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HAMARI ADHOORI KAHANI..One Life Is Not EnoughFor A Love Story

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Hemendra Sony

Preface:-

This is story of two children. They could never think about themselves that theywill go the travel of love and will fight from the world for getting success. All of the persons, who belong from their family and from outside, will be against them.

But they face every problem and they try their best for success but some timesluck is not in their favor and story turn again and leaves some question for lifeand for them.

In some cases, we see that 99% love story is not for getting success but that is for only enjoy and at last two persons who make these type of story, is depart easily.

But some story is for getting success but at last two persons who make a true lovestory, either they get their destination or they died and leave a story for worldwhich makes say ADHOORI KAHANI .

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answer which should be relative to ourquestion and extra advice is also invited.


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Chapter 1

Date was 21st

January 1998. I am telling you about my past life when I was falling in other activities. You can say that, Love or Anything but when I wanted to come back from that waytill then I had got late. On that day I was 14 year old and studied in class 8 th. I was very happyand according to my habit on that day I was playing cricket after coming back to my school.The evening was so beautiful but we dont know that what is about to being in next moment. Iand my cousin Pramod, both were always lived accompany. Wherever we went, we wentalways our self advice. By & Large we were same.

On that day when our elder cousin came near to us and said what are you doing here? Haveyou forgotten that there are many guests our home and after four days our elder brother marriage thats why we have lot of work in this time and you are playing cricket here. On thattime Pramod said to him what is the work? And guest? Then you know, we know onlycounting guest so I think we will not get fun that place thats why we are enjoying here.

Then Rakesh said (yes! His name was Rakesh who was trying to make us understand) that wecan enjoy on that place where marriage party arranged. (Rakesh was only two year old to us.Thats why we were like a friend circle.) In mock mood, Pramod asked to Rakesh can you tellus that how many girls are there, who join our company? He replied that there are many but Idont know all of them, but some are different and one girl! My god, she is so beautiful.

I asked him very emotionally, who is she? (When I asked this to Rakesh, Pramod said withslow voice in background of my question SURU HO GAYA SALA.) He said all of you dontknow her but she is our relative, she is our elder sister in laws sister. And finally after lookingmy face, Pramod said to me, I think we will have to meet her. Have you not hungry? Iunderstood his mean and we went to that home where marriage was going on, for taking food.In the middle of way I asked to Pramod, do you know every guest? He replied NO! But I think I will introduce them as soon as possible. When we reached the home, there were many peopleand that was very noisily place. I said to Pramod, who is she for about we were talking? Heanswered, lets go for knowing. We tried our best but we couldnt know who is she? ThenPramod said to me if you want to meet her you will have to meet our elder sister in law(Bhabi). I understood his mean and I went near to her. She was cutting the vegetables, and thenshe asked to me how you are here? I replied I want to take the water and I helped her for

cutting the vegetables after saying it. She was gazing me and after some moment she asked me
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do you want to take water or anything more? I said NO! Not anything. There were nearly four people in the kitchen except me. Bhabi ordered someone that gives him a glass of water. I wascutting the potato thats why I was looking down; anyone gave me water and went to out of kitchen.

I said to Bhabi how silly of I. she asked why? I replied I couldnt say thanks who gave mewater. I looked her only for back side so I knew that was a girl but who was she still I didntknow? I asked to Bhabi by the way who she was. She replied she is my younger sister. Perhapsyou do not know her because she comes here once in a blue moon. In this occasion I called her.She is very emotional and shameful girl. After some time I came out from kitchen. I wanted tolook her but I couldnt confirm that this will be Bhabis sister. That day was very beautiful;

I didnt feel any emotion like this. I came back my home and that night I thought that whatwill be her look and how will be her voice and many more. By & Large I couldnt sleep thatnight. I was not getting think that how can I see her?

Next Morning,I met my cousin sister. Her name was Kajal, she was my elder cousin sister but I

didnt hide anything from her. When I met her, I asked her same question that do you knowabout Bhabis sister. She replied, actually there are many girls and I do not know everythingabout everyone thats why I do not know about her but do not bother if you want that it is mustfor you then I will try my best. I said with crying voice you are my lovely sister and then Iasked her when we can meet. She said I will tell you about her tomorrow. But perhaps thatmorning was for me. When I reached there HALDI RASMA was going on. Every personshand & clothes were colored with HALDI.

On that time suddenly Kajal came near to me with HALDI and after some time I also got wetwith HALDI. My both hands were colored and then, my Bhabi called me and said, are youfree? I replied YES! She said to me that please go to my room, my sister must be there Pleaseask for 20 rupees to her, I asked WHY? She said it is for your brother medicine. (My cousinelder brother name is Bablu. He is my Bhabis husband.) This was that chance for which I was

bother. I went there quickly but when I moved rooms certain. I saw a beautiful girl was braiding to her hair. I saw her face in the mirror and after some moment she also saw me andthen she looked back quickly and asked to me, who are you and what are you doing here?

My feet were freeze, I couldnt say. I was only gazing her, she came near to me and moved her hand front of my eyes again and again. I started and then she asked what are you thinking? I

said to her I want to twenty rupees. She said what? I said actually it is for my brothersmedicine. She was not getting understood to me. She said to me, are you ok? I replied YES!Then she asked to me who are you and who is your brother? I said my name is Hemu and I amyounger brother of your sisters husband. Your sister wants to twenty rupees for his medicine.She said, ok! One minute please!

She opened her suitcase and after one minute she came back near to me and said to me takes it please! I said, actually my hands are colored with HALDI thats why I cant take it with myhands, if you dont mind please insert it in my pocket. She said ok! When I turned for going, Isaid to her thank you miss.....! She replied with slow voice.Rani. I said again thank you and Icame back. From that time my eyes were seeing only her face. She was so beautiful and I was


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thinking that when will I meet her again? I was very happy, I didnt know that why was Ifeeling like so sweetly? Why was I seeing future in dream?

In the evening time I went near to Kajal and told her about morning time. She said to me, canyou come here 8 p.m. I asked any surprise work? She said, yes! Then I replied ok! I will come.

And at 8 p.m. I went there with Pramod and looked for Kajal. After some moment she camenear to us and said, hurry up! Come with me, she went on the roof and we followed her. Therewere many girls on the roof, I think they were twenty to thirty and I was relative all of themfrom any way. Anyone was my sister then anyone my niece and so on..!

Kajal met us all of them but she was not there whom I was waiting. I asked to Kajal where sheis. She said, I got call her by Gudiya (Gudiya is my Bhabis daughter).

After some time she came and she asked to Kajal with murmur voice, why did you call me?Kajal replied, are you like live alone? Why dont you come near to us? I and Pramod stood in acorner. Kajal said to her we listened about you many more thats why today you will have tolive with us and will have to play with us. She asked what you are playing. Kajal replied,ANTAKCHARI. Everyone agreed with Kajal. Kajal divided all of us in two teams but shewas in other team and Kajal was with her. I was in second team and we started play. In wholegame she was silent but I didnt. I tried my best for win my team. I sang many songs and at lastI was near to win.

They were not getting sing a song which start from word MA. Then Rani started to sing, Iwas not getting believe that she is singing so beautiful. I started under her spell, I forgoteverything and after some time I found that my team had defeated. I was very impressed her and I think she also impressed with me. After game over she said to me you played very welland we set down on the stairs with talking. She tried to know about myself and I also tried toknow about her, she was asking about me and I was answering. After one hour she said to me,its too late and we should go now because every person had gone. She said, nice to meet you.You are talking so sweetly, are you accept my friendship? I said with wonder yes!

I couldnt have believed that I used to see the dream for which girl, that girl will say to me thatwould you make friendship with me? She said, we will meet tomorrow 6 p.m. in this place andfrom that day we met everyday and I used to tell her about my past life and she also discuss meabout her life. On that time I used to take MASSALA. It was bad habit but with out it I couldnot live a moment. She always used to say me, it is bad and please leaves it and I alwayschanged the matter. Time was passing and we have been good friend but I didnt want to her

friendship because I loved her. One day when dinner was going on and she was bringing PURIfor guest, I catch her hand in stairs. Her one hand was filled with bucket of PURI and other Icatch. She said to me with wonder, what are you doing? Leave my hand and let me go, on thattime Pramod reached there and asked me what is happing here? I said to him, can you do me afavor? He asked what? I said; please bring this PURI bucket. He said ok! And he took the

bucket from Ranis hand and went from there. Then she asked me, now what happened? Whyhave you catch my hand like this. I said to her, I want to say you something. She said, comewith me and she bring me in a room where generator was going on. (That was generator room.)Then she said, ok! Say, what did you want to say? I said to her, Rani I cant join your friendship because I love you.


