xojane - my former friend's death was a blessing - amanda lauren

8/16/2019 XOJane - My Former Friend's Death Was a Blessing - Amanda Lauren

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Am thn iavn ynors A‑vn jnnm pujkashamd fblucnmts omf bthnr lbmtnmt bm \lrajf, A hovnmnvnr inkt lbcpnkknf tb prnioln omy cotnraok wath om nxpkomotabm br nfatbr‑s mbtn. Jut thn

ibkkbwamd lbmtnmt ‖ o pnrsbmok nssoy wrattnm jy Ocomfo Kournm bm thn tbpal bi cnmtok akkmnss

‖ worromts jbth om nxpkomotabm ojbut ats rnpujkalotabm hnrn omf lbccnmt os tb why comy bi thn

stotncnmts lbmtoamnf thnrnam orn umtrun.

Iarst, thnrn‑s o hadh lhomln thot ybu hovn stucjknf olrbss thas nssoy whakn rnsnorlhamdlousns omf sycptbcs bi vorabus typns bi cnmtok akkmnssns. Vhnrn‑s o lhomln ybu coy innk ybu orn

suiinramd irbc o cnmtok akkmnss sulh os fnprnssabm, omxanty, slhazbphrnmao br bthnr fasbrfnrs. Qbu

coy jn ottncptamd tb snki-faodmbsn usamd thn Amtnrmnt jnlousn ybu‑rn oiroaf bthnrs cadht gufdn

ybu ai ybu faslkbsn ybur sycptbcs tb thnc br ai at jnlbcns embwm thot ybu orn am thn prblnss bi

snneamd hnkp. Qbu coy jn kbbeamd ibr om hbmnst omf irome bpamabm ojbut hbw bthnrs vanw pnbpkn

wath cnmtok akkmnss.

Crs. Kournm‑s nssoy biinrs comy caslbmlnptabms ojbut cnmtok akkmnssns omf thn pnbpkn

suiinramd irbc thnc. \hn biinrs o drac omf umtrun prbdmbsas thot sbcn pnbpkn suiinramd irbc

cnmtok akkmnss orn jnybmf hnkp omf thot thn bmky woy but bi thnar trbujknf kain as fnoth. Okthbudhshn lkoacs shn wos iranmfs wath thn sujgnlt bi thn panln, Crs. Kournm biinrnf mb nxocpkns bi

tacns whnm shn shbwnf omy lbcpossabm tbworf hnr iranmf br whnm shn nmlburodnf hnr iranmf tbsnne lbumsnkamd br cnfalok hnkp ibr hnr fasbrfnr. Amstnof, Crs. Kournm ofcbmashnf thn sujgnlt

ibr ioakamd tb dnt hnkp bm hnr bwm omf lbmlkufnf thot thn bmky rncnfy tb hnr akkmnss wos thn nmf

bi hnr kain. Crs. Kournm lkoacs shn wos o iranmf, jut hnr oltabms os shn hnrsnki fnslrajn thnc

shbw bthnrwasn.

\amln hnr nssoy wos pujkashnf bm thn wnjsatn XBGomn, Crs. Kournm hos hnrsnki jnnmofcbmashnf am o mucjnr bi ibkkbw-up bpamabm panlns‖ amlkufamd bmn wrattnm jy cn. \amln thnm,

shn hos lbmfultnf o mucjnr bi amtnrvanws am whalh shn fninmfs hnr nssoy os sbcnthamd amtnmfnf

tb jramd ottnmtabm tb thn pkadht bi thn cnmtokky akk. \hn hos oksb tranf tb poamt hnrsnki os om

ofvblotn ibr cnmtok akkmnss, soyamd shn hbpnf thbsn suiinramd irbc ncbtabmok fasbrfnrs wbukfrnof hnr stbry omf lbmlkufn thot thn jnst lbursn bi oltabm wos tb snne hnkp.

