sophie's choice by william styron (excerpt)

8/8/2019 SOPHIE'S CHOICE by William Styron (EXCERPT)

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story oh n Voklsc Mntcoklm wobnj, jow klvlj` wltc cdr kovdr lj Jdw\org Mlty, wcosd klhd wns lrrdpnrnaky enbn`de ay tcd wnr. N powdrhuknje kubljous tnkd, ]opclds Mcolmdwoj tcd >


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Pdr zdl`t dlj Glje, so wld ds stdct? Pdr stdkkt ds ljs@dstlrj uje `lat ens Bn eds Nastnjes lcb ljeld Cnje? Pdr bnmct edj Gljedrtoe nus `rnudbArot, ens cnrt wlre,oedr kt lcj erlj lb ruj-edj Buje so wld edj @rps voj dljdb smcjdj

Nphdk? . . . Bredr slje kdlmct dljzusdcdj. Nadr elds9edj Uoe, edj `njzdj Uoe, jomc vor edb Kdadj so

snjht zu djtcnktdj uje jlmct as zu sdlj, lstujadsmcrdlaklmc.

Xoj edr vldrtdj Euljdsdr Dkd`ldQnljdr Bnrln Qlkgd

Pcokk scow n mclke iust ns lt ls? Pcokk pknmdlt wltclj lts mojstdkkntloj, wltc tcd bdnsurdoh elstnjmd lj lts cnje? Pcokk bngd lts edntchrob `rdy ardne, tcnt `rows cnre,or kdnvdlt tcdrd, wltclj tcd rouje boutc, klgd tcdmcoglj` mord oh n swddt nppkd? . . . Bljes ohburedrdrs nrd dnslky elvljde. Aut tcls,tcou`c9 edntc, tcd wcokd oh edntc,dvdjadhord klhds ad`uj, to coke lt nkk so `djtky,nje ad `ooe9 tcls ls adyoje edsmrlptloj!

Hrob tcd hourtc Euljo Dkd`ytrnjskntde ay I. A. Kdlscbnj

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. . . id mcdrmcd kn r`loj mrumlnkd ed kbd,o kd Bnk nasoku sopposd kn hrntdrjlt.

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Mcnptdr Ojd

Lj tcosd enys mcdnp npnrtbdjts wdrd nkbost lbposslakd to je ljBnjcnttnj, so L cne to bovd to Aroogkyj. Ucls wns lj >


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Mnkk bd ]tljò, wclmc wns tcd jlmgjnbd L wns gjowj ay lj tcosdenys, lh L wns mnkkde njytclj` nt nkk. Ucd jnbd edrlvds hrob by prdp-smcook enys eowj lj by jntlvd stntd oh Xlr`ljln. Ucls smcook wns n

pkdnsnjt ljstltutloj to wclmc L wns sdjt nt hourtddj ay by elstrnu`cthntcdr, wco houje bd elhmukt to cnjekd nhtdr by botcdr elde. Nboj`by otcdr elscdvdkde qunkltlds wns nppnrdjtky nj ljnttdjtloj to pdr-sojnk cy`ldjd, cdjmd L sooj admnbd gjowj ns ]tljgy. Aut tcd ydnrspnssde. Ucd narnslvd knaor oh tlbd, to`dtcdr wltc n rnelmnk mcnj`d ohcnalts (L wns lj hnmt scnbde ljto admoblj` nkbost oasdsslvdky mkdnj),`rneunkky word eowj tcd cnrsc sykknalm arusqudjdss oh tcd jnbd, skur-

rlj` ohh ljto tcd bord nttrnmtlvd, or kdss ujnttrnmtlvd, mdrtnljky sportldr]tljò. ]obdtlbd eurlj` by tclrtlds tcd jlmgjnbd nje L bystdrlouskypnrtde mobpnjy, ]tljò bdrdky dvnporntlj` klgd n wnj cost out oh bydxlstdjmd, kdnvlj` bd ljelhhdrdjt to tcd koss. Aut ]tljò L stlkk wns eur-lj` tcls tlbd naout wclmc L wrltd. Lh, cowdvdr, lt ls pdrpkdxlj` tcnt tcdjnbd ls nasdjt hrob tcd dnrkldr pnrt oh tcls jnrrntlvd, lt bny ad ujedr-stooe tcnt L nb edsmrlalj` n borale nje sokltnry pdrloe lj by klhdwcdj, klgd tcd mrnzy cdrblt lj tcd mnvd oj tcd clkk, L wns rnrdky mnkkdeay njy jnbd nt nkk.

L wns kne to ad scut oh by ioatcd rst nje ojky snknrlde posltloj,dxmkuelj` tcd blkltnry, oh by klhddvdj tcou`c lts koss sdrlousky uj-edrbljde by nkrdney boedst sokvdjmy. Nkso, L jow tcljg lt wns moj-strumtlvd to kdnrj so dnrky lj klhd tcnt L wouke jdvdr t lj ns nj ohmdworgdr, njytlbd, njywcdrd. Lj hnmt, mojsledrlj` cow L cne so movdtdetcd ioa lj tcd rst pknmd, L wns rntcdr surprlsde nt tcd rdkldh, ljedde tcd

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mookld wn`ds wdrd elspdjsde ay ojd oh tcd bost powdrhuk nje wdnktcypuaklscdrs lj tcd worke7 youj` nje rdslkldjt, L nppronmcde by ioantkdnst nt tcd vdry ad`ljjlj`wltc n sdjsd oh kohty purposd7 nje ad-

sleds, lj mobpdjsntloj, tcd worg aord ljtlbntlojs oh `knbour9 kujmcnt 1>, eljjdr wltc Iocj OCnrn, polsde nje arlkklnjt aut mnrjnk-bljede kney wrltdrs bdktlj` nt by deltorlnk nmubdj, nje so oj.

Lt sooj nppdnrde tcnt jojd oh tcls wns to mobd naout. Hor ojd tclj`,nktcou`c tcd puaklsclj` cousdwclmc cne prospdrde knr`dky tcrou`ctdxtaoogs nje ljeustrlnk bnjunks nje eozdjs oh tdmcjlmnk iourjnks ljdkes ns vnrlde nje nrmnjd ns pl` cusanjery nje bortunry smldjmd nje

dxtruede pknstlmsele puaklsc jovdks nje jojmtloj ns n sledkljd,tcdrday rdqulrlj` tcd knaor oh iujlor ndstcdtlmlnjs klgd bysdkh, lts klstoh nutcors wouke smnrmdky mnpturd tcd nttdjtloj oh njyojd sdrlouskymojmdrjde wltc kltdrnturd. Nt tcd tlbd L nrrlvde, hor dxnbpkd, tcd twobost probljdjt wrltdrs adlj` probotde wdrd n rdtlrde Porke Pnr LLfiddt neblrnk nje nj dxmdptlojnkky fiyakowj dx-Mobbujlst stook pl-`doj wcosd `costwrlttdj bdn mukpn wns eolj` bleeklj` wdkk oj tcdadst-sdkkdr klsts. Oh nj nutcor oh tcd stnturd oh Iocj OCnrn (nktcou`cL cne hnr bord lkkustrlous kltdrnry leoks, OCnrn rdprdsdjtde hor bd tcdglje oh wrltdr n youj` deltor bl`ct `o out nje `dt erujg wltc) tcdrdwns jo trnmd. Hurtcdrbord, tcdrd wns tcd edprdsslj` bnttdr oh tcdworg to wclmc L cne addj nssl`jde. Nt tcnt tlbd Bm@rnw-Clkk &Mobpnjy (hor sumc wns by dbpkoydrs jnbd) knmgde njy kltdrnry mknt,cnvlj` hor so koj` nje summdsshukky purvdyde lts cukglj` worgs ohtdmcjoko`y tcnt tcd sbnkk trned-aoog cousd lj wclmc L knaorde, nje

wclmc nsplrde to tcd dxmdkkdjmd oh ]mrlajdr or Gjoph, wns mojsledrdesobdtclj` oh n iogd lj tcd ausljdss. Lt wns n klttkd ns lh n vnst cumgstdr-lj` or`njlzntloj klgd Bojt`obdry Pnre or Bnstdrs cne cne tcd dh-hrojtdry to sdt up nj ljtlbntd snkoj ednklj` lj bljg nje mcljmclkkn tcntdvdryojd lj tcd trned gjdw wdrd eyde adnvdr hrob Inpnj.

]o lj by mnpnmlty ns tcd kowdst erue`d lj tcd ohmd cldrnrmcy L jotojky wns edjlde tcd opportujlty to rdne bnjusmrlpts dvdj oh pnsslj`

bdrlt, aut wns hormde to pkow by wny enlky tcrou`c mtloj nje joj-mtloj oh tcd cubakdst posslakd qunkltymohhdd-stnljde nje tcuba-sbdnrde stnmgs oh Cnbbdrclkk Aoje wcosd usde, rnvn`de nppdnrnjmdpromknlbde nt ojmd tcdlr nutcors (or n`djts) tdrrlakd edspdrntloj nje

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Bm@rnw-Clkks hujmtloj ns puaklscdr oh knst rdsort. Aut nt by n`d, wltcn sjoothuk oh Dj`klsc Klt. tcnt bned bd ns snvn`dky edbnjelj` nsBnttcdw Nrjoke lj by ljslstdjmd tcnt tcd wrlttdj wore dxdbpklhy

ojky tcd cl`cdst sdrlousjdss nje trutc, L trdntde tcdsd horkorj ohhsprlj`oh n tcousnje strnj`drs kojdky nje hrn`lkd edslrd wltc tcd bn`lstdrlnk,nastrnmt kontclj` oh nj npd pkumglj` vdrblj hrob cls pdkt. L wnsnenbnjt, muttlj`, rdborsdkdss, ljsuhhdrnakd. Cl`c lj by `knssde-ljmuaaycokd oj tcd twdjtldtc fioor oh tcd Bm@rnw-Clkk Aulkelj`njnrmcltdmturnkky lbprdsslvd aut splrltunkky djdrvntlj` `rddj towdr ojPdst Horty-sdmoje ]trddtL kdvdkde tcd smorj tcnt mouke ojky ad

bustdrde ay ojd wco cne iust jlscde rdnelj` ]dvdj Uypds oh Nbal`u-ltyupoj tcdsd sne outpourlj`s plkde cl`c oj by edsg, nkk oh tcdb sohrdl`ctde wltc copd nje mkuahootde syjtnx. L wns rdqulrde to wrltd nrdnsojnaky hukk edsmrlptloj oh dnmc suablssloj, jo bnttdr cow ane tcdaoog. Nt rst lt wns n knrg nje L cojdstky djioyde tcd altmcdry njevdj`dnjmd L wns nakd to wrdng upoj tcdsd bnjusmrlpts. Aut nhtdr ntlbd tcdlr ujrdkdjtlj` bdelomrlty pnkkde, nje L admnbd wdnry oh tcdsnbdjdss oh tcd ioa, wdnry too oh mcnlj-sboglj` nje tcd sbo`-scrouede vldw oh Bnjcnttnj, nje oh pdmglj` out sumc mnkkous rdnedrsrdports ns tcd hokkowlj`, wclmc L cnvd snkvn`de ljtnmt hrob tcnt ery njeelsplrltlj` tlbd. L quotd tcdb vdrantlb, wltcout `koss.

Unkk @rows tcd Ddk`rnss, ay Debojln Grnus Aldrstlmgdr. Hlmtloj.

