alone by judy

8/18/2019 Alone by Judy

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Aloneauthor: Judy

I like being aloneFriends just cause troubleSome people think if your alone you’ll be lonelyBut being alone makes me happy………….

Chap. 1

I am a sophomore. I hae a folder that has millions of anime boys pasted onthe front. Some girls !ould look at my folder and just hae this !eird lookon their face….!hat !as so bad about haing some cute anime guys on yourbinder""" I don’t bother making friends# !heneer I hae free time I !oulddra! in my notebook…$y notebook is filled !ith pictures I dre!..I loedra!ing…

I am labeled as the %&'I() *I(+, but I don’t mind….as long as people leaeme alone…I hate !hen people bother me… I loe dreaming in my o!n little

!orld about guys that I could neer be !ith…..It’s fun…..and it makes mehappy…that’s all I need.....'en though I hae no friends I am happy !ith mylife…..&ell# I hae one friend..my older brother…I can trust him and he’sthe only person that doesn’t think I’m !eird….$y brother doesn’t go toschool…he !as e-pelled for bringing a gun to school…….But he !asn’t going toshoot anybody….e brought the gun for protection against the dumbhead thug!anna/be boys that !ould try to beat him up after school…$y brother !as badand I guess a little…,thuggish, but other then that he’s a real nice guy.

Chap. 2

I !oke up just in time to make the bus. I !ashed up and thre! on a pair of

jeans and a baggy shirt and jacket. I grabbed an apple and ran to catch thebus. I !ent in the bus and looked for an empty seat. 0here !as an empty seatin the back so I !ent to it !hen someone tripped me. I fell flat on my face.$y face !as burning in pain. I got up and a lo! oice said %)on’t you kno!that losers like you sit in the front…..you’re just a little freshy thatdoesn’t kno! anything…., I looked at the guy. e !as probably a junior …. Ilooked at him and said%I’m a sophomore..and I’ll sit !here I !ant1,0he guy looked at me and laughed…%&ell then you should kno! ho! it goes by no!…..2nly the beautiful coolpeople can sit back here…and you’re obiously not beautiful 2( cool so situp in the front !ith the small little freshmans…., I ignored him and sat inthe back…0he bus started moing# he got up but the bus drier shouted

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e sat back do!n and said something 8uietly… I ignored him and startedtuning out of the real !orld into my dream !orld…

9e !ould pick me up and hold me……..0hen he !ould spread his beautiful !hite!ings and carry me aboe all the !orlds……e !ould carry me aboe the crystalclear blue !aters and the !ater !ould spray gently onto our faces.9

$y perfect daydream 8uickly ended !hen the bus came to a sudden stop.


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I looked up and sighed…back to the real !orld….

Chap. 3

I !ent to school and it !as a normal day. eople giing me !eird looks andsaying I !as the %strange !eird, girl. eople liked to look at me and sayI’m !eird because I had siler streaks in my jet black hair. It didn’t looklike gray old !hite hair# but it !as a sparkly siler…. I mostly !ore mybrother’s old clothes. 0hey !ere baggy on me but they !ere comfortable. Ispent most of my time at school dra!ing and dreaming. I didn’t care !hatpeople thought of me. I !as just me. 0he so called %popular, girls !ouldal!ays gie me looks and !hisper…probably crap about me….but it didn’tmatter to me. 7s long as people left me alone. Being alone !as my sanctuary.Being alone !as peaceful.I’e neer been on a date…yea…it might sound pathetic but I don’t !ant toget myself attached to some guy that I’ll probably end up breaking up !ith.$aybe one day !hen I graduate college I’ll gie dating a try…my brother saysit going to be too late then…but oh !ell….

School passed by 8uickly and finally it !as time to go home. I !ent to thebus and I sa! the guy that bothered me this morning surrounded by a !holebunch of annoying girls. I heard their high oices cry out%2 J45JI5 2711 324’(' S2 B(76'11111,

I rolled my eyes.. and sat do!n in an empty seat.

9o! pathetic…..they’re getting all oogly oer some jerk……9

I started dra!ing in my notebook and before I kne! it# the bus came to mystop. I !ent out and sa! my brother’s car. e !as usually off at !ork orgoing places during the day so I rarely got to see him. I ran to my house

and burst in shouting

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0hen I noticed that my brother !asn’t alone. $y mom brother and some otherguy !as standing in the liing room. I stopped in my tracks and my brotherlaughed and said

%ey Sky11 aen’t seen you lately1,

I hugged him and then I looked oer his shoulder to the guy standing behindhim.

%2ppa# !hose that"", I asked%2h# that’s my friend $in!oo…he’s going to be staying in our house until hecan find a place to lie…..he’s been haing some…umm…problems…at his house…,%2h…,

$in!oo looked at me and smiled#%i..your name is Sky right"",%…..3ea…..,%;ool# !ell I guess I’ll be seeing you around…,0hen my brother 8uickly said


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%e’s going to be going to your school so you hae to sho! $in!oo around theschool ok"",

I looked at my brother…he kne! ho! much I hated talking and being aroundpeople..But since my brother !as real important to me I had to do this faorfor him..

%2k……,

0hen I !ent upstairs to my room. I 8uickly took out some clean ne! sheets of!hite paper and started dra!ing. I dre! random pictures…sometimes I dre!scenery# other times I dre! animals….and sometimes I dre! people……… I !as sointo my dra!ing !hen I didn’t notice $in!oo come into my room. !hen he said%I like your room,I !as so shocked I accidentally dre! a huge line across my paper. $y picture!as ruined I grumbled and crumpled up the paper and thre! it in the trash….I looked at $in!oo and he !as looking around my room at my pictures that!ere hung around my room.

5obody !as allo!ed in my room e-cept for me1

I stood up and said%Sorry# I don’t accept isitors,and pushed $in!oo out before he could say anything.

9I hae a feeling $in!oo is a talkatie annoying guy that neer leaesanyone alone……grr…………9

I stop dra!ing and started on my home!ork. It !as around


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!ant to be friends !ith him"""""""""9

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I !as sleeping peacefully !hen all of a sudden I heard%Sky1111Sky1111 urry up and &7@' 41111111111 &'’(' *2I5* 02 $ISS 0'B4S111111111,

9 stupid $in!oo……..9

I got up slo!ly and took a 8uick sho!er to !ake me up. In the sho!er I heardmore shouting

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I got out and put on some clothes and !ent do!nstairs. 0here !as perky$in!oo !aiting do!nstairs jumping around the liing room….

9ugh….there should be a la! against happy cheerful bouncy boys….9

I looked at the clock and it !as only A:==11110' B4S )2'S5’0 ;2$' 0I+:C=1111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111I lost > hour of sleep111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111I took a deep breath to calm myself do!n and slo!ly in a lo! oice said%)o you kno! !hat time the bus comes….$in!oo"""",%3ea1 7t :C=1, he said in a high cheerful oice.%It’s only A:==………………………………., I said trying hard not to jump him.%I kno!…I just felt like !aking somebody up, e said !ith a normal non/happyoice and then he started taking a nap on the couch….

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7fter I finished screaming in my head I started eating cereal. It !as :D=and $in!oo !as still sleeping. I grabbed my notebook and backpack and8uietly left the house !ithout a single noise. I ran to the bus stop and Ilooked back making sure $in!oo !asn’t follo!ing me. 0he bus finally arriedand I ran in and I felt like laughing

9$in!oo doesn’t kno! ho! to get to school1 So he’d miss his >st day ofschool1 77777777779

I sa! the rude jerk in the back of the bus. I found a completely empty seatin front of his chair and I didn’t !ant to share a seat !ith anybody so Isat there. 0he bus !as about to leae# but then# somebody shouted

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I sunk do!n lo!er and lo!er in my seat hoping and praying that it !asn’t$in!oo…I heard footsteps coming to the bus. 0he girls that !ere sitting ne-t toJunjin started !hispering%2h my gosh# he’s a cutie1,%5o that guys is totally like hot11,%3ea..you’re right….,%2h my gosh….he’s like coming this !ay…,


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0hen I heard Junjin say%+adies…don’t forget that I’m right by your side right here listening toyour conersation1,0hen I heard the girl s!eetly ask%Junjin 2ppa…!e loe you and all..but can u moe to the seat ne-t tous…because !e !ant the ne! guy to feel !elcome..and !ho can do that betterthen us"",

I felt like puking….gross….little hoEs

%5o..i’m not moing1, Junjin said

I !ent lo!er and lo!er in my seat and then I heard footsteps right by me. Ilooked to the right and it !as $in!oo before he could sit do!n I 8uicklycrammed my backpack and notebook on the empty space ne-t to me and thenlooked out the !indo!. 0hen I felt my backpack and notebook on my lap andthen he sat do!n right ne-t to me. e put his arm around my shoulder andsaid%)id you kno! that I almost missed the bus"",I ignored him and shook his arm off my shoulder.

I couldn’t help but smile# my plan !as so close to being successful.……………..%52 you start smiling........ …..I could’e missed my >st day of schoolcu of you11 3ou kno! that you hae to sho! me around the school…..,I !iped the smile off my face and acted like I didn’t hear me.

&e finally got to school and $in!oo !as tagging behind me like some littlekid.%ey1 3ou gotta sho! me around the school11,%5o…these t!o girls !ill…,0hen I pushed him to!ard the t!o sluts on the bus and ran off.

Chap. 5

It !as time for lunch at school. $y usual pb and j sand!ich !as all s8uishedand soggy but still tasted good. I ate on my !ay to the field. I didn’tbother going into the cro!ded cafeteria. 2n the grassy green fields I !ould

just dra!. I !as dra!ing !hen I heard $in!oo’s oice and some other people Ididn’t recognie. I looked up and it !as $in!oo !ith the D sluts and Junjin.Junjin looked mad and the D girls !ere trying to act all cute and flirty.$in!oo !as just talking…

9!ell there he goes1 e 7;047++3 made friends1 &o!….e’s no! going to bebrain!ashed by that cro!d..2 !ell……….7s long as he leaes me alone..9

7fter a day….no an hour !ith those people your I.G. !ould probably drop andyou !ouldn’t talk to %lo! life, people like me….but that !as better forme…..e !ouldn’t bother me anymore………..

Chap. 6

0he bell rang and school !as oer. I !ent to my locker but my stupid lock!ouldn’t open. So I spent at least >= minutes trying to get it open. Ifinally got it opened and got all the things I needed and ran to the buses


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hoping they !ere still there.

