my soul, my life
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1 | P a g e My Soul, My Life, is a compilation of poems,reflecting my transformation and evolving as a spirit in
human form.My spirit writing in the form of poems depictsmy spiritual journey, through life moments. The uniquequalities of inspiration have flowed and have given meguidance and inspiration about life and it's meaning.
My Soul, My life
by Lorraine Nur Shufiya Branson
Message to my children
My darling babies how far you've come
In a short space of time, you have blossomed.
To see the glimmer of radiance in your face
When you were little, I miss it so much.
My darling babies, how much you've grownYou stand so tall and strong
Like the oak tree from a seed
You will be one day.
My darling babies, how much you've learnt
From knowing little to a lot
The amount of knowledge you've absorbed
Will one day make your mother proud.
My darling babies, how innocent you still are
And slowly will that fade to experience
I pray the prayer of eternal youth
In your heart forever to remain.
My darling babies, let not the spoils of time
Render you blas and indifferent
To the needs of those around you
For you were born to serve.
My darling babies, The One from whom you came
Has allowed you to be special in every way.
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So, you will have the tools and knowledgeTo do His will.
Shine your smiles through your eyes,
Make a difference with a look.
Share the love and positivity
Be the pillar of enlightenment.
You need not learn how to
For that was implanted in you
Since you were in your mother's wombWhen she took care to nurture you.
My darling babies, one day you will be grown up
And I must let you fly
Although do not stray too far away
And always remember to come home to your mother's
bosom.
I wish I knew....
I wish I knew why when every time I try to make things
right , they go awfully wrong
I wish I knew why when I stick to my guns, I get shot
instead
I wish I knew why when I decide to give my heart, it endsup getting broken
I wish I knew why when first he says "I love you", it soon
changes to " I like you"
I wish I knew why when he says I call you later, I end up
with no sleep
I wish I knew why when before the morning calls were
consistent, my mobile is silent now
I wish I knew why when I used to be bombarded by sms-es, I am the one doing it now
I wish I knew why when I say NO he takes it as a YES
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I wish I knew why when the story has been told, yet itwasn't heard
I wish I knew why when I need positive energy all I get is
negative
I wish I knew why when I miss his smile all I see is my
vision
I wish I knew why when I ask "why?" I get " I dunno"
I wish I knew why I want the one that is far when the one
that is near I will not let inI wish I knew why when I don't want to hurt I get hurt
instead
I wish I knew why when I want to yell out and scream I cry
instead
I wish I knew why, I really wish I knew!!!
Missing all that you are
Miss this miss that
Can't stop thinking about missing
Missing the smiles
Missing the talks
Missing the way your eyes disappear when you smile
Missing the gleaming teeth
Missing watching youMissing hearing you
Missing the throaty guffaw
Missing the weird jokes
Missing the way you look at me
Missing all that you are
Missing just so missing
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My darlings, we are guided by your plightMy darlings, you never go unheard
My darlings, my little flower children
Grow, grow, grow
Up and be mighty
For we need you
For we love you
For we are blessed to have you
For all the power in the Universe is spread to help you.
Search inspired
Do not search for what is not there
For what is not there will never be where it is supposed to
be
Do not search for what is not seen for what is unseen will
never be revealed
Do not search for the unwanted
For the unwanted will never be found
Do not search for the one that is an apparition
For the apparition is your imagination
Do not search for what you can't touch
For the one you can't touch will never feelDo not search for the words of love
For the words of love need only be heard
Do not search for the one in light
For the one in light shines in the heart
Do not search for the betrayal of trust
For that betrayal will bring you down
Do not search for the meaning of why
Because the meaning of why will ask you howDo not search in the dark for answers
When the reasons itself cannot be revealed
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Search for what is the truthWhich is the heart words
Spoken in matters of whispers
Which occur within
For you know that when you feel them and hear them
They will never let you fall
They will pick up your soul and travel to the one that was
in the search for
before the search ever started .... it was found.
Awakenings
I can see you clearer
I can feel you more
The energy, aura and power you share with me
Is swirling me in all dimensions....
You teach me
You show me
You guide me
Like no others have
I am happy when you are near me
I miss you when I remember
The places you have shown meAnd the trips we have taken
You speak to me in whispers
You speak to me in words
You tell me what I must do
To help and guide my loves
I understand the lessons
That you are implanting in me
To take beyond the dreamsTo my reality
I sense your ever presence
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I know you are never farJust a call away
And soon enough you ARE
My guide mother
You take me by the hand
I am your little child
Whom you walk with and show
The realm of your kingdom
I see the throne is emptyI see the beautiful buildings
I see the little people who
Smile and help me on the path
I see the golden carriage
I smell the wonderful scent
Which wafts with your movements
Along the sea and mountain bends
I know what my mission isI will do my very best
To uphold this very honourable trust which I have been
bestowed
To look after the promised land and the people whom you
adore.
My crystal voice speaks
Why is there so much hate in the world
Asks the child, with tears in her eyes?
Why do they just keep wanting to hurt?
The guns and battles never cease
Oh what shall my future be?
Why do you keep cutting down the treesThe life force of the world?
The land is drying up from lack of rains
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What shall it be like for me?Asks the child with imploring eyes.
The rivers and seas balances our lands
Yet the destruction is causing them to clash.
In the course of your taking over the world Sir,
Mother Nature is rebelling and crying
She quivers with grief at your atrocities.
I am but a mere child and I am your future
I am here to let you know I need a bigger chanceTo survive the ill effects of the human mistakes are
drawing me to find;
That for al lthe innovations to make a better world, you've
left me,
Your crystal child with nothing but ruins.
Can you please help me now start to rebuild?
My blue planet is the only one where I can rest.
For the mountains not to crumble and the seas to be calmWe need to find the balance Sir, with Mother Nature and
Heaven
Can you ask the rains to come so the green can be seen.
So my clouds aren't smog and I can see the sky again
And start to live like the beautiful scene in my dreams.
That my children will also be the real children of the future
In a world which has been entrusted to you.
This is my crystal child plea for help.
Sequence
The dream is inscribed as to who I am
The way towards has been shown and mapped
The waters have accepted the dear ones apartThe chain and seal has been put in the heart
You are me and I am you
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We are together yet we are separateI am in your heart and soul
You are beside me every step and towards the end goal
The green is me and the white is you
The shining stream of energetic love
Full of guidance and clairvoyance
You simply are and so am I
The guides are ready to accept the bidding
The ones around accept the callThe hall and walls are all listening
For the one who is going to make it all
For the sake of love
For the sake of this world
For the sake of the poor and for the sake of the needy
We shall penetrate and we shall be ready
For the time when we are with the One true force
Of justice and eternity.
Age of Realisation
I am never far away, I am with you all the way
No matter where and no matter what
No matter how and no matter where
I shall be thereIn your heart I speak to you
My words of love and wisdom come through
In the midst of calamities
Listen, I am there
Have strength, have faith
For in the end the love prevails
In search of the Truth is not so hard
But forever be there in your heartThe guidance of Love
The guidance of Hope
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The guidance of MercyFor all with one heart
One faith
One glory
One destination
One Eternity
The flow from God
Is truly beneficent
Yet we forget because we feel bittenAnd we feel so weaken
By the forces outside of our control
We need to muster the courage
To face the obvious
All of which we must behold.
Stand firm, have faith
Be strong, be sure
All your efforts are not in vainGod hears the cries of ones in pain.
Soulauraasition
There are some things I just cannot explain
It must be felt and experienced
When does spiritual development transit fromawareness to awakening
The energies start to blend, balance
Triggering episodes of emotions and sensations
Refining of senses
Restructuring of physical and spiritual
Synergizing the soul with the Universe
The whole of creation merging
In one magnificentAura realistic dimension
I am becoming
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I am mergingI am being
I am just
I AM.