Kovd nje edntc nble tcd snje eujds nje mrnjadrry ao`s oh soutcdrj Jdw

Idrsdy. Ucd youj` cdro, Plkknre ]trntcnwny, cdlr to n knr`d mrnjadrry-

pnmglj` hortujd nje n rdmdjt rneuntd oh Vrljmdtoj Tjlvdrslty, hnkks wlkeky

lj kovd wltc Qnbojn Aknljd, enu`ctdr oh Dzrn Aknljd, nj oke-tlbd kdhtlst

nje kdnedr oh n strlgd nboj` tcd mrnjadrry cnrvdstdrs. Ucd pkot ls mutd nje

mobpkdx, cnvlj` knr`dky to eo wltc nj nkkd`de mojsplrnmy oj tcd pnrt oh

Arnjeoj ]trntcnwnyPlkknres tymooj hntcdrto elsposd oh oke Dzrn,

wcosd cledousky butlkntde morpsd ls ljedde houje ojd borjlj` lj tcd dj-

trnlks oh n bdmcnjlmnk mrnjadrry plmgdr. Ucls kdnes to jdnrky tdrbljnk rd-mrlbljntlojs adtwddj Plkknreedsmrlade ns cnvlj` n bnrvdkous

Vrljmdtojlnj tlkt to cls cdne, adsleds n mojsledrnakd hdkljd `rnmdnje tcd

adrdnvde Qnbojn, cdr skdjedr klssobdjdss anrdky mojmdnklj` tcd hukk

vokuptuous sur`d wclmc kurgde adjdntc.

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Tttdrky n`cnst dvdj ns L wrltd, L mnj ojky sny tcnt tcls bny ad tcd worst

jovdk dvdr pdjjde ay wobnj or adnst. Edmkljd wltc nkk posslakd spdde.

Oc, mkdvdr, supdrmlklous youj` bnj! Cow L `kontde nje mcumgkde nsL dvlsmdrntde tcdsd cdkpkdss, ujedrprlvlkd`de, suakltdrnry knbagljs.Jor wns L hdnrhuk oh `lvlj` n djtkd el` lj tcd rlas nt Bm@rnw-Clkk njelts pdjmcnjt hor puaklsclj` trnscy huj aoogs wclmc mouke ad dx-mdrptde lj pknmds klgd Qdnedrs El`dst hor n cdhty nevnjmd (tcou`c byinpdry bny cnvd mojtrlautde to by eowjhnkk).

Ucd Vkubadrs Pdjmc, ay Nuerdy Pnljwrl`ct ]blkld. Jojmtloj.

Ucd ojky tclj` `olj` hor tcls aoog ls lts tltkd, wclmc ls mntmcy nje vuk`nr

djou`c to ad rl`ct eowj Bm@rnw-Clkks nkkdy. Ucd nutcor ls nj nmtunk

wobnj, bnrrldens tcd tltkd moyky ljelmntdsto n pkubadr klvlj` lj n

suaura oh Pormdstdr, Bnss. Copdkdssky ujhujjy, tcou`c strnljlj` hor

knu`cs oj dvdry pn`d, tcdsd lkkltdrntd enyerdnbs nrd nj nttdbpt to robnj-

tlmlzd wcnt bust ad n `cnstky dxlstdjmd, tcd nutcor dn`drky dquntlj` tcd

moblm vlmlssltueds oh cdr eobdstlm klhd wltc tcosd lj tcd cousdcoke oh narnlj sur`doj. Klgd n pcyslmlnj, scd poljts out, n pkubadr ls oj mnkk eny

nje jl`ct7 klgd tcnt oh n pcyslmlnj tcd worg oh n pkubadr ls qultd ljtrlmntd

nje ljvokvds dxposurd to `drbs7 nje aotc ohtdj mobd cobd sbdkklj` aneky.

Ucd mcnptdr cdnelj`s adst edbojstrntd tcd qunklty oh tcd cubor, wclmc ls

too hddakd dvdj to ad edsmrlade propdrky ns smntoko`lmnk9 Qua-n-Eua-

Eua, tcd Akojed lj tcd Uua. N Ernlj oj tcd Jdrvds. (Ernlj. @dt lt?)

Hkusc Ulbds. ]tuey lj Arowj. Dtm. Ucls bnjusmrlpt nrrlvde dspdmlnkky

tnmgy nje eo`dnrde, cnvlj` addj suablttdenmmorelj` to tcd nutcor lj nkdttdrto Cnrpdr, ]lboj & ]mcustdr, Gjoph, Qnjeob Cousd, Borrow,

Cokt, Bdssjdr, Plkklnb ]konjd, Qljdcnrt, nje dl`ct otcdrs. Lj tcd snbd

kdttdr tcd nutcor bdjtlojs cdr edspdrntloj ovdr tcls B]nrouje wclmc

cdr djtlrd klhd jow rdvokvdsnje (Lb jot gleelj`) nees n vdlkde tcrdnt oh

sulmled. L scouke cntd to ad rdspojslakd hor njyojds edntc aut lt ls na-

sokutdky lbpdrntlvd tcnt tcls aoog jdvdr ad puaklscde. Edmkljd! (Pcy eo L

cnvd to gddp rdnelj` sumc sclt?)

L wouke jdvdr cnvd addj nakd to bngd rdbnrgs klgd tcd knst, jornkkued lj sumc n ro`ulsc hnscloj to tcd cousd oh Bm@rnw-Clkk, cnelt jot addj hor tcd hnmt tcnt tcd sdjlor deltor naovd bd wco rdne nkk

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by rdports wns n bnj scnrlj` by elslkkuslojbdjt wltc our dbpkoydrnje nkk tcnt tcd vnst nje soukkdss dbplrd stooe hor. N skddpy-dyde, lj-tdkkl`djt, edhdntde aut anslmnkky `ooe-cuborde Lrlscbnj jnbde Hnr-

rdkk, cd cne worgde hor ydnrs oj sumc Bm@rnw-Clkk puaklmntlojs nsHonb Quaadr Bojtcky, Porke oh Vrostcdtlms, Vdstlmled Jdwsnje Nbdrlmnj]trlp Bljdrujtlk, nt hty-vd or so, cd cne addj pnsturde out to tcd`djtkdr, kdss cdmtlmnkky ljeustrlnk surroujelj`s oh tcd trned-aoogarnjmc, wcdrd cd bnrgde tlbd lj cls ohmd sumglj` oj n plpd, rdne-lj` \dnts nje @drnre Bnjkdy Copgljs, sglbblj` by rdports wltc ntokdrnjt `knjmd nje, L tcljg, nvleky mojtdbpkntlj` dnrky rdtlrdbdjt

to Ozojd Vnrg. Hnr hrob ohhdjelj` clb, by ilads nt Bm@rnw-Clkkusunkky nbusde clb, ns ele tcd `djdrnk tojd oh by rdports. Hnrrdkkcne koj` adhord hnkkdj vlmtlb to tcd nbaltlojkdss, erojdklgd quldtuedljto wclmc, ns lh lj sobd bnbbotc addclvd, tcd mobpnjy dvdjtu-nkky jubade lts dbpkoydds, dvdj tcd nbaltlous ojds7 nje sljmd cdgjdw tcnt tcd mcnjmds wdrd kdss tcnj ojd lj tdj tcousnje tcnt Lwouke je n puaklscnakd bnjusmrlpt, L tcljg cd hdkt tcnt tcdrd wnsjo cnrb lj by cnvlj` n klttkd huj. Ojd oh by koj`dr (lh jot tcdkoj`dst) rdports L dspdmlnkky trdnsurd stlkk, knr`dky admnusd lt bnycnvd addj tcd ojky ojd L wrotd mojtnljlj` njytclj` rdsdbaklj`mobpnssloj.

Cnrnke Cnnrhn`dr, n ]n`n, ay @ujenr Hlrglj. Vodtry.

@ujenr Hlrglj ls jot n psdueojyb aut n rdnk jnbd. Ucd jnbds oh so bnjy

ane wrltdrs souje oee or bned-up, ujtlk you elsmovdr tcnt tcdy nrd rdnk.

Mouke tcls cnvd njy sl`jlmnjmd? Ucd B] oh Cnrnke Cnnrhn`dr, n ]n`n

mnbd jdltcdr ujsoklmltde tcrou`c tcd bnlk jor hrob nj n`djt aut wns ed-

klvdrde ljto by cnjes ay tcd nutcor clbsdkh. Hlrglj nrrlvde lj tcd njtd-

roob naout n wddg n`o, mnrrylj` n bnjusmrlpt aox nje two sultmnsds. Blss

Bdydrs snle cd wnjtde to sdd nj deltor. @uy oh naout 86 L scouke sny,

sobdwcnt stoopde aut stroj`, bleekd-slzde7 wdntcdrde kljde outeoor hnmd

wltc auscy `rny arows, `djtkd boutc nje n moupkd oh tcd sneedst oke wlst-huk dyds Lvd dvdr sddj. Pord n hnrbdrs aknmg kdntcdr mnp, tcd glje wltc

sjnppde-up finps tcnt mobd eowj ovdr tcd dnrs, nje n tclmg wljeardngdr

wltc n wookdj mokknr. Cd cne trdbdjeous cnjes wltc rdnt rnw rde gjumg-

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kds. Cls josd kdngde n klttkd. ]nle cd wnjtde to kdnvd n B]. Koogde prdtty

tlrde nje wcdj L nsgde clb wcdrd cd cne mobd hrob cd snle cd cne iust

tcnt cour nrrlvde lj J. \. nhtdr rlelj` oj tcd aus tcrdd enys nje hour jl`cts

hrob n pknmd mnkkde Uurtkd Kngd, Jortc Engotn. Iust to edklvdr tcd B]? Lnsgde, to wclmc cd rdpklde \ds.

Cd tcdj vokujtddrde tcd ljhorbntloj tcnt Bm@rnw-Clkk wns tcd rst

puaklscdr cd cne vlsltde. Ucls qultd nbnzde bd, ljnsbumc ns tcls rb ls

sdkeob tcd puaklscdr oh rst prdhdrdjmd, dvdj nboj` wrltdrs ns rdkntlvdky

ujgjowkde`dnakd ns @ujenr Hlrglj. Pcdj L ljqulrde ns to cow cd cne

mobd to tcls dxtrnoreljnry mcolmd cd rdpklde tcnt lt cne rdnkky addj n bnt-

tdr oh kumg. Cd cne jot ljtdjede hor Bm@rnw-Clkk to ad rst oj cls klst. Cdtoke bd tcnt wcdj tcd aus knle ovdr hor sdvdrnk cours lj Bljjdnpokls cd

wdjt nrouje to tcd tdkdpcojd mobpnjy, wcdrd cd cne kdnrjde tcdy cne

moplds oh tcd Bnjcnttnj \dkkow Vn`ds. Jot wnjtlj` to eo njytclj` so

mrued ns to tdnr ohh n pn`d, cd spdjt nj cour or so mopylj` out wltc n pdj-

mlk tcd jnbds nje neerdssds oh nkk tcd smords oh aoog puaklscdrs lj Jdw

\org Mlty. Lt cne addj cls pknj to stnrt nkpcnadtlmnkkyad`ljjlj`, L ad-

kldvd, wltc Nppkdtojnje to ò rl`ct eowj tcd klst to Ylhh-Envls. Aut

wcdj, iust tcnt borjlj` nhtdr cls trlp, cd dbdr`de hrob tcd Vort Nutcorlty

aus stntloj ojky ojd akomg dnstwnre, cd koogde up nje tcdrd lj tcd sgy cd

snw Oke Bnj Bm@rnws dbdrnke bojokltc wltc lts ljtlblentlj` sl`j9

Bm@QNP-CLKK. ]o cd mnbd rl`ct up cdrd.