I ran out and found out that the buses left

9argh..i hae to !alk home no!….this sucks….9

I started on my !ay home and just my luck….it started raining…and I had noumbrella… I couldn’t see anything since the rain !as pouring do!n at me andI had to keep my face do!n so my face !ouldn’t be attacked by the raindrops.I started running home and I !as running so fast I lost control# fell andcrashed into someone. $y !hole body !as in pain and then I realied I !assitting up on somebody. I 8uickly got off and 8uietly mumbled%Sorry..,

0he person stood up and started shouting

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I immediately kne! !ho it !as…$in!oo….

0hen he huffed and grabbed the umbrella that had fallen on the street.

0hen he smiled and put it oer his head and came close to me and put theumbrella oer my head.

%I noticed that you !eren’t on the bus but it !as already moing and the busdrier !ouldn’t let me get off. So right !hen I came home I looked for anumbrella and came out to protect you from the rain11, e said smiling andacting like a little kid.

9ugh..he’s so gross…he acts like a little kid….9

0hen I started !alking and I guess $in!oo e-pected a thank you…because he

!as still standing there !hile I !as !alking a!ay.

0hen $in!oo ran up to me and shouted%ey1 3ou could at least say thank you11,I just kept on !alking and $in!oo stopped talking.&e finally got home and I !ent upstairs to take a sho!er.

7fter I took a long hot sho!er I came out refreshed and happy. I !entdo!nstairs to !atch 0.6. but then I sa! $in!oo laying do!n on the couch onhis side…. and all my happiness !ent a!ay..

9annoying brat…9

0hen I noticed $in!oo !as crying…..

Chap. 7

$in!oo’s .2.6.

95o one kno!s !hat I’m really feeling……..'erything I do and say is fake…allfake…I feel like screaming like shouting I !ish eeryone and eerything can

just go a!ay sometimes……9


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0hen I sa! Sky from the corner of my eyes and !iped my face and sat upstraight and put a huge fake smile on my face…

95o one needs to kno! ho! I really feel…9

Sky’s .2.6.

I sa! him !ipe his face and then sit up straight and his sad face suddenlydisappeared. e turned his head and said

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I couldn’t help but feel bad for $in!oo# een though I had no idea !hy he!as crying…

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I !as sitting in class dreaming off !hen the teacher announced that !e !eregoing to hae a project due and it !as a partner assignment..

9great…I hae to !ork !ith somebody..9

0he teacher already made up the pairs…She !as calling names..

%0ammy and +isa;hris and Jessica$ike and SeanSky and Junjin,

(ight after she said my name I !as shocked…that Junjin dude !as in myclass""I looked around and yup# Junjin !as sitting in the back trying to act allghetto and gansterish. 0he teacher !as still calling names but I couldn’thear them.

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0hen the teacher said# % I’ll gie you time to talk to your partner untilthe class ends,

eople started to get up and go to their partners but I stayed put. I !as520 moing oer to Junjin. e !as coming here# or !e !ould just fail this

project. 0here !as 52 !ay I !as going to go talk to him…I refuse to111 0hissucks11111111111111111

Chap. 8

I !as sitting in my seat !hen the teacher came up to me and asked%&hy aren’t you discussing the assignment !ith your partner",%4mmm………I forgot the assignment…,0he teacher gae me a stern look and then said% +ook at your paper# eeryone had a different assignment.


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0hen the teacher !alked a!ay.I looked at the small paper she had passed out at the beginning of the classit said

/)o a good deed for the earth….

I sighed…..&hat did I do to desere this" 0his !as such a !eird assignment…&hy did !e hae to do this in '7+0….ho! retarded..

0hen bell rang and eeryone got up. 0hen Junjin came up to me and said%I aint gonna fail this project so I’ll meet you after school and !e’ll getthis oer !ith…., 0hen he left.

9this should be lots of fun..yea…!hoop de doo……yea forme…………………………………………………dang !hat kind of stupid assignment isthis""""""""""""""""""""""""""9

It !as after school# I forgot all about the assignment and !ent on the busbut !hile I !as going in someone grabbed my arm and pulled me out of thebus# and I fell on my butt.

9o!..9

It !as Junjin that pulled me do!n.

e looked do!n at me and said%&e gotta !ork on our project….So let’s hurry and get it done..so I don’thae to be seen around you…,I stood up and then $in!oo came oer to me% ;’mon Sky let’s get on the bus1,%She can’t, Junjin said$in!oo eyed Junjin and said%5o one asked you,

%&ell you got your ans!er.., Junjin shot back% I !as talking to Sky not 324 so back off…,%&hateer, Junjin said !hile rolling his eyes…

9ho! pathetic…both of these guys..are so……….9

%I’m going !ith Junjin to do a project so I’ll come home a little latetoday,$in!oo looked at me and said%@…bye..see you later, 0hen ran into the bus.Junjin said%0hat guy is an idiot…is he your brother or something",%…..,

%&hateer# let’s go to the library to ummm go oer our assignment….,0hen Junjin started !alking to!ard the library and I slo!ly follo!ed him

9sigh..it’s gonna be a long long afternoon9

Chap. 9

&e finally arried at the library. &e sat do!n on an empty table. Junjinlooked at me and said


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%So# !hat e-actly are !e going to do",%..dunno..,%2/k..0hat !as a lot of help…It says to do a good deed for the earth…..then!rite a report about it and stuff…..sooo…ho! about !e just plant some treesor something…,%sure…,%5a!# neermind# that’s stupid…ho! about !e just go to a nearby beach andclean it up…that’s a good deed for the earth right"",%yea..,

9 this is stupid…at least !hile !e’re cleaning I can daydream....hehe…9

%umm..girl are you ok" 3ou hae a !eird look on your face…,

I looked at Junjin and said%..yea…I’m fine..,

0hen Junjin said%2k then…&e can meet at Sunset Beach tomorro! at about H:== in the morning

and stay there until !e get the beach clean…alright",

%..yea..,

%2k..then bye…and don’t forgot the only reason I’m talking to you is becausethis project# after the project you’ll be a nobody to me..,

0hen Junjin !alked out.

9!hy !ould I !anna talk to him"""""""""...he’s stupid..9

I had to !alk all the !ay home# !hen I got home $in!oo !as sitting and!atching 0he Fairly 2ddparents…

9he’s such a baby# he’s still !atching cartoons….9

I !alked in and $in!oo didn’t pay any attention to me. e !as too absorbedin the sho!. I !as pouring myself a cup of !ater !hen $in!oo said%I don’t like the Junjin guy,

e scared me so# I accidentally poured the !ater all oer the table…

9ugh…trouble..that’s all $in!oo is..9

I grabbed napkins and !iped the table. 0hen $in!oo started talking again

%3ou should stay a!ay from that guy…he’s an idiot that thinks he’s allthat…,

I just rolled my eyes and !ent upstairs…

9all guys are idiots…9

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I !as sleeping peacefully !hen I suddenly !oke up. I looked at the clock and


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it !as :AA1 7.m.11

9I hae to get to the beach in A minutes…and I’m not een dressed yet11 2r!ashed up11 )ang9

I ran to the sho!er and took a D minute sho!er and ran do!nstairs. I noticed$in!oo !as on the ground doing something and he !as s!eating a lot..

%4mmm !hat e-actly are you doing",

$in!oo looked up and his face !as red..

%…..:breath: push :breath: ups…,

%2/k…ho! many did you do"" D""", I said teasing him..

9 !hat a dork..9

%5o…I did C==…, he said !hile sticking out his tongue at me..

I looked at him and felt stupid… I couldn’t een do C…..

I didn’t kno! !hat to say so I just left to catch the ne-t bus to thebeach..

Chap. 11

I arried at the beach at H:D= and I scanned the beach looking for Junjin..I sa! him sitting on the sand looking at the beach..

I ran oer to him and 8uietly said

%sorry for being late..,Junjin looked at me and said%&hateer….I brought a camera so !e can take a picture of the beach B'F2('!e cleaned it and one 7F0'( !e cleaned it..and !e gotta take a pic togetherfor proof……!ell# let’s starting cleaning..,

I !ent oer to the other side of the beach and picked up trash. I tried toget as far a!ay as possible from Junjin so I could be alone in mydaydream..I !as cleaning and I decided to take a break……I sat do!n andstarted daydreaming !hen I noticed Junjin sat by me. e !as smoking and helooked up into the sky and said%&hy do you do that"",%…….,

%&hy do you al!ays hae that +22@ on your face"…like your on a differentplanet or something…,%..i dunno..,%75) !hy are you so…not talkatie…you’re a strange girl……0his beach is stilldirty so !e better get a moe on..,0hen he stood up and !alked a!ay.I !as cleaning along the shore !hen I sa! something shiny that caught myeye. It !as in the !ater but I !ent near it and started to dig it out. 0he!ater !as soaking my baggy pants and the !ater !ent up to my knees but Ikept on digging. It turned out to be a perfectly shaped seashell. It looked


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a little bit like a horn. It !as light pink. I !as so e-cited I shouted%+22@ &70 I F245)1,It !as the >st time I’e seen such a beautiful seashell..I put my fingers on it and it !as smooth and soft. Junjin looked at theseashell. e said%that’s a pretty seashell…,e bent do!n to touch it !hen he suddenly lost his balance and fell and hegrabbed me for support but I ended up falling too.0here !as a big splash and then I looked at Junjin and laughed…

%hahahahahahahahahaha,Junjin looked so…!eird…e had sea!eed on top of his head and he had a !eirdlook on his face like he had eaten something sour. e also had sand aroundhis face. Junjin looked at me and said%&hy are you laughing""",I just continued laughing and he got mad so he splashed me !ith !ater. Iclosed my eyes and splashed him back….)uring that moment Junjin !asn’tJunjin..he !as a boy…a nice boy…0hen he shouted%&7I01 +'0’S 07@' 7 I;1 *ood thing my camera is !aterproof..,

0hen he !addled oer to me and plopped do!n and he held the camera in frontof us and took a picture. e didn’t een gie me time to pose. $y face !asprobably all scrunched up because !hen he sat do!n the !ater splashed alloer my face and I closed my eyes. I immediately started splashing him andthrough all the !ater he shouted%S$I+'1, and a blinding !hite light hit my eyes..

9he took a picture of me1 522..9

I chased after him and then right !hen I caught him he held up his hands andsaid%&7I01 B'F2(' 324 ;+2BB'( $' ;an you take a pic of me"",%..fine..,

0hen he handed me the camera and I said%2ne 0!o 0hree smile1’and !hen I said smile he splashed me !ith !ater and started laughing and rana!ay.

I tried to chase him but I learned that running in !ater is hard !ork. elaughed at me and playfully taunted me and made faces. I picked up sea!eedfrom the bottom of the !ater and thre! it at him. 0he sea!eed hit him righton his face and he looked so baffled I 8uickly took a picture of him and ranup to him and pushed him then ran a!ay. e chased me and then he lunged forme and !e both fell do!n into the !ater laughing ………..

