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Conversations With Magdalen

Toms Introduction

The Enigma of Transformation

You are about to read a transcript from several private conversations we have had with Mary

Magdalen over the last several years.

These talks dealt with a wide range of topics and we personally found Magdalens commentsdeeply insightful, which is why we are sharing them.

M, as call her, is a master of one!liners"short pithy statements that leave one reeling. #ne ofthese in particular caught my eye, perhaps because it addressed a strange parado$.

True transformation does not require hope and moves even in despair.

Mary Magdalen

The word transformation has two roots"the word form, meaning the structure of something and

the %atin word or prefi$ trans, meaning beyond, acrossor on opposite sides. Thus the word

transformation means something akin to moving beyond form.

#ur entire world is in a process of transformation.

n truth, it always has been.

&ut for whatever reasons"some say time acceleration"the rate of transformation has sped up. Thendustrial 'ge has given way to the 'ge of nformation and (ano!technology with a speed and a

force that has left the )estern world reeling. )hole industries and ways of life have disappeared in

the blink of an eye. (ew technologies enter our lives at an ever faster pace creating what the*hinese language denotes when it uses the word transformation"a combination of two ideograms

meaning danger and opportunity.

There is opportunity whenever transformation occurs. This is because new territory is opened and

stepping beyondour habitual view of things can usher in new ways of perceiving as well as newways of acting in the world.

&ut there is also danger. The danger arises out of the unavoidable fact that we may not fully

understand the new territory we are entering and we might do something that we will later regret.This applies to all types of transformation, by the way.

&ut since was talking about the 'ge of nformation and (ano!technology, let me pull up one

simple yet poignant e$ample.

The introduction of pesticides into agriculture heralded a new era, as did the development of

petrochemicals to produce things like plastic and the ever!growing array of techno devicesthat ourmodern way of life in the west depends upon. This has been, and continues to be, a ma+or source of

global transformation. &ut there has been a price tag"the contamination of our ecosystem through

to$ic chemicals and agents that have never e$isted in the biosphere before.

&ack in the early -/s 0achel *arson sensed the unseen dangers of this type of transformation"namely the introduction of chemical agents and pesticides into the environment. 'rmed with solid

and credible documentation, she released her book Silent Springin -1, which many credit withgiving birth to the environmental movement.

's write these words, some fifty!one years later, our environment continues to be negatively


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affected by technological advances. 2ow we choose to manage"or fail to manage"the pace and

type of technological development that we release into the world will determine, to a great e$tent,our future upon this planet.

&ut there is another element at play here, what the futurist 'lvin Toffler calledFuture Shock. The

idea is that we are not biologically or evolutionarily e3uipped to deal with the speed of

transformation that we are a part of. 's a result of too much happening too fast, more and more of

us are succumbing to a mental state akin to shock.

The 2opi have a word for the state of the world we live in, and they call it 4oyannis3atsi"meaning

life out of balance. 5rom the ndigenous perspective, the underlying source of our collective post!

modern malaise is 3uite simply a disconnection from the 6arth itself. 'nd it is only through areconnection with the 6arth and our ecosystem that we can return to sanity.

often say that it is a highly creative and courageous act to find balance in a culture that is

essentially dysfunctional. 'nd yet balance is crucial to the spiritual +ourney for without it we cannotfind our way through the ma7e ofMaya8the illusions of this world9, or increasingly through what

call Techno-Maya"a 1st*entury version of illusion generated through technologically generated

mass hypnosis that makes it easier to control the masses.'ll of this brings me to an essential 3uestion for those of us striving to live upward in

consciousness. 2ow do we deal with the hopelessness and despair that arises when many of us onthe spiritual path contemplate the collapsing of our ecosystem and witness the increasing madness

of our world not to mention the technological manipulation of information:

Magdalen was addressing the process of personal transformation when she gave that little tidbit

about true transformation not re3uiring hope and moving even in despair. &ut her observation mostcertainly applies to our collective 3uandary as well.

The +ourney of an nitiate re3uires a different attitude toward the world and its challenges than that

of most people. 5or me, you are an nitiate if you are striving to live upward in consciousness

regardless of the spiritual tradition or path you have chosen.

'nd a central 3uestion for any nitiate 8i.e., you9 living in the midst of such 4oyannis3atsi is howdo you persevere: 2ow do you live upward when so much of the world seems to be spiraling

downward out of control:

6ach of us must answer these 3uestions for ourselves, and our very lives"at least our spiritual lives8meaning our higher consciousness9 depend on how we answer those difficult and thorny 3uestions.

;ince was asked to write an ntroduction to this section of the book, will offer my opinion. &utdo understand that my view is constantly changing, and my opinion ne$t year might be different

than what hold to be true now.

My view is thisung said that humanity must come to terms

with its collective shadow or be destroyed by it.

%ooking at what is happening in the world today, would say that humanity has failed in this task.&ut then again, we are not solely to blame for this. Much of the responsibility for our avoidance of

this difficult and dark territory falls s3uarely upon the shoulders of religion as well as many of our

spiritual traditions including most definitely the (ew 'ge.

