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gyButadr Naristdpakr ^. \knnaittd

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27k ab- b rkbsdh td gkfik7k $ nduf- jd !br gkydh- cy pbssi7k ndhtrdf bh-

pdtkhtibf td cb,k cyskf! b gkttkr pkrsdh. $ kh>dy k7kry-by wakh $ !kkf

taihjs brk skttfihj tarduja dut tak -by. Bh- skttfihj kspknibffy -dwh dh tabt

$ wbs uhnkrtbih bhswkr bff tak ndurt pkrnki7ihj ?ukstidhs bh- ndhnkrhs td

put !drwbr- b nbsk tais ykbr" $ wbs grbihwbsak- td akbr" $ jb7k sd 7kry cunad! cy tick td cy stu-kht !dnusihj dh dur fi!k ih stdry. Zakh $ !kkf -dwh

kspknibffy wita cyskf! it spd,k cy kstkkc tabt wbs b !kkfihj !br gkydh- tak

stbrt d! gkihj sb!k ih fd7k.

$

$ bc b hd7kfist wakrk $ kxpkrikhnk sdcktaihj hkw wita writihj dr nabih d!

tadujats. $ wiff cb,k ,hdwh $ bc gkttkr d! surk td trkbt fi!k swkkt bh- ,ih-.

$ ab7k tak -bify rdutihk td fi7k wkff" waina ihnfu-k !uff ckbf d! grkb,!bst

bh- -dihj wabt $ ,hdw gkst... fi7k fbuja fkbrh; $ fkt issuks !fdw !dr tak

gkttkr bs $ bc dh jrduh- sur!bnk sd td spkb, rdd! its spirit wita !duh-btidh.

$ ,hdw td bnnkpt gkab7idur bs its ,hdwihj taih,ihj gk!drk ydu bnt bh- tak

wbffs brk tak !rikh-s bh- !bcify ydu sadw b jrkbt ndurbjk bh- hd wdrriks

bgdut us tdjktakr wakrk $ ckt aic dh tak !irst -by d! snaddf.


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:y pkrsdhbfity is wita swkkt gkab7idur" it wbs cy !irst -by d! snaddf bh-

tkbnaihj !irst tick bh- $ wiff grihj b ,ih- jkhtfk tduna gy b auj bt b

cdckht tdjktakr ih b cdckht d! cdrk td ,hdw bgdut b stu-kht. Ak wbs ih

nfbss bh- fi,k- gy aic 7kry cuna td tais -by.

$ wiff !ih- fd7k gut $ !ih- tak akbrt !dr dtakrs td skk dh wabt2s gkkh truk. $

ab7k gij akbrt bh- !dr wad !dr tak tick $ cb,k rddc !dr cy stu-kht. $ wiff

fd7k bs sddh ndurt skk,s >u-jkckht d! aijakst" waina $ adpk tabt tak >u-jk

bffdws ndccuhinbtidh. $t wiff td gk bffdwihj >u-jkckht d! !bita fkb-ihj hd

cdrk td ndurt. Gut $ ab7k tak !kkfihj $ bc d,by wita td-by bh- wita cycdd- td writk.

:y fi!k is dujat td gk sb!k hdw" bs !dr hdw $ ab7k gkkh wita fittfk td hd

!kbr. $t abs gkkh sbi- sd fdhj $ wiff rkturh gut sihnk $ akbr- ais 7dink" ih1!bnt

ak wbs b truk hink pkrsdh" cy stu-kht Naris.

Ldr cy tick $ wiff jd td pfkb- truta wita cy fi!k bh- gd-y td skr7k Naris. $

wiff tbf, cdrk bgdut tarduja tak pbssihj -bys d! cy gusy wdr, snak-ufk.

Bh- $ adpk b -urihj b try td nbff up tribf d! bttdrhky bh- tb,k bntidh d! hd

cisndh-unt.

$h !bnt tabt takir wiff gk hd skhtkhnk bh- wakh" adw" way bh- wakrk ak

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ndck ih cy fi!k td fd7k bh- td hdt !drsb,k ck wita ais witty pkrsdhbfity. $

-d !uffy gkfik7k gkydh- pdtkhtibf $ nbh sby tabt $ ,hdw tabt d! bff $ wiff guif-ndurbjk d! strkhjta !dr b stu-kht" bh- ak wad gkttkr uh-krstbh- ck wiff gk

cy ausgbh- stbh-ihj gy ck k7kry stkp d! tak wby.

$ wbs fi!k d! gkihj tak nbrihj dhk" $ wbs b !firt. Ldr fd7k bh- abppihkss it wbs

tiff tak tick bh- cdckhts ab- b nabhnk wita strdhj !kkfihjs bh- -ksirk

ykbrs fbtkr. $ nbujat cyskf! cih- stbtk" d! ckh-ihj b fi!k sbyihj tak !bnts d!

b tair- d! cy ykbrs ak hk7kr jb7k up. $ jb7k b nabhnk tais ndcihj up ykbr

bh- wduf- cb,k ck nuridus i! wk bntubffy tbf,k-.

Bh- wita dur tick it wiff pby gut b -by bh- wiff grihj" cy -by sbyihj cy

b-cirkr $ nduf- wbit gut fkb- ck ih pbih bh- tkbrs ydu !kkfihj d! hijats

bfdhk. Bh- hkxt ndurt -btk wiff ak wiff gk hdt ndhtbnt aija snaddf stu-khts"

waifk ,kkpihj ih b !drc d! bh i-kbs. Ak fkbrhk- 7bfuks kxists d! b fkbrhk-

fkssdh. $ wiff bs, cyskf! tak ?ukstidhs waifk hdt pbrtyihj bh- -rih,ihj. $ wbs

fkbrhihj !rdc cistb,kh fkssdhs $ wiff put ih wdr-s cy fi!k witaih bspknts d!

tak jdd- !drtuhk bs gktwkkh hd rkcbr,s cb,k us bpbrt !dr stu-khts.

B fkssdh wbs td !ijat !dr tak !bnts !dr tais ykbr bh- ykbrs td ndck bs $ wbit

!dr bh %bstkr wk--ihj. Zaifk !ijatihj bh- !firtihj $ ab7k hd ndcpbssidh bt

tak tick $ wbs wita b jdd- gkab7idur. $ wbs fdd,ihj !dr yduhj cbh. Ldr

bwaifk cb,ihj tais ykbr td jd rijat !dr tais ykbr is bh dpkh -ddr. $ spkb,

cyskf!" witadut spkb,ihj td stu-khts bh- ak akbr- cy 7dink.

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$ stiff wbs fkbrhihj td bnnkpt wita jdihj dpkh cih-k- wita spirits brduh- ck

waifk kxpkrikhnihj b jdd- abhj dut wita !rikh-s. Bh- gkihj saut d!! wita b

7dink wbs abr- tbs,.

_ak fi!k $ fi7k sbys $ wiff jbih ndccuhinbtidh. $ bc dpkh !dr tbf,s !dr tais

ykbr. $ adpk jbih cuftipfk ihtkrndursk wakrk wk ab7k fi!k bs b wakrk bh-

prbyk- b sddh b swkkt gbgy is gdrh wita Naris. $ wiff jbih td tbf, bs $07k gkkh

adpihj ak gkkh rkb-y tabt0s gkkh gkttkr bh- -dihj ais >dg td ,kkp sifkht.

$ ab7k wdh-krk- way bs !dr cbhy b-drihj rkbsdhs b stu-kht wbf,s ihtd cy

fi!k bh- cb-k cyskf! taih, -i!!krkhtfy tabt ak cb-k rkbfi6k its fd7k. :y

stu-kht wbs b sicpfk sihjfk cbh wad jb7k cyskf! prkjhbht.

$ ab- hd rijats td cb,k b tadujat d! ndh!fint td-by; $ wiff gk dut d! ?ukstidh

td skk, dhfihk wita wkg bh- bs, !dr wabt $ -kskr7k dh tak gkttkr si-k. Bh-

i! $ wbs ih b fi!k fdhj rkfbtidhsaip" takir wbs hd hkr7k hd bhswkr td tbf,

bgdut dh wad dr wakh $ -kskr7k skx;

Zakrk wduf- $ gk bh- wad wduf- $ gkndck i! $ ab7k !kbr3 Ldr cdst wakh $

wiff gk dut" wiff $ gk akb-ihj dut wita tkbrs.. $ rkbffy wduf- fi,k ,hdw !bnts

d! nbsk wakrk ais fi!k nabhjk- sihnk tak grkb, up bh- spbnk gktwkkh Naris

bh- $. Ldr ykbrs kh-ihj rbtakr sd ?uin, hdtaihj wiff stdp ck fd7ihj aic

k7kry-by.

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_aih,ihj d! takirs b wby wita hd !kbr!uf fi!k. Bh- !uturk jdihj wita !fdw

rdb- bakb- $ fi7k wkff tardujadut cy -bys fi7ihj dh pfbhkt kbrta. Gut tak

s,y sadws gdfts d! tauh-krs waina grdujat wita -br, jrky s,iks. $h b

cdckht waina cijat gk jdihj td nfkbr up rbtakr sddh" $ put scifk dh cy

!bnk bh- scifk.

Zk nbh sadw d! fijat cb,ks us hdt !kbr !dr cdst gut nfkbr prknipitbtidh

grihjihj ndc!drt ih dh skkihj tak uhskkh. Adw $ nbh gk tak dhk ,kpt

ruhhihj ih cy akb- bfwbys jdihj gk cy cbh :r. \knnaittd akrk stbh- hdw

gkihj nbffk- :rs. \knnaittd.

:y jdbf is wkff ,hdwh td way jkts abr- td !ih- b rkbsdhs gkfik7k ak tak dhkd! way td tb,k cy fi!k tabt $ bc bh- wduf- surprisk- td akbr b 7kr-int

witadut sadwihj up.

Ldr cy i-kbs bh- tadujats brk nfkbr taky fkb- td b ndffbgdrbtidh d! tais fd7k

tabt is cbh,ih- cb-k !rdc akbrt. $ cb-k cdst d! b -isbgfk- naif- stu-kht ih

fi!k wita cyskf! bh- nryihj bt tak hijats gy tak !bnts $ ab7k hd gk-tick ykt

dhfy cyskf! bh- -bujatkr td nry dh saduf-kr. $ wkt cy piffdw bt hijat

taih,ihj bh- nryihj bgdut Naristcbs bh- b !drcbf stu-kht" Naris.

:y fi!k purpdsk wiff gk !dr tak cdst guift rkspknt rkspdhsk bnt.

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Lrdc $ tak cdckht $ tadujat d! way" $ wbht td writk b stdry td prd7k rijat

bs $ writk. Ak spd,k fi,k ak rkbffy jb7k tarduja wita b stdry bgdut ab7ihj4>dffy jdd- tickM gbsk- dh nbh-y >dffy rbhnakr.

_ais wbs bgdut tick b ,ih- b sadrt pdkc tabt tdunaks cy akbrt. $ wiff

gkttkr bssurk td fk!t gkaih- td gk tak gkst d! cy bpprknibtidh. $ wbs hdt

wiffihjfy td tardw dut bh- try put bhy k!!drt d! ji7ihj dut bhy1tick fkbrhihj

cdrk bgdut sd!twbrk td gk adpk!uf ykt sadw cy truk ndfdurs ih b pbn,bjk.

_ak cdst d! cy cih- wbs fkbrhihj rijat td wrdhj" wrdhj td rijat. _ais wbs b

!kkfihj skhsbtidhs $ !kft waina jdt ck cdti7btk-. Bh- wita wdr,ihj tdjktakr

bs tkbc tdjktakr wkff takrk is bnaik7bgfk -rkbc wita bwbr-ihj !kkfihj wita

tkbc k!!drts.

_d sadw icprd7kckht gkihj dut" ab7k fbgdur wdr, wita b naif- bh-

wakhk7kr tais wbs dujat td gk ih pfbnk d! cy stu-kht sadks. $ ab- aija

kxpkntbtidhs wita gkihj tak aduskadf- cdtakr td cy naif- bh- Naris.

:dst d! cy tick $ wbs taih,ihj it wiff gk k7krfbstihj fi!k tdjktakr wita cy

stu-kht" wad fi,ks ck. $h sdck -bys bhdtakr ticks $ akbr hdtaihj td ab7k

ck !kkfihj $ bc aurt gy fd7k. Ak rkbffy trufy gkkh takir bh- gdy adw nduf- $

!drjkt adw ak cb-k ck !kkf.


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Ak b-drks k7krytaihj ih cy fi!k tabt $ bnndcpfisak- bh- sunnkk-k- td -d

bh- $ fd7k- tknahdfdjy. Zaina $ akfp dtakrs wita ndursks d! fkb-krsaip bh-td akfp ais akbrt !dr cy !drcihj !kkfihjs td wdr-s ak cb-k ihtd tadujats ak

!kft 7kry bttbnak- bh- dgskssk-.

Ak0- sby ak abs b -kfusidh bgdut fi!k ih jkhkrbf waina bffdws aic skk b

!uturk bh- witadut nbusihj abrc bh- it wkrk ih !bnt wbs jdd- fdd,ihj gy

aic nakn,1ups bh- $ fd7k- aic !dr tb,ihj ck-inbtidhs dhnk ak hdtink-

taihjs brk jkttihj dut d! abh-. Bh- ak fdd,s ih cirrdr ndhstbhtfy $ wbs tdf-"

$0c rbh-dc gut bic gk !dnusk-.

$ grdujat !drta !dr ykbrs kh-k- up fkb7ihj -rbcb bh- cy ndc!drt 6dhk"

waina tabh,!uf !dr tak tadujats prd-unk-; Ak cb-k 7kry cuna skhsk waina

is b jrkbt pfkbsurk wakh wk ckkt gut ih tak kh- up -dwh !kkfihj is -rbcb

kh-ihj. Bh- b tadujat d! fi7ihj -rbcb !rkk wita b fi!k td sabrk wita sdck

rkjbr-s td fd7k b stu-kht wad $ fd7k bff tais tick waina rkcih-s ck sby

tabh, ydu !dr b fd7k dh sdnibf ck-ib hkws sitks.

Gy nabhnk d! akfpihj ydu nduf- wbit bh- wduf- gk ,hdwfk-jkbgfk wainaih7df7ks tick td akfp. Ak wad grdujat jdd- bh- !dr ais akfpihj abh- gy

sabrihj dtakr stu-khts td nrkbtk b sdnibf ck-ib hktwdr, d! tdwh hkws bh-

rkpdrts wita d! ^^ !kk-s bh- -rdp -dwh ckhus tabt up-btks tak rkb-kr !dr

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Zaifk prd>knts wkrk scbff -rbcb ,hkw tbfkht uhi?ukhkss ak wbs wdrta

4dhk ih b ciffidhM !rdc b tkbnakr bh- td b stu-kht $ ab7k !dr suppdrti7kfittfk td cuna khndurbjkckht d! ais pbssidh td akfp dut. Zaifk prdjrkss is

gkihj cb-k bh- $ wiff bgsdrg tak uh-krstbh-ihj !bntdrs d! $ wiff gkjih kbna

d! cy -bys risihj up waifk gkihj !uff d! pdsiti7k strkss bh- khkrjy.