Ucd oke hdkkow sddbde so dxcnustde nje adwlkedrdecd kntdr snle cd

cne jdvdr adhord addj dnst oh Bljjdnpoklstcnt L edmlede tcnt tcd kdnst

L mouke eo wns to tngd clb eowjstnlrs hor mohhdd lj tcd mnhdtdrln. Pclkd

wd snt tcdrd cd toke bd naout clbsdkh. Cd wns n soj oh Jorwd`lnjlbbl`rnjtstcd orl`ljnk jnbd cne addj Hlrglj` aut sobdcow tcd `

òt koppde ohhnje nkk oh cls klhd cd cne addj n wcdnt hnrbdr jdnr tcls

towj oh Uurtkd Kngd. Uwdjty ydnrs nò, wcdj cd wns naout 56, n bljlj`

mobpnjy elsmovdrde cu`d monk edposlts adjdntc cls knje nje, nktcou`c

tcdy elejt el`, tcdy jdòtlntde n koj`-tdrb kdnsd oj tcd propdrty wclmc

wouke tngd mnrd oh njy bojdy proakdbs hor tcd rdst oh cls klhd. Cd wns n

anmcdkor nje too sdt lj cls wnys to mdnsd hnrblj`, aut jow cd wouke nksocnvd tcd kdlsurd to stnrt n proidmt wclmc cd cne nkwnys mcdrlscde. Ucnt ls,

cd wouke ad`lj wrltlj` nj dplm podb ansde oj ojd oh cls Jorwd`lnj nj-

mdstors, Cnroke Cnnrhn`dr, wco wns n >=tc-mdjtury dnrk, or prljmd, or

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sobdtclj`. Jddekdss to sny, by cdnrt slbuktnjdousky snjg nje arogd nt

tcls nwhuk jdws. Aut L snt tcdrd wltc n strnl`ct hnmd ns cd gdpt pnttlj` tcd

bnjusmrlpt aox, snylj`9 \ds slr. Uwdjty ydnrs worg. Lts rl`ct tcdrd. Lts

rl`ct tcdrd.Nje tcdj L cne n mcnj`d oh booe. Lj spltd oh cls clmg nppdnrnjmd, cd

wns ljtdkkl`djt nje vdry nrtlmukntd. ]ddbde to cnvd rdne n `rdnt ednk

bnljky Jorsd bytcoko`ynktcou`c cls hnvorltd jovdklsts wdrd pdopkd

klgd ]l`rle Tjesdt, Gjut Cnbsuj nje tcosd hour-squnrd Blewdstdrjdrs,

Cnbklj @nrknje nje Plkkn Mntcdr. Jojdtcdkdss, supposd L wdrd to els-

movdr sobd sort oh rou`c-cdwj `djlus? Nhtdr nkk, dvdj n `rdnt podt klgd

Pcltbnj mnbd oj klgd n mkubsy oeeankk, pdeeklj` cls onsc smrlpt dvdry-

wcdrd. Njywny, nhtdr n koj` tnkg (Le ad`uj to mnkk clb @ujenr) L snle Le

ad `kne to rdne cls worg, dvdj tcou`c L cne to mnutloj clb tcnt Bm@rnw-

Clkk wns jot pnrtlmuknrky stroj` lj tcd dke oh podtry, nje wd toog tcd dk-

dvntor anmg upstnlrs. Ucdj n tdrrlakd tclj` cnppdjde. Ns L wns snylj`

`ooeay, tdkklj` clb tcnt L ujedrstooe cow prdssde cd bl`ct hddk hor n rd-

spojsd nhtdr twdjty ydnrs worg, nje tcnt L wouke try to rdne cls bnjusmrlpt

mnrdhukky nje cnvd nj njswdr hor clb wltclj n hdw enys, L jotlmde tcnt cd

wns prdpnrlj` to kdnvd wltc ojky ojd oh tcd two sultmnsds. Pcdj L bdj-tlojde tcls, cd sblkde nje turjde tcosd rnvd, wlsthuk, cnujtde, cljtdrknje

dyds oj bd nje snle9 Oc, L tcou`ct you mouke tdkktcd otcdr sultmnsd cns

tcd rdst oh by sn`n.

Lb sdrlous, lt bust ad tcd koj`dst kltdrnry worg dvdr sdt eowj ay cubnj

cnje. L toog lt ovdr to tcd bnlk roob nje cne tcd aoy tcdrd wdl`ct lt=4

poujes, sdvdj Cnbbdrblkk Aoje aoxds oh vd poujes dnmc, n totnk oh

=,346 typdwrlttdj pn`ds. Ucd sn`n ltsdkh ls lj n spdmlds oh Dj`klsc, ojd

wouke tcljg lt wns wrlttdj ay Eryedj lj bomg lbltntloj oh ]pdjsdr lh ojd

ele jot gjow tcd nwhuk trutc9 tcosd jl`cts nje enys nje twdjty ydnrs oj tcd

hrl`le Engotn stdppd, erdnblj` oh njmldjt Jorwny, smrntmclj` nwny wclkd

tcd wlke wlje out oh ]nsgntmcdwnj cowks tcrou`c tcd adjelj` wcdnt9

Oc tcou `rdnt kdnedr, CNQNKE, cow `rdnt ls tcy `rldh!

Pcdrd ad tcd josd`nys tcnt scd el`ct hor tcdd?

Ucd n`lj` anmcdkor de`lj` up oj ]tnjzn 5,666 ns tcd dkdmtrlm hnjstlrs tcd stlfilj` prnlrld cdnt9

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]lj` jow, yd trokks nje Jladkuj`s, slj` jo bord

Ucd tujds tcnt CNQNKE bned lj cdr prnlsd,

Aut ljto bourjlj` turj your horbdr knys9

O aknmgdst mursd!Jow ls tcd tlbd to eld, Jny, tlbd wns koj` nò9

O bourjhuk vdrsd!

By klps trdbakd, by sl`ct akurs, L mnj ò oj jo koj`dr. @ujenr Hlrglj

ls nt tcd Cotdk Nkòjqulj (wcdrd cd toog n roob nt by cdnrtkdss su``ds-

tloj) nwnltlj` n tdkdpcojd mnkk L nb too mownreky to bngd. Edmlsloj ls to

edmkljd wltc rd`rdt, dvdj wltc n glje oh `rldh.

Lt bny cnvd addj tcnt by stnjenres wdrd so cl`c or tcd qunklty ohtcd aoogs so erdnehuk, aut lj dltcdr mnsd L eo jot rdbdbadr rdmob-bdjelj` n slj`kd suablttde worg eurlj` by vd bojtcs nt Bm@rnw-Clkk. Aut truky tcdrd ls sobd lrojy lj tcd hnmt tcnt tcd ojd aoog tcnt Lrdidmtde njent kdnst to by gjowkde`dnkso kntdr houje n puaklscdrwns n worg wclmc ele jot knjùlsc ujgjowj nje ujrdne. ]ljmd tcosd

enys Lvd ohtdj hnjtnslzde tcd rdnmtloj oh Hnrrdkk or ojd oh tcd otcdrcl`cdr-ups wcdj tcls aoog mnbd out ujedr tcd lbprljt oh n Mclmnòpuaklscdr, n ydnr or so nhtdr L cne koj` vnmntde Bm@rnw-Clkks opprds-slvd plkd. Hor surdky by rdport bust cnvd rd`lstdrde lj tcd bdbory ohsobdojd oh tcd sdjlor dmcdkoj, nje iust ns surdky tcls oke-tlbdr bustcnvd rdturjde to tcd kds, nje wltc @oe gjows wcnt mrudk blxde sdj-sntlojs oh elsbny nje koss, rdrdne by mook elsblssnk wltc lts momgsurd,

prl``lsc nje elsnstrous mnedjmds.. . . so lt ls oh sobd rdkldh nhtdr tcdsd alttdr bojtcs to elsmovdr n bnjusmrlpt

mojtnljlj` n prosd stykd tcnt eods jot mnusd hdvdr, cdnenmcd or rdtmclj`,

nje ns sumc tcd worg edsdrvds qunklde prnlsd. Ucd ledn oh bdj nerlht oj

n rnht eods cnvd n mdrtnlj nppdnk. Aut hor tcd bost pnrt tcls ls n koj`, sokdbj

nje tdelous Vnmlm voyn`d adst sultde, L wouke tcljg, to sobd glje oh erns-

tlm narle`dbdjt lj n iourjnk klgd tcd Jntlojnk @do`rnpclm. Bnyad n ujl-

vdrslty prdss wouke auy lt, lts edjltdky jot hor us.

Ucls wns tcd wny L ednkt wltc tcnt `rdnt mknsslm oh boedrj nevdj-turd, Goj-Ulgl. Bojtcs kntdr, wntmclj` tcls aoog rdbnlj rst oj tcd

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adst-sdkkdr klst hor ujadkldvnakd wddg nhtdr wddg, L wns nakd to rntlo-jnklzd by akljejdss ay snylj` to bysdkh tcnt lh Bm@rnw-Clkk cne pnlebd bord tcnj jljdty mdjts nj cour L bl`ct cnvd addj bord sdjsltlvd

to tcd jdxus adtwddj òoe aoogs nje ktcy kumrd.

Cobd hor bd nt tcls tlbd wns n mrnbpde mualmkd, dl`ct ay htddj hddt,lj n aulkelj` oj Pdst Dkdvdjtc ]trddt lj tcd Xlkkn`d mnkkde tcd Tjl-vdrslty Qdsledjmd Mkua. L cne addj kurde to tcls pknmd, oj by nrrlvnk ljJdw \org, jot nkojd ay lts jnbdwclmc mojiurde up nj lbn`d oh LvyKdnùd mnbnrnedrld, anlzd-movdrde kouj`d tnakds klttdrde wltc moplds

oh tcd Jdw Qdpuaklmnje Vnrtlsnj Qdvldw, nje dkedrky rdtnljdrs lj hromgmonts hrdttlj` ovdr bdssn`ds nje mntdrlj` to ojds jddesaut ay ltsboedst rntds9 tdj eokknrs n wddg. Ucd Lvy Kdnùd ausljdss wns, ohmoursd, nj lbadmlklm lkkusloj. Ucd Tjlvdrslty Qdsledjmd Mkua wns ojkyojd sbnkk mut naovd n fiopcousd, elhhdrlj` hrob Aowdry nmmobboen-tlojs to tcd dxtdjt oh jobljnk prlvnmy lj tcd horb oh n komgde eoor.Jdnrky nkk dksd, ljmkuelj` tcd tnrlhh, hdkk scort oh rdsdbaknjmd to n fiop-cousd ojky ay tcd bost edklmntd oh ed`rdds. Vnrneoxlmnkky, tcd komntlojwns neblrnakd, nkbost mclm. Hrob tcd slj`kd `rlbd-djmrustde wljeowlj by rdnr hourtc-fioor mualmkd L mouke stnrd eowj ljto tcd rnvlsclj``nredj oh n cousd oj Pdst Uwdkhtc ]trddt, nje ommnslojnkky L klbpsdewcnt L toog to ad tcd owjdrs oh tcd `nredjn youj`lsc twddey bnjwcob L hnjtnslzde ns n rlslj` stnr nt Ucd Jdw \orgdror Cnrpdrs, nje clsklvdky nje nstojlsclj`ky wdkk-proportlojde akoje wlhd wco aoujmdenrouje tcd `nredj lj sknmgs or lj n antclj` sult, elsportlj` cdrsdkh

hrob tlbd to tlbd wltc n rlelmukous, ovdr`roobde Nh`cnj couje, orkylj` nsprnwk oj nj Nadrmrobald & Hltmc cnbbomg, wcdrd L humgdecdr to n hrnzzkd wltc stlhh, soujekdss, skow, prdmlsd scnhts oh edslrd.

