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    Ngurom Hnkvor

    Gch so mo prhbulka

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    Bojhro K jgnn

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    Yhsvoomh usphaomk mg Toahmg Oakng Cmulsomg KK

    Yotor, fvgng tk th sk ak lgh moco hl ahekf mgebhnekf tromutgcg.

    Molhstgeo ak.

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    Eh eo ulmkeo bknh th th sah motha prkeo aheo sartk rgz`hvgrgno h thao cgch kz nolg tromutgcuakrgmeg. Mo zmga thmh cgch sah lhno lh th`g, seoga so sgah lg ak eo Onhly prk`hvhrkng zgth th souvkeoc vhzka mg suvhzgcha seolgnu, g mkcglg so mo onka vozgtk. Ttgnmh so sg zglmeo seolgng mg`kmegng

    proag mgprkeol k prcgng ph Nkmlsgymu kYhlu, kgch sga eg, cgh suvhzg, trobgng bkrgtk `ngzbu. Yhcugngsga ka hbegsmktk svheu tohrkeu h =mgebhneka tromudkag> cheo phmhvmh prhkvnegvg prkeo sartk, pg sah svophono hlgbkrgtk svheo. Nkmlsgy eo hlgbrgng hmge u cheoa eo sgzmgng lg su eo prkaknk mg Luco7, g Gnny, cheg

    so, bg cgh k uvkeoc, gnkng mg profnglu k cnong so lg o uarkeotk hl upgno pnug, prostgng eo s tka tgagm thnkchlg mga cgo cgch bk vrnh rglh lhvkeocg phmhvmh prhkvnegvgng tromutgc cglg so spotnegng s AgtthaPknloha, th mgs uhpo mkeo kzmomglknh. Nkmlsgy k Onhly su pukno, pg mgs eo crhz phnuhtvhromo prhzhro

    prscgng nolomg ckg, g uscg eo dostg vkeu gng phl crhmegag cheo su so svkegno phl mgnotkag veotrg, cgh lgpnou.

    Onhly eo pustkng peosau Tpnkmtor Jgnngdyeg sgah lg bk rgzneutkng Gnny eor ehe eo hvg veorhegtmh kng mgkvdo zbh` moprocklmh comecgmeg, g zmgng eo lg eo th bkng Gnnymg k Agtthvg peosag lhc su bknk zgeolmh, prkeomo`h th eu eo u ruemu mgpudgh. Gnny ehe eo mgth rocng lg eo glurg, htchpgng eo phegs, mg`mung so proagmgprkeol k phcugng u`rgbktk kYhl, Nkmlsgy so phgnkng lg ehe motch zgbkeg ngcgt u nolg, dk`grotg ehe eo kz ustgkspgng kzaou butkmg, pg so kzvkng k phcugng htrostk gr sg seolgng.Onhly k Gnny k lgneo su so svggno, eg sga

    kf phcugvgng mgl`ngsgtk, phlseogeuk kf mg smeomo gmono cheo sah phcugno mgkmktk u trgvk, guthahbkneo agnh scnkzmuh mg ahcrhe dostk k dkeong eo cgbkmg bkng pumg dk grotmh` lkag3 vkeu gvkf crgchvg mgnkc mgprhzrgmo prkcgzo.

    G hmlg eo moth bkeonh zgbneosmunh crhz veotrhbrgm.Nkmlsgy eo vkcmung moth th mksga uspeong rgzgbrgtk5srgmeo knk stgmk, mo zmga, k guth so hleolmha strah ngvkh s dosto u argmu uau. Ugung sga eozkvu crkpuaotgng u lhlkru s aotgnha, rgzbkegmeo stgcng, guthahbkn so prosgvkh mgphng k zgtka sga mgakrksgng vgtru.

    Kagng sga toc thnkch vroaomg lg so zgpktga eo nkNkmlsgy uspeong u gsktk dk grotu.

    G hmlg ak eo prol hk, rgvmh kz prhnhstk, kzrhmknh nkdo Zkdcy Fgnnkmgm. Tvulg hch aomo hlzvgmegh eosakeof k phngch so protvgrgh u vrksgc.

    K hmlg eo mgstupknh mktgvknh.

    Mktg vgs mg th mo aho prkproaktk. Mooto so ueutrh prhbulktk s roa u onudu mk nhka prolhseogeoa,moo vga so ucgzgtk ulmo seomo mg aeostkag `leo kf mo bk trobgnh bktk k mooto so seotktk rhlktonekag eh

    eolgmput rok lg kf vhnkto. Ahlg kf, cgh eg, mooto mk phzlrgvktk.

    Gch sto kagnh mgnkc mg aomo, prhbulkt oto so solga akmutg k

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    Yrvh ph`ngvneo

    Bk-bkkkp! vko Nkmlsgy prol cuha. Aheg ehe eo agecg prkeo mochnkch teolgmg prk`hvhrkngzbh` th`g eor svgch`g eutrg u pot lh solga trubk prol cuha ch agmkegc, pg sglg th vko mokmk, gnk eo saksnkng lru`h reoomeo.

    Ovh ao! vkoa, kgch vrnh lhbrh vklk lg kzngzka crhz vrgtg, mgvngka cgput k `urga agpu uthrbu.

    _ zglmeoa ao tromutcu zg rucgv vuo aheg hsah`hlkmeg sostrg Kzzy.

    th eo8 hcrooa so. Cgtcgl kaga lhega cgh lg phsthek mock rglgr phahu cheo`g angosostro prophzmgeu tromutco u chekag su ka stgrkeo sostro zguzoto, u urbk knk cglg rgz`hvgrgeu mgtonojhm s locha eor Kzzy ao uvkeoc megvk bg u tgcvka hchnmhstkag.

    Ugbhrgvkng sk rucgvkdo, cgo, kgch zvuk cgh lg eo rocng5 Ugbhrgvkng jk rucgvkjo. Mo onkhtkk nh`hpolu zbh` jrjnegmeg, kgch ehe so svk cnkmdk u rgzrolu ru`geu. \vrlk lg ehe so bg svkgcgch hvhrk.

    Kz rucu ehe uzkaga cgakrsco rucgvkdo ph chekag eo sk`urmh rgzarnegng agsngd hl ckckrkckegknk moth snkmh. Zeokth uago prsto u stgcnomco.

    @hvhrka tk vo sthtk put, cgoa, upkruk ehe cgkprst u onh, mo lkrge aheo stvgrk. Fkfhocgh lg eo agnhuamg, pg eo `urga umutrg k zgtvgrga vrgtg. Lg eo ph meozkmu, prgtkng bk ao dkeonklgm phput pskg.

    Cglg mgphchm kzngzka prol cuu, Nkmlsgy so vo mg kmeo crhz prhzhr tomcg. \gch, mgkao,zhvoah meozkm guth, `hnoa srobrmk Rgm`o Rhvor, zg chek neulk stgnmh `hvhro lg mkeo guth mo`hcgakhm, g Nkmlsgy tvrlk lg bk so ah`ng jrhmtgnmh zgbktk u nopor to kz th` sulgrg kzkk bozh`robhtkmo. Hmg k Gnny eolkmo su srotmkdo hl mgs otkrkeu cheo kageu vngstkto guthahbkno. Gnny kag

    ageumu drmu Eottu cheu zhvoah Agnk eg, eg cgtcgl phsulka agakmu Fhmlu Gddhrl, g skrhtgOnhly ahrg so bgctgtk s tgtkmka prgstgrka Jhrlha \gurusha chek so eolvg croo ph dostk.

    Fnglmh eo, kgch mg mobu moag mk hbngcg. Tumdo eo toc kzknh k eh eo mocgch sngbh kvhlomgsth, cgh lg so uprgvh rgznknh ph fhrkzhmtu k pronkeomh eo lg bk so uaknh. \keocha lgmgmgegvneueu hnueu, gnk hmg so eh mk ph oau mo mgzkro.

    _ngzka mg suvhzgch seolgnh. Nkmlsgy vo puk k vrcha ak dk`groto phcgzueo cgvu kzLumckm Lhmutsg2 cheu ak eo cupkng.

    Yodkvh8 pktga.

    Htrg`g.

    Tg sozgaha8

    Mgrgvmh, `hvhrk k lhc kzngzk s prkngzg ahehe cuk, hlaeorgvg ao hl `ngvo lh poto. Lhbrgsucmeg, cgo.

    K tvheg ksth.

    Ckag `ngvha uaeosth hl`hvhrg eor zgprgvh mhskah kstu sucmeu. Nkmlsgy, Gnny, Onhly k egsgah so lvgput `hlkmeo mgaeormh hlkeovgah eolmgch. Eolgmput zg Lgm pklgag tkeocha teolmglufhvg, eor sah svo cupkno lrgosmo chapnotko u Zkdthrkgs Todrot prhnh`g Bhkg, g lru`k putzg Zgnomtkmha \rk sah so sgtg u tr`hvgcha domtru svggno hch th`g fhoah nk moth rukgsthknk drvomh eor Nkmlsgy arzk rukgstu bheu, g Gnny eo stgnmh mhsk. Mgphchm sah hlgbrgno drmo

    akmkdo k drvomo agekdo boz rucgvg hbrubneomo crzmha cheo sah mgno mg rgsprhlgek u

    2 Gaorkck ngmgd pocgrmkdg s crgjmgag, podkvkag k cgvha

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    Mhrlsthrau.

    Cgh th rochf, th su eolkmg lvg lgmg cglg so mgaeormh hbngkah eolmgch, gnk prgvg eo kstkmg lgso u ahehe `kamgzkek \fhagsg Eojjorshmg svk vko-agmeo hlkeovgeu ksth. Mo, moagah umkjhrao,rkeo eo h egvmhe chnk, gnk mg lovot hl losot uomkcg boz suameo oto spgzktk ksto trgporkdo, kstoskvo tomkskdo, bkeono agekdo k rgzmhbhemo Mhrtf Jgdohvo jnkshvo. gc k moag moco vonkco rgznkco

    kzaou hlkeovgmeg u leovhegcg k ahagcg, hska ahlg th`g lg su mgo trgporkdo moth uo ksvgck lgm jomkrgah chsu. Kpgc kvkah u Dhmmodtkdutu, g hvleo eo ucngpgmeo u hchnkmuprovnglgvgeuk stkn kvhtg.

    Yrktha mo phcugvga rok lg k ak moagah svheo ulgco. Kagah, mgrgvmh, gnk gc su k tkulgdk ulmk mg kstk mgkm. Och-agmkegdk svgch`g lgmg u chnu stku bkdkcnkag, mhso hleousgkvomu hl chmhpneo k mo poru chsu, cgh lg o ka lroglnhdcsk mocgch phahk u sagmekvgmeuoakskeo stgcnomkckf pnkmhvg. Crgnekdo lrgao veokth uzg so mhso bhkdo geg s nkaumha, dkeonu`hlkmu vrgt hagtgeu gnhvkag k mo `hvhro mg mgstgvk eor uvgeu `ngs, g agtoagtkck `omkegndkuvkeoc mhso losot putg vko cmek`g hl hstgnkf uomkcg, eh so uvkeoc chrksto hragrkkag u fhlmkcuto stgnmh leonueu phagnh upngomh, cgh lg sgah ocgeu cglg o kf motch zgschktk k vrksmutk5Bu!

    Mo saotg ak th. T Nkmlsgy cgtcgl agtga h thao cgch oah mgchm agturo phbeok u Mow[hrc k hmleo so prkvroaomh mgstgmktk chl eolmh` vngsmkcg sgnhmg zg tothvkrgmeo cheo` phzmgeomeozkm phnubrgt, gnk phtgemh ak so svkg kvht u Rkl`ovkowu. Mocgch eo uteogm, gch aorgzuakeoto.

    Mg`kmeoa so proag mgprkeol k phcugvga tropgvkdo proagzgtk agscgrha, g lg sk prktha mokschpga hch. Nkmlsgy eo phzmgtg cgh mohprozmg vhzgkdg, pg osth trzg vhngmha, mg nh chk knkcroo.

    Ygtrkdcu bk bknh bhneo lg ak phgneo ruu, `hvhrk eurok crhz eolgm zmgc hbvozmh`zgustgvnegmeg to ak zgtka uagnh nhak vrgt eor mg sneolooa mg nh prktko chmkdu. Ygtrkdc eo

    ahagc s cheka Nkmlsgy agnh fhlg, g agnh mo, g hl photcg su chnsco `hlkmo prockmunk vorochrlmkf trkmgost putg.

    Ahrgng sga seolktk crge Rhbg lhc sah kspumegvgnk hbrgsdo zg zgfteov, chnutga hkag.Bknh ak eo cgh mg prksknmha rglu.

    Fhlga s Rhbha Dhcrgmha hl nksthpglg, gnk zgneubneomg sga u meo`g hl osth` rgzrolg, cglgeo bkh provko dhhnlg bk ak so uhpo hbrgtkh. Yrvk eo ahagc u cheo` sga so zgneubkng, hska gchmo rgumgah Comtg AdJunnorg cheo`g sga phneubkng u trooa rgzrolu k s cheka sga rgzakeomkng

    prstomeo mgkmeomh hl agsnggcg, pg sah so hmlg prgvknk lg sah au k omg.

    Yrhno sga `hlkmo lhbkng lvglosot lvkeo ruo, Nkmlsgy kzbgdueo hpugc crhz prhzhr kmg`kmeo so proag mgprkeol lg bk srcmung cgvu. Hvo `hlkmo kloa mg lvglosot pot.

    Tvgco `hlkmo prkeo Zgnomtkmhvg vkeoo uomkcg phstgvneg tgml prol `kamgstkcha lvhrgmha.Hmleo zg lvg lhngrg svheka prkegtonekag ahoto cupktk vgnh`rgao, hlmhsmh ruo s prkvromka

    pgpkrkkag zg phruco. Ruo lhstgvnegeu uomkdo hleovomo u Cupklg (hbkmh duro kz prvh` knklru`h` rgzrolg cheo so mgstheo prkbnkktk stgrkehe ockpk), k th kmo dkeonk lgm.

    Aomk eo lhvhnemh potmgost, cgoa. Tvkag eo vrnh vgmh chnkch o rug lhbktk eor so ph thaochnkch rug mhsk vklk eo nk uomkc phpungrgm knk mkeo. Nho eo vo k gch lhbkeo agmeo hl losotrug, g lhbkeo nk kf agmeo hl pot, th eo vo phmkomeo eor `hvhrk lg sk rumg knk lg to mktch mo zmg,g veorhegtmh hbheo. Mock cgtcgl scupnegeu hlbgomo ruo mo bk nk kf mhsknk uhchnh, gnk thmh sovklk lg su th ukmknk.

    Mh lhbrh, uz zmgchvkt ak ph`nol lhbgdueo Nkmlsgy. Eosk nk uzbuomg8 Lgmgs eo vonkc lgm.Yroakeorg, sakeo so. Boz rumkf prkaksnk, gsmg rkeo.

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    Tnkeooa rgaomkag k hcrooa so proag prhzhru, `nolgeuk cgch ak so lgf nolk mg hcmu.Mktg phsobmh, hl`hvgrga. Rhb eo hvge vkcoml sga chl cuo eor au rhlktonek mocgah hlngzo,

    pg ao prkeo mochnkch teolgmg upktgh fhu nk prospgvgtk chl meo`g. Umga lg prktha aksnk mg socs.Zo sah so mochnkch putg `hthvh phsocsgnk, gnk zglmeo seolgnh BAP-g meo`hvg hdg, phlruascoshbkdo mgkf chno`g knk lmovmk bhrgvgc mgl cheka spgvgeu ahek rhlktonek mocgch ak mksu hlksgnk

    prgvka hzrgeoa zg th.

    Ugth sga, cglg ao upktgh onka nk prospgvgtk chl meo`g, prkstgng boz rgzaknegmeg.

    Nkmlsgy uzbuomh scvkk k nupg lngmha h vhngm. Mktg phsobmh8 gnk so! Aheg leovhekdgmgphchm phstgeo omg!

    Ehe, lge, ahnka to. Zrukmg ak so pomeo uz vrgt k zmga lg o ak ph nkdu u sneolooatromutcu kzbktk drvomo arneo. Tvgck eo put tgch cglg ak eo mou`hlmh. Moag th` loragthnh`g,croao mk pulorg u dkeonha Dhmmodtkdutu chek bk ak phah`nk. _ leotkmestvu su ao lru`g leodgzglkrckvgng5 Cgch so zhvo bneolhnkcg moagm s drvomka arnegag8 Tga Ckm`sthm!

    Hlagfueoa `ngvha k brkoa zgag`neomu thcu s prhzhrg. Zgmk svo bnkstg, cgh lg eo dkeonksvkeot proagzgm ngtknha. Cglg sto th uhpo tk k Ygtrkdc prvk put ukmknk8 pktga. Yrkeo trk

    aeosodg, zgr mo8Lg, hlvrgg k zgtka so zgmeko u seolgnu, hphmggeuk hpsdomo phcroto. Ugth sglg stgnmh

    mglhcmgueoah prhputomh.

    Jue.

    Mktg so mo brkmk, agng. Tvo o bktk u rolu.

    Yrostgmk ao zvgtk agng, cgoa. _prgvh eo th eolgm hl rgznh`g zbh` chekf sga srotmg th uso voorgs phsocsgtk s Rhbha5 lg ao Nkmlsgy k Onhly prostgmu zglkrckvgtk. G k Gnny eo, sroha,

    eh uvkeoc leovkdg, pg mou bktk zglmeg. Cgtcgl ak so, mgkao, kmk lg veokth zghstgeoa zg svhekatrkag prkegtonekdgag knk cgh lg sga ka so sgah prkcrpgng. Rocng sga tk vo lg mo rglk vonkcu

    prolstgvu hch th`g._ rolu, gch tk tgch cgo.

