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Poetry Journal Vol. 1
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First published independently in 2011 by Esjae
Copyright Stacey Hubbard 2011
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About The Poet
Esjae is a poet with a large collection of poem under her belt, even getting her poem Homeless
published in her local newspaper the Cambridge News! When she isnt writing she will often be
found with headphones glued firmly to her ears, her laptop on her lap with her many social networkaccounts open so that she can get her written works to a wider audience.Her passion for poetry comes from one of her very memorable English Lesson in year 9, where she
was meant to be watching a modern film version of Romeo and Juliet. But she just couldn't get into
it, so she ended up writing - 'Hood Up, Head Down' her first ever poem! Ever since then her passion
for writing and poetry has just grown and she writes whenever she get the chance.
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Acknowledgements
I WOULD LIKE to thank a lot of people who have helped me to bring this collection of my poems to a
wider audience. Firstly, my family without them I wouldnt have the means or have of the inspiration
for my poetry. Also my fianc Scott, without him I would have given up writing poetry a long timeago!
Sometimes when Im writing I have wanted to pack it all up and give it many times but I
havent due to the support I get from the followers and readers of my blog and those who follow me
on Twitter, as well as those who support my Facebook fan page So a massive thank you to all of
you as without you this collection wouldnt be here in front of you now!
I would also like to thank my GCSE English teacher, Ms Bailey, as without here I wouldnt
have started writing poetry in the first place!
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Dreamer Part 2
Just last night I was laying awake thinking about the dream I should have been dreaming
The people I wish I could stop from screaming
So many lose their lives
Fighting to save you and I
What about their husbands and wives
What about the children with parents in the sky
They say it has to get worse before it gets better
Would you say that to a mother reading that unforgettable letter
The world is filled with so much pain
And yet we still moan and complain
Our lives are so easy compared to so many others
Like those without sisters and brothers, fathers and mothers
Would you want someone to forget to donate?If you didn't have any food on your plate?
If you were a soldier contemplating your fate?
The world is a horrible place sometimes
So many people fall on hard times
But all I can do I pray they find a miracle so that can survive
And live another day in their lives
You see they're fighting for you and me
So that we can be whatever we want to be
They're giving their lives
So spend a minute, think about those who didn't survive
Cause they're doing it for us
Not for some sort of a buzz
They are our pride
We shouldn't have anything to hide
It's time we gave a thought to all the families
And forgot about all of the controversies
Let's support them in what they need to do
Remember it's for me and you
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You Might Surprise Yourself
Race, Place
Black, White
Tall, Small
Fat, Thin
Cheating, Beating
Dreaming, Screaming
Hoping, Praying
Crying, Lying, Dying
Teenagers, prejudice
Guns, Knives
Louts, layabout
Hoodys, scum
Don't stereotype me
Don't tell me who I should be
I see all the problems you see
Don't try and blame them on me
Times have changed
Communties rearranged
Knives carried for pride
Cars taken for a joy ride
You only see the bad
All the things that make us mad
You want us to change
You call us strange
We need opportunities
Some sense of responsibilities
A way to repay the communities
You've taken everything away
Then leave us with the blame
Teenage pregnancies
Dangers and obscenities
Guns and knives
So many have lost their lives
Lost and gone
But never forgotten
Don't just give them a passing glance
Give them another chance
A helping hand might be all they need
Listen to their opinions you might surprise yourself, you might not disagree
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You Don't Need To Pretend
I watch people shut down, turn off
I see people roll their eyes, tut, scoff
They want me to be the same
But I don't want to follow the crowd, I don't need someone else to blame
Society has taught me to see a man begging in the street
And turn my back without giving him anything to eat
I'm meant to have a smile every single day
I'm not allowed my own opinion, can't have my own say
So listen up this is me breaking out, I refuse to be just another person
I won't stand back and let this situation worsen
I won't salute a leader I don't believe in
I won't pray to a God if I'm only going to sinI'm not the definition of perfect
But I'm always going to give our war heroes respect
I'm not part of your religion
That doesn't mean I'm going to treat you like vermin
If I have a problem I know it's mine
I won't pass it off on someone else and say that I resign
Life is tough
You might have had enough
You don't always have to be strong
As long as you know where you belong
Everything will work out in the end
Be yourself, it's your life you don't need to pretend
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When I Look Beside Me
When I look beside me and see you standing there
I'm reminded of all the things you have and continue to do for me
All because of this bond between us that makes you care
It's invisible for all but the heart to see
Sometimes I don't feel as though I'm giving enough
But this love has always manages to pull us through
Even in the darkest days when it's gotten tough
I have been able to smile because I look beside me and see you
You might fear that I'm going to leave
But every day for now and forever
I promise you we will remain togetherBecause in us I have and always will believe
