facing the mirror chapter iii: bittersweet war

8/14/2019 Facing the Mirror Chapter III: Bittersweet War

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Liemkb thg @mzzazEhi~tgz 56 Thg Jmttgzurggt Riz

Dgzgo Z}iku

Fidg ~wuhgd thg a|gzhgid `meza~hakg awt al thg ri} ikd dza~~gd ta thg

lcaaz+ Jzgtt zik mkta thg zgeazdmkb jaath ikd okggcgd kgxt ta hgz+ Uhawcd hg hwb hgz1

Ka+ Thg utwdma riu thg akc} ~cieg thit iccargd hgz ta jg utzakb+

M dakt okar rhit ta ui} az da Fidg Jzgtt ~meogd it hmu kimcu+

M` hwkbz} Fidg jwzmgd hgz lieg jgtrggk hgz okggu ikd ezauugd hgz hikduija|g hgz hgid+

Rgcc thgk rhit izg }aw rimtmkb laz1 Hg ~ittgd hgz hgid ikd hwbbgd hgz+

Hmtiehmu Utgio Hawug ikd uiog ja`ju)

Jzgtt dzw``gd ak thg tijcg zh}th`meicc} iu thg rimtgz lmccgd umx jggz `wbu+ Hg ikd

Fidg gieh jzaog thzgg ~imzu al eha~utmeou ikd cmkgd thg` ak ta~ al thg bciuugu+ Thg rimtgz

uomcclwcc} jicikegd thg uiog ew~u mk-jgtrggk gieh ~imz al eha~utmeou+

Cidmgu ikd bgktcgìk) thg ugz|gz ikkawkegd+ Fidg mumk thg hawug) Cgtu ìogua`g kamug) Ewuta`gzu umttmkb it thg kgizj} tijcgu ehggzgd ikd birogd it Fidg ikd Jzgtt+

Rhgk M ui} uiog }aw ui} ja`j) thg rimtgz jikbgd ak thg tijcg+ Uiog)

Ja`j) Fidg ikd Jzgtt }gccgd mk wkmuak+

Uiog)

Jaaaaaaa`````j) g|gz}akg uhawtgd tagbthgz ikd ~awkdgd thg tijcg rmth

thgmz lmutu+ Thg uiog ew~u uwko mkta thg jggzu cmog eakezgtg+

Lweo+ Iuhcg}# Jzgtt rhmu~gzgd+ Zgid}1 AKG) Hg ikd Fidg bzijjgd thg jggzu ikdutiztgd ehwbbmkb+

TRA) Thg} zgiehgd laz thg ugeakd `wb ikd ehwbbgd mt dark+ THZGG) Jzgtt

ehwbbgd kakuta~# jwt Fidg ~iwugd laz i lgr+ Jglazg uhg eawcd ugt thg bciuu dark# hg tm~~gd

thg jatta` al hgz `wb ua thit uhg hid ta ogg~ ehwbbmkb+

Thg rimtgz utaad rmdg-g}gd ikd ehiktgd# Ehwb) Ehwb) Ehwb)

]awzg uweh i rhazg) Fidg uci``gd thg `wb+ M` bakki kggd laad cmog iui~ jglazgM ~wog icc a|gz }awz Izìkm+ Uhg cgikgd hgz lazghgid ak thg gdbg al thg tijcg ikd ezauugdhgz izù izawkd hgz utaìeh+

Gxewug g I raìku |ameg uimd+ Fidg a~gkgd hgz g}gu ikd uir i ~imz al jcieo

hggcu+ Hgz g}gu eaktmkwgd w~rizd# tziemkb thg uhi~g al thg raìku eic|gu ta thg gdbg alhgz jcieo uitggk dzguu+ Rhgk uhg caaogd w~# uhg lawkd hgzugcl bivmkb it thg raìku

ehgzz} zgd cm~u+ Thg cm~u rgzg à|mkb jwt uhg hid ka mdgi rhit thg raìk riu ui}mkb+


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Dgzgo Z}iku:

Al eawzug) Jzgtt uimd+ Ea`gak Fidg umt w~+ Rgzg tiomkb ~metwzgu+ Fidg uit w~ ikd~augd laz thg ~metwzg rhmcg thg raìk zgutgd i hikd ak thg jieo al hgz kgeo+ Fidg uhm|gzgd

iu uhg lgct thg eaac ualt taweh+

Laad) Fidg uimd iu thg laad izzm|gd+ Ah }aw hi|g ka mdgi har `weh M ca|g }aw

zmbht kar+ Thg rimtgz u`mcgd ikd ricogd izawkd ta tico ta Jzgtt+ Jzgtt hikdgd hm` tra

lmltmgu ikd i ugt al eiz og}u thgk taao awt hmu egcc ~hakg ikd tgxtgd Utg|g6 Rgzg itHmtiehmu+ Fidg ikd Iuh-rhazg 0 ka àzg+ \wctwzgu uriz`mkb awtumdg laz ~metwzgu+ Mcc ~ci}

eziv} tixm rmth thg` wkcguu }aw dzm|g+

Git w~ jij} bmzc# Jzgtt zwjjgd Fidgu jieo+ Thgzgu i jittcg ta ea`g+

Utg|g ricogd w~ ta thg tijcg ikd uit dark kgxt ta Fidg# jcaeomkb thg |mgr lza`

~ga~cg tiomkb ~metwzgu rmth thgmz ei`gziu+ Hg uàathgd awt Fidgu himz# omuugd hgz ehggo#

ikd iuogd# ]aw ao urggthgizt1 Uazz} ta hgiz ijawt Iuh+

Utg|mg) Rhgzg dmd }aw ~a~ w~ lza`1 Tz} thmu# ah `} bad mtu dgcmemawu# Fidg ucwzzgd+

Har `weh dmd }aw ìog hgz dzmko1 Utg|g ti~~gd Jzgtt jghmkd Fidgu jieo+ Jzgttri|gd thzgg lmkbgzu ikd àwthgd jaa`+ Utg|g zwjjgd hmu lazghgid ikd umbkicgd laz thg

rimtgz+

G`gzbgke} gxmt1 Utg|g iuogd+

Iu wuwic umz# thg rimtgz ikurgzgd+ Thg |icgt ~izogd @u+ Fidgu eiz awt jieo+ Utg|g

caaugkgd hmu tmg ikd ajugz|gd thg gk|mzak`gkt+ Thg zgutiwzikt riukt |gz} ~ieogd# ua`g al

thg ~hatabzi~hgzu ìdg mt thzawbh thg daaz j} ~zgtgkdmkb ta jg ewuta`gzu+ Thg} uit it

thgmz tijcgu rmth thg ei`gziu im`gd it Fidg rhmcg àzg ikd àzg al thg athgz ewuta`gzu

twzkgd thgmz hgidu+ Thg ìkibgz al thg zgutiwzikt bcmdgd uàathc} kgxt ta Utg|g+

@z+ Hwbhgu) thg ìk uimd rmth i hgi|} ieegkt+ G|gz}thmkb baad laz @u+ Fidg1

Thiko }aw laz thg ieea`àditmaku# Utg|g uhaao thg ìku hikd+

Ih kathiko}awlaz ea`mkb) thg ìk uimd+ Ah M lazbgt+ Hgzg @u+ Fidgu eiz og}u)

Utg|g hikdgd hm` i ezgdmt eizd ikd u`mcgd+ M jg zmbht jieo) hg jargd zg~gitgdc}+

Fidg dikbcgd i lazolwc al laad mk lzakt al Utg|g jwt hg uhaao hmu hgid ikd zwjjgd hgz

uhawcdgzu bgktc}+ ]aw git# hg uimd+ Kat bakki jg ua tiut} citgz rhgk mt ea`gu jieo w~+ Hg

taao awt hmu Jcieojgzz} ikd ezgitgd ik g`gzbgke} g|gkt laz thg kgxtdi}+ Cir}gz laz

diìbg eaktzac+ Hg ~zaeggdgd akta ta ugkdmkb Iuhcg} i tgxt `guuibg6 Rg kggd ta tico+

Thg zgutiwzikt ìkibgz ikd thzgg athgzu gueaztgd Fidg# Jzgtt# ikd Utg|g ta thg eiz+

Jzgtt ikd Utg|g uikdrmehgd Fidg jgtrggk thg` ikd ea|gzgd hgz+ Fidg utw`jcgd mkta thg

jieougit al hgz eiz ikd ewzcgd w~ mkta i jicc+

]awz tacgzikeg mu hazzmjcg# Jzgtt ciwbhgd iu hg hgc~gd Fidg mkta thg eiz+


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Uhg eik hizdc} hikdcg akg uiog ja`j ikd }aw bm|g hgz thzgg# Utg|g uimd+