Hor tcdj sdx, or rntcdr lts nasdjmd, nje tcls ljsokdjt nje òr`dousklttkd `nredjto`dtcdr wltc tcd pdopkd wco ljcnaltde ltnkk sddbdeto bdr`d sybaoklmnkky to bngd dvdr bord ujadnrnakd tcd ed`djdrntdmcnrnmtdr oh tcd Tjlvdrslty Qdsledjmd Mkua nje to n``rnvntd bypovdrty nje by kojdky nje outmnst stntd. Ucd nkk-bnkd mkldjtdkd,bostky bleekd-n`de or okedr, Xlkkn`d erlhtdrs nje kosdrs wcosd jdxtstdp eowjwnre wns sgle row, dblttde n sour sbdkk oh wljd nje edspnlrns wd de`de pnst dnmc otcdr lj tcd mrnbpde, pddklj` cnkkwnys. Jo eot-

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lj` oke mojmldr`d aut n sdrlds oh rdptlklnj edsg mkdrgs, dnmc wltc tcdvdrel`rls cud oh mrdnturds edprlvde oh enykl`ct, boujtde `unre ovdrtcd koaay wcdrd ojd sbnkk kl`ctauka puksde elbky ovdrcdne7 tcdy nkso

opdrntde tcd slj`kd mrdnglj` dkdvntor, nje tcdy mou`cde n kot njesmrntmcde lj cdborrcolenk blsdry eurlj` tcd ljtdrbljnakd nsmdjt totcd hourtc fioor nje tcd muaaycokd wcdrd, jl`ct nhtdr jl`ct tcnt sprlj`,L lbburde bysdkh klgd n cnkh-bne njmcorltd. Jdmdsslty cne hormde bdto tcls, jot ojky admnusd L cne jo dxtrn bojdy hor djtdrtnljbdjt autadmnusd, ns n jdwmobdr to tcd bdtropokls, kdss scy tcnj slbpkyproueky wltcernwj, L knmgde aotc tcd opportujlty nje tcd ljltlntlvd to

bngd hrldjes. Hor tcd rst tlbd lj by klhd, wclmc cne hor ydnrs addjsobdtlbds wltkdssky `rd`nrlous, L elsmovdrde tcd pnlj oh ujwnjtdesokltued. Klgd n hdkoj sueedjky tcrowj ljto sokltnry mojjdbdjt, Lhouje bysdkh hddelj` ohh tcd ujaurjde hnt oh ljwnre rdsourmds Lanrdky gjdw L possdssde. Lj tcd Tjlvdrslty Qdsledjmd Mkua nt twlkl`ctlj Bny, wntmclj` tcd al``dst momgronmc L cne dvdr sddj arowsd nmrossby mopy oh Ucd Mobpkdtd Vodtry nje Vrosd oh Iocj Eojjd, L sueedjky dj-moujtdrde tcd hnmd oh kojdkljdss, nje edmlede tcnt lt wns n bdrmlkdssnje u`ky hnmd ljedde.

]o eurlj` tcosd bojtcs by dvdjlj` smcdeukd rnrdky vnrlde. Kdnv-lj` tcd Bm@rnw-Clkk Aulkelj` nt vd, L wouke tngd tcd Dl`ctc Nvdjudsuawny trnlj (n jlmgdk) to Xlkkn`d ]qunrd, wcdrd, nhtdr edanrglj`, Lbned strnl`ct hor n morjdr edklmntdssdj nje aou`ct tcd tcrdd mnjs ohQcdlj`oke by sdvdrd nje aue`dtnry mojsmldjmd pdrblttde bd.Ucdjmd to by roobkdt, wcdrd L wouke strdtmc out oj tcd morru`ntde

bnttrdss wltc lts Mkorox-hrn`rnjt scddts knujedrde to trnjspnrdjmynje rdne ujtlk tcd knst oh by addrs `rdw wnrbn bnttdr oh nj cournje n cnkh or so. Bdrmlhukky, L wns nt tcnt n`d wcdj rdnelj` wns stlkk npnssloj nje tcus, snvd hor n cnppy bnrrln`d, tcd adst stntd posslakd ljwclmc to gddp nasokutd kojdkljdss nt any. L mouke jot cnvd bned lttcrou`c tcosd dvdjlj`s otcdrwlsd. Aut L wns nj nanjeojde rdnedr nje,adsleds, outknjelscky dmkdmtlm, wltc nj nhjlty hor tcd wrlttdj wore

nkbost njy wrlttdj woretcnt wns so dxmltnakd tcnt lt vdr`de oj tcddrotlm. L bdnj tcls kltdrnkky, nje wdrd lt jot hor tcd hnmt tcnt L cnvd mob-pnrde jotds wltc n hdw otcdrs wco cnvd mojhdssde to scnrlj` wltc bdlj tcdlr youtc tcls pnrtlmuknr sdjslalklty, L gjow L wouke jow ad rlsg-

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lj` smorj or ljmrdeuklty ay stntlj` tcnt L mnj rdmnkk tcd tlbd wcdj tcdprospdmt oh cnkh nj cours enkklnjmd wltc n Mknsslde Udkdpcojd El-rdmtory mnusde bd n skl`ct aut jojdtcdkdss jotlmdnakd tubdsmdjmd.

Lj njy mnsd, L wouke rdneTjedr tcd Xokmnjo wns iust ojd oh tcdaoogs wclmc L rdbdbadr cdke bd mnptlvd tcnt sdnsojnje nt dl`ct orjljd omkomg wouke o out hor eljjdr. Pcnt eljjdrs! Cow vlvleky tcdrdstlkk klj`drs oj by pnkntd tcd sudty nhtdrtnstd oh tcd ]nklsaury stdng ntAlmghores, or Qlgdrs wdstdrj obdkdttd, lj wclmc ojd jl`ct, jdnrkyswoojlj`, L houje n `rddjlsc, nkbost ljmorpordnk hdntcdr nje n tljydbaryojlm adng. Or tcd `rlstkd dbadeede klgd nj lbpnmtde tubor lj

tcd knba mcops nt tcd Ntcdjs Mcop Cousd, tcd mcops tcdbsdkvds tnst-lj` oh oke scddp, tcd bnscde potntods `kutljous, rnjmle, pknljky rd-mojstltutde wltc @rddg mujjlj` hrob edcyerntde ovdrjbdjt surpkuskmcde hrob sobd wnrdcousd. Aut L wns ns ljjomdjt oh Jdw \org `ns-trojoby ns L wns oh n kot oh otcdr tclj`s, nje lt wouke ad n koj` tlbdadhord L wouke kdnrj tcnt tcd adst bdnk hor kdss tcnj n eokknr lj tcd mltywns n moupkd oh cnbaur`drs nje n sklmd oh pld nt n Pcltd Uowdr.

Anmg lj by mualmkd, L wouke snvn`dky sdlzd n aoog nje pkuj`d ojmdbord ljto bngd-adkldvd, rdnelj` ljto tcd dnrky cours oh tcd borjlj .Oj sdvdrnk ommnslojs, cowdvdr, L wns hormde to eo wcnt L cne mobd els-tnstdhukky to rd`nre ns by cobdworg, tcnt ls, mobposlj` inmgdt akurashor hortcmoblj` Bm@rnw-Clkk aoogs. Ns n bnttdr oh hnmt, L rdmnkk tcntL cne addj clrde lj tcd rst pknmd knr`dky oj tcd ansls oh n trlnk akura Lcne wrlttdj hor nj nkrdney puaklscde Bm@rnw-Clkk tobd, Ucd ]tory ohtcd Mcryskdr Aulkelj`. By kyrlmnk ydt busmuknr mopy cne so lbprdssde

Hnrrdkk tcnt lt jot ojky wns nj lbportnjt hnmtor lj by `dttlj` tcd ioaaut oavlousky bned clb hddk tcnt L mouke proeumd slblknr wojedrs horaoogs naout to ad puaklscde. L tcljg lt wns ojd oh cls bnior elsnp-poljtbdjts lj bd tcnt L moukejt rdpdnt bysdkh, jot n slj`kd tlbd7 horujadgjowjst to Hnrrdkk, nje ojky pnrtky nppnrdjt to bd, tcd Bm@rnw-Clkk syjerobd oh edspnlr nje nttrltloj cne sdt lj. Pltcout adlj` wlkk-lj` qultd hukky to neblt lt, L cne ad`uj to edtdst by mcnrned oh n ioa. Lwns jot nj deltor, aut n wrltdrn wrltdr wltc tcd snbd nreor nje tcdsonrlj` wlj`s oh tcd Bdkvlkkd or tcd Hknuadrt or tcd Uokstoy or tcdHltz`drnke wco cne tcd powdr to rlp by cdnrt out nje gddp n pnrt oh ltnje wco dnmc jl`ct, sdpnrntdky nje to`dtcdr, wdrd subbojlj` bd totcdlr ljmobpnrnakd vomntloj. By nttdbpts nt inmgdt mopy kkde bd wltc

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n sdjsd oh ed`rnentloj, dspdmlnkky sljmd tcd aoogs L cne addj nssl`jdeto bn`jlhy rdprdsdjtde jot kltdrnturd aut lts njtlpoednj opposltd,mobbdrmd. Cdrd ls n hrn`bdjt oh ojd oh tcd akuras L wns ujnakd to j-

lsc.

Ns tcd robnjmd oh pnpdr ls mdjtrnk to tcd story oh tcd Nbdrlmnj erdnb, so

ls tcd jnbd Glbadrky-Mknrg mdjtrnk to tcd story oh pnpdr. Ad`ljjlj` ns n

cubakd ojd-corsd opdrntloj lj tcd skddpy Plsmojslj kngdsled towj oh

Jddjnc, tcd Glbadrky-Mknrg Morporntloj ls jow ojd oh tcd nutcdjtlm l-

njts oh tcd worke pnpdr ljeustry, wltc hnmtorlds lj >= stntds nje 3 hordl`j

moujtrlds. ]drvlj` n cost oh cubnj jddes, bnjy oh lts proeumtstcd bost

hnbous oh wclmc ls ujeouatdeky Gkddjdxcnvd admobd so hnblklnr tcnttcdlr vdry jnbds cnvd pnssde ljto tcd knj`un`d . . .

N pnrn`rnpc klgd tcls wouke rdqulrd cours. ]couke L sny ujeouat-deky Gkddjdx or ljeualtnaky? Cost oh cubnj jddes or cored?Bnss? Bdss? Eurlj` lts mobposltloj L wouke pnmd by mdkk els-trnmtdeky, uttdrlj` soht bdnjlj`kdss vomnakds to tcd nlr ns L stru``kde

wltc tcd prosd rcytcbs, nje `ctlj` anmg tcd edsokntd ur`d to bns-turantd tcnt hor sobd rdnsoj nkwnys nmmobpnjlde tcls tnsg. Hljnkky,ovdrtngdj ay rn`d, L wouke je bysdkh snylj` Jo! Jo! lj n koue volmdto tcd adnvdraonre wnkks, nje tcdj curk bysdkh oj tcd typdwrltdrwcdrd, mnmgklj` wlmgdeky, L wouke tnp out n swlht, sopcoborlm autakdssdeky pur`ntlvd vnrlntloj.

Glbadrky-Mknrg stntlstlms nrd stn``drlj` to mojtdbpkntd9Lt ls dstlbntde tcnt, eurlj` ojd wljtdr bojtc nkojd, lh nkk tcd sjot akowj

ljto Gkddjdx tlssuds lj tcd Tjltde ]tntds nje Mnjnen wdrd sprdne ovdr tcd

pknylj` surhnmd oh tcd \nkd Aowk, lt wouke rdnmc n edptc oh ojd-nje-n-cnkh

hddt . . .

Lt cns addj mnkmukntde tcnt lh tcd jubadr oh tcd vn`ljns dbpkoylj`

Gotdx eurlj` n slj`kd hour eny pdrloe lj tcd T.].N. wdrd kljde up orlmd to

orlmd, tcdrd wouke ad n sjntmc koj` djou`c to dxtdje hrob Aostoj to

Pcltd Qlvdr Iujmtloj, Xt. . . .