Chap. 12

&hen !e fell Junjin landed on me luckily the !ater !asn’t so deep and itonly !ent up to my chestK. Junjin looked at me and just stared at me for acouple of seconds that felt like hours...It !as an a!k!ard moment so Isplashed !ater on his face he shouted%'311,


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I laughed and then remember the seashell1%0he seashell111 &here is it"",Junjin looked in his pockets but couldn’t find it..%I’m sorry……..it’s my fault you lost the seashell..,Junjin said !hile aoiding eye contact !ith me..::sigh:: %0hat’s alright…&e should finish our project…,%3ea..good idea…,

7 hour later !e got the beach clean and trash free. Junjin took a pictureand then motioned for me to come oer to him. I !ent oer to him and hesaid..%&e gotta take a picture together !ith the clean beach1,

Fortunately a lady !as passing by so Junjin 8uickly said%4mm. $s. 2r $rs. I !as !ondering if you could take a D pictures of us andthe beach"",%..Sure..it !ould be my pleasure.., the lady said !hile giing a friendlysmile.

She took the camera from Junjin and said%2/k…on three..,

Junjin and I stood ne-t to each other but then the lady said%3oung man can u get a little closer to the girl" I can’t seem to get thebeach in the background..,%Sure, Junjin said !hile getting closer to me.0hen the lady said%2ne# 0!o..0hree,and !hen she said three Junjin casually put his arm around my shoulder andsmiled…I couldn’t help but laugh….the e-pression on Junjin’s face !hen hefell a !hile ago !as hilarious. 0he lady took D pictures and Junjin smiledand !hile the lady !as leaing she said%3ou guys make such a darling couple.., and she smiled and !alked a!ay..I could feel myself blush..

Junjin laughed and said…%&ell# all !e gotta do no! is !rite our e-periences about ho! !e felt andstuff….and !e’re gonna be done….!e can just !rite our o!n little sectionsand staple them together ok",%Sure…I had a fun time..,%3ea.. me too…..oh…by the !ay…!hat’s your name", Junjin said !hile smiling…I laughed…figures..a guy like him !ouldn’t kno! my name….cu guys likeJunjin don’t care about people like me….I looked at him and said…%Sky…….,0hen I !alked off….I !ished Junjin !ould act like that at school...but !ho !as I kidding…right!hen !e get back to school Junjin !ill turn into the old jerk I used to

kno!….

0oday !as the >st time in a +25* !hile that I actually enjoyed being !ithsomeone rather then being alone in my dream !orld…

Chap. 13

I !ent home feeling refreshed and cheerful. &hen I got home I !as stillsoaked but it !as ok..I !alked in and $in!oo !as eating !hen he sa! me he8uickly jumped to his feet and shouted


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9 !o!…scary..9

%nope…I accidentally fell in1, I said and skipped up into the sho!ers.

I came out still in high cheerful spirits…..I !ent do!nstairs and jumpedonto the couch. 0hen I looked out at the !indo! and sa! ho! sunny and nicethe day !as out…I usually didn’t like going outside# but today…I had a urge to go outside…SoI !ent out....&hen I opened the door to go out# $in!oo said%&here are you going""11,%Just going out to take a !alk1, I ans!ered%+emme go !ith you1, $in!oo shouted !hile jogging up to me# then he pushedme out and closed the door.I !ent outside and sniffed in the air. It !as so fresh. 7 cool breee !asblo!ing gently and the sun !as shining !arming eerybody up. I started!alking and $in!oo !as by my side.%ey# ho! about !e go get some boba or something"",I looked at him and then cheerfully said

%S4('11,I don’t kno! !hy I felt happy today…maybe it !as because hanging out !ithJunjin made me happy and I actually had fun.$in!oo and I !alked silently to the Boba store…&e got there and I ordered astra!berry sno!bubble for myself. $in!oo got a green apple sno!bubble. Ididn’t just !ant to sit do!n in the store and eat so I said%&hat about !e drink these outside",$in!oo looked surprised# then smiled and said%3ea1 *ood idea1 0he !eather is perfect for going out1,0hen !e left and sat do!n on the s!ings….0he only thing you could hear !as the little children laughing# giggling andrunning around…and $in!oo and me slurping our drinks. 0hen $in!oo asked me a8uestion

%)o you consider me a friend"",I stayed 8uiet…I che!ed on my stra! and couldn’t ans!er his 8uestion…..)id I consider$in!oo a friend"" ….e just !asn’t the type of guy that I !ould get along!ith…I kne! that I disliked him more then I liked him….i couldn’t lie andsay that he &7S my friend…because I just considered him my brother’sfriend…that !as probably the only reason I !as nice to him…%&ell# I guess you don’t…but that’s aight...,I felt bad…..but !hat else could I do""

Chap. 14

$in!oo’s .2.6.

I asked her if she liked me…and !ell….she didn’t ans!er…I kno! I’m not perfect but still…I try hard to be her friend….I don’t kno!!hy…$aybe I’m afraid I’m going to feel alone !ithout a friend by my side atall times….

EEEF+7SB7;@EEE

%$ommy do you loe me"", I asked !hile looking up at her…


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%2f course baby.., she ans!ered !hile kissing my head…I smiled and snuggled up to her...

E0hat 5ightEI !atched helplessly as my mom !as being beat onto the ground.I ran up into the room and shouted%324’(' 75 '6I+ '6I+ $7511, I shouted !hile tears ran do!n my face.I put my small hands around my mom’s body..trying to shield her…my dadshouted% *'0 7&73 $I5&221,%5o1, I shouted$y dad coming closer and I thought he !as going to hit me but instead# hepicked me up !ith his hands…e picked me up and locked me outside the room.Before he locked the room he looked at me and said%Son..i !ould neer hurt you…I loe you too much…, then he shut the door andthe screaming and shouting continued..I punched and kicked the door…I shouted and !ailed loudly%)25’0 +26' $'1 +26' $2$$311 )25’0 4(0 '(111 4(0 $' )7))311 4(0 $'1111+'76' $2$$3 7+25'111111111 +'76' '( 7+25'111111111111, I shouted

but nobody could hear me….I sat do!n by the door and cried…0here !as nothing I could do…..I felt soalone….

EEE 'nd Flashback EEE

I !as < !hen this all happened… I felt a single tear fall do!n my face Iturned my head a!ay from Sky’s direction and !iped it a!ay…….I hated mydad..no he !asn’t a dad…he !as an I0……e didn’t desere to hae anything Icouldn’t beliee that my mom loed him no matter !hat he did to her.

Chap. 15

Sky’s .2.6.

I looked oer at $in!oo he !as silent and looked like he !as thinking hardabout something…0hen I thought I sa! a tear run do!n his cheek. I didn’t!ant to ask !hat !as !rong…because…!hy !ould I !ant to get in someone else’sbusiness""I got up from the s!ing and said%+et’s go back home $in!oo..,$in!oo stood up and smiled%Sure..,&e !alked side by side in silence….

&hen !e got home I sat on the couch and started !atching 0.6.

$in!oo sat by me and !atched the 0.6. too..I !as looking through the guide and sa! that the Fairly 2dd arents !ere onand for some reason I turned it to that channel. $in!oo grabbed a pillo! andhugged it !hile !atching it. e laughed at some stupid silly parts…I glancedat $in!oo# he looked so happy !atching this sho!…but he !as a gro!n boy….It

just didn’t make sense…

&hile I !as looking at $in!oo I realied that I had turned to this channelbecause I !anted $in!oo to be happier and I !anted to cheer him up. It justmade me uncomfortable !hen $in!oo !as sad and not cheerful. I turned my eyes


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back to the 0.6. and !atched it…it !as about some boy named 0immy that had Dmagical fairies that can grant his !ishes…It !as a cute sho!…but a littlestupid…

I !as so busy trying to get used to the sho! !hen I looked oer at $in!oo he!as sleeping !ith his head resting on the pillo! that !as !rapped in hisarms.I took the pillo! and gently laid $in!oo do!n on the couch and put his headon the pillo!. 0hen# I grabbed a blanket and put it oer his body.

Just like Junjin I !as a different person…and it felt good to be nice and to care about someone else…

Chap. 16

0he ne-t morning I !oke up and remembered that it !as time for school. I!oke up and got ready. I !ent do!nstairs and $in!oo !as cooking eggs andsausages. $in!oo turned around and said%*ood $orning1 &ant some food""11,

e had so much energy…I !ondered &'(' he got all this energy..%…sure..,

It !as back to my old self…3esterday# I !as actually kind of nice…but no! it!as time to go back….Back to my anti/social# I hate eerybody self…

I sat do!n and $in!oo put heaps of food unto my plate. I ate it !hen $in!oo8uickly yelped%0' B4S1 &' $ISS') 0' B4S1,I looked oer at the clock and he !as right10he bus !as probably gone by no!. I ran out the door and the bus &7S gone…I sighed…5o! !e !ould hae to !alk. I grabbed my bag and slung it oer oneshoulder and started my !ay out the door. I heard $in!oo shout

%'311 &ait up1,

0he !eather !as crisp and cool. It !as good !eather and it made me feelrefreshed..I !as !alking slo!ly letting the cold air brush against my face.0hen $in!oo said%&e better hurry or !e’re going to be late for school..,0hen# suddenly $in!oo grabbed my arm and started running.I ran behind him…trying not to trip…$in!oo !as a ery fast runner…By the time !e got to school I !as out of breath and I kne! my cheeks !ereprobably as red as cherry’s# to make it !orse# I !as s!eating. $in!ooho!eer# looked normal and didn’t break a s!eat…

I took a deep breath and tried to cool myself do!n and !alked into theclassroom. 2n the !ay I sa! Junjin and some ne! girl…I looked at him for asecond but then 8uickly turned my head the other !ay…..I !as !alking pasthim !hen he said%&ell look here baby it’s the freak !ith siler hair…,0o make things !orse# he !as smoking I5 school and he ble! a smoke cloud inmy face.I coughed and looked do!n and closed my eyes…$y eyes !ere stinging andstarted to !ater from the smoke…0he girl ne-t to him !as giggling and she said


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%2h Junjin# be nice…you made her cry11,but she obiously !as laughing at me…

9 he’s acting like a jerk again…9

I 8uickened my pace and !ent past him and !ent to my classroom..