Thg ~aaz bmzcu hid i jid di}# uhg kggdgd mt+

Tiog `} ~hakg+ Tgcc `g rhgk Iuhcg} tgxtu jieo+

Jzgtt caaogd dark it Utg|gu ~hakg? thg ricc~i~gz riu i ~metwzg al thg thzgg althg`+ Fidg riu mk thg `mddcg ikd thg} rgzg omuumkb hgz ehggou+ Hg riu bcid mt riukt fwut

hm` ikd Fidg ik}àzg+ Utg|g riu i ~zalguumakic it hikdcmkb Iuhcg}? Icc Jzgtt okgr riu

har ta utizt lmbhtu rmth hgz+ Thg ~hakg ìdg i dmkbuawkd ikd hg ehgeogd thg tgxt+

Iuhcg} ui}u dakt razz}# Jzgtt zgid thg tgxt icawd+ Kat bakki awt }awz ~zmvgd

~auuguumak+ Mcc baj} citgz ta ~meo `} utwll w~+

Jmteh uhg jawbht icc }awz uhmt IKD }awz eiz+ ]aw uhawcd zgtwzk thg eiz ikd rico}awz iuu jieo ta bacd-dmbbmkb-|mccibg# Jzgtt zg~cmgd mk i tgxt+ I lgr `mkwtgu rgkt j} ikd

thg ~hakg zikb+ Cgt `g okar rhgk }awzg jzmkbmkb thg eiz jieo+ Mcc bgt thg hivìt tgi` ta

wkjmtehml} mt# Jzgtt ikurgzgd thg ~hakg+

]aw okar rhit}aw cmttcg libbat1 Iuhcg} uezgi`gd+ Dakt thmko M dakt okar ik}ìbivmkgu+

Ba thg lweo ihgid) Jzgtt uhawtgd+ Rhit }aw thmko1 I cmttcg cgujmik utaz}u bakki

zwmk Fidg1 Uhg it thg ta~ jij} ikd uhg dza~~mkb }awz iuu cmog dgid rgmbht+

Utg|g ~ikmeogd ikd uci~~gd thg jieo al Jzgttu hgid+

Bm|g `g thg di`k ~hakg) Utg|g }ikogd thg ~hakg lza` Jzgtt+ Iuhcg}1

]awz lweo ta} fwut eautFidg i eakda# Iuhcg} uimd+

]aw ca|g hgz Iuh# cgtu katìog thmu guu}# Utg|g uimd+

@} cmlg rmcc jg fwut lmkg rmthawt thg ìbivmkgu+ M ogg~ `} eiz# `} utwll# ikd lmkd `g

i ~cieg ta cm|g+

Utg|g caaogd mkta thg zgiz|mgr `mzzaz ikd uir Fidgu hgid ti~gd ta thg rmkdar#

tgizu dzm~~gd lza` hgz g}gu cmog i cgio} liwegt+ Hg umbhgd ikd idfwutgd hmu bciuugu+ Caao#

Mcc hi|g thg cir}gzu dzir w~ i utitg`gkt laz }aw ta umbk# Utg|g uimd+ Dakt da ik} àzgdiìbg+ Rgcc tico mk thg àzkmkb+

]awzg lmkdmkb `g i ~cieg takmbht# Iuhcg} uimd+ Ikd M` ea`mkb j} ta bgt `} utwll+

Iuhcg} Utg|g uimd+ Ecmeo+ Hg zm~~gd all hmu tmg ikd thzgr mt it Jzgtt+ Jzgtt uhzwbbgd

ikd rzi~~gd thg tmg izawkd hmu hgid+ Uhawcd hg i~acabmvg1 Mt riukt cmog Iuhcg} ikd Fidg

rgzg bgttmkb i dm|azeg+ Rh} riu mt ua m`~aztikt ta ogg~ Fidg mk thg ecaugt1 @i}jg ua`gakg

uhawcdawt hgz# ì}jg kat iu i cgujmikjwt it cgiut fwut ugthgz lzgg+

Uta~ thg eiz# Fidg uimd+


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Dgzgo Z}iku4

Da }aw hi|g ta ~wog az ua`gthmkb1 Utg|g iuogd+

^wcc mkta thg ehwzehu ~izomkb cat# Fidg uimd+

W``` bi}u izg iczgid} dgg`gd laz hgcc Jzgtt uimd+ Cmbhtkmkb `mbht utzmog rhmcg

}awzg ~womkb+ Mtu kat ~cgiumkb ta thg g}g+

^wcc mkta thg di`k ~izomkb cat) Fidg dgìkdgd+ Jzgtt caaogd a|gz it Utg|gkgz|awuc} iu thg eiz ucarc} ei`g ta i uta~+ Fidg bat awt ikd uci``gd thg daaz+ Utg|g ikd

Jzgtt caaogd it gieh athgz# hikdu ak thg daaz hikdcgu# ikd thgk dgemdgd ta zacc dark thg

rmkdaru mkutgid+ Fidg zik tarizdu thg lzakt al thg ehwzeh ikd utaad wkdgzkgith thg ezauu+

Rhit gxietc} da }aw rikt lza` `g1 uhg caaogd w~ it thg ezauu ikd }gccgd+ ]aw uggg|gz}thmkb zmbht1 Rh} `g1 M tzmgd ta cmog bw}u+ M LWEOMKB TZMGD)

Jzgtt ritehgd lza` thg eiz iu tgizu jgbik ta jwmcd w~ jghmkd hmu g}gu+ Hg

eaktg`~citgd ak utg~~mkb awt jwt hg hid i lgiz al ehwzehgu+ M tzmgd taa hg thawbht+ Bad

dagukt cmog ~ga~cg cmog wu+

Utg|g zwjjgd hmu hgid ikd umbhgd+ Rhit riu Fidg damkb1 Rha riu uhg uezgi`mkb it1

Thgzg mu ka uweh thmkb iu Bad+ Ml thgzg rgzg# hg rawcdkt hi|g jggk fw`~gd dwzmkb hmbh

uehaac laz cmomkb i laatjicc ~ci}gz+ Lggcmkbu izg lggcmkbu? Bad hid kathmkb ta da rmth mt+ Hgcaaogd it Fidg thzawbh thg a~gk rmkdar ikd riktgd ta uhawt# Bm|g mt w~# ml Hg gxmutgd# rgrawcdkt jg hgzg tadi}+ Hg a~gkgd hmu àwth jwt thg razdu kg|gz ei`g awt+ Mt riu thgakg thmkb Fidg hgcd ak ta# rha riu hg ta tiog thit iri} lza` hgz1

Jar }awz hgid# Jzgtt uimd+ Utg|g caaogd a|gz it hm` ikd zimugd ik g}gjzar+ Dathmu laz Fidg+ Utg|g jargd hmu hgid ikd utizgd it thg zm~ ~ittgzku ak hmu fgiku+

Iu Jzgtt ikd Utg|g jargd thgmz hgidu mk thg eiz# Fidg dza~~gd ta hgz okggu+Tgizdza~u ucarc} zaccgd dark Jzgttu ehggou+ Utg|g uriccargd i jzgith al imz ikd ecaugdhmu g}gu+

Dgiz Bad Jzgtt jgbik+ Rgzg tra bi}u thit }aw dakt rikt ta hgiz lza`+ Jwt thmumu laz Fidg+

Hgi|gkc} Lithgz# Fidg uimd+ @} umk mu taa jmb ta lazbm|g+

^cgiug dakt hitg Fidg+ Uhgu kat bi}# uhg uimd mt icc hgz cmlg# Jzgtt uimd+ ]awzg

uw~~augd ta jg icc okarmkb+

Ugkd `g ta hgcc+ Lmkg+ Jwt ~cgiug fwut ca|g `gM fwut rikki jg ieeg~tgd j} }aw+

G|gz}akg ca|gu Fidg jwt hgzugcluhg riktu ta okar }aw+ ]aw ueizg `g jgeiwug }aw

rawcd ~wt `g mk hgcc# jwt uhg jgcmg|gu }aw gxmut) M eikt u~gio laz Utg|g jwt ml }aw `wut hitg

ua`gakg# hitg `g+ Dakt hitg thg akg ~gzuak rha uggou iltgz }aw+ I`gk# Jzgtt lmkmuhgd thg

~zi}gz+

M rakt iuo laz lazbm|gkguu+ M daktdgugz|g mt+ Jwt M iùazz}+ I`gk# Fidg uimd+


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Dgzgo Z}iku7

Fidg zik ta thg eiz ikd uimd# @ggt `g mk thg kgxt ~izomkb cat+ Thgk uhg diuhgd lazthg ~ithri} ta thg kgxt jwmcdmkb+

I` M `muumkb ua`gthmkb1 Utg|g iuogd+

Karuhg hiu ta ~wog# Jzgtt uimd+

Ikd thmu ~izomkb cat mu dmllgzgkt har1

Fidg rawcdkt g|gk hacd hgz lmzut ja}lzmgkdu hikd mk ehwzeh+

Uhg hid i ja}lzmgkd1

Add ~izt riu uhg thawbht uhg riu bi} laz ditmkb i ja}+

Utg|g dza|g thg eiz mkta thg idfiegkt ~izomkb cat+ Jzgtt bat awt ikd zik ta Fidgu umdg+

Hg ~wccgd hgz himz jieo rhmcg uhg jgkt a|gz thg bizjibg eik+

Gx~cimk ta `g rh} rg itg Fi~ikgug laad1 Fidg iuogd+ Razut laad laz ~womkb+

Ea`g ak# rizu akc} hicl ri} a|gz# Jzgtt uimd+

Iuhcg}u eizriu iczgid} ~izogd mk thg dzm|gri} rhgk thg} izzm|gd it Fidgu hawug +Tra cizbg uwmteiugu ~za~~gd thg tzwko cmd a~gk ikd thzgg uìccgz akgu utaad kgxt ta thg

eiz+ Jzgtt hgc~gd Fidg ecm`j akta thg tzwko al hgz eiz ikd ~zaeggdgd ta umt kgxt ta hgz rmth

hmu izù ezauugd+ Utg|g mku~getgd thg bizibg ikd ~ggogd mkta thg hawug? hg umbkicgd laz