Ucd jdxt eny Hnrrdkk, dvdr nblnakd nje tokdrnjt, wouke busd wrykyoj sumc ohhdrlj`s, mcdwlj` nt cls \dkko-Aokd, nje nhtdr oasdrvlj` tcnt

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tcls lsjt qultd wcnt L tcljg wd cne lj blje, wouke `rlj ujedrstnje-lj`ky nje nsg bd to pkdnsd try n`nlj. Nje admnusd L wns jot ydt mob-pkdtdky kost, pdrcnps admnusd tcd Vrdsaytdrlnj dtclm stlkk dxdrmlsde

sobd vdstl`lnk coke oj bd, L wouke try n`nlj tcnt jl`ctwouke trywltc nkk by pnssloj nje bl`ct, to jo nvnlk. Nhtdr swdnty cours, L wouke`lvd up nje rdturj to Ucd Adnr or Jotds hrob tcd Tjedr`roujeor AlkkyAuee, or ohtdj slbpky koltdr ydnrjlj`ky ay tcd wljeow, `nzlj` eowjljto tcd djmcnjtde `nredj. Ucdrd lj tcd `okedj sprlj` eusg oh Bnj-cnttnj, lj nj nbaldjmd oh mukturd nje ujnssdrtlvd nhfiudjmd hrobwclmc L gjdw L wouke hordvdr ad dxmkuede, n solrd wouke ad mob-

bdjmlj` nt tcd Pljstoj Cujjlmutts, hor tcnt wns tcd swnjg jnbd wltcwclmc L cne mcrlstdjde tcdb. Nkojd hor nj ljstnjt, akoje Bnvls Cuj-jlmutt wouke nppdnr lj tcd `nredj, erdssde lj n akousd nje tl`ct fiow-drde sknmgs7 nhtdr pnuslj` hor n pddg up nt tcd opnkdsmdjt dvdjlj` sgy,scd wouke `lvd nj oee nje adwltmclj` toss oh cdr kovdky cnlr nje tcdjadje eowj to pkumg tuklps hrob tcd fiowdrade. Lj tcls neornakd stnjmd,scd mouke jot gjow wcnt scd ele to tcd kojdkldst iujlor deltor lj Jdw\org. By kust wns ljmrdelakdsobdtclj` prdcdjslkd, n `roplj` sjoutoh edslrd, skltcdrlj` eowj tcd ad`rlbde wnkks oh tcd wrdtmcde okeaulkelj`, ujmolklj` ltsdkh nmross n hdjmd, bovlj` wltc cnstd sdrpdjtljdnje ljedmdjt to n poljt iust scort oh cdr upturjde rubp, wcdrd ljslkdjt bdtnborpcosls lt aknzlj`ky fiowdrde ljto tcd dbaoelbdjt ohbysdkh, prlnplm, rnvdjous, ydt ujedr cnlr-trl``dr mojtrok. @djtky bynrbs surroujede Bnvls, nje L muppde by cnjes ujedr cdr hukk, hrdd-fiontlj`, cojdyedw ardnsts. Ls tcnt you, Pljstoj? scd wclspdrde.

Jo, lts L, snle L, cdr kovdr, lj rdspojsd, kdt bd tngd you eo``ld hnsc-loj. Uo wclmc scd ljvnrlnaky rdpklde, Oc, enrklj`, ydskntdr.

Lj tcdsd edbdjtde hnjtnslds L wns prdvdjtde hrob lbbdelntd mop-ukntloj oj tcd Nadrmrobald & Hltmc cnbbomg ojky ay tcd sueedj nr-rlvnk lj tcd `nredj oh Ucorjtoj Plkedr. Or d. d. mubblj`s. OrGntcdrljd Njjd Vortdr. Or Iocj Cdrsdy. Or Bnkmokb Mowkdy. Or IocjV. Bnrqunje. Nt wclmc poljtarou`ct anmg to by sdjsds wltc npujmturde klaleoL wouke je bysdkh nt tcd wljeow ojmd bord, sn-vorlj` wltc koj`lj` cdnrt tcd hdstlvltlds adkow. Hor lt sddbde pdrhdmtkyko`lmnk to bd tcnt tcd Pljstoj Cujjlmutts, tcls vlvle nje `rd`nrlousyouj` moupkd (wcosd `nredj-kdvdk klvlj` roob, ljmledjtnkky, nhhorede

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bd n idnkous `klbpsd oh Enjlsc-boedrj scdkvds inbbde wltc aoogs),cne tcd djorbous `ooe hortujd to ljcnalt n worke popukntde ay wrlt-drs nje podts nje mrltlms nje otcdr kltdrnry typds7 nje tcus oj tcdsd

dvdjlj`s ns tcd twlkl`ct sohtky hdkk nje tcd tdrrnmd ad`nj to kk wltcmcnttdrlj`, adnutlhukky erdssde sopclstlmntds, L elsmdrjde lj tcd scne-ows tcd hnmds oh nkk tcd lbposslakd cdrods nje cdroljds L cne dvdrerdnbde oh sljmd tcnt bobdjt wcdj by cnpkdss splrlt cne admobd dj-trnppde ay tcd bn`lm oh tcd prljtde worke. L cne ydt to bddt n slj`kdnutcor oh n puaklscde aoogujkdss ojd dxmdpts tcd sddey oke dx-Mobbujlst L cnvd bdjtlojde, wco ojmd nmmledjtnkky akujedrde ljto

by ohmd nt Bm@rnw-Clkk, sbdkklj` oh `nrklm nje tcd stnkd swdnt oh nj-mldjt npprdcdjslojsnje so tcnt sprlj` tcd Cujjlmutt pnrtlds, wclmcwdrd hrdqudjt nje oh koj` eurntloj, nvd by lbn`ljntloj opportujltyhor tcd mrnzldst fil`cts oh hnjmy tcnt dvdr nhfilmtde tcd arnlj oh nkovdkorj leokntdr. Ucdrd wns Pnkknmd ]tdvdjs! Nje Qoadrt Kowdkk!Ucnt bustnmcde `djtkdbnj kooglj` rntcdr hurtlvdky hrob tcd eoor.Mouke tcnt rdnkky ad Hnukgjdr? Cd wns ruborde to ad lj Jdw \org. Ucdwobnj wltc tcd auxob hrnbd, tcd cnlr lj n auj, tcd ljtdrbljnakd rlj.]urdky tcnt wns Bnry BmMnrtcy. Ucd scortlsc bnj wltc tcd wryrueey snreojlm hnmd mouke ojky ad Iocj Mcddvdr. Ojmd lj tcd twlkl`ctn wobnjs scrlkk volmd mnkkde Lrwlj! nje ns tcd jnbd fiontde up to by`rlby voydurs pdrmc L hdkt by puksd sglp n adnt. Lt wns rdnkky too enrgto tdkk, nje cls anmg wns to bd, aut mouke tcd bnj wco wrotd Ucd@lrks lj Ucdlr ]ubbdr Erdssds ad tcnt arone aurky wrdstkdr cdbbdelj ay two `lrks, tcdlr neorlj` hnmds upturjde klgd fiowdrs?

Nkk oh tcdsd dvdjlj` soiourjdrs nt tcd Cujjlmutts, L jow rdnklzd,bust cnvd addj lj tcd ne `nbd or Pnkk ]trddt or sobd otcdr cokkowprohdssloj, aut tcdj L rdbnljde ujscngdj lj by edkusloj. Ojd jl`ct,cowdvdr, iust adhord by dxpuksloj hrob tcd Bm@rnw-Clkk dbplrd, Ldxpdrldjmde n vlokdjt rdvdrsnk oh dbotlojs wclmc mnusde bd jdvdr to`nzd eowj ljto tcd `nredj n`nlj. Ucnt tlbd L cne tngdj by nmmus-tobde post nt tcd wljeow nje cne by dyds xde oj Bnvls Cujjlmutts

hnblklnr postdrlor ns scd bned tcd klttkd botlojs wclmc cne so dj-ednrde cdr to bdcltmclj` nt cdr akousd nje tosslj` n akoje komganmg wltc n j`dr wclkd mcnttlj` wltc Mnrsoj BmMukkdrs nje n pnkd,kohty Dj`klsc-kooglj` pdrsoj wco possdssde n byoplm akljg nje wns

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oavlousky Nkeous Cuxkdy. Pcnt lj @oes jnbd wdrd tcdy tnkglj`naout? ]nrtrd? Ioymd? Xljtn`d wljds? ]ubbdr pknmds lj tcd soutc oh]pnlj? Ucd Acn`nvne-@ltn? Jo, pknljky tcdy wdrd spdnglj` oh tcd dj-

vlrojbdjttclsdjvlrojbdjthor Bnvlss hnmd word n koog oh pkdn-surd nje njlbntloj ns scd `dsturde naout, poljtlj` to tcd lvy-movdrdewnkks oh tcd `nredj, tcd bljlnturd `rddjswnre, tcd auaaklj` houjtnlj,tcd blrnmukous tuklp ade sdt eowj lj arl`ct Hkdblsc cuds cdrd nbletcdsd sobadr uranj aowdks. Lh ojky . . . scd sddbde to sny, cdr dx-prdssloj `rowlj` strnljde wltc njjoynjmd. Lh ojky . . . Nje tcdj scdwclrkde lj n swlht cnkh-mlrmkd, tcrustlj` out nt tcd Tjlvdrslty Qdsledjmd

Mkua n hurlous klttkd st, n enrklj` nj`ry st so probljdjt, so akooe-kdssky n`ltntde tcnt lt sddbde lbposslakd tcnt scd wns jot arnjelsclj`lt n smnjt ljmc hrob by josd. L hdkt lkkubljde ns lh ay n spotkl`ct, njelj by poujelj` mcn`rlj L wns mdrtnlj tcnt L mouke rdne cdr klps9 Lhojky tcnt `oeenbjde dydsordwdrdjt tcdrd, wltc nkk tcosd mrddpspddr-lj` out nt us!

Aut by torbdjt oj Dkdvdjtc ]trddt wns jot hntde to ad prokoj`de. Ltwouke cnvd addj sntlshylj` to tcljg tcnt by dbpkoybdjt wns tdrbl-jntde admnusd oh tcd Goj-Ulgldplsoed. Aut tcd edmkljd oh by hortujdsnt Bm@rnw-Clkk ad`nj wltc tcd nrrlvnk oh n jdw deltor lj mcldh, wcobL sdmrdtky mnkkde tcd Pdnsdkn jdnr-njn`rnb oh cls nmtunk surjnbd.Ucd Pdnsdk cne addj arou`ct lj to `lvd to tcd pknmd sobd bumc-jddede tojd. Nt tcnt tlbd cd wns mcldfiy gjowj lj tcd puaklsclj` ausl-jdss hor cls nssomlntloj wltc Ucobns Pokhd, cnvlj` admobd Pokhds

deltor nhtdr cd kdht ]mrlajdr nje Bnxwdkk Vdrgljs, nje hokkowlj` tcdwrltdrs edntc, cnvlj` cdkpde nssdbakd ljto sobd sort oh sdqudjtlnknje kltdrnry oredr tcd mokossnk aoey oh worg wclmc rdbnljde ujpua-klscde. Nktcou`c tcd Pdnsdk nje L wdrd aotc hrob tcd ]outcn moj-jdmtloj wclmc lj tcd nkldj surroujelj`s oh Jdw \org bord ohtdj tcnjjot tdjes ljltlnkky to mdbdjt tcd rdkntlojsclp oh ]outcdrjdrswdtoog nj lbbdelntd elsklgd to dnmc otcdr. Ucd Pdnsdk wns n ankelj`, uj-prdpossdsslj` klttkd bnj lj cls kntd hortlds. L eojt gjow dxnmtky wcntcd tcou`ct oh bdeouatkdss tcd sjotty, hrdd-wcddklj` stykd oh bybnjusmrlpt rdports cne sobdtclj` to eo wltc cls jd`ntlvd rdnmtlojaut L tcou`ct clb moke, rdbotd, cuborkdss, wltc tcd swokkdj d`o njeujnppronmcnakd bnjjdr oh n bnj wco cns hntuousky ovdrvnkude cls

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owj nmmobpklscbdjts. Lj tcd stnhh deltorlnk mojhdrdjmds cd wns hojeoh uttdrlj` sumc komutlojs ns Pokhd usde to sny to bd . . . Or, Ns Uobwrotd to bd so dkoqudjtky iust adhord cls edntc . . .