9 I can’t beliee I actually '5J23') hanging out !ith him……9

It !as time for lunch and I didn’t hae a lunch# so I sat do!n on the fieldand sat against a tree. I closed my eyes and started daydreaming…it !as socalm and 8uiet out here..$y thoughts !ere ended 8uickly but a couple ofoices. I opened my eyes and sa! that I !as $in!oo# Junjin and their littlegang.I got up and sat on the other side of the tree so they !ouldn’t see me# andI !ouldn’t see them. I closed my eyes and tried to go back to daydreamingbut their oices !ere ('7++3 loud. I sighed….0hen I heard footsteps my !ay…%Sky"" 3ou there" )id you eat lunch",It !as $in!oo…0hen $in!oo !ent around the tree and s8uatted do!n in front of me.

%ey Sky..,e said !hile smiling %)id you eat lunch"" I don’t think I sa!you at the lunch tables…,

9&hy does he een bother""9

%ello..It !ould help if you ans!ered me.., $in!oo said# still smiling…

%'3 $I5&221 &70 7(' 324 )2I5*1 +'76' 070 F('7@ 7+25' 75) +'0’S *211,$in!oo looked at me then a huge smile spread across his face.%ey# !e’re going to just leae school and hang out# !anna come"",I gae $in!oo a blank look and said%5o.,0hen got up and left.

Chap. 17

I missed the bus so I had to !alk home. &hile I !as !alking I couldn’t stopthinking about Junjin

9I can’t beliee someone can act all nice one day and mean another….but he)I) !arn me…….9

I !as !alking !hen a car !ent speeding past me creating a !hole bunch of!ind. I looked at the car and right !hen I looked at it# it stopped# slo!lybacked up and stopped. 0hen I heard $in!oo’s oice

%'3 S@311 &ant a ride home""111,I looked at him and silently continued !alking. 0hey started honking but Iignored them all…I hated Junjin and his little cre! of air/headed jerks…%+et’s just go $in!oo11 &e’re gonna go bounce at a hot club tonight1,I heard Junjin say%…ok…, $in!oo ans!ered0hen $in!oo shouted%I’$ ;2$I5* 2$' +70' 02)73 S@311,0hen I heard Junjin and eeryone in the car go%&hat"" 3ou lie !ith her""111,


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0hen they droe off….

oor $in!oo# soon he !ould turned into a Junjin clone# a jerk and airhead.

9I really don’t !ant $in!oo to turn out like Junjin………&ait1 I didn’t justsay that……………ugh…I’m going cray….i needa sleep and dra!…9

I ran into my room and started dra!ing..By >>:== I !as sleepy so I decidedto get some shut eye.

&hile I !as sleeping I heard someone banging on the door. I rubbed my eyesand sat up on my bed# it !as D:== in the morning1 I got up slo!ly andstomped do!nstairs# sleepy and grumpy. I opened the door and $in!oo stumbledin and rested his body on mine.

%&oah..ok.., I said surprised..$in!oo looked drunk…I dragged him onto the couch and $in!oo started laughing and thro!ing up hishands.

%hahahahahah….hoo humm…hahaha…lalala..the green !atermelon..lalalalala,$in!oo !as singing and saying all these !eird things…

I finally got him on the couch and the >st time $in!oo did !as grab thepillo! I !as handing to him and he hugged it tightly# like a dolly.

I !as about to go upstairs !hen he grabbed my hand….

9I thought he !as sleeping…9

I looked at him and his eyes !ere closed but then in a 8uiet sad !hisper hesaid%)on’t go….I don’t !anna be alone anymore….,

Chapter 18

I stood there…I felt…sorry …for him….is oice !as filled !ith sorro!. Ididn’t feel…right just leaing him !hen he desperately needed someone. Ipulled up a chair and sat ne-t to him. $in!oo grabbed my hand again and heldonto it. I tried to pull a!ay but he held on tighter. 7fter a fe! minutes$in!oo fell into a deep sleep and loosened his grip on my hand. I 8uietlysnuck back upstairs.

9that !as !eird..9

0he ne-t morning I !oke up and !ent do!nstairs# $in!oo !as still sleeping.

0he bus !as going to come any moment no!# and he !asn’t een a!ake1 Ithought about !aking him up….but then I decided against it…

9It’s not $3 fault that $in!oo got drunk and can’t !ake up…I am 520 hismother. e can take care of himself..9

7nd I 8uietly left the house. I ran to the bus stop and stood there !aitingfor the bus. I couldn’t help but feel a little bit of guilt for leaing himback there…It !as too late to change my mind any!ays…0he bus !as pulling upto the stop. I looked back at the side!alk to see if $in!oo !as a!ake and on


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the !ay to the bus# but he !asn’t. e !as probably still sleeping. I got inand pushed do!n the guilt that !as gro!ing in my mind…

I got to school and !ent straight to my locker. I took out my faoritedra!ing notebook !hen somebody snatched it from my grip. I 8uickly turnedaround to see !ho it !as……..

Chapter 19

I 8uickly turned around and sa! that it !as )ong!an. 0he recognied himbecause )ong!an !as one of Junjin’s %follo!ers,. I !ent oer to )ong!an andtried to grab the notebook out of his hand but he s!iftly put the notebookoer his head# and out of my reach. I needed that notebook1 It !as filled!ith my dra!ings and it !as for nobody’s eyes but $'.

)ong!an neer talked to me# or anything so I didn’t understand !hy he !asdoing this. )ong!anlooked at me and grinned and then opened up the notebook.I 8uickly jumped up but he held it up higher.

9!hat is !rong !ith this guy""1119

I jumped up again but still !asn’t able to take the notebook back. )ong!anlooked through my notebook and said%3ou dra! pretty !ell…,I tried again to grab it# but )ong!an !as still slo!ly looking through $3dra!ings.I just gae up and !alked a!ay..I !as not going to een try to take it backanymore. e probably !ouldn’t een gie it back any!ays.I !as !alking a!ay !hen someone grabbed my shoulder and s!ung me around.It !as Junjin..%Sorry bout my stupid friend…he’s just mental like that.., e said !hilehanding me back his notebook..

I had a feeling he !as being %nice, to me# but I remembered ho! he hadcalled me a freak and made fun of me just yesterday. o! could someone be somean# and a day later# be nice"" It didn’t make sense to me. I took thenotebook from Junjin and turned around# to !alk a!ay..%'31 )25’0 I )'S'(6' 7 075@ 324""11, Junjin shouted at me.I ignored him and kept on !alking..

..he didn’t desere a thank you from me..

Chapter 20

I hugged the notebook to my chest and !ent to my first period class. Schoolslo!ly dragged along# and finally it ended. I ran to my locker# but Inoticed someone !as standing in front of my locker. It !as )ong!an# I stoodin front of him and coughed# hoping he !ould notice me standing there andmoe…but he didn’t…)ong!an looked do!n at me….e reached out his hands andhe started to gently touch my siler streaks…0hen he stuck out a pen hegrinned and said%0ake it# I !ant you to hae it..,

9 he’s scaring me..9


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%It’s a pen…and I !ant you to take it…or I’m going to be standing here for a!hile.., he said still smiling.I grabbed the pen from )ong!an’s hand and then )ong!an left.

I !ent to my locker and took out all my stuff.I looked at the pen# it !as a ery nice pen. It !as a fat clear pen. Ipressed the little button and the top of the pen and a sky blue light glo!edout of the pen.I !as amaed# it !as the >st time I’e seen a pen light up. I pressed thebutton again and the blue light turned pink…I kept on pressing the buttonand the pen lit up in all the colors of the rainbo!.

9!o!….!hy did he gie this to me""9

I put the pen in my pocket and ran to the bus.

2n the bus I looked at the pen again…

9!hy !ould he gie this to me"""9

I opened up my special notebook and started dra!ing an anime boy !hen Irealied that this pen had siler ink…

Instead of normal black ink# the pen had siler ink. It !as ery cool# I sa!)ong!an outside the bus and I had an urge to run out and hug him…this !asone of the coolest things I had eer receied# my family !asn’t ery big ongiing presents.

9!oah..did I just !ant to hug )ong!an""...ok I’m scared…9

Chapter 21

I ran home and I ran into my house. (ight !hen I ran in# I sa! $in!oo itlooked like he had just !oken up.e looked at me and smiled and said%i…heh….i guess I got a little drunk yesterday.,%5o..you got 7 +20 drunk yesterday…aren’t you to young to be drinking", Iasked%$aybe….I dunno…I feel like crLp.., e said !hile stretching his arms upinto the air.%&ell..just don’t get drunk again…then you !on’t feel like crLp anymore..,

0hen $in!oo looked at me !ith his eyes !ide open….%&hat"".., I asked%&2&1 3ou actually talked to me…this !as probably the longest conersation!e’e eer had11, $in!oo said !hile smiling.I couldn’t help but smile..%3ea..i’m in a good mood today…,0hen I ran upstairs to play !ith my ne! pen.

E0he 5e-t )ayE


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I !as at school again…another boring and painful day of school….)uring break# I sa! )ong!an# Junjin# and $in!oo in their little group. I!anted to run up to )ong!an and thank him for the pen.&hen the bell for class rang# they all started going in differentdirections. Junjin !as coming to!ard me and he smiled at me. I looked at himand gae him aget/a!ay/from/me/you/jerk look. e looked hurt for a second and that’s !henI smiled. Junjin desered that…he !as neer nice to me !hen people !erearound…probably for the sake of his %reputation,.

7fter school I sa! )ong!an standing on the side!alk all by himself so I ranup to him and 8uickly mumbled..%thank you..,)ong!an looked at me and smiled…%5o problem# I !as hoping you !ould like it…, )ong!an said !hile lookingstraight into my eyes. I felt all mushy inside…..0hen )ong!an lo!ered hishead do!n to my ear and !hispered%3ou can pay me back by giing me a hug.., e saidI felt my cheeks gro! !arm…no guy eer asked me to hug them.I kne! that I !as going to look stupid hugging )ong!an so I decided against

it..But !ithout !arning )ong!an 8uickly hugged me. $y head smashed into hischest he hugged me for a couple of seconds and then he let me go.

I kne! that my face !as beet red no!. I looked do!n at the ground.)ong!an bent do!n and lo!ered his head to!ard me and chuckled. I smiled andI felt like an idiot. M/M

Chapter 22

I tried to stop blushing and found my school bus. I got on and sa! that$in!oo and Junjin !ere sitting in the back ro!. &hen $in!oo sa! me he smiledand !aed his hand.

%'3 S@31 ;ome oer here1, $in!oo shoutedI looked at him and all the girls around him and sat in the first ro!. 0he!hole ride home I tried not to think about )ong!an# but I couldn’t stop thelittle pictures of )ong!an flashing through my head. I felt myself blusheerytime I caught myself thinking about )ong!an. I did that the !hole ridehome. &hen it !as my stop# I got up and $in!oo follo!ed behind me.