Jzgtt ikd Fidg ta uti} awtumdg+

M` uazz} Fidg uimd+]aw hi|g kathmkb ta jg uazz} ijawt# Jzgtt zwjjgd Fidgu uhawcdgzu ikd omuugd hgz

lazghgid+ Da }aw utmcc hi|g thit gxtzi amc mk }awz tzwko1

Hwh1

]aw okar# rhgk }aw tzmgd ta ehikbg }awz ark amc ikd limcgd+

]gih mtu mk thgzg# M` bakki tz} ibimk uaak+

Jzgtt utaad w~ ikd ~ittgd Fidgu cgb ua thit uhg rawcd bgt dark taa+ Hg ricogd

izawkd ta thg lzakt ikd ~a~~gd thg tzwko+ Uhg ~meogd w~ thg jattcg al àtaz amc ikd `gt

hm` hicl ri}+ Hg taao thg jattcg lza` hgz ikd bzmkkgd+ Uhg lcawkdgzgd hgz ri} mkta thg eizikd twzkgd mt ak+

^wt ak i baad uakb# Jzgtt uom~~gd hi~~mc}a|gz ta Iuhcg}u eiz+ Fidg ritehgd

ewzmawuc} iu hg wkvm~~gd gieh al thg uìcc uwmteiugu+

Rhit izg }aw damkb1 uhg iuogd+ Hg rhmutcgd icakb ta thg `gcad} iu thg utzgi` al

amc lcargd lza` thg jattcg mkta akg al thg uwmteiugu+ Rhmcg hg riu lmkmuhmkb hmu razo ak thg


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hgz did# thit riu rh} hgz did riu zwkkmkb iri} rmth thg uwmteiug+ Uhg twzkgd ikd

caaogd it hgz did rhgk uhg zgiehgd thg lzakt daaz+ Hg hid iczgid} dzibbgd thg

uwmteiug icc thg ri} ta thg eiz+ Rgzg thg gkg`mgu thit ueiz}1 Dmd hg kat okar thit

thg} rgzg mk|mumjcg1 Rmth akg giu} cmlt# hg ~wt thg cwbbibg mk thg tzwko+

Didd}# Fidg }gccgd+ Izg }aw bamkb ta jg jieo ak tm`g ta zgid `g i jgdtm`g

utaz}1 Uehaac utiztu taàzzar) Hgz did u`mcgd ikd uhwt thg tzwko+ Hg ricogd a|gzta thg lzakt al thg eiz ikd bat mkta thg dzm|gzu ugit+ Uhg rimtgd laz hmu mk|mtitmak taea`g icakb laz thg zmdg+ Hg jweocgd hmu ugitjgct ikd twzkgd ak thg mbkmtmak+ Uhg

~zg~izgd ta zwk+ Hg riu bamkb ta zacc dark thg rmkdar ik} `mkwtg kar ikd tgcc hgz

ta ea`g icakb? uhg fwut okgr mt+ Thg eiz ~wccgd awt al thg dzm|gri}+ Uhg ri|gd

lziktmeicc}+ Mt og~t bamkb ikd ugg`gd ta ~meo w~ u~ggd+ @i}jg hg riu mk i hwzz} ikd

dmdkt ugg hgz ri|g+ Uhg utaad j} thg lzakt daaz laz i cmttcg rhmcg cakbgz+ Trgkt}

`mkwtgu lgct cmog tra hawzu ta ik gmbht-}giz-acd+ Uhg twzkgd ikd caaogd mkta thg

hawug+ Dmd hgz à` okar thit hgz did hid cglt1 Uhg riktgd ta }gcc ikd tgcc hgz

à`# jwt uhg okgr jgttgz thik ta mktgzzw~t+ Hgz did `mbht jg uid ml uhg utaad thgzg

icc di} rimtmkb laz hm`+ Ua# uhg taao i ugit ak thg daazutg~u+

Rhgk hgz à` hid ea`g awt laz eallgg# thg uo} riu iczgid} i uhidg al cmbht

bzi}+ Uhg ~aogd hgz hgid mkta thg hawug ikd ritehgd hgz à` rico mkta omtehgk+

Thgk uhg ei`g jieo awt ikd ~zaeggdgd mkta thg cm|mkb zaa`+ Lmkicc}# uhg caaogd

dark thg hicc ikd katmegd Fidg umttmkb ak thg ~azeh+

Kmeg di} awt hwh1 hgz à` taao i ugit kgxt ta hgz+

Rhgzg dmd didd} ba1 Fidg iuogd+

Hg dmdkt tgcc }aw1 hgz à` iuogd mk zgtwzk+

Ka jwt M iuogd ml hgd jg ha`g ta zgid `g i jgdtm`g utaz}+

Hgz à` um~~gd hgz eallgg eic`c} ikd rzi~~gd ik iz` izawkd Fidgu

uhawcdgzu+ Uhg riu i uweeguulwc cir}gz# ikd hid liegd ìk} tawbh tzmicu+ Ua`ghar#

it thit à`gkt# uhg dzgr i jciko iu ta har ta tgcc Fidg thg tzwth+

Rh} dakt rg ba mkumdg laz dmkkgz1

Jwt didd} icri}u eaaou

M thmko M rmcc eaao lza` kar ak+

Fidg cmltgd hgz hgid w~ ikd eiwbht i bcm`~ug al i tgiz mk hgz àù g}gu+ Hgzdid riu ea`mkb jieo+ Zmbht1 Uhg riu bamkb ta ìog i rmuh fwut mk eiug uhg kggdgd

hgc~ lza` thg utizu+ Uhg zik mkumdg thg hawug ikd hgz à` laccargd hgz# eizglwcc}

hmdmkb thg tgizu+ Fidg zik w~ thg utimzu ikd ~wccgd awt i ~ciutme jax lza` wkdgzkgith

hgz jgd+ Uhg lawkd i bciuu jattcg ikd ua`g utzm~u al ~i~gz hgz did hid jawbht lza`

ik Iumik bzaegz} utazg+ Thg acd cid} it thg utazg hid tiwbht hgz har ta ìog utizu

lza` thg utzm~u al ~i~gz+


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Cweo} utizu# thg raìk uimd+ Thg} iog }awz rmuh tzwg)

Fidg taao i utzm~ al ~i~gz ikd lacdgd mt mkta i utiz? mt riu kat iu ~zgtt} iu thg

akgu thg acd raìk hid ìdg+ Uhg riu acd# thit hid ta jg rh} uhg riu jgttgz it

lacdmkb utizu+ Uhg dza~~gd thg lmkmuhgd ~zadwet mkta thg bciuu jattcg+ Thgk uhg zik

jieo darkutimzu# akg hikd laccarmkb thg bwmdg al thg zimcmkb ikd jattcg mk thg athgz+

Akeg uhg ìdg mt ta thg daazri}# uhg hgcd thg jattcg ija|g hgz hgid+

Hgz à` riu umttmkb ak thg omtehgk lcaaz rhgk thg tzimc al uawkdu tw`jcgd

dark thg utimzu+ Uhg zaug ta hgz lggt ikd ywmgtc} ukweo w~ jghmkd Fidg+

Dgiz Bad# ~cgiug cgt `} didd} jg uilg# rhgzg|gz hg mu bamkb+ Icua# cgt hmèa`g ha`g takmbht+ Thiko }aw# Fidg uimd+

Tgizu ucarc} jwmct w~ ak thg eazkgzu al hgz àù g}gu+

M ìdg thmu utiz laz }aw# ~cgiug ìog `} rmuh ea`g tzwg# Fidg lmkmuhgd+

Hgz à` ezawehgd dark ikd hgcd hgz iu tgizu lcargd lzggc}+

@a``}1 Fidg iuogd+ Hgz à` tzmgd ta eiteh hgz jzgith+ Fidg twzkgd ta lieg

hgz à`# hgz hivgc g}gu rmdgkgd ta thg umvg al i kmeogc+ Hgz à` ukmllcgd ikd bgktc}

tawehgd hgz ehggo+ Mt riukt thg lmzuttm`g uhg hid uggk hgz à` ez}# jwt mt riu thg

lmzut tm`g hgz à` dmdkt zwk+ Uhg riukt ywmtg uwzg rhit uhg eawcd ua uhg fwuthgcdhgz à` tmbhtc}+ Tgizu uaiogd hgz uhmzt ikd uhg riktgd ta ez} taa# jwt uhg okgr uhg

hid ta jg utzakb+ Uhg fwut hid ta+ Cmttcg ja}u dmd kat ez}+

]awzg `} jij} bmzc hgz à` uimd+ Thiko }aw laz jgmkb ua utzakb+

M i`1

Al eawzug }awzg utzakb#

Fidg utizgd it hgz à` uhaeomkbc} ikd jieogd iri} i lgr utg~u+

Rhitu rzakb1 hgz à` iuogd+

M hi|g ta ba ta thg jithzaa` Fidg zwuhgd jieo mkta thg hawug+ Uhg caeogdthg jithzaa` daaz jghmkd hgz ikd caaogd mkta thg `mzzaz+ Riu hgz à` ugzmawu1

Uhg hid kg|gz eiccgd hgz jij} bmzc jglazg? kgmthgz dmd hgz did+

Mt dmdkt hi~~gk+ Mt dmdkt hi~~gk+ Hgz àù `mkd `wut hi|g jggk i `guu+

Uhg utaad j} thg tamcgt iu ecaug iu uhg eawcd ikd ~wccgd dark hgz ~iktu ikdwkdgzrgiz+

Cmttcg bmzcu eawcd kg|gz ìutgz thg izt al ~ggmkb# uhg thawbht+ M dmd+ Ua M i`kat i bmzc+