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She said with wonder what? I said again that line. I asked her, do you love me or not. She said, NO! She said now I am going. I couldnt say anything to her when she was going out from thatroom. That day I was very sad and weeping internally. I was on the roof next morning for seeing that she will come or not. When I was thinking this, she came on the roof and said to meif I say I also love you then what will you do? I said to her, everything. She said I thought

about you last night and then about my self quick answers which I gave you yesterday. And Ifound that I also cant live with out you. But if you love me truly then promise me that you willneither forget me nor leave me alone in this world because I will do everything for you andonly love you in my whole life. I said to her I also promise that I also love only you. And thenour friendship changed in love?Obscure a chat and obscure a glimpse lived on my face, then I felt as any narrated a woeful taleto me. Her voice was stammered but it was very soft, seldom had I thought that wish I wouldsee it. When I walked then, I felt that she is accompanies to me and saying AYE ISHQ..!

Almost similar, love is mine. She was like only four things in this world, first- rain, second-dreams third- flower and forth- me. She wanted that I live near to her and chat with her.

One day we were sitting on the roof in the evening time. She said to me, I am just coming andafter few minutes she brings coffee. Actually she thought that we can pass some more timewith coffee and she will talk with me some more. Unfortunately she never said to me that sheloves me but she always used to say that they dont need to say and propose who fall in love.She was very sweet and so sweet of her chat. I and she, both were in wonder that why dont getwe depart?

We thought that perhaps it is love but she always used to make me understand that what is lovemean and how to believe in it? We dont know that what will be our story end..?One day we were sitting on the roof and I was chewing MASSALA. She said to me, leave it.On that time I had four more pouch of MASSALA. In which there are three in one pocket andone in other. On that time I split MASSALA and throw three pouches also. Then I said to her,right! She said with happy yes! After some time I felt need of MASSALA thats why I said toRani, can you bring a glass of water. She said ok! And she went for bringing water. In middleof this time I took other pouch of MASSALA and ate that. When she came back with water shesaid to me take it. I said to her I will take it after some time, she said ok! And she put the glasson the table. After some moment when she was talking to me, she felt a MASSALAS smell,which coming out from my mouth then she understood that I am chewing that. She said to mewith quickly voice, YAAR when I went to kitchen for bringing water then there was somehouse chores remaining so I will have to go. I will meet you in evening in this place. I said ok!

In evening time when I reached there, I saw that she was smoking. I reached near to her quickly and slapped her. And then asked what are you doing? She said if you can chewTAMBBACO then why can I smoke it? From then I decided that I will never use MASSALAand promise her.Step by step marriage had over and every guest had nearly gone. Only Ranis family was stayand some more guests. She didnt want to go because of me and she didnt go 10 day after marriage over. Thats why I didnt stop go there and it could not bear my aunty.She was my forth aunty (my father have five brother and where was marriage that was myPrem uncle home and Bablu is my Prem uncles son. Prem uncle have two sons and onedaughter, his first son Bablu and daughter Brajesh had already married when I was three year

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CHAPTER END

Chapter 2

One day my forth aunty came Bhabis home and sat down in drawing room. (My forth unclename is Ramkumar.) Rani was washing cloths then aunty said to my Bhabi that I think your sister has lived here many days. Does her school always close? She would go now. Bhabireplied that she is my sister and I dont want go back now. Then aunty said with fast voice but Iwant. Bhabi asked to aunty why do you want like it? Aunty replied that I dont want that our children go to wrong way and I am seeing that our children going and it is not better for our family. Bhabi asked again that how can you say that my sister is reason of this matter? Auntysaid I can say.

And then I and Pramod reached there and we saw, there was being yammer. Seeing us, Bhabisaid to aunty, look there and talk to them. Perhaps you can get your answers. Then I asked toBhabi what the matter is? Bhabi said to me your aunty is saying that Rani is.! Thenquickly I said, stop! I requested to Bhabi, please go to your room with Rani. I saw that Raniseyes drifted in tears when aunty was going from there breathlessly then I said to her pleasestop! All of people who there were, seeing me with wonder manner. I said to aunty please donttake any interest in our life, We know that what we were doing and what can be its result buteven then I dont want that we regard culprit of you.

When she had gone then I and Pramod went to Bhabis room and sat on the bad. I was verynerves and I concealed my face with my palm. When Rani saw to me, she came near to me

with weary way and said to me your Bhabi is calling you then I went with her. I saw, therewere all people with Pramod. She said to me, Take some. I replied I am not hungry. She saidagain please for my sake. She asked to me having nothing why you are nerves. Is it better? If any chat will be in future then what will you do? Thats why dont take tension and take it.Then Pramod said to me, come on YAAR take it.

When I was eating for her hand on that time her mother, her father and my Bhabi were seeingher with wonderful eyes. They stunned and seeing towards her as a statue. She was wiping mytears and I was looking at her visage. Then Pramod said to me Hemu any one is calling you.Then I looked down there was my own brother. He said to me mother is calling you and youhave sat here. Quoting this he went. After his going I went to my home and asked to mymother why were you calling me? Hearing this mother said to me when Rani was not to be


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there then you did never go there but I am seeing that from when Rani has come there fromthen you are going there regularly. What is the matter? Dont you care of your home? Mymother scolded me very much that day thats why I didnt there some days. When I reachedthere some days then one day Rani called up in my home and phone bell came. I was busy so

phone picked up by my mother.

And my mother asked her how you remembered. Hearing it, I rushed and grasped phone. After finishing my chat my mother asked me why is she calling you? I replied I dont know. But Iwill have to go. After some time I went there. Night was about to be coming and sky wasdrifting in dark. When I reached there she was working in kitchen with my Bhabi. When shelooked me she said to her I am coming just a minute when she came near to me I said to her that you should not have come here leave her alone.

She said to me with very slow voice dont care and then she went back in kitchen and preparedcoffer and came back near to me and then we went on the roof and set on the chair.

I asked her till how many time shell we sit here? She said with beautiful voice until you want.She said to me, I have not any problem with you. Do you have? I said no! Suddenly she said

please no more question, I want to see you please let me look. Hearing this I asked her do youlove me very much? She said yes! Then I said if we depart some time in future then what willyou do? She replied I will do only a work. I asked her with very eagerness what? She said with

braking breath I will look you in my shadow. Suddenly she saw a light and awful stroked in her heart, she said to me there is anyone. I saw there but no one was there. I said to her dont

bother. But she was not agreed with me even then at last she agreed and said with embraced tome.

HO ANDHERI RAAT AUR AAP KI BAHOON KA SAATH, HAWA BHI CHOO LE AESE MAIN HAME TO LAGTA HAI KOI HAI.

DAR KI NIGAH MAI RAHTA HO DIL APNA, DIKHJAYE AESE MAI APNA HE SAYA HAME TO LAGTA HAI KOI HAI .

Suddenly my Bhabi called; Rani. Hemu..! Come down! Night is being very dark. Then shesaid with weary way, why does night come? I was gazing her naivet and after some time wecame down. I said to Rani, I am going. She asked why? I replied that I am very late. She saidto me with sobbing voice, dont go please. But stay was impossible. When I saw towards her,

she was weeping. I went near to her and said with wiping her tears I will come back and I came back to my home.It was very dejection. I was remembering her fond hand and I was feeling that she is near tome. I drifted in soft sleep. I was feeling a curiously. I understood that she is an impetuous girl

but she is very simple and oh! I cant convey or I have no word for her. I was so lucky thatI got a beautiful girl. I prayed to my god daily, We shall not depart in future. Then I dontknow but a gust passes near to my ears and said to me earlier still, what were you recognizingof love. I said with close eyes, NO Never!But today I am feeling it a very deep relation during us.