    Ubh` meozkmkf sga rkeok moakrmg, pg brheka phtgmsco sgmluko usput k pktga so fho nk aksutrg svo kz`nolgtk lru`gkeo k fho nk neulk mg aomk prkakeotktk prhaeomu. Mglga so lg fho.

    Ugustgvnegah so prol Onhlymha cuha k prkeo mo`h th Nkmlsgy uspkeovg zgtrubktk, htvgrgeuso ungzmg vrgtg k Onhly croo mkz zgnoomk prkngz, mgbglgeuk u phtpotkdgag hl hsga domtkaotgrgcgh lg ehe so mocgah sknmh urk.

    Zklo tk so brglgvkdo hl fnglmho, `hvhrk Nkmlsgy lhc so Onhly uvngk mg strgmeo seolgnh.Cgh k hbkmh, proch hleoo eo probgdkng sgah tgmcu chmu egcmu, kgch su mg prh`mhzk rocnk lg

    toaporgturg moo prkeok pot stupmeovg.Yg k kaga kf zgth lg kf phcgzueoa, hl`hvgrg Onhly, troso `rulkag k svo trk prgsmoah u

    sakeof. Kag phsobgm lgr rgzbkegmeg svgco mgpothstk, pg so k ahe vhr kz onudg u tha tromutcurgspnko.

    Rucha phsoo proag mgprkeol, pg ehe lhlgeoa cgvu. Tvo otkrk pkeoah kstu vrstu5 vonkcu, sneomegcha, boz oorg k s pumh ankeocg.

    Ygzk lg mo seolmo mg podkvh, u rotrhvkzhru ehe so artk Nkmlsgy.

    Fgelo, fgelo, ph `uzk so pneoo Onhly, svk zmgah lg bk ao mgerglkeo u`rkzng zg lupo.Tvo so sakeoah.

    Tguvge th zg Chngkg, uspgneomkdo eolmg, hl`hvgrg ehe Nkmlsgy.

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    Onhlymg so zglmeg rtvg zhvo Ttovo Lhu`f, gnk hmg `g zhvo Chngk zbh` prozkaomg4 k zgthth eo prosnglgc (knk bgroa tgch hmg cgo5 aomk eo mocgch proagstgm k uvkeoc sarlk phagrkfugmk). Fhlgeu hch aeosod k phn.

    Onhly eo mgekscusmkeg aou mgag. Kz`ubkng eo movkmhst u lru`ha srolmeo k vo so socsgng slvhekdha ahagcg. Tvheolhbmh ak eo rocng lg eu eo bhneonh gc prvkf mochnkch putg, pg sga zbh`

    th`g sglg eh morvhzmkeg. Ahlg zvuk `nuph, gnk prkeo h socsu mksga rgzaknegng cgh h jkzkchegctkvmhstk, mooau th bk ah`nh kzgzvgtk bhn mgnkc mg hmu mgchm k`rgmeg mh`haotg knk egfgmeg.Bheka so lg mou zmgtk th ukmktk, bg cgh cglg sah mg teonosmha k`rgnk chgrcu, pg mkcglgmksga ah`ng zgpgatktk ch`g trobga uvgtk, cglg trobga lhlgtk nhptu, g cglg lrkbngtk.

    Gf, Chngk ahe... Onhly so fvgtg zg trbuf. Bg sga nglmg.

    Cupknk sah tk podkvh, cgoa.

    Tg sozgaha8 pktg

    Mgrgvmh, hl`hvgrga ehe ksthlhbmh s Nkmlsgy, pg ak hvg mgak`ueo.

    Yrkeo ungscg mg chnsch pgrckrgnkto sputgah prhzhro k `ngsmh putgah peosau Mh Ahro

    Lrgag Agry E. Bnk`o. Ugtvgrga hk k prkseoga so chnsch`g pnosg mg cheoa sga so prvk putphneubkng s Rhbha. Yrkvucgh ao c sobk, usmkdo su mga so sphekno, zgvucgh eo eozkc phl ahe, g egsga hleolmha hseotkng vrukmu svkf rgzmhbhemkf sveotgng u lvhrgmk k `ngzbg ak eo hlzvgmegng phlrobrkag, srdo phscgckvgnh k thpknh so. Hl fnglmh`g ao zrgcg chek ungzk crhz prhzhro bhnk `rnh, g`ngsmk thmhvk bgsg ungzo ak crhz sthpgng bg cgh k hmlg mg chnschao pnosu, u mgesrotmkeoatromutcu aheo`g kvhtg. Hseoge so pomeo lh `ngvo k hleolmha ak so vrtk k kaga hseoge cgh lgo so guthahbkn rgsphnhvktk phl mgvgnha zvucg.

    YHY_NGRMHT\5 GMGNKUG

    Yhpungrmhst eo ulmg stvgr. Mo aho so thmh lojkmkrgtk, g k mkeo bg jhrg prkgtk h mehe, gnk svkeo boz kzmkaco prophzmgeoah u stvgrmhstk, cgh rgzrhchst knk phrmh`rgjkeu.

    Nkmlsgy eo procrgsmg, gnk ak, prohstgno trk kz cvglro, mksah moth phsobmh. Aheo su lhbrostrgmo vonkco, zonomo hk, rgvmk, bkeonk zubk, vkshco eg`hlkdo k lu`o mh`o. Nho eo th kaga prolu`mhs, nkdo ak so, cglg sga morvhzmg, hspo u drvomka arnegag, g kaga k pnhsmgtu `uzkdu.

    Bodcy LkJkhro eo, s lru`o strgmo, eolmgch nkeopg cgh k Nkmlsgy, g mktch eo mkcglg mkeo phzvghmg sphe prkeo chnsch`g pnosg u trooa srolmeo. Gnny kag vonkco skso, g eg eolvg lg kf kaga, pgao Nkmlsgy, cglg eo nho rgsphnhomg, zhvo Tgauon uaeosth Tga knk Tgagmtfg. Mksah sgvromo,kz ustg mga mo akrko ph neubkkdgag mktk ktg mgnkc mg th. Nkmlsgy so eolgmput gc u aomzk s

    Ehmgfha Tgsmhjjha mgteodgng u phlrk`kvgmeu, zbh` o`g su ehe svk pneoscgnk, Onhly cgtcgl uchnu lhngzk u audgstka utka pgpugag, g eg sga so eolgmput mg sgtu lrutvomkf zmgmhstk

    phong sakegtk tgcvka `rhfhtha lg sga Egcog Thaorsg dkeonh` zgpneuvgng cgvha s ankeocha.Aeosod lgmg mgchm th`g phlrpgnk sah so u upk Nkny Gm nor (bkh eo oprtneg).

    Mgag so, aoutka, svk tgcvk kmdklomtk hprgtgeu. Umgto zgth8

    Ugth th sah phpungrmo. G phpungrmo sah zgth th mga so tgcvk kmdklomtk hprgtgeu. Tvo so thvrtk u cru`.

    Gmgnkzkrgmeo mgs, fhu rok, moo lgnoch hlvostk. Gch mgdrtgto crumkdu, uvkeoc o moth bktkkzvgm meo, g moth u mehe. Eolkmh bulgno th mo sfvggeu. Ttvgrk su eolmhstgvmh tgcvo.

    Mou, aoutka, ng`gtk. Lrg`h ak eo th mga eo zbh` th`g svo ngco. Hseoge lg tk eo lhputomh

    4 om`n. lhu`f saeosg tkeostg zg poomeo.

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    10/201

    MGMG

    -79-

    svo k lg mktg th ukmk moo kagtk mkcgcvo phsneolkdo boz suameo eo lhbgr. Cglg mgphchmagturkrgah, srolmeo oah so chno prkseogtk cgh rgzlhbneg u cheoau sah svo ukmkno hmgchcgch k trobg5 neubkno sah so s mgez`hlmkeka lockag, kno sah mg mgebhneo tunuao, rglkno tgagmhmhnkch mophlhptkmg chnkch so hocueo, pro`ngsmh putgno `ngzbu, phpukno provko dk`grotg,

    provko pkno, provko so sakegno to proagnh (knk mkagnh) snugno th mga lru`k `hvhro. Lg eosrolmeg chng phcor, ah`nh bk so rok lg Nkmlsgy, Gnny, Onhly k eg u rucgag kagah bgroa 69

    phsth cgrgtg.

    Yrktha vrnh lhbrh zmga cgch eo s lru`o strgmo. Hmleo sga prhvong prvu phnhvkmu kvhtg3 mgsgahao lmu, mgeagmeo vgmg aou mgeagmeo vgmkag. Umga cgch eo cglg so tuo zg arvkdocheo pglgeu s vonkch` sthng.

    Tglg, aoutka, eoloa zg vonkcka sthnha. Yg th8 \gch eo kspgnh.

    kvht mkeo uvkeoc phtom.

    Mg pgrckrgnkto ungzkah thmh losot akmutg prkeo prvh`g chnsch` zvhmg. Nkmlsgy crooproag lhmeoa pgrckrgnktu, `leo su aeostg zg prhjoshro, k prol meha so rgzako `rupkdgleovhegcg kz lru`h` rgzrolg. Ksphl cgputg ka vkro drvomh-bkeono kpcgsto fgnekmo, g eolmg gc

    mhsk tkegru. Lojkmktkvmh sah uno aou Cupklo.Lge, lge, lge, araneg Nkmlsgy lhc prkngzkah `kamgstkche lvhrgmk. Hmleo so mgngzo eolkmg

    pgrckrmg aeostg mg lhmeoa pgrckrgnktu cheg mksu rozorvkrgmg zg prhjoshro, pg tge phtoz mgzkvgahagturgmtscka, kgch Nkmlsgy hmleo pgrckrg eh hl troo` rgzrolg. Rkeo eo h mgebhneka

    pgrckrgnkmka aeostkag u srolmehe chnk \fhagsg Eojjorshmg, g gch so mo uspkeoto u`urgtk mk mgeolmh hl sgah lvglosot, ahrgto so zglhvhnektk `hrmeka pgrckrgnktoa, cheo eo ktgvg 4?< aotrgulgneomh hl chnsch`g ungzg. Eolmha sah thmh kzaeorkno, pg sglg svgck put cglg sphakmeoah`hrmeo pgrckrgnkto, chrkstkah tge phlgtgc. Yrkaeorkdo5 onk nk lhkstg fhlgtk 4?< aotrg ph hvheckk8

    Nkmlsgy rglhsmh scvkk cglg spgzk snhbhlmh aeosth k mg`nh hcroo vhngm unkeovh, gnk kzsuprhtmh`g saeorg unkeoo Tgrgf @rumlon sg svheka saoka Dfovrhnotha.

    O, bh`ao moo! Moag gmso! vko Nkmlsgy k smgmh prktko trubu, kgch eo Tgrgf hmgahlhng prkeo mgs. Ugtka `gzk ph gsu, pg Onhly vrktk eor ehe so vrug cgvg prhnkeovg ph bnuzk. _kak pgrg ngsmh crkpgmeo `uag eor Tgrgf @rumlon mg`nh stgeo mg chmkdu, g Nkmlsgym ehe guthhlngag brgmkc.

    Tupor, zglhvhnemh `hvhrk Nkmlsgy k pgrckrg to phvngk rumu chmkdu. Ugtka htvgrg vrgtg kmg`kmeo so vgm.

    Hprhstk, lrg`g, lhbgdueo Tgrk. Mksga to vkleong.

    Mgrgvmh lg ngo.

    Ag, lkvmh, `hvhrk Onhly lhc brko cgvu s bnuzo z`uvgmka ubrusha kz Lumckm Lhmutsg.Tgl o ak dkeonk lgm skso akrksgtk ph neomegcu.

    Lockag so svkg cglg akrko ph frgmk, lhbgdueoa. ktgng sga u @ngauru.

    _`urge sk cocs u `go, pg o to Chngk veorhegtmh phvgnktk prkeo sgtg lhagkmstvg, lhlgeoNkmlsgy k sputg rotrhvkzhr, mo bk nk u meoau prhveorkng akmcu.

    Ahlg bk k tk trobgng phcugtk moth snkmh s Rhbha, Tgaay, `hvhrk ak Onhly k lhbgdueoahcru, z`uvgmu sgnvotu. Hlagf ehe eo vrgga mgtrg`.

    th eo8 sakeo so. Mksk vgnelg aksnkng lg u zgbhrgvktk th eo voorgs. Ugvngk rucu u thrbu,

    pg ak lhbgdueo z`uvgmk pgcotk chmlhag uz kek so hahtg prknkeopknh mochnkch arvkdg lufgmg.Nkmlsgy so sakeo.

    Bosrgamkdo, `hvhrka k s lvg prstg prkaga chmlha, ubgdueuk `g u Nkmlsgym protkmgd zg

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    11/201

    MGMG

    -77-

    rucgvkdo. Hl sgah`g ak so lhlkrg mgpkmeu kvdk k prohcroo onulgd. Mkcglg mksga sfvggngzgth so chmlhak pgckrgeu u to agno pgcotko hahtgmo donhjgmha. Kz`nolgeu crgemeo cnkmkck, cghmoch srolstvh cheo bk vga nkeomkc prhpksgh zg gnor`keu knk prhbgvmo saotmeo.

    Moag ovo boz `uakdo, `hvhrk Onhly, mg`kmeo so k neubk ao u hbrgz, hstgvnegeuk mg meoauvonkc htksgc rukgsth` segekng.

    Fgelo, kloah, kzngzka kz guthahbkng prkeo mo`h th ak spgzo drvomknh mg nkdu.Yrhjoshr Tfgw, chek prolgeo teonosmk, sthek prol lvhrgmha lhc kzngzkah kz gutg k veorhegtmh

    mga bunek u `uzkdo. Onhly aksnk lg eo phsobmh trgkh lg au cgbkmot saeosto phcrge omscosvngkhmkdo zgth lg bk ah`gh kmstgnkrgtk cgaoru k prhagtrgtk mgs mg rgumgnu lhc sah mg zgfhlu.oau bk au kmgo rgumgnh uhpo snuknh8 Yrolgeo teonosmk! Tglg ao zbh` meozkmkf tohrkeg svgck

    put cgl pkcka u zgfhlu chl lvhrgmo fvgtg pgrgmheg.

    Anglo lgao, phurkto agnh! lhvkcueo mga. Hska th prolgeo teonosmk, tromor eo chnscomh`haotmo ahaglk, th eo sakeomh eor sga veorhegtmh mo bk ah`gh protrgtk mk lvglosotaotgrg. Kz`nolg cgh ahr. gc kag k brchvo. Moaheto lg vgs ahrga zgpksgtk zbh` cgmeomeg,lhlgeo.

    Moaheto lg vgs kznupga ph lupotu, kaktkrga meo`hv mohbkmh vkshc `ngs, zbh` cheo`g `gOnhly tgchor prhzkvg polhjknha. Onhly k Nkmlsgy so sakeu.

    Tgah eh lvkeo akmuto lh zvhmg, htrh mga lhvkcueo Tfgw. Ahlg ao uh. Ugprgvh aomkeo brk`g.

    Trotgm mga potgc, araneg Nkmlsgy k fvgtg ao phl rucu.

    Onhly eo kzvglkng ahbkton kz thrbo, pg u meo`hvhe segemhe phzglkmk `nolg hlrgz svhekf zubk,kstok kz mekf seoaomco sozgag mhctha mg agnha prstu.

    Cheo srgmeo, `umg, mo lkuk ph`nol.

    \htgnmh, lhlgeoa. Yotcha mga chng mgetoo pglg eor su vkcoml k snhbhlg mglhfvgt ruco._bke ao meomh.

    Moag gmso, zg rucu ao stko Nkmlsgy. Aheg mgebhneg prkegtonekdg mo sakeo uarkeotk cghleovkdg.

    Mksah kagno pheag, mgkao.

    \keocha prvg lvg sgtg nkchvmh` k gaorkco phvkeostk zg mgprolmo (hluvkeoc sga vhneongphvkeost) lhbkvga sgah pot rug. Mksga provko zgbrkmutg, kgch ak klo mg kvdo th OknoomDfhh lhbkvg otkrk ruo hl svheo`g locg, Kgmg Lhwong. Aomk, prkaeorkdo, uhpo mkeo pgnh mg

    pgaot lg tgcvh th trgka hl Rhbg, g k mo kmk ak so phtomka. Neulk bk ah`nk phaksnktk lg kag

    vko prkegtoneg mo`h th kf lhkstg kag.Mg coakek mga prhjoshr \kormoy lgeo momgegvneomk tost, th eo phvonkc prhbnoa eor, zg photgc,

    vo otkrk teolmg uhpo mo rgzuakeoa hmh th mga zglgeo zg zglgu (u rolu, prkzmgeoa lg sga somgchm prvh`g teolmg prostgng trulktk), gnk k \kormoy so stgnmh prkeotk lg o mgo nho hdeomo lhegvktk

    prkegamka hlbhrkag mg jgcuntotkag eor mgs vonkc lkh eh mkeo prkaneom mk mg eolmh svouknkto. Mozmga aksnk nk hzbknemh knk sgah mgsthek agturgmto lrgtk phl chmtrhnha, gnk mkcgch mo onka lg aktge jgkst umktk kz`nolo zg upks mg bhsthmsch svouknkto.

    Eh eo `hro th th seolka lh Ngurom Nhrmot cheg ahlg eolkmg u rgzrolu kag agmeo pheag hcoakek mo`h eg.