She exists
Don't look for her
She will find youA mother who is parted from a child feels pain in the
missing
A mother who has been separated from her child never
forgets
A mother who is away from her child by distance may still
communicate through the heart
Many mothers have telepathic connections with their
children
The tie from within the womb when cut
After birth is never severed from this world to the next
A mother who at any time , always knows when her
children need her
Need her love
Need her attention
Need her guidanceA mother is a gift from God
A mother is never fearful of her children being misguided
For if she has taught well
She will release her children into the world
To serve humankind
And hope that their missions as good people will be
fulfilled
A mother prays that her children will grow from herteachings to
Be able to help mankind to be useful servants and
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vicegerents of GODWhen God created this world , He made it perfect from
things seen and unseen
To serve Him is our only purpose of life
To look after what He has created is a commitment of each
individual
Whom He has given life to
His breath is ours
We live for Him and with Him we becomeWhatever it is He has prescribed for us
There are things that cannot be comprehended by our
brains and thoughts
For traditional beliefs are such
Out of the theory of everything logical
There is the realm of illogical
which is only inspired by the soul and felt in the heart
What I have chosen to portray of my very personal sidedoes in no way
Offend or steer away from the existence of God and His
creation
If anything it emphasizes that in full reality
We are part of the world ; seen and unseen
For the most UNSEEN is HE, HIMSELF
You never ask for the gift
You are granted this
You never search for anything else but the purpose and
point of your living
To be able to activate in both natures is the very focus of
this life seen
To be able to accept and fulfill the destiny to the world ;
next unseen.
My life is and has been prepared for this very aimTo be able to meet Him on the Day and say
I did my best
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My mother gave birth to me , fed me, cleaned me andnutured me as best she could
My next mother fed my soul with the love of God
My mother now, teaches me and guides me to fulfill what
my destiny is
Say not that you know her for you never will if you have
never known her
Say not that you know of her for what you know is not
what is truthSay not you know God if you have never met Him but yet
strive to find Him
In soul searching we shall eventually reach levels of
spiritual awareness when what we see and feel we know is
from Him
We strive to find ourselves , within ourselves
For when we do find ourselves, we need to get to know
ourselvesFor only when we know and understand ourselves
Will we truly be in the knowledge and one in unison with
God.
So, for all what the fairytales and folklore says
I say
That she exists , not in the world that you know and live in
But she lives and will fulfill what is her destiny and
commitment to God
Who has dedicated her to those ;who even though fling
ridicules
In her path, will in no way deter the path that has already
been written before the world we know even existed.
She exists as all others before and after have and will only
for the sake of Him.
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My spaceI yearn for the sound of silence
I search for the inner peace
The world around buzzes
With animations and vocals
Of so many things which
I am unconcerned about
I look and I search for my quiet space
I am eternally bound to the physicalYet ethereal in self
As I wander this congested world
To be able to confine myself
Within the world of my very own
I yearn for the seclusion
To bring about the unison
Of the magical unity
And the Oneness of You
I come from within to live without
I am desolate and I need to recollect
The moments of endearments that came before I did
I need my solace
I need my time
I need the sounds which
Eventually willEnlighten my burdens and set me free
I shall stand in space and time
I shall tower over the mountains and terrain
I shall observe all from atop
The mighty self of humankind
I shall regain the consciousness
I need to dwell in this time and in this space
As I await the moment that I shall stand before You inYour space
In no time.
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Mother's grief for her mistake.Indescribable, dreadful, deep
Sensations of sorrow breach my heart and soul
No mother ever means to hurt her child
Yet there are times when it does happen
It seems an unforgivable act
An act of shame
An act of mistrust leading to distrust
I once cradled you and you were comforted and protectedNow you have grown and are your own person
I still need to comfort and protect you
You are my angel from Heaven
The answer to the prayers of so long
You were the first of many to come
And you are my light from God
Your pain is my pain
Your joys are mine
You were born to be forever loved
Never to be shamed , hurt, upset
Never to be thrown, never to be abused
Always to feel secure and always to be nurtured
Your laughter makes the room tingle
Your eyes light up with glee
When you uttered the sad words of painI was crushed and I would take it all back
To see you smile
To feel your cuddle
And be my baby princess once again
Your mother adores you
Your mother thinks you are the best
Thing that has ever happened to her
When you were a mere 1o months and we were allThat was left
The tear that fell from my cheek you wiped away
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The hand of a innocent and sensitive childSo now my princess stand firm and tall
We shall not allow ourselves to fall
We must continue the fight together
For the flight is not the choice of a winner.
We must strive together
So, we can enjoy the fruits of our suffering later
For whatever happens between you and I
I will still forever be the MotherWho will love, support, endure and ride
The troubled waves with you.
To eventually walk beside you toward the enduring Great
White Light.
I Love you forever , dear child. Forgive me.
Friendship prevails.....my thanks and love to you!
The sadness deepened for a whole night and day
Till my tears would flow no more
I felt alone and unconsoled
Until He led me to the path
Of acceptance and love
The thoughts and goodwill
Of fellow matesMy friends came through for me
By their words and kind attention
From far across the seas
An immediate effect on my heart and soul
Began the journey of healing
The love came through
To erase my pain
To let me knowIt's all ok , once again
People come and people go
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The ones sifted by lifeWho will remain forever dear
The meetings we share though near or far
Will forever be imprinted on my soul
Forever be remembered till there's no more
I am eternally grateful for His guidance and blessings
To show me who the rare gems are in
My life , dismal sometimes
Happy most timesThere is always a balance in everything
And true friendship is equitable to
The harmonious living between Heaven and Earth
The pairs of negative and positive poles
have proven itself in the last few days
In meetings with newcomers
As opposed to the old ones
Understanding of self is most importantUltimately it will be reflected
A word of truth from a sincere friend means more
Than a thousand lies to make you feel good.
A true friend is the honest friend
Who will steer you away from disasters
Let what has been said be a reminder from this heart
Of an old soul
Passing through this world to
Help those that will share her life for the short
Journey will one day end
But what shall forever live within
Is the true heart that shared the inner most secrets
Because of love, sharing and concern
May we all be blessed with honest friendship.
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Whos in charge here?I was out all last night.
I discovered things I never had.
I always wondered why God would send the wrath
And I discovered why last night.
He gave us dignity, we abuse ourselves.
He gave us joy, we create our pain.
He sent us Light, we choose the darkness.
So, how can we complain?The ways of this world is degradation.
Our simple choices without thoughts.
We take the easy way out to follow our desires without
responsibility.
Never a second thought of the consequences.
When we reflect on what we have done, have we done our
best?
When we look back at past experiences, are we still at the
old habits?
When we look into ourselves, are we recognizing the
person we see?
When we ask ourselves, are we happy; can we confidently
say yes?
The rules are not meant to be broken
If we follow the One who created themFor life was not meant to be a disaster
But somehow, we have managed to master that.
I ask the one in charge of this country
Why do you allow such abnormalities
To occur within a system which you dictate
In one which you encourage to follow His laws.
Yet when I go out on the streets I stil see the poor
The needy, the helpless, the beggarsThe destitute, the shambles and the filth.
I see all the unfairness of your un-work!
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Broken promises forever will prevailUntil you have the courage to make reasonable changes
Get off your big chair and come down to their level, sit on
the floors in their hot homes
Drink from their cups and bath with their boor water.
Try driving in the traffic without the police bells wailing
to
Give you right of way
When everyone else has to wait for their turn in the heatand traffic,
As the old bugger is pushing his cart of wares or food just
to earn a measly sum.
You know, for all the naked lady-boys dancing on bar tops
And karaoke girls from China and Russia liven your
rooms,
The entrepreneurs could never succeed unless they have
your permissionWhat is it all about?
I want to stand on a rock and yell out," What are you
doing?
Are you blind?"
No wonder the disasters strike
And there's no way to ask for His help when
I know you just don't care.
Lost love woes
Til' I met you
Until I knew you
I kept myself
Forever
The time cameAnd I gave it up
For that special time
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Of claimOh, Don't I know
That I should've never let go
That I shouldve tried
To put it right
Now, that all has passed
And all I have are the memories
That all I yearn
Are the luxuriesOf true love
The one love
The unsurpassed highs
The undeniable lows
The delights in mountains
Of desires
The immeasurable wonders
Of illusionsBut now, after all is passed
All I see
Are the empty promises
of what was meant to be.