When next morning came, my mother came near to me and said; take the tea. I leaved the bad

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Pramod. He asked to me what are you doing? Come with me, we are playing cricket. I wentwith him after finishing my work and played the match. When we had played then I asked toPramod, where did you go yesterday? He relied, I am care worn. I dont want that any persontalk about to me with hate. I asked to him, why are you anger? What happened? He said to mewhen you were busy your loveable chat with Rani on the roof last night then Neetu was

looking your romance. After all Neetu is your niece and you know battery that Neetu hatesRani so it results can be dangerous for you and your companion. I asked him how you can saythat she was looking us. He replied when you were on the roof then I came Bhabis home. Iasked to Bhabi that Hemu is here then she told me that you and Rani on the roof. I was comingon the roof but when I reached on last stairs I saw that Neetu is standing behind pillar andlisting your chat thats why I returned down and sat. After some time when Bhabi called youthen suddenly Neetu came down and after some moment I met her.

I asked her what you have seen. She said to me with pungent words virtually it is love. She wasgoing beyond. Now you tell me what to I do? And then I came back my home but I am tellingyou that she is a shower girl and if she dispel of you love some time in future than what willyou do? Pramod was leading to me and I was hearing all ears to him. He was trying to say that

Neetu can be dangerous to me. But who knows future? I said to Pramod with hiccup voice,you.. You are a mockup man. He said to me with sulky voice I am serious. I said, I know youare serious but will you be accompanying with me? He replied NO! And he went from there.When after some time I reached Pramod home and asked to his mother, where is he? Hismother said to me I dont know. I came back from his home and went near to Rani. When Ireached there, I saw there were all of people and Ranis face drifted in dejection. There was noshudder her face, she was bewildering and oddly

I asked to Bhabi with wonder what happened. She replied Rani is going back tomorrow.Listing it, I nonplussed. I drifted in sweat. I couldnt think that she will have to go back. I came

back my home with weeping eyes. After some time I went to market and bought a beautifulring and went to Pramod home but still he didnt come back to his home. I was alone and I wasnot collecting spirit of going there back. Finally I went near to Deepak (he is my cousin unclesson. He was not my age.) But even then I thought that two is better then one so I went with himnear to Rani.

Still there were all of people they were doing packing. I said to Rani, you are going tomorrowso I want to give you a little gift. Everyone was looking her and after some moment she took it.We sat there but she went from there. I followed her. She went in an alone place and weeping

silently. I reached near to her then she said to me with weeping self tear, yes I am goingtomorrow but I am not going to your heart and said; please interrupted. Saying this she went tokitchen and came back after some minute with a glass of water and said to me, take it. I wasalso weeping but my tears were not trying to come out from my eyes. I was gazing her. Shesaid to me again where are you lost? Please take it. Then I took the glass which was full of thewater. She said to me look the water, when it drifted in shudder then it was reckless of per glass

border.To a great extant who ever is involved in the woeful tale, he is giving a retort of world or wresting it. So I will want to know that what your choice is. I asked her with emotionally whatyou mean. She gave me a paper and said to me when I will have gone then you open it. Ok!And said to me that I want to go on the roof, do you help me? I understood her mean; I lifted

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Her heart was to trouble then a gust passed to touch her hair. I think that wind was beguiledher. I couched in her gum; she loved me and was saying to me in very slow and sweet voice

JIS TARAH TEJ HAWA AAKE GUJAR JATI HAI,YE SHAM BHI USI TARAH DHAL JATI HAI.

BAAT ULFAT KI CHUPANE SE NAHI CHUPTI, BAAT HE BAAT MAIN WO BAAT NIKAL JATI HAI .

Saying this; rose dispelled from her palm. It was firing of love and I drifted in her keen eyes. Iwanted to tell her that I am for you. There was no shudder in her breath.

She was very happy for finding me. In addition she could not part to me, there was only I inher heart, only me.! Her hair veil was saving me from sun light; she was entirely bending onme. There was not any awful during us.She said to me with softly, form today I am changing you name. I asked her then what will bemy name? My sweet girl! She said your name will be RAJ but I will call you ISHQ. Ok! Iasked her why? She replied that I like it.(When ever she came near to me, she came step by step and when she reached near to me her eyes was always yielding and she was very nerves. Her hair was unwrapped. In addition nowand then there was not any voice. I cant describe more about her because I cant explain her habits in words!)

And on that day I was thinking about her all habits with couching in her gum. She was talkingto me about much matter but I was only gazing her. After some time she was flirted me andasked are you listing me? I replied with hiccup voice; yes! She said to me we are too late. Nowwe shall meet tomorrow morning in this place. Please come soon before going me. And after some time I came back my home.I was praying for stay her but perhaps it was impossible because she had lived here many daysand her parents wanted to bring her. Next morning when I reached near to her, she was on theroof and sitting alone. I also sat there, we were silent. Day was very cloudy and time was 8a.m. then she said to me with sobbing voice again

JAGAH-JAGAH THOKAR KHAKE DIL HO GAYA RUSWA, BARNA EK THOKAR SE TO DUNIYA BHI SAMHAL JATI HAI .

Then she said to me; I am going after two hours and I hope that you will not care to me. I wasgoing on something for ask but she said to me again, please!Suddenly rains fell down and a fat shower came towards us. Her lips were shuddering and her eyes were drifted in tears then I wiped her lips with my fast lips, her eyes yielded. We had gotwet thats why after some time we came down. Everyone had got ready for going. After coming on the roof she changed her cloth and gave me toile breathlessly and after some timeshe went. I was weeping but in veil of rain water nobody got know that I am weeping. After going her I came back my home, I could not sleep that night. In addition virtually havingnothing there was everything. I was feeling her near to me and feeling that she was leading memean of life.


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My heart was sulked me and asking me that why did you let her go? And I was not making myheart understand that my hands were tired. Every wall was full of her shed and I was notgetting understood that what should be doing now?

Finally I opened her paper which she gave me and read it, there was writing down;

KAB SE KYA HOON BATAYEGA KOUN MUJHE, KISKI KYA HOON YE SIKHAYEGA KOUN MUJHE. EK MAIN HOON, EK TUM HO AUR YE ISHQ,

AB INSAB SE ALAG KARAYEGA KOUN MUJHE.

MUJHE.! And yes! You asked me that how shall we talk when we shall depart. I think youknew my habit thats why you asked this question indirectly.

But you could have asked me with strictly because I am only you and your every problem ismy problem. I dont know that in that one month when we were accompany, how much yougot me understand? But I can surely say that I understood you better. I know about your everyhabits and I know that how much can action out orbit on you?

And in next line she wrote her phone number and wrote that you can talk to me at 11 p.m.everyday.

LOVE YOU WITH MY ALONE HEARTYOUR: ME.!

After reading it I thought that is it being right and if it is wrong then why am I doing mistake but perhaps my thinking power was losted and I went. I was under her spell and I was thinkingonly about her and I was being heady for knowing that how will be she?

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Chapter 3But after going her I didnt stop to go to Bhabis home. I and Pramod always used to go thereand many hours passed there but it was not like of Neetu (she was still there because that washer grandmother home). She wanted that my and Bhabis friendship depart or I cant come near to her thats why she always incited my elder aunty (my Bhabis mother-in-law). But she wasalways failed and one day she played a game. She knew that Pramod helped me for cominghere so she thought that if she can success depart of Pramod from me then her work will soeasily.One day I and Pramod were taking PANIPURI in front of my Bhabis home and my Bhabiselder daughter Gudiya (she was only four year younger from Pramod because my Bhabismarriage had been on 1987. On that time we were only three year old.) Was standing on her roof? On that time Neetu said to my elder aunty that it is not fair. My aunty asked her with veryeagerness that what happened.

Neetu told her that when Pramod comes on the road then in that current timing Gudiya alwaysreaches on the roof. My aunty felt lost on hearing it. She was very angered with us and nextday when we reached Bhabis home then my aunty called Pramod and asked with fast voicewhy are you coming here and what do you talk with your Bhabi? I want that from next youwill come here when you have any work with me or your Bhabi. Dont come here for timevest. Then Pramod said to her that neither I will come for any work nor any occasion. And hecame back his home; I followed him and tried to him that it is not fair. You should know thatwhat is the matter but he was not agreed with me.