    Aheo su hdeomo kz coakeo, lhluo, hvo `hlkmo prknkmh lhbro, gnk thau mkeo tgch zgth th sga

    hleolmha prhmkcmung tgemu kmtorgcdkeo prhthmg k onoctrhmg. Yrhseoc ?,9 hlrgvga zgfvgneueukEoroayeu Bgnnu, chek eo argvkek hl aomo k kz ustg au uvkeoc sarlk ph cucuruzmka pgfunekdgag,gnk ak lhputg lg hl meo`g propksueoa zglgo k tosthvo. gc k moprkaeotmh prkbnkgvg svheu cnupu

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    12/201

    MGMG

    -72-

    ahehe. Mh, lgmgs sga, mg mosrou, prkeo coakeo htkng mg zgfhl k hmleo prhgscgng s Gnny uvkeoc so sgstgeoah u zgfhlu prkeo otvrth` sgtg eor hmg kag bkhnh`keu u ksth vrkeoao cglg egcoakeu pg sga mg sgt lhng procgsmh k vko mksga uspeong ufvgtktk aeosth lh Eoroayeg.

    \kormoy mga zglgeo trk zglgtcg k thnkch su ak moegsmk lg mo ah`u gc mk saunegtk hl`hvhro.Ngurom so phcrge aomo mglvkng mgl pgpkr k kspngzkng vrgc eozkcg crhz zubo. _vkeoc th kmk cgl

    rgzakneg. Hmh th eo mgpksgng phl prvka zglgtcha kz`nolg ak scrhz prksthemh. _stvgrk, svk ehehl`hvhrk kz`nolgeu urolmh k saksnomh, g mo cgh crgbgrkeo cgcvo neulk hbkmh pku cglg aunegeu kmglgeu so lg prhjoshrk moo prkakeotktk mozmgmeo gch mglrhbo lhvhnemh tocstg (mkcglg mouspkeovg). Yglg ak mg pgaot lg eo \kormoy prhnh`g teolmg Ngurom hlrgh prolgvgmeo h thaocgch ahrg moth ukmktk `nolo svhekf hdeomg, pg so pktga mkeo nk ahlg ukng vko mo`h hbkmh.

    Zkrka ehe proch rgaomg k propksueoa lvg hl`hvhrg. Yrknkmh sga veotg u propkskvgmeu5 kmkath suptknmh, gnk mo uspkeovga propksgtk trok eor \kormoy vko5 Eh sgah trkkkkk akmuto!Hbegvneueo th vrnh togtrgnmka thmha, cgh lg skmcrhmkzkrg drtk, g zbh` mgphrg au phlrftgvg

    phlbrglgc.

    Ngurom eo, kmk so, `hthvg k prhveorgvg hmh th eo mgpksgng, gnk mg`mung so mgl pgpkr k zgcnhmkng

    ak ph`nol, pg mo uspkeovga rgzgbrgtk trok hl`hvhr. Hkag prgtka cgch cgzgnecg zg socumloputueo phng cru`g hch sgtg. Lvkkkkkkeo akmuto k trkkkkkklosot socumlk! hbegvneueo \kormoy k eg somg th hlnuueoa ubhstk Ngurom hnhvcha. Ubumeomh lko ph`nol aksnka lg `hlkmgag s mehamksga prh`hvhrkng mk rkeok k u eolmhe socumlk nkdoa ehe prongzk kzrgz chek mkcgch mo ah`ulojkmkrgtk.

    Hnhvcg., `hvhrka ehe mouemh.

    Ubumeomg eo, pg bgdg zgbrkmut ph nol proag \kormoyeu, gnk hm eo, sroha, zgbkh mhs uulbomkc.

    Ahnka8 gpo.

    Yhcgzueoa ehe svheu coakescu, mgstheok promkeotk phrucu lg ehe eo phmostgnh tkmto. Tgahbnosgvh zurk u aomo, pg eo u eolmha tromutcu onka prkaktk zg rgaomg k prhtrostk. Lvkkkkkeoakmuuuuto! vko \kormoy k Nguromkmh so nkdo mgphchm hzgrk to so rglhsmh sakeok cgh lg eouprgvh htcrkng nkeoc prhtkv rgcg. Mo onka bktk bozhbrgzmg, gnk zbkneg eo `glmh cglg eo motchksthlhbmh trobor k `nup. Ugth so hmlg uhpo trulk8 Gch mksk `omkegngm pkegmkst chek svkrgBootfhvomg tgch lg svk uakru hl lkvhto, gch mo phbeoueo mg mgteodgmekag kz prgvhpksg k gch moupglg mg Fgrvgrl, oau troborge8

    Lhc Ngurom chpg ph thrbk, propksueoa hl meo k phsneolmek hl`hvhr. gc `hthvh k zgbhrgvnegalg sga eo zgtrgkng hnhvcu, pg ak ahrg lhgpmutk lg eu eo prhmgng.

    \rkkkkklosot socumlk.

    Kzvhnk.

    _zkaga coakescu k prkaeoueoa lg eo mg eolmhao crgeu kz`rkomg. Jue. _skneomh ehe sosakeoka k scrooa ph`nol, gnk mo prhngzk mk socumlg cgl ak gpo5 Rglk nk8

    Lhbgdueoa ehe ph`nol chek bk trobgh zmgktk lg ak klo mg kvdo, gnk `g hmg tuagk cgh lgmksga sfvgtkng pktgmeo.

    Coakescg. Rglk nk8 gpo moth `ngsmkeo.

    \kormoy mg th `ngsmh nupg ulbomkcha h sthn k dkeonk rgzrol phschk sg sthngdg.

    @hsphkdo Nhrmot, prkeochrmh lhbgdueo. T cka th rgz`hvgrgto tkeocha tostg8

    Nkdoa ehe so pronkeovg grch drvomknh, pgmkmh ph`nolgvg aomo, pg meo`g k hbnkzueo usmkdo. Egmo `hvhrka mktg.

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    13/201

    MGMG

    -74-

    Tgah sga... uspkeovg tkfh prhdkeolktk.

    Lhstg, ustgeo prhjoshr, tgch so argmh artok lg au usmkdo `hthvh thmu phl brglu. Crkgruco mg prskag k zbh` meo`hvg sga ubhektg ph`nolg uprtg u meu vo uveoromg lg eo so sproag`glmh kz`rlktk, gnk mo `hvhrk ehe mktg. Tgah dkeonha rgzrolu hbegvneueo5 Zrkeoao eo kstocnh.Hlnhkto hnhvco.

    Zrgga Ngurom coakescu, gnk hmg eo mo onk uzotk.Uglrk eo, cgo.

    Mo trobg, fvgng, hlvrgga, pg ehe, lrok eo sgah s lvg prstg, agoa hnhvcha mgl cnupha.Hmg pgc sgah crkg ruco mg nokag.

    Mo, hzbknemh, zglrk eo, `hvhrk. \robgt o tk zg bkneoco mg lru`ka sgthvkag. @nolg aocgh lg ak mulk cgcgv ulosgm lgr, g mo eojtkmu, zgbgngvneomu coakescu. Ahlg zbh` kzrgzg mgmeozkmu nkdu, g ahlg zbh` moo`g lru`h` hleolmha ak pglg mg pgaot cgch sah svheolhbmh, ulru`ha hsmhvmo, Ngurom k eg mg eolmha kznotu hstgno sgao mgchm th su svk lru k uomkdkhlgbrgnk pgrtmorg s cheka o fhlgtk u rolu. Ahrgno sah so lrgtk zg ruco dkeonk lgm, svgck put

    cglg bksah prongzknk dostu, k lngmhvk su ehe uvkeoc bknk zmhemk. Yktga so seog nk so th`g. Mglga solg mo.

    _skneomh so sakeoka k bgdga coakescu u thrbu. Takeo ak so hl ufg lh ufg. Bgdkt u eo kakzkoa kz ukhmkdo, mgrgvmh. \ch zmg cgcvo so svo bhnotkmo promhso snkmha.

    T lru`o strgmo, agag ak uvkeoc `hvhrk lg svgck lgm trobg ukmktk bgroa eolmh lhbrh leonh, pgdkeong tg opkzhlg ahlg k mkeo nhg. Eg sga svheo zg lgmgs hbgvkng.

    TG\ AG\OAG\KCO5 EH EOLMG NOCDKEG KU COAKEO

    otvrtk sgt kagah tgchzvgmo veotkmo prokvnegvgmeg, mg chekag mgs uo cgch rog`krgtk cglgsk lhvhnemh stgr lg bk to prksknmg jkzkcg gctkvmhst ah`ng lhvostk u hpgsmhst (Onhly sagtrg lg bkso tge prolaot, u kmtorosu thmhstk, trobgh zvgtk rhpstvh). Zeobgah prvu phah, th zmgk lgso prol prhjoshrha Tfgwha lrpgah s nutcgag u prkrhlmhe vonkkmk. Tgah eh eolgm phcgzgtonemeo`hvo porvorzkeo.

    Yotk sgt kaga agtoagtkcu k Cupklk mga lhngzo toc mochnkch socumlk mgchm zvhmg. Eolmg eohleovomg u segegm, drvomk trkch k mg `ngvu eo phsglkng vrgeo rh`hvo, lru`g vko mgnkcueo mgYngybhyovu knk uscrsmu zokdu u vkshcka potgag, g trog eo hleovomg cgh gmoh. Chstkak ka

    moageu vozo s Zgnomtkmhvka, gnk, cgh th rochf, dkne tgcvh` hlkeovgmeg eost lhlvhrgvgmeoahadkag kz vkkf rgzrolg. Mo hsuueoa kf. K ak sah th kmkno. Gnny eo tgch u prvha srolmeo lvgaeosodg fhlgng s Akcoha Fgrahmha, chek eo tglg kgh u otvrtk rgzrol, mgchm th au eolhstgvkng vgnh`rga, g hm ehe rocgh lg ehe `uzg supor kz nolg u tgekdgag. Yrgvg neubgv, moagsuameo.

    Zrgkdg ak prug trk ruo5 eolmu hl Onhly, eolmu hl \gro Jnuto, s cheha so cgtcgl lrukah, gcgtcgl mo, k eolmu hl Rhbg. Mgpglmh hlagtga cgrtkdu cheg eo hahtgmg hch potoneco k prgvka so

    phsobmh lkrmutha phrucha, kgch u mehe sgah pko5 Trotmh Zgnomtkmha Neubka to, g zgtka,moth sktmkeka snhvkag5 Tk srotmg sglg8

    Neubka to mkeo bg ksth th k vhnka to, th sk eh mkcglg mksah rocnk, gnk lhvhnemh eo bnkzu.

    Yrknkmh sga sk`urmg lg o ak th rok voorgs. Yrhnk sah teolgm seolknk mg meo`hvu cguu khleolmha so zg`nolgh u aomo to ao thnkch lu`h prhagtrgh lg sga bkng sk`urmg, gpshnutmhsk`urmg lg o ak kzegvktk neubgv, gnk hmlg ak eo sgah rocgh lg phl hlroomka cutha mgnkcueoa

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    MGMG

    -7

  • 7/22/2019 Ako Se Ne Probudim, Lauren Oliver

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    MGMG

    -7?-

    Zo sk lhbkng lovot rug 8 pktg, g toc eo 77.7?8 Tvgcg gst.

    th lg cgoa8 Hl`hvgrga au mgelrgosmkeka, chcotmka `ngsha5 Neulk ao vhno.

    Zklka, hlvrgg k mgak`ueo ak.

    Hlako mochnkch chrgcg hl aheo cnupo, g hmlg au lhbgdueoa5 Gnk vk ak eh mksto phsngnk

    ruu, prhjoshro Lgkanor.Mo hcroo so, gnk vklka lg su au so vrdk ukeu zggrknk. Rgzrolha so prhngag fkfht pg

    `rhfht, g aomo propngvneueo zglhvhnestvh cgcvh uvkeoc hseoga cglg ukmka moth nho zbh`o`g mou bktk cgmeomg, phput crgo sktmkdg kz chnsco aomzo knk hpkegmeg mg hbktoneschaneothvgmeu cheo mktch mo prkaeoueo.

    Nkmlsgy cgo lg o ao Lgkanor eolmh`g lgmg tuktk zbh` znhstgvnegmeg, gnk eg zmga lg moo.Aksnka lg au so phtgemh svkga.

    \h phtvrueo k kmeomkdg lg so sakeok cglg so hcroo proag rgzrolu.

    Mgchm rozuntgtg prhnhteolmh` tostg, `hvhrk, kmk ak so lg eh uvkeoc phstheo mocomoegsmho vozgmo uz gskapthto k nkaoso. Mgsngmeg so mg sthn k crkg mh`o u `nomeovkag. Tk`urmgsga lg ak mk uz eolmh` lru`h` prhjoshrg agtoagtkcg mo bk bkng tgch zgmkanekvg.

    Lh crgeg sgtg ao k`mhrkrg, `nolgeuk ao eolkmh hmlg cglg phlkoa rucu u zrgc. Mh, cglg mgaso hk kpgc srotmu, dkeonh ak tkeonh zglrftk k zgcnong bkf so lg k hm hseog ksth.

    Comt ao prosroo mgchm sgtg agtoagtkco.

    Lgcno8 pktg. th aksnk8

    H oau8 prgvka so lg mo zmga h oau `hvhrk, kgch zmga lg eo rkeo h drtou k ruk.

    Mh, Comt so sgah sakeok k akeomeg toau5 Hvge sga vkcoml sga chl cuo.

    Bng`h tobk.

    K lgneo so saeocg. Zoorgs kaga tunua. Lhngzk8

    Lhbgdueoa au ph`nol. Mkcglg `g mksga sfvggng. Ugprgvh, thmkeo eo rok lg `g vo`hlkmgag mo sfvgga. _ leotkmestvu sah bknk vrnh bnksck, gc bk so ah`nh rok lg ak eo bkhmgebhnek prkegtone k s meka sga so prvk put phneubkng, gnk cglg sah cromunk u vko rgzrolo hsmhvmochno, hleolmha so phoh akeomegtk k phstgegh eo svo ulmkek. Hl prvh` srolmeo, prkaeorkdo,stgnmh mhsk sgch, kgch su svk cheo phseolueo mgphng rgspgrgmk knk kageu rupo mg ngcthvkag. Zeokth

    eo k u kstka, phfgbgmka, drmh-bkeonka cgrkrgmka tomkskdgag, g chsg au eo thnkch lu`g lg au kcostgnmh pglgeu proch hkeu, phput zgsthrg. Mge`hro eo, aoutka, th th mg `ngvk stgnmh mhskcu`ngcu cgpu. _ chnu.

    Tvo eo th vonkcg totg eor bk kmgo bkh scrhz z`hlgm, k u nkdu k u tkeonu. gc k ksphl nkeovh` hcgkag lrgostgm aglo u hbnkcu srdg. Mh, svo uprhpgueo sknmka ulgtvha.

    Mo zmga eh cgcvk su ak pngmhvk... `hvhrka mohlroomh, mo bkf nk au lgng lh zmgmeg lg ulhk eolkmh gch mo kscrsmo moth zgmkanekvkeo.

    Bkt o supor, cgo, k lgneo so sakeook. \h eo eh eolmg stvgr cheg ao u vozk s meka kvdkrg.Moprocklmh so phmgg cgh lg eo ktgv svkeot prolkvgm lgr chek hlahtgvg svgch`g eutrg.

    Zkleot u eh, cgoa k uth spgzka Rhbg cgch mg crgeu fhlmkcg scroo u aomzu. _brzgvgachrgc, mglgeuk so lg o Comt sfvgtktk phrucu k hstgvktk ao mg akru, gnk k sgag zmga lg moo. Zo

    eo `hlkmgag zgneubneom u aomo. Ahlg gc eh hl hmh` prvh` phneupdg.

    Ugstgeo cgh uchpgm, veorhegtmh aksnok lg u k eg stgtk, gnk mo kmka th. Leonk socumlo ak `g eogh k kmk ak so lg sga ahlg bkng prohtrg, gnk tglg ao eh eolgmput zgzkvg k ph sgahao thmu`ngsg zmga lg so k lgneo saeocg.

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    Zklkah so voorgs, lhvkcueo, pg zgueoa crkpu tomkskdg ph nkmhnouau k ph thao zmga lgeo cromuh u suprhtmha saeoru. Yhkmeo k zvklucgtk, gnk zbh` svo sngbkeo` zvucg ksprvg morgzgzmgeoa aonhlkeu, g hmlg eo prophzmgeoa. Uvklk peosau Tutrg, eolmu hl `ngvmkf kzaeuzkcng Gmmko. Aheu mgelrgu peosau cglg ak eo bknh solga `hlkmg.

    Kgch zmga lg mktch lru`k u fhlmkcu moo sfvgtktk h oau eo rkeo, mou`hlmh ak eo k hseoga

    cgch ak so vrukmg pomeo uz vrgt proag nkdu. _vkeoc tgch moth kzvhlk k phmgg so cgh lg aophzmgeo bhneo hl bknh ch`g lru`h`g sgah zgth th sah so zgeolmh k`rgnk u peogmkcu prkeo sth`hlkmg. Yrgvk so cgh lg hl tglg mkeo prhnh losot `hlkmg k cgh lg so mktg mkeo prhakeomknh, g

    prhakeomknh sosvo.

    _ tha ak tromutcu vkbrkrg ahbkton, pg `g vglka kz strgmeo` lopg. TAT hl Nkmlsgy.

    \unua chl Comtg Adulgcg voorgs. Klo!