This leads me ine$orably back to Magdalen and her uni3ue perspective. This being does not shyaway from dark un!owned material. ;he un!earths it and brings it to the light of conscious

awareness. 'nd she does this with an elo3uent directness that personally find refreshing.

'nd so bring us back to her comment, which 3uoted early on?


You and me"as well as the entire world"are caught up in a global maelstrom.

)e are witnessing the death throes of an old world and the birthing of a new one, but only time will

tell if this new world will be worth living in or not.This uncertainty leaves us in a precarious emotional position.

5inding our way through the carnage of our civili7ation as it morphs into something new is not easy.

'nd along the way, many of us might dip into the shadow side of hopelessness and despair whenwe look at the world around us.

The parado$ within her statement is that true 8meaning authentic9 transformation moves 8or

unfolds9 even in despair. 2ow could this be true: snt despairing the end point of hopelessness:

Yes and no, in my opinion.

f despair is indulged in without any other counterforce in the psyche, then yes it can easily be the

end point.

&ut if we 8meaning you and me9 can find a way to e$perience our transcendent ;elves"or at thevery least our more resourceful natures"then we will neither be bound by, or defined by time,

place and circumstance.

5or some of us, this kind of freedom will be generated through the art of transcendence via some

type of spiritual tradition. ;ome of us will discover it through new forms of creative insight ande$pression having little to do with what others might deem to be spiritual at all.

&ut in my opinion, it isnt so important how we attain a renewed sense of ourselves so long as we

attain it. )ithout the type of renewal that arises from the inner wellof authentic spirituality and@or

from deep and profound creative insight, think we will be left ill e3uipped to cope with"much

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less transform"the chaos that has engulfed the world.

&ut let us take another last look at Ms enigmatic comment about transformation and despair.

's each of us lives the transformational process that isour own lives, it inevitably intersects with

the larger transformation that the world is going through. 'nd because we are collectively payingthe price for un!owned shadows, we may from time!to!time fall prey to the shadowy feelings of

hopelessness and despair.;hould this occur for you, as it has for me, think it might be best to view these difficult emotions

as a call to presencerather than a sign of failure. 2opelessness and despair can certainly be, thoughnot necessarily, a sign that it is all over. 'nd much like the call of the Sirensout of ancient Breek

mythology that enticed sailors to their end, we can easily be seduced if we are vulnerable to such

feelings. 'fter all, anyone who has truly entered the dark seas of hopelessness and despair knowsthat these feelings can have a strange seductive 3uality about them.

&ut +ust because something arises within us, or around us, does not mean that we have to accept it.

My advice is to transcend those shadowy moments, should they arise, through potent spiritual

insight and@or through bold creativity"meaning the act of doing something radically different than

what you are used to. )hat that action might be is up to you.

True spiritual insight and profound creativity can change all that the mind perceives including thedarkest and most difficult to redeem of human emotions"despair.


Mary Magdalen

Judi Sions introduction to:

onversations !ith Magdalen

Many synchronicities coalesced to create the atmosphere in which left the 6ast *oast of the Cnited;tates and moved )est. t was my dream to edit a particular channels information on ;oul Mates.

nstead was given the rights to edit his teachings on C5#s. (ot e$actly the same thing, but closeenough, right: 0elationships can be 3uite alienD

That book wound up being titled C5#s and the (ature of 0eality, and it was my first foray into a

whole new genre. cant say that did or did not believe in aliens prior to doing that book. t took

me two years of walking in the wind on the (orthern ;hore of #rcas sland to wrap 8or unwrap9 myhead around the concept that we were created by an alien race"that aliens were the missing link in

our genetic structure.t re3uired reading everything Eecharia ;itchin had ever written and listening to everything that

particular channel, whose work admired, had ever said that could be construed as being aboutaliens and our creation.

Those years walking in the wind, analy7ing the information d been given, resulted in a remarkable

reali7ation, reasoned out over that two!year period. f we were created by what we call aliens, to actas a slave race to mine gold for them, then that means the thought held in our creation was to create

a slave race. 'nd if thought really does create, then that means deeply held in our subconscious, and

in our very F(', is the idea that we must serve, that we are lower than our creators, and that wemust be subservient, and that would e$plain a lot of human behavior.

ve come a long way since that time, some 1G years ago. ve now replaced the word Bod in my

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Most of the images and stories we carry over from the &ible are out!and!out lies, created by men

who didnt want women to have power in the then new population control mechanism called the0oman *atholic *hurch.

'nd since were on the sub+ect, in case you a victim of religions unyielding assault on Magdalens

one life as an 6arthling, strongly suggest you seek the truth about those lies.

=ope Bregory began the rumors about her, and they are based on nothing but his own misogynisticignorance. (owhere in this adulterated novel called the &ible does it say anything about hercharacter. The truth is, =ope Bregory started a nasty rumor, mi$ed a cocktail of mentions of

different women from various te$ts, and the *hurch covered his ignorant and untrue rumor by

calling it a conflation of te$ts.

%et me give you some alternative synonyms for the word conflation< mishmash, cocktail, a compost8with apologies to composting9.