And after some hour he came back near to me and said I am very embarrassed that I will notaccompany with you. I will never go in that home and he went back.After his going I also came back my home and thought that may be he is right. If I were in

place of him then I also react like him. From that day I went there alone but only for my Bhabi.I thought that some time in future he will come with me but I was wrong, he didnt come withme. I went there daily and after passing some hours I came back my home. But perhaps itcould not bear my elder aunty and one day she said to my Bhabi that what does he come heredaily? It was a nonsense question for her thats why my Bhabi replied her, he doesnt come

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One day when I sat on my roof and remembering my past days, on that time I remembered thatshe gave me her phone number but I didnt call her till now and suddenly I standup and wentnear to phone box. Before dialing the phone number I thought perhaps it is not right. It iswrong in anyway but even then my figures were rashing for going on the phone box and then I

called her but phone didnt receive by her then I remembered that she gave me time for phone.And at 11 p.m. I called her again and phone received by her.

She said hallo! I was silent and breathless and after one minute she said to me, now you willtalk me or silence like it. She said when I was accompanying with you then you used to say tome that I am nothing with out you; you are my breath and today why are you breathless? Nowwhat happened? You are calling me after so long time, now please talk to me.

Then I asked her with wonder, how did you know that this was my call? She said to me, whatyou think that I am so far of you then I will not understand your breath. I asked her that are younot anger because of my late phone and I think you could have understand that I didnt try tocall you. She said, neither I am bother after listing your chat nor I am feeling bad. Because theycan feel bad who didnt understand bad time of others and she said with romantic words.

SIKAYAT KIS JUBAN SE KARU AAPKE NA AANE KEE,YAHI AHSAASH KYA KUM HAI KI,

AAP HAMARE DIL MAI RAHTE HAI .

I talked her two hours on that day and from then I called her daily and she also. But there was a problem which we had to face after every two month and we used to think that how can wesolve it and then we decided that we will play prank. That was problem of phone bill whichcame with very big amount because of us. Our family members had known about our dailyhabit because use ally we used to talk at night (timing was 11 p.m. to 3 a.m.) thats why once ina blue moon we used to caught with talking and our family members scolded us. Thats whywe cut our neighbor phone line at night and before the morning we jointed that. We dont knowthat what were we talking but our night was easily passed and in the time of morning we slept

but because of school we slept so little time. And much time we didnt sleep a week exceptSunday.

Every night passed like that and when night passed then our love time was going in very

smoothly way and we were thinking that it way will be so easily but we didnt know that thereis very big game of time never play for it. But perhaps our love way was smoothly for threemonth and twelve days.

And after three month of Raju Bhayya marriage 4 may 1998 my Prem uncle expired and thatswhy she came again my town. I didnt know that this time will turn our life. After two days of expire him I met her. She told me that she came for one month, But our thinking power wasdied thats why we couldnt see anything except our love and in this love way we committedlot of work like that, perhaps that work should not have done in that time. When there wasneed of Rani in kitchen, on that time she lived near to me and like that so many works. Thatswhy we had lost our respect and we got a very big distance from our family because in two

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dangerous for us but Rani always used to say that if we come in look of world and world willknow everything about us then it will be so helpful for me because there will no chance remainfor my future decision about my marriage. But on that time I dont know that she can take risk against her family. One month how we passed, we dont know but in that month I loved her very much and she also!

There were some fighter in our life who wanted to make us fight and when they couldntsucceed then they tried it on our family and they got success. After one month when she went

back her home then I passed class 8 th exam and next year I was in class 9 th. From then wedidnt meet one year but our phone talk always running and in my 9 th examination time shesaid to me on phone that we will not talk in our examination time. I agreed with her.But in this one year there had much change come in my elder aunty home. Raju Bhayya, whichmarriage in January 1998.

He sifted in Allahabad because of his job and my Prem uncles elder son which name wasBablu (Rani is his own sister-in-law), he joined his father shop. Every one was very happy butfrom when uncle expire then perhaps happiness also went with him.

My Bhabi nature was very nice but in one year I couldnt believe that she will be so change butstill I didnt get understand her. I accepted her every decision because my love line went to onher.And in other side, there were many problems created in Rani home but she was bearingeverything. One day I called Rani. She was busy because MAHASHIVRATRI was on that day,so she was working in kitchen thats why she said to me I will talk you at night. Everythingwas right and I passed my day with my daily routine. But that day was not good for us or may

be our luck was so bad on that day. Her phone call came at that night and when I received her call she cried. I asked her why are you weeping what happened. Time was 11 p.m., she told methat MAHASHIVRATRI is today thats why I and my whole family went to the temple. Wewere very happy but when I was praying on that time my Bhabi (her elder brothers wife, her elder brother name is Bablu and his Mrs. Belongs from Kolkata.) asked me with solid wordsthat what are you asking for you from god Rani?

So I replied her in like that way. I said that nothing, and by the way why are you asking?Seeing my frown she has felt lost and she was angered with me and she said to my brother (her husband) that your sister has no manners. She was retorting me. So my brother was also

angered with me and without listing me he scolded me. I said to him, I am not wrong but youshould understand his wife that how to talk with younger. Listing my chat he slapped me inthat temple. I could not control on me so I said to him that it is your last slap and from now younever touch me some time in future else it will not good for you. Then he said to me it is notyour words, it is your anger. Then I said to him it is not my anger, it is saying who I was askingfor me from god and I came back my home.

When she finished her chat then I asked Rani, what should be doing now? She said to me withweeping that I want to make him see that I can do everything. I said to her whatever you willwant to do, I will always with you. She said to me I will decide till tomorrow then I will tellyou my last decision. Then I said to her okay I will hear you tomorrow. Now wash your visage

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.. CHAPTER END ..

Chapter 4

Bad time was knocking our future door but we were not getting understood its allusion. After chatting her, I couldnt sleep that night. Whole night I was thinking that what was Rani right or not? And at last I compromised with my love. On that time I was in class 10 th. Next day Iwaked up late, so I was tidying up for going to school but on that time she called me, I was inhurry so I couldnt pickup the phone and I went to my school. Phone picked up by my mother

but hearing my mother voice she cut the call. In school timing her note did not come in mymind, but I was feeling that I am forgetting something in anywhere and in lunch I rememberedabout last night and her condition. I wanted to call her but I could not call her because of myschool. If I wanted, I bunked the school but one time she said to me that we will notcompromised for school in future.

In the evening when I came back my home from the school, first I called her. She picked my phone and told me I am waiting for your phone for morning. I said to her I went to school.Then I asked her how you are feeling now. She replied, not good but all right and there arenobody talking to me. I was alone in my room from yesterday night so I called to Teena. She ismy best friend and I share everything from her except you. I said to her that I want to earn themoney. Then she told me that a networking company is working in our city nowadays and sheis also its member. She was saying that if you work hard then it will give you lot of money.Then I asked her about its joining process. She told that for getting its membership I will haveto paid 5000/- advance and after joining that you will have to joint new member from companythrough me.

I asked to Rani then do you want to join it or not? She said to me I have no advance cash for getting its membership. I said to her, I am only asking that you want join it or not. I am notasking about your pocket balance. She said, yes! I want to join it. I said to her I will send youadvance money after two days. She was very happy and perhaps I was taking breath for her. Ialways wanted that she lives always happy. I could not see any tear in her eyes.

After cut the phone I called Sujeet. He was my friend on that time and I said to him that I want

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him, what we can meet presently. He said, okay! I am waiting for you in my home. I cut the phone and went to his home. When I reached his home he was taking food. I waited for himand after some time ha came and asked the reason of that so urgently meeting. I said to himthat I have needed some rupees. (He had qualified his graduation. He was so senior from me

but in a marriage party I met him and from then he was my friend and after completing his

graduation he was accompanying of his father in his business. I was sure that he has thisamount.)He asked me how much rupee you want. I said, 5000/-.

He asked me with wonder voice, what is your problem for that you are demanding big amount.I said to him, I cant tell you presently but I assure you that I will defray your money as soon as

possible. He said, okay! If you dont want to tell me then dont tell and saying this I went to hisroom and after coming back he gave me 5000/- rupee and said to me that is not my money.

But you have more needed of it. I said to him, thank you and when I turned for going there. Hesaid to me that please give me my money back before knowing of my father. You can use thismoney one month but after one month I will back my money back. I agreed with him and came

back my home.After coming back my home I took the food and in sleeping time I called her again and askedher that how can I send the money? She told me Teenas account number and said you candeposit money in this account. She asked me that from where have you bring this amount? Isaid to her, why are you bothering? It is my money. First time I was telling a lie with her but itwas must. I knew bitterly that if I tell her true then she will never accept this money. Sheregarded my chat.

Next day I deposited money in that account and told her by phone that she can use that money.