I started !alking to my house !hen $in!oo jogged by my side and said%ho! !as your day"",I ignored $in!oo and kept on !alking in silence..%&as school fun""..&here !ere you at lunch" )id you eat lunch" &here do youhang out during break" &here’s your locker"",

I !as getting ery annoyed by $in!oo’s babbling so I looked at $in!oo andshouted#%S4041111111,$in!oo looked surprised and then turned his head a!ay..0hen I heard him!hisper %Sorry…,

I felt bad…I !asn’t talkatie# but I didn’t like hurting people’sfeelings…$in!oo !as just being a curious brat….But I !asn’t the kind ofperson that !ould admit that I did something !rong or stupid. So I kept on


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!alking. 7fter !hat seemed like hours# !e finally reached the house.

I took the keys out and stepped inside. $in!oo follo!ed behind me. $in!oo jumped on the couch and shouted%71 S2 ;2$F2(07B+'11,

9 $in!oo is so stupid…9

I !as about to get myself a snack !hen the doorbell rang. I ran to the doorand a guy about my age !as standing there..%ey..)oes $in!oo lie here""", e asked !hile trying to look into thehouse.I blocked his ie! and coldly said%5o..he doesn’t..,0he guy looked at me and then said%2k..sorry..,I !as about to shut the door !hen $in!oo shouted%&7I01 S'’S +3I5*1, and he ran and flung the door open.0he guy looked at $in!oo and shouted%321 &7SS4""11,

$in!oo laughed and they did that guy handshake thing and $in!oo ans!ered%;I++I5..;I++I51,0hey both laughed..

9must be some inside joke.9

I !as about to !alk back into the house !hen something caught my eye. Ipeered oer at the guy’s shoulder and sa! a black motorcycle that had a bagon the handle bar. 0hen the guy said%I brought your ride oer cu you needed it…,%0hanks.., $in!oo said

9$in!oo has a motorcycle"" &o!… he must a rich guy..9

I trudged back into the house and on my !ay to the kitchen I heard the guyask%&hy do you lie here $in!oo""",%I dunno..it’s nice here..., $in!oo ans!ered%Better then the old days"", 0he guy asked

7fter a fe! seconds $in!oo slo!ly said%…yea….,

7fter that I couldn’t hear anymore and I didn’t !ant to be 022 nosey. So Igot myself and snack. I !as munching my snack !hen I heard the door close.$in!oo came in and he looked at my snack..%I’m hungry11, e said !hile shouting…

%0hat’s nice..get your o!n food.., I said !hile getting up.

Chapter 23

I !ent upstairs and locked myself in my room. 0hen I noticed a picture ofmy mom# me and brother at a park. &e all looked happy. I !as about in thatpicture.I sighed sadly. $y mom !as neer home…she !as al!ays gone because of her jobin ;hina…I asked her to 8uit her job but she said she couldn’t…It !as !ith


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the same !ith my brother# he al!ays stayed at his apartment# and neerisited us. 'ery night I !ould be alone…and I finally got used to beingalone…aing $in!oo around…!ell it’s strange..$in!oo is such an upbeatperson..and I’m not used to so much…happiness and crainess….0hat night I!as sleeping !hen I heard an engine roaring. I got up and !ith my eyesbarely opened I forced myself do!nstairs. I looked out the !indo! and I sa!someone riding a motorcycle..

9!ho !ould drie a motorcycle at this time11...!ait…that motorcycle looksfamiliar….hey….it’s $in!oo…..!hat is he doing""...9

e !as e-pertly driing his motorcycle. I had no idea that he kne! ho! toride a motorcycle.

0he ne-t !as Saturday and I !oke up at around >:==p.m. I !alked around thehouse and found out $in!oo !as gone. I ate my lunch and then I !ent to thegarage to find a broom# because I accidentally spilled a !hole bag ofcereal. In the garage I noticed $in!oo’s motorcycle !as gone. 0hen I noticedthere !as a small bag on the ground.

I’m usually not a ery nosey person# but for some reason there !assomething….strange…about the bag. I !ent oer to it and I 8uietly andcautiously opened it. 7t first I didn’t see anything# all I sa! !as theblackness of the bag. I stuck my hand in the bag and my fingers touched asmooth cool object…I ran my fingers around it and my eyes gre! !ide !hen Irealied !hat it !as....

Chapter 24

I put my !hole hand around it and I could feel my heartbeat loudly. I hopedit !asn’t !hat I thought it !as. I pulled the object out and my prediction!as right. I had just pulled out a gun. It !as on safety.. but I couldn’tbeliee it…!hy !ould $in!oo need a gun" e seemed like a goody goody happy

boy..not a boy that !ould carry a gun around.

9$aybe it isn’t his…there !as to be some kind of e-planation .maybe it’s hisfriends…9

I pulled out some more things out of the bag and in there !as a pair ofleather black gloes. I also found a couple of siler chain necklaces..2neof the necklaces caught my eye# it !as a medium sied siler chain but there!as a pendant hanging from the chain# it !as a siler# faceless boy angel.0he angel had a shirt on and he had a pair of baggy pants on. 0he angelreminded me of $in!oo for some reason…0he hair style and the shape of theface resembled $in!oo. 0he angel had huge !ings and the !ings !ere sobeautifully made. I stared at the angel and then I heard a motorcycle

coming. I 8uickly stuffed the chains back in the bag and then I grabbed thegun and thre! it in and closed the bag and put it !here I found it and I ranin the house and a fe! seconds later I heard $in!oo opening the garage door.

9!he!..just in time….i !onder though….are those all of $in!oo things…but !hy!ould he need a gun.." 5o1 I’m not going to pry into his personal life# it’snone of my business….9

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I sat on the couch and pretended like I !as !atching t.. the !hole time.$in!oo !alked in and said%ey Sky1 &assupp",%5othin much..,I said !hile trying not to look at $in!oo. I kne! that if I looked at him# Imight shout out%&hy do you hae a gun11"",

and I didn’t !ant to do that…

So I tried to aoid looking at him. 0hen he said#%Sky1 *uess !hat1 &e don’t hae to ride the bus anymore1 3ou can ride on mymotorcycle1 It’s !ay faster and no more sitting in the cro!ded bus1,I didn’t !ant to ride a motorcycle !ith $in!oo so I said%I think I’ll pass..,$in!oo tried again%7!! c’mon..you can !ake up C= minutes later and you !on’t hae to rush toget to the bus1,%…no..,$in!oo gae up and said

%Fine..be that !ay..,

&ithout thinking I blurted out#%&hat did you used to do before my brother brought you here"",$in!oo looked surprised and I !as shocked that I had just said that.I 8uickly said%Sorry…I !as just curious you don’t hae to tell me..,$in!oo looked at me and said%I !ent to school and I !orked at an ice cream shop.,0hen he !alked into his room.

I kne! $in!oo !as lying# I didn’t kno! ho! I kne!# I just kne! he !as lying.

Chapter 26

0he ne-t morning I !oke up and I looked oer at my clock. It !as A1 0hebus !as already gone11 I scrambled up and put clothes on and brushed myteeth and !ashed my face and ran do!nstairs and grabbed my bag and !entoutside but the bus !as gone. I sighed and !ent inside my house. $in!oo !asin there smiling.%3ou needa ride"", $in!oo said !hile handing me a bo!l of cut up fruits. Itook the food and stuffed it into my face.

9 I really don’t !anna get a ride !ith him..but I’ll neer get to school by!alking in >A minutes19

I looked at me and nodded.

0hen $in!oo smiled and said%7lrighty then# grab your bag and follo! me.,

I follo!ed $in!oo into the garage. I sa! the bag lying on the floor. $in!oolooked shocked and he 8uickly but casually !alked oer to the bag and kickedit# it slid across the garage floor into the dusty corner. $in!oo looked atme and smiled


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%7 useless bag…it had some e-tra motorcycle things in it..,I nodded and then $in!oo took out his motorcycle and sat on it. e gae methe helmet and I looked at him#%&hat about you"",e grinned and said%I don’t !anna mess up my hair.,I rolled my eyes and put the helmet on.0hen he said%2k# sit behind me and hold onto me., $in!oo said !hile starting themotorcycle.I sat behind $in!oo and then I said%&7I01 Isn’t there some kind of pole or holding thingy I can hold onto" )o I76' to hold on to you"",$in!oo looked back at me and said%5ope…you gotta hold onto me# or you’ll fall off and get hurt..,I sighed and said%2k..,

I put my hands on his shoulders and then $in!oo droe off.

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In no time# !e reached the school# I sa! some people looking at $in!oo andme and I sa! the look of jealously on some girls face. I laughed to myself

9haha..look at girls…&hy do they think riding a motorcycle !ith a guy is soromantic""...i don’t understand..9

$in!oo parked and !e both got off. I took my helmet off and handed it to$in!oo.0hen I mumbled%thanks,and ran inside.

I !ent to my locker# and opened it. I !as shocked to see a red rose in mylocker. I found a card attached to the bottom and it !as a small !hite pieceof paper# it said

i..hope you like it.

)ong!an.

I smiled and I felt so loed. I took the rose and held it in my hand. 0hensomeone tapped me on my shoulder# I turned around and it !as )ong!an.e grinned and I smiled#%0hank you..,

e looked at me and said#%5o problem…,0here !as an a!k!ard silence !hen )ong!an une-pectedly leaned do!n andkissed me on my cheeks. I felt my cheeks get rosy and then )ong!an looked atme and smiled%3ou look cute !hen you blush.,e ran his finger do!n my cheek and then he said%&ell I gotta go to class# so bye..,I smiled and said%Bye..,


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&hen )ong!an !as around I felt so giddy and happy. I een !anted to dressnicer for him# but I didn’t !ant to change my !hole image for a guy# so Idecided not to. I closed my lockers and thought about ho! nice )ong!an !as.I actually !anted to be !ith )ong!an# I think I !as starting to fall for)ong!an..

Chapter 28

0he !hole day I daydreamed about )ong!an. I actually liked a real guy1 It!as a first for me. I thought all guys !ere jerks and dorks..like Junjin#but )ong!an !as different. )ong!an !as perfect. e !as nice# s!eet and cute.)uring lunch I couldn’t help but glance oer at )ong!an…but unfortunately$in!oo sa! me looking at their table and he !aed.