    Mochnkch tromutgcg rgzaknega, g hmlg toch uzlkoa k hl`hvgrga5Mgrgvmh.

    _ aomzk srolmeo chno \fhagsg Eojjorshmg phstheo sgah trk hbrhcg chek so sagtrgeuprkfvgtnekvkag5

    7. podkvh proagzgmh croa-skrha2. phajrkt

    4. somlvk chek sk sga mgprgvk mg volscha sthnu g k th sgah gch eo s purotkmha, umcha knkpknoka prskag sgngao su phtpumh moprkfvgtnekvo, g rhstbkj upktgm, zbh` o`g ak eo gh eormgevko vhnka s rhstbkjha).

    Rhb sthek uz bng`gemu sg scupkmha prkegtoneg, g u rucgag au eo pnglgme s `hnoaha phrdkehaphajrktg. Eolo `g svgck lgm. Yrkaeoueo ao k ckag `ngvha (mo smgngzk so mgebhneo s hseogekag,cgch svheka, tgch mk aheka, pg hlgtno k neubka to u phrudk cheu ak eo phsngh).

    ulmh eo th. Yrkeo mo`h th sah prhfhlgnk, Rhb ak so thnkch lu`h k tgch strgstvomh svkgh lg

    bk sgah hl eolmh`g meo`hvg ph nolg u aomk svo zgtroptgnh k zgvrteonh bk ak so u `ngvk. _hpo moproteorueoa5 cgtcgl bk bknh lhvhnemh lg phaksnka mg meo`g k thnkch bkf ustroptgng lg bkf ahrgngseostk.

    Mh, htcgl snubomh fhlgah, s vroaomg mg vrkeoao hbuzkageu ao ulmo aksnk. \gch so,rodkah, pktga zgopneueo nk au sgv tge sknmk phajrkt crvmo kno, kstk nk rolhvkth zubo chmdoa k

    poro nk kcglg kntorkdu [gmcoosg cheu stgnmh mhsk mg `ngvk. Ugbrkmutg sga zbh` th`g. Eosga nkmhragnmg8 Aksnka,svo duro ulo zg tka lg fhlgeu s Rhbha Dhcrgmha, g eg...

    Mo ah`u phrok lg sga srotmg. Eosga. Mh, lh`gg so lg sgahe sobk ahrga mochnkch putgphmhvktk rgznh`o zbh` chekf ak so kcglg k svklkh, cgh lg bkf so hfnglkng cgl so mg th phvroaomhmo bkf phlseotkng. Troha, tgcvkf eo rgznh`g bozbrhe5 meo`hvg crgsmg, drmg chsg k tksuo peo`kdg

    cheo mg meoau mocgch mo kz`nolgeu `nuph. @ngsgm eo, gnk lufhvkt, svk `g zmgeu k vhno, g phng durgu chnk veorhegtmh eo zgneubneomh u meo`g. Kz`nolg lhbrh u sphrtsche umkjhrak, g cglg eo uahrgm,hsngmeg ak so mg rgao k hmleo boz prhbnoag zgspo. \h ak eo ahlg meo`hvg mgelrgg hshbkmg.Zhnka nogtk uz meo`g u tgak k tkkmk to hsnuckvgtk htcudgeo vngstkth` srdg. _ tgcvka sgatromudkag sk`urmg lg sga zgneubneomg.

    K`mhrkrga `g k stgeoa u rol prol bng`gemha lg bkf pngtkng podkvh cheo sga uzong. K eg so ah`uprgvktk moufvgtnekvha, bg cgh k hm. Ugtka so upuueoa proag agturgmtscha hleonecu. Hstgtgceo aomzo cngskmg, otvorhcutmg prhsthrkeg k thmh so zmg `leo tch seolk5 uomkdk rgzrolg zg leodus phsobmka phtrobgag zg prvka sthnhvkag, hmkag mgebnkka ukhmkdgag, zgtka snkeolo sthnhvk zguomkco prvkf rgzrolg, pg hmk zg uomkco lru`kf k trokf. Mg sgahao onu mgngzk so agturgmtsck

    hleonegc u hbnkcu hsaorhcutg, sg svkf strgmg hbrubneomh` prhzhrkag. Moagah mkcgcgv phsobgmph`nol hlgmlo prhzhrk su hcromutk proag pgrckrgnktu, gnk hmleo eo kpgc bhneo mo`h zgsthnhvkag s chekf eolkmh aho `nolgtk u bnomtgvdo chekag durk shs hl egbucg mkz brglu. Boz

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    MGMG

    -70-

    uvrolo.

    Gnny vo seolk zg agnka, hcru`nka sthnha uz prhzhr. \h mga eo mgelrgo aeosth.

    Foe, sputga pnglgme uz meozkm, pg brheka ruo u bucotu chek eo stgvkng mg sthn.

    Hfh, lhbkng sk kf lovot, cgoa, g zgtka agoa svheka strucha. K eg ksth.

    Rglk `rkagsu. Eolmu mo rgumga, cgo. Yhsngh ak eu eo Otfgm Tfnhscy. Cheg lhsglmgufhlg.

    Ag, mk eg mo rgumga hmu cheu sga lhbkng hl Comtg AdJunnorg.

    Gnk hm to vhhhhhhhnk, cgo, mgpglmh rgzvngok `ngs H. Eosk nk lhbkng Nkmlsgym TAT8

    Chpga srolkmu podkvg k trpga eo u ustg. Ttvgrmh kloah mg tge tunua8

    Mgvhlmh o motch lhmkeotk bgvu pkvg, cgo Gnny k u skumha zgnh`geu `rkzo somlvk spurotkmha. Mgoah so chl aomo mgchm chno, aho8

    Yktgmeo eo ustvgrk bosphtrobmh eor th khmgch rglkah svgch`g potcg5 mgruueoah frgmu kzlhstgvo, chpgah ehe ph hragru, `ngsmh putgah `ngzbu, pnooah k eolmg lru`he phsuueoahakmcu.

    Aho, cgoa.

    Crgekcha hcg prkaeoueoa lg ak so prkbnkgvg Rhb k u sneolooa tromutcu vo seolk mgsthndu lh aheo`g, mg`kmeuk so k usmkdgag ak lhtkuk nkeovh ufh. Akrko ph chnhmesche vhlk\htgn, cgh k uvkeoc. Akrks ao phlseog mg ge hl nkaumg chek eo hbkgvgng pktk aheg bgcg, gnkau th eh lhsgl mkcglg mksga rocng.

    Bhc, Tgngagmtg, cgo. Zeokth ak kzakneg tgcvo mglkaco. Tgngagmtg, Tgatgstg, Tagmtgmgk snkmh. Eosk nk lhbkng ahe vgnh`rga8

    G eosk nk tk lhbkh ahe8

    Tcklg rucsgc s rgaomg k htchpgvg `g. _ meoau eo ost z`uvgmkf rug, hl chekf eo eolmgveorhegtmh aheg, g uz mekf eh rgzgbkroa prgzmu cutkeu dk`grotg, pgcot vgcgg, ahbkton kmochnkch agekdg. Moag cmek`g mk bkneomkdg. Rhb bg mkeo lhbgr uomkc.

    Hl ch`g sk lhbkh lru`o ruo8 zglkrcueoa `g.

    Hl tvhekf supgrmkdg, hlvrgg k ak`g hbrvgag.

    Ag, bg sk lkvgm, lhbgdueo Gnny. Klo nk k tk voorgs mg tunua chl Comtg8

    Zeorhegtmh, hl`hvgrg Rhb snkeouk rgaomkag, cgh lg au eo strgmh lhsglmh.

    Hlgt u vga eolmu tgemu5 cglg sah so eolmha prknkcha neubknk, htvhrkng sga hk k sfvgtkng lg

    su k meo`hvo htvhromo. Yrktha gc mkeo `nolgh aomo, mo`h ak eo proch rgaomg hlaeorgvghprhsthrkeu.

    Mgvhlmh o mgbgvktk bgvu pkvg, phmgvneg Gnny.

    @ngvmg gng cheu svk prkgeu h mghe chnk eost hmg u chehe so tvrlk lg to hvleo lhkstg toaonekthprkproageu zg jgcs5 ahrg amh`h uktk k uk amh`h pktk. Yrkeo lvkeo `hlkmo uMow [hrc \kaosu eokzkgh ngmgc u cheoa sah prh`ngomk eolmha hl losot mgepkegmkekf egvmkf chng u Dhmmodtkdutu.

    Mktg mga lru`h zgprgvh mk mo prohstgeo. Eolkmg su mga zgbgvg tr`hvgck domtrk k tunuak phcugag, g gch oah phtpumh kscromh, tgch eo k u hstgtcu zoaneo. Ahe tgtg osth `hvhrk lg bktrobgnh sruktk Ckp snhbhlo k uaeosth meo`g phstgvktk `hnoa tr`hvgck domtgr knk zngtmo nuchvo

    AdLhmgnlsg. Neulk bk tglg zmgnk th thmh ah`u hockvgtk hl Gaorkco.Hvge... pgrlhm8

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    Nkmlsgy so stvhrkng zg Rhbhvka nokag, sthek procrkomkf rucu mg prskag k tgpcg mh`ha.

    Teolk mg aheoa aeostu, Dhcrgm, `hvhrk, kgch so sgah prgvk hpgsmg. Rhb k Nkmlsgyhluvkeoc su lhbrk prkegtonek. _stvgrk, thmkeo bk bknh rok lg so lruo s kstka neulkag, pg su phstgnk

    prkegtonek kz mulo.

    H, pg eg so ksprkgvga, Ol`odhabokdg, hl`hvgrg ehe, ustgeo k mgpglmh so cngmeg lhc hmg

    seolg.Zklkah so voorgs, Rhbo, cgo Gnny. K lhvolk prkegtoneo.

    Zklkah so phsnkeo, Rhb so mg`kmeo k zgbkeg ak mhs u chsu, `hvhrok tkfka, lubhcka `ngsha.Mocglg ak eo hl th` `ngsg svgck kvgd u tkeonu ocspnhlkrgh phput potgrlo, g sglg ak eo agnhnek`gv. Mo zgbhrgvk, voorgs eo mgg mh, lhlgeo.

    Mksga zgbhrgvkng, hlvrgga, mglgeuk so lg zvuka socsk, g mo upngomh. Lngmhvk ak sozmheo k mglga so lg ao moo phcugtk ufvgtktk zg rucu, th sroha k mo kmk. Tgah so sg`kmeo k mgusmkdo ak utkscueo phneubgd. Mochnkch so tromutgcg neubkah, g hmlg Nkmlsgy stomeo5 Lgeto, neulk,

    eg hvleoeoloa! k `gg ao cruapkrkoa u rgao.

    Aheo lgao, phzlrgvnega vgs, `hvhrk Rhb k hlngzk mgcrkvneomo cgpo.Yhtgemh brkoa ustg ubrusha eor ak eo dkeong lhmeg phnhvkdg nkdg procrkvomg Rhbhvha snkmha.

    Hlgt u vga eh eolmu tgemu5 hgemh so neubk.

    Onhly cgo lg so boz vozo kvdkrga k lg su tgcvo aksnk sgah phsneolkdg mosk`urmhstk zgth thRhb k eg eh mksah zgpogtknk vozu socsha. Cgo lg u so, cglg th ukmkah, hseogtk bhneo k eg eheveorueoa. Hmg so, uhstgnha, hl svkf mgs mgebhneo rgzuakeo u to stvgrk.

    _prgvh hmg stko zglmeg k ka phnhk pnglgme mg sthn, bgdgah so mg meozkmo cruapkrko.Yhcugvg kf hbrgmktk k nupg mgs ph rucgag, gnk bg ehe k mo uspkeovg.

    Mg sthn phngo k bucot rug cheo eo prkakng lh rucg. Lvgmgost kf eo. Hseoga bng` ubhlneubhahro, g hkth `g hseog k Gnny eor eo hlagf pktg5 th sk ahrgng ukmktk lg kf lhbkeothnkch8

    Lg, k s ckao8 lhlgeo Nkmlsgy.

    Onhly ka pngzk eozkc, gnk eo zglhvhnemg th sah prkakeotkno brhe.

    _ tha tromutcu Gnny spgzk moth zg aheka nokag k phmo fkfhtgtk. Ysydfh cknnor, quost-do quodost

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    MGMG

    -7;-

    _hpo mo zmga `leo eolo, gnk `hthvh eo mkcglg mo vkga u aomzk.

    Mochnkch putg rgaomha hl`urueo vrgtg eor eo, kz`nolg, prosngbg lg bk kf htvhrkng kz prvh`gphcugeg, g Nkmlsgy mg th pktg5 Eo nk lhbkng mg vgnh`rga8, pg nko shn s cruapkrkg k trpg `g uustg.

    Gnny ckag `ngvha. Mg bkhnh`kek. Teolkng sga kzg meo.

    K eo nk ktg rocng8

    Cgo nk kcglg8. hlvrgg Gnny, g zgtka togtrgnmh phngo lngm mg srdo, cgh lg eo sknmhphvrkeoomg. Hlagf mgchm sgtg bgdkng eo ruu u saoo. Ugaksnk! Yrolg amha!

    Nkmlsgy eo u prvha srolmeo mocgch sgzmgng lg Eunkot mkeo lhbkng mkeolgm vgnh`rga, pg eolhlgng phrucu uz eolmu hl svhekf rug k sonhtoepha eo zgnkeopkng zg Eunkotkm hragrk. Mg phrudk eo

    pksgnh5 Ahlg sneoloo `hlkmo, gnk veorhegtmh mo.

    Hl tglg ehe svgco `hlkmo zg Zgnomtkmhvh gneoah ruu s kstha phrucha k th eo, chnkch zmga,eolkmk vgnh`rga chek eo kcglg prkakng.Ahlg sneoloo hlkmo, gnk veorhegtmh mo.

    _ lru`ka bk ak eo hchnmhstkag ahlg bknh gh, gnk Eunkot lhkstg zgsnuueo mglkagc Yskfh.Moveorhegtmg eo ulgckmeg. Yrkg so lg su eo rhlktonek eolmha mgnk phtpumh `hnu mg dostk 6

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    MGMG

    -29-

    kz spodkegnmh` rgzrolg. Lhbkng eo uchr zgth th eo ph potk put u phnu`hlktu lgmgs zgcgsmkng mglhagkmstvh. K lgneo eo zbumeomh `nolga, pg uzlko k lhlgeo5 Cgsmkng eo mg lhagkmstvh eor soahrgng pgrckrgtk mg `hrmeoa pgrckrgnktu k vuk so lh ungzg...

    4?< aotrg! lhvrgvgah svo otkrk ksthlhbmh k phkmeoah so sakegtk ch nugckmeo.

    Boz brk`o, Nkmlz, cgoa. Gch lho lh tumegvo, cnglkt u so mg tobo.

    Lg, thtgnmh sah uz tobo, lhlgeo Onhly.

    Gnk mkeo nk ulmh th so lh`ggeu tgcvo stvgrk8 stklnekvh `hvhrk Gnny, tkfka `ngsha chekputg sgah cglg onk rok moth hzbknemh. Aksnka, th cgch eolmg stvgr uzrhcueo lru`u. LgNkmlsgy, rodkah, mkeo Tgrk ucrgng pgrckrmh aeosth...

    Mksga ehe g ucrgng! prhsveolueo Nkmlsgy. Yhtomh sga `g hsvhekng! Nupg lngmha h sthn,pg Gnnymg Dhng phscgcueo mg pnglmeu, pronkeovgeuk so ph cruapkrkkag. Ubh` th`g so hpotphkmeoah sakegtk.

    Gnk hzbknemh vga `hvhrka! Gnny phlko `ngs mo bksah nk eo uno. Tvo eo th mocgchphvozgmh, cgh arog.

    Hpot sk crgng kz tgtkmh` tgemh` scrhvktg8 pktg eo Onhly.

    K mg th hlagf prgsmoah u sakeof. Zo so `hlkmgag zozgah mg rgum Gnnymg hdg chek rglk ulksch`rgjsche kmlustrkek. Tgah eo hlveotmkc, g mo prhludomt, aomglor knk `ngzbomkc, pg kgchmoprocklmh mhsk hlkeong (gc k neotk mg bgzom), Nkmlsgy uphrmh tvrlk lg eo phtgemh fghagm.

    Lhc so provkegah hl sakeofg, Gnny so drvomk. Zk aomo bg mkcglg mo snugto, gnk so, gnk eheso mg nkdu vo phagneg sakeogc. _zkag cruapkrk k bgdg `g mg Onhly. Mo`leo sga prhktgng lggch egth noptkrg phnotk u \gengmlu, th aho uzrhchvgtk hnueu u Mow [hrcu.

    Mgrgvmh. K cgl prlmo, mostgmo strueo u Yhrtu`gnu, `hvhrk Onhly k crhz sakeof bgdgcruapkrk mgtrg` mg Gnny.

    \obk kz ustg ueutrh thnkch sarlk lg tge zglgf sk`urmh phcroo stgapolg u Gjrkdk, u nkdo eheso umhsk Gnny. G eg mo prlka.

    Nkmlsgy k eg so sakeoah, g Gnny k Onhly so lhbgdueu cruapkrkoa. Nkmlsgy kf phcugvguphzhrktk lg so mo rgzbgdueu sgvromh lhbrha agu, gnk thnkch `rhfho lg ehe rkeok eolvg kzngzokz ustg.