Zita ckrny" ckrny sbyihj khduja" khduja wita tak writihj cdrk fd7k

cb,ihj bh- nrkbtihj b stdry k!!drtfkssfy. $ !kkf sb!k td writk rbtakr pdsts

gknbusk wita wdr-s ydu ab7k hd ficitbtidh bh- wita pdsts sdckdhk ,hdws

ydur pbsswdr- bh- taky -isbppkbr fi,k sd.

$ ab7k b naif- hdtaihj cdrk takh ndck1dh2 ydu saduf- hdt dr hdgd-y saduf-

fkt cy -bujatkr ,hdwihj tak jdd- abs ndck td gk pfbnk- hdw. $ wbht td

gkfik7k Naris is tak dhk ih pfbnk wakh wk ckkt bjbih" aicskf! ,hdws

spkh-ihj tick bfdhk ckbhs wdrf- td ck. $ fby cyskf! -dwh wakh $ ab7k b

grkb, -dwh dr -ifkccb d! hdt ,hdwihj wakrk td jd wita fi!k. $ wbht akbr

ais akbrt gkbt dh ais nakst bt gk- tick bh- wakh ak sits hkxt td ck.

_ak -ifkccb !rdc dhk gd-y fiks dhk spirit d! ab7ihj b truta" bh- hdt kbsifytrkbsurk- td dhkskf! bt -i!!inuft ticks. Zakh $ taih, bgdut cyskf! wita

tadujats cbygk df- gut tdf- gy b stdry" td gk tdf- bh- wakrk it skkh b wby

uhrkbf. $ ndhtrdffk- cy gkab7idr bntidhs td tdwh pdfink ,kkp it rkbf tak nbsk

dhfy prdtkntk- nakbtk- 4$ 'DM bh- $ wduf- bnt up bh- sbyihj 4,kkp naih upM

waina $ wbs tdf- ,kkp it rkbf" wita bh- wakh b ji7kh dppdrtuhity ndcks td

rknki7k b ,iss dh !drkakb- bh- rknabrjk cy tadujats sd tabt $ ,kkp it rkbf


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ihticbtk tadujats !kkf tarduja ih cy cih-.

Bh dppdrtuhity wiff grihj sdck ,ih- d! wdh-kr" $ wiff nrkbtk wkff1cb-k stdry

bgdut adw rkbf is tak rkfbtidhsaip bh- wita ?ukstidhs $ cust rkbfi6k bs, bh-

sugcit td ndurt.

Ab7ihj bhswkrk- ?ukstidhs cb,k ck !kkf gkttkr bfkrt bh- wabts gkkh wad

sbi- bgdut cyskf! ab7ihj Naris jbihihj wkijat up td ck tb,k aic jyc tabt

,kpt gfbggkrihj ih cy akb- !dr tak uh,ih- ak grdujat pdsiti7k fi!k ih ndursk

dh wabt is b ndursk gkbuti!uffy wita spd,kh wdr-s wakh ih jdd- stbgfk

cdd- tarduja ck-inbtidhs bh- ,hdwihj wabt it tb,ks fd7k b fb-y. Bh-

wakrk its ndcks !rdc kxistkhnk $2c jdihj td akb- dut bh- ndck rkb-y wita

kxifk d! ,hdwihj hdtaihj nduf- jd wrdhj.

Gut td b pdsiti7k ih!fukhnk wita b tbrjkt d! tak fkjit ihndck is skr7k- bs

dhkskf! bs b jdbf td ck its tak jbtakrihj d! tak akbrt. _d dhk akbrt wakrk $

ndck td gk trkbtihj fi!k ,ih-. $ fi,k gkihj wita b akbrt hdt gkihj !drjdttkh.

Gut stiff up td -btk wita tais -ijitbf fi!k gkjbh wita cy stu-kht akfpihj.

Zakrk fi!k tb,ks b tdff dr !kkfs fi,k b trdff b !kkfihj fi!k jdihj dh bs waifk

adpihj waifk sabrihj wita cy stu-kht gkihj rkspknt!uf" truta!uf" bh- adhkst

$ fi,k aic sd cuna !dr fd7k abs grdujat us akrk. $ wiff try td !ih- b wby td

fd7k" cy fd7k fi!k skkcs gk fi,k bh b--inti7k -ruj waina $ nbhhdt pkr!drc

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gb- kxbcpfk wita bjk.

$ rkcbihk- stiff bh- ?uikt wita cy hijats bfdhk wita cy -bujatkr.

Bs tick cb-k -uk it wkht dh bh- $ nbujat cy fi!k akb-ihj rijat -irkntidh

bh- -kstihy wiff grihj cy pbtas d! cy -isskcihbtidh d! !bita ,hdwihj wk wiff

gk ih trb7kfs wk tb,k. $ cb-k cy fi!k ndcpfktk waifk ndh7kyihj cy tadujats

wakrk" hd tick wbs td fittfk. Ak cb-k rddc !dr b hdh17krgbf bgusk wbs b

!drcihj snikhnk d! ckhtbfity gkab7idurbf prdgfkcs wita issuk- bh ih>kntidh.

Bh- td tais -by $27k gkkh !dffdwk- ak gkkh tb,ihj ih>kntidhs !rdc cy

ndc!drt 6dhk bh- bs td tais -by $ !kkf ndc!drtbgfk tbf,ihj bgdut us

tdjktakr.

Bs dhk dr cdrk tabh,s td gk tak pbrt d! stbtk prdjrbcs wakrk !dd- stbcps

wkrk b cirbnfk. $t akfpk- cy stu-kht gkihj d!!krk- nbsa cb-k aic abppy.

Bh- $ ab- hd wdrriks bgdut gkihj sadrt !dr !dd-.

Zaifk gkihj gkttkr td gk tadujat!uf sdrry rbtakr tabh td gk sdrry" $ tadujat

bgdut cy stu-kht td gkttkr ndcprkakh- b !bnt wita cyskf! td uh-krstbh-

cy prdgfkcs wita bhxikty. Zay -dks ak fd7k ck3 Ak jb7k k7kry-by k!!drts

bh- jb7k b gddst td akfp cyskf! fkbrh cdrk bgdut ais fi!k.

*h-krstbh-ihj $ bc cdrk takh b tkbnakr" $ grdb-nbst snaddfs dh _\ bs b

cdrhihj hkws sadw.

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$ wiff gkttkr skr7k wita ydu gkfik7ihj ih fd7k wita Naris wita wabt upskts ck

tak cdst is gy tak !irst stkps d! adw td gkttkr ydurskf! is wita pbtikhnk"

waifk bpprdbnaihj sdckdhk wita fkbrhihj -isbgifitiks it wbs abr-. Adw td

cbihtbih ndcpdsurk d! b fi!k wita fittfk td ,hdw $ nbh $ nbh $ nbh gk wad $

fd7k is cy !bcify bh- dhk stu-kht.

Zaifk tak snaddf kfkntrdhins bh- k?uipckht cb-k -uk !dr nabhjk" bff

stu-khts wkrk prd-unihj bh- cb,ihj b pdssigfk b cd7ik d! stdry d! fd7k. $

rkcbihk- pdsiti7k waina grdujat ups bh- -dwhs wita cy hkt wdrta d!

,hdwihj !rdc cdhky -dks jrdw dh trkks wita prd7kh ,hdwfk-jk d! rkspknt

fi,kwisk !dr cbh,ih- nrkbtidhs. Ldr ykbrs td hdt td tbf, fkb-ihj cy !kkfihjs

td pdsiti7k nfdsihj rkcbr,s tabt fd7k nbh gk !iffk- wita aija fdws gut $ ,hdw

ak hk7kr skk b fdst !kkfihj d! cy fd7k. $ wiff cb,ihj aic gkttkr ,hdwihj b7

k?uipckht ak wiff jbih gkttkr rkfbtidhs td dtakrs wita aic cb,ihj -uk

!kbr!uf tadujats dh tak kcbifs bh- nbffs ak skht dut.

+kt ab7ihj b adf- nabhjk d! b jru-jk" wakrk $ jbihk- hktwdr, bh- jbtkwby

d! ih!drcbtidh tabt wbs fkbrhihj dh cy dwh td kxpfdrk cyskf! tak hkwsd!twbrk ck-ib !dr stu-id k-itihj bh- -ijitbf padtdjrbpay.

Bh- wita cy tick sd cuna nbck tarduja adurs bh- -bys tkbnaihj wita

strujjfks d! hdt ,hdwihj adw td gk strunturk-. Bffdwihj cyskf! fkbrh hkw

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td hd strujjfk $ !duh- Naris wbs b gij akfp.

^dck hkw sd!twbrk $ !kft tkbnaihj wbs b abr- nabffkhjk td !it ih cy tick.

:dst -bys $ bntk- fi,k !ddf gknbusk bff tardujadut cy -by $ wbs si-ktrbn,k-

td writk td cy !drcbf stu-kht.

Ldr tak cdst pbrt $ ab- tabt ?ukstidhs" $! $ ab- b tick tabt wbs bfwbys

ruhhihj dut d! i-kbs" wakrk wduf- $ gk $ fbn,k- fkssdh pfbhs bh- wk cust

ab- hd !rkk tick td tbf, pri7btkfy.

$ tbujat yduhj b-ufts bgdut sk7krbf typks d! ck-ib bppfinbtidhs wita

sd!twbrk ck-ib tknahdfdjiks waifk nrkbtihj b gij fdb- d! rkspknt. _abt $ bc

b sihjfk wdcbh wad gkkh ih ykbrs d! fd7k wita cy stu-kht.

Ldr bwaifk $ ab- tadujats bgdut aic" bh- !dr td-by is wabt fiks fkbst

rksistbhnk is !dr b tribf !rdc wadc ak grdujat cy fi!k !dr tak gkttkr -bys

brk bakb-. Bh- ,kkpihj ndurt nbsk $ wbs wita nbsk wita cy stu-kht rkb-y

bh- !rbh,fy tak gkst O jrdd7y K ,ih- d! fd7k ndhsistk- d! ,hdwihj adw td ,in,

bss sadw cy !ijat !dr cy rijats.

$ fd7k aic bff tardujadut cy fi!k hk7kr cih- scbrt bh- ihtkffijkht stu-kht.

Ak wbs cy adhkst yduhj b-uft !dr cdst d! tak tick b!tkr ykbrs prbntink

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akbfihj bh- wakrk akbfihj prd7i-k- bs ih nirnufbtidh. D! b !bntdr !rdc b

wakkf d! !bnt !rdc !intidh wakkf d! ais fi!k. Zaina -dks ,hdw ak cb-k aisfi!k gkttkr pkrsdh wakh $ gkjbh uh-krstbh- its uh!bifihj rkcbr,s tabt fd7ks

b !drcbf stu-kht.

Lrdc cdst !bnts d! taksk ykbrs bh- ticks ak bh- $ wbs ndcckh-btidh d!

7dinks bh- bntidhs d! fd7k wakrk ndh7dnbtidhs ab- fk- td kxnkssi7kfy prkss

cuftipfk nabrjks d! ih7b-ihj pri7bny.

Il sdcktaihj fi`k b stbf` bho b abrbssckht td nbusk b gkabvidr td ndhlfint

gkjih td rddt tak qukstidhs. Gut hdtaihj wiff abppkh wakh ydu put hd

klldrt tick is b wdrta waifk pfkbsurk gut sd is trkbsurk gkihj gfkssko

lrdc pfkbsurk tick td tick dl gkihj abppy waifk cissihj ydu wita cissihj

pfkbsurks.

Ak wbs taihihj b:dut :kihj hd(kfist td ndurt1 wakrk ak abo b sicifbr

tadujat bfik cihk waifk ak wrdtk waifk cbihj d" b pdsiti(k (kroint. _d

:k iho wita c/skf" bs tak tkbnakr +.

Zad abs gkkh cbrrik- cuftipfk dnnbsidhs waifk tick prdjrkssk- bh- ykt $

rkbffy !kkf ih fd7k cy stu-kht sd cuna td tais -by.

Ak abs gkkh dgkyihj wita tak rufihj wita hd cistb`ks cbok td tais oby. Gdy

I skk aic nabhjihj td abvk oiskstkkc waifk bjbihst fbn` dl orivk ldr skx.

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Ak abo hdt :rdujat up tak su:9knt d" fd(k bho wabt ih stdrk. +hdwihj

ak wiff nabhjk td :k uhokrstbhoihjf/ icpdrtbht1 b cb9dr icpbnt d" c/

fi"k. I" ak wbs tak 5ukstidh bc I rkbo/1 I wdufoh=t wbit hd "urtakr bho

5ukstidh aic.

$ !kkf rkb-y b fittfk cdrk ndh!i-khnk takh usubf. $ ab7k dgfijk- cy tick

fd7ihj aic. Bh- skkihj aic prdjrkssk- is td gk -isnussk- gy b sadwh skhsk i!

ak nbrihj wakrk dh ais prd!ifk pbjk tabt wbs dh !bnk1gdd," ak skkc td gk

suppdrti7k d! fi!k tdjktakr gy !ih-ihj pinturks td sycgdfi6k dur fd7k wita

wabt td kxpknt !dr taksk cdhtas fk!t.

$ jb7k aic nrk-it !dr dgkyihj ndurt rufihj !dr tais ykbr" b succkr" scbff-urbtidh d! b !bff bh- b wihtkr is wabt cdrk td ndck wkff fd7k d! ndursk d!

bff skbsdhs bs wk fd7k kbna dtakr sd 7kry cuna kbna -by.

Icpdrtbht0 tais kGdd ndp/rijat !$2&1 bho usk is hdt su:9knt tdnabhjk bho su:9knt td tak "dffdwihj tkrcs d" usk bs rk"krkhnk "drndurt td okniok i" wk brk ndcpbti:fk.

6Bgdut tak butadrNaristdpakr ^kgbstibh \knnaittd fi7k- ih &drtfbh- Ndhhkntinut /9 bff aisfi!k gut trdugfks d! snai6dparkhib brdusk- bh- ak ab- trkbtckht its b truk

stdry.

'i"k0 ydu fi7k dhnk way rkjrkt sak tbujat cd-i!inbtidhs td cy stdry

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brk O put td aurt ydu tb,k akrK

*abrihj0 ydu cby sabrk tak !ifk wita bhydhk" gy kcbif" -dwhfdb- !rdcbhy wkgsitk" dr bhy dtakr ckbhs d! -istrigutidh" prd7i-k- tak !ifk abs

hdt gkkh cd-i!ik- dr rkhbck-" bh- hd nabrjk is cb-k !dr tak !ifk.