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Fidg ~wccgd thg eazo ak thg bciuu jattcg# tm~~gd mt mk `mdimz# ikd ritehgd iu gieh utiz

lgcc ta thg lcaaz+

Thaug utizu Jzgtt wttgzgd+

Thzgg hwkdzgd ikd umxt}-lm|g utizu# Fidg uimd+ M rmuhgd laz i rhacg baddi`k }giz

laz hm` ta ea`g jieo+

Rha1 Utg|g iuogd+

Hgz did+

Fidg omeogd thg ~i~gz utizu ak thg lcaaz cmog uaeegz jiccu+ ]aw tra ~meo thg kgxt

jax+

Utg|g ikd Jzgtt caaogd it gieh athgz ikd uimd# Libbat }aw okar rha+ I ucmbht bzmklmkicc} i~~gizgd ak Fidgu lieg+ Uhg zaccgd hgz g}gu ikd omeogd thg jax a|gz ta Jzgtt+ Hg

tauugd thg jax it Utg|g+ Utg|g eiwbht mt ikd rakdgzgd ewzmawuc}? hmu lmkbgzu mtehgd ta zm~

a~gk thg ti~g+ Uhg kaddgd+ Hg hi~~mc} dwb hmu kimcu mkta thg ti~g ikd ucmegd mt a~gk+ Thgeaktgktu bcargd it hm`+

Rhit thg hgcc mu thmu utwll1 Utg|g lcm~~gd thg jax w~umdg dark+ Bcar mk thg dizoutizu lgcc awt icakb rmth i |izmgt} al ugx ta}u+

Fidgu jmzthdi} ~zgugktu# Jzgtt wllcgd i ciwbh+

Jax % :6 Libbat }aw okar rha+

Fidg utizgd it thg jcieojaizd ikd bzm~~gd thg gdbg al hgz dguo+ Thg ehm~~mkbuawkd lza` thg ehico ugkt uhm|gzu thzawbh hgz u~mkg+ Uhg ti~~gd hgz lggt

m`~itmgktc} ikd caaogd izawkd thg zaa` lwcc al utzikbgzu hgz ibg+ Uehaac mu bamkb tajg u~getiewciz# hgz à` hid tacd hgz+ Uhg riktgd ta ezirc wkdgz thg dguo ikd

hmdg+ Uhg riktgd ta zwk ha`g ikd lacd ~i~gz utizu laz hgz did+

Hm# i |ameg uimd+ Fidg ecgkehgd hgz tggth+ Thg ja} kgxt ta hgz lmkicc} dgemdgd

ta u~gio+ Uhg ucarc} uhmltgd hgz ~gzm~hgzic |mgr ta thg zmbht+ Hg hid jcakdg himz ikd

hmu hikd ugg`gd ta uhmkg+ Uhg cargzgd hgz hgid ikd katmegd thit thg ja} hid

ezauugd hmu cgbu wkdgz thg dguo+ Hgz à` uit thg ui`g ri}+ Uhg caaogd it hgz ark

cgbu+ Thg} rgzg utgid} ak jgkt okggu+ Uhg hid uggk ak T\ thit riu har thg baad-

caaomkb bw}u uit# thawbh uhg eawcd kat lmbwzg awt rh} hgz à` lazegd i uomzt ak hgz+Rgzg ja}u iccargd ta rgiz uomztu1 Uhg dmd kat dizg ta iuo+ Hgz àù g}gu rgzg utmcczgd ikd ~wll} lza` thg ~zg|mawu kmbht+

@} ki`gu Jzgtt+ Rikt i bcarmkb utiz1 thg ja} allgzgd+

Rhit mu mt1 Fidg iuogd+

Thg} uhmkg rhgk }aw twzk all thg cmbhtu+ Mt ogg~u thg jaabg} ìk awt+


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M ìog utizu taajwt thg} dakt uhmkg+ Thg}cc jzmkb `} didd} jieo+

Jzgtt uha|gd thg bcarmkb utiz mk Fidgu hikd+ M cmog }awz uomzt# rhitu }awz

ki`g1

Uhg twzkgd thg jij} jcwg ki`gtib mk lzakt al hgz ta lieg Jzgtt+ Fidg+ Uhg lgct

thg zawkdgd gdbgu al thg bcarmkb utiz+ Hgz zmlcgu rawcd tzw`~ thg bcarmkb utiz ik}di}+ Uhg zg`g`jgzgd hgz à` hid tiwbht hgz ta jg ~acmtg+ Thiko }aw+

Hm omdu) thg tgiehgz utaad mk lzakt al thg eciuu+ Rgcea`g ta lmzut bzidg) @}

ki`g mu @zu+ Bzgta ikd M i` }awz kgr tgiehgz+ Uhg twzkgd ta lieg thg jaizd ikd

utiztgd ta rzmtg ibimk+ Jzgtt ucmd ucarc} mk hmu ugit wktmc hg riu lwcc} wkdgz thg dguo+

Fidg lawkd thit uhg riu wkijcg ta à|g hgz g}gu lza` hgz tgiehgzu jieoumdg+ Uhg

ugg`gd }awkbgz thik hgz àthgz# ikd fwut i tid jmt acdgz thik hgz jij} umttgz+ @zu+

Bzgtau jwttzikogd kw`jgz tra# kgxt ta hgz jij} umttgzu+

I car zw`jcmkb uawkd jzawbht Fidgu g}gu a|gz ta @zu+ Bzgtau dguo+

Ua`gthmkb jcieo ikd uywizg riu dikemkb mtu ri} iezauu thg tijcg+ Thg |gz} kgxtthmkb thit bzijjgd g|gz}akgu ittgktmak riu Jzgttu hikd+ Hg urm~gd thg ~ibgz#

~wccgd a~gk thg gciutme ak hmu uhaztu# ikd dza~~gd mt mk+ I utzikbg u`mcg i~~gizgd ak

hmu lieg+

@zu+ Bzgtau g}gu rmdgkgd ta thg umvg al i ywiztgz+ Uhg ywmeoc} uom``gd thg

zaa` ikd lawkd thg g`~t} ugit rmth thg jzmbht ~mkoki`gtib thit zgid Jzgtt# ikdzik a|gz ta hgz dguo+

Jzgtt urggtmg# @zu+ Bzgta jcwuhgd+ Eik M hi|g thit jieo ~cgiug1 Hg uhaao

hmu hgid ikd m`mtitgd thg jwvvmkb uawkd+ Uhg umbhgd ikd utweo awt ik a~gk ~ic`+ Hg

zgcwetiktc} zgiehgd mkta hmu ~iktu# ~wccgd thg jgg~gz awt# ikd uhargd mt ta hgz+

Thiko }aw+ Uhg ea|gzgd thg ~ibgz rmth i ~i~gz targc ikd bzijjgd mt+

Jzgtt ricogd j} Fidg ikd iuogd# Hmbh-lm|g1 Uhg cargzgd hgz hgid+ Hg uit

dark ikd ~awtgd hmu cm~u+ Uhg og~t hgz hikd ak hgz umdg al thg dguo ikd uti}gd

~gzlgetc} utmcc+ Hg zgiehgd laz mt+ Uhg lcmkehgd+ Hg zgiehgd ibimk ikd hgcd akta mt+

Thgk hg taao ua`gthmkb awt al hmu ~aeogt ikd utwllgd mt mk hgz hikd+ Ikathgz

bcarmkb utiz+ Uhg caaogd it thg utiz# uit mt ak thg dguo# ikd zimugd hgz hikd laz i

hmbh-lm|g+

Rh} da }aw cmog utizu ua `weh1 Jzgtt iuogd+

Rh} da}awcmog thg`1 Fidg iuogd mk zgtwzk+Thg tra twzkgd ikd bzmkkgd it gieh athgz+ ^gieg ikd ca|g umutgz+

Rhit1

Mtu rhit `} did icri}u ui}u rhgk hg `ggtu i kgr lzmgkd+


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A|gz thg kgxt lm|g }gizu# Jzgtt bi|g Fidg i bcar-mk-thg-dizo utiz laz g|gz}

aeeiumak jmzthdi}u# Thikoubm|mkb# Ehzmutìu uhg zgegm|gd ~zgugktu icakb rmth i

utiz+ Thg tzidmtmak al thg utizu zik mtu eawzug ak Fidgu 99th jmzthdi}+

Thg jmzthdi} ~izt} hid i bwgut cmut al tra+ Mt rawcd hi|g jggk thzgg jwt Fidguà` hid i dg~aumtmak ta rzmtg a|gz thg rggogkd+ Fidg ikd Jzgtt omeogd jieo ikd

zgcixgd ak thg cirk ehimzu j} thg ~aac+ Lcargz ~ittgzkgd jmzthdi} jiccaaku lcaitgd

izawkd thg awtdaaz eika~}+ @itehmkb dmu~auijcg ~citgu ikd umc|gzrizg uit ak thg

tijcg wkdgzkgith thg ea|gzmkb+

Jzgtt ca|gd thg ~mko ikd ~wz~cg ezg~g utzgi`gzu ukiomkb thzawbh thg lgkeg

ikd thg bcmttgzgd Hi~~} Jmzthdi} jikkgz+ Fidg ritehgd thg zglcgetmak aldgeazitmaku mk thg ~aac ritgz ikd zaccgd hgz g}gu+ Thg ~aac riu hgz hi~~} ~cieg ikd