I turned my head a!ay but $in!oo shouted

%IIIIIIIIIII S@@@3333333333331,

9 ho! embarrassing..9

I took out a book and coered my face..!hy did $in!oo act like such a littlebaby""

%'70 '(' S@31111,$in!oo shouted

I ignored him and !as about to leae !hen he said

%SSSSSS@@@@@@333331111111 )25’0 +'76'11 7(' 324 '$B7(('S') B3$''''"""""""""""""""""""111111111111111111111111111111 %

0hen $in!oo started chanting#%S@31 S@31 S@3 *20 I*1 &3 )I) S' *'0 I*" ;4N S' 70' 022 $4; I'1 $3$31 22( S@311 SI0 By $' 75) ;(3 ;(31 0(3 520 02 *'0 I* S@31 ;4N 0'5 324$I*0 )I' )I'1 75) I’++ ;(3 ;(311,

9 can this kid be any more retarded"" e made a freaking poem about me119

eople around me started looking at me and gae me !eird facial e-pressions.Some freshman girls looked at me and giggled. I sighed and left the lunchroom. Some people !ill neer gro! up.

Chapter 29

7fter school I !as going to my locker# !hile I !as looking in my lockersomeone came up from behind me and hugged me. I 8uickly turned around andtried to hit them. )ong!an backed up and said%&oah1 I guess I shouldn’t do that…,I smiled and said%eh…sorry…not used to people hugging me.,0hen )ong!an looked at me and said#%I !as !onderin if you !ould !ant to get something to eat",


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I looked at him surprised..%(/(ight no!"",

)ong!an laughed and said#%3ea11,%umm….sure..that’ll be great..,)ong!an’s face broke into a huge smile and he shouted%2k1 +et’s go1,

)ong!an closed my locker and he took my hand and started running out thedoor to his car.

e sat inside the car and I sat in the passenger seat.%Soo !here are !e going to eat"", I asked !hile looking at his car.)ong!an shrugged and said%I dunno..!here do u !anna go"",%I don’t care..,

I spent the !hole afternoon !ith )ong!an and I got to kno! him real !ell. e!as a real nice guy. I kne! I liked him about a million times more. )ong!an

droe me home and he stopped in front of my house. I looked at )ong!an andsaid%0hat !as fun..,)ong!an smiled and said%3ea…!e should do it more..,

0hen )ong!an looked into my eyes and I started to feel a littleuncomfortable. )ong!an leaned oer and he pressed his lips on mine.I !as shocked but !hen I realied !hat !as going on I started to blush.)ong!an !as still kissing me…I felt embarrassed I had no idea ho! to kiss. Ineer kissed a guy until today and I didn’t kno! !hat to do. So I kind of

just sat there.

)ong!an finally stopped kissing me and I shyly looked a!ay from him.I managed to say%Sorry# I can’t kiss..,)ong!an laughed and put his hand on my face and tilted my head to!ard him.e looked straight into my eye and he said%It’s ok..to me it !as a perfect kiss..,

0hen he gae me a short s!eet kiss.

0hen he said%&ell# you better go home..,0hen )ong!an grinned !hile looking oer my shoulder %$in!oo’s !aiting for you..,

I turned my head and sa! $in!oo looking out the !indo!.

9I hope he didn’t see me kiss )ong!an19

I looked at )ong!an and asked%7re these !indo!s tinted"",)ong!an laughed and said%)on’t !orry $in!oo didn’t see anything..,I smiled a smile of relief and opened the car door.


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I looked at )ong!an one last time and !aed.e !aed back.I !atched )ong!an drie off and I started skipping into the house.

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&hen I got into the house $in!oo looked at me and said#%&hat !ere you doing in )ong!an’s car"",I looked at him and said nicely%5one of your bees!a-.,$in!oo just looked at me and said%2k…you seem a little too happy,

I looked at $in!oo and smiled#%I 7$ happy11,$in!oo looked at me like I !as some kind of alien.I laughed and tiptoed to pat his hair$in!oo !as taller then meK 0hen Iskipped to my room !hile humming. I got into my room and fell onto my bed.

I smiled and started thinking about )ong!an. I kne! I !as hopeless.

0o be honest# I !as scared that I liked )ong!an so much. I neer likedanyone this much before. &ell actually I neer like anyone before )ong!an.0he ne-t morning I !oke up and !hen I came do!nstairs $in!oo looked at meand asked%3ou need a ride",%Sure..!hy not1,$in!oo looked at me all !eird again. I looked at $in!oo and said%&hat"1 &hy do you keep on looking at me like that"",$in!oo bit into an apple and said#%I dunno..you’re just different no!..you talk more..and yo’re too happy..,I looked at him and said

%So you )25’0 !ant me to talk and be happy"" I see ho! it is1 3ou don’t !antme to be happy1 3ou like to see me mad or embarrassed or sad1 3ou’re '6I+1)o you hear me" '6II+ $I5&2211,$in!oo looked at me and opened his mouth%&ait I didn’t mean it like 0701,I laughed and said%777 you should’e seen the look on your face…you’re so gullible.. &ellany!ays get that motorcycle started1 It’s time to go to school11,$in!oo shouted%&e’re going to be about C= minutes early if !e go right no!11,%I !ant to go 52&1, I said !hile sticking out my tongue.%FI5'1, $in!oo shouted !hile sticking out his tongue back out at me.e ran into the garage and I follo!ed after him.

Chapter 31

In the garage I !asn’t looking at !here I !as going and I accidentallytripped oer something.E04)E

I fell onto the ground and I said%2!..that hurt…,I sat up and looked at !hat I had fallen on. It !as $in!oo’s black bag# but


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all of his things spilled out the bag. I sa! the gun just lying on theground near the bag. I tried to keep my eyes a!ay from it# but I couldn’thelp myself. $in!oo 8uickly !ent oer to me and sat on the gun.%+ooks like you tripped oer a bag Sky1 o! retarded can you get"",I looked at the bag and said%$in!oo..i sa! the gun…!hy are you trying to hide it"",$in!oo looked surprised for a second but then he smiled and said%It’s just a friends# I’m keeping it for him# safe keeping..,I looked into $in!oo’s eyes and he turned a!ay.I could tell $in!oo !as lying# he !as a ery bad liar..

Chapter 32

$in!oo’s .2.6.

&hy the heck did I leae the bag there"" ;ould I be more careless" I triedto hide the gun by 8uickly sitting on it# but it !as too late# I could tellshe had seen the gun. She didn’t look scared or surprised. She asked me !hyI !as trying to hide the gun..

I raced to find a belieable lie. I managed to come up !ith%It’s just a friends# I’m keeping it for him# safe keeping..,

I smiled and tried to act like eerything !as cool# that I had no connection!ith the gun# but she looked into my eye..I could tell she kne! I !as lying.er eyes seemed to beg for the truth. I looked a!ay# I kne! if I looked ather I might say the !rong things. 5obody !ould understand !hat I did…..morelike !hat I didn’t do…I just !ished it could all go a!ay..

EEF+7SB7;@EE

%$I5&221 +ook !hat I managed to buy from this dude selling guns.,

7ndy stuck out his hands and in his palms !as a hand sie gun.I looked at it and 7ndy smiled and said%0ake it# it’s yours..I bought it for you man1 5o! !e B20 hae guns111,I took the gun and held it in my hand. 7ndy leaned oer and took it offsafety. I looked at 7ndy unsure if I should be taking this gun.

7ndy just grinned and said%;’mon..take it for a test1 Just don’t shoot me1,I smiled a tiny smile and I turned around and shot the gun at the ground.0he gun made a small noise and then I sa! a tiny hole form onto the ground.

7ndy looked at me and smiled%7in’t that tight" 0his gun only makes a little bit of noise1 7nd it fits alot of bullets at one time# oh yea..here’s more bullets just in casethough.,

I smiled and I felt less tense.I started shooting the ground like a cray man. 7ndy started laughing.0hen !e heard our friends shouting that this other gang group !as coming.

7ndy and I looked at each other and 7ndy grinned%erfect !ay to see ho! !ell your gun ('7++3 !orks..Just make sure I don’tget killed# you can protect me !ith your gun and I’ll protect you !ith mygun11 It !orks out perfectly1 &e can be each others body guards1,


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EE 'nd FlashbackEE

7ndy !as my best friend. e !as the friend you could al!ays count on….

Chapter 33

Sky’s .2.6.

I looked at $in!oo and it seemed like he !as off in another land. I gentlyshook $in!oo’s shoulder and said#%&e better get going to school…,

$in!oo got up and picked up the gun. e held unto the gun and I sa! a lookof pain and sadness filling in $in!oo’s eyes. e just stood there !ith thegun in his palms# then he grabbed the black bag and tossed the gun in thebag. e picked up the bag and I 8uietly said%3ou can put it on top of the cabinet oer in the corner.,$in!oo looked at me and nodded. e !alked oer to the cabinet and slo!ly putthe bag on top of it. 0hen he turned to me and there !as a huge smile

plastered on his face.%&e better get going1,I nodded and said%..3ea…,

&e both got to school and right !hen I got to school I sa! )ong!an standingoutside the school. I felt my heart thumping as I !alked to!ard him. &hen Igot to him he looked at me and hugged me. I pulled a!ay from the hug andsaid%i )ong!an..,)ong!an smiled at me and said%i Sky..,

0hen Junjin came up to us and Junjin looked at me. e seemed mad and angry.e looked at me and stared at me. I felt like he !as directing all his angerat me for some reason. I looked at him and then turned my head back to)ong!an. I smiled and the bell rang# so I tiptoed and gae )ong!an a kiss onhis cheeks and ran to class.

Chapter 34

7t lunch I sa! )ong!an and $in!oo in their usual group. I sa! )ong!an !itha girl. 0he girl !as sitting on )ong!an’s lap. She !as a really pretty# tallskinny girl. She looked like a model# she !as probably the ne! girl all theguys !ere talking about. $y heart dropped as I sa! )ong!an laughing and

talking !ith the girl.

9 I should’e kno!n that )ong!an !as just playing me….9

I looked a!ay and !as about to !alk out !hen I heard )ong!an shout%S@31 ;ome here1,I stopped for a second but kept on !alking a!ay.)ong!an !as probably just going to humiliate me in front of the !holeschool.


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I kne! that )ong!an !as too good to be true. I should’e kno!n from thestart….&hy !ould anyone like me" I !as so plain and normal# I !as a loner.

Chapter 35

I !alked out of the lunch room !ith my eyes starting to !ater up. I kne! it!as stupid reason to cry# but I just couldn’t control it. I really liked)ong!an but he just used me. I !ent outside and took a breath of fresh air.0hen I heard footsteps running to!ard me# someone called my name and Iturned around. It !as )ong!an#

I 8uickly turned around and started to !alk a!ay !hen he ran up to me andgrabbed me. I aoided eye contact and looked do!n at the ground !hile tryingto get a!ay. e held on my arm tightly and said%&hat’s !rong""""",is oice sounded so caring. I !anted to beliee that he actually cared.I looked at him and in a cold oice said%I thought that !e really had something# but you just used me. I guess allguys are jerks# and you’re the biggest one I kno!1,

)ong!an looked at me a little lost. 0hen he looked at me and he started tolaugh.

