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GImInX AXns Ombbnepw {]Xnmbbnepw Fs cq]sSpn. asmcphynbpsS kmnyw AXmcpXsbmbmepw Fs Nnsb DS\Sn aKXnbnempp. Hcp km[mcW a\pjy\v aphcpambp kw mjmhnjvImcn\pw `mh\bvpw {]tNmZ\amIptm, F\nXv {]tNmZ\hncpamIpp

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\nv sIn hmn b Xp amb `q]S fpm bn cp p Ahs tiJ c n.{]IrXnZriyfpw hntZiobamb thjhn[m\fpsS tcJmNn{Xfpw ]tamcnIfpsSbpw DmkepIfpsSbpw hWNn{Xfpw apw Ah ]e ]{XamknIfn \npw shnsbSpv kqnp. bYmYtam km]nItam Bb GsXnepw Hm^okns t]cnepw Nnetm tPmen sNbvXncp kzw m]\nsXs t]cnepw Ah {Smh GPknIfn sNv, Cenbntepw Cybntepw D hnt\mZ bm{XbpsSbpw t]mpKen\pw Hmkvt{Senbpw CSbnepI bm{XbpsSbpw hnhc ASnb sNdp]pkvXI tNmZnp hmpw.

Rm Adnbp Ghpw alm\mb kmcn alXzw Ahs BflmYX

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As\ CXn\pw assnepw hniZoIcWapmIpw. Hcp]s Ah amscsbnepw A\pIcnpIbmbncnpw. Asn . . . AsX, IpnIfpsS _pnkmaYyhpw apXnhcpsS achpw Xnep `bcamb hyXymkw ]cnKWnptm, {]Imiw sNmcnbp {] hnXdnsmv \apv XpW hcp HcpImhamemJ Ipn m ev \tmsSm ap m bn cn p sav Nnetm F\nvtXmmdpv. ]noSv, DXamb GtXm \nbahyhbpsS \n_n\v hgn,XSn ]nqfmIm hn[ns \s Ah Dt]npp kzw Ippsf ]cnNcnXn\v tijw Dt]np AarKsftmse.

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A]mcXbntev Xpdp \memw \nebnep Fs P\mebvv apn, s]mnhnScp \{Xsf t\mn, kao]amIp kybpsS lrZyamb Nmn \nptm, Fs kz]v\ IspwZqchpambn GIXm\Xbn AmXhpw km]nIhpw XnIpw Akm[yhpamb tZifntep {]bm

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