The warrior spirit
There he was standing behind me
We both looking from the shore
We looked towards the horizon at something
Yet at nothing
He smiled at me, his special smile and
Gazed with bright and shiny eyesAs if to say, Hello and Hey
It's all going to be okay.
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We're all here now and soon you will seeMy dear darling, that it was all supposed to be
This way, although you've been alone
And afraid; be so no more.
And so we smiled and nodded
With our eyes still looking to the horizon
Waiting for the ship to dock
And for everyone else to come off.
They're here he said, let's goIt's time to face our foe
But before we do and set things right
We have one more task, you know.
We see the little man in black, from afar
He skips and flees
And glimpses back to see
How far we are
As we follow him throughHis path of pebbled walk
Excitedly, anxiously
We tread with glee
At last the path widens
The heavy doors are opened
The revelation is pronounced
She opens a piece of her mountain
She gallantly proclaims
Here is your gold
I am aware and I say
Yes, I know.
The time will be soon
When one will be groomed
To take the reins and reign
With all the warriorDaughters and sons.
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Broken AngelThey came and they went
These beings of trustworthiness
Presumably feelings of love
We love you, they proclaim
One after the other
We love you ,We need you
Forever, Don't go
The nations of peopleAfraid of loss
Try to acquire
What which they require
With all actions and with all words
They spoke with fervent fire
They acted most consistent
In their charge towards a destiny
They mighted with great force and
Energies from within
Supplied and fuelled by
Never-ending declarations of
Unending adoration.
As the zest incited pleasures increased
Without barricades
Emotions consumed each heartTil' their own undoing of self-admonishment
They suddenly fell in a heap of exhaustion
Gasping and gulping for air
As when the final blow hit
An agreement of consummation demanded for conquest
She then came down to console,
Her long white scarf wafting in the wind;
She gathered the crushed self of disbeliefAnd started to nourish and mend
The broken soul of heaven's gift
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The loss of auroral sensesThe clouded mysterious wall of gloom
The bent heartstrings of spirit
She sat through all illness
She complained not a word
Not a strain of severity
Only her soft breath of warming love
Her fingers stroked
Her hands feathered and touchedShe seemed to reignite the spark
That fearless wars had inflicted
Her stay was brief , a night and some day
Forthwith she went away.
Leaving only her scent and flitted scarf,
I felt my Mother's devotion, an uttered voice , a sigh.
Series of queries
Have you ever seen a butterfly with a broken wing?
She struggles to fly but fails
She sits there till the wing mends
Hidden from sight beneath a leafy tree.
Did you ever see a dragonfly leap and sweep ?
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Over the waters so fast over calm watersNever to dare adventure far
too close to dangers of falls.
Did you ever see an eagle fall?
While sweeping in to get it's prey
Her keen eyesight never betrays
She never fails.
Did you ever see an elephant fly
Or a donkey smileOr a tiger hibernate
Or a monkey bray?
Life is full of possibilities and hope
Life is not without succour
Life is full of absurdities and faults
Yet life still offers valour.
I tend to imagine a perfect life
With perfect happinessI tend to wish for flawless beginnings and
neverendings.
I tend to endeavour the humble becomings
And greater effect of empowering self.
I am inclined to be self deceived
An atonement for selfless innocence.
How much does it take to create a perfection?
How much does it take to encroach humanity?
To succumb toward a native desire
Of Love's perfect nature?
Inspire a change
I looked at the people around me
I felt disillusioned and disappointedI decided to shut the doors
that led to the core
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And I drifted awayI looked at them and I felt sad
I knew I couldn't help them
It isn't my job to change you
and what you are
It isn't for me to change your world.
You must do this for yourself
So, I was sad and so I was disappointed
At the cruelty of deceit and liesand I just drifted away.
I may come back when I feel better
I may share your path again
But if I dont suffice to say
I wish things would be different
I shun crowds but now I run to them
because I just want to drift away.
I drifted far enough though I am still afarI observe from where I am not knowing
If I want to stive in this path.
I shed the tears of silent grief
as if I know I will never
Ever drift too far for I will always
Want to be near.
So, I am told it's not your job to make the changes.
It is your path to be the change.
The changes within will then affect
Them on the outside.
The job is not for you to worry but be concerned about this
world,
this Earth and all that
Reside therein.
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Game of loveIt's all a game of love , this life
The game starts as the whistle blows
The whistle of whispers that feed the soul
Telling us whom and how; to bequest.
This game of love, it mingles
our breaths , our hearts
It embodies the regions
Seeking soothing sensations.Unbeknown , we become
the searchers of Truth
For the Love we seek is in itself
The sought vital life force.
Can we personify what we seek?
To be entwined in it's drunken state
Of divine craving; we release our
Mutual egoistic selves, we are unique.
Love and lovers, driven ecstasy.
Universal companions, forever.
Drowning in each pleasures
secure and emblazed shooting stars.
Come, no more play,the whistle is silent.
The horns proclaim the wishes
Where from withinThe love desires hearken.
Live love the life with innocence
The incredible gift, it's essence.
Sweet angelic breaths rustles,
Love motions the lovers' potion.
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Logical loveIt is only for the best that I leave so you can rest.
It is only because I love, That I can let go.
If the paths should cross once more.
May that day be the best moment of my life.
To see you happy is my only desire.
The ways of this world may seem unfair, unbalanced;
the price we pay for happiness seems alot.
It sometimes comes with no guaranteesAnd alot of dashed hopes.
A broken heart will heal in time
Broken hopes and broken dreams, do not.
Take time to reflect and rearrange your prerogatives.
And you shall soon see
that the decision I make is only for your goodness.
As a woman I wish to be paraded.
As a woman I wish to be showered with
Your unending love and attention.
As a woman I cannot share the feelings between loves.
Our bond shall never cease.
Although physically apart.
Forever I shall keep you in my heart.
Time for a moment's reflection.It is time for reflection
This moment to review
To analyse
To plan
Then to activate.
In these moments, dwell on what you want
what you need
How to attain andAction.
You look pass the nonsense of others
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there will be those who you passThat will give you anguish
Shudders of disgust
There will be those who try to deactivate you.
Stop! Ponder the moment.
release yourself from hopelessness and
Negative people,negative situations
negative thoughts.
Focus on devotionFocus on nurturing self
How? Meditate your own goodness.
Fill the spaces with love.
Our journey, as spirits in this shell
Is to diversify and impact
Full unconditional
Love for humankind.
Be the shiny star that permeates abundance to Earth.Be thankful for what you have
Share what you can
Offer your help and encourage goodness.
If everyone did a small part, the jigsaw will
piece together and the wonderful
Big picture will be realised.
Do what makes you happy and you will generate good and
happy thoughts and feelings.
Don't just think it, feel it, BE!
Gratitude
Oh Allah, I thank you for the ability to be patient in my
circumstance
when others are unconcernedOh Allah, I thank you for the wisdom to know better
when others show thoughtlessness
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Oh Allah, I thank you for the little disabilitieswhich help me to understand others' inabilities
Oh Allah, I thank you for the small heartaches
when compared to others' greater disappointments
Oh Allah, I thank you for the courage to persevere
when others' make things more difficult
Oh Allah, I thank you for supporting me
when others' have let me go
Oh Allah, I thank you for the umbrella which shelters mefrom the rains
when others' don't care how wet I get
Oh Allah, I thank you for the use of one leg even when the
other gets tired each day I go up many stairs
and others' only ask me if I am alright
Oh Allah, I thank you for revealing secrets so I know better
next time
when others' promises are brokenOh Allah, I thank you for hard times which increase me
with knowledge
To survive every day
Oh Allah, I thank you for the tools and knowledge which I
use each day
Oh Allah, for every good there is an "un-good"
Oh Allah, for every positive there is a negative
Oh Allah, for every yin there is a yang
Make me balanced in and out of my day and night,
Through my life;
In my future that I shall become
The balanced person equipped with strength, knowledge,
wisdom, courage and fortitude to be a role model for those
less fortunate than myself
For the sake of unconditional love for humankind.