;o please release whatever previously held pictures you may have, and consider, for a moment, that

these are the words of highly evolved multi!dimensional beings.

Magdalen and Yeshua each had one life on this 6arth. They each came to do a +ob, to teach and to

imbue mankind with light in a dismal time. These are the beings as they are today, reali7ed multi!dimensional beings, who happen to be 'rcturian in their genetic origin and came to 6arth for one

lifetime each.

These are conversations had with Mary Magdalen from 1//J until the present. There is also onepowerful but brief conversation with Yeshua and a comment by sis on what she calls the tomb of

the feminine.

This is not the &iblical Magdalen. This is no penitent, shameful, hussy, as =ope Bregory tried to

portray her as being in an attempt to shame and lower women and keep the power within the malecircle of the 0oman *hurch.

;he told us everything she wanted shared about this &iblical Magdalene and her time in theancient world in The Magdalen Manuscript, which should be re3uired reading in all feminist

classes and all &ible classes. ;he spoke about her time as an nitiate in the Temple of sis and howshe met Yeshua by the well and about her pain and grief when he was killed.

;he said that was all she wanted to share about that one lifetime as a human being.

This being had conversations with is who she was before her lifetime as an 6arthling and who she

has been and continues to be since that lifetime< a powerful, brilliant, elo3uent, multi!dimensional

being, who happens to be 'rcturian. The 'rcturians have been our protectors for millions of years.' few of them, such as Mary Magdalen, Yeshua ben >oseph and ;anat 4umara came into a body to

bring light and teach.

This makes their thoughts and ideas of more interest to me than beings whove never been on 6arthin a body. Cntil youve e$perienced life in a body in A!F, youre a disembodieded spirit from

another dimension of e$istence with no e$perience down here.

held Yeshua at arms length all of my life because blamed him for what *hristianity has become,

but after reading and re!reading this simple passage from him, reali7e it wasnt his fault thatmankind so altered his words and his intentions. 'nd having now spent 3uite a bit of time with

'rcturians reali7e what he struggled with.

'rcturians are mission oriented, or they have been, and he was a man on a mission to bring a

message to humanity. The message got twisted and contorted and barely resembles what he came toteach, but that wasnt his fault.


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Men took his innocence and used it to propagandi7e and control populations. t was spin, or as

historians have put it, a conflation of te$ts. *hange a few words, here and there, and you change thewhole meaning, which is what happened with much of what he said.

These ama7ing beings are still very much alive in the ninth dimension and what they have to say

has great meaning to me because theyve been here, in a body, on 6arth, paying ta$es and rent, +ust

like the rest of us. They have e$perienced the pressures of A!F.

To get the most benefit from the following te$ts, strongly suggest that you throw out the picturesthat you carry in your mind about who historical and &iblical figures are, and, in particular, where

they came from.

)e dont +ust come from Montreal, or &erlin, or (ew York.

Bautama &uddha was from #rion. *onfucious was from #rion.

;hiva chose the &lue 0ay in the /thFimension and was from 'rcturus.

4uan Yin was an electromagnetic being who greatly influenced Bautama &uddha in hisunderstanding of enlightenment.

Magdalen said to me, 6very dynamic being who created a religion or spiritual path had off!planetgenetics. &eings in higher dimensions do not understand the immense duality of the third dimension

until they are here.

'fter all these years, all these opportunities with grand teachers, stand in appreciation of;hakespeare when he wrote these words, whoever he was and whatever planet he came from,

There are more things in heaven and earth, 2oratio, than are dreamt of in your philosophy.

Mary Magdalens Introduction

You are being made privy to private conversations that have spanned several years between me and

>udi ;ion, through this channel.

They are e$cerpts from conversations and dialogues between a being who lives in the spirit worlds8myself9 and a woman who lives in your world. t was a meeting of the minds"hers and mine"

centered most often around lies about the feminine and the conse3uences of this distortion uponyour religions and ultimately your destiny.

You are at a pivotal point in your collective history, but from the vantage point of history itself,there have been and will continue to be, many pivotal points.

2istory is a conse3uence of individuals living their lives.

;o the essential 3uestion, for you at least is, what pivotal point have you entered in relationship to

your own e$istence upon this world and your +ourney as a soul, as a consciousness:

have spoken to it before, and spoke to it again in these conversations. t is a 3uestion of

individual freedom to move upward in consciousness or devolve into some lesser form of being.

'lthough your eyes may report to you and your other senses confirm that you are more or less thesame human being you always have been, you are actually continually evolving or devolving

through the beliefs you entertain as truths and the choices you make as your reality.

'nyone who deems to make this choice for you is a thief and a robber in my mind. 'nd in my mind

you have all been robbed, and your first task in order to evolve to the higher potentials of your

being is to regain what you have lost and to take back what was always rightfully yours.

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will make this brief and to the point.

n the metaphorical Barden of 6den where the tree of knowledge stands, you shall stand and claim

your right to have this knowledge 8that you are a creator9. This knowledge is a part of you, for youare the tree itself, and those who try to separate you from it, from this knowledge, did so in an

attempt to perpetuate their own spiritual and earthly power.

