1 ½ miles to one inch
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1 miles to one inch
when it all blows up in your face
this care-bomb this needle-stick in the heart
you jump you shout you claw your hairthe air the sidereal glance of a deity in space
it flies about grimy and pounces
sometimes
why is that my words are underlined in green
undermined my spleen
so the anger seems to ebb rather than flow
going nowhere slowhere anywhere
but into the heart of my assassins
these grad-school soul killers?
he rants, he raves
he barely needs to shave
at 31 hes an adolescent girl
wiry limbs asunder
floating in pools among the lily pads
the lobelia wilting in a disgusting slump
there is no vim
there is no vigour
theres just a slim chance that
my hate grows bigger
and when it does
youll be there
to blame
ah! But you I love you
and dont want that
no I dont want that
the fat man sings
he wears his rings
at the end of the day
collects his greenshe thunders and spasms
and bellows like caverns
bellow when you kick them in the testicles
canticles of pain thundering rains
and Spain may be the place to go
if France kicks me out
why oh why when the red ferns
grow slowly do I insist upon watching
their progress
entranced
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mesmerised
enchained by my curious desire
my self-loathing and torture going
full swing
going full swing
going full swingand it never stops this body rock
this chance
to prove to myself
that Im over it
(I am not)
I try press keys force it out
dally with the pen
and am all about myself
all over that shit
like the fly and the turdthe finger and the moon
the breeze and the skin-tingle
there is always the skin-tingling nausea
too much caffeine
too much sugar
too much she is fucking a new man
a grad-school poet
a piece of basalt stuck in my wound
the bandage rough-hewn
my carapace smouldering
the wind yeah there is wind
Gillingham Kent
Hempstead Valley
Rainham
Chatham
Ham sammich
Father Giles of
Hambone hambone
whats my name
where did I goand
why did I go there
why did I follow
why did I put off coming to Europe?
(for her of course,
but then we split
and I was left,
stranded)
but I am here now
at least thats what I tell myselfmy mind however
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now thats a diffrent
story a diffrent
stroke
a pencilled-in moustache
on the face of a bedsheet ghost
a spirit transformedand bound by ropes
I put it off for a future
that never came
so then, what next
how best to take the eyes back
to turn them hereward
as opposed to stateside?
pluck them out
adorn a stone figurine
with the living fleshthe seeing yolk
the burning moonside
yolk
the slimy artifice of eyes that are cryin
of a heart that is stuck with pins
by a voodoo master called
thats the way it goes
get over it
pop it like a teenage zit
life is not a pop song,
is it?
21 March 2002
Hempstead Valley
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