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Brain clutter.Confusion, bewilderment
Progress indefinite
Clutter, removal
Relocation, undeliverable
Collections, ostentatious
Accumulation discontent
Authority, provoking
Discomfort chaosOrganisation disparity
Discerning displacement
If a brick is on the ground , pick it up
It could be it may cause hurt to someoneelse
If a brick is in your heart
Replace it by releasing the weight to the Universe
Identify your doubts
Identify your weakness
Clarify your purpose
Strengthen your focus
Don't sweep things under the carpet
Face your fears , head on
With gusto , know your choices
Take action, you will achieve only when you try.
Smile as you face each situation, know you havesolutions.
Fallen bridge
150 in all... thousand??
There're so many people with nothing, stop throwing
money around!
Shudder...
The house was swaying,The surroundings bleak,
The movement of the earth.
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Oh please, don't let it be so God.The tremours I feel them;
I walk towards the outside;
A man is leaning on the railings, some people trying to
help;
A white cloth slips over them.
I move back into the house,
It's empty, holes in the ground.
I look aroundTwo people follow me.
I am looking for the little ones
Where are they?
I am back outside,
what was once there is no more
The waters are covering everything.
The highway has collapsed ,one side leaning into the
waters.The old lady said, 'It's all gone, a hundred and fifity
altogether."
A small ship has docked at the foot of the ruins
From where I stand I observe, the many on the waters in
small boats, saved.
Come in, I am told, come in.
But where are the little ones, I asked?
As I look around, feeling a sense of awe and overwhelming
grief.
They are safe, I am told
They will be safe.
I look and see them high upon the top
Caged and calling out to me, I want to get to them
But how?
Come on in , they told me againThey will be safe.
A mixed feeling of regret, disbelief but some relief;
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I see the little ones jumping and calling me.Come , they say again.
I scream. But not without my babies!
I stir from a disturbing scene and raise my hands in prayer
Dear God, Keep us safe
May this only remain a dream.
A secret from my heart.
It started to rain early that morning
the entourage had arrived
In droves they multiplied
Heralding welcome.
The veils of white beauty lashed her spirit
As the rains came and beckoned.
It halted notBut brazenly pelted her wonderment.
The long journey hastened speed
The rains washed the debris of gloom.
Her fresh scent filled the aromatic air
As the horses raced and tigers sped.
Towards her welcome,
Towards her grace,
Towards her undeniable hospitality.
The entourage of greeters
Stood at her palace gates.
With sounds of beautiful serenades
Among the land and sea,
We passed by them
And headed on towards
The gleaming ocean.As we rose above the stairs in awe
Were we gathered , towards
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The throne room of her beautifulMajestic Queen of the Southern Seas.
Kanjeng Ratu Roro Kidul.
That is each feeling I get
Whenever I am invited
By her in whose hands God Wills
Me to meet; at special and
historical places.
Dear to me is my Queen and motherDear to us all.
We all are missing and hoping
To get the glimpse out of a dream.
Where our energies shall combine and feel always whole
Dear and close to her bosom and side.
She shall never be far.
The fall of the impoverish.
The poor came for any relief
The rains poured and kept pouring
Through the floods they kept arriving
To no safe place were they heading
Accept to a smaller enclosure not of any comfort.
Noone bothered
As they were sardinedthe children and the old women,
The old men and the young
As they kept multiplying for a miserly offering
Were encroached by feeble monetary gains
When their output would deliver heavenly gains
Were they not entitled to a better leverage
At least to be seated where comfort was available
Only through proper choice of the right personOnce delivered the summons and information
Borne by none older than ten
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I left my heart and soul there.I hear you calling my name
Beckoning me back from across the seas.
this daughter was not born on the land
But my heart is Jowo for sure.
I keep feeling the cool breeze from the lands of the ancient
I hear the soothing sounds of gamelan
I smell the sandalwood fragrance of oils and woods
The caresses of sweet affection.The tears and joy are all part
Of my homesick feeling for Tanah Jawa
your daughter will be home soon.
Missing the innocence of her.
There are alot of things I miss.....
Mostly I miss the innocence of her being and her laughter.
When did she decide she grew up?
or is she just hiding behind a facade, so she doesn't get
more hurt and disillusioned about the life she sees.
The unfairness of being "abandoned"
She trusted one of them to care and be there,One wants to and the other doesn't bother.
Has she gone into her world where even if it's black and
white, she can still discover some colours?
I miss her so much...
Even when she's there , she's far away.
When will the child I had appear again?
I know she's in there...... somewhere.
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My pledge of allegiance to my Master.The moments of life drift past
Anything that is, always passes.
We seem to differ yet remain same
One thing always connects to the other
So, we just let life flow.
The amazing wonders and beauty surpasses
all imagination,
when we realise that we are a part of all His creationAnd that we are all connected.
Forgiving and accepting,
Justifying and denying,
diffusing and appearing.
Hauntingly beautiful is life
when we capture the moments
That glorify the essence of being and
existing;
Through this journey let us then acknowledge the
Grandeur of creation and the Creator
The Being of beings
The Majestic splendour of Essence Divine.
I attribute myself to Thee.
My love"I love with a heart that overflows with genuine care and
concern ,
an essence bestowed upon me for this journey.
I love with an eternal light from the One source.
I love from within exuding to all, without expecting
anything for it except to see the smiles and joys it may
bring.
I love to show the world that it is all going to be alright.I love to share the gift from Heaven , to make a space of
Divine peace on earth.
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A small complementary gift to open the awareness forthose that are willing to receive it.
I love without doubts that you are truly deserving of the gift
of enduring energy from Life.
I love so you may keep the hope alive."
Succumbed.
Passions yield to her
Her mind is electrified,her being intensified.
The temple from the seas has risen to
Repossess the humbled one.
With full and utter adoration , she throws her self to his
feet
Inviting and imploring , gracious love and
Feelings of worthy devotion.
Indicating the future from which she moves towards
And summoning energies from worlds apart
She has succumbed to the call.
At his mercy she hands the keys
Of all the kingdom.
Her majestic force becomes his magisterial growth.
To ride together with bare horse backs
Like days of yore;The days from whence they passed
Through light years and ions.
Nothing shall keep them apart , twin gory.
Perfect in dimensions in heart and soul.
For he is truly noble and strong.
I am here not far.
There's a certain missing when someone close doessomething different
There's a certain missing when she seems to have left you
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all aloneThere's a certain missing when you feel you've been jilted
There's a certain missing when she leaves your world
Take heart, she's still there for you
Take heart she is taking her own path
Take heart she will never fully go away
Take heart she will always be here to stay
For in the moment when life seems difficult
It's only because changes must happenTo be able to perform and go ahead
As though nothing actually really changes, is the mission.
The life offers many open doors
And the door to true happiness is within oneself
It is within one's choices, take it
For we only live once
The opportunity for happiness will never pass
But the way we perceive happiness can be affectedWhen we allow ourselves to indulge
That only others can give us happiness
Please be true to yourself and live
Your dreams shall never fade
Please be true to yourself and allow the moments to engulf
Your beating heart has a momentum of it's own
Do not grief about her absence
Celebrate in her joy
For true friends shall never cease
No matter how or when or where
Be my friend, be my past
My present and my future
The hope of reunion
One day will be the reprieve.
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My love, my loveOh , my darling; I cannot stand it
When the look in your eyes reflect the loss and
bewilderment
Oh, my darling; I cannot stand it
To think if in any way I may be the cause of your pain
Oh, my darling; I cannot stand it
To know that the parting is piercing your heart
As it is mine.Oh, my darling; I want always to be the light that inspires
you
In your moments of loss and gloom
Oh, my darling; I want always to be the cradle for you to
rest your weary spirit
Oh, my darling; I want always to be the one who fills the
void
From which you are nourished and enriched
To flow and grow
Incessantly.
Oh, my darling please accept my insecurities
As being the one who loves you the most,
I cannot bear to share you, to part from you.
Although I know, I cannot possess you.
I shall always be one with you as long as we breathe in thisworld.
You have my heart and soul and I have yours.