9 !hy is he laughing"""11111 e ('7++3 is eil9

)ong!an pulled me to!ard him and hugged me tightly. 0hen he !hispered%Sky..you’re so silly…are you talking about that girl that !as !ith me inthe lunchroom""",

I struggled to get out of )ong!an’s hug# but that made him hold unto metighter. 0hen he said#%She’s my cousin111,

I looked up surprised and embarrassed. )ong!an laughed and said%I must’e gien you a real big heart attack there...,I smiled shyly and nodded.)ong!an laughed and hugged me again. 0his time I hugged back.

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)ong!an pulled a!ay from the hug and looked into my eyes# touched my hairand asked%Is eerything ok bet!een us"",I nodded%Since you called me a jerk you hae to kiss me right here11,

)ong!an said !hile pointing at his lips.I laughed and said%5o# you don’t desere it1,)ong!an looked hurt and he said%pp!!eeasse",I looked at him and gae him a kiss on his lips.

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I 8uickly !ent to my locker and on my !ay out the school someone grabbed myarm. I turned around and sa! it !as Junjin. I looked at him# sighed and in amean tone said%&hat do you !ant""11,Junjin looked do!n at the ground and grabbed my hand.0hen he put something in my hand# closed my hand into a fist then ran out ofthe school.

I looked into my palm to see !hat it !as.

It !as a picture and the pink seashell I found at the beach….

Chapter 37

I looked at the shell and I started remembering the day I spent !ith Junjinat the beach. I almost forgot about that day. 0hat !as the only day !hen Ithought Junjin !asn’t a jerk. It !as the e-act same seashell. 0hen I tookthe picture he gae me# it !as folded in half. I opened it up and it !as the

picture !e took at the beach. I smiled# that day !as a lot of fun. Junjin!ould be a good guy if he acted like that eeryday. 0oo bad he !asn’t. Istudied the picture# I had to admit the picture !as a cute picture. 0he sun!as setting in the background and Junjin and I looked real happy in thepicture. I put the picture in my pocket and held the shell in my hand.

9 I !onder !hy Junjin !asted his time looking for this shell…that !as kindaof nice of him to do that….but ' !as the one !ho made me lose it in thefirst place any!ays…9

I looked at the shell again and put it in my pocket. 0hen I ran outside tolook for )ong!an. I sa! him !ith $in!oo and they looked like they !ere in adeep conersation. I ran behind )ong!an and shouted

%B221,)ong!an and $in!oo turned around and )ong!an !rapped his arms around me andgae me a huge bear hug. &hile he !as hugging me# the picture that !as in mypocket fell to the ground.

$in!oo reached do!n and picked the picture up. e opened it up and looked atthe picture. )ong!an leaned oer to look at it too.I took the picture from $in!oo and said%It !as !hen Junjin and I had to do that project.,

$in!oo looked at me and nodded !ith a strange look. It looked like he !as!orried and mad. )ong!an kissed the top of my head and said%3ou look real cute in that picture..,

Chapter 38

J45JI5’S .2.6.

+ife isn’t fair….I kno! I’m not perfect …I just !anna scream for a reason !hy…..0here has to be a better reason….. ……


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S@3’S .2.6.

I got a ride home on $in!oo’s motorcycle. &hen !e got home I took thepicture out of my pocket and said out loud#%Junjin !as real nice that day..I !onder !hy he doesn’t act like thateeryday........,$in!oo came up to me and then he said%)on’t een think about Junjin# he’s nothing about trouble..,I looked at $in!oo and said%7nd you think you’re any better"",$in!oo looked at me and said%3ea…I @52& I’m much better then Junjin…he’s….!ell…lemme put it this !ay….hehas issues……………..,I gae $in!oo a confused look. $in!oo just shrugged and !ent into thekitchen…

I sat on the couch and I reached in my pocket to pull out the shell. Ilooked at it and I !ent upstairs to put it in my room. I still couldn’t help

but !onder !hy Junjin !ould go through all that trouble to gie the shellback to me# maybe Junjin !asn’t as bad as $in!oo said he !as…..

Chapter 39

I !ent do!nstairs to get a drink of !ater because I couldn’t get any sleep.&hile I !as do!nstairs I heard $in!oo talking in his sleep. I !ent into hisroom and sa! $in!oo tossing and turning in his bed. e !as mumblingsomething that I couldn’t make out. is forehead !as s!eaty and streams oftears !ere running do!n his face.

Fresh tears !ere streaming do!n his face. I didn’t kno! !hat to do. I’e

neer seen a boy cry so much. So I tapped $in!oo’s shoulder and said%ey# $in!oo1 &ake up…3ou’re haing a nightmare….,

0hen he opened his eyes !ide open and looked around the room. e looked lostand confused. is eyes focused on me and he blankly looked at me. 0hen heopened his mouth and took a deep breath of air. I sat on the side of his bedand asked

%7re you alright",

$in!oo looked a!ay from me and grabbed his pillo!. e hugged it tightly andrest his head on it. 0here !as a calm silence for about D minutes. I lookedat $in!oo. e looked so different. e looked so different from his hyper

cray self at school. o! could such a happy kid# be so sad !hen no ones!atching"

I didn’t kno! !hat to do so I put my hand on $in!oo’s shoulder and rubbedhis back# trying to comfort him like a mother !ould. I ran my other handthrough his hair gently. $in!oo finally spoke. is oice sounded like alittle lost boy#%$y mommy used to do that to me to feel better…,

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%$in!oo you better get some sleep# you’ll be tired at school tomorro!..,I took the pillo! from $in!oo’s hand and put it do!n on the bed. $in!ooobediently !ent do!n onto the bed. I pulled the coers oer him and!hispered%*ood night..,e closed his eyes and as I !as leaing he said%Sleep tight…,

Chapter 40

I !ent upstairs to my room. I plopped into my bed and sighed !hile lookingup at the ceiling. For some reason# I felt like it !as my job to make sure$in!oo !as alright. I felt like he !as my younger brother# een though$in!oo !as a couple months older. I closed my eyes and fell into a deepsleep…

5'?0 )73

I !oke up and got ready for school# I ran do!nstairs and I sa! $in!oo in thekitchen making pancakes.

%$in!oo…!hy the heck are you making pancakes..!e gotta go to school soon1,$in!oo replied back in a light happy tone%;u I felt like eatin pancakes111,0hen he turned around and stuck his tongue out at me..

9ho! strange..he’s all happy no!…maybe he just gets sad at night…9

I !as running around the house looking for my special notebook !hen $in!oosaid#%7re you looking for your notebook" I sa! it on top of the t.,

I ran to the t.. and sa! it lying there. I snatched it and let out a breathof relief. $y notebook !as ery important to me..if I didn’t hae it..i

probably !ould die…

0hen $in!oo shouted%SI0 )2&5 75) '70 S2$' 75;7@'3S11 0'3’(' 34$$311,%I )25’0 &7557 '70 324( 57S03 F22)1, I shouted back..but then my tummy grumbled. So I silently sat do!n in the kitchen table.$in!oo looked at me and grinned%I thought you didn’t !ant any pancakes1,I ignored him and in one 8uick moement I grabbed a pancake from $in!oo’splate and stuffed it all in my mouth.$in!oo shouted%''311 324 S0'7+'(1 2& ;24+) 324""",I looked around the room

%&ho me""",I asked trying my best to act innocent.$in!oo just gro!led at me and then he licked all his pancakes.I gro!led back at him and on the !ay to the garage I shouted%urry up1 &e gotta go 52&1,

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$in!oo came running into the garage. I !as used to riding $in!oo’smotorcycle. It !as easier to just ride it# because taking the bus meant Ihad to !ake up earlier and it took real long# and it !as al!ays cro!ded andit smelled like a perfume store# since the girls sprayed all their perfumeon in the bus.

I sat on his motorcycle and $in!oo handed me the helmet. I put it on and !eoomed off to school. &hen !e got to school I scanned the school for)ong!an. e !as standing !ith Junjin. &hen )ong!an sa! me he jogged oer tome. Junjin !as still standing there !ith a cold look plastered look on hisface. I had a feeling he !as mad dogging me. I took my eyes off Junjin andfocused on )ong!an. &e hugged but our hug !as interrupted my $in!ooscreaming%'&&& .).7.1111 *'0 7 (22$11,

)ong!an pulled a!ay from the hug and shouted%324( J4S0 J'7+24S ;4N 324 )25’0 76' 7 *I(+ 75) I )211,$in!oo looked at )ong!an and said%57 41 I ;75 *'0 7 *I(+ IF I &750') 021 B40 I 76'5’0 F245) $3 '(F';0 *I(+3'011,

0hen $in!oo stuck out his tongue.

I laughed..

Boys are so immature.

Chapter 42

)ong!an !alked me to class on the !ay to class I sa! a preppy girl runningup to )ong!an !ith )ong!an’s cousin. 0he preppy girl looked at )ong!an andsmiled%I 2711,)ong!an’s cousin said

%Sup oppa",%ey $indy1 ey Shana..sup",%5othin much..,%2h yea $indy and Shana say hi to Sky..she’s my girlfriend..Sky this is mycousin $indy and her friend Shana.,$indy looked at me and smiled% 5ice to meet you..,Shana smiled at me and said%i…you must be the lucky girl….,I smiled# I !ould hae said something# but I didn’t kno! !hat to say..%&ell I guess I’ll see you later1, $indy shouted%3up..bye1,

0here !as something !eird about that Shana girl…I s!ear she gae me a dirtylook !hile she !as leaing….

9maybe she likes )ong!an…too bad1 )ong!an’s mine so back off1 : 9

+45;

7t lunch I !ent into the cafeteria and sa! )ong!an and his little group.$y blood boiled !hen I sa! Shana sitting right by )ong!an. I !atched as sheedged closer to him inch by inch. I still didn’t like hanging out !ith


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)ong!an’s group. I thought they !ere all airheads# e-cept for )ong!an andsometimes $in!oo. 7ll the girls they hung out !ere slEts# and the rest ofthe guys !ere jerks…

+uckily# I didn’t hae to go to their table# because )ong!an !as already!alking to!ard me. 4nfortunately Shana !as tagging behind )ong!an like afly. )ong!an came up to me and gae me a hug. I looked at Shana and she gaeme a dirty look. 0hen Shana said%)ong!an oppa# let’s sit do!n and eat11,)ong!an pulled a!ay and looked at Shana.%2k..sure…;’mon Sky. 'at !ith us.,I looked at )ong!an and nodded. I liked being !ith )ong!an.)ong!an put his hands around my !aist and took me oer to his table.2ne guy looked at me and smirked%&here did you find 0IS one )ong!an" 3ou kno! you can do better.,I looked do!n at the ground. )ong!an said%ey1 Be nice,0hen he !hispered into my ear %Ignore that guy# he’s just stupid..,I smiled.