5or some it is a heresy to pick the fruit from the tree that is your very being. 5or others it is an act offreedom and courage. The choice you make is yours to make"and no one elses.

Mary Magdalen

Conversations with Mary Magdalen

"t her request# we have adopted the spelling of her name without an $e at the end in order to

denote that this Magdalen is an interdimensional being# and her life as Mary Magdalene was onlyone e%pression of her larger identity.

"nother reason she asked us to spell her name without an $e at the end was to differentiate the

being we communicate from other sources of channeled material.

!e did spell her name in the main menu tab using the traditional spelling in order to facilitate

recognition by &nternet search engines.

'lease note that this# never before published material# is for your personal use only. &t is

copyrighted and no portion may be printed# copied# posted on the &nternet or distributed in anymedia# physical and(or electronic without the authors) written consent.

K1/A Tom 4enyon and >udi ;ion 'll 0ights 0eserved

The Return of Isis

You are collectively e$periencing the return of sis. t is happening in this very moment. t is

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happening through the agency of women coming to their power, and it is being accelerated through

the recognition that the 6arth is in danger through the acts of mankind and through the recognitionthat the halls of power are impotent to affect the needed changes.

More and more women will come together to create change in the world, and in their communities

more women, especially the younger generation, are finding their voices to speak to the errors they

see.

The return of the goddess does not mean she descends from the heavens with a flaming sword. tmeans that she embodies the hearts and minds of women and that these women find the courage to

speak their truth and to take the actions they deem necessary.

ods!gods

There are vast intelligences that move through the universe and if someone encounters them and

they are of lesser evolution, they would think of them as gods.

Evolution

's view it, this 6arth is in the midst of a cataclysmic purification, not through the actions of Bod,but through the nature of the planet itself and the cosmos. There is little that a single person can do

to change it, as the forces are far greater than any individual.

To survive this purification spiritually intact, you must ac3uire the ability to swim upstream against

the current.

The currenthere is evolutionary implosion, political and spiritual fascism and manipulation throughfear by the forces that control human destiny at a large scale. ts up to each person to find a way to

swim upstream, and this re3uires mastery, intelligence and a high degree of creativity andfle$ibility.

'nd it is here where things get interesting. #ne of the ways, certainly not the only way to swimupstream against the current, is to connect into the vibration of love"meaning impersonal love"

and if you are able to be in that vibrational bubbleand you are also aware of the realities aroundyou"not deluded to believe that everyone is in that state"then you can more efficiently and more

effectively swim upstream and find safe harbor in the midst of this storm.

*ouples in ;acred 0elationship can greatly reinforce this in each other.

Most couples are the antithesis of ;acred 0elationship, and a person would be better off being alone

than entering into a relationship with someone who is not his or her e3ual"spiritually speaking.

'nother appropriate metaphor is swimming through water. )ater is like the impersonal force oflove. t surrounds you, but there are rocks, immovable ob+ects within that stream, and the mastery of

swimming is to swim around those things that are not what you are looking for, and to swim aroundimpediments, without a second glance, leaving them behind you.

believe that the greatest treasures that a human can possess are immaterial"they are not the goldof this world. They are attributes of consciousness that are developed in the foundry of e$istence.

You take these types of treasures with you when you leave this earthly life, and you take these with

you into other realms. )hen you discover such a great treasure, you would naturally protect it.

believe that many people lose this treasure in the course of life, and some will re!find it, thus

treasuring it even more. ;o what you are dealing with here is a level of intelligence that canrecogni7e the value of an attribute and the intelligence to know what to do with it, how to use that

attribute 8i.e., impersonal love9 to create a bubble, a vibratory field that allows you to move through

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the current and move upstream when the current is moving downstream.

6arth is a school for the soul.

This life is temporary but spiritual consciousness is eternal.

'nd so in the density and suffering of life, it is how you deal with lifes difficulties that determines

what attributes you e$tract. #ne of the greatest treasures or attributes of consciousness is the

capacity to love impersonally, because this creates a vibrational field that inherently movesupstream. n other words the vibrational field itself moves you upward. This is highly efficient.

2ow you choose to navigate through the difficulties of planetary purification becomes the 3uestion.

f you can recogni7e that the true treasure is not material, that you are a visitor to this world and thatyou will take the treasure of spiritual development with you when you leave this life, then you will

pass through this period more easily.

You live in this world fully to gain all the e$periences you can, but you live knowing you are not of

this world, and if you can live that with the full force of your being you can live through thee$perience of this life with more mastery and grace.

think it is best to avoid the dichotomy of good and evil for they are relative to the perceiver. )hatis evil to one, might be a holy undertaking to someone else.

n the midst of this planetary upheaval, believe that the path of the nitiate is to live upward

despite what might be occurring in the e$ternal environment and to find the treasures within.5urthermore, an nitiate must forge the capacity to think and feel on his or her own, and use these

abilities as a means to navigate through the conditions and situations of life"never losing sight of

those spiritual treasures. Thats the path.

Transformation and "es#air

True transformation does not re3uire hope and moves even in despair.

The "elusion of $neness

'll beings have their own perspective, which is relative to the dimension they reside in and the levelof their consciousness. 5rom my e$perience, it is impossible for any one being to comprehend the

totality of e$istence in all its dimensionality.

