eleanor hazard.

lettrs to ylla.

ylla,

hi

i nevr said

goodbye

this might mean absolutely

nothing

just intermittent

th smoothest x-ray of

my hand included

in th outside

i rly miss yr language

i miss th newness

of you and th evryday

a growl between us

meant absolutely nothing

for you

i want travel

and th fullest tiger

you can feel inside yrself

th decision

to grow upward

outward

or remain a body for you

i want

yr very own door

to whatevr instrument you want

i hope

it's nice

elle.

ylla,

would you remembr me

fuzzing

yr warm

in th only way

i knew

mice weren't th only things

you could touch

th garden

i refused to look at

meaning evry time

you worried my bedroom door

you weren't upset

i yelled my jaw shut

even though i cared

elle.

ylla,

did you know

ice tastes just like

it feels like

you've seen so much of it

now you void

th things you can't imagine

getting close to

i would've fell

to let you out

elle.

ylla,

today i thought

somewhere near

where you occur

elle.

ylla,

maybe one day we can talk

about dog teeth

in vertical light we key

these hardest questions

be forevr yrs

to meet a drunken dog

would be eithr th loveliest

or else

it's quite avoidable fretting

so happy in june spelling

isn't even comf'rtable

how hungrily i hope yr certain

in th window

even now

elle.

ylla,

if

i could take you

back to ypsilanti

or not

just be jealous

th detail journaled in

yr instances

can frighten me

to think

there's jazz

in evry lining here

only you

can howl at

what's vital to me

i don't always know

what it looks like

elle.

ylla,

i'm going to keep

repeating myself

for th rest of my life

i'm sure

you don't care

i like that

elle.

i think i love you

and i’m not afraid

elle.