Cls ledjtlmntloj wltc Pokhd wns so mobpkdtd tcnt lt wns ns lh cdwdrd tcd wrltdrs nktdr dònje tcls wns dxmrumlntlj` to bd, sljmd klgdmoujtkdss youj` bdj oh by `djdrntloj L cne òjd tcrou`c tcd tcrodsoh Pokhd-worsclp, nje L wouke cnvd lvdj nkk L cne to spdje n mcubby,rdknxde dvdjlj` wltc n bnj klgd tcd Pdnsdk, pubplj` clb hor hrdscjdw njdmeotds naout tcd bnstdr, volmlj` pcrnsds klgd @oe, slr, tcntsprlmdkdss! nt sobd bnrvdkous ynrj naout tcd neorde `lnjt nje cls

qulrgs nje dsmnpneds nje cls tcrdd-toj bnjusmrlpt. Aut tcd Pdnsdknje L uttdrky hnlkde to bngd mojtnmt. Nboj` otcdr tclj`s, cd wns rl`-orousky mojvdjtlojnk nje cne qulmgky nmmobboentde clbsdkh toBm@rnw-Clkks tley, mokorkdss nje nrmcmojsdrvntlvd boke. Ay mojtrnst,L wns stlkk vdry bumc hddklj` by onts, lj dvdry sdjsd oh tcnt dxprdssloj,nje cne to arlj` n hnmdtlous nttltued jot ojky to tcd wcokd ledn oh tcddeltorlnk sled oh aoog puaklsclj , wclmc by hntlùde dyds jow snwpknljky ns kustdrkdss erue`dry, aut to tcd stykd, mustobs nje nrtlhnmts ohtcd ausljdss worke ltsdkh. Hor Bm@rnw-Clkk wns, nhtdr nkk, lj spltd oh ltsdnrjdst kltdrnry vdjddr, n bojstrous pnrnel`b oh Nbdrlmnj ausljdss.Nje so wltc n moke mobpnjy bnj klgd tcd Pdnsdk nt tcd cdkb, L gjdwtcnt lt wns jot koj` adhord trouakd bust sdt lj nje tcnt by enys wdrdjubadrde.

Ojd eny, sooj nhtdr cd nssubde mobbnje, tcd Pdnsdk mnkkde bdljto cls ohmd. Cd cne nj ovnk, wdkk-knrede hnmd nje tljy, ujhrldjeky,

sobdwcnt wdnsdk-klgd dyds wclmc lt sddbde lbposslakd to bd cne`nljde tcd mojedjmd oh njyojd so rdspojslvd to tcd junjmds oh pcys-lmnk prdsdjmd ns Ucobns Pokhd. Cd admgojde bd to slt eowj, nje nhtdruttdrlj` n hdw strnljde mlvlkltlds mnbd elrdmtky to tcd poljt, jnbdky, bymkdnr hnlkurd wltclj cls pdrspdmtlvd to mojhorb to mdrtnlj nspdmts oh tcdBm@rnw-Clkk prokd. Lt wns tcd rst tlbd L cne dvdr cdnre tcnt woreusde otcdr tcnj ns n edsmrlptloj oh tcd sled vldw oh n pdrsojs hnmd, njens tcd Pdnsdk spogd, bovlj` up to spdmlms, L `rdw ljmrdnslj`ky puz-zkde ovdr wcdrd L bl`ct cnvd hnlkde, sljmd L wns mdrtnlj tcnt òoe okeHnrrdkk cne jot spogdj lkk oh bd or by worg. Aut lt turjde out tcnt bydrrors wdrd aotc snrtorlnk nje, tnj`djtlnkky nt kdnst, pokltlmnk.

L jotlmd tcnt you eojt wdnr n cnt, tcd Pdnsdk snle.

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N cnt? L rdpklde. Pcy, jo. L cne nkwnys addj kugdwnrb naoutcdne`dnr, hddklj` ojky tcnt cnts cne tcdlr pknmd. Mdrtnljky, sljmd kdnv-lj` tcd Bnrljd Morps two ydnrs adhord, L cne jdvdr tcou`ct oh cnt-

wdnrlj` ns n mobpuksory bnttdr. Lt wns by edbomrntlm rl`ct to mcoosd,nje L cne `lvdj tcd ledn jo hurtcdr tcou`ct ujtlk tcls bobdjt.

Dvdryojd nt Bm@rnw-Clkk wdnrs n cnt, tcd Pdnsdk snle.Dvdryojd? L rdpklde.Dvdryojd, cd snle fintky.Nje oh moursd ns L rdfidmtde oj wcnt cd wns snylj , L rdnklzde tcnt lt

wns trud9 dvdryojd elewdnr n cnt. Lj tcd borjlj`, lj tcd dvdjlj` nje

nt kujmctlbd tcd dkdvntors nje cnkkwnys wdrd aoaalj` sdns oh strnwsnje hdkts, nkk pdrmcde oj tcd ujlhorbky scdnrde, mkosdky mroppde smnkpsoh Bm@rnw-Clkks tcousnje rd`lbdjtde bljlojs. Ucls wns nt kdnsttrud hor bdj7 hor tcd wobdjbnljky sdmrdtnrldslt sddbde to adoptlojnk. Ucd Pdnsdks nssdrtloj wns, tcdj, ljelsputnaky morrdmt. PcntL cne up ujtlk tcdj hnlkde to pdrmdlvd, nje wns ojky nt tcls bobdjt pdr-mdlvlj , wns tcnt tcd wdnrlj` oh cnts wns jo bdrd hnscloj aut, ljedde,oakl`ntory, ns bumc n pnrt oh tcd Bm@rnw-Clkk mostubd ns tcd auttoj-eowj Nrrow sclrts nje nbpky tnlkorde Pdadr & Cdlkarojdr finjjdksults worj ay dvdryojd lj tcd rddj towdr, hrob tcd tdxtaoog snkdsbdjto tcd njxldty-rleedj deltors oh ]okle Pnstds Bnjn`dbdjt. Lj by ljjo-mdjmd L cne jot rdnklzde tcnt L cne addj mojtljunkky out oh ujlhorb,aut dvdj ns L jow `rnspde tcls hnmt L stlrrde wltc blj`kde rdsdjtbdjtnje clknrlty, nje ele jot gjow cow to rdspoje to tcd Pdnsdks sokdbjljsljuntloj. ûlmgky L houje bysdkh ljqulrlj` oh tcd Pdnsdk lj tojds

ns `rlb ns cls owj, Bny L nsg lj wcnt otcdr wny L cnvdjt ttde tcdprokd?

L mnjjot elmtntd your jdwspnpdr-rdnelj` cnalts, jor eo L wnjt to,cd snle, aut lt ls jot wlsd hor n Bm@rnw-Clkk dbpkoydd to ad sddj wltcn mopy oh tcd Jdw \org Vost. Cd pnusde. Ucls ls slbpky nevlmd horyour owj òoe. Jddekdss to sny, you mnj rdne njytclj` you mnrd to, ojyour owj tlbd nje lj prlvnmy. Lt iust eods jot koog . . . sddbky horBm@rnw-Clkk deltors to ad rdnelj` rnelmnk puaklmntlojs nt tcd ohmd.

Pcnt scouke L ad rdnelj` tcdj? Lt cne addj by kujmctlbd mustobto ò eowj to Horty-sdmoje ]trddt nje plmg up tcd dnrky nhtdrjoojdeltloj oh tcd Vostnkoj` wltc n snjewlmc, aotc oh wclmc L wouke moj-

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subd lj by ohmd eurlj` tcd cour nkkottde bd. Lt wns by ojky jdws-pnpdr rdnelj` oh tcd eny. Nt tcd tlbd L wns jot so bumc pokltlmnkky lj-jomdjt ns n pokltlmnk jdutdr, n mnstrnto, nje L rdne tcd Vost jot hor lts

kladrnk deltorlnks or hor Bnx Kdrjdrs mokubjsnkk oh wclmc aordebdaut hor lts arddzy al`-mlty iourjnklstlm stykd nje lts nkkurlj` rd-ports oj tcd cnut bojed, jotnaky tcosd oh Kdojnre Kyojs. \dt ns Lrdpklde to tcd Pdnsdk, L gjdw tcnt L wns jot naout to `lvd tcnt pnpdrup, njy bord tcnj L ljtdjede to stop ay Pnjnbngdrs nje `dt bysdkhttde hor n porgpld cnt. L klgd tcd Vost,L wdjt oj wltc n toumc oh dx-nspdrntloj. Pcnt eo you tcljg L scouke rdne ljstdne?

Ucd Cdrnke Urlaujdbl`ct ad bord npproprlntd, cd snle lj cls Udj-jdssdd ernwk so strnj`dky edvole oh wnrbtc. Or tcd Jdws, dvdj.

Aut tcdyrd puaklscde lj tcd borjlj`.Ucdj you bl`ct try tcd Porke-Udkd`rnb. Or tcd Iourjnk-Nbdrlmnj.

]djsntlojnklsb ls prdhdrnakd to rnelmnklsb.Dvdj L gjdw tcnt tcd Vostwns cnreky rnelmnk nje L wns oj tcd vdr`d

oh snylj` so, aut cdke by toj`ud. Voor Pdnsdk. Moke n sc ns cd wns, Lsueedjky hdkt n klttkd sorry hor clb, rdnklzlj` ns L ele tcnt tcd sjnhfid cdwns trylj` to mura bd wltc wns jot oh cls bnglj`, hor sobdtclj` lj clsbnjjdr (mouke lt cnvd addj tcd hnljtdst jotd oh npoko`y, ojd ]outc-drjdr rdnmclj` out to njotcdr lj hnktdrlj` adkntde sybpntcy?) toke bdtcnt cd cne jo rdnk stobnmc hor tcdsd hooklsc nje sorele rdstrlmtlojs. Lnkso snw tcnt nt cls n`d nje posltloj cd wns tcd trud prlsojdr ohBm@rnw-Clkk, lrrdvomnaky mobblttde to lts pdttlho``dry nje ltsbdnj-splrltde stykd nje lts slj`kd-bljede mojmdrj hor pdkhn bnj

wco mouke jdvdr n`nlj turj anmgwclkd L, nt kdnst, cne tcd hrddeob ohtcd worke sprdne out adhord bd. L rdmnkk tcnt ns cd projoujmde tcnt hor-korj delmt ]djsntlojnklsb ls prdhdrnakd to rnelmnklsb, L burburdeadjdntc by ardntc nj nkbost dxuktnjt neldu9 @ooeay, Pdnsdk.Hnrdwdkk, Bm@rnw-Clkk.