5rom my e$perience and perspective, all beings are interconnected. These interconnections e$tend

in all levels, in all dimensions and throughout the cosmos.

n your planetary e$istence you are part of and not separate from your planetary eco!system. Youare intimately connected to all life forms. You breathe because the plant kingdom transforms carbon

dio$ide into o$ygen, a process you call photosynthesis. prefer to call it devic transformation. The devic consciousness of the plant kingdom is vast andintelligent. t is sentient. &y its very nature it transforms one element into another. t is its nature to

transform, upon this planet, carbon dio$ide into o$ygen. 'nd it is this transformation that gives you

life. ;o you are deeply interconnected to the plant kingdom and all other life forms upon this planet.

You are also interconnected with other intelligences and other dimensions. am able tocommunicate with you because we are interconnected. This interconnectedness is a vast ocean.

There are channels that you call wormholes connecting parts of the cosmos with distant areas. &ut

this interconnectedness is different than what many people call oneness.

&ecause there are so many different ways of using this term, it is not particularly helpful to use this

term without being more precise. ;o let me discuss the truth of oneness, as view it, for it is

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different from the delusion of oneness.

)hen you reach higher states of consciousness in which your e$perience of time and space are

transcended, there are various levels of perception. #ne of these levels is the interconnectedness ofall life, all consciousnesses and all e$istence.

)hen you enter a certain octave of this transcendence to time and space you enter into what Yeshua

referred to as love. This love is impersonal. t is not romantic in the sense that most people thinkof it. t is not erotic attraction. t is a resonancethat holds all e$istence in one interrelated vibration,and this vibration is all!inclusive.

This state of consciousness is very strange, for when you are in the vibrational state of impersonal

love you can easily hold conflicting opposites together.

They are seemingly resolved in the serenity of this vibration called love. &ut at the same time there

are other perceptions and other realities co!e$isting with this vibrational state.

My personal difficulty with the concept of oneness, as it is used in the (ew 'ge, has to do with alack of boundaries, a lack of accountability and personal responsibility. t is also a nesting place,

ironically, for some of the darkest shadow material of humanity.

Those who leap frog into the idea of oneness, enter a tenuous path if they conclude that at a higher

level of being we are all one and there is no differentiation. My reason for saying this has to do withthe edges of vibrational states.

The idea of oneness is being used as a hypnotic vehicle by some people to sidestep the

comple$ity of e$istence. ;ome of these people believe that if we are all one then there is no need to

do anything, and, in my belief, this is a sad error.

=ersonal evolution rarely occurs as a spontaneous event but more often through an application ofyour heart and mind and at times through sheer effort and personal will. 'nother aspect of oneness

that disturbs me is that some, though not all, use it as a prete$t for irresponsibility and

unaccountability.)hen one enters the authentic e$perience of interconnectedness the heart can e$pand to include all

levels of e$istence, and one can indeed e$perience an emotion of profound love that embraces all

opposites, and one might describe this feeling as oneness. &ut this is 3uite different than the ideaof oneness. The idea of oneness is not an authentic spiritual e$perience. t is +ust an idea. &ut it is

an idea that is fraught with difficulties for those seeking true authentic spiritual reali7ation.

said earlier one of the difficulties with oneness was that it disregarded vibrational edges.

)hat mean by this is that every vibrational state has a boundary. n certain states of consciousness

all boundaries are transcended, but one cannot operate in the manifest universe without boundaries.

The e$perience of no boundaries is a state of mind, but it is not useful as a means to navigatethrough vibrational states effectively. You must pay attention to vibrational boundaries or you very

easily create energetic problems.

%et me give a concrete e$ample. Many years after Yeshuas death there was a man who sought out

and destroyed those early followers of Yeshua. 2is name was =aul. #n his way to Famascus, as thestory goes, he had a sudden vision of Yeshua and had a conversion, and suddenly this man who was

a vile, despicable human being seemed to be lifted up and transformed.

You know him as ;t. =aul.

#ne of the difficulties have with =aul, as a woman, is that he hated our kind. 'nd so he inserted

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's a woman nitiate and a close disciple of Yeshua"as well as his teacher and his wife" find his

8=auls9 influence on the *hurch most unfortunate. The problem with =aul"and refuse to call hima ;aint"is that he had a partial conversion, but his unresolved issues with women tainted his

spiritual e$perience. 'nd it became a vile poison that he added to the mi$ of early influences to

those followers of Yeshua.

)hen =aul encountered his vision of Yeshua, he saw the error of his ways to some e$tent. &ut he

did not look deeper in himselfI he did not notice the vibrational edge, or boundary, within his ownnature that was driven by his fear and hatred of women.

This was a vibrational edge, and he overlooked it. 2e did not enter into it, e$plore it or change it,

and so, filled with energy that comes to any human who makes contact with the spiritual dimension,he set forth into the world, now a converter, an evangelist. &ut he was not proclaiming the full truth

of Yeshuas message. t was twisted by his inner and tormented world.

t is indeed a parado$ that an idea as seemingly benevolent as oneness can sometimes be used as acloak to hide human darkness and what you would call the shadow. 5rom my personal view the

idea that all beings are one without any differences is preposterous and an insult to the comple$ity

of multi!dimensional e$istence.

am aware that am interconnected with all beings, and am also aware, at the same time, that amdistinctly me.

n the path to self!reali7ation and mastery there are many ways, many paths and many choices.