In time of morning she went near to Teena and said to her that money has deposited in her account. So Teena jointed her by her favor. And from that day Rani started her work. She metmany persons and for its, she had to make friend with many strangers but in one month she

jointed only one girl whose name was Anjali. She belongs to Banda and her nature was sogood. She lived with simple fashion thats why she had closed with Rani and she helped verymuch of Rani. By & large Rani was careless from side of her. Rani knew that she is a verycareful girl and she knows her responsibility. When she met Anjali, She told me but after hearing about her compliments by Rani. I was not getting understand that how can she be likeRani. But Rani always used to say that she is like me.

One night I asked to Rani about Anjalis habit, she told me about her. She told that she is verysimple girl and her voice is match with my voice. Her thinking is so positive and she has

jointed in my best friends company.Day passed and after three month Rani jointed 25 persons with company by her favor and her first cheque amount was 12000/- rupee. She was very happy and on that night she called meand told me about her that day and suddenly she wept with laughing. When I asked her, why isyour happy getting wet with tears? Then she said to me that it is not my success. It is your

power and I promise you that I will never let you down. She was saying to me that now she canget up her head in front of her brother and her family but she wanted that it will be secret. Shedidnt want to tell about it business and her money in her family.


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But in those days Rani earned more money but in every moment she was losing her respect inher family. She came to her home late and waked up too late. Every night she called me andtold me her whole day details. Her brother Bablu was hated Ranis this habit infect he washated me and my name also. Many times when he caught Rani with chatting me, he beated her thats why Ranis mind was so disturbed. She did never tell me about her whacking. She

thought that hearing this, I will be also disturbed. When she talked to me, she always showedthat she is very happy and when I asked her about her family react then she said that they lovedher very much and they are also happy with her.

She was very sad but even then she lived with her family and she was bearing that only for me because she loved me very much. She believed me very much, she understood that I cant hideanything from her but on that day I was also hard working except my study. I was workingwith Sujeet in his business field because I could not defray his money thats why Icompromised with him that I will do every work of his business till five month.

And he accepted my deal. His business was deal of properties and according to his business Iused to do field work with Sujeet.

My 10 th examination was coming and my five month was passing. I gave my exam under bigmind presser but perhaps my luck was so good and after two month when my result out. I wasnot getting believed that I passed that exam with good marks. I want to share his happy withRani thats why I called her at that time. Time was 12:30 a.m., she picked up my phone. I wasso happy and in curtain of my happy I couldnt see her woe. When I was talking to her, her T.V.was on and suddenly on that time her brother Bablu came to Ranis room and cried, why haveyou on your T.V., phone receiver was in her hand when Bablu was crying. She answered toBablu in like that tone, my enemy, this is my room and I can do everything in my room thenBablu said, this is my phone, I paid its bill and I dont want that you use it for your nonsensechat. Saying this he went out from Ranis room. I heard everything from phone and when Rani

picked up it again for talking, she was crying. I asked her, from when this atmosphere is inyour home and why was he crying upon you? She was crying so loudly and I was trying tocontrol her.

That night, she cut the phone with weeping and put the receiver out of phone box thats why Icould not dialed again. That night I could not sleep and perhaps she also. I was thinking that Iam wrong. She is bearing pain because of me and I promised my self that now I will not callher. Next morning I her brother Bablu brings lock of phone box and fixed that on every phone

box. I didnt call her two or three days and one evening when I was watching T.V. in my room,on that time my phone ringed. I picked up that. That was Ranis call; she asked me why I didntcall her last two days. I tried making her understand that if she is so sad in her self home

because of me then why do I talk to you? After finishing me she asked me with sobbing voice,will you leave me? She said, I dont care that what are thinking my family members about me

but I know it very well that when I met you then I should have thought about my future time. Itis not better time for thinking and infect there is nothing left to thinking.

I asked her, if we face so big problem in future then promise me that you will be always withme. She said, I promise! And she said, I am coming RATH in this summer vacation so I willreach there after one or two days and then she cut the phone. After two days she reached RATH

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18 days at RATH. After 27 days in other side, in my family there were dilated so muchhappiness because after fifteen days there was marriage of my cousin sister and Pramod ownsister whose name was Rekha. Her marriage cognation did by Bablu Bhayya (my Bhabishusband) thats why there were giving more importance of my Bhabis family and their relatives by Rekhas parents. Marriage cards were sending everywhere thats why one card sent

there in Ranis home. Before two days remaining of marriage I asked to Rani, are you coming?She said no! I am not coming and I think there is no need of me. I said to her but I need of you.She said but I cant come there because you know very well that every person will be lookingus. They will take interest in our action and chatting more then marriage party and infect therewill be Neetu also who works of firing.

At last she said to me if you look me in your shadow I am always with you. But please dontcall to me in middle of that bad looks. She said if you want that I should come there then Icant refuse you because my breath are going on only because of you else perhaps till now Iwould have died. I said to her, no! You are right.

Hearing her final decision and her request I cut the phone. After two days in marriage partythere were our all relative except her infect Ranis parents were also come there. But left toeveryone there I was alone. Only Pramod can understand my feeling but he was also upset

because of Neetu.

Perhaps Neetu liked Pramod and she had forgotten that what her relation with Pramod is.Pramod wanted to make her understand but she didnt want to agree of listing anything. In thishis tension he could not ask about me from me. That marriage was not so important in my life

because there was every thing right. I was a student of class 11 th thats why I could haveunderstood everything and I could have thought about my life.

But I could have understood his problem so I liked live alone and thought that there will be allcorrect in future but perhaps I was wrong because in this journey of life I and Rani were losingeverything step by step. First we lost our self respect in our family members look and secondwe lost their sympathy. It was our luck which converted in bad luck by ours love and in thislife vast stream we were alone and we were trying to seek our right way but we were notgetting see that in this labyrinth world. We always thought that everything will be right but

perhaps we saw a dream. In other side there had created many problems in my Bhabis family.There were many quarrels between my Bhabi and my elder aunty but I was unknown from it.

Time doesnt stop for anyone but it gives a message to us in its every moment but I was not

getting hear it. Suddenly one day Rani called me at afternoon and said to me I want to meetyou. I was shocked, I asked her with wonder where and when? She said to me I am comingLucknow and I will meet you tomorrow. Next day I pretended to my father that there is myfriends brother marriage in Lucknow thats why I will have to go there and I will come back after 4 or 5 days. My father asked me, has the marriage card come or not? I said to him thatwhat is the need of the card after all he is my friend and he called me. Is that not enough? Myfather gave me permission for going there and next day I out for complete my journey and at1.30 p.m. I reached Lucknow; she was waiting for me in bus stop. She had reached before me.

I went near to her and asked immediately, why have you call me here? She said to me, are youin hurry. I said no! But I want to know the reason, she said to me that first we should book a

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time I asked her same question again. She said to me I dont want to live my home. My brother beats me and he always say that I should leave you but I know it very well that I am nothingwith out you. I asked her with soft voice that what you are doing now. She said to me withweeping that it is my last decision that if I live that home, I will definitely die. I tried my bestto make her understand but she didnt want to hear any excuse. Then I asked her where do you

want to go? She replied, I have come here with full preparation and she bring me Nanital.There was a nice apartment of Teena. I lived with her 5 days. In those 5 days, we passed our 5life. We were feeling that we found heaven and perhaps this is beautiful life. I gave her everyhappy which I could have provided and when she laughed, my heart automatically fill withhappy. I can see everything but I can not see a drop of tears in her eyes. It was my weakness.

After 7 days I successes to make her agree for going her home and I was also bother that theremust have created my problem in my family. Then first I dropped her in her city but when shereached her citys railway station, she started cry and on the platform.

She said to me that I do not want to go there but for you and only you I am going there onceagain but if now there create same problem with me then I leave that home forever. I said toher but you will have to promise me that you will not say anything to your family member andwill not reply them in their tone. She said I promise you but when my endurance over then Ican leave that home.

It will have to promise me and after some time we departed and I came back my home. I wasvery confusing that is I right or not? But there was no solution of this problem except this.

When I reached my home there were also every person angered with me. Every one wanted toknow that where was I stayed last 7 days but I did not have any answer their question. At last Iwent to my room breathlessly and lay to my bed then at that time my mummy came near to meand asked me with very carefully same question, I said that why you are bother. Hearing thismother went from my room with anger mode.