    Cglg mgphchm lhngzk lh zrgcg, `hvhrk5 Umgto th sga eg ung8 Lg gch lhvhnemh `ngsmhckfmo, phcromut o so thrmglh u Khwk.

    gc k Gnny mg th prgsmo u sakeof k hleolmha svo otkrk ckoah, `rhfhoah, pg hpot ckoah.Tvk mgs `nolgeu, gnk mo agrkah.

    Ckfmuvk vgnelg aknkeumtk put, Nkmlsgy so mgsngmeg u sthndu k cgo5 \rklosot artvkf u Khwk.Yolosot mostgnkf.

    Yudgah hl sakeofg.

    Nkmlsgy k eg hlnuueoah agrckrgtk solak sgt k htkk u \DB[?. Hmg beok s jrgmdusch`, chekarzk kz lmg luo, g eg s om`nosch`. osth agrckrgah solak sgt eor sah u lru`ha phnu`hlktuotvrth` rgzrolg, pg so hl mgs, cgh hl agturgmtkdg, th `hthvh k hocueo. Hska th`g, prhjoshrkdgFgrbhr, cheg ak prolgeo om`nosck, klo ak strgmh mg kvdo. Ttgnmh scroo u bosaksnomo lk`roskeo kcglg aksnkag hlnutga tkeocha mgstgvo, mkcglg mo zmga th o ao lhocgtk cglg phvrgtkachmdomtrgdkeu. T cmekovmhstk zggs scgo mg prko h lhmeoa rubneu u hsgamgostha sthneou,

    ? \DB[ _k \fo Dhumtrys Bost [h`furt (Mgebhnek eh`urt u lrgvk) ngmgd eo u cheoau so lkneoa Gaorkco prhlgeosarzmutk eh`urt, losort mgnkc mg snglhnol

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    MGMG

    -27-

    phtngomhstk Gjrkcgmgdg k prgschzhreu mgl @rgml Dgmyhmha. Zeorhegtmh ehe mkeo amh`h vko hlpolosot `hlkmg, gnk aksnka lg so vo phagnh `ubk. \gch eo phonh k u aheo bgco5 aksnk su ehe souschaogno, brcgng eo uzrhco k phsneolkdo, thcu G s thcha B. Lhc eo eh bkng kvg k cglg bksah

    eo phseotknk, svgck bkf put phaksnkng5 mglga so lg u uarkeotk anglg.

    Oth vga lojkmkdkeo krhmkeo, prhjoshrkdo Fgrbhr.

    Knk bksto th rglkeo mgzvgnk protcgzgmeoa8Tnubomh vga eo zg mgputgmeo chnsch` cgapusg `kamgzkeo \fhagsg Eojjorshmg phtrobmg

    prhpusmkdg s phtpksha rhlktoneg k chnsco uprgvo, proalg th mkeo uvkeoc bknh tgch. Agturgmtk sumocglg ah`nk mgpustktk cgapus cgl `hl bk phoneonk, g eolkmk eo uveot bkh lg kageu snhbhlgm sgt.

    Mh, th eo bknh prkeo vko hl lvglosot `hlkmg, lhc so srolmeg chng \fhagsg Eojjorshmg eh mkeolkkng otkcotha mgevoo sthpo tkmoelorsckf sgahubhestgvg u zoanek. Yrhmgng sga ngmgc h thaomg kmtormotu5 mhvkmo DhmmodtkdutYhstprhzvgno su mgs srolmeha sgahubkngcha.

    Eolmh`g so lgmg, mgkao, scupkmg uomkcg hlvozng kz cgapusg tkeocha mgstgvo k svk su so,eolgm zg lru`ka, survgnk s hbnkmeo`g ahstg. Hkth eo bkng rkeo h sgahubkngcha pgctu. Mgchmth`g chnscg eo uprgvg zgbrgmkng mgputgmeo cgapusg tkeocha mgstgvo, hska u snugeovkag cglg

    uomkdk kageu phsobmu lhzvhnu. Gch agnh bhneo rgzaksnkto h thao, hlnucg eo prknkmh `nupg. Cghlg su, rodkah, htcrknk lg cnkmdk u chnu lhmhso vhtcu u bhdgag zg vhlu, pg su zbh` th`g svkagzgbrgmknk lg pkeu vhlu.

    Yhsthek, sroha, k lru`k mgkm mgputgmeg cgapusg crhz rupu u h rglu kzg `kamgstkcolvhrgmo, molgnoch hl tomksckf toromg. \ge lkh, kmgo, svk zhvu pukhmkdha eor so hmleo hcupnegeu

    pugk. _ tromutcu cglg Nkmlsgy k eg lhngzkah hmgah, aoutka, moag mkch`g, pg so prhvngkahcrhz h`rglu k `rgbkah crhz uau, uschrh stkuk lh dosto 729. Tvo hch mgs mophakmh eo hlfnglmho, phl chrgdkag mga pudcotgeu sarzmuto `rgmkdo, g lgf mga so uzlko kzmgl `ngvg u`ustka, bkeonka hbngkkag.

    chng so mgngzk hch otkrk cknhaotrg hl domtrg Rkl`ovkowg, gch so th uhpo aho mgzvgtkdomtrha, gnk chekf potsth aotgrg hl chnsch`g cgapusg mgngzk so phtoz htrdgmkf tr`hvkmg chek

    eolmhstgvmh zhvoah phtozha. Hmleo eo bomzkmscg drpcg, \DB[, ckmosck rosthrgm u cheoau eoOnhly eolmha lhbkng tgcvh htrhvgmeo onudg lg eo phvrggng trk lgmg to boznkmg tr`hvkmg sostktcgag k ucrgskag u chekag so prhlgeu rukgsto jk`urkdo bgnorkmg sg nehckdgag k snkmgsrgmeg. Nkmlsgy k eg uputkno sah so uprgvh hmgah k sveosmg sga lg kz nolgah ulmh lhcstupgah uz rub dosto u sucmekdgag k mgenhmcgag, htvhromkf egcmk ksphl chekf kzvkrueu agekdohbrubneomo crzmha.

    Mg putu lh \DB[-g prhngzkah phcrge rosthrgmg Fumgm Cktdfom k crhz autmo kznh`ohleolmha spgzkah Gnoxg Nkaomtg k Gmmu Dgrtunnh cgch so mg`kmeu mgl mocgcvha zleonha.

    Hfh! Zklk, vklk, prgvk scgmlgn! phlk`mutkf hbrvg uzvkcueo Nkmlsgy, kgch eo rkeo toc hphnuscgmlgnu. Tvk zmgeu lg Gnox s Gmmha vgrg svheu duru, Brkl`ot Ad@ukro, k lg th kmk vobgroa trk aeosodg. Tvk hska Brkl`ot, mgrgvmh.

    Brkl`ot phteoo kz prolgmo cgthnkco hbktonek, nkeopg eo k kz`nolg moveorhegtmh ksth, cgh lg eoprkeo cheu socumlu lhbrh hprgng nkdo vhlha k sgpumha. Mgvhlmh so uvg zg brgc knk bgroa tgchtvrlk, gnk Nkmlsgy kag tohrkeu ph chehe eo zgprgvh prkcrkvomg nozbkecg. Gmmg Dgrtunnh klo toc utrok srolmeo, gnk gch su `ngskmo h mehe thmo, phovkng so vo s mgeagmeo otvhrkdha. Eolmg eo hlrkeotckf tkmoelorck u Rkl`ovkowu kek rhlktonek moageu mhvdg3 agecg ehe eo jrkzorcg, g mksgask`urmg kag nk uhpo hdg. kvk u htrdgmha umgeaneomha stgmu molgnoch hl phtozg, g eolmha sgahl Gmlrowg Tkm`org ung lg ehe shbg veokth sarlk ph ckmoscka eonkag hl pknotkmo.

    Lhk, kloah kf phzlrgvktk, zg rucu ao `rgbk Nkmlsgy.

    Yhvngka eo mgtrg`. Ygh ak eo oor, gnka so.

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    Ovh tk hvh, ksphl phegsg sucmeo vglk pgcotk bhabhmg. _vkeoc uzg so mhsk mocgcvo sngtcko,cgh lg su lrh`g, g hmg mgrchagm, th veorhegtmh k mkeo lgnoch hl kstkmo. Fgelo, phvngk ao.Tgah mg tromutgc. gsmg rkeo.

    Lhputga ehe lg ao hlvngk proag rosthrgmu k lhc htvgrgah vrgtg, mgl mekag so h`nggvgzvhmdo. Ug puntha mocg omg pronkstgvg mhvkmo, mg tromutgc phlko ph`nol, g zgtka `g phmhvmh

    sputg cglg sfvgg lg mooah mktg mgruktk.Nkmlsgy hlngzk rgvmh lh Gnoxhvg k Gmmkmg hleonecg k mgsngmeg so mg sthn. Gnox k hmg mocg su

    vrstg prkegtoneg, th eo hlmhs chek Gnox kag s amh`ka uomkdkag kz mgo chno eor prhlgeo trgvucheu lrk u cutkek zg dkpono phl crovotha. th so aomo, pgc, tko, s Gnoxha kaga hlmhs ckagmeg`ngvha mg fhlmkcu, kgch zgeolmh snugah om`nosck, gnk hm so mg sgtu phegvneueo eh reoo mo`h eg.Zeorhegtmh zgth th so u th lhbg sgstgeo s Gmmha. \u k tgah ak so zmg hbrgtktk s moka

    bozvozmka, cgh th eo5 @glgm eo hvge rojorgt chek su mga zglgnk zg sneolok teolgm, zgr mo8 gnkth eo htprknkco svo.

    Foe, bhc, phzlrgvneg `g Nkmlsgy. Klo nk voorgs mg Comthv tunua8

    Gnoxhvh nkdo mg`nh procrkvgeu drvomo arneo. Hkth au eo mou`hlmh th sah `g ufvgtkno s

    Gmmha, kgch, tch zmg ahlg eo rkeo h rogcdkek mg rosthrgmsco spodkegnktoto. Mo bkf so ulkng.Hvggge... Mo zmga. Ahlg. Ahrga vkleotk... eolvg uspkeovg kzustktk.

    Bkt o `omkegnmh, s phsobmka hluovneomeoa `hvhrk Nkmlsgy. Fho nk lhvostk k Brkl`ot8Crgsmg durg.

    Yrgvg eo kstkmg lg k Nkmlsgy k eg Brkl`ot sagtrgah lhsglmegchvkcha. _vkeoc eo proteorgmhvosong k mhsk agekdo s nupka mgtpkskag, cgh th eo5Gch mksk mg onu chnhmo, prkzhr prol hkag uvkeoctk eo eolmgc(mo kzaknega), gnk Nkmlsgy prozkro Gmmu k eolmha eo u zgfhlu proch putg aomzo hmhao cheka so chrksto bg svk uomkdk mgo chno mg svka zklhvkag mgpksgng GD1EL, prkoau svk zmgeu lg EL zmgk eojtkmg lrhneg.

    Mo ah`u kzlrgtk mgpothst zg sthnha, pg bnosgvh pktga5 Yknotkmg sg sozgaha8 phcgzueukmg aosh u skvcgstha uagcu chek so z`rugvg u zleonk kzaou lvg ckmoscg cocsg s phrucgag k

    phcrge htumo mgrgmo.

    Eumotkmg u uagcu hl mgrgmo, hl`hvgrg Gnox, srotgm th eo lhbkh prknkcu zg akeomegmeotoao.

    Nkmlsgy ak lhbgdueo prkeochrgm ph`nol, gnk kpgc mgstgvnega.

    Ygzkto th eoloto u hvha rosthrgmu, `hvhrka. Onhly eo eolmha lvg lgmg phvrggng zbh`pknotkmo cheu eo pheong hvleo. Gch eo th uhpo bkng pknotkmg. \vrlk, mgkao, lg eo u uagcu prhmgngageu lngcu.

    Gmmg mgth tgpkkag fvgtg hvok chagl aosg k trpg `g u ustg to vgo uz mgpglgm sakeogc,usput ak phcgzueuk sgvgcgmk sglrge. Mksga sk`urmg, gnk aksnka lg ak mgaeormh onk z`glktkkvht.

    Hlvrgtmg prkg, Ckm sthmkdo, hvhrk ak Gnox, gnk so k sakeok.

    Nkmlsgy chnutg hkag, lgeuk mga svkag lh zmgmeg lg vko mo onk `ubktk vrkeoao mg rgz`hvhr.Kloah, Tga, `hvhrk ak.

    Crglo ka chngk s phrucha k htvgrg `g ka kzngzkah kz rosthrgmg. Yhrucg `ngsk5 Trou otoprhmgk lgnoch hl bknh kekf hkeu. _akroa hl sakeofg, g hmg `rk nkdo u `rkagsu `gomeg, `uvgpgpkrk k bgdg `g mg tnh. Boz vozo, cgo.

    Lubhch ulkoa sveo zrgc. Hl sarglg u tha rosthrgmu uvkeoc ak eo znh, cgoa k lhkstg eotgch. Cgch k mo bk bknh cglg dkeonh aeosth vhmeg ph ustgegnha aosu, uo`nha uneu k omegcu.Hbngdk s hbzhrg phngch procrkvgeu dkeonh mobh k svo procrkvg autmg mkegmsg skvo.

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    Jue, sngo so Nkmlsgy, skabhnkmh so fvgtgeuk zg trbuf. Umg th bk ak sglg lhbrh no nh8

    @hnoag phrdkeg mgebhneo` eh`urtg u zoanek! cgoa uz sakeogc, s uktcha kz`hvgrgeukpumh zmgomeo crgtkdo \DB[.

    \hmh th. @hnoag phrdkeg mgebhneo` eh`urtg u zoanek, phmgvneg Nkmlsgy.

    Kgch so hbeo sarzgvgah lh chstk, cupueoah lvhstrucu phrdkeu sarzmuth` eh`urtg hlhchnglo sg gromka arvkdgag k chaglkkag hchnglo pumeomka agsngdoa hl ckckrkckeg.Eoloah eo mg putu lh chno, svgch agnh lgfha `rkeuk prsto mg rucgag lg mo bksah lhbkno

    prharznkmo. Yrk prhngscu phcrge ckmosch` rosthrgmg prkaeoueoah lg hmleo vko moag Gnoxg mkGmmo, gnk kf phmhvmh susrooah u pukhmkdk. Lh hsah`g sgtg hstgnh mga eo thmh solga akmutg,

    pg ao Nkmlsgy hlvngk kzg tomksch` toromg lg bk ah`ng zgpgnktk dk`grotu k prktha mo snugtk Gnoxgk Gmmu cgch so svggeu. Kz nolg, mgkao, cgh lg uprgvh th rglo. Gmmg sthek ph`muto `ngvo, g Gnox

    eo smgmh `rgbk zg rgaomg k moth ehe htrh gpuo. Dk`grotg cheu lrk u rudk `hrk thnkch bnkzumeozkmo boznkmo saoo chso lg sga `hthvh phtpumh sk`urmg lg o svgch`g tromutcg pngmutk.Ugaknega eo zgpgneomu phput kbkdo.

    Nkmlsgy bgdg dk`grotu mg lh, g hmgah bgdgah k prgzmo gkdo eh`urtg, phvrf sarzmuth` nkg,

    z`gomkf hpugcg k mgenhmsckf vrokdg lhphng kspumeomkf ckmkdha. Moakrmg sga zbh`prolstheoo voork5 eolmgch upngomg k uzbuomg, cgh cglg zgueoa `ranegvkmu, pg zmga lg ovo sneoloo` tromutcg hbngco prhpgrgtk sknmg aumeg. \robgng sga kpgc hstgtk mg sgtu om`nosch`.Hmlg mo bkf kagng thnkch vroaomg zg rgzaknegmeo. Rgzaknegmeo, mgkao, mkchao mkeo lhmkeonhmktg lhbrg, boz hbzkrg mg svo bgeco chekag mga `ngvu h meoau pumo prhjoshrk, rhlktonek k troborkkz rupo anglkf zmgmstvomkcg.

    Hbkngzkah tomksck torom to kzbkegah mg agturgmtsck lkh pgrckrgnktg. Gnox k Gmmg k lgneo stheokzg `kamgstkco lvhrgmo. Hm puk vo lru`u dk`grotu k sglg vko moag mkcgcvo suameo lg sosvggeu. Ubh` th`g ao u tha tromutcu propngvneueo zglhvhnestvh5 Rhb k eg so, mgkao, `hthvhmkcglg mo svggah. Knk so bgroa mo svggah hch vgmkf stvgrk. \h eo sk`urmh lhbgr zmgc.

    Movhneo u rgeu, `hvhrka.

    Bknh bk thmkeo rok movhneo u cupnorgeu, ksprgvneg ao Nkmlsgy.

    Lhc so prhbkegah crhz pgrckrgnkto zg prhjoshro, kz lgnekmo spgzkah prhjoshrkdu Pkmtors,zgaeomkdu rgvmgtoneg. Hbkngzk pgrckrgmo guthahbkno to phcugvg prhmgk pugo chekag so mo lghlngzktk lh pukhmkdo, pg so scrkvgeu kzg stgrkf Dfovrhnotg k Zhnvg. Pkmtorskdg eo u rgtmha

    phfhlu prhtkv pugg, mgvhlmh zbh` th`g eor ehe eo agecg uarng hl rgcg pnug, oajkzoag knk tgchmoo`g. Gch vgs ufvgtk lg pukto, boz kcgcvo o vgs rgsprgvo hpgnktk uchrha k hbvozha hstgegmegmg lhpumsche mgstgvk potcha.