(either is better than the other. t is simply that each choice brings with it conse3uences.

choose to remain a distinct individual consciousness. choose at times to intercede on the behalf

of other beings, but am always aware that they have a distinct e$istence separate from me, and thattheir sovereign e$istence is their responsibility and not mine.

5rom my view, at the moment of death there are many options and many ways to transit through the

death realms. #ne of these is moving to the light, as proposed by numerous proponents of oneness.

personally consider this type of collective light to be a trap. t ensnares a soul or a consciousness. tdoes not lead to liberation or greater mastery but to a type of sub+ugation.

find there to be something insidious in the concept of oneness as held by some people. &y

imagining that we are all one, they are able to enter a hypnotic state. This type of hypnosis imparts apseudo!serenity because one can seemingly operate without attention to boundaries. &ut +ust

because one has an idea of something does not make it so. find that many persons who have

swallowed the concept of oneness do not look deeper into themselves. They remain ignorant to theirown unconscious forces.

'nd so while one hand holds a magic wand, so to speak, and creates the pseudo!feelings of oneness,

the other hand creates discord and acts out the shadow, which is 3uite simply un!owned aspects andun!evolved impulses. &ut because this second hand is not in their awareness they take no

responsibility for their actions.

This is not evolution in my mind but devolution, and so this leads me to wonder how such a

situation has arisen and why.

)hen my beloved Yeshua said, You shall do greater things than , he was speaking from anunderstanding regarding the individuali7ed divine person, a being who understood his or her

relationship to the cosmos as a distinct individual, not merged with all beings as one.

t is true that some of the power available to a divine person arises from the recognition of his or her

interconnectedness with the cosmos. &ut this sense of interconnectedness retains identity as an

individual. ndeed this type of mastery re3uires an individuali7ed being. This type of mastery

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re3uires that a being operate within the vast sea of interconnectedness while being aware of

vibrational boundaries as well as how to move in relationship to them.

%et me say a little more about boundaries.

This is a true parado$ because they co!e$ist at the same time. %ets start with the physical since yourelate every day to this.

6very cell of your body has a boundary, a physical wall of molecules that separates itself fromevery other cell. )ithout this boundary the cells could not e$ist. &ut the boundary has openings that

allow the cell to take in things that are good for it and to e+ect things that are not in its best interestor no longer needed, the byproducts if you will, of cellular metabolism"like carbon dio$ide.

)hen you take all of these cells that comprise your body, your body has the physical e$perience of

boundaries. f you walk into a wall, the boundary of your body and the boundary of the wall meet,

and you will not pass through the wall. This is a physical reality.

(ow allmatter is essentially space, so it is possible in certain states of body@mind to walk throughwall, to physically walk through it. This fluidity of body and mind is a highly unusual state, but it is

possible, and many of your yogis and yoginis as well as some saints from many spiritual traditions

have demonstrated this and other abilities as well.

t is possible for your body@mind to enter a super conductive state in which gravity is temporarilytranscended and levitation becomes a distinct possibility. &ut most of the time, most people remain

at the affect of gravity.

The idea that you can walk through walls or levitate is very different than the actual ability to walk

through walls or levitate. The energetic mastery re3uired to physically walk through a wall or tolevitate is not in the domain of thinking. ts a much more comple$ phenomenon.

6ach vibrational level or dimension has boundaries. t is possible in certain states to pass through

these boundaries, but it is done by understanding the nature of the boundary that is presenting itself

to you and what is re3uired of you to pass through it.t is through interconnectedness that you can travel through the cosmos through any dimension that

you wish. &ut you have to understand the nature of each boundary that you encounter and what is

energetically re3uired of you to pass through it. This is a very different concept than oneness.

#ne does not move throughout the cosmos with mastery if one is blobbed together in ones mindwith all other beings. This concept is very limiting, in contrast to the potentials of

interconnectedness.

;o, in summary, e$ploring ones interconnectedness with the cosmos as an individuali7ed being

leads you to greater mastery and an ability to move through dimensional boundaries. The idea ofoneness does not impart this level of mastery, but in my mind it is a hornets nest of confusion and a

place where manipulation and untransformed shadows often reside.

Worthlessness

=lanetary energetics are like a plow that ruthlessly passes through the soil of the psyche and all

manner of things come to the surface that were hidden"your deep!seated roots of worthlessness, in

particular.

t is a hard flinty rock, this worthlessness, that the plow is turning up.

My Ta%e on Chaos

%ets use the %abadous alley in ;outhern 5rance as an e$ample. )hen some off!planet beings scan

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this valley they see fountains of light, which they can measure and 3uantify. They are aware of their

intergalactic brothers, like the 'rcturians, and like the 'rcturians they view earth life from a

somewhat detached place because they are in the Gth Fimensions and higher and have never actuallybeen here in the physical.