&e sat do!n and I took out my sack lunch. &hile I !as eating I glanced oerat Junjin. I don’t kno! !hy I did that but !hen the second time I looked atJunjin he !as staring back at me. I 8uickly turned my head and continuedeating. Junjin made me feel nerous and uncomfortable for some !eird reason.

Chapter 43

5'?0 )73 70 S;22+

I !ent to school the ne-t day like any other day. I !as !alking into the

school !hen this alley girl came up to me and said%)id you hear the ne!s""",I looked at her blankly..%&ell any!ays this totally hot guy named Junjin# like abuses hisgirlfriends1 e also is like addicted to drugs1 e een has to steal drugsand all that crap1 Isn’t that like freakin messed up""" I mean Junjin doeskinda look like a bad boy# but like# oh my gosh1 e’s like a kid !ith a!hole bunch of problems1,

0hen the girl ran off# probably to tell more people.

9..!ait…junjin beats up his girlfriends"...!hat the heck" I can’t belieethat guy... 75) he steals drugs" &hat’s !rong !ith Junjin. I kne! he !as a

little !eird…but …he abuses girls"9

I !ent inside the school and !ent to my locker. $y mind !as still confusedabout Junjin and his problems. &hen I got to my locker I turned my head tosee if Junjin !as at school today. 0hen right on time# Junjin came !alkingthrough the doors. 0he !hole hall!ay became deadly silent. Junjin lookedconfused because of the silence# but he !alked through the hall!ay.

&hile he !as !alking a group slEtty girls stepped in front of Junjin. 7tall girl !ith long black hair shouted#


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%&hat gies you the fEcking right to beat up my friend1",%&hat the heck are you talking about", Junjin asked getting mad.%)on’t play dumb you LOO1 'eryone kno!s your little secret. $y B'S0 F(I'5)is crying about ho! you beat her up a yesterday. Just because she broke up!ith you doesn’t mean you hae to hit her1 She has bruises and scars alloer her body1,

Junjin shouted%&70 0' ';@ 7(' 324 S73I5*" 070 I B'70 4 $3 *I(+F(I'5)S" lus I brokeup !ith her1 She neer broke up !ith me111,She stepped up to Junjin and said%I thought you !ere a good kid Junjin# I liked you a lot and !anted to be!ith you# een though my best friend !as going out !ith you# but no! I kno!ho! stupid I !as.I can’t beliee you !ould do that to a girl...,Junjin shouted#%I do 520 beat up girls1,She shook her head….%&hateer# if you lay one finger on 0risha or any other girl..I’m gonna getmy brother and his gang to beat the life out of you…so back off1,

0he girl and her group !alked off.Junjin had a confused look on his face. 0hen )ong!an and $in!oo !alked oerto Junjin. Junjin smiled a smile of relief and shouted%*uys1 ;an you tell me !hat’s going on""" I’m really confused..,)ong!an and $in!oo had a serious e-pression on their face. $in!oo looked atJunjin and said%I thought you !ere better then that…you’re addicted to drugs and you beatyour girlfriend….hae a nice future all alone Junjin..,

Junjin looked hurt and he looked up at )ong!an# I kne! he !anted )ong!an toback him up but )ong!an looked a!ay and said%Sorry Junjin# I thought I kne! you…I trusted you…but I don’t kno! !ho youare at all….,

0hen they !alked a!ay. I couldn’t beliee my eyes. Junjin !as friendlessno!. is D best friends had just abandoned him. I couldn’t help but feel abit sorry for him. Junjin let out a huge sigh and !alked out of the school….

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Junjin ditched school. 'eryone !as saying it !as because he !ent out toget more drugs or something. I# personally didn’t really beliee Junjin beathis girlfriend until I heard the girl named 0risha !as in the restroom. I

!ent in the restroom to see if he really did abuse her. She surrounded by agroup of girls. I peeked oer all of the girl’s shoulders and to mysurprise# her arms !ere coered in bruises and her eyes !ere puffy fromcrying. er face had a fe! bruises also.

0risha !as crying and talking at the same time but I managed to hear

%e forced me to..EsniffE kiss him. I couldn’t take it anymore# so I toldhim I !anted to stop our relationship….e…he grabbed me and thre! me againstthe !all. I didn’t kno! !hat to do…he started hitting me to the ground and


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then he kicked me…I !as so scared….it hurt so much..but I can’t tell thepolice because I still feel bad for Junjin..he told me that he really loedme and I broke his heart…but he !as getting to physical and rough..i didn’tkno! him anymore. e !asn’t the s!eet Junjin I used to kno!….,

I !ent out the bathroom daed# so it !as true. Junjin had physically abusedhis girlfriend….

9!hat a bEstard…..ho! could he do that to someone""9

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I !ent outside and !ent to my locker. It !as !eird# I !ould neer think ofJunjin a type of guy to beat up girls. I could understand him being addictedto drugs# but abusing people !as just a bit too much. &hile I !as at mylocker )ong!an hugged me from behind.

I turned around and hugged him back and !hispered

%Sorry..,

)ong!an pulled a!ay from the hug and looked at me..%Sorry" &hy are you sorry",I rested my head on his chest and said%;u your best friend turns out to be a freak. It must be !eird for you tofigure out your friend has a lot of problems.,

)ong!an sighed and said%I dunno…Junjin seemed like a good guy. I kne! him since elementary school#but I guess I neer really kne! him at all….,

I hugged )ong!an tighter and gae him a kiss on his cheek.

%$aybe you can help Junjin…,

)ong!an looked at me and said%I don’t !ant to…he’s only told me lies for the last couple of years..I’mhis best friend1 But he lies to me and does all this bad shEt….,

0hen )ong!an smiled and said%o! about !e just drop this subject# Junjin can deal !ith his o!n problems.%

I nodded and then )ong!an said%+et’s go get Boba1,

I smiled and said%2k…,

Chapter 46

0hat night I !ent home and noticed $in!oo !asn’t home. I looked around thehouse. It !as really empty and 8uiet. 0hat !as !hen I noticed that there !asa message on the ans!ering machine. I !alked oer to the ans!ering machineand right !hen I !as about to turn it on I heard a noise in the garage. I8uickly turned around and grabbed the lamp as a !eapon.


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I 8uietly !ent to the garage door and opened it slo!ly. It !as completelydark in the garage. I could feel my heart thumping in fright. I crept intothe garage !hen my leg hit something. I let out a huge scream and jumpeda!ay to turn on the light. I 8uickly turned on the light and let out abreath of relief. It !as only $in!oo.

%$in!oo1 &hy the heck are you sitting on the garage floor in the dark"""11113ou scared me11,

$in!oo looked up and gae me a small smile.%I dunno# I just felt like it..,

I groaned and mumbled%3ou stupid $in!oo..,

0hat !as !hen I noticed that $in!oo had his black bag in front of him. egrabbed the bag and put it back on the top of the cabinet. I pretended notto notice and said%2h yea1 0here’s a message on the ans!ering machine# I gotta go hear it1,

I ran back in the house and $in!oo follo!ed me into the house. $in!oo saton the couch and I turned the ans!ering machine on………………………

Chapter 47

EBeepE4m..hello" Is this the $un house"..!ell..umm……………I’m sorry to say itbut…'ric $un !as killed during a gang fight….............he died on the !ayto ark hospital... !ell…bye…EclickE

I stood there…the message hadn’t registered into my brain yet..

9$y brother"......the hospital"....!hy is he there""....!ait did that guysay died" &ho died""9

0hen I realied !hat happened…my brother !as gone. I stood there not sayinganything. $in!oo 8uietly said%Sky…are you ok"""",I couldn’t hear him that !ell…his oice sounded fuy…eerything around me!as getting fuy…..I shook my head and said%3ea….i’m fine………………………..,

I ran upstairs and slammed my door shut. I didn’t kno! ho! to react. Ilooked around my room not sure !hat to do. 0hen I dug my face into my pillo!

and started screaming. I realied I !ould neer see 'ric again# I !ouldneer hear his oice anymore. e !ouldn’t be able to !atch oer me anymore.$y big brother !as gone……

Chapter 48

I heard someone knocking on my door. I took my face out of my pillo! andsaid%;ome in..,


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$in!oo came into my room. e sat on the edge of my bed and said%3ou alright",I looked at him and said%3ea…!hy !ouldn’t I be" I’m fine..,$in!oo looked at me !ith an unsure look. I smiled to proe that I !asalright. 5othing felt different I didn’t !ant to cry. $y brother !ouldn’t!ant me to cry oer him. I looked at $in!oo and said%$in!oo# I’m FI5'…don’t !orry bout me…,$in!oo looked at me and then said%I lost someone I really cared for before….,I looked at $in!oo# he looked a!ay from my gae and looked do!n at the bed.0here !as a !eird silence for a couple of seconds. e looked back up at meand said%If you need anybody to talk to# you can come to me..,0hen he got up and left.I stretched out on my bed and hugged my pillo! tight and looked out the!indo!.I looked out at the stars and !ondered if my brother !as in a better placeno!…

9 I miss you oppa..9

Chapter 49

0he ne-t morning I got a phone call saying my mom !as on her !ay home. Idecided to stay at home instead of going to school. I heard $in!oo leaingon his motorcycle to school. I !as bored and didn’t kno! !hat to do. I !entoer to the cabinets and took out the family photo album and looked at thepictures. 0here !ere seeral pictures of my brother# mom and me. I found apicture of my brother and me. I didn’t hae my t!o front teeth and I had ahuge stuffed animal in my hands. 'ric !as standing ne-t to me !ith a huge

ice cream cone and candy spilling out of his pockets. 'ric !as about H yearsold in that picture.

I smiled and !as beginning to remember that day. It !as the day !e !ent tothe carnial. 'ric had !on me the huge stuffed teddy bear and I gae 'ricall of the candy I got. &e rode all the rides until I thre! up on the )ragonS!ing ride.It !as a fun day. 0hat !as probably the best day !e had eery spenttogether. I held onto the picture and put it in a picture frame.

0hen I realied ho! little time my brother and I spent after he !ent intohigh school. I guess !e didn’t hae enough time for each other. I sighed.5othing fe

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