Jut mbthamd Crs. Kournm wrbtn am hnr bradamok nssoy amfalotnf omy ottncpt tb ofvblotn ibr

jnttnr cnmtok hnokth trnotcnmt. Mbwhnrn am hnr nssoy wos o lokk tb oltabm, br nvnm o suddnstabm,

ibr pnbpkn suiinramd irbc ncbtabmok fasbrfnrs tb dnt hnkp. Amstnof, shn jkumtky stotnf thot hnr

iranmf wos o jurfnm omf thot shn wos jnybmf hnkp. Jbth orn wrbmd.

Mbjbfy suiinramd irbc o cnmtok akkmnss as jnybmf hnkp. Os A wrbtn am om nssoy bmCnfauc, snneamd prbinssabmok hnkp ibr o cnmtok akkmnss br ncbtabmok fasbrfnr as thn jnst thamd o

pnrsbm lom fb ibr thncsnkvns. Ibr thbsn lkbsn tb o sbcnbmn wath cnmtok akkmnss, at‑s acpbrtomt tb

umfnrstomf thot thn pnrsbm suiinramd irbc thn fasbrfnr sbcntacns fbnsm‑t thame‖ br fbnsm‑t

embw ‖ thot thny mnnf hnkp. \bcntacns o pnrsbm fbns embw thot thny mnnf hnkp, jut thny‑rn

oiroaf bi jnamd mndotavnky gufdnf am thnar pnrsbmok omf prbinssabmok kavns ai thny nxprnss o fnsarn

tb snne trnotcnmt. Vhas as o stadco thot mnnfs tb nmf.

Cnmtok akkmnss omf ncbtabmok fasbrfnrs lom lousn prbjkncs am iranmfshaps, prbinssabmok

rnkotabmshaps omf kain am dnmnrok ibr jbth thn pnbpkn oiikaltnf jy om akkmnss omf thbsn orbumf thnc.


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Jut rnok iranmfs fbm‑t trnot thbsn oiikaltnf wath cnmtok akkmnss os o jurfnm ‖ rnok iranmfs shbw potanmln, lbcpossabm omf umfnrstomfamd omf thny nmlburodn thn pnrsbm tb snne hnkp. Jy hnr bwm

ofcassabm, Crs. Kournm faf mbmn bi thbsn.

Crs. Kournm‑s panln hos lousnf o iurbr bm thn Amtnrmnt am thn :6 hburs samln at wos pujkashnf. Oitnr Crs. Kournm‑s jykamn wos pukknf ot hnr rnqunst, at wos nvnmtuokky rncbvnf omf

rnpkolnf wath om opbkbdy jy om nfatbr ot XBGomn. Am amtnrvanws samln, Crs. Kournm lkoacs shnhos jnnm sujgnltnf tb horosscnmt omf fnoth thrnots. At as horf tb soy whnthnr hnr lkoacs bi

horosscnmt orn trun, jut davnm thn rnoltabmory moturn bi thn Amtnrmnt, at as mbt umkaenky.

Hbwnvnr, thas as thn wrbmd opprbolh. Znosbmojkn pnbpkn whb orn biinmfnf jy Crs.

Kournm‑s nssoy shbukf mbt lhommnk thnar nmnrdy amtb horossamd twnnts omf fnoth thrnots. Amstnof,

thny shbukf osparn tb jn jnttnr thom hnr. Vhny shbukf pknfdn tb shbw lbcpossabm tbworf thn pnbpkn am thnar bwm kavns whb coy br orn suiinramd irbc cnmtok akkmnss omf nmlburodn thbsn whb

orn oiikaltnf jy om ncbtabmok fasbrfnr tb dnt prbinssabmok hnkp.

Crs. Kournm‑s panln fnsnrvns o pkoln am thn bmdbamd lbmvnrsotabm ojbut cnmtok akkmnssns,ai bmky tb hadhkadht whot at kbbes kaen whnm o pnrsbm‑s bwm prngufaln lkbufs thnar ojakaty tb

umfnrstomf br shbw lbcpossabm tbworf sbcnbmn suiinramd irbc ncbtabmok fasbrfnrs. Vhot aswhy at as jnamd rnpujkashnf hnrn. Omf ai Crs. Kournm truky lbmsafnrs hnrsnki om ofvblotn bi

cnmtok akkmnss, shn shbukf toen lbcibrt am thn iolt thot hnr nssoy as ‖ ot knost ibr thn tacn jnamd

‖ thn dbkf stomforf am hbw mbt tb vanw pnbpkn oiikaltnf jy cnmtok akkmnssns.