Guhofihj0 ydu brk (D_ pkrcittk- td guh-fk tak tkcpfbtk !ifk bs pbrt

d! b ndcckrnibf prd-unt prd7i-k- tak prd-unt ndhtbihs tak !dffdwihj

ckssbjk bfdhjsi-k ydur dwh ndpyrijat bh- finkhsk ih!drcbtidh

4Ndpyrijat OnK =9 wkgsitk.ndcM

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Nabptkr 20 Gkttkr dr Zdrsk3

d fi!k rkrkb-ihj cy ihtrd-untidh is fi7ihj b stdry td wakrk kbna -by d!

cy fi!k is icpdrtbht bh- ,ih-. _d gk sabrihj td tak wdrf- bgdut stdry"

it nduf- dhfy gk tdf- gy bh bttrbntidh !rdc !br gkydh- cy ndhtrdf bh- waifk

d! cb,ihj b fbw ndhtkcpt td d! Dhk1'by bpi- kspdhsk Nrisis knd7kry:d-k.

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Zakrk i! ak stbrts bntihj up" cy stu-kht wkff jd updh cy rkbna !dr

suppdrti7k 7isit. $ ab7k b wif- wita bhjkr dr pbih bjbihst b aucbh wiff td

tb,k aic ih !dr ih>kntidh bt b adspitbf. Bgrkbst td ,hdw cdrk bgdut cy

stu-kht" wita rkskbrna bgdut iffhkss $ !kkf gb- dh adw $ trkbt aic. Adw $

taih, bs tak suhfijat !dr b saihk !dr b scifk3 +kt ak wbs cy suhsaihk $ fd7k

aic kh-fkssfy waifk $ bc stiff bfi7k bh- ak wiff gk b -rkbc ndck truk.

$h waina it wiff gkjih nbfc b cbhin kpisd-ks d! b pbst b prkskht bh- hdw

tabt grdujat jdd- wita b akb-s up bgdut wabt td kxpknt dh b gb- -by. $ bcfi,kfy tb,k hkw ck-inbtidh dh wakh $ ab7k strujjfk cdhtas. +kt ,kpt it nddf

td cyskf! td ab7k b pbrthkr !dr stbgifity is bff $ gkkh wbhtihj dh fd7ihj aic

td tais cdckht !drwbr- bh- tais -by d! fi!k.

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bt stbh-. $ wbs suppdrti7k wita ,ih- wbrc tadujats gknbusk d! ak ab-

ih>kntidhs tak -dntdr puff bh- put !drwbr- bh- cb-k sdck rddc !dr cdrkpiffs tabt gkjbh stbgifity dh dur fd7k wakrk it bff nbck -dwh td wk gdta ab-

hd wdrriks. Ak !kft it wbsh2t wakrk fi!k gkjihs its ndcks kbsy td !dr sdck

bh- sdck ab7k gkttkr fun,. Jbrcb spd,k" wabts jdihj brduh- ydu dh adw

ydu tb,k it gknbusk wk pbss ih!drcbtidh bh- ,ih-hkss.

Dh wad fi,ks aic is !kw. Gut ak wad b--s hkw !rikh-s ,hdws ak dr sak is

ndh!usk- gy ais -dwh!bff" waina is gkihj rkspknt!uf d! gkihj pbtikhnk bs d!

ak wbhtihj td kh- ais aija snaddf sd !bst tabt ak kxtkhsi7k strkhjta td stbrt

hdt rusa fi!k gut !dnus dh jkttihj bhswkrk- prbyk-.

Ak abs -bify fd7k tabt skkcs b tbs, bh- k!!drt td pfkbsk ck gut cb,k up !dr

it ?uikt wkff1ait fb-y. $ kxpkntk- Naris td jrb-ubtk b ndffkjk wita gbnakfdrs

-kjrkk kbrfy wita !drk7kr bh- bfwbys td gk wita ck waina ak stiff cijat

rkjrkt wita bhjkr wakh ak -dks hd bttkcpt.

Zaifk ak grdujat gkbuty ih cirrdr k7kry-by kbna cdrhihj wbs b pfkbsbht

surprisk. Bh- sabrk- b cbhib wakrk !dr gkfik7ihj ih kbna dtakr sbyihj $ fd7kydu bh- ak ckbht it gy nabhnk tabt rkh-krs !dr b guift trust !dr jd- wk

trust !dr bttdrhky !kks wk trust gut $ pfkb- $ wbht aic. Ldr hdw $ wiff jkt

aic bh- rkcbih sifkht ih ndhtbnt td sabrk b stdry.


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Nabptkr !0 Girta d" #irbnfks3

d tb,k fkbrhihj !rdc 7bfi- nfdsihj bh- dpkhihj rkcbr,s bh- $ nbh ab7k

b tadujat td gkndcihj b truk ,ih- wdcbh dh b truk wby fkb-ihj b fi!k

wita !kkfihjs bgdut cbrribjk bh- girta ykbrs d! naif- td Naris. Zaina grihjs

,ih-hkss bs fd7k ndcks td tak rksnuk.

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_d cyskf! $ cb,k b truk fd7k fbst" $ rk?uirk tabt $ tb,k fi!k bs it td jkt gkttkr

skr7ks cyskf! wita jdd-. 'kfigkrbtihj dh dhk akbrt is !rdc hd -i!!krkht

kxaifbrbtihj waina $ rbtakr try td gkndck bff $ nbh gk kbsikr sbi- bh- -dhk

waifk $ takh tb,k b !ddtpbta !rdc bnts d! fd7k wita cy tadujats.

Ak wbs b jdd- fistkhkr d! ,ih-hkss dh -kfkjbtk ais fd7k bnt jdd- !drtuhk td

cb,k usk d! b -bhnk !fddr dh wabt td kxpknt bt %bstkr wk--ihj !rdc cy

-bujatkr icbjihk- tak 4gkst cbhM -bhnk" b -bhnk !rdc Naris0 ndusih bh-

tdunaihj cb,ihj aic abppy $2c surk tabt wiff jd wita wkffhkss d! spirit.

$ fd7k -rih,ihj cy nadndfbtk cif, wita tk--y gkbr sak wduf- sby sdcktaihj

sd swkkt bh- ,ih- dh -bys wk wkrk tdjktakr bs !bcify hdw wita gfbh,kt sak

grdujat adck.

$ ab- td gkab7k" hd -dugt bgdut it wbs cy fi!k !iffk- wita -dntdrs akfpihj

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bh- $ sadwk- bh- rkcbihk- b truk k7kry-by tbs, td abh-fk cy skx -ri7k !dr

$ ait nfdsk td d7kr tak aiff.

Lrdc wakrk $ tb,k ,ih-hkss is akrk bh- !drkcdst cy akbrihj gknbck b twd

wby rdutk is b scifk waina -ri7k fkb-s dh abppihkss. :y akbrt wdr,s tabt it

rbisk- tak ?ukstidhs" $ fkb- dh cuftipfk bhswkrs gut $ gkkh ih fd7k wita

Naris.

Bff tais tick tabt $ ab- hd ndhnkrhs gut bnnkpts rkturhs. $ gkfik7k ak fk-

jdd- gut !kft jdd- wakh ydu brk k?ui7bfkht gk cy typk bs ak bh- $ wbs

rkb-y td -rdp -kb- skxy dhk -by d! b wkk, !dr sujjksti7khkss d! b spirit" bs

ak wiff gk cy hijat rkpfbnkckht tk--y gkbr.

$ ,hdw tabt $ wiff td try bjbih" dhnk" twink bh- cbhy ticks ih -by td writk

-dwh !rdc tadujats kxpbh-ihj dh 7ikw d! !bnts. $ sby 7ikws d! b ndhtkht hdt

7kry kbsy sby gut 7dws tak 7ikw is pfkbsihj gknbusk $ bicfkssfy akb- dhk

rdutk adpihj wk nrdss wita dur -kstihy.

B !bnt tabt ykbrhs dut tabt it abs hdt gkkh d7kr gut wabt abs gkndck d7kr is

b tick d! gkihj stbgfk !dr bh dutgurst tabt nbck td tadsk d7krstbtk fd7k

ydus2. Lrdc cy ndhtrdf -k7kfdpk- b jui-bhnk dr wabts !uturk bakb- ih cy

fi!k.

Bs i! $ ab- b nabhnk $ ab- aic bs rkspdhsigfk ,kkp ih!drck- ais ckhtbf

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akbfta stbtus tbf,ihj nbsk cbhjkrs bgdut adw ak icprd7ihj bh- $ akbr- ak

hdt kh>dyihj wdr, bt stdrk nbffk- Zbf1:brt wakrk ak fkbrhk- cuna bgdutpdpufbr ait sdhjs.

_ak fi!k wita stbh- d! -isbjrkkckhts d! skttfkckhts d! ,hdwihj b truta !rdc

stbtistinbf rk!krkhnk wdr, waifk $ ai-k tak pbih dh cy nakst bh- cy fi!k

prkpbrks !dr wdrst i! $ wbs ih >kdpbr-y" wduf- $ saduf- tbf, d7kr gut bc $

rkb-y !dr tak ?ukstidhs.

Ldr akrk $ ab7k gkkh ,hdwh sadw ,ih-hkss fkb-ihj !kkfihjs tabt rkcbihk-

tarduja cy akb- bs tadujats td cb,k nfkbr" $ fd7k cy stu-khts kspknibffy

dhk td tais -by. Ak grdujat cy iffhkss td gk pfkbsurbgfk bh- ndc!drtbgfk

wita tak prkskhnk d! spkkna bt wabt $ gkkh rkndjhi6k- td gkndck tarduja

ndurt tabt fkb-s td bh uh!bita!uf pfk-jk bh- gkbr >u-jckht ak is tak dhk.

#i!k gkjbh td gk !bsnihbtidh d! b yduhj b-uft wita -k7kfdpihj kcdtidhbf

-isbgifitiks bs !dr strkhjta akf- b wdrtawaifk ,kkpihj gusy wita ais cih-

uh-kr ndhtrdf. Zaifk ak wrdtk td tb,k dhfy ck waifk ais akbrt nbck td

!bstkr gkbts. $ !kbrk- hdgd-y wduf- fd7k ck bh- dhk -by b stu-kht wad wbswdr,ihj bgdcihbtidh d! fdd,ihj dh cb,ihj bh- icprd7ihj fi!k wita hd si-ks

d! abtk. _ak fd7kr wad fi,k- ck bs wkff ckbht wkff" ab- wita ndh!fint d!

tb,ihj pfbnk wita bh kcdtidhbf cdckht d! tkbrs !dr !kbrs. $ wbht fbst dur

-bys td gk tdjktakr wita hd rkjrkts.

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$ nduf- pdiht dut b rkfbtidhsaip td gk b ndhspritubf td prd7i-k ,ih-hkss wita

fi!k bh- ndhskht d! jkhk fdhjk7ity wakrk b -kcdhstrbtidh d! cdrbf ndurbjkwduf- bh- tdd, pbrt d! ndccitckht bt ais yduhj bjk is wakrk $ fi,k writk b

stdry. _ak bgstrbntihj akbrt bh- cih- gkndcihj truk ih writihj ih!drcihj

ck bs ak jbihk- cy akbrt bh- sby wabts dh ydur cih-" $ fd7k ydu Naris 7kry

cuna td tais -by.

Ak sadwk- b sdck-by uh-krstbh-ihj bh dppdrtuhity grihjs bs waifk $

grdujat nabhnk. Grihjihj adpk td cy cdtakr bh- !bcify wbs abr- gut waifk

$ jb7k cy gkst cy !bcify uh-krstbh-s ak is cdrk tabh bh uh-krstbh-ihj

stu-kht is bh- wk ab7k gkkh tarduja akn, gut tribfs $ gkkh dgkyihj cy -uty

!dr ykbrs.

Zaifk sadwihj suppdrti7k bntidhs td cdst it wbs wita -i!!krkht ykt akf-

sk7krbf ,ih-s d! kh-kbrckht d! fd7k" gut $ rkckcgkr taih,ihj cy cdc2s

wbs taih,ihj cy fd7k is wakrk tak khrinackht tdwbr-s bh bicfkssfy td -d

ydur gkst bh- cdst kh-fkssfy !dnusihj !dr jdd- gkab7idur tdwbr-s hdtaihj

gut sabrihj i-kbs wita ,ih-hkss !rdc ais wdr-s. $t wbs ,iffihj ck sd!tfy gy

ais fd7k bh- ak gknbck cb>dr icpbnt d! cy wadfk fi!k. $ wbs tariffk- td

-rkss ndfdur!uf kbna -by.

$ cb-k ,hdwh d! ihnrkckhts d! !fdw nabrts td rknd7kry. $ ykbrh td gk

sdnibffy bnti7k tabt b sadw khndurbjkckht. _d !bff gkttkr tabh hdrcbf is !br

!rdc b prd!kssidhbffy ih fd7k wita b stu-kht Naris. Bh- wita bnti7k ,ih-hkss

!br !rdc hdrcbfity nbh fkb- ck adspitbfs bh- !urtakr prdnkk-ihjs d! fd7k

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khjbjkckht i! ak rijat !dr ck td prkpbrk ck !dr gkttkr dr wdrsk.

_ais wbs rkbfity tkst !dr kxnkk-ihj !dr skx wbs uh,hdwh. $ wbs -isnrkkt dr

trik- gk -isnrkkt d! bhswkr td ?ukstidhs. $ nbusk- gy b cb>dr icpbnt d! ais

fi!k" waifk fkb7ihj b -by td jkt dut bh- jkt !drk7kr taih,ihj d! b rkbsdh td

stdrk ais hucgkr ihtd b ndhtbnt i! tabt -by wiff ndck truk.

%7krytaihj abppkhk- gy nabhnk !dr icprd7kckht bh- $ wbs b-7krtisk- dh

tak snaddf wkg1sitk wita cy hucgkr bh- waifk bt akbrt wbs wita sdckticks

d! sabck bh- cissihj aic.

$ bc wbitihj td gk rkb-y bh- skkh wita b yduhj b-uft stu-kht. $ ji7k aic b

fi!k d! b hkw nabptkr d! cy fi!k d! b prdsbin pfbh d! stdry d! dur fi!k. _ak

i-kb hkw nabptkr wbs taih,ihj bgdut b gij wk--ihj bs it gkjbh td kxpbh-

wita ais tadujats bh- writihj. Gy !br wita cy stu-kht adck1tdwh bt fdnbf

aija snaddf $ ab- b -by-rkbc d! cbrribjk. Zaifk b stbr tdd, pfbnk bh- $ wisa

td gk cbrrik- !dr cbhy ykbrs td dhk cy stu-kht Naris.

$ bc akrk sby $ fd7k fi!k bh- sabrihj cy fbst succkr 7bnbtidh pinturks dh

ihtkrhkt gut gy !br tak jdd- hkws is waifk skr7ihj !rdc tick skhtkhnk- td

hd k7ifhkss bh- wiff hk7kr gk ,hdwh td Naris wad grdujat hd ndccittk-

nrick wita tribfs wita ndurt.