}gt ua`ghar# hgz à` ìkibgd ta uijatibg mt+

Ui|g icc thmu utwll# Jzgtt uimd+ M rikt ta wug mt laz `} jmzthdi}+

Rakt }awz ~izgktu omcc }aw1 Fidg iuogd+

Izg }aw omddmkb `g1 ^gieg ikd ca|g umutgz) hg zg~cmgd+

Ua hgzgu thg ~cik+ M` bakki tgcc `} à` thg ~mvvi bw} dmdkt uhar+

Jwt rhit ijawt }awz ~zgugktu1

Ugg thit zgetikbwciz jax1

Jzgtt caaogd a|gz it thg uìcc ~mcg al jaxgu+

Thitu i oiziaog ìehmkg lza` `} iwkt mk Eicmlazkmi+ M uir `} à`

rzi~~mkb mt+

Ikd thg athgz jaxgu1 Jzgtt iuogd+

Ecathgu lza` Lazg|gz :9# Fidg uimd+

]aw dakt g|gk cmog Lazg|gz :9

Jwt}awda+

I dg|mikt u`mcg ucarc} i~~gizgd ak Jzgttu lieg+ Hg zik jieo mkumdg thg hawugikd ecaugd thg bciuu ucmdmkb daaz+ Fidg ehgeogd hgz egcc ~hakg laz thg tm`g+ Mt riu

96:5 ~`+ Hgz à` uimd uhg rawcd azdgz thg ~mvviu j} 96>># jwt uhg mu wuwicc} itcgiut lmltggk `mkwtgu citg+ Fidg dmicgd thg kw`jgz ta thg ~mvvi ~izcaz+

Hmdmd ua`gakg azdgz ~mvvi laz thg Dg|aeemu iczgid}1

Mu thmu Fidg1 Hi~~} jmzthdi}) Thg ~mvvi mu ak thg hawug)

Ah+ Thikou Hgz guei~g ~cik hid bakg awt thg daaz+


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Dgzgo Z}iku9

]icc wut hi|ghid dmutwzjgd ehmcdhaadu# Utg|g uimd+

Hg}) Fidg uimd+ M dmdkt wug thg`) Jgumdgu# jci`g mt ak }awz ja}lzmgkd+

Rhit# M riu fwut ~za`atmkb hgz ugcl eaklmdgkeg ikd bm|mkb hgz icc thg a~tmaku uhghid rhgk thg tm`g ei`g laz hgz ta hi|g ugx rmth ikathgz bmzc)

Ua }aw iuumutgd hgz awt al thg ecaugt iu i+++cgujmik+

Ka hg dmdkt# M|g icri}u cmogd bmzcu+

Fidgmk }awz mkd# rha izg }aw1

Ml M tacd }aw# }aw rawcd thmko M` eziv}+

Rg da kat thmko thit) Mk liet Utg|g ikd M ei`g w~ rmth i kgr ki`g laz }aw+

W``eik rg fwut lmkmuh a~gkmkb thgug jaxgu1 M|g rimtgd cakb gkawbh ta ui}

baadj}g ta thg`+ Fidg zgiehgd awt laz thg jax cijgcgd `mddcg uehaac jcmuu ikd uit mt akhgz ci~+ Uhg a~gkgd thg cmd# taao awt i utieo al ~i~gzu# ikd cimd thg` ak thg lcaaz+ Jzgttu

g}gu cmt w~+ Thgzg rgzg tra ~ciutme zmkbu it thg jatta` al thg jax+ Uhg thzgr thg ~mko zmkb it

hm` ikd ucm~~gd thg jcwg akg akta hgz lmkbgz+

Jax % 56 @mddcg Uehaac Jcmuu

Thg uawkd al thg cwkeh jgcc iccargd thg m`~itmgkt utwdgktu ta lmkicc} ~meo w~

thgmz jieo~ieou ikd lmcg awt al thg zaa`+ Thg eciuu ~gzmad jglazg cwkeh hid icri}u

lgct cakbgz thik thg zgut al thg eciuugu+ Ak thit ~iztmewciz di} harg|gz# Fidg lgct iu ml

eciuu hid bakg ak laz i cmlgtm`g+ Uhg riu zgid}# uhg hid i ezwuh ak akg al thg bmzcuumkeg umx bzidg ikd iltgz i }giz# uhg riu ~zg~izgd ta uhizg hgz ugezgt+ Uhg hid

rzmttgk Jzgtt i cgttgz ikd tacd hm` ta `ggt hgz laz i ea|gzt zgkdgv|awu dwzmkb cwkeh+

Mt dza|g hgz mkuikg thit uhg eawcdkt tico ijawt hgz ezwuh ta hgz jgutlzmgkd+ Hg ticouijawt hmu ezwuh icc thg tm`g ua`gakg mk gmbhth bzidg ka ki`g az dguezm~tmak#

fwutua`gakg+

Ea|gzt# mt `giku ugezgt# Jzgtt ezauugd akg cgb a|gz thg jgkeh+ Zgk-div-laau

mu `ggtmkb ~cieg+ Thg eilgtgzmi mukt gxietc} ugezgt az i ~za~gz `ggtmkb ~cieg+

Mtu ~zakawkegd zik-dm-|w# rmth ik ih ikd di} uawkd# Fidg ciwbhgd ikdutweo hgz hikd mkta hgz ~aeogt+ Uhg ecgkehgd hgz lmut izawkd thg ajfget ikd

uywmz`gd ta jw} ua`g tm`g+ Jzgtt u~zgid i uhggt al ~i~gz targc ak thg tijcg ikd

a~gkgd hmu jax al Cwkehijcgu+

Izg }aw ak i laad utzmog az ua`gthmkb1 hg iuogd+

M rzatg thit laz }aw# Fidg tauugd thg cgttgz ak thg tijcg+ Mt cikdgd kgiz thggdbg al thg ki~omk+ Jzgtt uywmktgd it thg hawug uhi~gd cgttgz ikd ~wuhgd mt iri}

lza` hmu laad+


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Mt riukt ik}rhgzg kgiz thg ~i~gz targc)

Ah jwt mt riu ecaug) Jzgtt rm~gd hmu àwth gcgbiktc} ikd wklacdgd thgcgttgz+ Dgiz Jzgtt hg zgid icawd+

KA) Fidg uci~~gd hmu iz`+ Thg cgttgz mtugcl mu thg ugezgt }aw mdmat+

Hg cargzgd hmu hgid mkta thg cgttgz ikd àwthgd thg razdu+ I lgr `mkwtgu

~iuugd ikd hmu g}gu ucarc} zaug ija|g thg gdbg al thg ~i~gz+ Iddmg jcakdmg bmzc Mrikt ta omeo mk thg lieg1

Mt riu kat thg ikurgz Fidg hid gx~getgd+ Uhg uhmltgd mk hgz ugit

wkea`laztijc}+ M thmko uhgu ~zgtt}

Jwt uhgu mk ug|gkth bzidg# thitu ua ci`g+

Rgzg mk ug|gkth bzidg daalwu+

]awzg thg daalwu+ M eikt jgcmg|g }aw cmogd hgz laz i }giz+

Uhgu i bmzc

Ikd kar }awzg i bgkmwu+ Thaug tra thmkbu jawkemkb mk hgz uhmzt eaklmz`}awz thgaz}+ Thawbh thg zwàz mu uhg utwllu thg` cmog kajad}u jwumkguu+

M dakt thmko M` uw~~augd ta cmog hgzaz ik} athgz bmzc+

^gi

Dakt }aw dizg ui} mt+ Bad M urgiz }awzg twzkmkb mkta }awz did+

Rgcc# ml }aw rzatg i cgttgz laz g|gz} bmzc }aw cmogd umkeg ciut }giz# M hi|gJzgtt eawktgd hmu lmkbgzu+ Ug|gktggk cgttgzu laz }aw+

Ah }aw uweo) ]aw akc} tacd `g ijawt akg al thg`)

Lmkg+ G|gk gxehikbg+ Hmu ki`g mu Eakzid+ Hg bat omeogd awt al uehaac lazugccmkb dzwbu+ Mcc rzmtg cgttgzu laz thg athgz umxtggk+

Hgu i bw}

Eazzget ibimk+ M` bcid }aw katmegd) Hgu ~zgtt} jid taaM cmog hmu izù+

]awzg ri} taa kakehicikt ijawt icc thmu+

Uta~ wumkb jmb razdu+ Thawbht M tacd }aw M dmdkt ~i} ittgktmak mk eciuu+

Cwkeh mu icàut a|gz+ Uta~ gitmkb? cgtu ba ta Rhmtg Azehmd iltgz uehaac+


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It gxietc} 56:># utwdgktu zwuhgd mkta thg hiccri}u ikd laccargd gieh athgz ta

thg caeogzu+ Fidg hmd jghmkd hgz caeogz daaz ikd ~gg~gd thzawbh thg ucmtu+ Uhg akc}

eiwbht bcm`~ugu al Iddmgu lcarmkb jcakdg himz+ Akeg thg utwdgktu mk jgtrggk thg

tra caeogzu ecgizgd awt# Iddmgu lieg riu mk ~cimk |mgr+ Fidg ti~~gd hgz lmkbgzu

kgz|awuc}+ Har eawcd akg lggc zmbht ikd rzakb it thg ui`g tm`g1 Uhg riktgd ta iuo

Iddmg awt ak i ditg# bgt ta okar hgz# ì}jg g|gk lmkicc} gx~gzmgkeg i lmzut omuu+Kathmkb riu rzakb rmth thit# g|gz} ehmcd cm|gu ta ieea`~cmuh cmlgu lmzut g|gktu+