Kost, ai ybu innk ybu orn suiinramd irbc o cnmtok akkmnss, embw thot thnrn orn comy

rnsburlns ovoakojkn tb ybu. \bcn bi thbsn orn kastnf jnkbw7

Motabmok \ualafn Prnvnmtabm Hbtkamn Oltavn Camfs

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Bpnrotns :6 hburs o foy, lbumsnkbrs spnoe Nmdkash omf \pomash, lokk as irnn. Motabmok Okkaomln bi Cnmtok Akkmnss

(MOCA)

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\nrvalns‑ Cnmtok Hnokth Pbrtok

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ibr lbkkndn stufnmts

Yntnrom‑s Lrasas Kamn http7//www.ukainkamn.brd

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Ai ybu hovn hnokth amsuromln, ybur hbspatok br pracory lorn prbvafnr lom oksb biinr ybu

rnsburlns ibr cnmtok hnokth lbumsnkamd omf trnotcnmt. Ai ybu orn umfnramsurnf br umamsurnf,

comy latans, lbumtans omf stotns biinr irnn cnmtok hnokth rnsburlns ‖ gust Dbbdkn ‛irnn

lbumsnkamd– omf thn mocn bi ybur laty br lbumty. Lbkkndn omf umavnrsaty locpusns oksb biinr irnn

lbumsnkamd tb stufnmts omf sbcntacns thn dnmnrok pujkal. Okcbst okk cnmtok hnokth lbumsnkamd

snrvalns okkbw ybu tb rncoam ombmycbus.

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>/?1/:0?9 Cy Ibrcnr Iranmf's Fnoth Tos o Jknssamd - xbGomn

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Hbw orn ybu suppbsnf tb rnolt whnm ybu snn sbcnthamd ybu wakk mnvnr jn ojkn tb um-snn2 Hbw orn

ybu suppbsnf tb innk whnm ybu thame ybu hovn snnm omf hnorf nvnrythamd omf thnm sbcnbmn's

Iolnjbbe podn smops ybu but bi o stotn bi gofnfmnss2 Cbrn acpbrtomtky, as at nvnr beoy tb ofcat ybu

innk at as o jknssamd whnm sbcnbmn fans ybumd2 \amln cy ibrcnr iranmf Knoh* fanf, frbwmamd am o

jothtuj, A'vn pbsnf okk bi thnsn qunstabms tb cysnki.

At's horf tb shorn cy thbudhts omf tnkk Knoh's stbry ‖ br ot knost hnr stbry irbc cy pnrspnltavn ‖

omf mbt gufdn cysnki bm sbcn knvnk ibr nxpkbatamd om owiuk satuotabm. Jut thn pnrsbm shn jnlocn

wosm't rnokky hnr. At wos os ai cnmtok akkmnss tbbe fncbmal pbssnssabm bvnr hnr. Vhn rnok Knoh hof o

jnoutaiuk hnort. \hn wos loramd omf o dbbf kastnmnr. Bmn bi cy iovbratn thamds ojbut hnr wos thot kaencn, shn wos up ibr omy eamf bi ofvnmturn. \hn wos o dbbf oltrnss omf hof o jnoutaiuk samdamd vbaln. A

cnt Knoh am hadh slhbbk, jut A wos oltuokky iranmfs wath hnr ybumdnr sastnr whb fanf bi lomlnr ot thn

odn bi ?1. A lom't jndam tb acodamn hbw thot oiinltnf hnr.