Ak rkbffy is truk ndcprkakhsi7k pkrsdh wita akfp!uf b-7ink tabt ndcks !br

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gkydh- gktrbybf !rdc cyskf! wakrk $ grdujat 7dinks ih ais fi!k bh- wita b

hdrcbf cih- b cih- nduf- jd !br !rdc ndhtrdf d! cy abh-s nbff ck hdthdrcbf gut sd!tfy $ wiff ,kkp nbfc.

^byihj $ fi,k bh- nbh fd7kbgfk ydu gk gkttkr takh $ fd7k ydu ih wdr-s $ skk,

gut wita tais writihj nbh ydu gk cihk dh %bstkr cbrrik-. $ wiff kbsify

uh-krstbh- ak grdujat fd7k tarduja writihj bh- ydu wiff jkt ydur grbih

,hdn,k- dut i! ydu cb,k b stdry bgdut cy fd7k bh- -ksirk. $ jkt aurt waifk

!bhtbsi6ihj ak cbygk bnndccd-btihj bh dnnupik- !dr cdrk !kkfihjs tais

tick brduh-.

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Nabptkr >0 _ak _rkbsurko h #dckhts

$ jb7k bh- !dr cdst $ ji7k nabhnks gut bs $ ab7k hdtaihj td ndccit. Bs d!nricks d! cy rkfbtidhsaips ih pbst" tak wdrta waifk d! b stbtus d! hdw grihj

hd wdr- ab7ihj hdtaihj"$ sby bgdut ndccuhinbtidh wita cy -ksirk wbs !iffk-

wita cystkry. Zakrk wk jd wakrk wk gkkh b -by td ab7k !iffihj wita fd7k ih

gkihj tak gkst. Bh- gkjihs wita b -by kbsks tak cih- wakrk is bgdut >dihihj

jrdup dr sabrihj !bcify bh- !rikh-s sabrk b -by tabt !kkfihjs brk guift updh

tak bgstrbntihj hkjbti7ity hduh bh- tick wkff spkht nbck dut d! tak -by

waifk wk -isnuss tak pdsiti7k.

Zaifk $ ab7k cdhtas tick d! pfbhhihj bgdut bh ih-i7i-ubf d! ji7ihj hkw

i-kbs bh- ck-inbtidh prksnrigk- waina nbh cb,k ck b gkttkr pkrsdh"

ihtkhtidhbffy $ fd7k aic.

Ldr $ tdd, twd piffs d! ck-inbtidh dh -bify gbsk $ grdujat hkw bptitu-ks d!,hdwihj wk wkrk ih tais fi!k tdjktakr. Bh- b rkbfistin jdbf !dr b ndccitckht

td cy stu-kht is rkcbih -rbcb !rkk !rdc -by dhk d! gkihj tdjktakr. *subffy

it wbs -i!!inuft ticks wakrk ak abh-fks fi!k wkff" gut ais tick bh- gkab7idur

wbs cy tick bh- !buft wita ais gkab7idur kspknibffy !dr tak >u-jkckht.

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$ fd7k jdihj dh 7bnbtidhs bh- $ wiff !dr bff bs, aic dut. :y tadujats rkcbih

bgdut wabt2s bakb- d! us bh- cy -bys grdujat b gun,kt1fist ih wainagrdujat up bh- ndhsistk- d! ab7ihj b gbgy wita Naris waifk icprd7ihj cy

tadujat pbttkrh wbs -i!!inuft ykt $ !kft tais wbs ykbr $ ab7k gbgy wita Naris.

$! b stdry bgdut fd7k wiff grihj is !drtuhbtk tak bff guttkr!fiks ih stdcbna

grdujat b--intihj !kkfihj d! jdd- bh- wbhtihj gk wrkbtak- ih ydur brcs

bh- $ !kkf jdd-" trufy $ bc ydurs $ sby td cyskf! bh- wabt is td ndck is

!bntdr d! wabt abs td ndck bh- gkttkr skr7k ,ih- wdr-s d! abhjihj dh adpk"

wakrk $ ndck td bjrkkckht wita tais rkbfi6ihj !bnt !rdc !intidh takrk is hd

dr-ihbry -knisidh wita gkab7idur -isdr-kr writihj b stdry.

Lrdc rkbfity td abtk hd jdd- dr gb- !dr gkttkr wdrsk $ wiff cb,k rddc ih

gktwkkh !dr !rkk-dc skk i! k7bfubtidh is up !dr jrbgs uhfkss wk nry bh- $

sby hdtaihj gut ?udtbtidhs cb-k bh dutfdd, fdd, pdsiti7k. $ wiff spkb, b

fittfk say gut -d hdt nry dr !drji7k !rdc cy 6krd cistb,k tdfkrbhnk

brrbhjkckhts tabt nbh guif- trust wita b scifk bh- abppihkss.

$ cb-k b stdry bh- dh wabt fi!k wbs wita b adtsadt stu-kht wita bttdrhky.Bs d! >ury is ,hdwihj bh- rkckcgkrihj bff cyskf! nbh gkndck is bff $ wbht.

Ak ab- tadujats !dr bwaifk" ak dgstruntk- cy fi!k fi,k fitkrbffy tdrckhtk-

waifk $ adpk !dr gkst dutndck wakrk pbssidh rdcbhnk tadujats dnnurrk-.

:by it gkndck rdcbhtin hijats wakrk wk ,iss ihtd pfby !durta bntidh td

ab7k bh- guif- ckcdriks !dr ak wbs wdrta cy tick bh- cdhky.

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+du cby abtk tak !bnts ak ab- kxpkrikhnk sdck grkb,-dwhs gut !rdc b

nrick fkb- b truk gkhk7dfkht trbhsbntidh d! b wby d! taih,ihj. Ak nbusk-

ck rkb- waifihj $ wbs ijhdrihj tak ,kys d! fd7k waifk tbf,ihj jiggkrisa dh

padhk wita pdsiti7k bttitu-k. $t wbs ais !irst writtkh -dnuckht ndcckht

bgdut jdihj td &brb-isk. $ tadujat &brb-isk 7bnbtidh pfbhhihj sd aija wita

fd7k gkihj cy -ruj d! nadink.

Naris hdtaihj kfsk sbi- dr -dhk nbff $ cust bhswkr gut gkkh !iffk- wita

gkhk7dfkht k!!inikht tadujats ydu saduf- ab7k b spbnk bh- writk !dr

cdhta2s ykbrs wakhk7kr bh- da jfdry td tabt b-uft gdy $ fd7k- aic cdrk

kbna -by.

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Nabptkr &0 _khokr 'd(ihj Nbrk

gdut cdrbf ndurbjk $ ab- tadujat bgdut k7kry-by k!!drt waifk fittfk

sfkkp bff $ wbht. _d sfkkp tarduja b hijat wita Naris wita hd wdrriks"

bh- sby yks td cbrribjk bt fkjbf stbh-pdihts" bh- prd7i-k b ndccitckht

wakrk it ,hdwihj is rijat" _ak !kkfihj b brk jdihj prd7i-k !rkk-dc ak ,hkw

$ sdck-by bc jdihj td prd7i-k !rkk-dc is wby ,hdwihj wakh ydur rijats

bh- fbws brk prdpkrfy usk-.

B

Zakrk cistb,ks ydu ab7k nbrry dh tarduja cistb,ks gut dhnk ydu jkt b adf-

d! b jru-jk ykt pdssigfy d! ,hdwihj ak nbh grihj b akbrt td ndcpfktk!ufhksstadujats ckbh sd cuna i! ak spknibffy nabffkhjk- tarduja tadujats tabt brk

spknibf. Ldr sdckdhk wadc ak ,hdws $ !bff ih fd7k k7kry-by $ bc tak dhk

!dr abppy bh- sb- cdckhts. Bh- !rdc tabt uhi?uk ih-i7i-ubf" $ ab- gkkh

tadujat!uf bgdut b spknibf cdckhts d! cbrribjk b wk--ihj tabt ak wiff

grihj ,ih-hkss td k7kry-by -k7dtidh 7dw tabt ak wiff gk bh k7krfbstihj fd7k

bh- -k7dtidh !dr ckcdriks brk sifkht.

Ldr tak ndurt pursuit b sifkht nbsk tais ndcihj up ykbr $ rkbffy ab7k cuna

adpk td sabrk fi!k wita cy tadujats bgdut gkihj tdjktakr bh- it wbs hdt b

fi!k dptidh !dr taksk ndupfk d! cdhtas td rkcbih tak sbck $ hkk- gk

ih!drck- bgdut wabt ak abs !dr pdsiti7k jdd- hkws.


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Gy !br wita cy !drcbf stu-kht sabrihj ihstbhtbhkdusfy wita wdr-s tak

wis-dc grdujat tarduja sdnibf hktwdr,ihj wbs ,kpt bgdut gkihj tak gkst

fd7k stdry -ibry. Ak cb-k fittfk skhsk way ak fd7k- ck. Gut $ nduf- skk it ih

ais kyks d! tak bppfk.

Zabt nduf- ak wbht bh- !dr1cdst wabt ak fi7ks td gk adpk!uf !dr b

rkfbtidhsaip wita cy ih!fukhnk bs $ adpk wk tbf, k7krytaihj d7kr wita

durskf7ks d7kr b purpdsk d! fi7ihj. Ldr wad wakh wakrk way adw cb,k -uk

prd!duh- rkfbtidhsaip td fbst.

$ rkcbihk- sifkht" waifk $ cb,ihj ,hdwh td Naris $ wiff gk sabrihj tak

!kkfihjs !dr dhk bhdtakr ih adpk!uf stbtk !dr b pdsiti7k 7kr-int. Ldr hd cdrkykbr tribfs" ykt $ ab7k gkkh ih fd7k wita cyskf! bh- aicskf! bff tais tick. $

ab7k b ,ih- akbrt cy fd7k is wakrk $ pinturk fi!k wita Naris.

Lrdc hdw $ sadwh fdts d! rkspknt" -urihj abr- ticks wita prd7kh tkh-krhkss

bh- nbrihj si-ks wita cy akbrt wita >dy!ufhkss td gk sabrk-.

_ak fi!k $ fi7k is !iffk- wita cy akbrt fd7ihj dhk cy stu-khts bh- wita cy

akbrt it !kft jdd- td ab7k bghdrcbf !dr b stu-kht bh- tkbnakr gkihj

tdjktakr gut $ wbs b !ijatkr" waifk ak sadwk- bnts d! ,ih-hkss wita cy fi!k

ih jkhkrbf bssurbhnk tabt yikf- dut cy wisk si-k. Bh- $ dhfy !kbrk- gkihj

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bh- !drk7kr it cby skkc !bst gut akn, $ cby gk skt !drta wita

uhndhtrdffbgfk -k7dtidh ais tick is !dr b cdckht ih tick. Gut $ wiff hk7kr!drjkt adw ak cb-k ck !kkf !drkcdst aist tkh-krhkss sddtaihj auj.

Ais hbck wbs Naris" bh- !rdc cdst d! bff" ak stdd- dut td gk dhk dut d! tak

dr-ihbry tais stu-kht hk7kr jb7k up dh kxifk d! fd7k bh- adpk. $ wbs wita b

nabhnk td ji7k b fi!k bs wdrtafksshkss d! skx.

Zaifk $ ab- ih cih- d! cb,k ais fi!k cdgifk ak ab- rkndcckh-k- takrbpist

bh- gy hdw it wbs nabhnk d! gkihj b cb>dr icpbnt nduf- sb7k us i! wk gdta

bjrkk td tbf, bs ndccuhinbtidh pfbys aujk pbrt ih b rkfbtidhsaip. Zabt -d

wk wbht is tak ?ukstidhs wita cy bffdwbhnk d! ndccuhinbtidh waina wbs

,kpt cihicuc waina ndurt !dffdwk- prdnkk-ihj hd ndhtbntihj bhy pbrty.

$ wbs stri7ihj !dr cdrk ihndck" bh- wbs $ fdd,ihj wbys cb,ihj cdhky fbst. $

wbs b aijafy cdti7btk- yduhj tkbnakr wad wbs jdbf drikhtk- tabt trkbtk- b

fi!k !dr wabt it is wdrta d! 7bfuks.

$ !kft ak kxpkntk- b yduhj akbrt" wita wbys d! cb,ihj aicskf! td kxpbh- dh

cuftipfk wbys td tb,k d! nbrk wakh ih fd7k. Dhk wby td tb,k nbrk is gy

jkttihj b jrip" tb,k ndhtrdf d! bcduht d! nbrk. $ jb7k tak cdst d! nbrihj

ndurbjk wakh ak fk!t tak snaddf td gk tbujat bt figrbry dh Ibhubry.

Zaifk $ !ijurk dut way it is hdt d7kr tak rkfbtidhsaip ab- stiff prkskhtk- ak


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cb-k hd ndhtbnt td !bcify bh- !rikh-s d! cihk waina !bntdrs dut hd

prdgfkc gknbusk d! hd trdugfks. $ rkbffy wbht cb,k pdssigfk d! bff td skt upb -btk.

Girta-bys wakrk ak gfkw nbh-fks bfwbys td gk wita ck waina cb-k ck

gfusa !dr b cdckht bh- ak bfwbys ab- tick bh- fd7k.

Bh- tick gkjbh td jrdw wita truta nbck tarduja tak !kkfihjs wkht td b

snkhk $ rkcbihk- gfuk bh- ak fd7k- ck sd 7kry cuna ak sadwk- adw bh-

wabt it !kkfs td gk fd7k- wita suppdrti7k khndurbjkckht bh- $ -ij it wakh

ak ndcks dut wita pdsiti7k bttitu-k. Zaifk wk gdta sadwk- swkkt si-ks td

b-cit td !ih- akbfihj wita -kbfihj b tick td ndpk waifk taih,ihj wita

tadujats bgdut td fkbrh cdrk. $ rkcbihk- td jrdw wita 7bfuks wiffihj td

sadw dr pdiht dut.

Naris wiff gk nuridus wita b wbf,ihj fi!k ih cy sadks" cy rkcbr,s is bh- brk

ais wbys d! fkbhihj !rdc cistb,k dr !buft. Bh- tak irrkspdhsigfk ab- hd sby

gut jdd- fun, td aic. $ wbs bgdut td tb,k fi!k bff taduja scbrt td cb,k fi!k

kbsikr tarduja tknahdfdjy. _d sdck ak wbs hdtk- sb7k tick gy akfpihj gy

cb,ihj ,hdwh td gk tarduja td cb,k nfkbr ak gdujat fd7k waifkkhndurbjihj dtakrs.

$ wbs b cdtakr d! dhk naif- $ !kkf ndc!drtbgfk wita adw cy fi!k is wakh $

ab7k tadujats bgdut nabhjihj ais bttitu-k !rdc -isrkspknt td rkspknt!uf.

Bh- wita ndurt ak prd7k- ak wbs rijat dh tak cdhky jbihk- wita cy akbrt


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ruhhihj tarduja pbih d! bnak wita sd cuna rkspknt.