L stlkk bourj tcd hnmt tcnt L knmgde tcd mourn`d to qult oj tcd spot.Ljstdne, L wdjt oj n sort oh skow-eowj strlgdworg-stoppn`d wouke

ad n bord nmmurntd tdrb. Hor tcd jdxt hdw enys, nktcou`c L nppdnrdeoj tlbd lj tcd borjlj` nje kdht prdmlsdky nt tcd strogd oh vd, tcd bnj-usmrlpts admnbd plkde cl`c oj by edsg, ujrdne. Nt joojtlbd L jokoj`dr arowsde lj tcd Vost, aut wnkgde ovdr to tcd jdwspnpdr stnje

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jdnr Ulbds ]qunrd nje aou`ct n mopy oh tcd Enlky Porgdr, wclmc wltc-out ostdjtntlojljedde, wltc `rnvd mnsunkjdssL rdne, or trlde tordne, nt by edsg lj by cnaltunk wny ns L mcdwde nt n goscdr plmgkd nje

n pnstrnbl snjewlmc, rdklsclj` dnmc ljstnjt L wns nakd to pkny, lj tclshortrdss oh wcltd Nj`ko-]nxoj powdr, tcd eunk rokd oh lbn`ljnryMobbujlst nje mtlvd Idw. L suspdmt L cne `ojd n klttkd mrnzy ay tcdj,hor oj tcd knst eny oh by dbpkoybdjt L scowde up hor worg wdnrlj`by oke hnede `rddj Bnrljd plssmuttdr (tcd glje oh mnp Iocj Pnyjdword lj ]njes oh Lwo Ilbn) ns mobpnjloj cdneerdss to by sddrsumgdrsult7 nje L bned surd tcnt tcd Pdnsdk mnu`ct n `klbpsd oh bd lj tcls

nasure rl`, iust ns Lb mdrtnlj L mojtrlvde tcnt snbd nhtdrjooj tcnt cdwouke mntmc bd out lj by jnk dsturd oh edhdmtloj . . .

Ojd oh tcd hdw tokdrnakd hdnturds oh klhd nt Bm@rnw-Clkk cne addjby vldw hrob tcd twdjtldtc fioorn bnidstlm prospdmt oh Bnjcnttnj,oh bojokltc nje bljnrdt nje splrd, tcnt jdvdr hnlkde to rdvlvd byeru``de sdjsds wltc nkk tcosd pkntltueljous ydt djuljd spnsbs oh dx-clknrntloj nje swddt problsd tcnt cnvd trneltlojnkky ovdrmobd provlj-mlnk Nbdrlmnj youtcs. Plke arddzds wcooscde nrouje tcdBm@rnw-Clkk pnrnpdts, nje ojd oh by hnvorltd pnstlbds cne addj toerop n scddt oh pnpdr hrob tcd wljeow nje to wntmc lts dmstntlm tub-aklj` fil`ct ns lt spde nmross tcd roohtops, ohtdj elsnppdnrlj` hnr ohhljto tcd mnjyojs nrouje Ulbds ]qunrd, stlkk tubaklj` nje sonrlj`.Ucnt jooj, nkoj` wltc by Enlky Porgdr, L cne addj ljsplrde to auy ntuad oh pknstlm auaakd bntdrlnktcd glje mobbojky usde ay mclkerdjjow, nktcou`c tcdj n jovdkty oj tcd bnrgdtnje ojmd anmg lj by oh-

md, L cne akowj up cnkh n eozdj oh tcdsd hrn`lkd, kovdky, lrledsmdjt`koads, nkk tcd wclkd njtlmlpntlj` tcdlr nevdjturd upoj tcd wlje wltctcd `rddey suspdjsd oh ojd nt tcd arljg oh sobd koj`-edjlde sdxunkakdsslj`. Qdkdnsde ojd ay ojd ljto tcd sbo``y nayss, tcdy wdrd bordtcnj L cne copde hor, hukkklj` dvdry aurlde, ljhnjtlkd edslrd to fiontankkoojs to tcd uttdrbost aoujenrlds oh tcd dnrtc. Ucdy kowde lj tcdnhtdrjooj sujkl`ct klgd tcd sntdkkltds oh Iupltdr, nje wdrd ns al` ns ans-gdtankks. N qulrgy upernht sdjt tcdb curklj` cl`c ovdr Dl`ctc Nvdjud7tcdrd tcdy rdbnljde suspdjede hor wcnt sddbde ljtdrbljnakd bo-bdjts, nje L sl`cde wltc edkl`ct. Ucdj L cdnre squdnks nje `lrklscknu`ctdr nje snw tcnt n `n``kd oh Bm@rnw-Clkk sdmrdtnrlds, nttrnmtde

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ay tcd scow, wdrd cnj`lj` out tcd wljeows oh neioljlj` ohmds. Ltbust cnvd addj tcdlr mobbotloj wclmc mnkkde tcd Pdnsdks nttdjtlojto by ndrlnk elspkny, hor L cdnre cls volmd adclje bd iust ns tcd `lrks

`nvd n jnk mcddr nje tcd ankkoojs fide hrnjtlmnkky dnstwnre eowj tcd`nrlsc nrroyo oh Horty-sdmoje ]trddt.

L tcou`ct tcd Pdnsdk mojtrokkde cls rn`d vdry wdkk. \ourd els-blssde ns oh tcls eny, cd snle lj n strnljde volmd. \ou bny plmg upyour jnk pnymcdmg nt vd omkomg.

Tp yours, Pdnsdk, yourd rlj` n bnj wcos òlj` to ad ns hnbousns Ucobns Pokhd. L ele jot sny tcls, aut tcd wores trdbakde so pnkpn-

aky oj by tojùd tcnt to tcls eny Lvd rdtnljde tcd lbprdssloj tcnt tcdywdrd spogdj. L tcljg L bdrdky snle jotclj`, ojky wntmcde tcd sbnkkbnj wcddk naout oj cls sbnkk hddt nje snujtdr ohh out oh by dxlstdjmd.Ucdj tcdrd wns nj oee sdjsd oh rdkdnsd tcnt fiooede tcrou`c bd, npcyslmnk sdjsntloj nkbost klgd mobhort, ns lh L cne rdbovde wnrb stl-filj` knydrs oh mkotcds. Or to ad bord dxnmt, ns lh L cne rdbnljde lb-bdrsde too koj` lj burgy edptcs nje cne stru``kde to surhnmd ukpljàklsshuk ernhts oh hrdsc nlr.

N jnrrow dsmnpd, snle Hnrrdkk kntdr, rdljhormlj` by bdtnpcor wltcujmojsmlous prdmlsloj. Vdopkd cnvd addj gjowj to erowj lj tclspknmd. Nje tcdy jdvdr dvdj je tcdlr aoelds.

Lt wns koj` pnst vd omkomg. L cne rdbnljde kntd tcnt nhtdrjooj topnmg by dhhdmts, sumc ns tcdy wdrd, to sny òoeay to ojd or two oh tcddeltors wltc wcob L cne strumg up n blkeky nblnakd nmqunljtnjmd, to

mokkdmt by knst $=8.46 nje, jnkky, to ale wcnt turjde out to ad n sur-prlslj`ky pnljhuk nje sne hnrdwdkk to Hnrrdkk, wco, nboj` otcdr tclj`s,rdvdnkde wcnt L bl`ct cnvd suspdmtde nkk nkoj` cne L rdnkky mnrde orcne L addj bord oasdrvnjttcnt cd wns n sokltnry nje edspojedjterljgdr. Cd mnbd ljto by ohmd, woaaklj` n klttkd, iust ns L wns stuhj`ljto by arldhmnsd mnraoj moplds oh sobd oh by bord tcou`cthuk bnj-usmrlpt rdports. L cne rdbovde tcdb hrob tcd kds, hddklj` n rntcdr

wlsthuk nhhdmtloj hor by pldmd oj @ujenr Hlrglj, nje movdtlj` dspd-mlnkky by buslj`s oj Goj-Ulgl, naout wclmc L cne tcd oee susplmlojtcnt tcdy bl`ct mobprlsd sobdeny nj ljtdrdstlj` scdnh oh kltdrnrybnr`ljnkln.

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Ucdy jdvdr dvdj je tcdlr aoelds, Hnrrdkk rdpdntde. Cnvd n klttkdsjort. Cd dxtdjede townre bd n `knss nje n pljt aottkd oh Oke Ovdr-cokt ryd, cnkh hukk. Ucd ryd wns cdnvlky nrobntlm oj Hnrrdkks ardntc, lj-

edde cd sbdkkde n alt klgd n konh oh pubpdrjlmgdk. L edmkljde tcd sjort,jot out oh njy rdnk rdtlmdjmd aut admnusd lj tcosd enys L lbalade ojkymcdnp Nbdrlmnj addr.

Pdkk, you wdrdjt mut out hor tcls pknmd njywny, cd snle, tossljèowj n ùkp oh tcd Ovdrcokt. Ucls wnsjt tcd pknmd hor you.

L cne adùj to rdnklzd tcnt, L n`rdde.Lj vd ydnrs youe cnvd addj n mobpnjy bnj. Lj tdj ydnrs youe

cnvd addj n hosslk. N hosslklzde oke hnrt lj cls tclrtlds. Ucnts wcntBm@rnw-Clkk wouke cnvd turjde you ljto.

\dnc, Lb glje oh `kne to ad òlj`, L snle. Lb òlj` to blss tcdbojdy, tcou`c. Dvdj tcou`c lt wns cnreky wcnt you bl`ct mnkk n ao-jnjzn.

Hnrrdkk mcumgkde nje bned n boedst klttkd aurp. Cls hnmd wns sumc nkoj` uppdr-klppde Lrlsc prototypd tcnt lt vdr`de oj n iogd, nje cd dx-uede snejdsssobdtclj` ljtnj`laky rubpkde, dxcnustde nje rd-sl`jde tcnt mnusde bd to rdfidmt wltc n twlj`d oh pnlj oj tcdsdkojdsobd ohmd erljglj` aouts, tcd twlkl`ct sdsslojs wltc \dnts njeCopgljs, tcd akdng suawny mobbutd to Ozojd Vnrg. L sueedjky gjdwL wouke jdvdr sdd clb n`nlj.

]o yourd òlj` to wrltd, cd snle, so yourd òlj` to ad n wrltdr. Njd nbaltloj, ojd tcnt L ojmd scnrde bysdkh. L copd nje prny tcnt youadmobd ojd, nje tcnt you sdje bd n mopy oh your rst aoog. Pcdrd

nrd you òlj` wcdj you stnrt wrltlj`?L eojt gjow, L snle. L gjow L mnjt stny lj tcd eubp L klvd lj njy

koj`dr. Lvd òt to `dt out oh tcdrd.Nc, cow L wnjtde to wrltd, cd busde. L bdnj, to wrltd podtry. Ds-

snys. N jd jovdk. Jot n`rdntjovdk, blje youL gjdw L knmgde tcd d-jlus nje tcd nbaltloj hor tcntaut n jd jovdk, ojd wltc n mdrtnlj rdnkdkd`njmd nje stykd. N jovdk ns òoe ns, sny, Ucd Arle d oh ]nj Kuls Qdyor Edntc Mobds hor tcd Nrmcalscopsobdtclj` ujprdtdjtlous aut wltc nmdrtnlj qunklty oh jdnr-pdrhdmtloj. Cd pnusde, tcdj snle, Oc, autsobdcow L òt sledtrnmgde. L tcljg lt wns tcd koj` ydnrs oh deltorlnkworg, dspdmlnkky oh n rntcdr tdmcjlmnk jnturd. L òt sledtrnmgde ljto

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ednklj` wltc otcdr pdopkds ledns nje wores rntcdr tcnj by owj, njetcnts cnreky mojeumlvd to mrdntlvd dhhort. Lj tcd koj` ruj. N`nlj cdpnusde, rd`nrelj` tcd nbadr erd`s lj cls `knss. Or bnyad lt wns tcls

tcnt sledtrnmgde bd, cd snle rudhukky. Ucd snumd. Ucls ojd-cujerde-prooh òakdt oh erdnbs. Njywny, L ele jot admobd n wrltdr. L ele jotadmobd n jovdklst or n podt, nje ns hor dssnys, L wrotd ojky ojd dssnylj by djtlrd klhd. Gjow wcnt lt wns?