From next day, I came back my daily routine but in those days, I had very back of my schoolcourse thats why I was in tension and there was so much presser in my mind. This was my 11 th

examination and under this big presser I did not qualify that exam and at last I failed my finalexam. My father was very sad and very angered with me but he loved me very much thatswhy he went to my school and met my principal about making me pass. But principal said I

can not do it but if you are requesting me then I am giving you an option that if you make cutyour son name from this school then I give you his passing mark sheet. That school was mostgood in my city and I passed my 12 year from that school (K.G. to 11 th.). I requested to myfather for accepting this option. He really loved me very much and he accepted that option andI loosed my childhood school but I was thinking that I will qualify my next 12 th exam withgood mark from other school and I took admission in other governmental school.

That was new school for me and nobody knew me but in my class there was a girl who knewme very bell (because when I was in my old school, on that time I read physics coaching in acoaching institute and in my batch there was a girl whom name was Nishi Agrawal and shewas my big enemy because one day I slapped her because of her some mistake). When I joined

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she always failed and at last she wrote a line in her study table, there was writing that I loveyou Nishi. I was unknown this matter but when I reached my class there was my class teacher was taking attendance.

After finishing attendance, Nishi stood up and said to my class teacher, sir please come! Look

here someone write nonsense chat on my table daily. Then my class teacher looked that andwith very angered voice he asked to whole class, who is this? Nobody stood up. Everyone wassilence and I also. I do not know about this anything. Then finally my teacher said to me, standupHemendra. I ruffled, and said to me this is your work. I said to him, no sir! But my teacher said to me that here your half name is writing. I said with hiccup voice sir, you can match mywriting from that line but my teacher did not want to hear anything and finally he cut my namefrom the school. In last of that year, on 13 DEC. 2002 my cousin sister Kajal married. Thismarriage was also not so good for me because she didnt come in this marriage but I was verysad because only Kajal was that girl who made me meet Rani when Rani didnt get come in myhome because of any problem. Often problem used to create because of my elder aunty.

She always used to ask reason of going to outside from home to her family member and everythat member who stayed in that home and it question strictly used to ask my Bhabi and Bhabischildren and Rani.

After passed this marriage I had totally alone and I couldnt convey my problem and my painfor anyone because there was no one who understood me.

Till those days I had made Anjalis best friend so often I used to call her in my free time and Igot happier to talking her. Her talk was so beautiful and she used to try make me laugh and Iwas forgotten my pain for some time.

Those days my half yearly exam was coming near to me but I could not sit examination hall because my name had cut from the class teacher register. I thought, if I tell this chat from myfather then he anger with me once again and I wanted more happy of my family but my luck was bad in that days and finally I pretended in my home that my half yearly exam is going on.

And I am prepared for that. But I dropped my exam and nobody knows about this in my familyand after examination I went to my class teacher home with my friends and requested to take

permission for joining me and at last he accepted my request. After join the school I decidedthat I will learn the life lesson of that girl. But perhaps that was my wrong decision. I should

have forgotten everything and I stared my work. I bothered her so much thats why she hadunder very big mind presser. And at last she told everything about me to her father. Her father was very angered with me and one day.

He comes to my home with some persons. I was sleeping. He knocked my home door and door opened by my mummy. He asked to my mummy, is Hemendra here? My mother waked up meand when I saw him. I understood that this is last day of my fib. I met him. He was veryangered but even then he asked me lightly, do you know Dooli? Dooli was Nishi nick name. Isaid, yes! My mother was standing there but she could not get understand about our chat. Atlast my mother asked to Nishis father, what is the matter? He told everything to my mother.My mother said to him that today his father is not here. Please come on tomorrow and meet

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She was very angered with me but she was very sad. Those days were so hard for me. I couldnot say about my feeling from anyone. From many days Rani did not call me and I do not wantto disturb her so I faced this problem my self and next day when her father met my father andhe told everything about me. Then my father slapped me in front of them. After going them myfather went to my school and met my class teacher and he found that I am wrong every place.

My 12 th final exam near to me and I was not getting out from my tension. My father stoppedtalk to me and in my exam time I was so alone. I was not getting study and without any

preparation I gave my exam. I thought if I go out of my city for some time then may be my parents forget everything and I went Shimla with my fathers friend. I stayed there 10 days. Iwas right. In 10 days my parents had forgotten everything about my past and after 10 days Iwas coming back my home with more happy but I do not know that there is one more card near to my luck for defeating my happy. When I came back my home, there was everything right

but after 15 days my 12 th result... CHAPTER END ..

Chapter 5

My life had turned again that way in which I could not go back again. Life gave me twoshocked at 2002. My parents was very angered me and was saying that it is result of your roveand I was so socked, I was weeping continue on my bad. (I think that moment was so badmoment of my whole life.) I was so bother after one day Rani called me again and she told tome with sobbing voice, what about your result? I was so bother so I could not tell her that whyhas her voice with sob? I replied I am fail. This was first shock. She was not getting believedmy statement but she knew very well that I never tell a lie to her. She drifted in my woe andforgot that why did she call me? That day she and I both were weeping together. There wasonly a difference that I was weeping only for my unsuccessful and she was weeping because of my heart woe and her heart woe. But I could not see her woe in yield of my heart pain. Till onehour she was making me understand that you are not only person who failed this exam andwhy are you weeping? You know very well that you could not study because of your mind

presser and you can accuse me or your self for this result but it is not wise persons virtue. Youwill have to fight again from this society and this life. I was hearing her voice carefully andtrying to understand her chat. After wiping my tears and making me laugh, she said to me I willcall you at night and she cut the phone with hiding her tears. I was not happy but I was agreedmy result.

And second sock was:-In other side at the home of Bablu Bhayya. His mother was not satisfy with my Bhabis nature because there created vanity in my Bhabis mind and she was also not satisfy with my elder aunty so there lived row always between them and anybody didnt know in our whole familythat this little fray will change in big role. Some days passed and their fight crossed every

border of self respect and one day my Bhabis home divided in two parts. After dividing thehome she had free for every boundation thats why she used her freedom rights so much butshe didnt know that this freedom will be prove so costly and I also didnt know that it will beso bad for me. I never tried to make her understand that it is not better, I always thought that itis her family matter and there is no work for me. I always used to say that Bhabi is right butafter dividing of her family, her bad day had started because my elder aunty didnt like my

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After summer vacation my father asked me with very carefully that what I want? I asked himwith wonder, for which matter? He said, in study. I said to him I dont want to study in my oldschool. I want to change my school. My father asked me why? Are you feeling embarrass? Iwas silence because I was actually embarrassed. My father went back and I could not give his

answer. At night Rani called me and asked about my whole day, I told her everything but shedid not tell me about her pain. She knew very well that I will upset hearing her sad. She said tome please grow in study field and give more happiness of your family.

Next week my father met his friend who was principal of a school and talked him about myadmission. He said to my father, dont bother I will give him admission in my school. That waslast chance of my study life. Either I could lose him or I make my future. I decided that I willnot make friendship with any student because I wanted live alone and I started go to school.First day was very boring even then I accepted that day. Step by step six months passed.

I was trying to forget about my last year result. I wanted to give more happiness of my family but I was always failed because of some problems. One day I hear that Rani is coming at Rath,I was very happy. I thought, I will talk to her so more but at that time my Raju Bhayya alsocame Rath and He didnt like me. When Rani came, from that time I started go to Bhabishome and passed my 3 to 4 hours there per day. This was not feeling so good of Raju Bhayyaand when one day my father said to Raju Bhayya that after intermediate examination I willsend Hemu near to you (there were all of people of my elder aunty family except my Bhabi.Rani was also there because she was serving tea.) Then Raju Bhayya replied that he will notget do study there because Mirzapur is so near from there and he will go every Sunday there.This chat didnt bear Rani and suddenly she started with anger voice that you are so bad personand why will not he get do study? You mean because of me! I said to her stop! But she was not

being stop. When I was bringing her in her room with stretching then she said to Raju Bhayyawith cry, I promise you that I will reach him where you are nowadays and I will break your vanity.

Every person was gazing her and after one day, on my elder aunty order she went to Mirzapur but when she was going she said to me that promise with me that after this year you will takeadmission in B.Com. I asked her, why? She said because I want it. I said to her, I want to doanimation course after 12 th. She said then what do you want that my threat prove lie which Igive Raju. I said to her but.! She said, I want to get my answer yes or no! I said after somemoment OK! And she went.