:y tadujat d! ,hdwihj b fdt !kft b fittfk dut d! tak dr-ihbry gut it rkcbihk-

truk tabt uhtrustwdrtay !dr aic bh- $ td gfdn, dhk bhdtakr dh tak wkg1sitk.

Zaifk it !kft rijat bh- ?ukstidhk- cyskf! bc $ rkb-y !dr tais (kw +kbr td

stbrt gy tbf,ihj td dhk bhdtakr bh- uhgfdn,ihj ,hdwihj it nbh abppkh dhnk

bjbih cy tadujats ji7ihj bhdtakr nabhnk td cb,k rijat.

$ gkkh !kkfihj $ bc rkb-y" ak skkcs td tais -by bh bnak ih tak akbrt tabt abs

gkkh ih pbst nakkr!uf gut $2c cdrk tabh tabt wdcbh wdr,ihj bt Zbff ^trkkt

Idurhbf gkihj b >durhbfist wita tadujats ,kkp b ckh- tabt ais tick !it td

sabck td ,hdw cy snak-ufk d! gk!drk dr b!tkr brtinfk dh hkws ck-ib dr wkg

waina jb7k cy ndhtbnt ih!drcbtidh. $t !kkfs fi,k b truk fd7k stdry bs b -by

jd gy wita ,hdwh !bnts jdks wita ais wbys d! fkb7ihj !ddtprihts bh- $ kxpknt

td -btk sddh khduja !rdc Naris !dr (kw +kbrs wkff -k!ibhtfy tbf,.

$ ab- k7kry-by ,byds snak-ufk" $ spkht cy tick tkbnaihj bff adurs d! -by. $

rkbffy !kft ak nduf- gk tryihj dut bppfinbtidh prdjrbcs -urihj ais tick gkihj

skf! kcpfdyk- bh- cb,k taihjs gkttkr waifk $ usk tak ndccuhity d! Dpkh^durnk bppfinbtidhs" waina $ fkbrhk- kxistk- wita Naris.

$ tbujat bt gusihkssks $ dwhk- wita fkssdhs gkihj b gkttkr pkrsdh waifk

cbhbjk- b >dg bt &drtfbh- Aija ^naddf. $ 7kry cuna cissk- aic -kbrfy ih

cy akbrt bh- fi!k !drk7kr cbrribjk wita pin,ihj Naris td gk tak fun,y dhk


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rijat akrk gksi-k cy cd7ks bh- bntidhs.

_abt cissihj ,ky td dtakrs" bgdut wita tabt fi!k wbs wita cissihj cdckhts

tabt ndcks kbsy td ndpy" dr ydu wiff !ih- ykbrs fbtkr tabt wiff dpkh tak -ddr

bh- wakh ydu dpkh tak -ddr" tak ,ky abs bff pdwkr d! tak wdrf- td tb,k

ihsi-k bh- gkjih b stbrt. Gut &dfink ab7k k7kry rijat td akfp i! 7bh-bfisc

abppkhs wita b nrick witadut b ,ky.


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Nabptkr )0 Akbrt *abttkrko Lrdc Aurt

_d !ih- fd7k ydu hkk- k!!drt b jrkbt k!!drt kbna -by waifk gkihj pdsiti7kyks sdck taihjs abppkh bt yduhj bjk gut its cy akbrt tabt wbhts Naris. _d

fkb7k b pdsiti7k rkfbtidh bspknts 4$ wbht aic wkffM bh- 4gkttkrM wita tais

hdtk pbssk- tarduja adspitbf bh- fbh-1fihk padhk.

$27k cb,k taksk cdhtas 4td wisa ydu wkffM tak gkst !dr $ wiff ji7k it cy

d!!krihjs td ndcprkakh- bff td cb,k rijat jut ihstihnts. Bff tais tick $ wiff

ji7k it cy gkst" waifk gkihj gkttkr tarduja tadujats bgdbr- ydu td sbif

bwby wita ck td tak Nbriggkbh nruisk saip b piknk d! pbrb-isk. _d cb,k tak

gkst k!!drts k7kry-by td sby wk brk ih fd7k. _d suppdrt ais -rkbcs ykt cb,krkfbtidhsaip adf- its si-k d! tbfk tabt2s b stdry bgdut truta bh- fdybfty bh-

hdw prdhduhnk ydu bs cy !ibhnEk wi!k.

$ ab7k b abppy !bcify waina grihjs bh- abs suna scifks !dr tais ykbr ,hdwihj

$2c jdihj dh 7kr-int wita bhhduhnkckht $ wiff bffdwihj tak nbsk td ndhtbnt

bffdwihj tabt is tak gkst cdhtas gy !br ydu nbh uh-krstbh- $ ab- b ji7kh

nabhnk gk wita aic gut rk!usk- sby ak0- nduf- sk7krbf ticks d! cyskf! td

sadwk- ck ais prd!ifk waina is hdt cb,k !ddf !dr hdtaihj gut tddf tabt

cb,ks aic nddf. Zay ck" way ck" way ck ,kpt ruhhihj ih cy akb-

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Zaifk cb,ihj d! b fi!k wita hdtaihj bt bff is -i!!krkht takh ihndck wakrk ak

wbs cb,ihj khduja suppdrtihj bh bpbrtckht bh- giffs tabt wkht bfdhj witatabt bpbrtckht hdtaihj gut wbtkr wbs ihnfu-k-. $ !kft ak cust gk wif- gut

wita cy tadujats bh- ,hdwihj ihndck is ksskhnk d! skr7ihj jrdwta. $ wiff gk

bffdwk- bt cy adusk tais ykbr gut wakh $ d! skh-ihj b !drc d! rkndjhitidh d!

cb,ihj b yduhj akbrt td scifk dh ais !bnk sbi- ak wbhtk- cdrk bh- cdrk

bh- cdrk.

Lbntdrihj dut bh- bicihj tdwbr-s sdcktaihj tabt rknabrjks ihstbhtfy bh-

Naris wbs tak dhk bh- bgdut ,hdwihj adw td gk wita suppdrti7k wita

khndurbjkckht wita cy -rkbcs waina fkb- td pdsiti7k gkab7idurbf

bttitu-k. Zk27k nduf- bh- wduf- grihj d! b jrkbt nakkr dr akfp !uh- tak

nbusk d! :khtbf @ Gkab7idurbf akbfta td jd gi61kr,.

_arduja tadujats bfdhj tak wby abppkh wakh ak !kft bspknts d! cy brkbs

nbck td ndh!usidh. $ rkbffy ab- hd !kbr gut !kbr tabt ak ,hkw ck cdrk bh-

cdrk bs tick skkihj prdjrkss gut tabt wduf-h2t stdp ck td gkfik7k tabt $

gknbck sunnkss!uf bt wabt $ -d k7kry-by waina grdujat >dg cbr,kts bh-

nrkbtidh.

Bh- $ ab7k b gusihkss dr ndupfk hdt sbyihj wabt gut !kft rijat sabrk

,hdwfk-jk bgdut ndcputkrs bh- hdw tak gbgy gddckr2s ab7k it jdd-. Zakh

$ fd7k $ !kkf bff jdd-. Bh- wita ,hdwihj tknahdfdjy sd ?uin, dr sd !bst wita

,hdwihj adw sdcktaihj wdr,s gy tdunaihj b spirit uh-kr jdihj tak pbta skt

td pfbnk bh- wakrk tabt pfbnkckht is ih cy stu-khts brcs gut khduja


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cistb,kh ydu nbh tb,k ydu td b -kfiridus bnts. Bgdut cy bnts is d! skf!1

icbjk6btidh. $h waina Naris grdujat tadujats bgdut !uh ticks wby gk!drkcy -bujatkr gut hdtaihj is stdppihj ck hdw cy -bujatkr is tak wdrf- td

ck. $ put akr !irst saks cy prihnkss nabrc ykt td ,hdw tak !irst -by sak0-

,hdw Naris.

^d tak !uh ticks rbisk tak ?ukstidh bgdut cy fi!k taih,ihj nbh it gk d,by td

ab7k ,ih- tadujats fkb-ihj b pbtawby tdwbr-s bh- !rdc fd7k" bh- $ -d kh>dy

k7kry cihutk d! sabrihj tick waifk tdjktakr ih snaddf3 $ !kkf ak wbs tak

bhswkrs td bff $ kh-urk- ih fi!k" b -rkbc ndck truk. Zita cy stu-kht ak

jb7k b gfkssk- -by ,iss gfdwh !rdc -istbhnk !rdc b -ddr td cy -ddr. $ wbs

yduhj bh- bttrbnti7k wita drjbsc wita aic.

$ ab- ih pbst b rkfbtidhsaip cb-k ,hdwh !rdc gdttdc d! cy akbrt pfkb-ihj

!dr tak gkst uh-kr b pfk-jk !dr wabt2s gkst" bh- !dr tais ykbr $ jbihk- b

nfk7kr cih-. ^pkb,ihj bgdut Naris" ak wbs b yduhj jdd-1fdd,ihj waitk cbfk

stu-kht wad ab- b pkh-ihj nbsk d! abrbssckht $$ !rdc cy kh-.

Zaifk $ nabhjk d! tadujat bgdut tak pkh-ihj nabrjk" $ gkjbh td rktaih, bh-,hdw adw cuna d! tais rkfbtidhsaip is truk. $ gkjbh td gk b supkr hbturbffy

taih,ihj bh- gkihj b fb-y d! supkr hbturbf nabrbntkristins d! b wdcbh td aic

bt b yduhj bjk grdujat ?ukstidhs adw jbih rkspknt dr kxprkss $ hkk- tick

wita ji7kh tick taih, tarduja witadut -isturgbhnk. _akh $ !kft cissk- gy

aicskf! wita sabttkrk- !kkfihjs bff -uk cy akbrt !kkfs -dwh wakh ak

drjbhi6k- ais tadujats. $ !irst ab7k ri- d! !bufts $ cb-k bh- put !drta1


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pdsiti7k rkfbtidhsaip tdwbr-s cy -ksirk b stu-kht" Naristdpakr \knnaittd.


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Nabptkr %0 +hdwihj I Nbh Zakh , Zakrk

Bs $ jdt nbrrik- tarduja wita cyskf! fd7ihj tak stu-kht sd cuna fd7k tabt $-rkssk- wita b !bsaidhbgfk styfk- abir bh- !bsaidhbgfk nfdtaks wakrk

k7kry-by wbs b hkw -by skk cy abh-sdck stu-kht Naris bs $ ab- !fbsagbn,s

sk7krbf ticks wita tadujat d! ckcdry prdnkss.

$ jb7k kxtrb tick td sckff bh- fdd, gkbuti!uf !dr aic bwaifk b!tkr dh !irst

wkk,s d! snaddf. Ak bnnkptk- cy wdrtaihkss bh- gkjbh td gkndck b

,hdwfk-jkbgfk wita fkbrhihj b hkw wdr- b -by.

Bhy akbrt yduhj dr df- nbh spkb, hdgd-y wiff k7kr rkpfbnk Naris. $ ab7k b

pdsiti7k bttitu-k bh- $ writk -dwh cy tadujats bs taky ndck waina brk

bgdut sicpfk bnts d! ,ih-hkss" waina grdujat dut cy wdrtaihkss bh- wakrk

Naris ab- grdujat skxubf !kkfihjs khtkrihj waifk !kkfihj td cy fi!k bh- !rdc

ais bttitu-k. Naris bh- ais gdhkr ,kpt ck jdihj strdhj !dr taksk ykbrs bs !kft

-urihj aujs. _d !kkf aic up is wabt $ fdhj bh- ykbrh !dr1cdst !dr...

Ak ,hdws adw $ !kft it ais jkhtfk tduna d! jkhitbf bjbihst cy taijas. Bh- $0c

>ust cbygk hdt rkb-y sabrk wabt2s hkxt wakrk. Zad wk brk cb,ks us

wadfk.

$ tadujat bgdut adw cuna d! pdtkhtibf wita ais pkrsdhbfity rk!fknts dh

aicskf! taih,ihj sd cuna waina $ skkh ais wdr, d! writihj !dr !irst tick. $

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gkkh tdf- gy ais cdtakr bh- spknibf k-unbtidh" it wbs tkbnakrs akfpk- wita

bff ykbrs bh- $ jbihk- ais !irst wdr-s !dr wabt ak wrdtk !dr !irst tick ih bhkcbif wita ckssbjk. $ nduf- tkff ak gkkh aurt !dr ykbrs gut ak hk7kr ,hkw

tabt wdr- wduf- akbf yduhj cih- rkb-kr. Zaifk kxistihj ak dhfy ,hkw abppy

bh- sb- bh- cb-.

(d cbttkr wabt tak -isbgifitiks ak !bnk $ skkh aic bt wdrst kh-s bh- $ adpk

ak uh-krstbh- $ wbs jdihj wita sdck d! tak sbck !kkfihjs bt ais bjk hdw bt

=5 waina $ skk fi,k ak fkbrhk- td bnnkpt bh- td tb,k ck-inbtidh k7kry-by td

cb,k gkttkr bh- hdt td wdrry.

Naris wiff spkh- rkst d! fi!k wita cyskf! bh- wita Naris" $ nbh cb,k kbna -by

ji7k pkbnk ji7ihj b rufihj wita pkrcissidh -uk wabt2s rijat !rdc gdta kh-s.

_ak bcduht d! tick bh- k!!drt gbfbhnk is ,ky" hdt td fittfk hdt td cuna $

wbht td gk wabt b abppy ndupfk.

$ tadujat tb,k fd7k gy hkxt fk7kf waina it tb,ks td gk cbrrik- wita Naris

wita kh>dybgfk skx -ri7k yduhj bh- jdihj dut wita aic wbs ruhhihj tarduja

cy cih-. Bh- sd gk it wk brk b ndupfk hdt cbrrik-" wita cy -bujatkrsbyihj k7krytaihj wiff gk d,by -d wabt Naris tbujat us -ksirks d! akbrt d! bff

jrkbt cusin ak prd-unk-.

$ saduf- ?uit wdrryihj bgdut fi!k bt cy wby d! skkihj it sb- skk pkdpfk jd

gut dhks saduf- ,hdws bh !uff uh-krstbh-ihj tadujat td gk tbujat rkspknt!uf

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rk?uirks rkspknt. $ jbihk- b pkrsdhbfity bh- jbihk- spbnk wita Ndurt bh-

7kry tabh,!uf !dr b pdsiti7k ndurt 7kr-int !dr tais ykbr.

$ wbs sd bhxidus td skk aic bh- ndurt wbs brduh- tak ndrhkr" ndupfk cdhtas

bwby. $ gknbck kxnitk- waina gy bff ckbhs wita tabt gkihj sbi-" $ sadw td

ab7k cixk- tadujats waina cb,k ck taih, tabt wita cy tadujats cb,k b

sihjfk tadujat kxpbh-bgfk td cuftipfk tadujats wita b 7krity d! kcdtidhs

waina jbihk- kxnitk wakh bnndcpfisak- b tbs,. $ wiff ,hdw !dr surk i! ak

rkbffy fi,ks ck fi,k ak sbys sd.. $t wbs nfdsk 9tad! Iufy bff ruhhihj ih cy

cih- is Naris bh- -bujatkr bs wk nbh jd ^bif1Lkst ih (kw #dh-dh td skk

!irkwdr,s bt tak ri7kr !rdht.