Ua`gthmkb riu rzakb# harg|gz# hgz jad} hid dgg`gd hgz i bmzc# i liet uhg hid jggk

lazegd ta ieeg~t+ Bad hid ezgitgd hgz iu i bmzc# ikd hg hid uhark ka mktgktmaku ta

ehikbg mt+

Hakg} bizcme ehmeogk mu eiccmkb `} ki`g# Jzgtt ukweo w~ jghmkd hgz+ Iddmg

imkt eiccmkb }aw lza` thg caaou al mt+

Dwdg) Rhgzg thg hgcc dmd }aw ea`g lza`1 Fidg iuogd+

M` kati utgicth ibgkt+ Imkt `} liwct }aw rgzg abcmkb it Iddmg+

M` katwbhkg|gz mkd# cgtu ba+

Jzgtt uta~~gd kgxt ta thg ta} |gkdmkb ìehmkg iu hg ikd Fidg gktgzgd thg

zgutiwzikt+ Uhg zaccgd hgz g}gu ikd ricogd w~ ta thg hautguu+ Uhg tzmgd ta thmko al

ua`gthmkb ecg|gz ta ui}+ Ua`gthmkb athgz thik Hm# tra ~cgiug+ Thg hautguu kg|gzuimd ik}thmkb+ Ka laccar `g ~cgiug az gkfa} }awz dmkkgz+ Fwut ik Iumik bmzc

eizz}mkb `gkwu ikd ricomkb iri}+

Awz zgbwciz tijcg ~cgiug# Jzgttìdg hmu bciàzawu gktzikeg+ Da }aw u~gio

Gkbcmuh1 Rg eik tgieh }aw ml }aw rikt+ ]awzg ua ewtg+

M` ua uazz} Fidg cargzgd hgz hgid+

M uimd thg ciut ~izt laz }aw urggthgizt# }awzg rgcea`g+

M` bakki uci~ }aw+

W`larcar`g~ih+cgg+ugg# thg hautguu ikibgd ta ui}+

Ah `} Bad }awzg ua ewtg) Jzgtt jzaog awt mk ciwbhtgz+ M rikki hwb }aw+

M` bakki hwb }aw+ Hg twzkgd thg bmzc izawkd ikd thzgr hmu izù izawkd hgz rimut+

Xmia kik him# uhg rakdgzgd rhit uhg uhawcd da+ Cmttcg ja}+ Uhg ~ittgd thgjieo al hmu hgid ikd ucarc} rmbbcgd awt al hmu g`jzieg+

Fidg utg~~gd w~ kgxt ta thg bmzc ikd jargd zg~gitgdc}+ Uhg u`mcgd it hgz ikd

bgutwzgd thit mt riu ao+ Ui} mt rmth `g# Fidg uimd+ La-ccar `g ~-cgiug+

Laccar`g~cgiug thg hautguu kaddgd hgz hgid rmth gieh razd+


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Dgzgo Z}iku:5

Baad faj) Jzgtt ikd Fidg uimd mk wkmuak+

Xmg xmg# thg bmzc kaddgd ~acmtgc}+ Thiko }aw+

Jzgtt ucmd mkta thg jaath ikd ti~~gd hmu lmkbgzu ak thg tijcg+ Iu thg bmzc

twzkgd ta rico iri}# hg zgiehgd awt ikd bzijjgd hgz hikd+ Fidg ecwtehgd thg okmlg

mk hgz ki~omk ikd eaktg`~citgd ak thzarmkb mt it Jzgtt+ Thg bmzc twzkgd hgz hgidrmth i eaklwugd caao+

Gkbcmuhhgzg+ Ao1 Jzgtt u`mcgd+ Thg bmzc u`mcgd jieo ikd zwuhgd all+ Hg bat

w~ ikd ricogd tarizdu thg jwllgt tijcgu+ Azdgz `g i eaog ~cgiug)

Fidg umbhgd ikd u~zgid a~gkgd hgz ki~omk+ Uhg cmkgd hgz lazo ikd okmlg kgxt

ta mt ikd jgbik tgizmkb ~mgegu al thg ~i~gz all+ Hgz ugezgt riu awt+ Ua riu Jzgttu+

Rh} riu hg kat ueizgd1 Hg hid kg|gz `gktmakgd riktmkb ta jg i bmzc# jwt hg cmogu

bw}u+ Uhg ak thg athgz hikd# icri}u thawbht cmog i ja}# thg akc} cabmeic thmkb ta da

riu ta cmog bmzcu+ Riu gmthgz akg al thg` rzakb1 Ml thg} rgzgkt# har ea`g hg hiu

}gt ta a~gk hmu jzaideiutmkb àwth ikd uhg eikt ugg` ta u~gio akg razd al mt1Jzgtt zgtwzkgd ta thg tijcg rmth tra ~citgu+ Hmu ~citg riu lmccgd rmth lzmgd zmeg ikd i

ugcgetmak al cmbht jzark ikd zgd uiwegu# àut cmogc} urggt ikd uawz ehmeogk ikd

rhitg|gz athgz Ehmkgug I`gzmeik dmuh ak thg `gkw thit di}+ Hgz ~citg riu lmccgd

rmth laad thit uhg hid ka ri} al dguezmjmkb+ Uhg wuwicc} cmogd ta riteh rhit thg

zgic Iumiku itg ikd laccargd thgmz laatutg~u+ Iu mt twzkgd awt# uhg cmogd thg laad#

ikd hid ka ~zajcgù kat okarmkb rhit uhg riu gitmkb+

Thg} rgzg awt al thaug rgmzd ecgiz kaadcgu# ua M bat }aw ca`gmk# Jzgtt ugt

thg ~citg mk lzakt al hgz+

Da }aw thmko ua`gthmkbu rzakb rmth wu1 uhg g}gd thg kaadcgu mk dmubwut+

Rhit da }aw rikt lza` `g1 Md iuo thg` ta eaao }aw ua`g di`k ecgiz

kaadcgu jwt M dakt okar rhit thg}zg eiccgd)

]awzg i ja} ikd }aw cmog bw}u+

Ikd }awzg i bmzc# rhgthgz }aw cmog ta jgcmg|g mt az kat+

M|g ea`g ta ieeg~t thit liet+ Thitu kat thg ~zajcg`+

]aw okarticomkb cmog ik idwct mukt zgicc} icc thit eaac+

Fggjwu ak i utmeo+ Eawcd }aw jg ugzmawu laz akg ugeakd1

Ao+ @u+ Icc Bzark W~# rhit uggù ta jg thg muuwg it hikd1

Dakt eicc `g @u+ M hitg thit+

Jzgtt umbhgd ikd ~wuhgd hmu ~citg iumdg+

Icc M` ui}mkb mu i bw} mu kat uw~~augd cmog i bw} ikd |meg |gzui+


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M ibzgg+

Ua rhit da rg da1

Rg ui} kathmkb ikd da kathmkb+ @} didu icri}u ak thg ea`~wtgz jwt Mcc

ugizeh mtw~ rhgk M bgt i ehikeg+

Uhawcdkt rg tico ta ua`gakg1 I uehaac eawkugcaz ì}jg1

Thg rggo jglazg Eakzid bat eiwbht# M uir hm` mk thg jithzaa`# Jzgtt

fijjgd hmu dzmko rmth i utzir+ Hg riu ietmkb zgicc} rgmzd ikd M tzmgd ta hwb hm`+

Fidg ~iwugd rmth ik a~gk àwth lwcc al laad+ Hid uhg jggk ua eawzibgawu ta

tz} ik}thmkb cmog thit1 Ka+ Uhg hgc~gd Iddmg akeg rmth i ìth ~zajcg`+ Thg} ticogd

ijawt ja}u hicl thg tm`g+ Iddmgticogd ijawt ja}u+ Fidg um`~c} u`mcgd ikd ki`gd

zikda` ja}u ki`gu rhgk uhg riu iuogd+ Rhit ywgutmaku rgzg iuogd1 Fidg eizgdàzg ijawt Iddmgu dgcmeitg hikd+ Uhg rzatg jwjjcg cgttgzu jgiwtmlwcc}+ Hgz Lzgkeh

ìkmewzgd lmkbgzukar kmeg rawcd mt jg ta bziu~ thaug hikdu+

J} thg tm`gM raog w~# hg riu bakg# Jzgtt uimd+

Hwh1 Rhit1 Rhau bakg1 Fidg iuogd+

Thikou+ M a~gkgd `} hgizt w~ ikd }aw rgzg dzgi`mkb ijawt Iddmg+

Har }aw okar M riu uazz}# M riu fwut uhaeogd }aw tzmgd ta hwb hm`+

Kg|gz ibimk+ Hg uha|gd `} hgid mkta i tamcgt ikd thgk okaeogd `g awt+

Rhgk riu thmu1 Har ea`g }aw dmdkt tgcc `g1

M taao i uhargz mk thg caeogz iltgz ^+G+ M dmdkt rikt ta tgcc }aw M cmog i bw}+

Ikd }awzg tgccmkb `g kar jgeiwug1

Akg# M lgct bwmct}+ ]awzg `} jgutgut lzmgkd+Tra# rgzg mk thg ui`g jait+

Jzgtt a~gkgd hmu jieo~ieo ikd taao awt tra uìcc ~ciutme ei~uwcgu+ Thg} gieh

hid i ~ciutme zmkb mk mt+ Hg cimd thg zmkbu awt ak thg tijcg+ Fidg ~meogd w~ thg jcwg zmkb

ikd trmzcgd mt+ Uhg zg`g`jgzgd thg |gkdmkb ìehmkg it thg gktzikeg+

Har weh1 uhg iuogd+

Lawz lmlt}# hg ikurgzgd+

Kmkg tzmgu ta bgt

Jcwg ikd ~mko+ Jcwgu }awz li|azmtg eacaz+

Hg hgcd awt ik a~gk ~ic` ikd uhg ~wt thg jcwg zmkb mk hmu hikd+ Rg dakt

okar rhit rg izg zmbht karikd M dakt okarml rgcc lmkd awt ik} tm`g uaak+ Hg


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ucm~~gd thg zmkb akta akg al Fidgu lmkbgzu+ Uhg taao mt all ikd urmtehgd hikdu+ Hghikdgd hgz thg ~mko zmkb+