I believe that being one is undeniably our destiny.
Loves Poison
Oh what is the pining feeling
Creeping into my soul
Oh why is that I am too affected? When I knew to be wellprepared
That when I opened up my heart and soul
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To receive , even when to give.I knew I would have to face the challenges
Of feelings and emotions
Although, it has been entombed forever it seems
Jealousy
Poison of love
Get out of my heart
Imagery , nonsense, illusions
A devil in my mindIt's only because I love you so deep.
To think of you with anyone else but me
Leaves me heart ripped and gaping
I know the other loves went away, I know that I am here to
stay
Forgive me for not relenting, allowing the flare to
emblazon my soul
It is only that I feelI know that what I feel is deep rooted love from the days
Long ago.
Jadore
My body and soul rocks
With fervour when I enjoin myself with your essence
I feel whirled in a tornado of loveI sweep across oceans and miles of desert
Crescendos and accession in a magical moment.
I enter your world and you decorate my heart
With joys of laughter
You fill my life with hope and peace
I only need to watch you and feel
A sense of gracious presence
From Him who gave you to meI love you from a depth
deep inside the crevices of my being
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I love you totally and unafraidUnabashed and wholesome
Love permeates my spirit
I adore you, J'adore.
Love emanates from your presence
Your eyes shine and sparkle with it
I cannot think how I should be without you
All I know and feel is you, in my aura and my world, my
Love.
THE WISDOM BEGAN TO FLOW IN
Bismillah hirohmaiiRohiim
Allah guide me please.
Yaa Mujiibu Yaa Kareem Yaa Hanan
Yaa Annaas, Ya Annaas, Ya Annaas.
Taubat, taubat, taubat
The time is coming when the one will come and the time
will be no more. The time for taubat will be no more, when
he comes.
Oh mankind, oh mankind, oh mankind repent. When the
sea becomes the sky and the sky becomes the sea. That will
be a sign, when the time to repent will be no more.
I love you but my soul is sad and the time will be when thesinners will not be accepted their repentance, if not now
they repent.
When he comes it is a sign that the world will not have
much time left. Yaa annas , ya annas, ya annastaubat.
Remind, remind, remind
Ingatkan , ingatkan, ingatkan Yaa Dzal Jalalu
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Poem for the coming one.In your face I see my hope
In your face I see my joy
In your gaze I see the love
In your face
I feel all love
The greatness of the One whom my sou'ls seat holds
I see your light
Your beaconyour arrival shall bring
In my heart your voice resounds and in my soul your
nurture is
I miss you when you are not here
I love you and wait for your entrance
A wait of pride and hope
A wait of everlasting anticipated joy
You are the one that will seal it all
A time when we in want
And we in need
Will be vindicated
Will be elated
and shall be freed
My long awaited, beholder of The Cherisher's Bounty
I await to herald youI implore the One above
to hasten the time.
Oh please My Divine.
The way you speak in words so sweet
The way you bravely and loyally defend
The way you show me how much you love
And how great you care.
The responsibility in your actions yet unseenIn my mind it is real
I see everything noone else does and
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In that world, I feelI have everything and more.
My strength is you
My support is you
My bravery is you
My confidence is you
My medal is you
My ultimate recognition is you.
Because of you, my life will be complete.I thank the One whose Light is infinite
For the honour to be bestowed.
Death Of self
There she lay
All in white
And turned on her side
Her hair, black ,wavy, flowing
In stillness and silence.
Her presence in her stillness
Emanated her glow.
left behind, saddened.
A death of self, a death of desires.
There he lay beside her
Clutching her body, lifelesshe sensed her withdrawal from the world
he held her to relieve her pain, it seems
Although he was in pain.
He clasped his arms around her lifeless body
He kept his self close to her
as if to merge.... a death of temptations
A rise in faith.
He was her rock and he was the faith , come to rescue.The death of nafs, of desires.
Her freedom to exist.
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Above , with eyes aflamered and eerie,
A vision of past desires.
Defeated.
There they waited and tasted
Love and faith, winners of the struggle.
Survivors of the war on self.
THE MONTH OF RAMADAN, 2010 (Series of dialogueswith Angel Jibril)
THE MONTH OF RAMADAN, 2010
Dialogue with angels I
Maha Suci Allah. Maha atas segala sesuatu. Kasi jalan
keluar, jalan baik, jalan untuk pisah boleh. Malaikat
hajatkan doa nanya mujabah malaikat , hambaAllah kata
justice nanti ada. Cari ketenangan jiwa in zikir, ibadah yang
Laa ilaa ha ila anta subhanaka inni kuntu minazalimiin
dan ibadah-ibadah lain yang Kanjeng Ratu Kidul Nur
Shufiya sudah tau. Hadirkan malaikat-malaikat Ramadan
untuk membawa doa ke Allah, Lauh Mahfuz langsung
kabul, insyaallah. Jaminan janji roh ke Allah lahir batin in
this world love Allah love Rasulallah (saw) , in the akirat
jaminan Jannah, insyaallah.Ana malaikat yang kasiLorraine nur cahaya Muhammad (saw) in Singapore waktu
Lorraine minta Allah kasi lose pain ,ana yang dengar jadi
ana bawa ke Allah. Hikmah utusan hambaallah bawa dan
hikmahkan Laa ilaa ha ilallah kunci dalam hati. Ijazah
yang mulia untuk Lorraine Branson.
Ya, buku untuk kasitau cerita hikmah langsung.
Zikir, manjat doa, insyaallah Kabul.
Gelar is real. Nama roh Kanjeng Ratu Kidul Nur ShufiyaLalang Bahari Siti Rabiah name dari syurga yang
membawa amanah untuk manusia zaman ini.Hikmah
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amanah , iman yang kuat, lahir batin, love Allah loveRasulallah (saw), Muhammad bin Abdullah wa Aminah ,
nama jangan lupa, langsung make sholawat. Hormatilah
jungjungan nabi kita Muhammad (saw).
Dialogue with angels II
Nawaitu malaikatu Laa ilaa ha ila anta subhanaka inni
kuntu minazalimiin . La baik Allah humma la baik, innal
hamda wa nikmata wal mulk, laa syarika lak. Ijazah Allah
hikmah kasi ke Kanjeng Ratu Kidul Nur Shufiya in jannahzikir malaikat barakah bawa, hanya minta lahir batin jadi,
Gusti Allah Yang Maha Kuasa.
Habaikanlah manusia,
Yang bulan Ramadan bulan mulia,
Hadapi Allah jannah kayaknya langsung bawa doa-doa
manusia
Nangisan-nangisan manusia jangan di sia-sia
Marhaban Ya Ramadan bulan suci dan mulia.Nabi Muhammad(saw) nabi kita
Bawa hikmah Maha Kuasa
Jadi bila puasa
Ingatlah baginda.
Yang ke halamannya ziarah
Bawa niat omrah
Cara insyaallah, bawa jaminan syurga.
Jadi manusia ingat Jannah
Tempat kalian kembali ke Allah
Dialogue with angels III
Can you tell me the poem you said before? In joy, I shall.
Inna malaikati hikmah kata
Ilmu ijazah Kanjeng Ratu Kidul Nur Shufiya
Hikmah karena firasat kasih saying
Hikmah bawa amanah AllahHikmah karena lama saja
Hikmah kabar hikmah syurga
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Yang pasti nama hikmah nama IslamNama jaya nama kaya
Nama ijazah Nur Shufiya
Hamba Allah yang Jawa bukan
Hati nurani payung Islam
Zahir batin Allah janji Jannahtu naiim
Milih pimpin wakili annaas
Bikin doa insaf
Malaikat-malaikat yang naungHijabkan hikmah kasitau
Sampai ketemu sebuah waktu
Hijab naik, iman naik
Mantap hikmah, naung doa
Hai orang-orang yang beriman
Ini sebuah pelajaran
Insyaallah, janji bila
Kalau ketemu , jadikan hati jinak tidakKarena hikmah lawan, iyya kanabu malaikat bertahankan
Ajimatkan hikmah zikir, hikmah insaf
Hikmah Kanjeng Ratu Kidul Nur Shufiya bawa
Hikmah ijazah kaafirun insaf
Jadikanlah pelajaran yang kuat
Jadikanlah tuntunan malaikat kisah
Kanjeng Ratu Kidul Nur Shufiya Lalang Bahari Siti Rabiah
Janjian Allah yang nyata
Jaga diri, jangan katakan
Ini maya sajak.