One night when I was thinking about my yearly exam then my phone ring started. I understoodthat who can this and I picked up the phone. There was Rani. She asked me, are you upset? Isaid, no! How are you, I asked. She said, fine. I asked, do you have any problem? She said, Iwant live alone and I have planed that how it is possible but for knowing about that you willhave to come KANPUR tomorrow.

Next day I went to KANPUR, where I met Rani and her friend Teena. Teena brings us her fathers friend. His name was Suneel and he was proprietor of a music studio that was in filmcity of Noida. He was waiting us, when we reached there then I knew what the plan was? (RaniVoice was so beautiful and Teena suggested her that she can become a good singer thats why

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friend). Suneel said to Rani to sing a song and she started sing. She was trying her best butafter listing Suneel said to her, your voice so sweet but you will have to work very hard for grow that. So you will have to take training of 6 month at my studio. She agreed! Then Suneelsaid to Teena, you can bring her next week at studio.

When we came back from there, I asked to Rani, what you will tell in your home. She replied,nothing! I will go with out tell them. She asked me, can I use that money which I earned fromAmbay. I told her that is your money and you can spend that as you want. She said, no! That isyour money because if I am here today because of you and if you say that it is my money thenI will understand that you are not happy with me and if you are not happy then whole world arenothing for me. I said to her with sobbing voice, no! I am happy and wind with her. In dinner time we planed our next step and Teena said to us that she will help Rani. After two days shewent Noida with Rani and made join studio, after living two days with Rani; she came back her home. Rani went to outside from her home alone first time so she was ruffling but even thenshe made brave her self and started her work with full interest.

First one week of after coming back her home, she didnt tell about her location in her home.After one week she told to her mother that I am very happy and stay in Noida. She told, I got a

job in a company as a computer operator and earning 8000/- per month, that is enough for me.Her mother said to her, please come back! I will make your brother understand but Ranirefused for going back to her home and said to her mother that she loves very much her mother comparing other so I thought that I should tell you about me that I am fine otherwise you musthave bother. She learnt singing six month and music composing six month also. Total coursecompleted with in one year. In that year I talked her regularly three or four hour at night ineach day. She used to tell me her whole day history and about her progress. Sometimes sheused to make me hear song in her voice.

She had become a perfect singer and she was a popular singer of her studio because she was best from other singers and she was composer also. Except her there was no composer insingers team. Her music director was very happy for her performance and her hard work. Oneday she was very happy and she called me suddenly in noon. I received her call and asked,what happened, why you call me at noon today have. Are you free today? She replied no! Shewas not getting spoken clearly because of her happiness. I asked again, what happened? Shesaid, do you know what happened today? I said until you will not tell me, how I can know. Shesaid, sorry! Today when I reached my studio then my director called me and said, you are our

best singer so I decided that you should send Goa for our studio show and then he asked methat what I want? I said to him that I will give my answer tomorrow. I asked to Rani, why will

you give your answer tomorrow? You should have given your answer quickly in yes! She saidto me, I was nothing and when I am in this stage then what do you want, I forget my old habit.I asked her, old habit! She said, yes! You know battery that I cant do anything asking withoutfrom you then how could have I said, yes! Now tell me, I should go or not!

I asked her, why do you love me very much? She said, because you are my breath and I lovevery much for my life. Suddenly she replaced her voice in mock and said, love have beenenough and now give me my answer. I said, yes! You should go. She said with cry, I knew. Iwas very happy seeing her happiness.

After two days she went to Goa and she displayed her 1 st performance and she got so much

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and suddenly start weeping without stop laughing. I could understand that she was very gladand she was giving her winner response to me but I didnt agree with her because it was her victory. She was good singer and every one was happy with her, I do not know that what shewas thinking but I know that she wanted to look me there but my hands were tired thats why Icould not go there. That was my golden night and she was that person who gave me that night

in body of my strong love, my self power, my true dreams and flowers of happy. I was alsohappy but in other hand there was creating some problems in my Bhabis family.

There are two shops in the market of our family and in one shop partners were my Ramkumar uncle, Dinesh uncle and Ramesh uncle; in second shop partners were Prem uncle, Jaipal uncleand my father. It was decided by my grand father because it was his property but because of my father service, my fathers space was blanked and Jaipal uncle was doing already businessof paint so his space also blanked in that shop. By & large there was sit only Prem uncle in thatshop. In second shop there was blanked Ramkumar uncle space because of his service. After Prem uncle death there was sit his elder son Bablu.

But electric of both shops was combined thats why bill used to come combined. In other sidethere were creating some problem in my Bhabis husband(Bablu Bhayya) business thats whyhe was not getting pay electric bill of his shop so my uncle whose shop joint with BabluBhayya shop, was very angered because every bill was paying by Dinesh uncle.

After some time when Bablu Bhayya didnt give bill payment then Dinesh uncle got newconnection take by electric department. This was first cleft between Dinesh uncle and BabluBhayyas hearts. I knew about this chat but I didnt know that this matter will be so big andstep by step there came always bad thoughts between Dinesh uncle and Bablu Bhayya andafter some time Bablu Bhayya stopped talk to Dinesh uncle and Bablu Bhayya and my Bhabiover every relation with Dinesh uncle and his family. Every relation was breaking and myhands were tried, I didnt do any thing in this matter. Step by step Bhabis consumes wasredoubling and because of this Bablu Bhayya was going under debt but he was not thinkingabout its result. In yield of money and own vanity, Bhabi was losing her recognition in othersview and this was so dangerous for Rani & me.

Time was passing fast and every possibilities of my success in love way were being decrease. Ihad leave everything on god because I could not understand of Bhabi because when I talkedabout her expenses then she always said this is my husband money and why do there create a

problem in the view of other? Thats why I thought that why I am my time loss. I used to telleverything about this matter of Rani but she always said that I think you should care of your

study and everything is not in our hand.

When I tried then I serious in way of my study. After 6 month, when my exam had came and Iwas ready for facing that. I didnt any talk from Rani in my exam time and there Rani was

being advance. She was earning more money but she was collecting that in our joint account.She wanted to get me. She didnt love money or fame but she loves my respect or my wishes.Every moment of my exam time when I came out of exam room after taking the exam then Iremembered her and thought that when exam will be over and I will talk her but everyone isknow that nobody can cut of time that is cut it self.

After 20 days my exam, I talked to her again. She was very happy after listing my voice after

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there was some problem created in my eye thats why my one paper was not pass so good but Ihope that I will be clear it.) I told her everything about my exam time. She asked me in verydeeply voice, will you pass in this exam. I said with taking long breath: yes! Then I asked her about her, she replied: every thing is fine and I miss you so much and after some moment wedrifted in love and whole night we chat. She didnt want to listen about my Bhabis life.

Time was passing and our life was being difficult and taking many turn but we didnt back our way. In other side Rani was fighting with her life and far to 500 k.m. from her I was alsofighting with my life and my enemy, who hided behind of friendship. My result was about to

be come after some days and I was in tension before its out. I thought, if I fail at this chancethen what I will give the answer to her, who believe on me so much and see the dream from myeyes. How I will make her understand and when I came back from this thought then I prayed togod that please listen my pray, dont nerves me.

When I was boar then I talked to Rani and I used to forget this type of thought for some time. Iwanted to see more happiness in her eyes thats why I was also planning about future. Step bystep one and half month passed and once again my 12 th result out but at this chance I didnt seemy result and I was waiting that somebody give me my result detail and after half an hour myfather called me because he was not available at the home on that time so he called me fromoutside and asked me what happened about your result? I replied I dont know.

He said: I told you (my heart beat was so fast and my heart was saying every thing will be fine but my mind was so disturb and creating bad images.) I asked my father with slow voice, iseverything fine? He said: yes! You have passed.I was so happy. I went to my room so fast and called to Rani and told her about my result. Shewas very happy but I dont know till now that she laughs for own or for me. Because I noticemany time that when I happy so much then she doesnt discuss about her pain on that time andalways she forget those in my happiness. I think that I am so lucky that she is my love.

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Chapter 6 I thought, perhaps my bad time has been over and now I can start my new life. I passed my

two month summer leave with happiness. My whole family was very happy because my parents had lost every hope but perhaps I waked up their hope again. I was very heady totaking admission in graduation. I was not passing my time thats why I used to talk my everyfriend by phone and face to face.