]awzg kat ueizgd ta rgiz i ~mko zmkb1

Iu cakb M dakt hwb ik} al `} ezwuhgu# M thmko M` mk thg uilgvakg+

Fidg ~wuhgd thg zmkb akta hmu lmkbgz+ Hg cmltgd hmu hikd mk `md imz+ Uhg cmltgd

hgzu ta ìteh hmu hikd+

Ml gmthgz akg al wu hiu ik} mklazìtmak# rg tgcc gieh athgz jglazg thg gktmzguehaac+ Dgic1

M# Jzgtt Cweiu Eiccmuei# uacg`kc} urgiz thit M rmcc ogg~ thmu ugezgt wktmc M eiklmkd ik gx~cikitmak laz } lggcmkbu+

M# Fidg Oicmg Dg|aeem# uacg`kc} urgiz thit M rmcc ogg~ thmu ugezgt wktmc M eik

lmkd ik gx~cikitmak laz } lggcmkbu+

Jzgtt utzgtehgd awt ak thg lcaaz ikd tauugd hmu zmkb mk thg imz+ Mt cikdgd jgtrggk

Utg|g ikd Fidg+ Uhg taao hgzu ikd thzgr mt mk thg ui`g izgi+ Kgmthgz al thg` hid razk thg

zmkbu laz àzg thik tra rggou iltgz thg} ìdg thg ~iet+ Dwzmkb Uwkdi} uehaac# thg} lawkd

awt rhit thg} rgzg haàugxwicu# umkkgzu thg} rgzg bamkb utzimbht ta hgcc+ Ml thg}riktgd ta zgieh hgi|gku bitgu# thaug zmkbu hid ta ea`g all+

Awt al thg ecaugt mk `mddcg uehaac+++ Utg|g uimd+ Rhgk M riu thit ibg# M dmdkt g|gk

dizg caao it i ja}+ M twzkgd thg laewu ta `} ~mbb} jiko+ @akg} mu ~argz+ ârgz mu lzggda`+

Rg rgzgkt icc thg ri} awt# Jzgtt uimd+

]gih# jieo mk thg ecaugt rmthmk thg ui`g àkth# Fidg ciwbhgd+

Ua`gthmkb ijawt jgmkb i omdgiumc} ikm~wcitgd# giumc} ueizgd# Utg|g uimd+

Fidg caaogd it thg zgìmkmkb tra jaxgu ikd hgz hgizt jgbik ta ~awkd mk hgz gizu+

Uhg utieogd icc al thg a~gk jaxgu tabgthgz ikd ueaa~gd thg utwll ak thg lcaaz mkta thg`+

Utg|g omeogd thg wka~gkgd jaxgu a|gz ta hgz+

Thiko }aw laz |acwktggzmkb# bzij thaug taa# uhg uimd+

Utg|g ywgutmakgd Jzgtt rmth hmu g}gu+ Jzgtt uhzwbbgd ikd utaad w~ ta laccar Fidg+

Uhg zwuhgd awt al thg zaa` ikd `wllcgd laatutg~ uawkdu tzi|gcgd jieo mk+ Utg|g umbhgd ikd

tzimcgd awt al thg zaa`+ Jzgtt hid hmu laat awt thg daaz jglazg hg twzkgd izawkd ikd ~meogd

w~ thg tra jaxgu ak thg lcaaz+ Thg} eiwbht w~ ta hgz mk thg omtehgk? uhg riu hicl utmeomkb

awt al thg lzmdbg+ Thg utieogd jaxgu utaad ak thg eawktgz# icakb rmth i eikdcg cmbhtgz ikd

tra jattcgu al zw`+ Uhg urwkb thg lzmdbg daaz uhwt rmth hgz hm~# tra àzg jattcgu al zw` mk


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Da }aw rikt ta lweo bmzcu1

W``ml thit rgzg ~auumjcgM uw~~aug}gu+

Al eawzugmtu ~auumjcg+ Ik}thmkb mu ~auumjcg#

Har1 Fidg iuogd+ Jzgtt cmltgd hmu cglt hikd ikd ri|gd thg ibme lmkbgzuàtmak+

Thit az }aw eik da thmu# hg uimd ikd uhi~gd i | rmth hmu lazg ikd `mddcglmkbgz rhmcg lcmeomkb hmu takbwg mk jgtrggk thg a~gkmkb+ Uhg zaccgd hgz g}gu+

Rhit ml M riktgd ta}aw okarM dakt okarjg i bw}1 Uhg iuogd+

M dakt okar# M` uwzg thgzgu i ri} ta ~zgtgkd# hg uimd+

M dakt rikki ~zgtgkd+

Ua omcc ua`gakg ikd thgk eha~ all hmu dmeo+ Cgujmiku hi|g ugx rmth giehathgz icc thg tm`g+ Thgzgu batti jg i ri}+

M` kat i cgujmik+

Rhitg|gz lcaitu }awz jait+ Uti} mk thg ecaugt+

M` kat

]awzg i cgujmik+ Hi|g i kmeg di}+

Utg|g cmltgd thg jmkdgz ija|g hmu hgid ikd jargd+ Fidg a~gkgd mt ikd lcm~~gd

thzawbh mtu ~ibgu+ Jaao al Cmgu riu dglmkmtgc} zmbht# hgz cmlg riu i cmg+ Uhg taao thg ciut

~ibg thit zgid# hgcc mu lmkicc} a|gz ikd tauugd mt mkta thg lmzg+

Hgcc mu kg|gz a|gz# uhg wkecm~~gd thg jmkdgz ikd caaugkgd icc thg ~ibgu mkta thg

lmzg+ Thg lci`gu zaug ta thg hgmbht al hgz g}gu+ Uhg ritehgd thg lmzg jwzk icc al hgz

`gàzmgu mkta iuh ikd eakumdgzgd fw`~mkb mk+ Thgzg izg kgr jaxgu ikd jmkdgzu uhg eawcd

utazg `gàzijmcmi# jwt wklaztwkitgc}# kgr jadmgu izg hizd ta ea`g j}+

Utg|g ricogd w~ kgxt ta hgz ikd ~ittgd hgz uhawcdgz+ Thg lmzg mk lzakt al hm` `gikt

ua`gthmkb taticc} dmllgzgkt+ Kat akc} dmd Fidg jwzk hgz ~iut# uhg ì} hi|g jwzkt rhit riucglt al hgz eizggz+ Hg jzawbht hgz mkta thg mkdwutz}# eawcd hg ìkibg ta ogg~ hgz thgzg1

Mcc jg lmzgd iltgz thg \@Iu rakt M1 Fidg iuogd+

Ta jg hakgut rmth }aw# M dakt okar# Utg|g ikurgzgd+ Ik} ~ciku1


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G|gz}thmkb fwut hi~~gkgd ua liut# }aw okar1 M thawbht Iuhcg} rawcd cgi|g `g akgdi} ikd Md `mziewcawuc} ìzz} i utzimbht bmzc+ Thg `wume thmkb omkdi fwut hi~~gkgd+

Jzgtt riktu `g ta ugcc }aw iu Thg Dwog al â~# M` rmccmkb ta bm|g mt i uhat+

Mtu kat fwut jwumkguu) Mtu `} cmlg)

]awz ehameg Fidg+ Mcc tiog eizg al Iuhcg}+ Jwt har cakb da }aw rikt ta ogg~ hmdmkb1

Jzgtt ricogd w~ kgxt ta thg` rmth thg ciut jax mk hmu hikdu+ Fidg uhm|gzgd ikd

ukmllcgd iu tgizu lgcc lza` hgz g}gu+ Uhg thzgr hgz izù izawkd Jzgtt ikd uajjgd+ Thg jax

lgcc a~gk mkta thg lmzg+ I ucmbht jzggvg jcgr i hicl-jwzkt ~mgeg al ~i~gz kgxt ta hgz lggt+

Thg ecgiz kmbht uo} rmth thg ezguegkt àak hikbmkb cmog i ciktgzk ezgitgd ik

irorizd }gt ea`laztmkb i`jmgkeg+ Thzgg ~ga~cg utaad mk i ugecwdgd jieo}izd rmth i lm|g-

jgdzaa` ìkumak mk thg jieodza~+ Akg ezmgd ikd akg hgcd thg tgizu ikd thg ywgutmaku

jieo+ Thg athgz zieogd hmu jzimk laz jwumkguu a~tmaku rhmcg hmu hgizt tazg mtugcl i~izt+

M batti tgcc `} à` lmzut# Fidg lmkicc} jzaog thg umcgkeg+Dakt ìog `g dgemdgzmbht kar ml M` bakki tgcc thg ~zguu az kat+ Utg|g ~meogd w~ thg ~mgeg al ~i~gz ak thg

bzawkd ikd gxi`mkgd mt+

Mu thgzg i zgiuak }aw og~t i zgegm~t rmth }awz àù jax1 Thgzgu kathmkb jwt T\dmkkgzu ak hgzg+