Karena malaikat hikmah bawa jauh jarak
Insyaallah ana ingin
Yang baca yakin
Baca Al Fatehah, Ya Siin
Baca Al Waqiah yang jaminJamin zikir Allah hu Allah
Jauhkan riba, jasa zakat masyaallah
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Ghibah jangan, fii jannah insyaallah.
Women of strength and might
Oh an ode to the women of this world
The struggles you put up with
Oh the women of this world
The strength you muster everyday
You educate your children and you mould the future
Oh the strong women of today.Gather strength and knowledge
Of the brave ones now gone
And those whom are left.
Keep up the dignity of womankind
Don't allow bad situations to make you down
And always keep your pride as the ones who give life.
I never knew about the role until I had five more of me
My legacy to this world are them
A decree in it definitely.
For five more of me to continue
Inherently what must be
A better future which begins with me.
You are not stupid as some might say to
Make you feel little and discredit you,
For know that in those uttersAre a reflection of their own faults.
Say what you feel, intelligently
Say what you mean, articulately
Say how you want to say it
And be whatever you say.
Be responsible as a woman and then go ahead as a mother,
a future builder
A positive society needs;Be brave as Indira and Aung San
Be a leader like Benazir,
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Be gentle as Mother Teresa,And as prayerful as Mary.
Be beautiful and powerful as did Princess Grace
Be a legacy, do your little part.
Make a stand and statement with the kindness
That only a woman may have.
Undo the effects of a patriarchal society
A male dominated regime, is surely not permissible
As Allah Ta'ala created us all equal.The only difference we have is only in brute strength
As all other faculties seem to meet equal at all ends.
Hence, my ode to strong and versatile women.
A pledge I believe in.
A mother's love
A mother's love is multi dimensional
She will yell and scream at her teen, with love
She will stay awake through the night with a sick child,
with love
She will small smack your tiny hands , with love
She will muck around with her kids , with love
Sometimes events occur, which she has no control off
If it makes her mad, it's with love
It's with love that a mother devotes her energy to herchildrens' well being
Though not always her smile radiates
It's with love through her heart, she shines
As teens we grow and see her as monstrous
Though she was not that when she cradled you
Though she may sometimes seem inattentive
Be rest assured she knows
A mother has three times rights over her childrenIt is with this responsibility she does
What she can and needs to
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To plant the seeds of wisdom, eventhoughShe may seem tough, it is with love
That she is
Because a true mothers' love will scream at you and hug
you straight after
She'll feel your tears and no matter
She will always have a space in her heart for you.
A true mothers' love is faultless.
~Lorraine Nur for Rahmani
The cold war
The cold war
Begins again,
Nothing is earned
There is no gain!
The cold war
The ultimate rejection
And refusal of pain
There are no winners in the game!
The cold war constitutes bitterness
Encumbers ill fated feelings
And loses the actors
Awards and decrees
A cold war makes no senseThere is no justification
There is no knowledge and no lesson
There is no blessings, it fetters!
To put to shame ego and callous remarks
Insignificant pride and prejudice
It culminates on one or the other to exalt peace.
The cold war serves an ill purpose.
It causes disintegrationIt dismembers
There is no lesson here.
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The cold war makes strangers of those involvedDisillusions from a hateful heart
An unmindful soul
It upheavals the environment
It denies peace and love.
Apologies aren't accepted
A cold heart has been created
A miser and a loser
A lost wayfarer.Dear heart, be brave
For with everything
There is the silence which will guide you through it all.
The waning soul
The waning heart of a sick soul
The unfed soul kept hidden
The soul which lacks it's nourishment remains as if in death
He cannot move and has no say
He is left to deteriorate and decay
He wants to ignite the vigour and energy
But he cannot, chained and bound
By the dirt and filth of Nafs.
Nafs, a hateful and aggravating
A disease of the heart, soul and mindNafs, a whisper of infection
From words to defile
It causes a sickness virus
Which consumes and eats
Everything that is good within.
Nafsattacks Ruh
Nafsregurgitates Ruh
Nafsdismembers and hurts RuhNafskills Ruh.
Food of the soul
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ALLAH HU ALLAHA truly effortless choice
An inbuilt mechanism
Triggering will, instantly explode
A monsterous surge of healing power
Yielding a sword, Ruh kills Nafs
Wielding the banner of ALLAH HU ALLAH
For only this is the cure for all infections caused by Nafs
Only in this is the healingAnd in only this is the power
ALLAH HU ALLAH HU ALLAH HU ALLAH!Fill your house with food and love
Fill your heart that is,
For that is partly where the soul resides
From the mental to within.
That small ozone hole in the body
Must be sealed with the words,Unlike the ozone hole in the sky,
which has no hope of help.
Imagine that then with your mind's eye
An oozing of the Earth's life force.
Indefinitely, but fast, this whole Earth will be destroyed
There will be no rejoice.
Hence I say , feed the waning soul
Before all life oozes from the leaking heart
And all hope is the past.
Angel Guidance
I
They say I should be patient
They say I must remain strong
They say I shall overcome each testThey say I will never be defeated again
I say I cannot exercise patience with
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those who intentionally poke and prodTo annoy and to ridicule
even when the proofs are given.
I say my strength is my faith
And whomsoever revenges
Or retaliates,
I shall never back down.
I say, My Lord, afford me
The strength and wisdom toPass each stage of the tests
With the patience You have endowed me with.
I say, if I am defeated,
I win when I fight for
the Glory and Justice
Peace and Harmony
Of those I love.
My angel's love surpassesany in this world
My guides' loyalty and love
bring tears of gratitude
to Allah Ta'ala.
For in the moments of difficulty
In my moments of helplessness
He did send me help and spiritual sustenance
Who now, I hear
Who now,I recognize
As them who were always there to lend a helping hand
And although I never understood, I accepted with true faith
And surrendered it all back to Allah Ta'ala, back to my
Islamic roots
With zikir Allah Hu Allah.
~Lorraine Nur Shufiya~II
My do'a;
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Zikir Allah Hu Allah is the life force of all creationZikir Allah hu Allah makes a hard heart become soft
Zikir Allahu Hu Allah stabilises like a harbour
Zikir Allah Hu Allah makes the impossible become actual
Zikir Allah Hu Allah hinders man from Hell
Zikir Allah Hu Allah is the song of Jannah
Malaikat Hikmah
Zikir Allah Hu Allah
Gushes forth
All anyone can do is complain and criticize without
knowing any full details of my life in the past, its details
and the circumstances that drove me and motivated me in
the decisions I made. In reality, they were very painful
experiences which I faced , being criticized to any amount
without solutions is a damned act. To make me feel like I
made a huge mistake in my life is a momentous statement. I
have five children who are the life source of my ill fated
past. The future can be brighter as I must learn to accept
the past mistakes and be better for it. I have loose ends
which I must tidy up. I am not predisposed to the normal
financial freedom I had before nor am I at liberty to create
a stable environment for myself with my life apart from my
children and being in a foreign country which sees metrying to fix up all that went wrong. At this point it is not
the time to criticize me but offer support and assistance. I
get very emotional and sad when I have to think about
being ill treated and lied to. Taken for granted and cheated.
And exercising power in the wrong way to make it worse
than it already is , all the stumble blocks I face and keep
having to jump over, and I have been doing it slowly but
surely. Now, I face this horrible critic which in the end Isee no purpose in the direction of the conversation or give
me any helpful alternatives except to comment that my past
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was a horrible mistake. I might as well give up and give in,but I see their 5 lovely faces and I gain strength, and
hope... and feel blessed knowing that God is fair even in
trials and tribulations.
There is no hero.