    Nkmlsgy htvgrg thrbu k phkmeo pgmkmh procgpgtk ph mehe, brzh vglok cgu`uao k ubgdueuk

    lvg chaglg u ustg. Trgmeo, araneg.Mo aho tk mktg sgah zgth th sarlk ph dk`grotgag, `hvhrka ehe, kgch th vrnh lhbrh zmg.

    Aksnka lg sgah vhnk stvgrgtk mgpothst k lrgagtkcu tgah `leo kf prgctkck moag. Ugmkanekvh eo th.gc k cglg vrnh lhbrh zmgto lg vga prkegtonek `nuagtgeu, th ka boz prhbnoag lhputgto ksuleonueoto u mekfhvka k`rkdgag.

    Yhtpumh zgmoagrueo aheu prkaeolbu, puo ak u nkdo k pktg5 Eo nk svo hcoe8

    Cgh lg sk prh`utgng tvhrmkdu aomthng, hl`hvgrga.

    Pkmtorskdg mgs eh mkeo zgpgzkng. Hbkngzk rolhvo pgrckrgmkf guthahbkng k phvroaomh sosg`kmeo, cgh lg bk so ktch mhragngm zgvucgh phl guth k hmleo pukh. Ubh` tgcvh`g eo phmggmeg

    veorhegtmh k lhbkng mglkagc Mkchtkmscg ostgphvcg.Ugstgecueoa k ph`nolgvga proag kamgstkche lvhrgmk. Gnox ak mkeo hshbkth skapgtkgm,

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    mg`hvhrknk ao lg stgmoa mg sga rub phmhrg lg bk ao snkcgnk. Mh`o su ak so mochmtrhnkrgmhtrosno, crhz tgbgmo su ak prhngzknk trmdk k hseogng sga lg ak dkeonk tkeonh ulk zg schcha ulubkmu. Mkcgch mksga ah`ng prostgtk rgzaknegtk h thao. Cglg ao agag mgphchm usnkcgng kcglg sga so mgphchm hlagcmung hl rubg, prgsmung sga u sakeof k moch so vrkeoao mksga ah`ngzgustgvktk.

    Mg \grkmhe sga so torgsk uz Nkmlsgy hseogng uprgvh tgch.Hl th`g sah lgmg Nkmlsgy k eg mgebhneo prkegtonekdo. Gnny mga so prklrukng phsnkeo, mgchm th

    su hmg k Nkmlsgy k`rgno u ksthe ahaglk fhcoeg mg trgvk kzaou solah` k hsah` rgzrolg. Onhlyso, pgc, u Rkl`ovkow lhsonkng u prvha srolmeo. Mg eolmha hl prvkf tunuag spotnegng so sgTogmha Ahrthmha, u cheo`g eo Nkmlsgy bkng zgneubneomg ost aeosodk k svk sah aksnknk lg o eoubktk zbh` th`g. Mh, sneoloo` phmoleonecg u chnk Onhly so mgng zg mgka sthnha u aomzk,fkfhuk k lhgptgvgeuk so s Nkmlsgy cgh lg su hluvkeoc mgebhneo prkegtonekdo. Lrg`h ak eo zbh`th`g. Onhly eo cgtcgl sakeomg k mocgl ak eo mou`hlmh zbh` meo, gnk aksnka lg eo mgebhneg hshbgu mghe `rupkdk.

    \_N_A

    Mgchm chno hlngzkah c Gnny. Lhc sah bkno ango u prvha k lru`ha srolmeo cgtcglbksah dkeonu voor hstgegno hmleo, procrkvgno nkdg agscgag hl `nkmo, mgrukvgno frpotkmuckmosckf spodkegnktotg kz lhstgvo cheo sah pnggno mhvdoa kz stgcnomco phcrge Gnnymg fnglmegcg,u chehe meozkm htgd uvkeoc lrk chekf tksuu lhngrg u sktmha mhvdu. \gcvo sah voork mgzkvgnovoorkag prhneotmkf rhnglg k uvkeoc bksah so mg crgeu kzvgnkno mg `hnoa cgu, mh`ukspropnotomkf phl vonkcka vumomka phcrkvgoa thmuk u sgm prol jknahvkag mg Gnnymu `hnoaha

    tonovkzhru u lmovmha bhrgvcu. Hl troo`g rgzrolg, aoutka, mkeolmha mksah hstgno hmleo,hska ahlg hmo voork cglg eo Agtt Pknlo mgpudgh Gnny, pg eo thnkch pngcgng lg ehe eo sneoloo`eutrg nkdo bknh mgtoomh phput crtkkmg.

    Yrocgpgah ph Gnnymu hragru zgth lg mo bksah mg Comthv tunua ahrgno htkk ksth hleovomocgh zg chnu. Onhly, Gnny k Nkmlsgy phsobmh so trulo hch aheo`g kz`nolg. Onhly ak ngckrg mhctogrchdrvomka ngcha k ruco ehe so thnkch trosu lg ak proagzueo k lkh cho mg prstkag, pg kz`nolgcgh lg sga rgmeomg, gnk prokvgmg sga lg bk ak th saotgnh. T Rhbha sga so lh`hvhrkng lgoah so sgstgtk chl Comtg, g u TAT-u ak eo mgpksgh5 gc sga mgprgvkh crovot zbh` tobo. Gnnyak eo hlgbrgng hleou5 aotgnmhzngtmk thp boz rucgvg chek ak eo agnh provonkc u prskag k dkpono sgsuagmuth vkshcka potgag cheo mgzkvg dkpongag zg strkptkzoto. Nkmlsgy ao akmcg, peovuokksphl `ngsg k zgpufueuk ao zglgfha vhtco kz ustg. Tvo sah otkrk phpkno ph lvkeo vhtco sgshcha hl brusmkdo.

    Yhtha so zgcneugvga u cupghmkdu, g thpnk ak so trmdk uzlku hl vrgcg prstkeu lh `ngvo.@nolga so u zrdgnh k mgstheka lhbrh zgpgatktk cgch kz`nolga, gnk mgchm mochnkch tromutgcgzuromeg svo th vklka mocgch ak eo boznkmh, cgh lg `nolga phtpumh mophzmgtu hshbu.

    Cgh lkeoto osth bkf so zgcneugvgng u cupghmkdu k lu`h so tukrgng u vruhe vhlk, svo lhc sosvg h`nolgng mo bk phtpumh zgag nkng. Ugtka bkf stgng prol zrdgnh k prhagtrgng cgch ak so hbrksknkdg phngch mgzkru, pg zgtka phtpumh rgzbkstrueu. Tvgck bkf so put mglgng lg o ak so nkdo mgcrgeu ucgzgtk phtpumh lru`gkeka, lg u mocka ulha phstgtk neophtkdg, lg ao tukrgmeo

    prohbrgzknh k usgvrknh. Mh, svgck bk ao put mg crgeu lhocgh kstk prkzhr.

    Ttheok prol h`nolgnha u Gnnymhe cupghmkdk, sakeoka so k aksnka5 sutrg u mgphchm bktklru`gkeg.

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    Nkmlsgy eo hpseolmutg `ngzbha, pg sgstgvneg phpks peosgag zg snugmeo mg putu lh Comthvgtunuag, kgch au eo cug ulgneomg toc mochnkch cknhaotgrg hl Gnnymo. _ gutu snugah Lr. Lrog k\upgdg, pg zgtka mg sgv `ngs peovgah uz Bgby @ht Bgdc.

    Hseoga so mohbkmh. Lhc prhngzkah unkdgag chekag prhngzka dkeonk kvht k cheo tgch lhbrhphzmgeoa lg su ak udrtgmo u pgaomeo gc k cgl zgtvhrka hk, hleolmha so hseoga cgh lg

    noblka mgl mekag, cgh lg notka mgl cugag, dostgag, vrthvkag k lrvooa, pg svo vko k vko,kzmgl rosthrgmg k neocgrmk, kzmgl bomzkmsckf drpck k chno, kzmgl mh`haotmh` stglkhmg k meo`hvkftrkbkmg s chekf mgvkegah mg svgche utgcakdk. Hleolmha ak so svo kmk agnomka k bozmggemka,cgh lg so svo`g th prhagtrga toc prkseoga.

    Onhly so loro ch nugckmeg. _vkeoc so mgebro mgpkeo. Gnny eo bhdu s hstgtcha vhtco u`urgngu thrbkdu, g Nkmlsgy eo seong zg vhngm eor aho pktk dkeonu mh, g lg th mg meu moag bg mkcgcvh`uteodgeg.

    Zo sah mglhagc Comthvo cuo cglg phkmeo ckktk, gnk thnkch bng`h lg so lhkag cgh lg sozrgc toc protvhrkh u moth tok zgsthr vng`o. Zko so mk mo seoga cglg sga zglmek put bkng chlComtg veorhegtmh mg prhsngvk meo`hvg lovoth` rhomlgmg pg sga zgbhrgvkng chnkch au eo

    cug lgnoch hl dosto k chnkch lubhch u uak. Zhzkah so prkngzmka putoa dkeonu veomhst k prolshbha mo vklkah mktg hska jgrhvkag rgsvkeotneomh` neumgmh` putonecg, sufkf `rgmg lrvogcheo kzvkru kz argcg to sktmkf cgpnekdg cko cheo prol veotrhbrgmha bnkstgeu phput lkegagmgtg.

    Hvgch hbkmh phkmeu jknahvk strgvo k ugsg, `hvhrk Gnny, mgaeotgeuk agekdu. Kgch sahNkmlsgy, Onhly k eg phsulkno agekdo kz meozkmg hragrg, hmg eo zglrgng kstu u chehe eo bkng u chnk,umgth thau th eo uprgvh hmg bkng tg cheg so ksprvg prhtkvkng cupmek drvomo agekdo s crzmomkahbrubha. Eosk nk sk`urmg lg au eo cumk brhe otrlosot lvg8 pktg.

    Tgah so eh agnh ahrgah hlvostk, hlvrgga, kgch zgprgvh moaga pheag k vo so pktgamksah nk prorgmh scromuno. Hseoga noptkrko u trbufu, gnk mksga sk`urmg eo nk th u tha tromutculhbrh knk nho.

    Lrvoo so uz putonegc mglvkeg svo bnko k bnko, u eolmha tromutcu lhtkuk guthahbknscgvrgtg, pg so Nkmlsgy phkmeo gnktk lg o ehe th htotktk ngc k cglg so vo kmk lg sah so phtpumhkz`ubkno u argcu, kzbkegah mg prhpngmgc s mgevoka k mgeneopka trgvmegcha chek sga kcglgvkleong. Mgsrol trgvmegcg eo cug. @hnoag cug. Mgnkcueo mg lvhrgd hl agrdkpgmg. Hbrubneomg eoamhtvha bgnchmg, sg svkf strgmg hcruomg `hnoaha vorgmlha, g mg bkeonka prhzhrsckacgpdkag mgzkru so ucrgsmk roneojk cheo mo ah`u thmh rgzgbrgtk crhz tgau. Mko`g so hl th`g moseoga kz leotkmestvg, gnk sglg ak so, ahlg zbh` gnchfhng, kmk lg sah so mgno prol mgeneophacuha mg svkeotu.

    Mochnkch eo tromutgcg svo otkrk utok prhagtrgah. Yhnhvkdg eo cuo u tgak, gnk s mge`hrmeo`gcgtg crhz prhzhro lhpkro thpng sveotnhst, srobrmh so hlbkegeuk hl trgvmegcg.

    @hthvh eo eolmgch vonkcg cgh tvheg cug, Gnny, `hvhrk Nkmlsgy. gh ak eo th eo ktg rocng.Cgh lg eo rkeokag rgzbkng grhnkeu.

    Lg. @hthvh, hlvrgg Gnny, vglk vhtcu kz thrbo, mg`kmeo kz bhdo, cgneo, phlrk`ueo k brkoustg.

    Lge k aomk agnh, trgk Onhly, phsouk zg bhdha.

    Mk sgag mo zmga cgch, gnk ubrzh so bhdg phegvneueo k u aheka rucgag. K eg eo mg`kmeoa. kstgeo vhtcg h`gvmh`g hcusg, phput bheo zg zklhvo knk bomzkmg, gnk ka ak cnkzmo mkz `rnh,propngvneueo ao sngtcg haganeomhst. Kzngzkah kz gutg, g sveotng s prhzhrg mg Comthvhe cuk cghlg ak mgak`ueu svheka hlbneoscha.

    Tvgck ak so put prk ungscu mg tunua onulgd bng`h z`rk, gnk tge ak hseoge mkeo mou`hlgm.Yhteoo kz phaksnk lg eo u sneolokf mochnkch sgtk svgtg ah`uo. _`ngvmha so mkcglg mktg mo

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    lh`gg k mgeoo so svo to voork stgpgeu eolmg u lru`u, teolmk so protgu kz phmoleonecg uphmoleonegc, svk aeosodk phstgeu kstk k prkeo knk phsnkeo svk uakroah.

    Mh, mg photcu voork uvkeoc eo svo ah`uo.

    _ngzmg su vrgtg zgcneugmg, pg ahrgah hbkk cuu k uk mg strgmek ungz, chek vhlk lh usch`gfhlmkcg hbnhomh` lrvha, pg zgtka lh strakf, lrvomkf stubg. Mhsmkdo ak kspumegvg akrks

    cheo`g so seoga kz leotkmestvg, gnk mksga sgsvka sk`urmg h oau eo rkeo. ueoa zvuc rgzbkegmegstgcng, motch vko5 uvge `ngvu, sgl o ocspnhzkeg! k sneoloo` tromutcg kz ahmkf zvumkcglhpkro5Gnn ADs km tfo bhuso thmk ft, kj yhur nyrkds shuml tk ft tfom rhdc tfo akd:.

    Ttubo su tgch usco lg so uz neulo chek skngzo s prgzmka pngstkmka ggag zg pkvh prhbkegaheolmg kzg lru`o, g k tgch so vokmg ahrg hcromutk nokag proag zklu lg bksah so ah`nk akahkk.Yhzlrgvnegah toc mochnkdkmu, mg hstgno mo hbrggah phzhrmhst, kgch mgs svk, cgh k uvkeoc,`nolgeu. \h eo eh eolmg stvgr cheg ak so svkg chl phpungrmhstk mo ahrg uhpo hbrggtk

    phzhrmhst mg neulo chek hbrggeu phzhrmhst mg tobo.

    Mg vrfu stubg ungzkah u phnuarggm fhlmkc, hsvkeotneom toc rgzvuomka gromka ngapkdgagzg bhkmh lrvdo. Zhlk proag mkzu aoushbmh phvozgmkf prhsthrkeg, cheo su svo uroomo vrnh

    snkmh5 propumo su ulhbmkf trhseolg, tockf zgveosg k `hnoakf egstucg k svo su crdgto neulkag. Tvoeo mocgch aoch k prk`uomh5 bheo, rubhvk, hbnkdk, neulk... eolkmh eo `ngzbg `ngsmg k tutmegvha soprhbkeg crhz phlhvo. Lhstg neulk puk, pg eo svo hbgvkeomh lobonha pngvkgstha chpromha.Tgah sga eolgmput pukng trgvu, gnk svo ak kz`nolg mgpuomh.

    Nkmlsgy so mg`kmeo proag mgtrg` k `hvhrk ak moth, gnk zbh` gahrg mo rgzgbkroa rkeok.Yhtha so hlako k prhbkeg crhz `uvu, g cglg so hcromoa, vklka lg moag mk Gnny k Onhly. Trdoak phkmeo ubrzgmh nupgtk, g ruco ak so zmheo k lngmhvk ao svrbo.

    Hlmolgvmg ao prh`gmeg mhmg ahrg u chehe so mgngzka usrol `hakno neulk cheg ao `urgsnkeovg mglosmh, pg hpot unkeovh. Nkdg neulk kz `hakno phzmgtg su ak, gnk svg su eozkvh kzhbnkomg,

    pg sga tgch u mochnkch mgvrgtg vkleong Nkmlsgy s usmkdgag cheo ehe so thpo s nkdg. _sput, mktchao hl tkf phzmgtkf nkdg mo prophzmgeo.

    Ttgegmeo u `um`unk Comthvg tunuag mkeo bg ksth cgh k tg mhmg ahrg eor phzmgeoa svo chek aohcruueu hska mochnkch uomkcg troo` rgzrolg k lvkeo leovheco zg cheo aksnka lg su kz lru`h`,gnk dkeong ak eo sktugdkeg phagnh eozkvg.

    Cgl so vo kz hgeg sproaga prkstupktk Oaak Fhwsor, cheg eo phtpumg chch k kmgo mk artvgs meha mo bkf prhzbhrkng mk rkeok, motch ak s nog hbgvkeg ruco hch rgaomg k u mhsmkdo ak

    prhlkro akrks aotvkdo. Rhb.

    Zngmka ak usmkdgag lhtko ufh. Tocsk Tgaay. @leo sk so scrkvgng dkeonh`g aheo` kvhtg8

    Hcrooa so. Nkdo au eo grchdrvomh. Ykegm sk, cgoa k sfvgga lg sga th kz`hvhrkng

    htrkeo mo`h th sga fteong.

    Lhvhnemh sga trkeozgm, hlvrgg, phcugvgeuk, gnk mouspeomh, phlkk eolmu hbrvu. G tkcgsmk. Nkeomh so saeocg eolmka cutha usmkdo. Kzvoh sga sthe mg bgvk.

    \oc eo losot sgtk, `hvhrka au. Mo cgsmkah. G k zvgng sga to.

    Rucgag protrgueo jnks egcmu k trgporkdo5 Zgnelg sga mo`leo hstgvkh ahbkton.

    Yrohcrooa hkag5 \k sk mgehbkmkek lonkmcvomt.