, however, have been here so know the taste and the smell and the touch of matter. ;o when am

in this valley my tendency is to see all these beings not as fountains of light, but as friends whom

have relationships with, which is why can call forth the elements. could call forth the angels. ;o could, for instance, sit down, with an angel in this valley and this angel might be very agitated

because of the disturbances that it is e$periencing in the 6arth and in humanity. 'nd might have aconversation with this angel.

#ther off!planet beings would do an energy reading and say that chaos is increasing in this areawhere the angel is located. ;o both perspectives are accurate. ts simply that one is more detached

and the other is more involved.

'll the kingdoms of your 6arth, including all of the devic kingdoms, the elemental kingdoms andthe angels of air, water, earth and fire, as well as the mysterious angel of space, are all being

activated, stimulated and irritated by the cosmic waves of energy that are passing through your solarsystem. >ust as humans are being affected, all of 6arths kingdoms are being affected. 6verything isstirred up.

Many beings from off!planet are monitoring energy, from the GthFimension and higher. was ofthe 6arth 8in one life9, so understand the relationship with beings who reside here, but were

describing the same thing, +ust from different perspectives.

There are pockets of individuals who enter highly agitated states, and this will act out in all realms

of elements, the air, fire, definitely the 6arth. t will become very surrealistic. 6ventually it will beimpossible to deny the fact that there is a relationship between human consciousness and what is

occurring on the planet e$cept to the most dense of individuals.

&ngels

The sole purpose of most 'ngels is to be of benefit. They have no interest to do anything other than

e$press a positive intent as they understand it. )ithin that range of beings there are 'ngels that havefree will, but they choose to be in alignment with the higher vision that they hold. t is a part of their

purpose. ;ome 'ngels have no free will of their own, but are bound to the intent set by their

progenitor. ;ome angels are simple energetic messengers?servants, so to speak, to whatever it isthat e$pressed them into e$istence.

(ow, we are not talking about Bod here?we are speaking about actual subatomic forces. You can

look at this totally within the realm of physics. ;ubatomic particles are, from at least one

perspective, 'ngels. They do not have will, as you understand it, but can sometimes bond with othersubatomic particles to create an intention. ;ome of this is random and some is 3uite specific having

to do with consciousness"your consciousness.

)hat allows you to make sense of my words are molecular messengers with your brain calledneurotransmitters. These molecules are constellations of subatomic and atomic particles.

Fepending upon the nature of their work, atomic and molecular messengers 8'ngels9 operate in therealm of physiology to keep you alive and@or they operate within in the realm of cognition, allowing

you to create meaning from the world. They do not have a will of their own but are bound to andcompletely aligned with your will.

You have a direct affect upon the subatomic, atomic and molecular messengers 8'ngels9 within

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your body through the thoughts you think and the emotions you feel. ;ince these types of 'ngels

are bound to your will, they will obey your intentions regarding your physical body to a remarkabledegree.

(e$t there are the higher order of 'ngels, meaning 'ngels having to do with larger systems than

your body"meaning their sphere of influence, i.e., how big a territory they have influence over.

5or instance, the 'ngels in your body could not take on galactic levels of energy. This would be farbeyond their capability.

'nother category of 'ngels has to do with the devic kingdom. )hen a flower blossoms, it sends out'ngelic messengers that you call aromas, and they draw in the insects and bees that will fertili7e it

and spread genetic information. &ut its in the nature of the flower to send forward these 'ngelic

messengers +ust as its in the nature of the universe to emanate energies that call 'ngels. ;ome ofthese energies are conscious and have free will, and some are conscious and do not have free will.

;ome of them have little consciousness at allI they are simply messengers.

Iron' (lood and Earths Magnetic )ield

)hat is the element that creates the magnetic field of 6arth: ron.

)hat is the primary element that comprises 6arths core and responsible for 6arths magnetic field:

ron.

ron is also an important component of blood so there is a resonant field of information between

human blood and the 6arths core.

n regard to the relationship between human blood and 6arths magnetic field, the reptilians that fedoff of fear also knew and understood, early on, that sacrificing and the blood letting of humans

created both fear and an energetic that allowed them to affect the magnetic field of 6arth, using therelationship between blood and 6arths core to energi7e their intentions. ;ome did this ritual in

order to keep things in place so that they could remain in power as the '7tecs did in Mesoamerica.

$n Wor%ing With $ther *eo#le

inspire many other people to return to the balance of the feminine, and so many are working withaspects of me. ;ome of them are deluded, and some of them are actually working with aspects of

me.

The +ature of My Teachings

'fter Yeshuas passing from this world, taught and did healing through the laying on of hands, and

spoke about Yeshuas teachings that the true divine mystery was love, and spoke about the

concept of a mother @father god.

Then there were certain women of high caliber who initiated into the ;e$ Magic of sis, and gavethem instructions in how to use their life force to heal and to elevate themselves.

also gave to these groups of women my knowledge concerning the use of herbs for healing. 'nd it

was to this group that gave instruction on the use of essential oils to alter consciousness in order to

enter receptive states of consciousness whereby they were able to e$perience the spiritual worldsdirectly for themselves.