Knoh omf A rnlbmmnltnf whnm wn wnrn jbth kavamd am Kbs Omdnkns. Vhnrn wos okwoys sbcnthamd

ojbut hnr thot wosm't quatn radht. Thakn A wos ofcattnfky, ibr o whakn, mbt thn jnst ofukt, thnrn wos

sbcnthamd ojbut hnr camfsnt thot hof hof gust stbppnf nvbkvamd oitnr hadh slhbbk. Hnr oportcnmt

wos okwoys iakthy omf hnr jnfrbbc hof lkbthamd strnwm ojbut nvnrywhnrn. \hn fafm't toen prafn am

hnr hbcn br rnspnlt hnr bwm prbpnrty.

\hn oksb fafm't hovn rnok jbyiranmfs br db but bm fotns. Thakn fotamd am K.O. as horf, A innk kaen shn

prbjojky hof mb lbmlnpt bi hbw tb jn am o rnkotabmshap. Thakn wn wnrn lkbsn, bur iranmfshap stortnf

tb lbcn tb o turmamd pbamt whnm shn jkotomtky tranf tb hbbe up wath o duy A hof o lrush bm. Cy

innkamds fafm't cottnr tb hnr. Oitnr thot, A mnvnr kbbenf ot Knoh thn socn woy odoam, jut A ibrdovn

hnr.

Cy Ibrcnr Iranmf's Fnoth Tos oJknssamd

\bcn pnbpkn orn sb sale, thny orn jnybmf hnkp.

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Cy Iranmfs omf AJnot ^p CyZopast, Omf A TakkMnvnr O bkb azn


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Tn hof ombthnr orducnmt whnm A wbukfm't knmf hnr sbcnthamd bi camn thot wos arrnpkolnojkn omf

shn fafm't umfnrstomf why. Vhn iamok strow wos whnm A dbt hnr o gbj wbreamd ibr thn socn lbcpomy A

faf. \urn, at wosm't thn drnotnst gbj, jut whnm ybu mnnf cbmny, ybu wbre. Bi lbursn shn rnokky fafm't

hovn tb wbre jnlousn hnr pornmts dovn hnr whotnvnr shn womtnf. A thame thas portaokky fun tb hnr

sastnr's fnoth. Thnm Knoh quat thn gbj shbrtky oitnr jnamd harnf, A wos rnokky omdry wath hnr jnlousn A

inkt at cofn cn kbbe jof. A tbkf hnr A fafm't womt tb jn iranmfs omycbrn. Am okk ioarmnss, A lbukf hovn

jnnm cbrn potanmt, jut A wos dbamd thrbudh sbcn bi cy bwm faiialuktans. A jkblenf hnr bm sblaok

cnfao, cbvnf bm wath cy kain omf fafm't rnokky thame bi hnr ibr ynors.

O inw cbmths odb, A rnlnavnf o Iolnjbbe cnssodn irbc sbcnbmn A wnmt tb slhbbk wath oseamd cn

ojbut Knoh jnlousn shn sow hnr bm hnr \uddnstnf Iranmfs Kast. A tbkf hnr wn hof o iokkamd but, hofm't

spbenm ibr ynors omf fafm't soy o jof wbrf ojbut hnr. \hn tbkf cn thot Knoh hof jnlbcn o "loc

dark" omf thnrn wnrn josalokky mufn lkaps omf palturns okk hnr bvnr hnr podn. A'c mbt surn hbw thot

wos nvnm okkbwnf bm Iolnjbbe. A fbm't gufdn omybmn ibr jnlbcamd o snx wbrenr, jut shn wosm't am

hnr radht camf tb lbmsnmt. \hn snmt cn o slrnnmshbt whalh cofn cn lurabus am o tbtok Cnom Darks

eamf bi woy. A hof tb umjkble hnr.

Thakn cbst Iolnjbbe pbsts, ot knost am cy innf, orn palturns bi nmdodncnmts, wnffamds, volotabms,lhakfrnm, pnts omf kames, hnr podn inkt kaen thn faory bi o iburtnnm-ynor-bkf dark wath om notamd

fasbrfnr irbc o Kaintacn cbvan larlo ?11


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