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To Words and Rhymes I'm Confined
I'm writing what people don't want to hear but they know
It might be scandalous, but that's how it's going to go
I'm doing this on my own from scratch
I'm taking on the world, one day, I'll win game, set and match
The inspiration comes from the world around me
So many people suffering in the world, I want to help not just 'wait and see'
I'll pick up haters along the way
But they won't stop me from saying the words I have got to say
I'm learning, and every day I'll be returning
There are thousands of problems that are concerning
I'm not afraid to speak my mind
Even if it is to words and rhymes I'm confined
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The Long Goodbye
This is where my heart lies
Right here in this moment
We're stuck for words,
Neither of us know how to say our goodbye's
Reminiscing over the gifts that were sent,
The hours that we spent together
Promising each other our forever
Never going to forget what you've done for me
Never going to forget the dreams you made me believe
Never going to forget the world you made me see
We're trying to say the words our hearts long to speakWe're taking separate paths because our journey together looks bleak
This is the long goodbye
In my head I know why
But my heart just longs for us to lie
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The Greatest Gift
You have been given the greatest gift
Be sure to treasure this life you have been given to raise
The time will be sure to pass in a blurry haze
But every single moment will be sure to amaze
Each day you will be reminded of the perfection
The parcel of joy you hold in your arms has inside
Between the two of you is an unbreakable connection
Something you should always be proud of and unwilling to hide
Treasure every single day
You have been given the greatest gift that life can give
Not a single second are you able to reliveSo treasure every minute, hour and day as though it isn't going to stay
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Take These Words As My Promise To You
I want you to take these words as my promise to you
To love and cherish you and everything single thing you do
You have been my one true love from the very beginning
Whenever I think of you I know that in this life I'm winning
It doesn't matter where we are
You'll always be my shining star
I promise to love you,
To let you have every piece of my heart
I promise to support you in all you do,
To be by your side and never let anything pull us apart
I promise you this is forever,
Because this isn't something that can be thrown awayI promise you that I won't be walking away ever
Because by your side is where I want to stay
I know that we're only young
And that some would say our lives have only just begun
It doesn't matter where you are or what you do
I'll always love you and support you
Through the laughs and tears, the ups and downs
I won't run away, I'm always going to be around
Take this promise and never forget
I'm taking this journey with you and only you
I know that the future isn't something I'll ever come to regret
Because in my heart it's only about us two
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One Day You'll Find Me
Nothing feels right
So I follow the light
Heading up into the night
One day we will reunite
But until then I'll be alright
I'll just float around
In this new life I'm not making a sound
Where I head to
I can't tell you
But one day you will find me
Just when that is I can't guarantee
Promise to visit me at my gravesideTell me about your day, know that in me you can confide
And I'll be there every day to help and guide
Because even though you can't see me I'll always be by your side
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We Will Always Have Yesterday But Never Tomorrow
I wait for the night time
To see you star in the night sky
And when it's time for sunrise
I have to say yet another goodbye
At least I can stand here by your grave side
To talk about the memories we made
And the lives that you have saved
I can look back to yesterday
And I can be angry that you weren't able to stay
But I'm reminded of the future you have given all of us
Even though you won't be returning on that army bus
You have done so much for so manySo many that won't even know your name
So many who will live their lives just the same
But for me I'll be living, holding on to our,
Private dreams and past memories
Staring at your treasured star
Taken from me fighting our countries enemies
We will always have yesterday
But we will never have tomorrow
I'll be thankful for everyday
Even though I'm filled with this sorrow
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I'm Living My Truth Without Your Lies
You think you know it all
You think you know me
But if I tell you the truth you would stop and stall
If you open your eyes then maybe you would see
That I'm not longer going to
Play your games
Pretend that to me you're being true
When really you have 101 different love flames
You maybe 'Mr Perfect'
But really you're 'Mr Disrespect'
You haven't got the right to say to me
Who I should beWhen you have me confused with 'Miss Last Night'
It's too late for you to protest, to put up a fight
You lost that right
When you didn't pick up last night
I told you from the beginning
You thought you were winning, when all you were doing was sinning
No one will and has ever made a fool out of me
From now I'm living my truth without your lies
I'm walking out, and I won't be coming back, you'll see
There won't be any more tears from these eyes
I'm stronger now that I've woken up to see who you really are
You just another Mr Want It All with a sports car
I'm no longer going to be 'Miss Day Time'
While you sneak off to see 'Miss Night Time'
You may think you know everything
But in reality you know nothing
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Christmas Time
Christmas trees
Falling Leaves
Holly and mistletoe
Children playing in the snow
Family and friends
Making amends
Celebrating the festive season