    Tvkg ak so cgl so tgch uomh kzrggvg, cgo k phlko lru`k cut usmkdo. Tproag sophneubktk ao, gnk eg so hcrooa k ph nolha trgka prkegtonekdo cheo su mocgah mostgno.

    _ cutu prhsthrkeo zgpgga Comtg, chek mhsk crgvgtu k bgroa trk brheg provonkcu chuneu toc

    : Rkeok phzmgto peosao Gnk ADs meuehrco fkp-fhp `rupo Lueohus.

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    mgphng uvuomu u fngo bheo pkeoscg. Troha, mg `ngvk moag cu`ngcu cgpu. Rgz`hvgrg sYfhobo Rkjor k hbheo so mooau sakeu. Klo ak mg kvdo th ao eh mkeo prkakeotkh. Mglga so lgo phlk`mutk ph nol k lheurktk c aomk cgh th th hbkmh kmk, gnk sgah so mg kmeo bnko Yfhobo,cgh lg mgsthek bhneo utk hmh th au `hvhrk.

    Rhb ao prkvkeg c sobk. Hstgt oah sgah sgt vroaomg, aho8 pktg. Hmlg kloah. Neubk

    ao. Yhneubgd au kag hcus ph pkvu k dk`grotgag. Ugtvgrga hk k rgzaknega h thao cgch sga `gu ostha rgzrolu vkleong lhc eo neubkh @gbby Fgymos to bkng thnkch neubhahrmg lg mksga ah`ngeostk lvg lgmg. Yktga so kz`nolga nk cgh lg ukvga. @gbby eo ukvgng k th so vkleonh.

    Rgzaknegmeo h thao chnkch eo kvht mohbkgm uvkeoc ao hputg.

    Mksga eh mk sckmung egcmu, gnk Rhb eo rgscgpg k zgvngk ak ruco hch strucg k ksphl agekdo.Lngmhvk su au zmhemk k vonkck.

    Hlakoa so k `hvhrka5 Moahe tu, prol svkag.

    Mktch mo `nolg, hlvrgg k phmhvmh ao prkvkeg uzg so. Ngo, mgrgvmh. Umg lg mgs svk`nolgeu. Zklk th. Mkeo zgtvhrkh hk.

    Yrstkag ak prongzk proch trbufg, pg phvngk rub `rulmegcg. Mkeo bg sprotgm s `rulmegdkag, gzgprgvh mk s `rulkag. Mo zmga ustvgrk th bk trobgh kmktk, gnk uvkeoc ak kf sgah smgmh agskrg,vohag mgnkc mg pro`nol lheck chek hbgvnega chl `kmochnh`g. Eolgm hl mekf lvhekdo, lgcno, mothkmk ph`romh k, kscromh, aksnka lg th mkeo ahe `kmochnh`.

    Yrkzmgt u vga k svheu mgevou tgemu. Umga lg bkf trobgng ocgtk sg socsha lhc mo mgkomotch ch`g lhkstg vhnka. Zhnka Rhbg cgch k mo bkf8 Ugneubneomg sga u meo`g vo `hlkmgag.

    Mh, th mkeo rgznh` zbh` cheo`g sga hlnukng prkstgtk mg socs s mekao.

    Yrkstgng sga mg socs zgth th onka th mgphchm vo eolmha hbgvktk, g k zgth th so hluvkeocphagnh bheka socsg, g lhstg ak eo kvhtg u strgfu.

    Eolvg ocga lg so prhbulka uz tobo, `hvhrk ak u ufh.Nkeoph roomh, gnk mo ah`u so chmdomtrkrgtk mg rkeok lhc ao tgch pkpcg prol svkag. Kpgc,

    pglg ak mg pgaot lg mksga uhpo rgzaknegng h zgeolmkcha buomeu. Moaga pheag h oau bkneulk trobgnk rgz`hvgrgtk eutrh mgchm th su so phsocsgnk, pg zgaknega Rhbg k sobo cgch nokah

    eolmh phcrge lru`h`g u phtpumhe tkkmk, mo lhlkrueuk so k `nolgeuk cgch phngch kzngzk sumdo. _Rhbhvhe shbk moag zgveosg mk rhnotg, svo kf eo phlorgh eolmo voork cglg so cuk vrgtkh pkegm ksglg so hmleo tkeocha lgmg hseoga cgh phl sveotnha rojnocthrg.

    Hlkto u shbu!

    Hlakoa so hl Rhbg. Ubkneg sto porvorzmegdk, hvhrk Gnny s `rkagsha gomeg.

    Yg, k hvh eo shbg, hlvrgg Rhb k phlko hbeo ruco, phcgzueuk prhsthr hch mgs. Yrktha akprhnkeovg agnh pkvg ph bnuzk, pg prhsveolueoa tkfka uzvkcha.

    Hprhstk, lrg`g, snkeoo rgaomkag. _ gk au eo hstgh toc chek domtkaotgr pkvg, pg so artk k`hvhrk5 Kloa ph eh. Lg lhmosoa k vgag8

    Ak sah sk lhmkeono svheo pko, hlvrgg Gnny k tgpg thrbu.

    Ygaotmh, `hvhrk Rhb k cgkprstha lhtko sneophhmkdu, zbh` mosprotmh` sk `g phcrotgzgagnh zgbkegeuk u hch. Ykegmkek eo mo`h th ak so ksprvg kmknh. Gnny procrkvg ustg k sakeunek so.

    Ahe loch eo crotom, `hvhrka hmh`g tromutcg cglg hlngzk.

    Lg, gnk z`hlgm crotom, ksprgvneg ao Gnny.

    \h eo cgh lg sk rocng =z`hlgm autgmt>. \h mo phsthek.

    Mgrgvmh lg phsthek, ph shbk so h`nolgvg Gnny k puk usmkdo mo bk nk kz nolgng prkvngmkeo.

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    MGMG

    -2;-

    Cgah sto uhpo mostgno8 Kzmomgueo ao chnkch ak svo saotg5 th th su ak prkegtonekdomocgah mostgno trklosot socumlk mgchm lhngscg mg tunua, th th eo Rhb pkegm, pg gc k th th Comtk lgneo rgz`hvgrg s Yfhobo Rkjor, kgch bk trobgh bktk nulh zgneubneom u aomo. Mgrgvmh, mo onka lg

    bulo zgneubneom u aomo, gnk th eo vo chmstgmtg mg cheu sga so mg ulgm mgkm mgvkcmung.Htkaga zgth bhdu kz Gnnymkf rucu k htpkega phvok `utnege.

    Agnh sah hbkno cuu. Moo veorhvgtk, gnk mg cgtu eo bgroa solgamgost shbg. Ahrg thvkleotk! Lhbgdueo ak ph`nol, vklk `rkagsu mg aheoa nkdu, pg phlko hbeo ruco u hbrgmk5 theo8 Yg, mksah to mgpustkno usrol molhkeo!

    Kstkmg. Mo zmga zgth sga tgch mglrcgmg. @leo su Nkmlsgy k Onhly8 pktga.

    Onhly so zgnkeopkng zg Chngkg, g Nkmlsgy so svgg s Ygtrkdcha.

    Ugr vo8

    Feg, prvh su so trk akmuto neubknk, g u otvrthe su so phonk svggtk.

    \h ak eo sakeomh, pg so sakeoa s Gnny. Hseoga so moth bhneo, u`hlmkeo. Hl vhtco ak `ngvupropngvneueo thpnkmg, prhagtrga prklhnkdo k shbg so agnh hcroo. Tvkg ak so th, hseoga so cgh

    lg sga mg vrnh sphrhao vrtunecu. Gnny k eg hlnuueoah prhmgk Nkmlsgy k spgsktk eo prkeo mo`h thsvgg s Ygtrkdcha prorgsto u prolstgvu.

    Cug eo thnkch pumg lg so kmk cgh lg so dkeong chng phegvkng mg tunuau, gnk hch mgs sozgprgvh vrzag toc chekf solgalosotgc uomkcg. Mk mg eolmha kf so tunuau mkcglg mk mo

    phegvneueo vko. \u su mgephpungrmkek k srolmeo phpungrmk agturgmtk, tu eo Comt, chek so eolvg lrkprk lmu hvo srolmeo scupkmo, gnk eo lhagkm, pg au so th thnorkrg. Ugtka eo tu mochnkch dhhnuomkcg trokf rgzrolg k lvheo-trheo kzmkamh phpungrmkf uomkcg lru`kf. Umga lg bkf kf trobgng

    prozkrgtk, cgh th su k mgs prozkrgnk lhc sah kno u lru`k rgzrol k phegvnekvgno so mg agturgmtsckatunuakag, gnk eolmhstgvmh ao mkeo brk`g. Gnny ka, aoutka, u prhngzu lhbgdueo nolomk ph`nol k`ngsmh lhbgdueo5 Lrhneo! Eolmg so hl mekf, Rgdfon Chrmksf, mgvhlmh molgvmh spotnegng s

    Agttha Pknolha._omkdkag prvkf rgzrolg, mgrgvmh, ungz uhpo mkeo lhputom, g mksu so phegvknk mk bozvozmegdk

    s lmg lrutvomo neostvkdo. Mkeo thnkch stvgr u thao th bk ka so neulk ru`gnk, kgch bk so th vrnhveorhegtmh lh`hlknh, mo`h u thao th neulk kz to scupkmo mkcglg mk mo zmgeu zg tunuao, hskamgcmglmh, cglg mochnkch lgmg mgchm mekfhvg hlrgvgmeg svk prkgeu h mekag. Amh`h eo tgcvkfstvgrk zg cheo ak zmgah, g hmk mo zmgeu5 mo zmgeu zg tgemk ungz u `hstkmescu cuu GmlrowgRhbortsg, mo zmgeu lg eo Dgrny Egbnhmsck u `grgu lhvucng fnglmegc, pg so hmleo aho rgsfnglktk

    pkvh, mo zmgeu lg pkpmkgrk u bgru Rhdcys bg phamh mo prhveorgvgeu lgtua rhomeg mgkscgzmkdgag, g mo zmgeu mk lg zgnh`gemkdg Akds rglk dkeonk lgm k mh to lg so hmleo aho

    pheostk mgebhnek, suporagsmk hanot sg skrha k cogpha, sgvrom zg nkeoomeo pkegmstvg. _ srolmehechnk, kmk so, phstheo lvg hlvheomg svkeotg, svgck so vrtk hch svheo hsk k aoushbmh so mkcglg molhlkrueu. Mkeo th nho. Khmgch mga tvrlo lg bk mgs chnhvgmeo trobgnh prkproaktk zg kvht ustvgrmhao svkeotu.

    _ Comthvhe eo cuk thnkch agnkf fhlmkcg k shbg lg so lhkag phput ngbkrkmtg, g svo eo pumhneulk k lkag. Tgah su eolmg vrgtg zgtvhromg. Mg mekag eo vonkc zmgc5 mo ungzk k `hakng ulmkfmgneopmkdg mg chekag pku phruco phput5 Zkzugnkzkrge uschvktngmk `rggckYhneubk ao eor sga Krgd.

    Mocgch so uspkeovgah lhvuk lh Nkmlsgy k Ygtrkdcg, chek su so u aouvroaomu phakrknk.Mksga mk mgeagmeo kzmomgomg. Teolk au u crknu, g hm pukehkmt. _ cutu eo k Onhly sg TtovohaLhu`fha, chek so mgsngmeg mg zkl, g hmg pnoo, trnegeuk so h meo`g. Kz ustg ehe vksk mghpgchhcromutg, mozgpgneomg dk`grotg k phtpumh eo rgupgmg. Ttovo eo eolmha rucha prklrgvg lg mo

    pglmo hl pkegmstvg, gnk kmgo mo hbrgg phzhrmhst mg meu, mo`h rgz`hvgrg s Nkz Fuaaor (chehe eoth prgvh prozkao, gnk k vhzk ksthkaomu agrcu guthahbkng). Yhmgg so cgh lg Onhly uhpo mkeo u

    prhsthrkek, g mg meozkmh zgvhlmkch trnegmeo uhpo mo rog`krg.

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    MGMG

    -49-

    Eglmg Onhly, cgoa, mk sgag mo zmga zgth, gnk hleolmha propumg sggneomeg zgprkegtonekdu. Yrolhbrg eo zg meo`g.

    Ag, curvg, cgo Gnny, gnk boz znhbo.

    Aksnk nk lg oah so hvh`g seogtk8 pktga, kgch ak mkeo egsmh hlgcno kzvngka rkeok. Zrtk akso k hseoga so cgh lg o ak `ngvg hlnoteotk s rgaomg. Aksnk nk lg oah so hvh`g seogtk zg

    lvkeo `hlkmo8Eg so mk sutrg mou seogtk, sakeo so Gnny, cudcgeuk ph bhdk cheu lrka u rudk. _ mehe eo

    prohstgng toc otvrtkmg sglrgeg. _hpo mo zmga cglg sah th svo uspeono phpktk.

    Nkmlsgy rglhsmh scvkk cglg mgs u`nolg k uz bng`h toturgmeo ustgeo s Ygtrkdchvg crkng. @rnk mgscgh lg so mksah vkleono `hlkmgag k uzkag ak bhdu vhtco, htpkegeuk `utnege s eolmha rucha klgneo probgomha proch aheo`g rgaomg. Ngctha ak stoo vrgt.

    Cgah sto mostgno8 vko k thnkch eo `ngsmg lg eo svk ueu, usprchs `ngzbk k gahru lru`kfneulk. Yhsvulg sga vgs trgkng.

    Toro, ksthlhbmh hvhrkah Gnny k eg. \rgkng sk mgs u Ygtrkdchvka ustkag, eo nk8

    Takeoah so Nkmlsgymka ngkag, Onhlymu pkegmstvu, Gnnymhe hpsoskvmhe urolmhstk k ahehemolrutvomhstk. Motch htvgrg prhzhr lg bk kzveotrkh lka, pg rub prhsthrkeo zgpneuscueo bng`g ckmgkzag`nkdg cheg akrko ph trgvk k sveokmk, kgch eo zkag. Yhtgemh mgsngmega rucu mg prhzhrsculgscu k ukvga u nolomha zrgcu k bhdcgmeu sthtkmg ckmkf cgpnekdg. Ugtvgrga hk k hbogvga sklg mkcglg mou zgbhrgvktk tge tromutgc5 sakeof svhekf prkegtonekdg, thpnkmu `hakno tkeong k akrkscko.

    Htvgrga hk k ksth`g so tromutcg chka hl hcg. Mg vrgtkag shbo sthek Eunkot Tycos k zurk uaomo.

    _stvgrk, zurk u mgs5 u Nkmlsgy, Gnny, aomo k Onhly, cheg eo htkng hl Ttovog k prklrukng mga

    so. Eunkot eo phlk`ng chsu u chmesck rop k prvk ehe put u kvhtu vklka dkeonh nkdo.Moveorhegtmh eo lg so mgng mg tunuau, gnk eh eo moveorhegtmkeo chnkch eo nkeopg. Zonkco su ehe

    pngvo hk krhch rgzagcmuto, eg`hlkdo phvkomo, cgh u jhthahlong, g chg sgvromg, phrdungmsckbkeong. Mo ah`u eo prostgtk prhagtrgtk.

    Neulk eo ngctgro k `urgeu so uz meu eor sthek mg prhngzu, gnk hmg so mo phako. Tgah sthek k zurk umgs.

    Gnny so prvg tr`mo k rgzegpneomkf ustg uspkeovg prhdkeolktk5 Chek eo hvh...8

    Onhly k Nkmlsgy hcrou so mo bk nk prhveorkno u th tgch zurkah k Nkmlsgy u prvhao tromutcuhl hcg bnkeolk. Kz`nolg kstkmsck prostrgomh, th eo vko mo`h ulmh, gnk moaga vroaomg zg

    rgzaknegmeo h thao eor ehe so vo sneoloo` tromutcg nkdoa pronkeovg tgamg mkegmsg neubkgsto kkz`nolg cgh lg o mochao htckmutk `ngvu. \h eo vo meozkmh prkrhlmh stgmeo. Onhly so phkmeofkstorkmh sakegtk k provkeg so mgphng, procrkvgeuk ustg rucha.

    Mo veorueoa, `hvhrk. Eolmhstgvmh mo veorueoa. Yhcugvg peovgtk5 Ysydfh cknnor, quost-doquo dost, gnk provko sah zgpgmeomo lg bksah ehe so prklrukno.

    Tk`urmh zmgto hmo sdomo kz jknahvg u chekag motch moth cgo knk ukmk, pg so ueo zvuccrkpgmeg pnho k phtha zgvnglg sartmg tkkmg. _ thao so tromutcu mo lh`gg bg th, gnk hzrgeo

    eo prknkmh snkmh. @ngzbg mkeo utkfmung, gnk cgch su svk u shbk sfvgtknk lg mg vrgtkag sthek EunkotTycos durg cheg pkg u crovot, ulgckmeg k thtgnmk pskfhpgt to lg prkeochrmh prhagtrg otkrkmgephpungrmkeo leovheco kz `kamgzkeo \fhagsg Eojjorshmg, tgch su svk rgz`hvhrk phngch zgarnk k

    prohstgh eo sgah prk`uom gpgt. gpgt so, aoutka, krk prhsthrkeha k hleolmha so kmk cgh lgeu eo zgfvgtkh veotgr knk `hnoa vgn s hdogmg.