Many of these women started their own teaching groups and the knowledge of herbs and essential

oils for healing and self!elevation 3uickly spread.

)hen the patriarchal *hurch had reached its 7enith in the Middle 'ges, women who possessed this

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knowledge were labeled as witches and many were burned at the stake or killed with elaborate

brutality. ronically, this frontal attack against women, who merely possessed the knowledge ofhealing and self!transcendence, was committed in the name of the 2oly Mother *hurch.

This strange schism can be stated 3uite simply as a battle between theMother hurch, a supposed

symbol of pure virtue, killing women who were perceived as defiled and evil. The irony here is that

men ruled the Mother *hurch and dictated her actions.

5or me, another layer to this bitter irony is that by the early Middle 'ges the 2oly Mother *hurch8meaning the *hurch of 0ome9 had been fully appropriated by men who traced their apostolic

authority in an unbroken =apal line back to =eter who was, in my e$perience, a misogynist. 'nd to

this day, the *hurch is a woman hater and places women in a subservient position. &ut then this isnot the only religion to have condemned women to a lesser state of perceived value.

n my opinion, the removal of ;ophia from the godhead as the &ride of Bod 8i.e., the %ogos9 has

had, and continues to have, devastating conse3uences upon all *hristendom and the world at large.

&ut let us leave the fetid history of the *hurch to further discuss the essence of my teachings.

There were smaller groups of students to which revealed the inner teachings of Yeshua, as he gave

them to me. would take these individuals through an initiatory process with the elements. 'nd only accepted them into the inner teachings when recogni7ed that they comprehended what was

saying about the nature of the mother@father god.

Cltimately to these advanced students revealed the central heresy, at least according to the *hurch5athers, that all persons were the living mother@father god, and that there was nothing separating

them from this numinous reality"e$cept belief.

The process of getting them to this reali7ation involved many stages, including instruction in how to

interact with the elements of earth, fire, water, and air.

The first stage was to take them into a unified state of consciousness, which they entered when

took them out to remote locations and instructed them in methods to attain a state of mind wherebythey reali7ed that they and the land and all the elements were one. )hen they attained this state of

oneness with the natural world# would guide them into a reali7ation that they were also unifiedwith the mother@father god and that there was no difference between them and the Mystery.

#nce this unified state of consciousness was attained with the mother@father god, they could use

their powers of consciousness in their life as creators. That was the core of the teaching.

taught men the unified state of consciousness and ways to connect with the mother@father god, but

did not teach them the ;e$ Magic of sis. let their wives teach them that.

)hen the sun and moon are in balance and the male and female are +oined as one, a third forceappears that has tremendous potency, and this power can change the world.

)rom Isis$n the Tom, of the )eminine

The tombof the feminine"and by that mean the thought forms and beliefs of the last 1/// yearsthat have imprisoned womanhood"is in its essence the feeling that women have no right to ask for

anything, that they are servants to men and nothing more. The torment of being in that darkness,

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)rom -eshua: od I &m and od -ou &re./I got it one night' alone in the arden01

This world is a world of e$treme polarity and the best intentions and most impeccable acts can beconvoluted into something 3uite different than their original intent.

This is one of the tragedies of this world.

)hen said that without my 5ather could do nothing, actually said without my Mother and5ather could do nothing. &ut my e$act words were lost in translation.

6very action that take comes from the 'm That 'm, in other words, me, as Bod.

&ut in my lesser understanding, during my time on 6arth, was separated from that in my mind.

was separated from myself as the reali7ed manifestation of Bod, and there was thus the ground forpersonal doubt.

)hen am in awareness of myself as Bod, there is no doubt. am now in that state perpetually inall realms, and have no doubt.

There are two levels here. )ithout awareness of myself as Bod can do nothing. f am in a lesser

position of reali7ation than am now, would think that this power is e$ternal to me, and then callupon it as if it were a power outside of me. My reali7ation was simply recogni7ing that was the

Bod of my own being, and this +ump from human to god@man was a 3uantum +ump.

Bod is a mental construct that is too limiting.

The fundamental 3uestion is this"do you worship some power e$ternal to yourself or do you take

full embodiment of it:

)hen took on the disciples, grew through the e$perience of dealing with their limitations, andwhen was in the Barden of Bethsemane, and they all fell asleep, was truly alone.

n that moment of solitary awareness no longer cared what any of them thought, and that was the

pivotal moment for me. stepped though doubt and walked through the portal without a secondglance"reali7ing that had created it all. created drawing them into my life as bothsteppingstones and impediments.

thought that the truth could be spread through them to the world, but it was a contaminated truth,

tainted by their own human limitations as well as misunderstandings, and in =eters case, stupidity.

%et me e$plain my comment about =eter. The Bospels report that said to =eter that he was the rock

upon which would build my *hurch. &ut the language spoke to him in was 'ramaic, and theword rock had two connotations"a firm foundation and intellectually dense.

;o in the garden stepped past all of that which had created and let it go. stepped through the

portal of death.

am a vast being with multiple facets, and the human was only one small part of who am"as are

you.

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