand are the first

four notes of the song. Reminding me, and hopefully the audience, that both

become difficult to face without the other.

1.6 Interpretation

Dreams are for Sleepers, is a piece meant to interrogate optimism the

song’s falling but never-ending lyricism is, to me, a hope for a future filled with

consonance and lyricism. The interruption stands in its way, and should

eventually become preferable to an always imagined, but never-quite-there

future. Optimistically awaiting this fulfillment then becomes the dream from which

the listener must awake. I believe that composition is an ideal form of expression

because it can create experiences that are simultaneously shared between

composer, performers, and audiences while also being intensely personal. Our

relationships to harmonies, cadences, melodies, fugues and waltzes are

unknowable but crucial for creating any type of understanding. Music’s unique

ability to create systems of expectations and fulfillments in shared time and

space creates a shared dream.

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That said, this relationship has been written about before, and these

multiple approaches help explain the possible interpretations of the song and the

interruption.

First, the piece mediates Lacan’s three registers of the Imaginary, the

Symbolic, and the Real. The imaginary is the world of which we make sense. It is

where the ego resides, it holds our conceptions of others, it houses fantasy. The

symbolic is the space of language and communication. It is this system which

structures our external reality, behaviors, and laws. Finally, the real is the

material world that defies symbolic construction or imagined laws. Where the

imaginary and the symbolic exist in a psychology of comprehension and sense-

making, the real cannot be captured. It houses death.1

In this sense, Dreams are for Sleepers is an attempt to mediate the real

and the imaginary through the symbolic. The Symbolic is the mode of

communication. It is the score, the performance, this text, and any discourse

through which the piece is described. Without it, the Imaginary can not be

experienced as an ensemble or an audience. This mediation, as Lacan explains,

is crucial to constructing a reality that exists in opposition to the real and is then

reimagined in the piece. The song serves as the “imagined” future. It an

ultimately fictional space where the audience is invited to expect the closure of

the piece. While it is designated to be imagined, it is not inconsequential. Instead,

it forms the interest of the entire piece. Its completion is the goal. While the song

1 Hallsby, “Psychoanalytic Methods and Critical Cultural Studies.”

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is what we imagine and want, the interruption is the disruptor. In this sense, it

functions as the Real. Though it is symbolically constructed, and cannot truly

exist in the register, it is comparatively amusical. Though interruptions and

diversions are historically musical gestures, as a cluster, the interruption serves

no melodic or harmonic purpose, it rarely creates a rhythmic structure. Through

the dialectical opposition of the two structures, I challenge the imaginary’s

dominance in our perceptions and try to move an audience close to the

obliterating real.

Building on this relation is Berlant’s conception of cruel optimism. As

Berlant explains, cruel optimism is “a relation of attachment to compromised

conditions of possibility whose realization is discovered either to be impossible,

sheer fantasy, or too possible, and toxic.”2 For Berlant, optimism is hope for

some form of happy object, be it money, power, love, or equality. Unfortunately,

these objects are ultimately out of reach, or attainable but unusable. In the former

case, the optimists are left hoping for a day that will never arrive. For example,

the promise of economic justice is always on the horizon. In the latter, the arrival

of the thing that would make an optimist happy is ultimately their undoing.

Someone may achieve great wealth, but without the knowledge of how to spend

it, or the realization that it will one day be spent undoes the joy that the optimism

promised.

2 Berlant, “Cruel Optimism,” 94.

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In this sense, the song is both objects. It is the continually present, in that

we hope it may eventually be uninterrupted, but the achievement of that song is

itself a form of toxicity. It is the blight on the Anti-fantasia, and the most

frustrating music in the piece. My hope is that these dichotomies, between

wanted and unwanted, expected and unexpected, tensed and released questions

the expectations an audience might value without dense academic jargon or

simplistic examples. How do we hope and what should we hope for? Are

questions that we must answer in our careers, relationships, and art. Dreams are

for Sleepers is my attempt to bring the question to the attention of the audience.

Even if it fails to do so, the hope that it does is a cruel optimism in itself. It could

be unachievable, or it could work, and I would be unable to provide an answer.

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Bibliography

Berlant, Lauren. “Cruel Optimism.” In The Affect Theory Reader, edited by Melissa Gregg and Gregory J. Siegworth, 93–117. Duke University Press, 2010.

Hallsby, Atilla T. “Psychoanalytic Methods and Critical Cultural Studies.” Oxford Research Encyclopedia, September 2018. https://doi.org/10.1093/acrefore/9780190228613.013.578.

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