Exchanging gifts with meaning and reason
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Real True Love
I love the way you feel, the way you touch
The way when you're not here I miss you so much
I never feel worthy of your love
You're so precious, only to be described as an angel sent from above
I'm never going to stop proving my love, until you believe
That by your side I will always remain, never going to leave
I will give you everything I can emotionally and physically
You've got my love unconditionally
I would promise you the world, the moon and stars
But that wouldn't compare to the promise of a relationship as good as ours
What we have between us can only be described as true love
And I'll always think I'm undeserving of you
And every single little thing that you do
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On Guy Fawkes Night
Explosions in the night sky
With sounds of admiration we reply
Pink, green and blue
Everyones jostling for the best view
Necks craning up at the sky
Watching the rockets fly,
The Catherine wheels spin
And the screamers creating an unforgettable din
Whilst the bonfire blazing bright
On Guy Fawkes Night
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Just The Way
You're on one knee
Telling me how much you love me
Giving me forever
Telling me you want us to always be together
Happiness is spilling out of me
The future is where I want to be
Just you and me
We've got something that can only be described as perfect
It's just the way our hearts connect
We're united by this bond,
Together is how we will always belong
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I Love It When
I would like to tell you that I don't need you
But you and I
Both know I'd rather die
Than say we are through
We have something that only belongs to you and me
Something I'm not afraid for the world to see
Each and every day this love grows a little bit more
Because it's you and the things that you do that I adore
You see it might sound clich
But I love it when I hear you say
'I love you'
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I Am Me
I might be alone
But I'm fully grown
I know who I am
Who I need to be
I am me
That's plain for the world to see
I'm breaking out from these chains
And your containment
Proving I'm not here for your entertainment
That I have a purpose for being on this earth
And some self worth
You won't control meNot anymore
You won't tell me who to be
Not anymore
I am the person everyone can see
It might be plain and boring old me
But I'm proud of who I'm turning out to be
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To My Father This Christmas Time
To my Father this Christmas time
You have provided me a life filled with memories
Memories that I can look back and smile upon
You guide me when you can see that I'm doing wrong
And praise me when you can see me doing right
But I know you'll always be proud of me,
Not just tomorrow, today or tonight
You always try and understand the person I'm meant to be
But most of all I am thankful for the life you have given to me
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This World
Have you ever thought that the world was built for you
But that there is something missing
That's just how I felt before I found you
And spend time in your arms gently kissing
I never knew that in you
I would find the key to unlock my heart
Kept safe for our special start
No one would have thought we would be together
Ready for our future to last forever
Now I know the world wasn't built for me
But for the two of usWe don't need to shout it from the rooftops or to make a fuss
Because when people look at us it's obvious for people to see
This is a love built to last
And we'll treasure every moment as it goes past
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This New Year Is Just For You
Today is the beginning of a brand new year
Hold me close my dear
For with me you should know you have nothing to fear
Whatever may come our way
Together we shall stay
The bad days will come and go
Helping our love to grow
So much is happening in the world around us
But that's not what we want to discuss
Thinking and talking about where we want to be
The future together is what we both see
The first of JanuaryOnly 3 months and 5 days till our anniversary
Two years together
Me and you it's forever
From this year to the next
I'll tell you that I love you and how much I care for you
Whether it's in person or by text
I'll do everything I can do
Just for you
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Grandparents
To have you as my grandparents is a blessing
So now you have me here confessing,
That sometimes the things that I say may not be clean
And other times it may simply be mean
But I know right from wrong
And that I'm proud of the family to which I belong
Without you my parents wouldn't be able to offer me guidance and protection
From you they learnt to show their parental affection
So now I'm thanking you
Fall the things you have done and continue to do
Because without you,
I wouldn't be half the person I am today
So now all that is left to say -Is a big thank you
and that I'll never forget anything that you have done or continue to do
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Dear Santa
I'm writing a letter this Christmas time
I can't say that I don't have a single regret
Can't say there was a reason or rhyme
But there is this one thing I can't forget
Dear Santa, please, please
Get your elves together and use your expertise
To bring me the only thing that's on my list
The one I once kissed
The one I'm starting to miss
I see the old photos and I start to reminisce
Over all the old times we spent together
We said we would be foreverBut you moved on
So I had to find somewhere else to belong
Now I'm listening to our song
And I know it heart that's my home
To any other I would only be on loan
Santa take me back to the one I really need
And I'll be happier than I have ever been before, guaranteed
I'm asking for my one wish
To bring me the one I really miss
Santa, do this for me,
Please?