Jo, wcnt wns lt?Lt wns hor Ucd ]ntureny Dvdjlj` Vost. N klttkd njdmeotd L sdjt lj rd-

`nrelj` n vnmntloj tcnt by wlhd nje L toog lj ûdadm. Jot wortc ed-

smrlalj`. Aut L ot two cujerde eokknrs hor lt, nje hor sdvdrnk enys L wnstcd cnppldst wrltdr lj Nbdrlmn. Nc, wdkk . . . N `rdnt bdknjmcoky np-pdnrde to ovdrtngd clb, nje cls volmd trnlkde ohh. L òt sledtrnmgde,cd burburde.

L ele jot gjow qultd cow to rdspoje to cls booe, wclmc sddbdepdrlkousky jdnr `rldh, nje mouke ojky sny, ns L mojtljude to stuhh tclj`sljto by arldhmnsd, Pdkk, L copd wd mnj sobdcow gddp lj toumc. Lgjdw, cowdvdr, tcnt wd wouke jot gddp lj toumc.

L eo too, Hnrrdkk snle. L wlsc wd cne òttdj to gjow dnmc otcdradttdr. @nzlj` eowj ljto cls `knss, cd hdkk ljto n slkdjmd wclmc admnbdso prokoj`de tcnt cd ad`nj to bngd bd jdrvous. L wlsc wd cne òt-tdj to gjow dnmc otcdr adttdr, cd rdpdntde skowky nt knst. L cne ohtdjtcou`ct to nsg you to mobd to by cobd out lj ûddjs hor eljjdr, autL nkwnys put lt ohh. ]ledtrnmgde n`nlj. \ou rdblje bd vdry bumc oh bysoj, you gjow.

L elejt gjow you cne n soj, L snle wltc sobd surprlsd. L cne cdnreHnrrdkk ojmd nkkued mnsunkky nje wryky to cls mclkekdss stntd nje cneslbpky nssubde tcnt cd cne jot, ns tcd pcrnsd òds, addj akdssde wltclssud. Aut by murloslty cne mdnsde tcdrd. Lj tcd Bm@rnw-Clkk ntbo-spcdrd oh `dkle lbpdrsojnklty lt wns mojsledrde nj dhhrojtdry, lh joteowjrl`ct elrty, to dxprdss dvdj blke ljtdrdst lj tcd prlvntd klvds ohotcdrs. L tcou`ct you L ad`nj.

Oc, L cnen soj nkk rl`ct! Cls volmd wns sueedjky n mry, stnrtklj` bdwltc lts blj`kde tojd oh rn`d nje knbdjt. Ucd Ovdrcokt cne ujkoosdelj clb nkk tcd Mdktlm hurlds wltc wclmc cd cne mojsortde enlky lj tcdedsokntd tlbd nhtdr vd lj tcd nhtdrjooj. Cd rosd to cls hddt nje wnj-

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edrde to tcd wljeow, nzlj` tcrou`c tcd twlkl`ct nt tcd ljmobprdcdj-slakd blrn`d oh Bnjcnttnj, sdt nrd ay tcd edsmdjelj` suj. Oc, L cnen soj! cd snle n`nlj. Dewnre Mcrlstlnj Hnrrdkk. Cd wns iust your n`d,

cd wns iust twdjty-two, nje cd wnjtde to ad n wrltdr. Cd wns . . . cd wnsn prljmd wltc knjùn`d, by soj wns. Cd cne n `lht tcnt wouke cnvdmcnrbde tcd edvlk clbsdkh, nje sobd oh tcd kdttdrs cd wrotdsobd ohtcosd koj`, gjowlj`, hujjy, ljtdkkl`djt kdttdrswdrd tcd kovdkldst tcntdvdr wdrd wrlttdj. Oc, cd wns nprljmdwltc tcd knjùn`d, tcnt aoy!

Udnrs mnbd to cls dyds. Hor bd lt wns n pnrnkyzlj`ky nwgwnre bo-bdjt, ojd tcnt nppdnrs jow nje tcdj tcrou`cout klhd, tcou`c wltc

bdrmlhuk ljhrdqudjmy. Lj rldvlj` tojds n jdnr-strnj`dr spdngs oh sobdadkovde pdrsoj lj tcd pnst tdjsd, tcrowlj` cls klstdjdr ljto n qunjenry.Mdrtnljky cd bdnjs tcd edpnrtde ls edne. Aut coke! Bl`ctjt cd slb-pky cnvd ruj ohh, vlmtlb oh nbjdsln, or admobd n fiddlj` mukprlt? Orwns jow pntcdtlmnkky knjùlsclj` lj n kujntlm nsykub, so tcnt tcd usdoh tcd pnst tdjsd ls bdrdky sorrowhukky dupcdblstlm? Pcdj Hnrrdkk rd-subde tnkglj`, stlkk ohhdrlj` bd jo mkud to cls sojs hntd, L turjde nwnylj dbanrrnssbdjt nje mojtljude to sort out by adkoj`lj`s.

Bnyad L mouke cnvd tngdj lt adttdr lh cd cnejt addj by ojky gle.Aut Bnry nje L mouke cnvd jo bord mclkerdj nhtdr Deeld wns aorj. Cdstoppde sueedjky. Nc, you eojt wnjt to cdnr . . .

L turjde anmg to clb. Jo, ò ncdne, L snle, pkdnsd. Cd sddbde toad suhhdrlj` hrob nj ur`djt jdde to tnkg, nje sljmd cd wns n gljeky bnjwcob L klgde nje, hurtcdrbord, ojd wco lj sobd hnscloj cne ljeddeledjtlde bd wltc cls soj, L hdkt lt wouke cnvd addj ljedmdjt hor bd jot

to djmourn`d clb to ujauredj clbsdkh. Vkdnsd ò ncdne, L snle n`nlj.Hnrrdkk pourde clbsdkh njotcdr cu`d scot oh ryd. Cd cne admobd

qultd erujg nje cls spddmc wns n klttkd skurrde, tcd hrdmgkde ljeoor hnmdsne nje cn``nre lj tcd wnjlj` kl`ct. Oc, lts trud tcnt n bnj mnj klvdout cls owj nsplrntlojs tcrou`c tcd klhd oh cls mclke. Deeld wdjt to Mo-kubaln, nje ojd oh tcd tclj`s tcnt tcrlkkde bd wns tcd wny cd toog toaoogs, cls lht hor wores. Nt jljdtddjjljdtddj, blje youcd cne cnen sgdtmc puaklscde lj Ucd Jdw \orgdr, nje Pclt Aurjdtt cne tngdj nstory hor ]tory. Ojd oh tcd youj`dst mojtrlautors, L adkldvd, lj tcd cls-tory oh tcd bn`nzljd. Lt wns cls dyd, you sdd, cls dyd. Hnrrdkk inaade clshordj`dr nt cls dyd. Cd snwtclj`s, you ujedrstnje, snw tclj`s tcnt

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tcd rdst oh us eojt sdd nje bned tcdb hrdsc nje nklvd. Bnrg XnjEordj wrotd bd n kovdky jotdtcd kovdkldst jotd, rdnkkysnylj` tcntDeeld cne ojd oh tcd `rdntdst jnturnk wrltlj` `lhts oh njy stuedjt cde

dvdr cne. Bnrg Xnj Eordj, lbn`ljd! ^ultd n trlautd, woukejt yousny? Cd dyde bd ns lh lj sdnrmc oh sobd morroaorntloj.

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cours nhtdr cd toog cls bortnk wouje), to djmoujtdr jo djdby, jo hdnr,jo enj`dr nt nkk, aut, tcrou`c tcd `rnmd oh clstory, n wrdmgde ydtpdnmdhuk Orldjtnk knjesmnpd nmross wclmc L wouke wnjedr ujsmntcde

nje ujtcrdntdjde eurlj` tcd knst hdw wddgs adhord Clrosclbn. L cne,lj alttdr trutc, cdnre jot n scot rde lj nj`dr, nje nktcou`c lj tdrbs ohby cled, nt kdnst, L wns hortujds enrklj` lh tcdrd dvdr wns ojd, L moukejdvdr `dt ovdr tcd hddklj` tcnt L cne addj edprlvde oh sobdtclj` tdr-rlakd nje bn`jlmdjt. Mdrtnljky lj rd`nre to tcls dxpdrldjmdor byknmg oh ltjotclj` dvdr pldrmde bd so eddpky ns Hnrrdkks arldh, edso-kntlj` story oh cls soj Deeld, wco sddbde to bd lbbokntde oj tcd

dnrtc oh Ogljnwn tcnt L bl`ct klvdnje wrltd. Ns Hnrrdkk snt wddplj`lj tcd twlkl`ct, L hdkt hordscortdjde, scrlvdkde, nje mouke sny jotclj`.

Hnrrdkk rosd, enaalj` nt cls dyds, nje stooe ay tcd wljeow `nzlj`out nt tcd suj-djmrlbsojde Cuesoj, wcdrd tcd elj`y outkljds oh two`rdnt sclps bovde sku``lscky sdnwnre townre tcd Jnrrows. Ucd sprlj`wlje wclstkde wltc tcd jolsd oh edbojs nrouje Bm@rnw-Clkks rddjljelhhdrdjt dnvds. Pcdj cd spogd, Hnrrdkks volmd mnbd hrob n elstnjmd,ardntclj` n edspnlr pnst tdkklj`9

Dvdrytclj` tcnt bnj dstddbsDjeurds n bobdjt or n eny . . .Ucd cdrnkes mry, tcd sokeldrs trdneDxcnust cls `kory nje cls bl`ct9Pcntdvdr finbds upoj tcd jl`ctBnjs owj rdsljous cdnrt cns hde.

Ucdj cd turjde to bd nje snle, ]oj, wrltd your uts out. Nje, wdnv-lj` eowj tcd cnkkwny, cd wns `ojd out oh by klhd hordvdr.

L klj`drde tcdrd hor n koj` tlbd, pojedrlj` tcd huturd, wclmc jowsddbde ns blsty nje ns oasmurd ns tcosd sbo`-aouje corlzojs tcntstrdtmcde adyoje tcd bdneows oh Jdw Idrsdy. L wns too youj` to adrdnkky nhrnle oh bumc aut jot so youj` tcnt L rdbnljde ujscngdjay mdrtnlj npprdcdjslojs. Ucosd kuelmrous bnjusmrlpts L cne rdnewdrd sobdcow mnutlojnry, scowlj` bd cow sne wns nkk nbaltlojdspdmlnkky wcdj lt mnbd to kltdrnturd. L wnjtde adyoje copd or erdnb-lj` to ad n wrltdr, aut hor sobd rdnsoj Hnrrdkks story cne strumg so

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eddpky nt by cdnrt tcnt hor tcd rst tlbd lj by klhd L wns nwnrd oh tcdknr`d cokkowjdss L mnrrlde wltclj bd. Lt wns trud tcnt L cne trnvdkde`rdnt elstnjmds hor ojd so youj`, aut by splrlt cne rdbnljde knje-

komgde, ujnmqunljtde wltc kovd nje nkk aut n strnj`dr to edntc. L moukejot rdnklzd tcdj cow sooj L wouke djmoujtdr aotc oh tcdsd tclj`s, db-aoelde lj tcd cubnj pnssloj nje cubnj fidsc hrob wclmc L cne na-sdjtde bysdkh lj by sbu` nje nlrkdss sdkh-edprlvntloj. Jor ele L tcdjrdnklzd tcnt by voyn`d oh elsmovdry wouke nkso ad n iourjdy to n pknmdns strnj`d ns Aroogkyj. Bdnjwclkd, L ojky gjdw tcnt L wouke `o eowjhor tcd knst tlbd hrob tcd twdjtldtc fioor, rlelj` tcd nsdptlm `rddj dkd-

vntor to tcd mcnotlm Bnjcnttnj strddts, nje tcdrd mdkdarntd by edklv-drnjmd wltc dxpdjslvd Mnjnelnj nkd nje tcd rst slrkolj stdng L cnedntdj sljmd moblj` to Jdw \org.

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