After passing my summer vacation I took admission in B.COM. but I decided that I will not goto collage because I didnt want to take any risk for my happy but I didnt know that when luck

plays its game then every person have to play with that. I didnt take any risk but my cousinsister whom name was Kajal and whom marriage was being last year, one day on 2 JULY 2003news came to our family in the morning at 7 o clock that she has died. I was taking tea,hearing this, my tea cup dropped my hand because she was only my one sister who understoodme better and always lived with my every problem.

She loved me very much. I was not getting believed that news but the news was right. A personwho my friend was. God grasped her from me. She use to always say my mother when Hemumarriage arrange then I will come 1month earlier before marriage but perhaps my luck was notfit for that happiness. I cant forget her in my whole life.

After two or three month I met a person whom name Abhishek was. He posted atALLAHABAD BANK as a clerk. I met him under a contract which I took for BANK. Iworked there three month and between in this time I and Abhishek had been good friend. I

passed my so much time with him and some time with others. When I bored, I talked with Raniand some time with Anjali.

After some time I divided my time. My half time passed with my lover Rani and my half time passed with my good and nearest friend Anjali. Anjali was nice girl and when I was in some problem then I discuss with Anjali because Rani used to face her own problem so I didnt want

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thought that she is filling with happiness and I knew everything about her but perhaps shedidnt know everything about me and I also didnt know everything about her. I know it whenon 14 NOV. 2003 at night 02:45 a.m. when she asked me, are you proper belonging to RATH.

I did cross question to her; why are you asking me this silly question. I said to her you know

me from 4 year but you never asked this question. I thought that you know about meeverything. Then she replied, I know that we chatted more time in last four year but that chats

belong to your problem or my problem, your daily routine or my or even our friendship.

We never discuss our home town or our other friend. I said yes! You are right but you know mefrom four year even then you are saying that you dont know, from where I belong to. She saidwith laughing, why you are doing this matter so long. I replied, ok! I am telling you about myhome town but this is last time. She said, I dont want to listen your city history. I want toknow only an answer of my question. I said, I belong to RATH proper.

Then she said with nerves voice- Raj; I want to tell you something about me. I said with mock mode Anjali; perhaps you are forgetting that I know about you everything.

Suddenly she said; not everything Raj, not everything. I asked to her what you want to tell mewhich I dont know. She said to me, I love a boy who belongs to RATH and he comes in myrelation also. I met him in 2001 at my home when he came in my sister marriage. I talked tohim whole night and when he was going back to his home in morning, and then I was notfeeling good. I dont know what was that? But my heart was wanted to weep.

After some time I tried to contact to him and I talked to him then he said to me that he alsoloves me. I talked him very much but in middle of the year when my phone was out of service.From that time I am unable to contact to him. I was listing her very carefully. Then after sometime she said to me with weeping Raj; I want to your help. I said first you wipe your tears andstop weeping then tell me that what can I do for you? She said, I want that you seek him for me. He lives at RATH and his name is Aakash. I said to her that here many boys will be of Aakash name. She said that I give you that phone number from which he used to call me.

She gives me that number and said please Raj; I want to talk to him. I can not live with outhim. I said to her that I will seek him for you then I promised to her that I will help you from

where I can do. Then she said to me I will wait.

After some time at 5 o clock in morning she said to me; good night Raj. I said good night andshe cut the phone. In the morning I collected all information about that number which she gaveme. The number was of a P.C.O. but that P.C.O. is so near to my home so I thought I shoulddiscover in my area. I knew a boy whose name Aakash was. But I knew him from 1996. Hewas my good friend but he met me once in a blue moon.

I met him when I used to play cricket. He used to also play with us and he was good player. Heleaved his study because of some problems thats why he was free. I thought that I should takehelp of him. One day I met him and asked; do you know Aakash. He said with laughing how

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this area. He replied no! He asked me, have you any problem? I said no! I said to him; eventhen keep on trying. He said ok! And I came back to my home.

At night I called Anjali and told her about my process against her matter but when I told aboutmy friend Aakash, she asked me- how is your friend looking? Then I discuss to her about my

friends personality. Then she said- Raj; I think it is my Aakash. I said what nonsense? She saidwith her full believe- Raj; he is Aakash. If you dont believe me then you can ask him aboutme.

I asked to her how you can say that he is that person. She replied when you were telling meabout his body structure and habits, on that time I guess that he is Aakash. I said to her; I willmeet him tomorrow and ask him about you. If you are right then I will make your talk to him.She said OK! Then I talked her about fun and friendship and step by step night passed andaccording to daily habit on early morning she said to me- good night Raj.

Next day I met Aakash and asked him; am I your friend? He said; yes! He asked me why youhave asked me this question. I said to him; Aakash I want to know about you, can I know? Hesaid; yes why not, What ever you want. I said to him; can I know about Anjali? He socked! Hesaid to me with hiccup voice; whos Anjali. I dont know about any Anjali. I said to him- donttell a lie. He said again, believe me Raj. I dont know.

I said to him ok! If you dont want to tell me then I will not press you. But I have someinformation about her. I said to him; thanks Aakash now I am going and when I stood for going, he said to me with catch my hand. Please Raj! I want to tell you something. And in onehour he told me about his story.

He described his story in that method, in which Anjali told me. Then he asked me now whatdo you know about Anjali? I said; everything. He said with wonder- what do you mean? I toldhim about our friendship. I told him that we know each other from 1999. He socked! He askedme with wonder, you mean- you know her before our meeting. I said; yes! He asked me; doyou talk to her daily? I said; yes every night.

Then I asked him- why did you stop talk to her? He told; I was talking to her daily when I wasfree. But from when her phone disturbed, I stopped talk to her. After disturbing her phone Itried to contact to her three or four month regular but I could not success then I thought

perhaps her phone connection must have cut. He said to me Raj; I want to talk to her. Can yougive me her phone number? I said to him; she also wants to talk to you. So meet me at 8 p.m.then I will make your talk to her. He said ok! And then I came back my home.

At night; Aakash met me at the right time which I gave him. Then I called her Anjali but because of her family member she could not pick up the phone. I tried many time and after four and five bell she picked up the phone and said hello! She knew that this was my call buther family members were available there thats why she was pretending that voice is notcoming. She was continuing say hello, hello.! Then in middle her hello, I said to her- I amwith Aakash and call me as soon as possible and I cut the phone. I was waiting her call andafter 20 minute, she called me and said to me directly- I want to talk to him and I gave the

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Aakash was talking from my home because he had no phone. He talked to Anjali circa one or two hour. I dont know what was chatting and when he cut the phone. He said to me thank you!And he went back his home. After one or two hour Anjali called me again, she didnt forgetthat night is for our friendship chatting. I picked up the phone, she was very happy and she said

to me with deeply heart voice- thank you Raj.

I asked her- for what? She said to me today I am very happy and this happy is near to me because of you. She said to me Raj; if I believe any person after god then that is you. I said toher- ok, ok madam! Its enough. She said; I am not joking. I said to her Anjali- I want to seeyou. She said; I also but I think I will give you surprise. I asked; how surprise? She said; whenI marriage then I will meet you because I will not do marriage without you. You are my bestfriend.

And from that time I called Aakash daily and made him talk to Anjali.

I set my neighbor thats why Aakash stayed there whole night and I used to give him a phoneand he used to talk to Anjali whole night. Many times we were connected each other with a

phone line and when Anjali or Aakash was said to me for stop listing their chat than I wasleaved the receiver. Our time was changed. She was talked to me daily in noon and she wastalked to Aakash at night.

I was talked to Rani in every night because Anjali used to busy with Aakash. I was told aboutmy and Anjali chatting to Rani. Many times she was said to me that Raj you are taking sointerest in their matter but I was always said; she is our friend and we should help her. Step bystep time passed and Anjali and Aakash went deeply in love valley. Here I was very happy thatI am helping my best friend.

One year passed and in next year, my grand mother died thats why many relatives collected inmy home. Rani also came. And when after thirteen days of my grand mother died when therewas being worship at my home then because of some problem my Bhabi could not come at thetime of worship.

And when she came on that time my third aunty (Pramods mother) commented against toBhabi in front of many persons and so she could not tolerance this comment and after somemoment there was created atmosphere of fray. This was last meeting of Bhabi and Pramods

mother. After that time they didnt meet face to face but from that day Bhabis respect so downin the view of our family.

Every person was saying that mistake has also done by Pramods mother but she is elder

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