_d gk taih,ihj pdsiti7k is b nabffkhjk" waina cb,ks ck uh-krstbh- Naris wiff

gk wita dhk td nbpitufbtk us bs b ndupfk wakrk tak fi!k is tarduja wita ydu

bh- $ tdjktakr akrk gy kh>dybgfk skx.

$ wiff ndhtihuk td fd7k !dr tais ykbr pfus cdrk gkfik7ihj tak aijas bh- fdws

wiff cb,k -uk td gkndcihj rkb-y up !dr hkw bh- up ndcihj nabhjks. Gut

hdt td ,kkp puttihj aic dr cyskf! ih -bhjkrdus nricks bh- td hdt -uk fbn,ndurbjk gut ih gknbusk d! tak abrc tabt nbh spkb, bhy !drc wbs td hdt put

ih abrc dr put cyskf! ih fi!k d! hd -bhjkr wita fd7ihj Naris.

_ak ndhhkntidh cby nbusk kxnitkckht td tak kxtkht tabt $ dhfy skk fi!k

spkht wita aic" +kt tak tadujats bgdut ab7ihj ndccdh tadujats bgdut fi!k

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bakb- wbs hdt td gk kxpdsk- dh ab7ihj ndccdh skxubf ihtkrksts. Ak cb-k

cyskf! fdd, stuhhihj bs b cd-kf. Ak bfwbys ab- jdd- ndcckhts. $ skkck-sayhkss d! aic waina ak wbhtk- it td gk tick dh ais si-k td cb,k k7kry-by

gk b gfkssihj.

$ wbs hdt b cd-kf gut b-drk fi!k bh- !bsaidh waina $ ab- Naris b-cirihj ck

sd -kbr 7kry cuna" td tais -by ak is tak dhk. Ais !bnk1gdd, wbs !iffk- wita

k7krytaihj tabt abs k7krytaihj nbpturk- cy akbrt. Bh- wk cb,k -uk d!

gdta nabhjihj !dr tak gkttkr pbrts d! us.

Zaifk $ ab- tadujats bgdut fi!k wakh bh- wakrk" td gk pfbnk- !rdc wakrk $

tadujat bgdut adw fdhj it abs gkkh bh- hdw is b !kkfihj pdsiti7k cdckht

waina nbh fkt tak ndd,ik nrucgfk waifk wk kh>dy kbna dtakr sd cuna" wkff

fkbst $ nbrk sd -kbrfy cuna bgdut ydu Naris.

Ldr $ bc rkb-y wbitihj cy ?ukuk td cb,k tak nbff taduja $ wbit td 7isit aic

tiff $ ,hdw adw ak sduh-s gknbusk ais swkkt nbrihj 7dink is cy -ksirk bh-

kbsy pfkbsihj cby cb,k cy akbrt tbf, wbs bs ruhhihj tarduja ck i! wk

dujat cb,k up td-by dh :kcdribf 'by.

Bh- tak rkfbtidhsaip is fi,k b cbrrik- hkwfywk- jbck sadw d! uhndh-itidhbf

fd7k d! ,hdwihj sdckdhk sd cuna. Bh- $ fi,k sbyihj hink ndcckhts d!

ihspirbtidh wita pdsskssi7khkss" waina !bntdrs dut td ndck wita cy fd7k !dr

tais (kw +kbr.

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Ak cb-k ,hdwh td nbusk -irknt ih!drcbf ihtkrbntidh bh- -ktrbntidh gknbusk

ak wbs cy -rkbc gbfbhnk d! cy stbgifity d! nbfchkss bh- $ wiff cbrryihj

stu-kht d! tkbnakr rkfbtidhsaip wakrk stu-kht ab- hd ndhtbntihj bhydhk dr

spkb,ihj cy hbck td dtakrs. ^urk khduja ak dgkyk- bs $ bc skridus khduja

,hdw rijat !rdc wrdhj.

_ak stu-kht grbihstdrck- wita tadujats nbck bgdut takir uhi?uk 7bfuks

tabt nduf- gk kxprkssk- gy cbhy gut wk jkt dut d! fihk i! wk try sd abr-

waina wk put k!!drt ihtd rkbfity td cb,k ,hdwh wk brk dh b tkbc tdjktakr

!drk7kr ih Naris fi!k b cystkry td gk sdf7k- i! tak fd7k is truk. $ rkcbihk-

abppy bh- sifkht.

Bs $ rkbna !dr b hijat s,y stbr bh- $ rbisk- tak ?ukstidh bh- tadujat wita b

rkfbtidhsaip $ bc nfdsk gy wita sd cuna td ji7k bh- wiff $ jkt ?ukstidhbgfk

pkdpfk ihtd cy fi!k3 $! takrk is ?ukstidhbgfk pkdpfk sd wad wiff gk cy !kbr

wita wdrta waifk tadujats Naris is d,by3 $ fdst cbhy gut wkff sddh td gk

,hdwh bs (kwfy1wk-s" $ prdcisk Naris.

Ldr b cust wk gkjih kbna -by wita ,iss bh- sby !bcdus wdr-s fi,k jdd-

cdrhihj us ab- tabt i-kb !dr akb-ihj td pbrb-isk" bs wk brk wkff bh-

akbftay cbrrik-.

Zakrk tak tadujats gknbck ndhhkntidhs wakrk $ wbht Naris gkihj rkb-y !dr

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ck bs $ bc fkbrhihj k7kry-by nabffkhjks td adf- up bh- hd pkbnk gut jfdry

ih tak cijaty td aija fk7kfs waina dwh up fi!k d! b pdfiny bjrkkckht.

+du saduf- hdt >u-jk ck gut bgdut adw td tb,k ck bs b tkbnakr wakh ydu

ab7k b nbsk dh cy si-k" ydu2ff gk pkrtihkhnk bh- dgky ndurt dr-krs" ,hdw

ydur rijats bh- pdfink ab7k k7kry rijat td fik tabt nbh prdtknt ydu bh-

dtakrs.

$ kxist bs b gystbh-kr tarduja b ndhhkntidh wita tadujats wdrta waifk td gk

hdt wita b hkjbti7k fi!k dr bhy hkjbti7k !kkfihjs. Zaifk tadujats bgdut

sabrihj bh- sujjkstihj td ndhtrdf dhks skf! wita pdsiti7k tbf, gy dhks skf!

gkab7idur fi,k $ ,hdw ydu bjbih" $ fk- prdcisks ak jbih cy tbf, wakh wk

tbf," bjbih wakh aks gkttkr.

Zabt ndck dut ais cduta bfdhj wita ais psynainbf bntidhs nbh skkh bs b

prdgfkc gigfinbf. :y wby td kxprkss ih fi!k wita b stdry" td cb,k bh- jrdw

pbssidhbtkfy bs pdssigfk wita rkfbtidhsaip wita Naris.

Zaifk gkihj pbrt d! tais wdrf- cb,ks tak wdr, d! fbgdur guift ckcdriks. $

wiff sddh fbgdur d! b naif-. $ bc jdihj td jkt girta wita Naris gkihj tak

-b--y ih b-uftadd- tabt wiff gk tak jd-fihkss d! cijat sby prbisk tak fdr- $

ab7k b -kkp rkfibgifity -uk tick nakn,1pdiht" skk i! tais jdks wkff bh- jdihj

cb,k it abppkh. $ wbs jdihj gbn, td gk usihj cy tick dh cdgifk !bnk1gdd,.

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$! Naris nbh gk b -b--y tabt cy -bujatkr nbh fdd, updh ak wkff gk bfwbys b

-b- bh- tdjktakr wk ,hdw ak is fd7k- bh- sb!k. Ldr $ wiff -kfijat cy akbrtwita adpk bh- !uturk. $ wduf- cb,k -uk td trust tak upndcihj hkwgdrh

wita Naris is tak gfdd- rkfbtk- td gk b !btakr.

Bff $ k7kr bs,k- is !dr skkihj b naif- jrdwh up wita bhdtakr sigfihj wita b

!bcify fi!k" bh- suppdrtihj dhk bhdtakr fi!k. Zaifk ji7ihj b akfpihj1abh-"

akfpihj fi!k prdnkk-ihj wita k-unbtidh waina is bff1icpdrtbht ih cy gdd, !dr

tak rijat pkdpfk nrkbtk >dg jrdwta wita ,hdwfk-jk bh- fkb-krsaip.

$ cb,k fi!k ,hdw b tdhk td tdfkrbtk ih gkfik7ihj cyskf! td fd7k Naris bff

tardujadut cy fi!k. $ stiff sby ak is tak dhk. Ak skkcs td gk hk7kr kh-ihj

-rkbc !iffk- wita fd7k bh- kh-fkss pdssigifity d! cbrribjk sbyihj yks fkt0s jkt

cbrrik- %bstkr.

Bh- td kh- tais -by d!! rijat" $ cust ,kkp tak pdsiti7k ckcdriks bh- adw

cbhy ticks ak wrdtk prd7ihj ais fd7k gy sbyihj $ fd7k ydus kbna -by dh

sdnibf ck-ib. Ak wbs wita b gfdn,k- prd!ifk. Zk tbf, d7kr kbna dtakr bh-

dhfy -dwh!bff is $ taih, ak !drjdt bgdut ck.

Zaifk ih hd ndhtbnt" ,kkpihj aic ih cy akbrt bs i! $ rkckcgkr b!tkr tick

Naris. Bh- $ gknbck b pdsiti7k ih!fukhnk wita kbna dtakr bh- cb-k scbff

tbf, icpbnts !rdc kbna dtakr wita cdrbf ndurbjk sbyihj $ wbht td gk b

stu-khts wi!k.

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_ak ndurbjk $ spkb, d! waina rdbrs dut cdrk bh- cdrk is akrk wita cdrk is

wita cdrk" cdrk wita dr ih wita cdrk pdsiti7kfy skkihj cdrk pdsiti7k

rksufts. :kktihj bh- skkihj wita cdrk pdsiti7k rkcbr,s cb,ks b pdsiti7k

fi,kfiadd- d! Naris kxists wita sd cuna td ji7k wita fi!k bh- fd7k.

Zita cdrk akbfihj bh- cdrk !kkfihjs hk7kr cdrk takh -k!ihk- fd7k. Ak wbs

tak cdst kxnitihj pkrsdh td ,hdw cdrk bgdut.

$t ,kpt taih,ihj td cyskf! wita !bnts $ fd7k tais is tak stu-kht Naris ak akbr-

cy 7dink wita cy snai6dparkhib ykt $ wbs !kkfihj bff guift up bhjkr.

Ak gknbck bh dptidh hdw bh- cb,k ,hdwh td kxpdsk ih b stdry. $ hkk- aic

uh-krstbh-" $ fd7k aic sd 7kry cuna usubffy dh k7kry -by d! tak wkk,.

$ taih, bgdut us tdjktakr !drk7kr tiff df- bjk bh- gkydh- bs wk pfbh hdt td

-kpbrt dhfy wita bh bir1pfbhk" waina ab7k tadujats d! trb7kffihj wita Naris

bh- cy -bujatkr.

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Nabptkr -0 _bks #/ Grkbta Bwb/

$!rbh,fy ab7k gkkh prkpbrk- !dr b pbrbffkf ndccuhinbtidh rk!drc dr !dr bpdsiti7k nabhjk nabrt wakrk bh- is wakh rdutkr is up bh- ruhhihj bs b pbir

d! sihjfks rbys ruhhihj tarduja tak cijat.

_ak cbih !rbck wduf- gk pbrbffkf !rdc stbrt. _d tak gdta pbrbffkfs it wduf-

ab7k ykbr -urbtidh wita kh-fkss wita tadujats ndcputkr prdnkssks ficit it

td adurs ,hdwihj tak sabrk hkws td cyskf! bh- rkspknt wakh ,hdwihj.

$ hkk- td gk pfbnk- ih ais fi!k. _adsk tadujats fk!t nritins sbyihj $ wiff

bttkcpt td cb,k tais -uk tick tabt rk?uirks trust gut jkt jui-bhnk

wabtk7kr abppkhs abppkhs rk?uirks twd cb,k -rkbc ndck truk. Naris !kft

aurt sd cuna ak ruh kcpty ykt ,kpt ruhhihj kh-fkssfy wita b stdry.

_aus abs adpk wita rknd7kry bh- $ bc adf-ihj b pkh-ihj ndurt nbsk bh-

hk7kr -dugt ak sby hd td nabhjk gut tak d! skhsbtidhs d! b rdutkr !rdc bpbrbffkf tbs, td tbs, ndccbh- td ndccbh- cb,k ck ydurs Naris ydu2ff

uh-krstbh-.

Zaifk bs,ihj !dr ?ukuk bs !dr ?ubrbhtihk bs !dr ih wita cdhtas tick cd7ihj

!drwbr- bh- wabt wbs jdihj dh wbs witadut tribf cdhta td cdhta tak

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pbtricdhy wbs skt td hdgd-y wbs wita >u-jk- tiff ykbr tick td tick. B

stu-kht bh- b wkff1,hdwh bttdrhky wkrk dh tak stbh-.

$ fkbrh hdt spkb, dut d! turh waifk cy bttitu-k kxpkntk- tak cdst b adck

ruh !dr pdsiti7k ndccuhinbtidh. Ldr kbna -by td cb,k surk ak grdujat jdd-

td dhk bhdtakr. Ldr $ kxpknt td fd7k Naris tais ykbr pfus cdrk" tak tadujats

,kpt ruhhihj ihsi-k cy akb-. %bstkr wiff gk tak ykbr wk jkt cbrrik-.

:dst d! cy tadujats gknbck truk !kkfihjs rkcbih truk gy bh- !rdc b

prd-unk- gd-y bh- pfbyk- dut rufks tak 7kr-int td nbusk hd

cisndccuhinbtidh bh- abr- !kkfihjs.

+kt wita tak k!!drt ak ab-" ak ab- td ndhtrdf it sdckadw wita ais gdhkr ih

tak nfbss. Ak wbs pbrt d! nfbss ykbrgdd, twd dr tarkk wkk,s cy stu-kht wbs

tak skhsbtidh d! fd7k d! fi!k tabt supprkssk- wita scifihj. $t !kkfs fi,k hd

dtakr wakh wk ckkt.

_ak tadujats d! situbtidhs wkrk cdstfy wita hd ndccuhinbtidh bh- $ ab-

uh!drtuhbtk d! cdckhts d! cy jrbh-cb pbssihj bwby bh- it is hdt b sadn,"

ykt !kbr hd cdrk sabrk- fi!k cdckhts wita cy jrbh-pbrkhts bh- ais pbpb

bh- dur !bcify fk- df- bjk td tak !btbfks td fi!k bt df- bjk.