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Christmas Morning
Santa's sleigh bell warning
It's Christmas morning
Children smiling from ear to ear
Parents crying happy tears
Turkey piping hot
Christmas pud hitting the spot
Unwrapping presents
Everyone loving the contents
Spending time together
Watching the snowy weather
This is the best time of the year
As all the family is here
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All I Want To Do
A message out of the blue
Reminded me of you
The times we used to spend together
Running around in all types of weather
Then we grew up
We had separate paths to follow, different journeys to pursue
But now I'm back in contact with you
Reminiscing about the old times is all I want to do
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What The World Is Turning To Be
So many things are happening in the world around us
Addicts searching around to find a fix to get a buzz
Millionaires trying to find something to spend on
Politicians see the problems but scrub their minds to get gone
What about the single mother stranded on the street
Who thought about the homeless man on the street with nothing to eat
You chose to forget, just like me
Because you just didnt want to see
What the world is turning to be
All too wrapped up in our own lives
To worry about those struggling to survive
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Together Well Stay
Star in the night sky
Your sitting so high
On the throne you should have had all along
You shouldn't have left, it feels so wrong
But we all know that you couldn't change a thing
So now we'll be thinking of you all year long
Winter, summer, autumn and spring
We will be reunited one day
And together we will stay
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Im Just Sleeping
Plunging deep into my skin
Im fighting a battle that I want to but cant win
My eyes flicker and give you hope
Just as my body is shutting down, it cant cope
The machines are beeping
You keep telling yourself that Im just sleeping
My killer is running free
But on their conscience its me
In their mind Im all that they can see
Just kiss my good night just one more time
Lets forget this night and terrible crime
Let me give up this fightI promise to light up the night
Be the brightest star in the sky
Just let me go, let me sleep, let me die
I promise to talk to you everyday
Even if my words you cannot hear
I promise one day well be together again
I just dont know when
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Be Proud Of Who You Are
I want to reach out and help you
But I feel useless like there is nothing I can do
I can see the pain in your eyes
I can see through your lies
Saying that youll be alright
This isnt a battle you have to fight
You dont have to do this alone
Ill be there for you, just ask, pick up the phone
Whatever your problem, big or small
Ill help you to pick yourself up and walk tall
I know that you can do
Anything you put your mind toAnd so does everyone else too
Have a little self belief and be proud of who you are
It doesnt matter that youre not rich and that you dont drive a fancy car
Youre you, the one who means so much too so many
To those who dont care if you dont have a single penny
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A Fathers Promise
Babies crying all around
Off to sleep they go
No one daring to make a sound
Nappies, clothes and toys
Gifts for all the new girls and boys
Helium balloons and teddy bears
Presents from a proud father to show he cares
About his child so small
Whispering in its ear
If only your grandparents where here
Theyd shed a tear
But theyre looking down on you now
And trust me, I know they are so so proudNot only today but of who you will be
Whether youre like your mother or me
None of us can wait to see
You have my nose and eyes
And your mothers beautiful smile
But we have the greatest gift that we could ever receive
And I promise you, Ill never leave.