    Eunkot Tycos mgphchm hlstupg hl vrgtg k ungzk u prhsthrkeu. Yhngch so k sgahuveoromh upuueo

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    proag mgag. Mkcglg ak lhsgl mkeo kz`nolgng tgch akrmh k sgbrgmh. Ugustgvneg so toc chek aotgrhl Nkmlsgy.

    \k sk mgehbkmkeg cueg, `hvhrk akrmh, gnk vohag `ngsmh, cgh lg svheu tvrlmeu onk prkhpktksvkag u prhsthrkek. Hluvkeoc sga ehe `ngs zgaknegng vkshcka knk frgpgvka, gnk mkeo mk prkbnkmhtgcgv. Lubhc eo k smggm, `hthvh auck.

    Nkmlsgy ksprvg mo uspkeovg mktg ksdkeolktk kz `rng, gnk hmlg pudg. Ahnka8 pktg prkeotoka`ngsha. Eunkot eo hl poth` rgzrolg mkeo mk ph`nolgng u hk, g cgahnk ehe so hbrgtkng. H bknh cgcvkauvrolgag mkeo bknh mk `hvhrg.

    ung sk ao, hlvrgg Eunkot. Cueg. Ung sk. Yhcvgromg. Ugtka so hcroo c Gnny5 K tk skcueg. Yg c Onhly5 Cueg. Yg svrgg ph`nol mg aomo. Ugstgeo toc mg leonk socumlo, gnk u thaak so tromutcu kmk lg ehe u hkag prophzmgeoa phzmgt bneosgc. \ge bneosgc, aoutka, vo usneolooa tromutcu mostgeo.

    K tk sk cueg, `hvhrk ak.

    Tvo sah u tgcvha hcu lg mo zmgah th bksah ehe hl`hvhrkno. Onhly hpot morvhzmh fkfho,

    tudg, pg zgtka uaucmo. Nkmlsgy htvgrg k zgtvgrg ustg, gnk mo uspkeovg prhdkeolktk mk rkeok. Gnnystko gco cgh lg so sproag Eunkot hpgnktk ph mhsu.

    K eg sga bkeosmg, sknmh ak eo mou`hlmh, gnk `ngvha ak so moprocklmh vrzag phaksgh5 mksgazmgng lg sk tgch nkeopg.

    Nkmlsgy mgphchm lhngzk c sobk k umhsk so Eunkot u nkdo. Mkcglg eo mksga vkleong tgch bkeosmu.Hk ehe `hthvh kscgu kz lupnek, g ustg su ehe so kscrkvkng cgh lg o zgrogtk. _prgvh eomoveorhegtmh chnkch eo kzhbnkomg k rumg.

    Bhneo cueg mo`h nugckmeg, skco, `rgbok Eunkotkmu agekdu. \hnkch eo neutg lg ehe kz cuthvgusmkdg prscg snkmg. @rubh eo `urg hl sobo, pg Eunkot toturg, zgbkegeuk so u Agttg Lhrjagmg. Hm eohl`urueo, pg sglg mgnkeoo mg Oaau AdOnrhy. Nkmlsgy vko5 Yskfh! Yskfh! k zgtka kaktkrg

    crkpgvu `ngzbu kz Fktdfdhdchvg jknag. Eolgm ph eolgm, prklruueu ehe so svk u prhsthrkek, pg vomgchm mochnkch tromutgcg svk vku5 Yskfh! k rucha hphmggeu phcrot mhoa u zrgcu. _sputhl`urueu Eunkot mgprkeol-mgtrg`. Gnny eo prvg cheg ehe kznkeovg gu pkvg mg `ngvu, gnk ubrzh so k thkrk mg svo u shbk. Nkmlsgy eo prscg hstgtcha vhtco u nkdo, g cglg so Eunkot sphtko k croo proagaomk, svg zgnkvomg k kspruomkf rucu, `rgbka gu s prhzhrsco lgsco k zgnkeovga eo pkvha. Mksga

    bkng mk sveosmg lg vrktka sg svkag hstgnkag, gnk u tha tromutcu sfvgga lg ao vo bhnk `rnh.

    Eunkot ak, mgchm th eo zgnkeovga pkvha, lhbgdueo vrnh ulgm ph`nol. Mo zmga cgch thhbegsmktk, gnk u meoau egsmh prophzmgeoa sggneomeo. Cgh lg eo mehe gh aomo.

    Yhmostgeo ak zrgcg, cgh lg ao motch ulgrkh gcha u trbuf, pg so boz rgzaknegmeg bgdgaproag Eunkot, svha eo smg`ha `urgeuk proag mgtrg`. Nokag so zgbkeg u phnkdu s cmek`gag cheg

    so zgagnh ruk mg meu. Mocgch phvrgg rgvmhtou, hcroo so proag vrgtkag k lhc svk k lgneourngeu5 Yskfh!, beok kz shbo. Mg lhvrgtcu so ahrg prh`urgtk phcrge Comtg, chek eo uprgvhstk`gh, veorhegtmh zgth lg bk vklkh zgth svk vrkto.

    Yh`nol ak so mg tromutgc sroo s meo`hvka k kgch mo ah`u thmh prhmkcmutk th aksnk, sk`urmgsga lg mkeo lhbrh. Tcrooa `ngvu. Mou`hlmh ak eo k vruo. Yrhsthrkeha so prhngag vgn omor`keo

    svk so sakeu k h`hvgrgeu Eunkot, gnk eg mkcgch mo ah`u lhk lh lgfg k hseoga cgch ak vhtcgpgnk onulgd k uzlko so proag rnu. Ug`unekvh eo, vrtk ak so vko mo`h prkeo k eolmhstgvmh ahrgakzkk mg zrgc.

    Yhcugvga so prh`urgtk crhz vrgtg, gnk Comt ak stgeo mg put.

    th so th, cvrg`u, lh`hlknh8 htrh ao pktg.Yustk ao lg prhoa, ahnka to. Mksga rgsphnhomg zg rgz`hvhro mk sg cka, phsobkdo mo s

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    Comtha k meo`hvha nupgvha chuneha.

    th tk eo tg durg kcglg scrkvkng8

    Crkga ruco mg prskag. Gfg. Egsmh ak eo, `hvhrka. Yskfh tk eo jromlkdg. Eo nk u thaoprhbnoa8

    Cgpdk mg hkag au so sugvgeu. H, pg, bg crgsgm mglkagc. Eosk nk `g saksnkng sgag knk su tkprkegtonekdo phah no8

    Akk ak so s putg, uspkeovga so prh`urgtk crhz vrgtg, gnk ao fvgtg zg rucu.

    Ugth8 pktg. Tthek ak thnkch bnkzu lg au u lgfu hseoga poporakmt k egsmh vklka aglo uhbnkcu srdg phl nkeovka hcha, kgch ak eo svo lru`h u kzag`nkdk. @nolg ao cgh lg svka skngag

    phcugvg moth sfvgtktk k th eo `hro hl svo`g hstgnh` th so lh`hlknh voorgs, ucneuueuk Eunkot,meo`hvu neutmeu, pg gc k hseoge lg u so svgco socumlo ksphvrggtk.

    Yhcugvga au htrostk rucu s mglngctkdo. Mo aho sgah tgch fvgtgtk neulo zg rucu,`hvhrka au. Mo aho aomo sgah tgch fvgtgtk. Kaga locg.

    Mo lork so, hlvrgg. Tgah phcugvga...

    Tnuge ao, Comto, `hvhrka, mgphchm so kzvngok kz meo`hvg stkscg. Tveosmg sga lg`hvhrka pro`ngsmh k probrzh, zmga lg zvuka fkstorkmh, gnk mo ah`u sk phahk. Mo zmga thto auk, gnk zmga lg mkcglg mou fhlgtk s thbha, hcoe8 Mkcglg, mk zg aknkeum `hlkmg mo bkf kzkngs thbha, pg ao prostgmk hbnkeotgtk. Aksnka, eg tk gc k mo bkf trobgng zmgtk kao. Rkeok akmochmtrhnkrgmh kzngzo kz `rng, gnk ak so prktha kmk cgh lg ao `uo. Hleolmha hstgeoa boz zrgcg.

    Motroakdo ao prhagtrg, g zgtka ak so eh bnko umhsk u nkdo. Yhaknega lg ao ahlg onkphneubktk k srdo ak mg tromutgc stgeo. Mh, sgah so mg`kmeo lh aheo`g ufg k `hvhrk5 Aomo moaho zgvgrgtk.

    Moag tk pheag h aomk, mg`nh k lrftgvh uzakoa. Mo zmg tk mktg!

    Yhlko ruco u zrgc cgh lg so prolgeo k hlako umgtrg`. Kag prgvh. Moaga pheag h tobk.Hcroo so k prk hlngscu araneg eh moth.

    Ahnka8 th sk rocgh8 Trdo ak tgch bubmeg u prskag lg ak so kmk cgh lg o ocspnhlkrgtk.

    Hcroo so k lhbgdueo ak eh eolgm ph`nol. Rocgh sga fvgng Bh`u!

    K eg so hcrooa, gnk u lru`hao saeoru, prkonecueuk lg mksga phsulkng Gnnymo dkpono svkshcka phtpotkdgag. Fhlmkc so hcroo zgeolmh sg amha k ahrga so ufvgtktk zg ruchfvgt lg mo

    bkf pgng.

    Lrg`k tk eo u cufkmek, s nog ak lhbgdueo Comt. Yhvrgg u sulhpor.

    Yroch rgaomg au phcgzueoa srolmegc. Mo hcrooa so lg bkf prhveorkng `nolg nk zg amha, gnkkaga vrnh smggm hseoge lg mo `nolg.

    gc k prkeo mo`h th skngzka mkzg stubo k hlngzka u cufkmeu lg bkf prhveorkng eo nk hmh th eoComt rocgh zg Rhbg kstkmg zmga lg so voorgs kpgc moo lh`hlktk hmh th sah pngmkrgnk.Rgzhgrgmeo k hngcgmeo ulgrgeu ao tgcvha sknkmha lg so ahrga hsngmegtk mg zkl lhc skngzkamkzg stubo, cheo ak phl mh`gag kzaku, cgh lg o prhpgstk. Zoorgs so moo lh`hlktk hmh oausga so mglgng. Tutrg u so prhbulktk kstg cgh k lgmgs, svkeot o ak kz`nolgtk ksth cgh k lgmgs, mktgso moo prhakeomktk u aheka lhkvnegekag, svk o akrksk, hcusk k bheo hstgtk eolmgck. @rnh ak sostoo k hk pocu k u tha ak so tromutcu kmk lg su zg svo th crkvk Comt k Eunkot.

    Mgchm chekf phng sgtg zgbgvg phagnh eomegvg. Motch eo str`muh bhkmo ngapkdo sg zklg u

    fhlmkcu, pg sglg vkeu`geu phlha phput zakeo k hsveotnegvgeu mgcupkmo prgkmo u cuthvkag.Hseoga so moth bhneo, lhng sga c sobk. _vkeoc phsthek sutrg, rocng ak eo Nkmlsgy cglg

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    sga ehe cgzgng zg Rhbg, pg th stgnmh phmgvnega u sobk, cgh lg eo rkeo h agmtrk. _vkeoc phstheksutrg. _vkeoc phsthek sutrg.

    Yrhvong sga lvglosot akmutg u cupghmkdk, prvh poruk nkdo, g zgtka so phmhvmh akmcgeuk,umgth thau th su ak ruco moakrmo, g nkdo ak so u zrdgnu stgnmh autk. Tvgck put cgl soakmcga, seotka so svheo ageco eor sga eo cgh lkeoto zmgng `nolgtk cgch so mg`kmeo mgl zrdgnha k

    akmcg prkeo kzngscg s hdoa. \h ao uakrueo. _vkeoc phsthek sutrg.Hvh eo lhbg mhk cheo mgevko vhnka. Zokmg neulk spgvg, pg so kmk cgh lg svkeot prkpglg aomk

    k aheka prkegtonekag, cgh lg hska mgs mktch k mktg lru`h mo phsthek. Tvo eo lru`h u tgak k tkkmk.

    Hlngzka s Onhly, Gnny k Nkmlsgy. Mg tunuau eo svo agmeo neulk, gnk eh so uvkeoc toch prhbktklh kzngzg. Nkmlsgy th, aoutka, kpgc mocgch uspkeovg eor so `urg uz rkeok5 Ygrlhm, agcmkto so,kagah omsckf prhbnoag. Yrkeo mochnkch sah `hlkmg mg eolmhao chmdortu htcrkno lg so neulk mkzbh` o`g moo tgch brzh rgzagcmutk cgh cglg kzegvk lg ahrg prhk zbh`omsckf prhbnoag. Cghlg so bheo lg bk so ah`nk zgrgzktk.

    Mg putu lh kzngzg prhngzkah uz pgrhvo chek so neubo ph cuthvkag k uz ruchfvgt mg stubgag, gkzg eolmkf zgtvhromkf vrgtg lhpkro prk`uomh fkfhtgmeo. Onhly nupg gcha ph vrgtkag k vko5

    Boz rucgvkdo moag neubgvk! Nkmlsgy so hcroo k moth ehe gpo, pg hlagf prostgeo,lhbgdueuk ak ph`nol pum gneomeg. Mgerglkeo bkf ka svkag rocng lg lhkstg mo agrka zg th thsah Rhb k eg prhpustknk prknkcu, gnk prouahrmg sga lg bkf ktg hbegmegvgng.

    Crhz hlcrkmutg vrgtg cupghmkdo vklkah Brkl`ot Ad@ukro, cheg seolk mg rubu cglo k pngo s`ngvha zgbkeomha u lngmhvo.

    th ehe eo8 pktga, mgstheok so kzbhrktk s hseogeoa lg so `ubka u vngstkthe `ngvk, g rkeok cheokz`hvgrga hleocueu cgh kz lgnekmo.

    Yrockmung eo s Gnoxha, zg ngcgt ao prkag Nkmlsgy. Kz`nolg ak trkeozmh, gnk zeomkdo su ehe`hnoao, g hstgtgc hkeu crvgv. Moveorhegtmh! Tgzmgng eo lg eo Mkchtkmscg `ostgphvcg ufvgtkng

    Gnoxg k Gmmu zgeolmh u pukhmkdk, g Brkl`ot eo aksnkng lg eo htkgh nkeomkcu. Ubh` ngsmo`ngzbo mo ueoah Brkl`otkmo eodgeo, gnk rgaomg ehe so trosu k svg so `rk. K bhneo ehe eo boz meo`g.@gl.

    Tvk su hmk `glhvk, lhlgeo Onhly k phlko gu s pkvha, usput agnh prhnkeovgeuk. Aksnka lggc k mo zmg h oau Nkmlsgy k eg rgz`hvgrgah.

    Nkmlsgy ehe uzkag gu kz ruco k hlngo eo mg eolgm hl sthnkg u fhlmkcu, phvrf phfgbgmh`prkaeorcg Ahbyeg Lkdcg. _sput uzkag k u lop trpg corgakcu jk`urkdu pgstkrg chvrgvopngvo chso k ksdrtgmkf tropgvkdg. _vkeoc th kmk. _vkeoc moth crglo kz cug u chekag so hlrgvgeutunuak. _crglomo prolaoto mgzkvgsuvomkrkag.

    Zgnelg ak so moo ksphvrggtk ph tomcu, gpuo ak k `ngvha phcgzueo mg Onhly.

    Rhb so u prkzoaneu zgvgnkh mg cgu, gnk ao uspkeovg ufvgtktk zg rucu lhc prhngzka, pg aophcugvg phvuk mg sobo.

    Cgah o8 pktg ao prhaucnka `ngsha k zgauomg ph`nolg.

    Lge, pustk ao, hl`urueoa `g. K hm eo crkv zg nhu voor.

    Gnk trobgnk sah... `hvhrk k hlagfueo `ngvha, stkuk hk. Lg tk aomo ahlg mo vgrg8

    Mo prkge `nuphstk, hlvrgga. Mgerglkeo bkf dkeonu voor provrteong umgtrg`, zgprgvh,mgerglkeo bkf umgtrg` provrteong phsneolmekf mochnkch teolgmg, svo lh voork cglg eo Rhb mgsnhmkh

    brglu mg aheo rgao k rocgh ak lg bk ftkh spgvgtk sg amha. Mgerglkeo bkf so vrgtkng lh th`

    sphchemh` tromutcg lhc sah seolknk u shbk, sgah phl pngvkgstka sveotnha utkgmh` tonovkzhrg ksgah uz zvuchvo meo`hvg lksgmeg. Mgerglkeo bkf so vrgtkng u tu voor, lhc su ak rhlktonek spgvgnkmg cgtu k cglg sga `g ph nolgng k hl`hvhrkng au5 K eg s thbha.

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    \gch veorhegtmh k zgphkmeoah s rgz`hvhrha h uakrgmeu. kmk ak so lg eo Nkmlsgy lhvhnemhtrkeozmg k lg aho vhzktk, gnk kpgc prkaeoueoa lg mkz hmge `rhzgm putonegc lh dosto vhzk bromo`h th bk trobgng. Lrvoo uz put sgbngsmh so mglvkeg mgl guthahbkn, phput prkcgzg cheozgvkegeu s veotrha.

    Ovh th eg aksnka, `hvhrka lhc Nkmlsgy uz crkpu ahcrkf `uag scroo mg dostu brhe ;. Tgt

    uz vhngm phcgzueo 72546. Aksnka lg tromutgc prkeo sartk svgtch hl mgs eh eolgmput prhkvnegvgsvheo mgebhneo tromutco. Mgebhneo th tk so kcglg lh`hlknh k mgebhneo th sk kcglg ukmkh.

    Cgl su ao prkaknk mg Luco!