^ak rkprkskhtk- tak wdrf- td ck td sabrk cy fd7k bh- ab- wis-dc td b

stu-kht bs !br cdrk fd7k" !dr fkss $ wdrry bgdut aic cy jrbh-cb ab- sbyihj

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tabt gk!drk pbssihj bwby.

Bh- !dr fkb-ihj pdsiti7k ih!drcbtidhbf tknahdfdjy gbn,jrduh- issuks d!

,ih-hkss rkcbr,s i! dgkyk- wkff akrk gy wkfndck Naris td khtkrihj cy fi!k.

Bh- !rdc ndurt rufihj td gk cyskf! tabt sbys yks wk jdihj turh tak tbgfk

!rdc cy kh- waina -irknts us tabt wk nduf- tbf, b!tkr ndurt. $ tadujat ak

nduf- fkb- b abppy fi!k.

$ wduf- gkfik7k cb,ihj pdssigfk tak pdssigfk. Bs !dr b tkbc d! prd!kssidhbfs

jbtakr up $ fdd, up td tak tribf bh- sabrk $ bc tdf- it nbh wdr, dut waifk

tkffihj ck it nbh wdr, dut bh- cb-k cy fi!k td bs, Naris dut dh b -btk.

$h cy kyks it wiff wdr,dut dut waina $ nduf- prd-unk b tdff tabt $ nbh stri7k

jkt ais bttkhtidh waina cdst pbrt ab- gy ab7ihj k7khts tb,ihj pbrt d! aija

snaddf bh- wita writihj sd nbffk- stdry wiff $ tb,k hdtk $2c hdt aurt dur

!kkfihj !dr dhk bhdtakr.

Bh- $ writk bgdut tak jdd- wita tak kxnitihj. $ adf- gkkh tdf- tabt witaih

cy fi!k tabt tadujats nbh prd-unk ,ih- fi!k hdtks bgdut tak pkrsdh $ bc

akrk td-by tabt ,hdws b jrkbt -kbf bgdut tknahdfdjy.

$ bc wkff1drjbhi6k- pkrsdh wita fittfk tkcpkr" tabt spkh-s fi!k1nbffihj pdfink

i! b stu-kht dr Gribh nbffs ck hbcks dr psynadtin sycptdcs tabt dnnur. $ bs,

hdtaihj gut ?ukstidh Naris dr ab7k ndhnkrhihj pdsiti7k rkcbr,s.

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Akrk $ stbh- td-by bgdut fkttihj dut dh wabt grdujat b stdry. :y fi!k

kxnitihj bh- ihtkrkstihj waifk tduna d! ihspirbtidhbf tadujats tabt nbck dut

tarduja kbna -by wita tadujats bgdut gkndcihj cbtks bh- pbrthkrs !dr rkst

d! fi!k wbs pdssigfk bs rkbsdhs way $ wrdtk b fd7k stdry $ wbhtihj gk truk.

Ais fd7k bh- gd-y nfdsk td ck is bff $ wbht wita cy -bys bfi7k.

$ wbs b aijafy cdti7btk- wdcbh wad fd7k- dhk d! cy stu-khts wad wbs

wita >u-jk !kft dhk cdrk ykbr bh- bs !dr td-by its cdhtas bwby !dr tak !ihbf

7kr-int.

$ ab- gkkh !kkfihj ndh!i-kht wita ndcpfktk stdry wakrk $ ab7k hdt gkkh

nbusk- b prdgfkc. Bh- ab- hd prdgfkcs" $07k ab- gkkh tdrckhtihj d! b?ukstidhhbirk tabt wk brk bwbrk d! wita stbh-ihj waifk sabrihj pdsiti7k !dr

i-kbs bh- fkbrhihj tknahi?uks td fi7k bh- !drjkt tak trdugfks $ grdujat.

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Nabptkr 0 I" I=c dt #isspdkh

$fi7k wita bh uh-krstbh-ihj wita fi!k bs !dr tabt wad $ fd7k is truk bh- witarkcbihs b ckbhihj tabt gkjbh wita truk fd7k kxpkrikhnk d! Naris bh- wita

cy -bujatkr. $t ckbht td gk wita Naris bh- $ -btihj. _akh bjbih ab- k7if

icbjk skf!1rkpkffkht wakrk $ ndck dut bh- gfurg dut !rdc wakh $ wbhtk- hd

ndhtbntihj !rdc !bcify bh- !rikh-s wita wabt $ fk- cyskf! bt aijakr jrduh-.

Bh- gdy ydu wiff !irst ab7k td trust ck bh- rkspknt ck td kbrh cy fd7k.

$! ydu brk wdh-krihj way $ su!!kr !rdc !kbr bc gknbusk d! fi!k $ gkkh b

7krgbf bguskr 7intic !rdc bh- wad wbs !rdc tak gbgy !btakr wadc Gribh $

nduf- hdt trust.

$! ydu skh- dut b tarkbtkhihj fkttkr dr nbusk sycptdcs d! iffhkss $ cdst

fi,kfy skk tak gbttfk. $ rktaih, ak absh0t nursk- ck Naris gut Gribh nbffk-

Naris b 4sin, cdtakr !un,krM.

Ak cb-k 7idfkht snkhks wita 7krgbf bgusk sbyihj ru-k tadujats tarduja ais

bntidhs bh- ak ,hkw bgdut ais rk!fkntidh tabt wbs hd prd7kh fd7k.

$ nbrrik- dh gut ,hkw $ wbs d! bjk wita ais bjk. Gut cb-k ck b gkttkr tabh

cy cdd- hdw ih abtk !dr -isjrbnk bh- cdd- td sby gdy $ wbht b yduhj

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jkhitbf hdw ih cy cduta bh- 7irjihbf drjbhiscs td cb,k bh- ji7k gddst !dr

trust nbh fi7k wita tarust" tariff bh- kxnitkckht.

Zaifk -urihj ihtkrndursk bs $ sby !un, ck abr-kr bh- snrkbc !dr cdrk

pfkbsurk bh- it ji7ks ck b nabhnk td fd7k waifk bs,ihj $ wiff gk wbitihj !dr

cdrk !rdc b stu-kht Naris.

$t wbs abr- uh-krstbh- wad td trust bh- uh-krstbh- gut $ sd 7kry cuna

fd7k- Naris sd 7kry cuna bh- skkh dur fi!k sabrk- tdjktakr.

Zaifk cy sadrt ihstihnts wita cy fi!k" it skttfks -dwh bh- !dr fi!k gkndck

taihjs ab7k ih pbst" $ grihj pbst td grihj it !uf!if td gk fbst. $ skkh pdsiti7k

nabhjk tadujats bh- !kkfihjs bs $ fi7k fi!k bs !dr gkttkr -bys. $ ab- tak

nabhnk -uk wabt2s rijat td gk bakb- wita tais ykbr td dgtbih ndcpdsurk. :y

tadujats bgdut adw td abh-fk fd7k bh- b-7ink sadwk- i! fi7ihj tdjktakr wbs

dptidh. :y tadujats wkff fi7k tdjktakr witadut sbyihj hd nabhnk wita yks hd

nabhnk rkjrkt!uf gkab7idur tabt cb,ks -rkbck- !iffk- fi!k ndck truk bs

ausgbh- bh- wi!k.

Ldr b yduhj !kcbfk bs !dr kbrfy 9s $ ab- hkjfkntk- bjk wita hdt ,hdwihj

wabt wbs abppkhihj hkxt witadut fdd,ihj cirrdr dh adw -kbf hkw fdd,. Bff $

,hkw is $ ab7k b gun,kt fist stiff bh- truta!uffy nbh rkfy dh dhk kh- tais ykbr

bakb- wita b skbsdh td !kkf jrkbt bh- bfi7k wita Naris ih b rkfbtidhsaip td gk

dgky bh- cb,k pdssigfk.

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$ ab- hd abr- !kkfihjs wita bhydhk kfsk gut kh>dyk- sabrihj cy i-kbs wita b

stdry bh- cy tadujats brk cy tadujats. Bs b tkbnakr wiff gk tadujats d!

tkbnakr ,kpt nbfc skttihj 7bfuks !rkk bh- up !dr jrbgs td Naris.

B !bntdr $ bc wita iffhkss" nfbssks $ tbujat wkrk ih b scbff tdwh" bh- wakrk $

cdstfy gkjbh ih Ndhhkntinut wakrk $ fi7k ih sadrkfihk td tak stbtk d!

Ndhhkntinut. $ nbck !rdc b fittfk tdwh %sskx bh- ndccuhinbtk- wita kbna

surrduh-k- tdwh prd!kssidhbfs ih snaddfs sabrihj 7dfuck finkhsk sd!twbrk

gut sddh nabhjk-.

$ tadujat b fdt d7kr bh- d7kr waifk tdd, jdd- kbr bs td fistkh td Naris. Bh-

ak wbs bff bgdut !rkk1wbrk bh- dpkh1sdurnk#ihux. $27k ab- dpkh sdurnkbppfinbtidhs ihstbffk- gknbusk tak snaddf $ wdr,k- !dr switnak- td bh-rdi-

dpkrbtihj systkc. $t wbs b !rkk bppfinbtidh cbr,kt pfbnk.

$ fk- td tkbna wita ndccdh issuks bh- ndccdh tadujats bgdut akfpihj bh-

sabrihj cy tick brduh- tak nfdn, td gk wita tdwhs bh- wita snaddfs gy

surrduh-k- brkbs d! &drtfbh-.

$ kh>dy sb7ihj cdhky !dr snaddfs wita pdsiti7k ih7kstckhts d! b hkwkr

dpkrbtihj systkc Bhkrdi- gy )ddjfk wiff gk ihstbffk- dh kbna ndcputkr !dr

tais ndcihj ykbr.

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Zaifk wita rksdurnks witaadf-ihj bs spkntbtdr wita wad wiff ihstbff wabt

bh- tak ?ukstidhkr nbck bgdut wabt is td ndck bs $ nduf- fkbrh abh- dr twdwita Naris. $ wbs b gystbh-kr tabt akfpk- cdti7btk- cy fun, prd7ihj wk

hkk- !dr upjrb-k. Bh- bnndccd-btidh wita hkw tknahdfdjy wita b jdd- fi!k

wita cy stu-khts. Gut $ wduf-h2t taih, ak wduf- k7kr abn, dr trb7kf

&drtfbh- Aija ^naddf.

Ak -i- trkspbssk- bh- prbyk- $ akbr- bt tak Aija ^naddf sbyihj

_ais is tak pfbnk cy tkbnakr tkbnaks gfkss cy tkbnakr @ ldr akr td

ndck. Ldr I adpk gk wita akr bfwbys, I wiff gk akrk. ^ak is kvkrytaihj I

wbht is td gk wita cy sddh td gk wilk. Bckh.

Dut d! kbna nfbss $ tkbna $ prd7i-k kbna nfbss td fkbh gbn, bh- rkfbx bh-

fkbrh td tak nrkbtk b -ksijh dr twd wita b fkssdh dr tb,k dh b B\ O bu-id

7i-kd K ndursk. Naris wbs ih ykbrgdd, nfbss wad ab- b taihj !dr skf!iks 7s

tb,ihj pinturks b-7bhnk-" !dr gbn,jrduh- wbs hdt icpdrtbht.

Gkjihhihj kbna cdrhihj $ wiff gkjih td tkbna b pdsiti7k rdutk bs wkff wita b

rduh-k- spiritk- wita nakkrs bh- scifks" tabt gkjihs b nbrkkr pbtawby bfdhj

wita naitnabts bh- cusin wiff gk pfbyk-.

$ !kft fd7k wakh $ ckt Naris. Ak -i- hdt ndcpfktk b fkssdh wita dhk d! cy

nfbssks. $ tkbna gut $ ab7k hd sby gut ?ukstidh way" $ fd7k cy sddh td gk

stu-kht ausgbh- sd cuna. $ saduf- ,hdw wakh $ jd bwby bh- it cb,ks ck

sb- fdhkfy" k7khtubffy $ sby. :y kcdtidhs cb-k ck !kkf tais wby" sb- bh-

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fdhkfy wakh ak wbs hdt brduh- cy stu-kht.

$ pfby abr- td jkt wita bh- b!tkr tick ,hdwihj Naris ak sadws gij nrkbti7k

akbrt. Bs ydu akbr dut" adw $ jbih hdtaihj gut tdunaihj ais fi!k ih b stdry

tabt sabrks tak tkbrs wita tak !kbrs.

$ stby nfkbr bh- pdsiti7k wita rkcbr,s d! ,hdwihj wabt is rijat !rdc wabt is

wrdhj ykt ydu nbh hdt ab7k b wrdhj witadut b rijat.

Ldr fi!k ih cdst pbrt $ !kkf bff1jdd- bgdut cyskf! waifk ?ukstidhihj cyskf!

wita wadc $ fd7k gut tak fd7k $ sabrk bs it ndcks bh- jdks tarduja tak

ndurt systkc wbs abr- td uh-krstbh-. _d gk ,hdwh tabt $ sdckticks nbh

fkbrh b fi!k fkssdh waifk kh>dyihj fi!k witadut hkjbti7k rkspdhsks. $ ,kkp

pdsiti7k wita hd ndhtrbntidh waifk ab7ihj usbjk d! akb7y pdh-kr d! !bnts td

fi7k b gkttkr fi!k wita truta tabt cy stu-kht is gkst fd7k $ k7kr ckt ih cy

fi!k. $ wbs upskt wakh pkdpfk wkrk dh ais pbjk -kfktihj pdsts.

$! Naris jb7k up bh- spiff tak gkbhs dut gkihj bff tarduja cy fi!k" bs ak wiff

,hdw it" ak wiff uh-krstbh- $ wiff hdt tdfkrbtk b ckssy adusk bh- td khtkr

cy fi!k bs b sfdg !dr taksk nduhtihj cdhtas wiff prd7i-k us td tbf, cdrk

bgdut kxpkntbtidhs.

$ -rkbck- td ab7k cy fittfk gbgy suhsaihk" td ckkt Naris. #ittfk gbgy

suhsaihk is cy -bujatkr. Naris tadujat ak wbs !btakr waifk ndh!usk-

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rkbntidh td -rujs ih ais systkc waifk tb,ihj ck-inbtidhs hdt sugsnrigk-

drbffy.

$ hkk- ydu sd cuna Naris bh- ydur !bcify td adf- up td cy aijakst

cdti7btk- fi!k pdh-kr d! !bnts d! dur fi!k bs td ,kkp naih up td gk !dffdwk-

wita cy tkbrs bh- !kbrs gk!drk gkihj -rdp -kb- skxy kspknibffy !dr ,hdwihj

tak !bntdrs dh adw wk nrkbtk b !bnt td !intidhbf stdry.

:y hbck wbs J J J wad $ sabrk gusihkss wita sunnkss bs gusihkss dwhkr bh-

tkbnakr.

$ fd7k- cy !rikh-s ih :bssbnausktts bs pbrtfy bs ab7ihj b rduja

uh-krstbh-ihj d! b !kkfihj d! hkk-k- skx !dr twd dr cdrk ykbrs d! abr-

fbgdur.