My strength, my religion
My religion, my life
My religion, my guideMy religion, my choice
My religion, my belief
My religion, my diin.
Islam saved me, my soul
Islam, gave me purpose in life
Islam, still continues to regenerate me
Because Islam is not a religion
like how many perceive
Islam, teaches me , guides me, enlightens me
The ZAT of ALLAH
The Essence of The Divine is
In my Islam.
I potray it through my heart, in my words,
Through my eyes and my ears
Islam, foundation of my soulIslam, submission and peace
Affirmation, Rasulallah Muhammad, the last Messenger ,(
peace and blessings of Allah on him), is true
Solat, prostrate to another I shall never
Except in all humility to The One
Fasting, a cleansing of the physical body, de-tox
Charity, never made anyone poor.
Hajj, a blessed pilgrimageAn ultimate spiritual experience
The heart of Islam, Yaa Siin
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The Al Ikhlas, TauhidThe Ayat Kursi , a protection
The whole book, Al Quran, Nur Kareem.
Masyaallah, Allah has willed it
Insyaallah, may Allah will it
Subhanallah, Praises for Allah
Alhamdullillah, Thank you Allah
Astaghfirullah, Allah forgive me
Allahu Akhbar, Allah (God) is GreatHe has no son
He has no mother or father
He has no sons and daughters
Allah is Essence, ninety known to mankind
Allah is not He or She or It
Allah is Allah, Ya Hayyu Ya Qayyum
The Ever Living, The Self Subsisting
The Mighty and GloriousThe Truth, The Powerful.
There is no god but Allah, truly I have wronged myself.
Evil snaps
Evil snaps and will always find a way.
Beware the evil snaps!
Beware when he rears his ugly head!He may seem benign,
Though not far from the danger line
Will evil show it's ugly face.
Beware , when the evil snaps!
It can happen at no known time
It can happen at any time
In a most inappropretae time
Beware when evil starts it's gears!Beware when the evil snaps!
It shudders every particle and atom
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Each molecule trembles, awful stench of itWretched evil when it attacks
Beware, and stay calm.
The effect of evil is hot ears,
Impacted heavy heart,
Squashing the breath
Penetrating from all sides
In a proud and egoistical manner
Manipulating the thoughts and interrupting energy.Making one tired and weak
Beware! Then suddenly evil pounces on an unwary victim
Victim loathes , cries and creates a fort
A stance, a safe getaway
Beware, evil will trail and follow
Unrelenting, will mock, will command in tones of loud
thunderous bellows.
Evil may break the kindred spiritAnd leave it to decompose and die.
Evil has no compassion
Evil is pretentious and slaughters
Evil will swallow whole and spit nothing out
Evil will clench it's claws into the depths of the injured
heart
Till so unbearable the hurt
So agonising to breathe, look, listen or feel
You would wish you were dead.
Beware the evil when it snaps,
Will chase you out , will horrify with insults
With no thought of recompense
Does evil dwell in every heart of each human
Evil wants to merge with as many slaves to desires and
emotionsIt creeps inside as an unseen enigma
Vowed to establish a kingdom within
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Beware, never give inBeware, always stay strong in protection of
Faith, Hope, Strength, Love and Peace.
Kaleidoscope
Can I have you and my life too?
Can I have you integrated and synchronised
That even when I don't see you, I see you
Even when you go, you are nearCan I have you and my life too?
Never changing and always engaged
Connecting on all levels.
Never having to state , always forever knowing
Can I have you and my life too?
Never having to choose and
Never having to feel, broken?
Can I have you all prepared as the day I met you
Wrapped in the aura of golden love light?
Can I have you and life all one beautiful blend
A kaleidoscope of colorful rainbow images.
Can I have you and my life as each new dawn
Brings the freshness of the day ahead
And the musk of night for love?
Can I have you and my life as the whispers endears andbeckons
Gentle winds that waft through the leaves of a shady tree?
For you and my life are as my sun and my moon
The stars decorate our satin nights,
The wonder of you and my life in love.
No time for waiting.
What am I doing?Why am I just sitting here doing nothing?
Why am I just waiting?
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What am I waiting for?Why is it that I am positioned as a pleaser?
Am I not more than a decoration?
Don't you understand that my life,
That my time, is essential?
Don't you understand that my time is limited?
Don't you understand that I have NOtime to waste?
I cannot sit here and WAITto be of service.
I cannot sit here and WAIT to be told.I cannot sit here and wait while OTHERS need me.
What is expected of me
Is NOTwhat I am meant to be.
I am a woman of substance
Not just a woman with substance.
I am a carer
Not just a server.
I think , a re-think is sorely needed.Don't be condescending
Don't be patriachal
Don't pretend to know all
Don't pretend that I am needed.
Initial words have forged in my mind because it resounds
and is equal to the actions NOW!
Oh, how unfortunate....
Most unfortunate, to waste time and life on waiting
Silence
Silence is golden. It was so quiet you could hear a pin drop.
It's silence is deafening. It was so silent , I could hear
myself think.
Each day is filled with people aroundMovements and noise
Chatter and depleting energy
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The look of loveWhy am I amazed, or why am I distraught
When I know that the face is not what the soul is
That the form is not what the body is
That the love unconditional
Is radiated from a shapeless form
A form of light
A being with no looks
No eyes, no ears, no hands , no feetJust shapes of humans in light
Why am I offended that the human form is rejected
When what I feel is the souls connected
Why am I disappointed, when I know that radiated
Is already stimulated
The love based on the rays of light
From the formless shape
or the shapeless form
Both the one and the same
But not so the human form,
Which when is still attached to the brain and body
Is not the real dimension of love
That exudes from the soul
The soul that is a radiant being
Of energy and unconditional loveI miss that sleeping soul mate
Entrapped in the doctrinated and prison
Of a human life form
The soul encased and been infected by human thoughts
I miss that soul when the brain is not in charge
I see that soul, feel and love that soul.
Why am I compassionate even though hurt
Because what is seen is not what it truly isFor I see through the human form
To the soul form
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And I hear and see the spark of life , still glimmering withhope
Within the human casing.
One day, sweet soul,
You shall be released
And when you are,
Fly to me like a bird.
~Lorraine Nur for Said Walid~ Thursday, 16 June 2011 at
04:34
An ode to strong women
The struggles you put up with
Oh the women of this world
The strength you muster everyday
You educate your children and you mould the future
Oh the strong women of today.
Of the brave ones now gone
And those whom are left.
Keep up the dignity of womankind
Don't allow bad situations to make you down
And always keep your pride as the ones who give life.
I never knew about the role until I had five more of me
My legacy to this world are them
A decree in it definitely.For five more of me to continue
Inherently what must be
A better future which begins with me.
You are not stupid as some might say to
Make you feel little and discredit you,
For know that in those utters
Are a reflection of their own faults.
Say what you feel, intelligentlySay what you mean, articulately
Say how you want to say it
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And be whatever you say.Be responsible as a woman and then go ahead as a mother,
a future builder
A positive society needs;
Be brave as Indira and Aung San
Be a leader like Benazir,
Be gentle as Mother Teresa,
And as prayerful as Mary.
Be beautiful and powerful as did Princess GraceBe a legacy, do your little part.
Make a stand and statement with the kindness
That only a woman may have.
Undo the effects of a patriarchal society
A male dominated regime, is surely not permissible
As Allah Ta'ala created us all equal.
The only difference we have is only in brute strength
As all other faculties seem to meet equal at all ends.Hence, my ode to strong and versatile women.
A pledge I believe in.
Death Of self
There she lay
All in white
And turned on her sideHer hair, black ,wavy, flowing
In stillness and silence.
Her presence in her stillness
Emanated her glow.
left behind, saddened.
A death of self, a death of desires.
There he lay beside her
Clutching her body, lifelesshe sensed her withdrawal from the world
he held her to relieve her pain, it seems
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What I can say to you is remember Allah Ta'ala constantlyFree your mind from worldly clutter
And rearrange your life principles and beliefs
To inculcate goodness, kindness and loving
Trust, Friendship and Honesty
What I can also tell you is that
The angels are always at your side
Be there when you need a hand or a friendly nudge, to push
you through this lifeThis world is no Paradise
And Hell could be now
Yet with all this in mind , I make a stand
I will surely hang in there
For I do now understand the bits and pieces
Of this whole jigsaw life
In is no parade or fashion show
But it sure will help for us to see, that the main event and inthe big huge screen
Is one person called me.