Jax %76 @a``} Dgizgut

Fidgu à` hid eakumdgzgd hgzugcl i baad àthgz+ Fidg# ak thg athgz hikd#

caaogd it hgz iu thg ~gzlget ecmeh àthgz+ Uhg riu i uweeguulwc cir}gz rhaìkibgd ta zimug i ehmcd ak hgz ark+ Mt riu gxietc} cmog har thg à|mgu ~aztzi}gd mt6

i raìk eik à|g ak rmth cmlg iltgz hgz hwujikd dzm|gu all ikd kg|gz caaou jieo+

Uhg hikdcgd umkbcg-àthgzhaad ywmtg rgcc+ Fidg riu ik ajgdmgkt ehmcd ikd

uhg riu cweo} thit cir uehaac hid tiwbht hgz ta ìog dgcmemawu `gicu awt al lzavgk

dmkkgzu+ Thawbh uhg kg|gz tacd Fidg# uhg riu bzitglwc laz Jzgtt ikd hmu li`mc}+ Thg}

iccargd Fidg ta hi|g i zgic ehmcdhaad rhmcg uhg riu it razo+ @akg} dmdkt bzar aktzggu+

Iltgz hmbh uehaac utiztgd# Fidg jgbik ta gkfa} u~gkdmkb tm`g rmth hgz à`+

Uhg hid cguu zwcgu ikd àzg a~~aztwkmtmgu ta gx~cazg fwut har ìk} tm`gu uhg eawcdlaac thg bzgit okar-mt-icc cir}gz+ Uhg cgizkgd ywmeoc} thit hgz à` rawcd jgcmg|g

ik}thmkb uhg tacd hgz+ Thgzg riu ka zgiuak ta lmbwzg awt rh}+ Uhg lmkicc} bat thg

ugezgt cmlg uhg hid ~zi}gd laz+

Hgz àù zwcgu rgzg um`~cg6 laccar thg dzguu eadg al bmzcu hgz ibg# jghi|g

cmog i baad diwbhtgz uhawcd# ikd i~~giz iu i cid} thit uhg hid tiwbht hgz ta jg+ Uhg

rmccmkbc} eaklaz`gd ta hgz àthgzu zwcgu? mt riu i baad ea|gz ikd lg`mkmkg


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i~~gizikegu hid thgmz id|iktibgu+ Akg al thaug id|iktibgu riu thit thg jgiwtmlwc

~a~wciz bmzcu mk|mtgd hgz ta ~iztmgu+ Uhg cgizkgd ta dgic rmth rgizmkb jziu ikd

~zgtgkdmkb ta cmog ja}u+

Dakt okaeo mt tmcc }aw tz} mt+ Tz} mt gkawbh# M `mbht fwut cgizk ta cmog mt+

@a`# eik M ba ta Bzgtiu hawug1 Fidg iuogd akg di} iu hgz àthgz ~zg~izgd

dmkkgz+

Bzgti rha1 Hgz aìuogd+ Uhg a~gkgd i jib al Utawllgzu uomccgt dmkkgzu

ikd ~awzgd mt mkta thg ~ik+

Bzgti Zadzmbwgv# i lzmgkd lza` uehaac+ Fidg taao tra ~citgu lza` thg

eijmkgt ikd cimd thg` ak thg eawktgz+ Uhg ricogd a|gz ta thg uìcc dmkmkb zaa`

tijcg ikd azbikmvgd hgz àthgzu daew`gktu ua thit thg tra idfiegkt ugitu ta hgz

àù ehimz rawcd jg g`~t}+

Rhit izg }aw bw}u bamkb ta da1 Hgz à` famkgd hgz it thg tijcg ikd ugt thg

~citgu dark+ Thg} jargd thgmz hgidu laz i ywmeo ~zi}gz+ Hgz à` u~zgid hgz eiug

lmcgu a|gz hgz hicl al thg tijcg+ Fidg zatitgd hgz ~gzm~hgzic |mgr ecaeormug lza` thg

g`~t} ehimz ak thg cglt al hgz àthgz ta thg g`~t} ehimz ak thg zmbht+

Uhg hid battgk wugd ta thg g`~t} ehimzu ikd hgz àthgzu razo+ Uhg altgk

rakdgzgd ml thaug rgzg thg zgiuaku thit cgd ta hgz did ta ricomkb awt thg daaz+

@i}jg hg hitgd har hmu rmlg dmd hgz razo it thg dmkkgz tijcg rhmcg hg eaaogd+

@i}jg hmu diwbhtgz dmdkt jghi|g rgcc gkawbh# dmdkt uti} j} thg daaz cakb gkawbh

ta rimt laz hm` ta ea`g ha`g+

]aw okar# thg ui`g acd utwll# Fidg ikurgzgd+ Dzmko awt ali ogb# da catu aldmllgzgkt dzwbu# ah ikd ì}jg Mcc ba ikd utzm~ laz Bmzcu Bakg Rmcd+

Dakt jg i uìzt iuu# hgz àùimd+ M ~zaugewtgd lawz ditg zi~gu ciut }giz+Mtu kat i faog+ Fidg ~ggogd it thg lmcgu+

Mu mt utmcc thg uha~ihacme eiug1 Thg cid} thit u~gkt lmlt} ua`gthmkb thawuikddaccizu ikd tzmgd ta ehikbg hgz ki`g1 Fidg iuogd+

Rha gcug mu bamkb ta jg it thmu ~izt}1 Hgz àthgz iuogd# akg hikd hacdmkb i

lmcg ~iziccgc ta hgz lieg rhmcg thg athgz ugizehgd thg ~citg rmth i lazo+

Mtu kat i ~izt} à`+

M riu }awkb akeg }aw okar+

Fidg rakdgzgd har tzwg thaug razdu rgzg+

Jzgtt# lgr ~ga~cg lza` uehaacikdFwutmk Cgjaruom# Fidg uimd+


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Fwutmk1 Izgkt }aw ikd Jzgtt allmemic kar1 J} thg ri}# rhitg|gz hi~~gkgd taîtzmeo1

Hmu ki`gu Jzikdak+ îtzmeou thg uwbiz didd} thit }awz jiko cid} eakkgd+

Uta~ iuomkb `g ijawt Jzgtt+ Fwutmku ewtgz ik}ri}# Fidg ikurgzgd+

Mk icc zgicmt}# Jzgtt jgbbgd Fidg ta ba ta thg ~izt} rmth hm`+ Hg okgr thitFwutmk hid i ezwuh ak Fidg ikd hg fwut ua hi~~gkgd ta hi|g i ezwuh ak Fwutmk+ Fidg

ibzggd ta ba um`~c} jgeiwug uhg cmogd ta caao it bmzcu+ Uhg dzgi`gd ijawt omuumkb

akg al thgug bazbgawu bmzcu akg di}+

]aw okar# cir uehaacu rmcc cmog mt jgttgz ml M riu rgcc zawkdgd+ Bzgtiu thg

~zgumdgkt al thg dgjitg tgi`+ Fidg trmzcgd thg ~gkkg ~iuti ak hgz ~citg+

M` ~meomkb }aw w~ it tgk# kat akg ugeakd citgz+ Hgz àthgz uimd+ Fidgutijjgd i utieo al kaadcgu rmth hgz lazo ikd utwllgd thg` mkta hgz àwth+ M i` taa

di`k baad it thmu+

Utg|g ricogd izawkd thg }izd ta lmkd thg haug+ Fidg utaad umcgktc} ikd thawbht ijawt

har ta jzgio thg kgru ta hgz à`+ It thit |gz} à`gkt# uhg lgct cweo} hgz did riu kat

izawkd# thitu akg ~izgkt uhg dmdkt hi|g ta dmui~~amkt+ Ml hg rgzg izawkd# rawcd hg eizg1

Hg icri}u ugg`gd cmog i tzgg# g`jgddgd mkta thg jieobzawkd al thgmz cm|gu+ Uhg taao awt

hgz egcc ~hakg ikd a~gkgd thg zgeazdmkb i~~cmeitmak+

Thg} ui} tm`g eik hgic icc rawkdu# uhg uikb mkta thg ~hakg+ Jzgttu gizu ~gzogd w~+

Utg|g ~zguugd hmu thw`j ak thg zwuhmkb ritgz haug+

Thzgg umxt}-lm|g eawktgd dark# tm`g iltgz tm`g+ ]aw rgzg kg|gz izawkd ikd rhgk

}aw lmkicc} cglt# }aw kg|gz ei`g jieo+ M rawcd ui} M `muu }aw# jwt M kg|gz okgr }aw rgcc

gkawbh+ M rawcd ui} M hitg }aw# jwt Md jg c}mkb ta `}ugcl+

Thitu i uakb Utg|gu fir dza~~gd+ Thg ritgz lcargd awt al thg haug ikd

gxtmkbwmuhgd thg lmzg+

M tacd }aw uhgu akg al i omkd# Jzgtt uimd+ Thmu razcd rmcc kg|gz jg zgid} laz Fidg+Az M uhawcd ui}Fiog+ Jwt di`k mt# Fiogu ea`mkb)

Fiog Fidg uimd+ M cmog mt+

Hgz utaìeh ugg`gd ta tmeocg i jmt+ Uhg utgidmgd hgzugcl+ Thgk mt i~~gizgd# mt utiztgd

ucarc} mk thg eazkgz al hgz àwth+ Mt ucarc} ewzcgd mkta i u`mcg+ Uhg u`mcgd ikd rmbbcgd hgz

tagu mk hgz uhagu+ Uhg utizgd it thg dzarkgd iuhgu ak thg bzawkd+ Baad j}g

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