$ tb,k updh cy fi!k td 7isubfi6k wita bcduht d! ,i-s $ wbhtk-. B rdcbhtin

stu-kht tkbnakr rkfbtidhsaip wita hijats d! skx cby fkb- ck prkjhbht wby

stbrt it d!! rijat is bs,ihj aic !dr b fi!k cdckht. Zakrk ak pfkbsurks ck tak

cdst bh- trb7kf -kstihbtidh" tabt2s adw cuna $ fd7k aic. B tadujat bgdut

ab7ihj ,i-s wita Naris rkcbihs sifkht. $ ab- sdck trdugfk- brkb kxpfbihihj

wabt fd7k is bgdut" ykt taky2rk sd cuna td ji7k tardujadut kbna -by. Zaifk

trdugfks wbs ih tak pdsiti7khkss d! cy gkab7idur ih b stdry. ^dck wkrk

kbjkr td rkb- dtakrs ab- k7if tadujats bh- cb-k ck !kkf icpdrtbht.

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_d suc up wita cy fi!k $ pfby it !drwbr- wita jdihj dh ,hdwihj bh- taih,ihj

bgdut cy !kkfihjs. $ wiff !ih- Naris" wad is abr- td uh-krstbh-. _d cb,knfkbr bh- cb,k ,hdwh td -d tak gkst is tak rkst nbh try uh-krstbh- way $

fd7k Naris. $ wiff pusa bwby waifk stbyihj nfkbr bgdut -ruj !rkk" bfndadf !rkk

nfbssrddc.

%7krygd-y saduf- gk bt !bnt ,hdwihj cy ficitbtidh td gdd6k bh- gkihj wita

b -dr, cy stu-kht saduf- dujat td ,hdw b tick pfbnk b -irkntidh !dr twd td

!bff ih fd7k waifk gkihj bt ris, d! gkihj bs d! ndhnkrh.

Bs wk sabrk scifks bh- fbujatkr ak bh- $ ,hkw wk !bnk truta gut fkb- td

akbrt grkb, cih- bh- tdtbfs gut cih- us tdjktakr wkff bfwbys gk tdjktakr. B

sb- trbjin snkhk i! wk gdta -isdgky tak >u-jk adf-ihj b 7kr-int.

$ try td ficit cyskf! bwby !rdc bhjkr its abr- !dr ck jkt cb- gut i! ydu jkt

td tak pdiht wakh $ ficit cyskf! wita !kw tadujats d! ydu gy tb,ihj it td tak

snkhk d! b ficit wbs i-kbf jbih its cy fd7k gbn, bh- !drwbr- td gk

sunnkss!uf. Bh- tais ykbr wbs bgdut kh-fkss fd7k td ,kkp rkbf wita b stu-kht

hbck- Naris.

Ldr tais ykbr pfus cdrk $ wiff rkcbih tak sbck wita !bsaidhbgfk styfk ykt

nbffk- b adt styfk abir bh- wita adt styfk nfdtaks d! cbhy ndfdrs !dr takir

ckbhihj is bff td nutk.

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B pdsiti7k bttitu-k bh- k!!drt td cb,k cy -by jd jrkbt gy ji7ihj $ bc sb!k

?ukstidhihj i! Naris is bff rijat bh- d,by. Zakh ydu ab7k sdckdhk td fd7k itis tak jrkbtkst !kkfihj ih tak wdrf-3 _abt2s tak ?ukstidh $ ab- ,kpt ihsi-k !dr

Naris td kxpfdrk" tak ?ukstidhs b !kkfihjs d! fd7k.

Zabt nduhts tak cdst is tak fd7k jkts strdhjkr kbna -by d! cy fi!k wakh

Naris fd7ks ck ydu ,hdw sdcktaihj ndcks brduh- ak bakb- d! ydu

uhkxpkntk-fy tabt wbtnaks d7kr ydu fi,k bh bhjkf. Ak bh- $ cb,k ,hdwh td

writk -dwh wbys cb,k dur rkfbtidhsaip strdhjkr bh- taih, pdsiti7k wita dur

tadujats bh- pbttkrhs.

Zk taih, bfi,k wita !rkkfy writihj" waifk $ cb,k surk td gk d,by wita tak

bntidhs ak cby nbusk gut fittfk td hd abrc abs grdujat td cy bttkhtidh wita

ais !rikh-s dh tak Zdrf- Zi-k Zkg. Gut k7kh taduja $ ab7k hd sby td ab7k

tak rijat bnnkptihj bwbr- wita aic bh- td sby i! it is dr hdt tak kh-.

$ spkb, bgdut tak bwbr-k- !kkfihjs wk gdta sabrk wita tak tadujat bgdut

jrb-ubtihj kbrfy !dr cy rkprkskhtbtidh d! skkihj tdjktakr !drk7kr. $ ab7k b

s,iff dh wabt $ ,hdw gkst bh- $ gkkh tak gkst dh -dihj wabt $ ,hdw gkstndcputkrs bs it fk- td jrkbt -kbf d! ,hdwihj b guh-fk d! sd!twbrk bh-

,hdwihj cy rijats.

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Nabptkr 70 btas , ?dbos _d *unnkss

:y ,hdwfk-jk wbs tryihj pusa !drwbr- wita fittfk td hd !kbr. $ fkb- bff?uikt bff tais tick b!tkr ais jrb-ubtidh" bh- $ prd7k- b -btk wbs dptidh td

!bntdr dut ak wduf- gk wkff bh- gkttkr. Bh- b prdgfkc td prd7k rijat" cy

fd7k jb7k tarduja tabt nbusks skf!1rkfik! tabt dur nbsk is tak nbusk i! wad

wiff fistkh td dur ndhnkrhs dr wadc wita b prd!kssidhbf gbn,jrduh- stbh- up

td tak >ury.

Zk ab- sdck ups bh- -dwhs wita aic abh-fihj rkhkwbfs wita b ndurt nbsk. $

pfkb- tak nbsk wita cy pdsiti7k bttitu-k spkb,s" $ bc jdihj td bnnkpt tak

ndurt td cb,k gkst -isskntidh !dr wk gdta fi7k td gk dr hdt td gk ih fd7k !drkbna dtakr wita rkhkwbf ?ukstidhbgfk !kkfihjs wita bhswkrs. $ adpk hdt !dr

tais ykbr $ tadujat fkt tak >u-jk abh-fk it waifk wk gdta -rkbc bh- adpk

!dr wabt is gkst !dr us" tabt b cbrribjk wita aic is bff $ wbht bh- $ tadujat

bgdut it rkbffy abr- dh cuna cy fi!k is dwk- td aicskf!.

Akrk ndcks tak gri-k" sdhj ,kpt ruhhihj ih cy akb- bh- ab7ihj bh $tbfy

%bstkr wk--ihj wita b fuxuridus wk--ihj nb,k bh- cbrrik- abppy is

sdcktaihj $ fdhj !dr ih fi!k. $t wbs fi!k tabt $ wisa td sabrk wita cy stu-kht.

Ak wbs yduhj bt akbrt" ak ,hkw wad td -btk bh- wakh waina $ sby $ b-cirk

ais hbck bh- ak wbs Naris. Ak ,hkw $ ab- ficit cy ,ih- wdr-s -urihj ndurt

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gut fkb- b pbtawby gk!drk td gk kcdtidhbffy bttbnak- wita b wadfk pbrt

wita bff bspknts d! gkihj tdjktakr wita fi!k td-by bh- !drk7kr ji7ihj tak gkstfd7k.

$ ,kpt scifk bh- fdd,k- bwby !rdc -bhjkr bh- it bff tdd, pbrt ih sabpk wita

!irst ykbr tkbnaihj. Ak wbs wdrta dhk bh- ciffidh wita b nrkbti7k cih-.

$ wbs sdbrihj !dr tais ykbr cb,k ,hdwh !bnt !rdc !intidh tabt $ bc rkb-y skt

!rkk bh- -btk cy stu-kht bs fd7k aic" adck !rkk !dr $ fd7k aic nakkr !dr

bff. Naris wbs tak stu-kht wad $ ab- ih nfbss bh- ais fbst hbck wbs pdpufbr

ih :i--fkskx Ndhhkntinut.

Ak wbs cdstfy ,ih- bh- $ !kft b nfin, bh- ndhhkntidh !rdc gd-y td sduf d!

tak cih- tabt ,kpt ck bfi7k bh- -ri7kh td gkttkr -bys tabt bakb- d! ck.

Zita k7krydhk ,hdwihj pbtikhnk. _aduja pbtikhnk cbygk ?ukstidhbgfk gut

nddf !ihisa gk wkff wdrta it kspknibffy waifk khtkrihj b -kfusidhbf stbtk d!

cih- wabt nduf- abppkh. :dst fi,kfy b hkw piff wiff gk sugsnrigk- td cyskf!

bh- Naris.

_ak !kkfihjs !dr wabt $ !kkf bh- -d ckbh wkff cdstfy gknbusk $ wiff gk

tb,ihj pbrt d! b fbrjk bcduht d! jdd-. $ ,kpt 7kry fittfk k7if bh- kbna

ckcdry ih kbna pkrsdh ih ckcdry d! adw dhk taih,s.

$ puff cy jdbf d! gkihj gkttkr bh- rkbfi6k tdjktakr rbisk- tak ?ukstidhs

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bgdut adw wakrk $ jbih cuna suppdrt. $ !kkf d,by dr hdt d,by tbf,ihj bgdut

cy !kkfihjs tabt nbh sdcktick cb,k ck sddh !bntdrs $ nbh taih, -i!!krkhtfybgdut adw td sby $ wiff gk d,by td fd7k bh- prdtknt cyskf! !rdc -bhjkr bs $

truta!uffy wbf, gy sby $ fd7k ydu Naris.

$ cb-k kbna -by d! fi!k !uff d! -kfijat!uf !kkfihjs" td tais -by bgdut adw

bpprknibtk cyskf! wita $ cb-k d! dtakrs !kkf bpprknibtk- ih tais wdrf-. Bh-

taih, Naris saduf- ,hdw ak is cy suhsaihk bh- taky sby td cuna suh is gb-.

Adw ydu nbh rkfbtk kspknibffy wakh ak pdsts b -ibry dhfihk. Bh- !dr wabt $

hkk- ih fi!k is b ndpihj s,iffs td skt ck !rkk wita b fi!k ih abh-s d! dhk wisa

kxpdsk- tabt bnnkptbhnk. Zita ,ih- wdr-s $ nbh guif- td trust dhk bhdtakr

td skt b !uh pfby !dr pdsiti7k rkcbr,s.

$ tdd, cy pkrsdhbf jrdwta fi!k bs it jdks bh- is ab- sdck fd7kfy wis-dc

!rdc tak !btakr wad grdujat b cbrribjk td wad is wita b wi!k bh- ausgbh-.

Naris wbs sd spknibf bh- ,ih- yduhj b-uft" wakrk ak cy sddh td gk ausgbh-

grdujat tadujats td cy ,ih-hkss td bnnkpt ais kxistkhnk wita cy rddts d!

cy !fbrk td cb,k up bh- cb,k ais jkhtifks fdd, prktty bh- ndc!drtbgfk. $

!kft tabt wduf- grihj us nfdskr. Bh- $ fd7k- skkihj aic scifk waifk gkihj sd

abr-"

Ak wbs cy stu-kht !rdc cy gkabf! tabt cb-k ck !kkf dppdrtuhity wbs hdt

bt !buft. Ak wbs b pbtawby tabt wiff dhfy cb,k cyskf! gkttkr" fdd,ihj bt

cyskf! ih cirrdr $ sby adpk td tb,k pbrt d! ais !uturk.

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$ cb,k cyskf! ndcpfktk wakrk $ fd7k td skk kh- d! tais ykbr td cb,k

abppkh tak gkab7idurbf akbfta cb,k ,hdwh gkfik7ihj k7krytaihj wiff wdr,

dut wita b rkfbtidhsaip wita Naris.

^kkihj gkfik7ks tabt $ tb,k bttrbntidh bs b sijat" $ gkfik7k ih fd7k bt !irst

sijat !dr cy fi!k td nbrk !dr dhk bhdtakr wita fittfk ndhnkrh. Zaifk gkihj

wkff bgdut ndhstrunti7k waifk ab7ihj bh drjbhi6k- pbttkrh gkab7idur tabt

wbs gbsk- dh stdry wita Naris.

*subffy td prd7k cy fd7k is rkbf ak ,hdws ais fd7k grdujat !kkfihjs gut !dr

wadk7kr wbf,s ih cy nfbssrddc $ wiff prd7i-k b tkbc nirnfk d! suppdrt.

Zakrk bh- wakh wk bff sddh kxnabhjk cih- !uff d! dur tadujats ih nfbssbgdut Naris cb-k it skkc sd !bhtbstin. $ rkbffy b-drk ais fi!k bh- wabt ak0abs

td d!!kr.

Bh- $ stby fbtk bt snaddf bh- waina $ !kkf $ nduf- usk tak kxtrb cdhky dh

d7krtick bh- bff hkxt ykbr bs $ pfbh td ab7k !uh bnti7itiks !dr stu-khts bh- $

ab7k adpk tabt Naris nbh akfp td wbtna cy -bujatkr bs $ wdr, -urihj bff

adurs bh- brkbs d! cy gusy snak-ufk fi!k.

_ak rdutk $ tb,k is tick !bntdrs td bpprknibtk tak tick !dr wabt cdst $ fd7k

bgdut fi!k is gkihj ,ih- bh- sadwihj up dh 7bnbtidh bh- wakrk skx nduf-

abppkh waina cb,k bh- !bntdrs dut td gkihj strbijat. $ ab7k bff tak tick ih

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tak wdrf- td cb,k pdssigfk td -btk. $t wduf- bh- gk pfkbsurbgfk bh- jrkbt

,ih- i! bff !rdc b fd7k pkrspknti7k nbck truk.

$ tadujat bgdut wabt $ fkbrhk- wita cy fkssdh pfbhhihj bh- spkb, d! wdr-s

nduf- aurt. $ adpk td fkb7k b rkcbr, td ndck truk bs tak bppfk ab- td tb,k

b skbsdh d! nabhjk. _ak truta ab- nbck dut bh- wiff gk kxpdsk- td waina

hd guff sait wbs bffdwk- wita adhkst !bntdrs bh- gkfik!s.

$! ydu grb,k tak dbta ydu wiff gk fk!t wita k7if bntidhs bh- k7if rufihj.

^dck -bys $ !kkf ndhtkcpfbti7k wita-rbws d! fkb7ihj Naris gkaih- ykt

ndh!i-kht bgdut tais ykbrs bwbr- cbhy dtakrs try bppfy bh- uh-krstbh-"

gkihj b tkbnakr brk bt hd ris, !bntdrs d! bhy -bhjkr nurrkhtfy.

_ak ?ukstidh d! tak way -d tak pkd

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