So, my dears when the time is nigh
When the time draws close to the end
Be sure to say in your heart thank you Allah
An Astaghfirullah
And the last breath inhale and exhale
In full belief in ALLAH HU ALLAH.
LOST SOULS FREEDOM
They come , the lost ones
In hope and love, to askA small request after many years long waits
They come in throngs to ask
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They come because of a certain lightthey come towards a new hope
They feel a love from within
They come only to ask
Please allow me the gift of this love
They ask with so much intense
Unseen but heard, a request so pure
Fills me with a guise
They come only to ask forAlittle love to save their souls
All lost, amidst darkness
Then suddenly a light ...
The light to show them direction
to that place whence we should all go
There is a special prayer to be said
A loyal oath to take
Thence, comes forth the door of LightTo shed a way to freedom
There are trees, they say
There is water, I hear
My tears flow freely
I am blessed by a love so deep within
From a source I cannot truly comprehend
My angel praises God for this wonderful gift
From one world to the next.
Psychic Anomalies
So, you dont say what
You werent asked
And that makes you feel bad.
Because you feelThat what you have to say
Is important
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When you convey the messageYou will find it makes
No difference to them
If they know or not
Because what you say
In transmission
Is a reminder that is not extraordinary.
Therefore, the knowledge is not new
Not to impressBut to remind
They that have gone
Only want to remind
The choices are for
The ones left behind
To ponder about their lives
Enough to keep reminding self
That info received, keep quietUnseen and unheard
Use for self help.
The lesson from Rose.
Rose bushes teach us great lessons, pricks and thorns reveal
beautiful blossoms to admire, be careful if you want to
touch. .Carved a life with a person of fortitude
Who turned out to be a wilted rose
I gave fodder in alms and love
To no avail , the rose never blossomed
Engraved my vision into a solid mass
Felt it shiver to grow
But as time went on the shiver
Drizzled off and dried up slow.Longing love's fresh breeze
Swept across my face and seeped
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I entered your lifeI liked you
I saw something
different
I placed you on a pedestal
I tried to understand you
I watched you
I admired you
I learnt so much from youI observed
I entrenched myself in your world
I fit into your life
You were still prodding out from mine
You insisted on doing everything your way
I fought to have things done my own
I felt terrible and guilty at times
I could enjoy a normal lifeI had activities
I was personifying
An image I was shown
I was wrong and I got hurt
You were just a normal man
I spent most of my time in your presence
I discovered many deep secrets
Finally, when all things were revealed
I was tossed out
Cut off
Forgotten
This is my choice it is said
How extreme in ways do humans get
When one has no balance nor understanding
My bewilderment isThere were some great moments
Yet, I am told you gave in to my ways , alot
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So, if sincerely you didThen why should we part
Hence, I have to painfully admit
It was all deceit and conditions
For a justification
Of my wrong premonition
Or your ill altercations.
Pandangan HikmahAllahu Allahu Allahu
Berkah ini bisa menyelamatkan
Ill kencana of words
Always aim to hurt
Bocor hati iparat dengki
Sungguh dalam laut gelisah
Akan menimbul keadaan ombak
Besar ikut balik dan doa minta
Ada hikmah Kanjeng Ratu Kidul
Ada baik di bumi dan di akhirat
Akan dia kalah mind
Akan kalah kalau ancam
Akan kalah minal aidin wal fa izin
Bodoh lidahkan pinter tidak
Astaghfirullah bannerMana Islam poaskan tidak
Qamariah ada mendapati kakek
Aki ghaib rijal
Ajaib cupu di rumah
Kadar niat perbaiki
Amanahkan fisabilillah
Arahkan cupu diriaskan
Di loanganDi kamar
Liat, nanti hijau.Transcripted when channeling
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Evolution not revolution"This is the era of EVOLUTION not REVOLUTION!
Make the resolution.
Find the solution.
Make the contribution.
Stop corruption.
Stop prostitution.
Stop pollution.
Stop persecution.There is no substitution, start the execution.
Live the evolution,stop the justification and wrong
accusation.
Stop all starvation, litigation,exploitation,procrastination.
Build a nation.
Raise determination.
Anchor a strong foundation.
Build communication, encourage donation,show
affection,increase admiration,
Make an affirmation to uphold this declaration.
Men of the world,listen up!
Men of the world,listen up
Listen to the one voice from across the globe
My voice bellows from the depths of my beingStop all your nonsense , little boys!
I am a mother , I have children
I look at them as the future inheritors
I look at them as the future leaders
I am raising them to be efficient humans
Who do good and are using their balance
Of mind, body and soul.
They are mimicking the mother that can seeWhat shame you adult men are bringing to your mothers
Some may still have them
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Some may notOnce, you were tiny and could do nothing for yourself
Now, that you are grown and all intelligent and powerful
You have forgotten what it was like ot be a helpless child
In your mother's arms.
Listen to me,
Do not bring shame upon the womb that nurtured and bore
you
In pangs of pain she delivered you into this worldWith hopes that you would one day make a difference
A positive impact on society
That with your mother's prayers and hopes
You have become who you are today
Men of the world,
Do not forget
That you have been entrusted to perform a duty
A duty to protect and to provideA duty which has entitled you to gain respect
But if you put yourself to shame
By ill behaviour
Then, you have only yourself to blame
Your mother did not teach you to massacre innocent lives,
including children's'
Your mother did not teach you to lie and deceit
Your mother did not teach you disrespect
Remember, the women you kill, are mothers too.
Look into their eyes, imagine that she is your mother
Fall on your knees to heaven and beg for forgiveness and
reproach
You are nothing better than an ant when you
Do all the horrible war crimes,
When you spread drugsWhen you beat up women
when you kill children
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You are nothing more than dirtWhen you forget your roots, when you were not a thought
in your mother's mind.
Men of the world, you are somebody's child
A woman who shared with you her life and sacrificed for
you and
Your happiness and well being
Wake up.
Make her proud that she did not go throughAll the pain, to see a monster now.
To all world leaders and military men
Who are unjust and corrupt.
Listen to me , a mother of your future.
Disillusion impersonation
I know I must do what I must, yet it is hard tearing away.
But for my best sake and self, I must do it soon.
Although I will be on my own once more,
I tried and gave the best I could.
I cannot any more be drained
For there are many more who need me to be
The prime and fit
Soul I aim.
I gave and gaveI didn't think to take much
I gave and gave my all
With no thought of the effects to them and me
I gave and gave and saw
Nothing but just taking and taking
From my soul.
Zappers and Givers
I hear the terms alotZappers , keep taking and drowning us in with them
I try to stay afloat but now I am almost drowning
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My lungs are bursting for airI struggle in the depths and the waves
Are huge and over powering
Sometimes , there seems to be a calm
But , now I know , that was
The calm before the storm.
My heart , burdened
The thought is a burden
To make any move is a burdenTo sit and wait is a burden
I have so much to do,
I tried and tried
But what I saw ,
Only I was trying.
I gave and gave ,
I forfeited and sacrificed
My hopes are now dashed and the weight is drawing meunder.
I am sorry, no depression any more for me to see and hear.
I cleansed and it never became clear
Never clear enough to allow the light in
The light travels and goes through, no open door did it find.
You have fallen from the sky and died.
You have chosen your path.
With you, don't seek joy, you said.
I was trying to share what joy I had.
Darkness, only darkness.
Sadness , is the cloak you wear.
Artificial vision and mission,
To be the best in life
To offer the best of yourself,
That the proof lies in the amount of friendsAnd great career,
With no economical troubles
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And no worries.A soul measures how much love we feel and transfers this
Through thought, action and words.
A positive energy emerges and a shining , smiling face.
Don't hide behind the facade of intelligence and intellectual
capacities
To justify or nullify
For in